CNY eve, CNY day01

nth much happened on NY's eve...played a couple of rounds of dota in e afternoon before going to my grandma's hse for reunion dinner. glad to meet my relatives, some whom we see like only once a year, and that's CNY itself. hahahas.

man, my cousins are growing so fast, despite its only been a year. mebbe cus we seldom see each other. they're getting prettier too. x)

today morning, went to FFMC with my parents. reached late, not used to reaching on e dot/late. cus we're 'trained' to be at least an hour early. lol. by e time reach there, sang one worship hymn then announcement. lol. felt funny being there again, its like, i WAS there, but now im not, and im goin back there, feels totally different. hahas.

very little clapping, lifting up of hands, even singing. its like stone there dunno wad to do. lol. and the message was good at e beginning, and i was eager to hear the Word. and the sermon was like 20-30minutes, mebbe lesser. bsacially, u can sum up e sermon into one sentence, "Time to get back your prayer life". if i could take down notes, itll be 2-3 notes. compared to 1-2 A4 pages back in CHC. lol

but i told myself, no matter how different it may be, if God is blessing it, i wont lay a hand or word on it. i respect whatever God is doing. that's what the fear of God is all about. sad to say, there are some out there, who are full or religiousity, pride...though talented and smart they may be, yet theres no anointing, theres no fear of the Lord and no renewal and transformation.

met old frens, some couldnt recognise me, some tot i was e younger one, which is good in a way...hahaha ^_^ after church ended, went to my maternal grandma's hse. after dat went to my paternal grandma's house, followed by my granduncle's house. man, im so lagging, i didnt know he was no longer a minister but only an MP now. lag lag lag...lol

saw mathias playing with anything he could find, hahaha, hiding stuff and jus being curious about anything and everything, and trying his best to walk, hahas, so cute! =) its like he's e center of everyone's attention lol.

then i remembered one of ps kong's msges, on e CHC website, a child is in the center of his own universe. at tt time he was preaching on the 7 attributes of a child and how we should grow up and mature in God. its one thing to be childLIKE, its another to be childISH. when u whine when ure 4, ure cute...when u whine when ure 24, ure disgusting! lol!!!

after my granduncle's house we went to a close friend's grandma's house for dinner. they've been in e same church as us when i was still in FFMC. and theyve been there since childhood. very close people, just like family XD

very sleepy e whole day, cus wake up early today. been sleeping during rides to diff ppl's hse 100% of e time...lol...

well, day01 is we visiting people. tmr...today rather, ppl visit us. and we're expecting quite a lot of ppl later...yup. ahhhh, OOP assignment, and photography homework left to do! next wk mus resume my jogging...and start chionging my bible reading. discipline, discipline, discipline! lol...dota anyone? hahaha =p

(relag, i know my limits...lol)

Update, finally =)

its been awhile since i blogged, so yea...heres the update :)

this wk's been pretty busy as usual. sadly to say, i havent jogged for this wk...T_T

hopefully, after CNY i can get back on track.

no service this weekend, cus of CNY. it will feel kinda weird, not going to the house of God for one weekend. speaking of which, yea, i dun intend to miss a SINGLE service / celgrp. i dun live by preference, i live by conviction! =)

i dun intend to get a job that compromises my conviction nor go overseas and miss a SINGLE CG or svc. i mean, there are people out there who are just babes in christ, go to church whenever they feel like. to them, God is just another religion...

but im glad we are dun just believe in getting converts, but we want true disciples! tats y ps kong is not afraid to confront, to convict and to disciple. and i really thank God for such anointed covering over my life ^^

one thing i learnt in CG tt has been deeply rooted in my heart is that as long as u are the smartest in your company of friends, then its time to move on because excellence in one situation is mediocrity in another. we shld really find friends that make us grow, instead of living a wishy-washy-relationship oriented life. true friends are those that confront, that change/disciple u, that bring u to e next level!

one of those frens i have whom im glad for is evan and pow wee. heex :)) of course there are people i know who's so easily offended e moment a person convicts him/her of his/her failures/mistakes...well, i like seth's nick: "to leave your comfort zone is to go somewhere uncomfortable and grow!" =)

i wanna grow more this year! x)

