Leadership Files - Complaining, Random lameness LOL

Quote - 'When your ears hear your lips start to sing the song of the weasel, you must learn to immediately slap the weasel within.' - Roy H Williams, "The Wizard of Ads", Bard Press. 1998, pg 162

When a kettle boils, steam whistles through the spout.

When we reach the threshold of what we can cope with we complain.

This means we need to increase our capacity in that area.

Complaining is the language of victims.

We complain when we feel we have no control over negative circumstances.

Leaders cope with more than the people they lead.

They don't complain, they give thanks and see the upside.

To the positive mindset solutions appear.

The negative complaining mind fails to see any way through.

'In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.' 1 Thess 5:18-19


Today at work, Im fellowshipping with the photocopier haha. I dont know why..when a room is warm, I cant lower the temperature because some girl is feeling cold. What you want me to strip for you? LOL.

Which is more glam huh? You wearing a jacket? Or you seeing my insides.

"Oops sorry I didnt mean to. Its just so warm that my clothes expanded, thats why they came off..."

Or..

"Oh, Im a fan of Nelly so thats why when I listen to the song, 'its getting hot in here, so take off all your clothes', I actually do what the song says because Im just soooo in lurve with Nelly; Im a great fan."

Is saying "Im cold, but the room is warm", your way of expressing your hornyism? =O

Okay, Im totally crapping at random.

Please pardon my lameness and crappyness..the heat and stuffiness is getting to me haha. Nah, Im not so mean, I didnt actually said that haha. I just smiled and say, "Its okay :))".

Haha, I think I need to see a mental physician.

I Offer My Life - Hillsong

All that I am
All that I have
I lay them down before You, O Lord
All my regrets
All my acclaim
The joy and the pain
Im making them Yours

Things in the past
Things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my hopes
All of my plans
My heart and my hands
Are lifted to You

Lord I offer my life to You
Everything Ive been through
Use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life


Its always good to remember the days of my youth,
The day when I walked down the altar call,
The days I would spend time alone, under the blanket with a bible.
The days I would hug the bible until I fell asleep, thinking of hugging God.
The days I would whisper to Him, "I love You, how can I ever repay You for what You've done for me? Lord I offer You my life.."

Work, Guitar

Work is okay, finally my desk is clearing lol. Not too much stacks of paper compared to last week. I need to be more organised I feel. Clearing my desk, even though its not mine, cus I sit at someone else's desk, finishing my work, etc. Im someone who doesnt like incomplete work, lol..especially if Im almost done, I dont like to leave it halfway.

But if its food, I tend to do the opposite haha. Its because I can afford to eat less. In fact, I need to. =/ Today was my first time stepping into the HR department lol. Its hidden in another block. Even though the buildings are connected and both the HR office and mine are 2nd floor, yet you cant just walk across like that, you have to go downstairs, walk to the other end, then go up again. haha.

Officially had my first guitar lesson. Well, my first time teaching actually. My first student lol. And Im surprised it lasted 2 hours. Shi, you learn fast haha..maybe its because ure around there to begin with. =D

I have 3 other potential learners. But yea..Kar, join us next time k? :) Haha. One acoustic, one electric, one bass. Shiok haha. (And by electric I mean SeowShi play the electric haha.)

Its very hard to find girls who can play guitar. Its not easy, its not without pain or discomfort. And to find one really just show how talented but more importantly, how passionate a person is.

I myself started out, not knowing anything, never had the desire to become cgg, all I wanted was to worship Him, to love Him and to make Him happy everyday. But as I progressed on, He has brought me to places Ive never dreamed of.

I asked myself, of all things..why guitar? Piano is a painless musical instrument..other than finger cramps if ure not careful. I dont know, maybe I feel God's presence more with a guitar haha.

I wanna learn keyboard btw. Anyone care to teach? =P

Like they always say, when you teach, you yourself are enriched.
He who waters others, he himself will be watered.

Its the little things you do to bless someone.
Its the little things you do to help.

Same with God,

Its the little prayers you make,
Its the little whispers of "I love you",
Its the simplicity of worship that moves the heart and the hand of God.

I encountered God in my office toilet today.
Im tired, but happy.

How wonderful, how beautiful...

Stressed and depressed

I feel like giving up...

3-4 weeks is not enough...

Its impossible...

Video 32 - Random Pig (Friend Links Updated)

The most stupidest pictures. (Some old pics)

If there's one word I can use to describe this...ZOMFGWTF!?! LOL!!!

I dont know what I was doing butt..THIS IS DEFINITE WORSE!

Okay, this is dumb!

All hail the world's tallest fried rice!

Captivated, Guitar, Work

Hmm I shall start with work. Helped Ee Fen to finish up her checklist on friday. Ive never stayed in the office until so late before. I left around 730pm I think. Its kinda weird when the entire office area only have 1-2 people and Im there by myself.

Well, I guess its all about going the extra mile even when people dont see it, even when people dont expect it. A servant serves till the end.

Well, Karwen was telling me last night, or the night before actually, that Amber wanted me to teach her new guitarist. So, Seow Shi and I were supposed to meet up like around 730-745am for guitaring. I guess both of us just slept through lol. But we still managed to meet up la.

But her cg has to attend a wake so..yea..kinda rush.

Personally for me, I believe what a guitarist needs the most is not really the skills, but really confidence that they can do it. Thats why I SMS encouraging things. Because Ive been in the arena and I know how its like.

Once I have confidence, the anointing and the presence of God will just flow, in the atmosphere of faith and worship.

Especially when a person is just starting out, he or she has to make lots of adjustments, commitments, discipline, etc. The ride can be pretty bumpy. The devil will throw things at you etc. Like they always say, the first step is the hardest step.

Okay, so now Im at home and Im bored. Cus my guitar is with Seow Shi and my amp and cable is probably with one of her fellow cgm's house or something haha. But its okay.

At least Im glad to be able to help. Even though I played for Amber's cg only like for a month, last year, I really got to know many people. And Im really thankful to God cus not everyone can experience things Ive experienced.

All of us have different life experiences. Experiences are there so that we can help someone else who's going through the same thing. Especially tough moments, God remembers everyone of it and He will never waste anything. =)

Was late for PM today. Its a miracle. Well cause I didnt know there is PM. =/

That is why..try not to serve every week lol.

I really miss out alot. Never despise people doing announcements, it may be a small thing, but Ive really learnt to appreciate it. I mean, when you're serving, busy on comms, you tend to miss out here and there. And sometimes, Im not even in the hall, but back at the conference rooms.

Service was great today. Sermon was great. Fellowship and dinner was great. haha. Cus..we have khanh and Matt LOL. Khan is really funny..hahaha..I see his face I wanna laugh aldr.

Not bad, our cg received 2 plastic bags full of nasi lemak LOL. For free!!!! OWNED!

Must be because during service when ps asked us to pray and visualise, someone hungry must have prayed for food and started visualising LOL! Actually, those food were from the chinese church. And so the nasi lemak were like extras.

Anyway, I had 2 visions during that session. Not gonna type here :P Ask me and Ill share =DD

And so..we sat at foyer 3 and everyone had nasi lemak hahaha..fish or chicken. And God is really the God of abundance hahaha..not only free food 'dropped from heaven', there were like 8 boxes leftover! LOL! =))

God..you're so cute LOL. Free fooood..Lord, you surprised me LOL.

And mind you, the nasi lemak were still fresh and it tasted great haha. Drumstick, sausage, sunshine egg, ikan bilis, aromatic coconut rice and sweet and spicy chilli. yum!

Where else do you get miracles like that? Only in E420! LOL! We even had extras for rhonda's cg hahaha.

I dont know about you, but when I heard food was free, I went crazy lol. Not because Im a food fanatic, I dont really eat alot if you know me. I was excited because God is good. haha. I felt like a child, its the simple, childlike faith I guess. :D

Another incident where I got really excited was when back in poly days, I wanted to buy this drink from the vending machine. And all I had was 50 cents. I put in and 2 packets of chips dropped instead of one! haha.

And and and!!!

Got once I put in coins to buy drink. But it was sold out, and I was like, awww. I saw the other drinks but they were slightly more expensive and I was short of coins. So what do you do?

My coins were already in the machine, so I turned the eject knob. And to my surprise 1 extra dollar came out along with the coins I put in! hahaha.

I was so happy. I bought the drink as well as 2 snacks haha.

How many of you would actually be excited for a free one dollar? What are the things that excite you? In a relationship, I mean, who wouldnt want someone who enjoys your company?

Its the same with God. I smile easily, I laugh easily, almost over anything and everything, even people didnt find it funny, Im easily stirred up.

I mean, if you have a friend who laughs at everything you say, wouldnt you wanna hang out more with him or her? Same with God.

Be someone who God enjoys blessing to.
Be someone who God enjoys talking to.

Anyway, tmr is popiah party. Then after that meeting Seow Shi for guitaring think most prob after her service and fellowship.

God loves you. But he loves you too much to keep you at where you are.
The learner will one day become the teacher.

Which kinda reminds me of the verse that says, "Right now you ought to be teaching others and yet you still need to be taught."

I admit, Im not ready to be a teacher, I hardly even took lessons, mine's pretty much self learnt haha. But Baoie helped me brush up my skills.

Nevertheless, at Your word, I will go...Your word will accomplish that which it was sent. ;)

Now finally..some decent sleep haha! YAY.

Karwen!!!!

Running...

When!!??!!

Hahaha no, it should be...

Andrew!!!!

Free...

When!!??!!

Its almost may O_O.

Times and Seasons

"A wise person thinks much about death, while the fool thinks only about having a good time now." - Ecclesiastes 7:4 (NLT)

No one knows the times and seasons, except the Father.

Having 2-3 encounters where I felt really close to death. Really awakened me. All of us have our own things to do, work, school, hobbies, etc. You're always so busy with life and yet never busy with God.

Most people avoid the issue of death, but in this entry. Im gonna emphasise a lot on it, whether you like it or not.

Sometimes we can say, "Ohh, we're so stressed with work, school, friends, etc."

Well, think for a moment. What if God were to take you home the moment after you read finish this post. Would you be ready to face Him and to account to Him?

Will you be the servant with the 10 and 5 talents and say, "Lord, you have given me this much, see, I have multiplied them."

Or are you going to be the wicked and lazy servant, having something but failed to share it and fully utilise it. Your life, in itself, can be considered as your one talent.

Do you have anything to show to God?
The bible states clearly that when He will come again, or when we will end our race on the earth, no one knows except the Father. And...you WILL be caught unaware.

Time is short. Life is short. In fact, we are living on borrowed time.

Marco Polo and his missionaries, failed to rise up to the occasion, as a result, Asia and the entire mongolian empire was closed to the gospel. Because of a racist usher who turned away Ghandi when he wanted to step into a church, countless countries were turned to manmade idols and imaginative religion.

The end would have come. But because of the mistakes of the previous generation, the second coming had to be postponed because the end cannot come until all has heard. God had to raise up a whole new generation.

Now you are the new generation.

Are you going to sit around, wonder about the clothes you will wear, the cars and houses you will possess, the girlfriends and boyfriends you are going to have, or are you going to be like Paul and Peter?

People who fought the good fight and finished the race, even before their time is up.

I know we have our own lives, you might say, its impossible to think about God all the time, its impossible to think about the kingdom all the time. Well, then let me say this, if you really love Him, you would want to talk about Him all the time.

Okay, maybe love isnt strong enough, but PASSION.

If you love food, you'll talk about food all the time.
If you love fashion, you'll talk about fashion all the time.
If you love sports, you'll talk about it all the time, and even stay up late to watch your favourite matches!
If you love people, you'll talk about your best pals all the time.

But why not God? Why not His kingdom? Its easy to talk about the things we like. Now stop, and repeat that last sentence. Its easy to talk about the things we like. So..you conclude there.

What occupies your mind most of the time?

Its really not difficult. Its even far more from being impossible. You naturally talk about things you like, things you are focused on, even without knowing it! Its a natural thing.

Even in my previous entries, I focused too much on the pain of my afflictions, than on the Painkiller, because life got me distracted.

But praise God. My genital area is better and painless 95% of the time now. My muscle sprain has also been healed! =)

What about you?

Do you make room for God to move?

Or do you just chuck Him aside like some vending machine?

"I need healing." - Insert prayer coin.
"I need good grades." - Insert wisdom coin.
"I need anointing." - Insert impartation coin.
"I want this girl, I want that guy." - Insert relationship coin.

Which brings me back to the point,

How you treat God is how you treat people.
How you talk to God is how you talk to people.
How you think of God is how you think of people.

And vice versa.

God is not your vending machine. He's not someone you talk to WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE! So what? You're going through a tough time, and you leave Him out the most? You think He doesnt care? You think He doesnt understand?

God is doing His best..He's doing His best to make you smile.
He's doing His best to make you happy.
He's doing His best to help you relieve your stress.
It hurts Him to see you like that, and He really wants to help.

He wants to come and put His arms round your shoulder and give you a kiss. But you have a childish attitude of going, "No I dont want! Go away! Leave me alone!"

Or you just "Ah..let me solve my own problem..God I dont need you, I can do it on my own."

Do you have any idea how much that grieves Him?
If I were Him, Id feel rejected.
He has done so much for you, the least you could do is to trust Him right?

You dont wanna talk to Him, you dont wanna go to His house, you dont wanna spend time with His family. You just wanna mind your own business, do your own thing.

Since when is a marriage a solo thing huh?
People who are married work things out together!
They live together! Go through tough times together!

You're married to God. Its time to start living like a real couple in the body of Christ.

Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

I need my exercise, seriously.

A health extract from

http://www.sunstar.com.ph/static/ceb/2008/04/13/life/paquiao.that.crushing.feeling.html

A LOT of people just shrug off their shoulder and do not mind or take it seriously when sometimes they feel pain that is crushing, constricting, strangling sharp or burning.

How many times have I heard and witnessed people who just ignore these pains and say: “Oh, it’s just that I’m overworked on lack of rest.”

But don’t you know that these are symptoms indicating that something is wrong with your heart?

Heart doctors called these symptoms as angina. Angina is the heart’s way of saying that it is not getting enough blood in the arteries. Those veins that supply blood to the heart are overworked and therefore need more oxygen than usual.

The medical term “angina pectoris” as researched in the Internet means “a choking sensation of the chest.” Usually, angina is a crushing or constricting pain that starts in the center of the chest, deep behind the breastbone and may radiate to other parts of the body.

Sufferers have said it feels like an elephant is sitting on their chest or a vise gripping or squeezing their chest. Some people feel the pain of angina only in peripheral locations, such as the joint, abdomen, or arm.

The pain can also be confused with indigestion because the tight, burning sensations are similar. Angina can also be misinterpreted as a heart attack. The pain is similar, but does not last as long; usually no more than five minutes.

Angina affects millions of people around the world. It is more prevalent in people over 30 and tends to strike men more than women. Over age 65, however, more women are affected than men. Alone, angina causes no permanent damage because the heart is only temporarily deprived of oxygen.

But if your angina worsens, you should know that you are at a greater risk of heart attack. The main underlying cause of angina is coronary artery disease, which stems from atherosclerosis of the coronary arteries, when the vessels become clogged or narrowed by fatty calcified deposits called plaques.

Certain risk factors for heart disease and coronary artery disease make the development of angina more likely.

These include high blood pressure, stress, high cholesterol, smoking, obesity, diabetes, and family history of heart disease. All of these risk factors are also linked to atherosclerosis. If you experience pain that might be angina, your doctor will give a complete physical exam and various tests.

To those who have angina, it is worth mentioning the importance of an overall healthy lifestyle that includes proper diet, exercise, weight management and no smoking.

Crushing sensation in chest..again

This is the 4th time Ive felt it in my lifetime. I seems to occur like twice a year. I think I better not ignore it any longer. =/

It feels really painful and uncomfortable. The feeling is as if your insides are being crushed, and theres this stinging pain coming from the inside.

Its felt from my upper chest all the way to my upper stomach area. I feel momentarily weak and at some occasions, drowsy and faintish. It usually lasts around 5 minutes.

Gosh..what is happening to me?

First a genital infection, then a sprained muscle, now a recurring chest pain...

Muscle Cramp? Tear? Overstretch?

Why am I getting so many injuries lately?

Okay, this is not an injury, I was sleeping, I have no idea what I did. But I woke up halfway, bent my leg..and my calf muscle felt like it was ripping itself apart.

The pain was so unbearable I couldnt move my calf for awhile.

The devil doesnt like my 'pet' nor my legs huh?

Now only down there is painful, Im walking in a limp, WITH that pain. O_O Thank God the infection is healing up. Hopefully this week I dont have to go for service looking as if Ive been 'low-blowed'. O_O.

Leadership Files - Humility

Humility knows we need God. Say, 'I need You God. '

Humility knows we need others. Say, 'I need other people.'

Humility recognises now great we are not. Say, 'Lord, You've done it all. '

Humility admits our own shortcomings and congratulates others on their successes.

Humility serves others we consider our equal or less.

Humility waits patiently. Say, 'I am patient.'

Humility restrains anger. Say, 'I forgive everyone who has ever offended me. '

Humility is not announcing our own achievements.

Humility prefers others.

Humility is not something that is given to us.

Humility is something we do to ourselves.


Random:

Im supposed to be an admin guy, who ends up doing finance and accounting. And just a few days ago, I filled in the bankbook particulars form, on the "role" portion, I saw:

"Finance assistant".

Unauthorised promotion? lol. Basically my manager's assistant is on maternity leave and I so happened to be taking over for the time being without even knowing. :O errr..oookaay..lol.

Another piece of crap.

Hmm applying cream sucks when ure walking and then it comes off.

So what do you do?

Im gonna try doing the 'crab walk'. yeah, thatll help. If you have no idea whats a crab walk, I suggest you go to the singapore zoo and discover for yourself. Oh wait, there ARENT any crabs there! :O Hmm.

Okay, go wikipedia then. =S

Now then, people find my posts RECENTLY a little hilarious and overly dramatic. But hey, I AM a dramatic person, well..in the extremes that is. I can be either super quiet, or super noisy.

So if you were to hang out with me, you'd either wish I talked more, OR..you'd just simply wish I shut up lol.