CNY service at EXPO

sch ended at 6 plus today. took bus to clementi. man the bus jammed along e MRT line for 30 minutes! by e time i reached e station it was 7...LOL

reached expo jus nice...750pm. svc started at 8pm. e presence of God was great :) worship was even better. =) tears jus flowed like a river as i plugged into God's presence and loved him through my worship. it felt great ^^ and ive finally fulfilled my building fund! yeah! =)

then came e preaching of e word, i dun really like interpretation that goes along with e preaching, makes e sermon a bit patchy...lol a bit here and there..then like got lag in between. nevertheless it was good. after svc, andy drove sylvia, me and my bro home, as andy stayed jus opposite my block...hahaha across e road lols ^^ andy = chiongster haha...x)

during svc learnt that we shld be more accepting towards others, that acceptance is NOT approval. you can accept people without approving of their lifestyle. many ppl try to reach out to people using their own methods, door to door, etc.

but to be effective me must inculcate the Jesus Method:

1. Bless the lost
2. Fellowship with them
3. Pray for the them; Find a need and meet it; Find a hurt and heal it
4. Share the gospel

many like to start from the bottom up. to win souls is to develop relationships. its all about RELATIONSHIPS. soul-winning is NOT a method! pastor also talked about shallow, weak, religious and OVERLY righteous christians.

these weak christians live by culture and tradition, rather than by the Word and the Spirit. they come up with nonsense such as, TV is the devil's box, black is bad luck, money is evil, music is demonic, santa claus is demonic, rock music is demonic, poor equals holy (so we say gong xi fa cai, they say gong xi puo chan???), makeup is demonic, jade is demonic, demonic here and there, maybe u should stop focusing on demons and really start focussing on God!

and other nonsense such as...

church music cannot be loud
you cant wear this and that
you cannot eat this and that
hair color, style, fashion and other issues

these issues are not mentioned in e Word. there is a difference between MORAL, IMMORAL and AMORAL. moral and immoral are 2 obvious extremes that e Word mentions about. moral things include, mercy, grace, giving, forgiveness, love, etc.

immoral include, murder, theft, lying, adultery, etc. these are CLEAR LINES. however, in between the immoral and the moral u have the AMORAL. which is neutral. these issues like arts/media/culture/fashion/style/music/food/dressing/etc...are not mentioned in e Bible. because these are AMORAL (neutral)!

what does it mean for these things to be amoral? It jus means its up to you to decide. choose as you would, led by the Spirit. weak christians, need other people to be their 'Holy Spirit' for them. but for the mature, for the strong, they know how to be led by the spirit.

its not about whos right or whos wrong, its about whos living in faith and whos not, bcos anything that is not faith is sin. (rom 14:1-2, 5-6, 22-23) -> let everyone be convinced in his own mind.

the weak tend to have an easily-offended conscience. dont try to be more righteous than God, dont take anything away from the Word and dont add anything to the Word! it will only lead to destruction of lives.

fear blocks u from being open. God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of love, power and of a sound mind. weak christians are fearful all the time, they live insecure, fearful lives. if God accepts you for who u are and He sent His Son to die for u despite ur past, present and future mistakes, what gives you the right to condemn those that He died for???

God didnt give the Word to imprison our lives, but to give us liberty and freedom! we should be the most happy people in the world yet some christians live as if they had never knew Christ! saved, but not renewed...inspired but not transformed.

we can be contemporary, exciting, yet love God wholeheartedly and love people fervently and yet God is with us. dont live by tradition, dont live by customs, dont live by culture....what is culture?

ps kong mentioned before, culture is a man-made (not frm God, but from man's FALLEN nature), artificial, secondary environment superimposed on what God has originally intended. after e fall of man, man wanted to find back their 'eden' (paradise) so they tried to create a new Eden. (culture)

instead, we should live by the Word and the Spirit. the devil builds on e negative, but God builds on the positive. the more negative u are, the more e devil can use it to put u in bondage and paralyse u forever. whereas, when u are positive, when u have faith, God can move in ur life and bring u to e next level.

lets be conversionists, lets live a live that truly reflects the One who first loved us and whom we love...im so excited, ps said tt he received a Word that we are gonna grow like never before this year. and ps ulf is coming to give a prophetic message on growth. indeed, we will cross 30000 this year...cant wait ^^ hehes....

the size of your dream, reflects the size of your God. people who criticise and complain all the time will never be used by God. God is not looking for talents or abilities, but God simply wants your availability, someone who can say, 'here i am, send me"...