In layman's terms, (Hmm I dont see any man lying around - layman).. you probably wouldnt get along with me! OH YEAH that felt good. O_O.

Since people are laughing all the time about my entries..Im gonna try something to STOP you people from laughing..lets see..

Here goes...

YOUR MOMMA'S SO FAT ITS EVENING TIME! -.-"

I hope no one catches that :o

Short update

Nothing much to update about. It still hurts, having your skin down there (which is the MOST sensitive in the whole body) 'eaten' up by some fungi infection, ouch. Either I sweat too much or its just a sensitive skin on my part. Well, I guess its the combination of both.

Next time I try lying down on the floor and playing my guitar. Maybe itll help. Maybe its my run, but cant be, I dont even have time to run, which Im a still a little pissed about it. Its almost May!

I need at least 2 months to train for my NAPFA, and the one extra month for preparation.

Which means, I shouldve started my routine in March 08. Which apparently, isnt gonna happen, cus Im stuck at work. And now with this stupid skin disease, I cant run at all! So irritating!

If you ask me how's work..I have nothing to say. Im not really concentrating. Whole day, Im just worrying from morning to night. Watching time fly, watching the sun rise and set and wondering when am I gonna start training?

When Im my mum's car or on the bus/train, Im thinking, "I should be running now."
When Im in front of my PC in the office, Im thinking, "I should be running now."
When Im having my lunch break, I cant really taste the food, "I should be dieting now."
When Im photocopying stuffs, I cant concentrate, "I should be running now."
Before I go to sleep at 11pm plus, I cant sleep, "I should be running now."

And I literally stone until like 12-1am plus, feeling all emo because I aint running. =/ Stupid bugger put me in BP, "Oh I put you in BP first because I see potential in you to grow bigger during the holidays..." O_O

I really wanted to smack that guy and stab a metal rod down his eye! Anyhow put me in BP, just 6 months ago, I was put into B! Then say dunno what my record is no longer valid. I think your stupid brain is no longer valid! Screw you! lol.

I wanted to prove that guy wrong! Im wanted to make him a laughing stock by being the only slim guy in the entire OBESE PLATOON! Now Im stuck and I cant do my runs. O_O.

Practically the whole day Im stoned. Getting more and more stressed, more and more nervous, more and more worried.

1 day w/o jogging = Stress + 200%

Its 2am now. I should be running :S *Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..:(

Weird Medicine

First of all..they gave me potassium permanganate solution, ask me go rinse. :O

The last time I touched PP was in the chem lab in sec4 lol. When it mixes with water and dries, it forms a brownish residue that sticks onto my skin. I think its manganese oxide or some other form of stuff. =/

Supposedly its used for curing ulcers and sores.

Then they gave me this cream. And on the casing it says "POISON". -.-

How edifying..Im gonna put some poison cream..on my 'little pet'. O_O. Ive never been so intimidated in my entire life before..=S

Jiuuuuuu miiiiiiing ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...owwwwwwwwww...

Its actually a sweat ulcer/rash/infection...of all places must be there.

The pretty doctor said its because of this and that, one of the reasons is I sat down too long during perspiration. Whether is it in the office or playing the guitar. :S

But hmm, cannot be office cus its aircon lol hmm. =/

She also asked me if I had sex etc. Hellllooooo? You ask me to "ahem" already I so paiseh..my face already so hot and red, I where got guts to do with another girl hello? :(( I see girl I wanna run away already. -.-

The word, "take off.." is already scary enough. Must you go on and say, "let me see your *****". Ohhhh thats really nice and comforting lol. =/ grrrrr...

Before I entered the clinic room I was like praying like mad, 'God, please dont let it be a female doctor.' And true enough, what I feared happened and there I was..stuck in a corner nowhere to run lol :(

Graaaah, God..you're sooooooo not funny can? lol :S

And oh, I actually got one comment for my previous post. Well done O_O.

WTH

Wa laooooo ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Its a girl la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Buaaaaaay tahaaannnnnnnn laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

I couldve sworn I almost ran out of the room laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Nowhere to run....

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Nothing big. Just some rash and infection.

But still....

Wa laoooooooooooooooo ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh very nice to poke poke rub rub isit?

omgawwwwwwd lol :((((

Worried

Didnt go to work today.

Woke up having this painful rash sensation on the skin on area of guy where you DONT wanna have problems with, almost pimple-like with a little pus.

I hope its nothing serious.

Random

Sometimes people will remind you how you were not there when this happened, when that happened, etc. Call me socially deprived or whatever.

Ive listened to many people sharing about exciting moments, whether is it in camps, or hardships that they go through together, how friendships were strengthened etc.

I mean, if Im not there, then dont talk to me about it. Its not going to go anywhere.

"You know..you know..you know.."

"No I dont know."

I dont need to know about camp activities at sentosa.
I dont need to know about personal letters or talks.

You will never know that God is all you need,
Until you realise that God is all you've got.

www.mypersonality.info (ORANGE links can be clicked)

Details

Preferences

Introverted
iNtuition
Feeling
Judging

Temperament
NF (Visionary)

INFJ

Population

Total: 1%
Male: 0.5%
Female: 1.5%

Primary Function
Introverted Intuition

Secondary Function
Extraverted Feeling

Tertiary Function
Introverted Thinking

Least Function
Extraverted Sensing

INFJ - The "Confidant" (Introverted, iNtuitive, Feeling, Judging)

About the INFJ

"INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types."

"INFJs enjoy a greater clarity of perception of inner, unconscious processes than all but their INTJ cousins. Just as SP types commune with the object and "live in the here and now" of the physical world, INFJs readily grasp the hidden psychological stimuli behind the more observable dynamics of behavior and affect."

"creative, smart, focus on fantasy more than reality, attracted to sad things, fears doing the wrong thing, observer, avoidant..."

"...desire to contribute to the welfare of others and genuinely enjoy helping their companions. Although Counsleors tend to be private, sensitive people, and are not generally visible leaders, they nevertheless work quite intensely with those close to them, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes..."

"INFJs tend to be devoted to what they believe in and seek work where their needs, values, and ideals can be deeply engaged. They move on the wave of their inspirations and are determined to see that their values are worked out in their lives. They will work toward their goals individually and, when needed, will put together a team of other highly dedicated people like themselves."

Famous INFJs

Real INFJ People

Adam Sandler - actor, comedian
Anthony Kiedis - singer (Red Hot Chili Peppers)
Aristophanes - Greek dramatist
Billy Crystal - actor, comedian
Carrie Fisher - actress, screenwriter, novelist
Chaucer - poet
Fanny Crosby - hymn writer
Fred McMurray - actor
Garry Trudeau - cartoonist (Doonesbury)
Gillian Anderson - actress (X-Files)
Goethe - poet
James Reston - journalist
Jamie Foxx - actor, musician, comedian
Martin Van Buren - American President
Mel Gibson - actor, filmmaker
Michael Landon - actor (Little House on the Prairie)
Mother Teresa of Calcutta - missionary
Nathan - Prophet of Israel
Nathaniel Hawthorne - novelist
Nelson Mandela - President of South Africa
Nicole Kidman - actress
Oprah Winfrey - TV show host
Paul Stookey - singer-songwriter
Piers Anthony - sci-fi/fantasy writer
Robert Burns - poet
Shirley Temple Black - actress
Sudi-Kate - American dramatist, evangelist
Tom Selleck - actor

Fictional INFJ People

Amelie Poulain - Amelie
Dr. Yuri Zhivago - Doctor Zhivago
Joe Hackett - Wings
Luke Skywalker - Star Wars
Tinman - The Wizard of Oz

INFJ Career Matches

INFJs are often happy with the following jobs which tend to match well with the Confidant/Visionary personality.

Actor
Alternative Medicine
Artist
Child Care Worker
Child Development
Chiropractor
Church Worker
Clergy
Computer Programmer
Computer Specialist
Consultant
Dentist
Designer
Doctor
Educational Consultant
Entrepreneur
Human Resources
Lawyer/Attorney
Librarian
Marketer
Missionary
Musician
Photographer
Psychiatrist
Psychologist/Counselor
Sales Representative
Scientist
Social Worker
Systems Analyst
Teacher/Professor
Trainer
Writer

NF Temperament - The "Visionaries"

Myers-Briggs Personality Types (Free Test)

NFs are introspective, intuitive and highly idealistic. They are subjective, compassionate "feeler" people that desire to contribute goodness and meaning to the lives of others. They are effective at doing this through their nurturing, insightful and encouraging nature. NFs despise conflict. They will do everything they can to make sure their loved ones get along with each other and are happy. NFs are imaginitive, creatively inclined and passionate about their choice causes.

Ministry, Kim Sunghae Cho, Celgrp

Ministry was fun. Its 'officially' my first time doing webcast. haha. The other time I was just there to watch. Well pretty cool, the video guy beside me was playing Conquerors on his laptop haha. Looks fun. :P

Karen was there to teach me too. Learnt lots of stuff about video, about the equipment, and about internet broadcast standards for video. Cus she runs the TV ministry, Chorus Board and lighting too if Im not wrong.

I really learnt alot and I had lots of exposure. Going beyond just sound to actually working with video. It was good. Karen was saying Im very nice to shout at..hahahaha! Well, it was really funny cus I would place my fingers on the board, getting ready to mix.

Then she will be like, "up up up!", "QUICK! down down down!", "Aiyooo you ah..*Whack", but surprisingly, I did OKAY LA..I guess lol.

Learned some stuffs I didnt know..like the sound Im mixing..it goes not just to the internet broadcast, but to the guest rooms, artiste rooms and nursery rooms as well, as well as a backup to house and to the video room.

So not just the millions of viewers online are getting my mix, but the pastors, guests, singers and musicians as well. Many times, Ive been placed in charge of the presence of God for some reason, celgrp guitarist is one of them, and yesterday, it was doing webcast.

Its a great responsibility, whether people leave church or stay, in a way, I have a responsibility. Whether people feel the presence of God or not, I have a responsibility, whether people get ministered online or not, I have a responsibility.

And many times, its hard. Its not just physically demanding in terms of time, sleep and travel, but it can be emotionally draining sometimes, but I know that when I serve, it should always be fun, it should always be happy. Its okay to make mistakes once in awhile, but no matter what happens, DONT compromise, get back up, and move on.

Because its not WHAT am I here for,
But WHO am I here for.

Dr Kim's message, even though it was simple, yet so powerful. And the songs, simple 1-2 word songs, carry so much presence and power.

And I remembered,

Its not about what you sing, or how you sing, its about WHO you sing to...
Its not about the melody or the lyrics, its about the heart and the attitude.

Dr Kim is very grandmotherly, my heart just melts when she spoke. She's in her golden years, yet she's still so passionate, not just about her marriage with Dr Cho, but also with God.

She just proves that a successful relationship is NOT just a two-way relationship.

But a TRIUNE, THREE-WAY relationship.

Some people find it so hard to love God after being attached, because they think, "Oh, I love my spouse now and no one else." Its just like saying, "Oh, I love KFC, so I cant eat McDonalds". If God was like you, you wouldnt be living today. Now that you two are one, ALL THE MORE both of you should be more loving, have a greater capacity to do greater things, because 2 are better than 1...

You should be serving more, you should be winning more souls, you should be more and more of a carrier of the presence of God! Dont mock God by saying, "Oh, when Im single, I can accomplish so much, now that Im attached, Im doing lesser and lesser," its like saying, 'God, you're wrong, 2 is less than 1, I think your creation project is bugged'.

Not only are you mocking God, you are mocking the law of mathematics and science lol. True? Haha. Come on, God says, "Give me your heart"...so keep your brain.

Unless of course, you obviously got the wrong person as your partner, someone who doesnt flow with your vision. Then..what are you doing about it?

Hearing the stories from Dr Kim really inspires me. Her fervency and passion at her age. From her testimony, I believe...

Your relationship with God is not strong because you have a good partner.
But your relationship with your partner is strong because you have a good God!

Wearing the armor of God, living a life of prayer, all these are the basics, but Dr Kim really put forth a strong message. Suraj was saying during sound debrief, even though we might not be able to catch every word from the message, but what's important is that we catch the SPIRIT behind the message.

He was sharing how when he was in Ps Ulf's church in Sweden, even though the sermon was in Swedish and he didnt understand a thing, yet he caught something because he was willing to sensitize his spirit to the things of God.

Celgrp today was great. It really broke through I believe. Its been awhile since we had such a good one. Every week Ive been praying, God..please break through this week, if You dont show up, Ill feel very stressed and discouraged.

Every week I would pray, God you are faithful, you have done it for us once, twice, thrice, you can do it again. Every week I would pray and confess, sometimes I may feel discouraged, not because I messed up or whatever, I feel discouraged when God doesnt show up so tangibly like He did the past few times.

It feels like, "God, Ive took time off, gave my energy, sacrificed my sleep, to serve you and your people, and I leave the place, not encountering You..". Its kinda sad.

But I believe God has His own timings and seasons. And today was the day of breakthrough. Its so amazing..haha..I was praying with Adam in thad's room, and I 'so happened' to pray, "God..today WILL be the day of breakthrough!" And..it happened. =))

I was like, man..every week Im gonna pray like that hahahaha. And God is just speaking so clearly to us 2 things..

1. The lost CAN be found! Just listen to all the recent testimonies. =) I believe its no coincidence.

2. Thad's illustration of the game we played today, showing that how in our lives, we can be scattered all over the place, it was a great illustration and I was so blessed haha, and I would like to add on..something I just thought of. :D

Just like in e game how we are scattered, we all have those slips of paper on our backs right? So all of us, have a calling from God. But we may not see it, yet God sends people into our lives to help us achieve our destiny. And its our responsibility to choose the right ones haha.

Even if we choose the wrong one..even if we kena 'saboed' hahahaha, all things will work out good! HAHAHA!!! AMEN? LOL.

And please..the dinosaur thing was so funny and lame...ROFL! From now on we use our 'E420 secret code' k? hahaha..jkjk.

Adam was talking to me in the room, about ministering, ushering the presence of God and I learnt many things. Even though my tears were rolling, even though my nose was on the verge of dripping, I couldnt stop, I had to keep on going.

Finger cramp, leg cramp, I couldnt stop, I had to keep on going. It might sound unreasonable and extremely demanding, but thats how it is. Its all about respect and reverence. Just like a foot drill, no matter how tired you may be, you stand still and you dont fidget.

Its a form of discipline if I can put it. lol. I really learnt alot from my 'talk session' with Adam. Hahaha. Every word he says is like treasure to me. =)

No one said it was a glam job. I looked pathetic and ugly with all the tears and a semi-dripping nose, it might sound disgusting but there was one moment, it actually dripped and I kinda 'sucked' it back hahaha, not being able to wipe them off, but I was happy, just to be an instrument for God to use.

Are you mary or martha?

Its all about having that childlike faith and simplicity of heart. Having a love so deep it makes you look foolish in front of the world, love that compels you to do the ridiculous, to experience the miraculous.

Pastor Kong was so funny today...

"People say, 'Show me God and I'll believe!' Yayaya, okay lor, 'Show me air and I'll breathe...'"

LOL! Hahaha!

Another thing that surprised me was, when I reached the main audi, I was shocked to see Ps Tan standing and guarding the door at lift 1-2-3. It was as if he was doing the work of an usher. Dont ask me why he was there, I was pretty shocked myself.

I was like, "Whoa..Hi pastor". The hall was surprisingly empty. So yea. It wasnt easy for the ushers to move me to my seat. But even though the sermon was like 30min plus, Im glad I caught something.

Everyday, Your presence is all I need.

Bored and random.

Saw this on timo's blog so I decided to do it as well. lol.

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Jesus reigns...

Blood is thicker than water.

My bro one shot removed all 4, Ive never seen anyone do that.

I saw the container with all the tooth in it. More than 4 pieces. Some were whole, some were sawed into pieces. Blood-stained pieces.

Seeing the blood of someone close to you, it hurts..a lot. Just by seeing it, it felt as if I was the one, it felt like I was there, yet not being able to be there.

As I ate my dinner, it hurts. The thought of being able to eat normal food when someone else close to me cant..just broke my heart. Ive decided to make a decision.

I have done nothing to deserve healthy teeth. I have done nothing to deserve such a good and easy life. I remembered the things I did in the past. It still hurts.

Maybe I have not been a good brother myself. Yet I have done nothing to deserve such a good one myself. God, everytime I pray, give him my blessings, give him my anointing. But somehow the Lord kept on blessing me more and more.

No matter how many times Ive asked God in tears, "please stop blessing me", He just wouldnt stop, He would bless all the more.

God is good. But sometimes I wish He could be better to someone else. And He did.

I started playing for celgrp at the age of 19.
He started playing for celgrp at the age of 17.
Financially-wise, he had more than me.
Friends-wise, he had more than me.

Relationships-wise, he'd probably had more experience than me.

Even though he's 3 years younger, yet I do my best to treat him as my elder. I want him to have my double portion.

Sometimes people read blogs and they think they know everything.
Sometimes people see your accomplishments and think they know everything.

But you will never truly know a person unless you spend time with him/her.

Evan once said,

"You will never know the depth of your character, until you see how you react under pressure."

If ure afraid of fire, any friendship, any relationship, is nothing more than just the surface and shallow. If you're so afraid of challenges, you will never move on. You will just exist through life not accomplishing anything great.

Some people say things to you, do things to you, without really knowing whats going on on the inside, without really knowing the person's character.

Ps Kong once shared in the churchwide conference on being the God-man; the new creation, he said that when you look at a person. What you see is just a shell. You dont see the spirit of the person.

Yet the real person is not the shell, but its really the spirit.

When I look at Adam, I dont see adam as the muscular cgl with spiky hair and a lame face, I see the spirit of Adam. A spirit of conviction, a spirit of revelation, a spirit of leadership and maturity. Someone with glory and splendour, as bright as snow like Jesus himself.

For everyone you know, put them under the 'mountain of transfiguration', and ask yourself, think for yourself, when the shell is gone, what will you see? A person with power, glory and splendour? Or a person who is dead like a zombie, ruthless like a bull, do you see an angel, or do you see a demon?