Ministry today...

MINISTRY AND CELGRP

guess what? i woke up at 4am! yeah!!!! then i couldnt keep my eyes open for 2 seconds and i fell back to sleep....yay!!!! then i woke up at 630am and supposed to meet elvin to share cab at 6am...yay!!!! T_T lol

so took a cab rushed down to expo. reached at 750am! yay! less than one hour late...yay!!! lol did conference area with benny, meimei and amelia. started off by setting up, then had some aircon-confusion lol...

service started. we did a check on every room to see if they're ok, cus most of them had their own soundcrews. then went to makan outside sound container. someone made butter-kaya toast, really nice ^^ then during worship went back to check overall volume and e status of every room. if too loud will disrupt main service..

also helped wei xiang do some admin/DFO stuff i tink...go round the hall and label every dustbin and fire extinguisher with its date of issue on a piece of paper which had a map of the entire hall...hahahas

after that sat at e side of e center terraces to listen to e sermon. although ive listened to it before, but i really enjoyed the Word. and today ps kong preached a bit more than yesterdae ^^ its really sad to see people goin to the House of God jus to enjoy the music and the people. but they never get to enjoy God. they never even met the Owner of that House...

for me, the preaching of the Word is the most exciting part. more than jus getting inspired, i wanna be transformed, i wanna be discipled ;) some people are inspired, but never transformed. some are saved, or CLAIM that they are saved, but their minds are not renewed. there is no life transformation, they are as dead as the world...they behave like e world, they talk like e world, they think like e world. they're always living defeated lives when they should be the head and not the tail...they are living in lack when they are supposed to have more than enough!

after svc, met up with evan, yongren and peng. and left for my house....yes...boonlay to expo and back to boonlay...yay! i conquered singapore 2 times in 3hours! hahaha lol. okay, mebbe thats not very great oso...hahas

cg started at 3 instead of 2. on our way back quincy joined us at JE stn. cg was great. how id wish ps would preach the preference vs conviction message again...esp to our newer members. sickness is preference, parental objection is preference, exams is preference, relationships is preference, everything else is preference.

you only live by conviction the moment God is in the center of your life. is Jesus is not your Lord of all, He is not your Lord at all. God doesnt want your talents, God doesnt want your money, God wants your availability, your time, your heart! God is looking for people who will say, "here i am, send me!" and not people who say, "here i am, but wait la..."

you wanna wait somemore? i tell u ull miss out on your destiny! you cant afford to wait because God may be the same yesterday, today and forever, but He is always on the move! its one thing to know God, its another to know the WAYS of God, its one thing to know the Word of God, its another to know the God of the Word. you cant live on yesterday's revelation, everyday you have to get fresh manna from God, a spoken word, a rhema.

JOKE OF THE WEEK!

so funny, today morning when i alighted from the cab on e road behind hall 7, 8, 9, 10. i ACCIDENTALLY walked into hall10!!! hahahahaha!!! LOOKED EXACTLY THE SAME AS HALL8! haha...went in by the back...conference room area also! the walls the same also! even the door! only the sticker different. then i thought...maybe childrens' church and nursery decided to improve on the design of the tags/labels

then i continued walking...haha. walked past the ushers and other ministry members. and entered the main hall. also look ALMOST the same. the stage also had lightings the same STRUCTURE but different design. i saw the 2 sound consoles and speakers also at the same place as hall8. they also doing sound check, so i had no doubt at tt time. UNTIL....

i saw the seating arrangement...gosh even the chairs are the same! LOL!!! i saw no side terraces, jus a vertical arragement all e way to e back frm e front of e stage all e way to e back terrace...LOL OOOOOPPPPSSSS!! *blushblush...hahas x) the usher even said hi to me....*faint, and no one stopped me...LOLS! tink i might have walked past some of their leaders and the 'favor' of God was upon me and they didnt recognise an outsider...hahahahahaha! =p

wake up andrew...wake up your idea! how come you become so blur...hahahahahaha!!! ^_^