Its not about how you look, we all will look ugly one day. I mean, how long can you stay pretty or handsome? So what? The day wrinkles come on your face ure gonna commit suicide?

"Ohhhhh Ive come to the end of my life. HIEEE!!! ARIGATO-GOZAIMASU! *pheewwwwwwwwwww* PIAK!" *Dead.

6 pacs eh? You'll be having 6 PACKS before you know it!

How long can you stay talented? At age 90, you wanna try doing a break dance? Yeah, believe me, it will REALLY be a BREAK dance! You'll just end up break dancing your way to heaven or hell!

How long can you drive a car? You think when ure 90 plus you still can step on the brakes? Yea, INDEED, more like the 'breaks' step on you! You'll be struggling to step on the accelerator because you probably walk to the toilet at 0.5km/h!

On the mountain, Peter saw Jesus without the shell.

Start seeing with the eyes of God. Look around you, everyone is a soul. Start seeing them as one. Im not trying to spook you out by asking you to see ghosts. But seriously, use your spiritual eyes, IF YOU HAVE NOT USED IT BEFORE!

Like ps kong said in that conference on the end-times,

We are not human beings having a spiritual experience.
We are spiritual beings mastering the human experience.

Short short post

Bro just went into the operating theatre.

Compromise, People, Respect.

Recently, as I spent time alone, God began to speak to me about compromise.

Last week He spoke to me on procrastination.

When things are going well, they praise God.
When things are going wrong, they focus on themselves, "Oh how can I solve this problem?" Etc. What does compromise mean?

It simply means to lower your own standards and downgrade yourself for the sake of something or someone. Most of the time, just to save your own face, or..you just wanna stay in your comfort zone and not step out.

They're so obsessed with themselves, self-centered and never God-centered. The only thing that exist in their vocabulary is "Me", "I" and "Myself", the "unholy trinity".

Ive seen how people can be nice one moment and then cold the next, all because of something that happened in their life. They compromise. Once loving but now wasnt, once on fire for God but now no longer.

They tend to live a double life, double-minded, never making up their minds on what they wanna accomplish in their life.

Your word is your bond.

You know whats right but fail to do it.
I dont wanna go into the topic of the sin of omission.

Im sure everyone has gone through Getting Started AT LEAST, well maybe except for friends who dont attend church, then its a different story, we still love them least to say. =)

Can you be the same, in church and out of church?
Can you be the same, in good times in bad times?
Can you be the same, in sickness and in health?
Can you continue to live a life of truth?

There's a saying,

"What we cant control, we surrender to God.
But what we CAN control, God expects us to do our best."

God gave us a freedom of choice. To do something with our lives, not to waste it away. Its sad to see people coming and going. Like I said, its not because of circumstances, its not because family, family is just an excuse, school is just an excuse, work, sickness and stress is just an excuse.

Family, school, work, sickness and stress does NOT take away your freedom of choice!

As long as you are given a choice to make, God expects you to make the right decision.

God moves only when you move. God stops when you stop.

Friends who dont cherish each other, friends who talk behind each other's backs.

Just think about it. Jesus came all the way down to earth, went through the scourging and all the pain, for THEM and you treat them like dirt?

I dont care whether theyre nice to you or not, I dont care whether theyre saved or not, I dont care whether theyre gay or straight, as long as its a human being, you treat God's posession with RESPECT!

Dont cheapen the gospel!
Dont cheapen the cross!
Dont cheapen your Saviour, your healer, your helper, your Lord!

Some people just gotta take God seriously. He's not some "Blessing Vending Machine" for you to use when you have tokens! No wonder you end up using people!

Love what He loves,
IF you truly love Him.

People can say "I love God" all they want, and yet not love people. What an irony. You believe in the power of a cross or the power of a pole!?! A cross has 2 beams. Are you a christian or a 'stick-ian'?

Seriously, I dont believe in denominations. Ps kong once said,
"Theres no such thing as a denominational church, only a blibical church."

A double-minded person is unstable in all his/her ways.
2 vision is di-vision. People go with the flow, and then they end up falling apart, because they fail to take a stand.

People complain and grumble about how life bad life is for them. You can have 2 people, going through the same thing, yet both with different reactions.

How you treat people is how you treat God.
How you talk to people is how you talk to God.
How you think about people, is how you think about God.

Are you a person of convenience or are you a person of conviction?

More importantly, are you a consistent person? Or are you ambivalent? Are you a disciple or just a believer/follower?

Every human being is created in the likeness of God. And I believe that people who come into your life are sent for a reason, for a purpose, by God. So you better treat people with respect. Not for my sake, but do it for God, IF you love Him.

To gossip or to 'chuck' people aside is to say, "God, thank you for sending people into my life, but I know what to do, thanks".

Well..how rude can you get with God? Stewardship is not just about finances or material posessions, are you a good steward of people?

Well, Im not saying that I got chucked aside, Im not upset or offended or anything. Its just my observation of people around me lately. If there's one group of people that provokes me, its unteachable people. O_O

Id rather tell you what I saw, than to tell you what I believe or think.

People can disagree on your beliefs and ideas, but what you see with your own eyes, no one can deny it.

Successful people are not those who attempt great things,
But those who finish it.

Pictures (Credits to pam, pohchoo, b.ching)

Eric's birthday some time ago.

The giant

Xiuying's "farewell" lunch

What a normal expression.

Cg Colgate game

Pam's expression should be on my face instead, hahaha

We were given each a card. Every number represents a body part. We had to pass colgate by making point of contact with those parts. :O

After cg met up with service ppl opp JW church for makan, then toilet and attributes break after that haha.

Randomness =p

Elaine's birthday, long ago pic =x

Ehhhhhhh..???

Settlers' Madness LOL

Outram Station haha.

Okay, going jogging later. Might blog again.

Randoms @ Work

Yesterday been having problems logging into blogger.

Basically yesterday spent the day fellowshipping with the photocopier hahaha. As well as digging up some archives and old 'warehouses' for files. Talk about treasure hunt =x lol.

I was asked to help out in another department do sorting and some paperwork stuffs. Got to meet new people, new experience, new stuffs to do. All of which I had zero experience cus I dont do business or finance or accounting and all those terms and descriptions, its like nuts to me at first haha.

I was told..

"Eh why you so serious? Relax leh, dont work so hard, you need to find girlfriend also ma..haha"

Well, I am working like mad, okay, not mad..but hard and focused. lol.

I guess its a guy's thing, the moment he has a career, he goes all out, for some reason. I dont understand how people can stand, standing at the photocopier and there are staple bullets all over the floor. =/ Maybe its normal, but I dont like it. lol. So I spent some time picking up used bullets from the carpet :O

Anyway, today I found some chocolates left on my desk, from who, I dont know. Haha!

Midnight Jog, Prayer Walk

They say you lose a few hundred calories just by sleeping and doing nothing, as your body recharges and repairs itself during your sleep.

And so, by giving ur metabolism rate a boost before u sleep, itll help you to lose more calories at night while sleeping and at the same time, quicken your regeneration rate. ;) Cheatcode eh? HAHA! Bleah.

Its on the net, go search urself if you dont believe me, haha =D

Likewise, having dinner after exercise (not immediately of course), will increase the chances of your dinner NOT turning into fats and being stored in your body ;) Because ur meta rate is boosted after exercise.

But the danger is..never get hungry. They say fasting helps u lose weight. It doesnt. Well, not effectively that is. When you're hungry, your meta rate drops instead, to conserve energy and go into 'backup battery' mode. Thus, ur body doesnt burn fat as much, it hardly burns.

Thats why after fasting, sometimes we have no appetite, because our body has been in 'battery mode' instead of 'power adapter' mode.

So the best way would be to eat light stuffs throughout the day, to maintain ur meta rate as well as to lose weight "without doing anything" if you can put it that way, of course, eat healthy stuff haha.

After my cooldown after jogging, I decided not to procrastinate anymore, I started my "Pray for every celgrp member" walk. I walked round the deserted roadside and park, praying for every individual. Some of the time I would pray until there were tears, but its okay.

I tear when praying when the presence of God hits me.

Ps Kong, Adam, Timo, Thad, Wenrui, Ryman, Thomas, Sebas, Myself, Pohchoo, Vivian, Liz, Joyce, Jolene, Tricia, Elaine, Pauline and Pam. Then prayed for my parents and then for my future, for work, school, NS, etc.

I just walked and prayed. No one saw me, no one heard me, it was great. Even though its like 1.30am now, Id rather know that I slept late because I prayed for people I love, than to know that I slept late because I was gaming and stoning lol. =/

Not everyone reads or knows my blog but its ok, they dont have to know. I didnt do it because I was forced to..its a delight. :D

As I prayed, I thought of every single one of you. So never think you're alone, everyone of you, just wanna let you know that you are always on my mind. Even though I dont say it, or neither do I express it well, but all of you guys are, and always will be.

Thinking of you is what gives me strength to go on every single day, thinking of each one of you, is what keeps me going, its what enables and helps me to do the things I always do and never giving up.

I dont wanna be someone who just talk the talk, I told myself last month, that Im gonna start the "a simple prayer for everyone in the celgrp" thing, and I did it. I hope I can keep it going. =)

Even though its short, I try to be as specific as possible. All of us need anointing, all of us need the presence of God. Most importantly, all of us need to know that we mean something to someone.

Be faithful in the little things.

Work, Rants, Lame, Crappy, Nonsense LOL.

Ill start off by saying...

I love my new theme! Hahaha!

Okay, Ive been reaching work on the dot lately..and on one occasion 10 minutes late lol. Im really sleepy. Veeeeery. Last night, Stella come over to kope some songs, then taught her a bit of guitar.

MAN..havent even learn to play A and E chord wanna start playing over the neck already. O_O. Surprisingly, your over-the-neck playing is more better than your normal under-the-neck playing...for some reason O_O.

You stayed until 10.30pm!!! 10.30!!! YOU CRAZY MAN!

Anyway, I dont like the idea of coming home around 7 plus, 8pm every night. I wanna jog but everyday Im too tired to! I wanna exerciseeeeeee!

Going for jogs with my current state of 'strength' will only make me fall sick and injure myself. Im so tired and so lack of sleep. No time to do my quiet time! In order to have my QT I sleep at 1am plus everyday and then waking up at 6, or even 5am, hoping to do my morning QT.

God help me!!!

They say lack of sleep reduces your metabolism rate, because ur body is slowing down to conserve energy. And how can I lose weight if my metabolism is lowered? O_O.

I really dont know the difference between PART-time and FULL-time. They sound the same to me if you ask me! I have a feeling Ill be doing call-ups part TWO tomorrow! O_O

Sleeping 4-5hrs everyday, and later going jogging. I think Ill die before my time. O_O. What if one day Im so tired, one night, when Im sleeping, my whole body goes to sleep...and never wakes up because its been pandafied?

Every single day my body is working slower and slower, to cope with the lack of rest and the lack of energy. It wont be long before it slows down so much that it stops. =/

Yea yea yea..go on and complain about how I think Im the only one working and all that. You dont have to worry about NS so keep your mouth shut. Just remove the stress of workout and Ill be fine, seriously.

I intend to retake my NAPFA in May. But my entire weekdays is gone. How to train? How to prepare? Jogging in my sleep isnt gonna help. I can do so many pushups only to realise, "Eh? Im on my bed!" O_O

You put work and ministry, Im already stressed out. Somemore I got DOUBLE ministries! Sound and Guitar. Okay, dont get me wrong, Im not saying they're burdensome to me, Im just doing my best despite my weakness okay?

But to add NS, Work, Ministry. This is nuts! Even the cashewnuts have mutated into Wallnuts! Yea..not walnuts, WALLnuts, because thats just how big they are! Okay, this is crap.

Yea yea, people asking me to take it easy cus Im going police.

Well, if you know me, I dont take things easy. I push myself all the way. Speaking of pushing all the way, I just pushed all the way when I sprayed a friggin insecticide on some irritating pest.

No Im not talking about a person, haha.

As I was blogging, this disgusting beetle the size of an eraser..dropped in my hair! I could feel it crawling on my head man! Then it dropped on my hands crawled and dropped on my feet! COME ON! My hair not enough ah, must drop on my hands AND feet? O_O Gosh. lol.

I sprayed like theres no tomorrow man! HAHA! I couldve sworn I almost took TWO canisters! One on each hand! Damn..if I ever see it again, I swear Im gonna spray till it drops and then put it in the microwave and fry it till it explodes on the inside out like a piece of MEAT! MUAHAHA!

O_O. Thank God I wasnt doing a youtube video when that shit fell on me!!!! LOL. I knocked the chair over and siamed immediately when it touched my feet!

Okay, ignore this entire entry..its all crap haha..gonna prepare for jog. =x

Details Determine Destiny

Do you have unreplied SMSes?
Have you tidied your room and desk?
Do you have unanswered calls?
Do you have unread emails?
Do you have unreplied tags?

How detailed are you?
God knows the number of hairs on your head.
Time to buck up. Dont make yourself fall short.

Ive realised how important details are.
Especially when ure doing finance.
Even one cent matters.

What are your one cents?
Do you love others the way He loved you?
Are you detailed and sophisticated the way God is?

Are you more and more like Him?
Or are you just trying your best to be yourself?

Hows your service/celgrp attendance?
Hows your bible study progress?
Are there any blanks unfilled?

Have you paid your celgrp fund?
Have you submitted your prayer requests?
For outings, have you planned the location, the activity, and the duration?
For service, have you planned the seats? The location, the numbers and ETAs?

Once again I was reminded:

How you treat people is exactly how you treat God.
How you talk to people is exactly how you talk to God.

Nothing in the natural is born without the spiritual being born FIRST.

Its time for a wake up call.

Rhema, Prophecy

This ministered to me.

I dont know if it ministers to you.

God entered my room again. (Twice in a night)

Sorry if the autostart doesnt work, just manually click PLAY on the player. =)

Its late...VERY...late...lol.

I dont know, I just cant sleep tonight.

So I decided to blog one more time.

Well, starting tomorrow Im glad the phonecalls are over, so its back to my usual comp-stuffs. I know this might sound mushy and all that, but I miss my celgrp members already. LOL =x

I dont know..its like you only meet them like, once or twice a week, and when Im serving, the time spent is shorter, I dont get to spend time with them much. Itll be really good if I have all the time in the world to get to know them better one by one.

Have more one-to-one talks, meals, etc. I mean, the only people I have really spent quality time 1-on-1 are just Thad, Timo, Adam and maybe Elaine.

Well, on the bright side, thank God my ministry manpower is back to every fortnight, instead of the usual, every-week-except-one-break-per-month kind of thing.

Well, its not that I dont have fun colleagues at work, I do..I dont know, its just that it doesnt feel the same. Im still at a 'shy' stage if you can put it, I dont open myself easily, Adam kinda reminds me of myself. I mean, we have one-on-one 'special talks' often, last time that is haha, and he would share stuff to me that no one else in the celgrp knows..

I mean, both of us have gone through similar experiences, maybe thats why he could relate to me so easily and I dont know if thats related to how I can flow with him or not, but it would kinda make sense tho..haha.

Well, parents are away for 4 days, 3 nights. They went for holiday last sat and theyll be back on tues. So at the moment, Im home alone, with my bro, whom I only get to see at night. I go to work, he goes to school.

I do my own cooking, my own laundry, cleaning up, even GARDENING haha.

Sometimes I wonder, am I gonna be a husband or a wife in the future lol..or maybe even BOTH! Gosh, thats scary. But really, one of my new year resolutions is to learn cooking this year haha.

I think Im crazy or just plain random, Im like trying to be all-in-one lol, which come to think of it, might sound stupid or silly. I mean, which guy in the world would work and bring in cash, be a breadwinner, and at the same time do cooking and laundry and cleaning? I mean..I can be the pioneer! HAHAHA.

Okay, this entire post is duuuuumb.

Soooooo duuuumb, I feel like sleeeeeeping, but I cant sleeeeepppp. I wanna game on my laptop but I know I cant, if not Ill oversleep haha.

Monday to friday, MUNDANE...booooooring...

Someone date me out please. HAHAHA!

Wake up later. Praaaaaaay.
Go toilet at work. Praaaaaay.
Before sleep. Praaaaaaay.

*Does Jedi Mind trick* I must not procrastinate.

CG, Service, Secret Place

CG was good. I think today's game was one of the more creative ones, and I kinda liked it. First time for me haha. Good job.

I dont know if anyone sensed it, but I just felt that the entire meeting today, was for a special person. The things we shared, the words that adam spoke, was really for someone special. And even as I was sharing, God wanted me to speak on making a decision.

Its not just an inspiration, its really something genuine that came from my life itself. If you know what I mean, yea, I just felt the HS wanted to go in that direction to really..speak into a 'friend''s life. Im sure you know which friend Im talking about. =)

Really, the whole thing, was for him. And I really hope he had a good time today. =) We are indeed breaking through. Its only a matter of time. ;)

Went for service, was surprised to see Nikki Fletcher on stage today. =) Even more surprising, ps tan was giving the word haha. The message was the same, but the examples he quoted, always inspires me.

One thing he said that convicted me once again, was this:

You cant solve a problem at the level it was created.

If you're disappointed, then rise above your disappointments! Renew your mind.
If you're dry, then rise above your stagnation! Rekindle your prayer life.
Dont sit around the premises, waiting for the promises.

All of us go through tough times, seasons where we feel dry and tired, unplugged from the source..we should all reflect on our own lives, and quieten down. Sometimes we should listen more than we speak.

If theres something in your life that isnt changing, what is it?
You look around but nothing seems to be the cause..
But have you considered looking at yourself?

Self-reflection and self-evaluation has nothing to do with pride, on the contrary, looking at others without looking at self, that is pride. Sometimes we can pray, God enlarge our capacity. What capacity? The capacity of food your stomach can contain? The capacity of 'shit' your intestines can contain? What is the specific need you have?

Ps Meng once said,

We cant change what we're not willing to confess.

Running away isnt gonna solve anything, avoiding isnt gonna solve anything.

During service, once again, I was reminded, to stop looking at my circumstances or at the people around me, but look to Him, the author and finisher of our faith.

If I wanna reach out, then I gotta make a decision. Thats why I shared on making a decision. Most of us know what is right, what is wrong. We have no problem with basic discernment. Yet, procrastination is our greatest enemy.