The Power of Confession

Success is not achieved, success is DISCOVERED when you find the pre-determined path that God has ordained for you before time began.

mt 16:13-16, 17
'Jonah' = 'Dove' (Holy Spirit)
-Your name reveals your nature and character. -> Therefore when God changes your name, He changes you to a whole new person.
-Stop seeing yourself the way the world sees you, stop seeing yourself the way you saw yourself in the past -> But see yourself as how God would see you, as how He created you to be.

-Revelational knowledge is solid rock foundation -> It is undeniable truth revealed by the Holy Spirit.
-Know who you are and what you have!
James 1:23-24

3 BASIC keys to success:

1) Power of REVELATION
-what has the Holy Spirit revealed/spoken to you?
-dont just know the 'what's (all the ideas that God gave you), you've got to know the 'WHEN's!

2) Power of VISUALIZATION
-eph 3:20 -> if you can see it, you can have it.
-BUT a good idea may NOT be a GOD-idea. It has got to be a RHEMA from God.

3) Power of CONFESSION

-Life and death is in the power of the tongue.
-Gen 1:1-3, Psm 33:6
-'hovering' -> waiting
-The Holy Spirit could not get into action UNTIL God SPOKE the Word.

The BREATH follows the WORD when you SPEAK. -> Breath symbolises the Holy Spirit.
-Heb 1:1-3, 11:1
-Words are the launching pad of the creative power of the Holy Spirit.
-Dont just speak any word, you have the speak the RHEMA that God has given to you!

Faith is the substance of the things hoped for; The evidence of things not seen.
Faith is a substance. Faith is substantial. You'll know it's there when it's there.
'Evidence' speaks of FOUNDATION.

The more mature your faith is, the less evidence you'll need to support it.
There are 2 levels of faith:

1) The woman who touched Jesus' garments -> "Ill only get healed when people lay hands on me", "Pastor, please lay hands on me or Ill never be healed..."

Although the woman said, "IF ONLY I TOUCH HIS CLOTHES, I will be healed"...It is still a LOW/SIMPLE level of faith!!!

This kind of faith is referred to as the "Point of Contact''. -> There must be physical/sense/natural contact.

2) The roman centurion (a gentile; non-believer) who built God a house -> whom someone he knew was dying back at some place else. The centurion encountered Jesus. Jesus asked told him, "let me go to his house that I may lay hands and heal him..."

The centurion replied that he himself was a man of authority, that when he says go his soldiers will go. Therefore Jesus, since You are of a greater authority, just speak the Word (despite the sick person is in someplace else!) and he will be healed. "Never in all of Isreal, have I seen such GREAT FAITH"!

This kind of faith is referred to as the faith in the "SPOKEN WORD".

Jesus walked on water. Peter walked on water. HOW? Jesus SPOKE the Word. Why the rest in the boat didnt step out and walk on water? Because Jesus did not SPEAK the Word. -> It was a rhema for a particular person, for a particular situation, for a particular time.

-Heb 11:3 -> your words create the world you live in!
-This creates the atmosphere which will in turn create the 'fruits' of that particular atmosphere which will again in turn attract people of the same type/quality of your words.
God builds on the positive, the devil builds on the negative.

"By faith, we know that the worlds were FRAMED by His WORD..."
-What is a frame? A frame determines the boundaries/limits of the picture it carries.
-Therefore, our words determine the boundaries of our future, of our visions, of our dreams!
-If you cant express it, you can never achieve it.

-People who speak vulgarities, have limited vocabulary. Other than the vulgar words, they will have difficulty expressing themselves. These people will never succeed because they create SMALL FRAMES for their lives!

Small thinking (MIND) -> Small frame (WORDS) -> Small life (OUTCOME)

People know you not by what you wear, or by what you do. They know you inside out THE MOMENT YOU OPEN YOUR MOUTH!
-2 cor 4:13 -> What you believe, you SPEAK/CONFESS!