The devil doesnt need to make you slide back. He just needs to keep you at where you are.
Backsliding is anything but moving forward.

The greatest decision I have made that changed my life, is the decision to make a decision.

Dont be ambivalent and sway to and fro. One moment we can be in one way, the next we become a totally different person. In church we are angels, outside we are devils.

Decide this day whom you will serve.

Met up with cg after service for lunch @ JP. I must say the chicken curry is not worth it. One chicken wing and a huge rib bone. lol =/ Anyway, I was hungry so..yea..haha.

As I reached home, I was really tired. Even as I was standing at the MRT station, waiting for pam and thad, I was already swaying like a tree and my eyes started closing lol. Sad..I couldnt taste adam's mum's muffins today haha..aww.

Anyway, yea..I reached home..tired..and many things were going through in my mind, and I decided to just take out a guitar and play. I was tired, I didnt feel like worshipping or praying, I just took out hesitantly, almost in a 'heck-care' mood..

But the amazing thing was, in less than 5 minutes..the presence of God filled my room and I found myself in the secret place once again, in tears and feeling to touched and loved.

I mean, during celgrp last time, how long did it take? 15-30 minutes? haha. At home, its not even 5 minutes and my room was filled.

It shows one thing, God treasures every private moment you spend with Him.

You think He doesnt know ure busy?
You think He doesnt know you dont have time?
He does man!

And its really amazing how GOD can make room for you instead of you making room for Him!

I didnt know what to say, God made room to fit in my 5 minutes! :( Just see how faithful and committed He is in this relationship! We have to do our part. It cant always be Him waiting for us. You can have the guts, to make the king of kings and lord of lords, the creator of the whole universe, to wait for you? Its time for a change.

Adam once said, "Respect God's time."

There are so many things in my life that I didnt deserve, so many, but what can I say? I cant think of anything to say.

I just surrender my life to Him...

Service, Encounter

Recording was okay today, just had problems with some buzzing from the chinese interpreter. Service was awesome I must say. Despite me serving, I managed to catch something.

Tmr after cg, Ill be attending Jurong SVC. I heard Ps Kong played the guitar in Service1. So awesome, too bad I missed it. I hope he would do it tomorrow haha. Maybe he didnt do it today in Svc2 because Bel was not there? Hmm.

Fellowship was great. Really happy than Khank could make it for dinner.

Something happened to me while I was walking out, an encounter that Ill remember for as long as I live. =)

This particular usher has been on my mind for a long time. Since I attended AFV BS classes onwards because he was in the same class as me at YMCA back then. We never knew each other, there was really something in him that drew me and caught my attention.

He's prob in his 50s or 60s, about 172-174cm tall..he has a really fatherly uncle kinda look. I see him serving as an usher quite often. He's always smiling, walks with a slight limp. Most of the time, I would see him walking alone after fellowship, ushering or BS, alone.

I get touched everytime I see his smile, everytime I see the passion he has despite his age. I dont know if he's married and has a family or not, but everytime I meet him, there's always something about him that draws me.

He really carries a kabod everywhere he goes, just now even as I was walking behind him, the anointing of God was so strong I almost teared, just by walking behind him. I was in awe, so amazed.

How can someone like him, carry so much anointing?
He's alone most of the time, how can he carry a presence so strong?
His old in age, how can he stay so fervent and passionate?

Deep down, I really wanna know him more.
Everytime I see him, he reminds me of Jesus, and my eyes would start to wet.

Those in usher might know who Im talking about. Some might not. I dont know if anyone else feels the same being around him, but he has certainly left something in me. We dont know each other, its just something I caught from him.

Im so moved today.

Dinner with CG, Thoughts

Met thad, timo, pam, jo, PC and vivian for dinner @ hongkong cafe @ bugis junction just now. The food was really nice and expensive haha..but still, it was worth it. :D

After that sat down at mac for awhile and chatted about friends, God, etc.

On e train station, for some reason, timo had to call a friend and we had to miss a train. But also for some reason, we saw Sebas after that! :O

Coincidence? I dont think so. We were there at the right place, at the right time. It could be because someone needed us, or it could be because we need to be there for someone. Either way, everything just fell into place. =)

Just now when me and thad reached boon lay, we started having a discussion about whos gonna be our next cgl. I just love talking about the things of God..there's always something uncertain and unknown, yet at the same time, the excitement just stirs me up.

I really wish we could go on all night. Maybe later when Im jogging, Ill prob have a chat with God. That conversation really stirred something in me.

Its not easy to be in his place, not knowing where he would go. Its as if uncertainty revolves around him. All this while, Ive alwats been having a sense of knowing where I would go, who I would end up with.

I mean, timo and pam, its really very hard. And we just talked and talked..anointing vs leadership skills and experience, who would triumph?

And being in E420 long enough, we know the unexpected always happens.

And I began to remember one phrase that caught my spirit last night when I was watching the show The Core on Ch5. One of the characters said,

"Leadership is not about ability, its about responsibility."

And that, to me, was common grace.

You did not choose him but He chose you.

God doesnt call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

Seizing the kairos moment, let it slip by and you'll miss destiny altogether. The moment can come anytime, all of a sudden. As we continued talking, I began to remember a particular sermon by Ps Kong.

He mentioned that sometimes we can have all the faith to believe for things to happen, and when they do, we arent ready for it. We had the faith to believe, but we didnt have the faith to receive. I know my turn will come.

Then again, who knows, I might be one of the few who serve my NS and lead cg at the same time? You'll never know. Timo could be leading both cg and PnW at the same time? You just cant put God in a box and expect the HS to be predictable.

No one knows the times and the seasons, not even the Son, but only the Father. Even Jesus Himself, even though He is constantly praying and interceding for us, He himself does not know the times and the seasons.

My life is really an example of how amazing God can move in a person's life.

I never learnt guitar hoping to play for crowds, I started off just wanting to be a worshipper. I learnt guitar for the sake of my quiet time. But look at where God has taken me to, Ive played for up to 5 or more celgrps in just 2 years.

My enlistment, thad was sharing with me. His colleague's son just enrolled into Police Academy. She and her ENTIRE celgrp prayed for months for him to get into PA, and he finally got in. But look at me, I dont even know nuts about PA, no one prayed for me, and here I am, by God's grace in a place where everyone can hardly even dream of entering cus the intake is really really slim and unlikely.

God can use anyone. Sometimes we ask how is it possible, yet with Him all things are possible.

If He could create the entire universe out of nothing, imagine what He can do with somebody whose heart is totally yielded to Him. Little becomes much, when placed in the Master's hands.

No matter how little or small your life may seem, do you dare to rise up to the occasion?

Do you dare to place your life as an altar of living sacrifice on the Master's hands?

Do you dare to trust Him?

Do you dare to take Him by the hand and let Him bring you to places unknown?

MSN Convo with Thad and Adam. =)

Seize the moment.

Above the call of duty

What do you know..the admin guy is not only keying in data, he's calling up over 50 companies to settle statements and accounts. O_O.

Honestly, I had zero experience. And given my personality make up, Im not designed for telemarketing. Im not a phone person if you know me well enough.

But still, here I am. Going beyond the call of duty, doing something Im not tasked to do, doing something Ive never done before, doing something thats really going beyond myself. How did I manage to pull it off? I dont know, ask God.

Many people know the verse that says, "Pick up your cross daily and follow Me".

But few remember the words before that,

"Deny yourself".

What you want, shouldnt matter anymore.

As long as you have your wants that God have not met,
You'll never appreciate your needs that He has met.

All of us have desires, but how many actually surrender them to God?

What you hold on to, you will eventually lose.
What you give to Him, will last for eternity.

Think about it.

More Than Life

As I was jogging just now, I was having a quiet moment with God.

Jesus lived 33 years of his life, not having a break.
Jesus didnt have the time to even pursue a hobby.
He never got married, never had a moment for himself.
Even at his death on the cross, everyone left him, even the Father.

How can I look at myself and say, "How can anyone survive this?"
He did. In a greater measure. In a greater sacrifice.
He was burdened to the point his sweat became blood.
He's been there, done that. More than anyone who ever could.

He was 100% and 100% man.
He lived for the ones who betrayed him.
He died for the ones who didnt know him.

The cross is the place of exchange.

The place where the weak can say I am strong.
The place where the poor can say I am rich.
The place where the sick can say I am healed.
The place where the broken can say I am whole.
The place where the condemned can say I am forgiven.
The place where the disappointed can say I am encouraged.
The place where the hungry can say I am fed.
The place where the thirsty can say I am filled.
The place where the fearful can say I have faith.

Rivers of living water. Fall upon me.
God of the resurrection, let me be your dwelling place.
The presence of God is all I need.

I began to remember one of the sermon videos I watched at lakewood.cc
And I began to remember the sermon by Ps Joel Osteen on never losing your joy.

In everything that you do, smile.
In everything that you're going through, be happy.
Joy is strength. As long as you're still smiling, you have strength to carry on.

People who are strong, are not people who are successful,
But people who are happy despite their failures.

If there's a reason for you to be happy,
Then there's a reason for the devil to take it away.