People who always, "sian ah", "die liao la", "fail already" -> WILL be sian, will die, and will fail!
Words are a creative force that will create the world you live in.
The world was formed the moment God SPOKE! And then the Holy Spirit moved.

Since we have the same spirit of Elohim in us, when we speak, we are able to prophesy and create our own lives!

But you must know the process:

REVELATION (God reveals to you through His RHEMA; Faith comes)
VISUALIZATION (You see it in your spirit-man; Faith is being developed )
CONFESSION (You speak it into existence; Faith is EXECUTED; Power is released)

God speaks -> Holy Spirit moves -> Holy Spirit reveals to you -> You see it -> You speak it

-And your life is changed!

From an 'F' to an 'A+'

Jus received my common test results for OOP. last sem i failed and i had to retake. this sem things changed. God was there for me all the while. And i have never had negative thoughts towards failure.

There is no resurrection power without total death. Jesus wouldnt be glorified and we wouldnt have received the Holy Spirit if He did not die in the first place. A dead dream, is meant to be resurrected...in glory, in power! im not saying that u shouldnt study hard, u shld. But what the devil meant for evil, God can turn it around for good! =)

From an 'F' to an 'A+'. I remembered how i used to hear testimonies on how F-students come back with an A, let alone an A+, when they put God first. didnt expect it to happen to me as well :)

no doubt it wasnt an easy journey for me, i have celgrp, church, ministry and my sch projects that occupied me. but i went deeper and searched for God...FIRST. Nothing can replace Him as my priority. ^^

Human strength is limited, but God's strength is limitless.
The quality of your results is dependent on the quality of the person you depend on / the quality of help you receive. well, God is perfect so everything frm Him is perfect! x)

I like eugene's nick, "Scientists can create wonders, BUT GOD can create MIRACLES!"

ive learnt the importance of the sacrifice of praise. dont just praise God when ure happy. but praise Him when u least feel like doing so. it means a lot to Him XD

hope to do well, for my assignment as well ^^

C programming....its time to buck up!

I'm not ashamed...I'm not ashamed...I'm not ashamed! =)

DotA madness! whahahaha lol

played DotA with T15 again. hahas. it was a great game...not until sookie e server dc...hahahas. its really rare we get to play haha. today special cus our 2hr lesson ended in 30min cus this wk is wk12 and they posted wk12 AND wk13's practicals and in wk13's pract the solution was there! hahahahs...okay la...still mus attempt to do. if not next tyme exam how? =D

basically my week is nothin but projects, assignments, projects, assignments...i need more life and passion especially for my C. tmr is practical test and i feel so far behind. pls pray for me, for e strength and e energy to cope with both java and C.

now im beginning to wonder why on earth did i take C in e first place when i knew tt my java was weak T_T i guess i chose it out of interest. but it seems everything i have interest for, is never easy.

every week im jus looking forward to saturday cus i can be in the House of God and meet God ;) although it may take some time to get used to being free on sunday...*sobs lol im soo busy everyday...with school and with my new jogging routine...time, time, time, is what i do not have...boohoohoo. i need time to spend time with God! arrrgh....and im only sleeping like 5-6hrs everyday...TIME TIME TIME!

no i dont want TIME magazine....i want TIME! arrgh lol...

i wonder when will these projects end. i dont mind tough projects, but i really cant stand it when things come in the way of me and God...urrgh. lol

Great weekend =)

this week's been great so far. saturday went for service, was totally blown away by the sermon on Deja Vu, Time and Eternity. but more than just being inspired, we wanna be TRANSFORMED by the Word of God.

so many ppl including christians, hear the Word yet they are merely hearers and not doers. you may be even doing the Word, but yet there is no genuine life transformation because you have the wrong attitude!

GOTP today was great. learnt a lot. wont be posting notes here...sign up, get the book and study the Word ;) i like wad pastor tan said, by now we should be teaching and YET we need people to teach us the BASICS! anything other than moving forward is moving backward/backsliding.

and THAT includes being STAGNANT. God is not STATIC! the Word is not STATIC! it's DYNAMIC! God is always moving. dont live today on yesterday's revelation. everyday should be a new encounter with God.

you learn more when you TEACH MORE. when you sow revelation into the hearts of new babes, as you sow you will receive revelation from God.

its really sad to see christians who are lagging behind. whatever God is doing in THIS generation, let's not miss out on any part of it. stop standing at a corner and observe, analyse, criticise, be amazed, be amused at what God is doing....be a PART of it! do you love God or do you love yourself? do you love the blessing more than the Blesser?

when Jesus called out to His disciples, 'follow me'...he didnt stop and wait for them! He continued walking! if ure always observing and not participating then sooner or later you'll miss out on your calling.

once saved, doesnt mean always saved. salvation is not a one-time event. salvation is a progressive process. we have been saved, we are being saved, and we will be saved. salvation, sanctification, glorification.

few are willing to change. yet even fewer are willing to go through the PROCESS of change, of learning, of discipleship. we are not interested in converts, we are interested in TRUE disciples. people who are willing to lay down their lives for God. to be a holy and living sacrifice to God.

there is no such thing as church goers. only church MEMBERS. members who live NOT by preference but by CONVICTION. man, these are BASICS we are talking about. we want members who are focused on the vision God has placed upon our anointed covering. every member is a minister.

woke up today thinking it was monday...started packing my bag and realised today is sunday got BS! lol...*whoops haha

yesterday after svc had dinner at e food court in hall6. man it was packed! lol. had so many laughs with my celgrp lols. im the laughing king and tricia is the laughing queen! hahahahas. lol.
then the huixin so cute & funny, keep on talking about baby food and pastor meng's son! hahahahas...lol.

today we had a VIP, the MINISTER OF EDUCATION visiting our church in Jurong West. he and some MPs came to address us before our bible study. some were stunned, some were stressed, some were excited, ushers trying to fill empty seats, choir had to get seats, everyone had to get ready for his arrival.

he came, addressed us. there were reporters, photographers and journalists. he gave a speech and took a photo with the congregation. its my first time in 3years in CHC that i get to be a part of a VIP visitation lols.

today after BS went makan at our long missed kopitiam opposite haha. the vendors seemed happy the moment they saw us hahas. can earn money lol. heard them saying things like, after u all left here very quiet, hey havent seen u in a long time, and other stuffs.

i feel as God's children. we have been called with a HIGH calling. not just to live for ourselves, but to have MORE THAN enough because God is a God of MORE THAN enough. we are blessed to be a blessing. what is blessed? it is the EMPOWERMENT to succeed. its not what we have, but its about WHOSE HANDS it's in. everywhere we go, i see food vendors, i see taxi drivers, and i really feel a sense of achievement and happiness whenever we patronise their stalls or ride their cabs.

that's what life is all about. to talk like Jesus, to think like Jesus, to act like Jesus, and to LIVE like Jesus and be the light of the world and the salt of the earth! To be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath! x)

Deja Vu : Glimpses of Eternity.

Time is money -> time costs
Time has no significance without goals.
Goals determine the course of your life. Without goals, your life has no course. That is why some people never move on and stay where they are.

Singapore's GDP per capita is $48,345 per year.
Each citizen is worth an average of $3291 (per month, minus CPF, bonuses, etc.) to the country. -> Therefore, if you're earning below $3291 per month you are below the AVERAGE value of a singaporean. (including non-believers, atheists, etc.) -> when you should be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath!

An average singaporean deals with 1million to 2million sg dollars in his lifetime!!! So dont say you'll never see that amount in your lifetime.

Birth - Age 25 = The LEARNING period
Age 26-65 = The EARNING Period
Age 66 and above = The GOLDEN Period

The average lifespan of a person after retirement (age 65) is 7 years before one dies.
Don't waste your life away after retirement. Continue to work, serve and to be a blessing. In other words, the moment you stop/retire, you are doomed to die because you are just surviving and waiting for death. -> we are blessed to be a blessing!

Poverty is the state or the condition of having little or no MONEY, GOODS or means of SUPPORT.

Poverty starts in the mind -> when you're filled with negative thinking. Don't live on stinking thinking! Don't focus on the circumstance, focus on the Word. It's about what the Word says and about what GOD thinks and says, it's never about you and who you are, but about who He is.