What do you need to be happy today?
What if you never get it for the rest of your life?
Will you let the devil take that joy away?
Isnt your joy in the Lord?

You'll never know that Jesus is all you need, until Jesus is all you've got.

Be someone more than life, for HE is more than life.

Frustrated.

I just feel as if Ive lost my sense of freedom.

Reality sets in.

2 years straight of FYPing, I have no break.
And now I have to work 8.30am to 6pm everyday until June.
Then enlistment..another 2 years plus in the Academy.

No time to do my morning situps, afternoon runs and evening quiet time.
Im supposed to be a part-timer, yet am working as if Im full-time.
Everyday I come home, tired and all I can think of is to sleep by 11pm.

I have 3 hours everyday to do what I want.

Saturday ministry, and service, whole day gone. Sunday, celgrp and fellowship, another day gone. Then the next day its work again. Its already sad enough that final year students have no holidays, their FYP starts immediately after the first semester exam.

And me having done my final year TWICE, its as good as 600 days without break.
Plus these 2 months that I have left, supposedly to take a break.

660 days without break.

Then 2 years of Academy, thats 960 days without break.
Plus the fact that some faggot put me in Pes BP, you can say Ive lived 1000 days without a decent break or a holiday.

How can any human being survive something like that?

Im starting to think, living one day in hell is so much better than a 1000 days here on earth without a break O_O.

Assuming I sleep after 11 and do midnight jog, Ill probably sleep at around 3 plus, then wake up at 6 plus. Not bad eh, 3hr sleep everyday for 2 whole months.

How can any human being survive?

Then after I ORD, either Im stuck at uni or back to work. Ill be so busy, Ill be single all my life, living everyday of my life with a panda face. O_O. No time to think about my future, no time to spend with God, no time to even breathe.

I wanna lose weight..sitting in e office whole day isnt gonna make me LOSE a single calorie. And then theres night time, where all the trees along e road leech away ur oxygen, and u exercise, breathing in carbon dioxide, causing your blood stream to be clotted with more CO2 than oxygen. You end up getting headaches and stomach problems the next morning.

And you hardly even sweat a drop, you touch your tummy after the run, it feels like a block of ice. Makes you wonder if you even lose a SINGLE calorie.

"Two months preparation for NS"...what preparation?

I want the heat, I want the sun, I want the morning 5BX training, the afternoon runs and the night gyms. I want the sweat and the adrenaline.

Having 3 hours of nighttime everyday isnt gonna help.

Police Academy

June 10 is PA day.

Maybe its because of me playing hitman almost everyday.
Lke John said, daily visualisation lol.

Play cs and dota, you go to jungles and mountains.
Play hitman, and you have in camp training a neighbourhood training center for 10 days, then bookout on weekends.
Hahaha.

Not many people get in there.
Many prayed hard for it, but never got in.
I never even thought of it and Im in.

God is good.
Goodbye Tekong.

Very very very short post

Im at the office now, at my mum's desk,

Waiting for my manager and assistant manager to come.

The end. LOL.

Celgrp, Lunching

I think cg today was really good. I think the atmosphere broke through haha..maybe cus got more people. It was easy to flow. But its really thanks to yesterday's pre-service prayer meeting, praying with thad and ryman. Never despise the power of simple prayer.

Speaking of ryman, he really impressed me. Asked a lot of things yest during svc, like communion, tithing, bible study, and he's only been with us for less than a month..or one month now (my estimate lol).

If a sec1 boy, can show so much hunger and spiritual maturity at such a short time, the older people have to start rising up man! lol. Today he attended his first E420 cg meeting, I dunno if u read blogs but..I really hope you enjoyed yourself and learn a lot :)

Im really impressed by the new sec1s that joined our cg, it seems we have this 'thing' for sec1s hahaha. Even adam is thinking of having some sec1 party or something.

There will come a time where we will be the ones teaching and discipling, but in order to get there, you first have to at least be at a certain level in your spiritual walk. Like one of the verses said, "You ought to be teaching by now, yet you are the ones who need to be taught!"

It really says a lot about a person. His foundation, the reason why he's here, the reason why he does what he does. And just from that, you'll know whether the person is gonna stay or not, right from the start.

When the storms of life hits and Jesus is sleeping in the boat, what will you do?
When all you have is 5 loaves and 2 fish, what will you do?
When you have toiled all day and caught nothing, what will you do?

The christian life is not just about what you are doing for God,
Its also about what you are doing BECAUSE of God.

I slept at thad's house for awhile..I was really tired lol. You can see my eyes closing towards the end of the cgm..actually I was tired since I woke up haha..it took me one hour of non-stop alarm clocking to finally wake and and not go BACK to sleep lol..cus I woke up and stopped e alarm and went back to sleep. =/

Anyway, we had lunch opp JW church, meet up with Jo and Bao after their service. Not bad..everyone squeezed into one small table lol. And YES! I bought it!! HAHA!

Even though it cost me 24 bucks..this is the best album compilation ever. Its as good as all my previous hillsong CDs put into one! I will not give something that cost me nothing, to get such a great album! LOL. If theres 2 words I can describe it, its "BUY IT!" haha.

I was thinking which song to use for this entry..and I figured.."Man, ALL ARE GOOD!" LOL. So in the end I couldnt decide which to use hahaha. Just listen to the entire album and you can spend 1.5-2hours of quiet time, just like that..praying, reading the word, etc.


I liked what I learnt in cg today:


Only the committed who experience an encounter with God will stay and be planted.

Its all about the presence of God. You can pray and fast all you want, but without the presence of God, lives arent gonna be changed!

One of the notes is that "We ought to be the carrier of the presence of God", not just a SOAKER.

Church and celgrp is not your hongkong restaurant and it shouldnt be. If you wanna come here to leech, then go somewhere else.

Chc is a church of giving, commitment and sacrifice. You wanna take it easy, have your own convenience, come when you feel like, etc. then go somewhere else. No one forced you to stay. Ps once said, we may be a church for the strong, the weak, the young, the old, boy or girl, man or woman, but we are definitely a bunch of people committed to a vision.

2 visions is DIvision. Thats why people leave, because their vision doesnt coincide with that of the church. God didnt die for you because He felt like, like adam said, dont take e presence of God for granted. Receiving salvation may be free for you, but it cost God everything, and for someone to treat it like dirt, is just plain disrespect.

And Adam also mentioned about the story of the ark of the covenant being carried on a cartwheel. The presence of God shouldnt be carried upon the shoulders of methods or programmes, but on people, on living vessels like you and me.

When the people in the OT showed the presence of God disrespect, they all died on the spot. Now we are living in the new covenant, we have access to something so precious and sacred, its like imagining this scene:

Kids running around and playing on the stage, drawing grafitti on the pulpit, pulling the guitar strings, and drooling on the microphones..

It might seem a bit over-exxaggerated, but Ive been to churches in the past and I see kids running around on the stage, where the anointing of God is, playing with the equipment, and just making a monkey scene. No wonder the power of God doesnt flow in that service, you pray for the sick and people get worse.

God gave ALL HE HAD to let you have access to the presence of God. Dont treat it like some hotel lobby where you can lounge anywhere you like. The least we can do, as believers is to show some respect and really be sensitive to how God feels.

Look at Jesus on the cross. He went through that so that you can experience the presence of God. Those stripes on his back, those blood and loose flesh..the pain, the agony..all for what? For YOU.

And did He deserve it? NO. Could he have saved himself? YES. But he didnt. He did it for you and for me. You think He FELT like doing it? CERTAINLY NOT. Did he know that people will take it for granted, Im sure He knew, yet He chose to demonstrate His love by hanging on the cross.

You say the easter drama touched you. Whats the point of being touched if you dont receive a revelation of the cross? Its like visiting someone in the hospital and saying, "Aww you must be feeling weak and hungry. Come..let me pray for you.", When...you couldve just gone out and bought something for him to eat.

Its like having a friend share with you his struggles:

"You know..this week's been a rather tough week for me".
"Orh. Okay lor."

(LOL..Adam's lame reaction.."Orh..okay lor.")

I mean come on..you think this is mediacorp ah? Okay, I just learnt this statement:

Dont be a callefare christian!

Hahaha! Seriously..I mean, literally..lol. EEEEVEN if you wanna act, at least act properly ma. At least act like a leader, instead of just acting like a new friend all the time.

Ohhh..I must tithe ah? I forgot leh..What is tithe ah? "Tit-he?" Ohhhh I must remember to tit he! Got tit her anot ah? (Okay this sounds wrong! O_O)
Ohhh..this week for prayer meeting ah? I forgot leh..I thought he said "Payer meeting", a meeting for payers only.

What crap LOL! Sorry, Im getting the lame anointing from adam haha..I think all of us are. lol.

Its hard to get a relationship going if you dont even know how your partner is feeling or what he/she is thinking right? Same with God.

One of the quotes Adam said was, "Good intention is no excuse to be irrelevant."

It took me awhile to catch the meaning of that haha. I think it can really be linked to yesterday's sermon, dont say you love God until you first fulfill your duty, THEN you talk about love.

So yea..thats all my notes for now..lol..I wasnt expecting Adam to preach a diff msg from Huiru but he did lol. Not bad..double impartation hahaha..:PP