God made man to be PRODUCTIVE. (multiply, fill the earth, subdue, have dominion)
When man finds no meaning in life or when one feels that he/she has not been productive/fruitful enough, the person will get frustrated.

Lack of meaning in life or productivity leads to frustration.

Gen 1:26, 28, Rom 12:2, Luk 4:18, Prov 13:23
Believing in Jesus doesnt change your life! Life changes ONLY when your thinking changes. Without the renewing of your mind, you can never be in tuned with the mind of God.
You may be saved in your heart, yet unrenewed in your mind/thinking!
-Do not be conformed to this world, but BE TRANSFORMED by the renewing of your mind.

The destruction of the poor is their poverty.
Poverty robs man of productivity and leads him into frustration.

No one can fashion/shape you to be anything less than who you really are. -> know who you are in God! the devil hates it when you realise that you are more than what you are, that you are extraordinary, anointed and empowered to succeed!

God has hidden treasures in eternity for you to find it. That is why we need the Holy Spirit. Some of which are hidden talents, gifts, some are secret weapons/solutions to succeed. The devil knows when you find them, you will be able to defeat him.

"Fallow" means UNCULTIVATED. Let the Word of God sow the seeds of visions and dreams, seeds of destiny into our lives! You may be poor, but in Christ ull nv stay poor all your life.
-Its not that we dont have visions and dreams. They already existed in eternity before time began. It's jus UNCULTIVATED by the Word of God.

You may think of helping the poor, dont just help the poor, make sure they DONT STAY poor! Get them out of the poverty trap!

Gospel = good news.
-> The only good news for a poor person is that he dont have to be poor, that in God he can have MORE than enough. -> That is why we need the gospel, the Word of God.

Jhn 8:48, 49-51, 52-58, Jhn 1:1, 14


Infinity-------------------[Time]--------------------Infinity

'[' = start of time
']' = end of time
'----' = eternity

-the gap in between time and infinity is eternity. (no beginning, no end, no limits)
-eternity is referred to as the realm of the Spirit or the mind of God.
-time is a pause in eternity, a parenthesis of eternity.

-conception doesnt begin in your mother's womb, but in the mind of God. -> He knew you and called you by name and chosen you with a high calling BEFORE you were born. (Start of time).
-we existed in the mind of God as plans, imaginations, purpose, ordained, ideas, as spiritual beings....OUTSIDE time.

-everything that happens in time is merely a manifestation and the fulfillment of that which has already happened in eternity.
-before Abraham was, Jesus was. The lamb was slain before it was slain.
-we are in this world but not of this world.
-Jesus is talking about the concept of Eternity.

-From the diagram, we existed outside time, in the mind of God.
-when time began, we as spiritual beings are merely placed in a mortal body to fulfill the plans and purpose for our lives that God has already planned and carried out in eternity.
-When the bible talked about the spirit of Elijah upon John the baptist, it was referring to eternity as well.

-In eternity, there is no defeat, no death, no limits. Elijah died hundreds of years before John the Baptist. But when our 'shell' crumbles, God simply finds another 'shell'. Which in this case, was the SPIRIT of Elijah on John the Baptist. -> because it was God's will. not everyone who dies have a chance to live in another body.

-This is NOT reincarnation. Because whatever the happened in TIME (e moment we are born) HAD ALREADY HAPPENED in eternity. its merely a manifestation and fulfillment of THAT which had happened.

-God had plans and solutions for our lives in eternity. It is OUR JOB to find it, to walk it, and to live it! -> In the beginning was the Word and the Word was WITH God and the Word WAS God. (Eternity) And the Word became flesh and dwelled among us. (Jesus -> From Eternity came down to Time to fulfill it).

-We are not the product of time. We are the product of of eternity POSITIONED in time!

Rev 3:18, Eph 1:4, 2 Tim 1:9, Psm 139:16, 2 Cor 4:18, Eph 2:10
-We are not human beings trying to get a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings MASTERING the human experience.
-We have a good life that is already existing in eternity. -> Time for us to get connected with the things of the Spirit.

Deja = Already
Vu = Seen
DejaVu = Already Seen

The things which are seen are temporary, the things which are not seen are ETERNAL.
The things which are seen are made of the things which are NOT SEEN.

-When deja vu happens, you'll be calm when that which is in eternity actually happens in the realm of time, as if it were expected. As if you had been through and experienced it before.

-It's when the Holy Spirit takes us OUT of Time, the parenthesis of eternity, and gives us a glimpse of ETERNITY, the mind of God. We see, we hear, we feel, we experience...to let us know that we are on track then places us BACK into Time. And it's our duty to set goals to fulfill our purpose that God has ordained in Eternity.

-Success the the PROGRESSIVE REVELATION and REALIZATION of this pre-determined GOOD LIFE.

-We dont have to struggle + search high and low for success! We have to connect with God, know the right path to take, set goals and work on it! Success has been PRE-DESTINED for us.

Success is DISCOVERED. (When we choose the right path that God has planned for us and walk it in FAITH!).

Prov 25:2 -> The glory of God is to conceal a matter. The glory of KINGS is to SEARCH OUT a matter.

Ecc 3:10-11, 15
The greatest thing you can know is that we have eternity IN our hearts. That same limitless capacity, blessing, anointing and power that is in the mind of God, has been deposited into us through the Holy Spirit.

Whatever is has already been
What will be has been before

photography class and thoughts

today was my first photography class that i took for IS module. saw the lecture notes for this week, 168 slides! woot haha. but a lot of pictures so...haha...yea not so bad. din really cover ALL the slides though haha. 4 HOURS!!! haha but mr mike was good, he let us off at 330plus, hahas.

mr mike is from Finland. had a masters in IT and worked in Nokia Company at his home ctry and he also helped in e programming of a particular nokia phone, tink its e n9500 or the n5100, cant rem haha. hes a cool teacher, big and macho too man. woot! inspires me to work harder! hahahaha...

he teaches diff modules, particularly in the School of Film & Media Studies. today we received our FIRST assignment due wednesday. haha. we had 7 clues and we had to take pictures of the answers (mainly locations in campus) and burn into a CD-RW. sth like a campus hunt or something. its a group activity. quite fun, hahahas x)

theres so many things i wanna do...sound ministry, chorus board ministry, lighting ministry, TV ministry and even music ministry as an electric guitarist! woot hahaha. nvm. take my time. sooner or later im gonna discover my gift and use it to serve in the house of God. currently im doing fine in my ministry.

no doubt it isnt easy, high standards, high commitment, high expectations and all, but its wad i love doing, im happy just to do something and be a part of what God is doing in CHC. =) i wanna dwell in Your house forever...x)

im excited for service this weekend. =) and the last 2 lessons of GOTP! hahaha, yeah. cant wait to start off FT2 lesson also. and cant wait for CG to resume! hahaha. :))

Rain rain rain, but praise God i can still jog! =)

its been raining no stop e past few days, consecutively! woohoo, haha nice weather. its not like every season of e year u get such cool weather. of course at times, my jogging schedule was disrupted bcos of e rain..well...only once. haha and praise God on every other night it would stop raining at e time i would go have my jogging ^^ so praise God for that x)

jus some thoughts that are on my mind now...

im happy im finally gonna start FT2 soon. and by right evan helped me arrange a private lesson with ps audrey, but bcos of my sch i MIGHT not make it. well, its subject to change i suppose, hahas. its like PRIVATE LESSON with PS AUDREY ure talkin abt here...hahas. currently most likely, ill be enrolled into e FT2 mass class instead. oh wells. if God willing, i wanna go for e private one, hehex ^^

i miss God sooo much......ive been so busy, with school, with my own body/physique...

i hardly have time to even spend time to talk and to love God anymore. i cant continue like this. i miss those days when God would just visit me in my room and i would just lie there in tears, loving God and enjoying His presence. those days when i would have an exciting, impossible moments when i overcame the impossible.

God i love You. help me to love You even more...

Yeah, update update update!

finally blogged all 3 notes, haha. now can blog abt wad happened e past few days since saturday =)

okay here goes:

SATURDAY

my day began as usual. we were having Joyce Meyer and i wanted to attend all svces. even if theres 6 services in expo, i would still go from boonlay everyday :) and so i reached expo e moment e doors opened, thank God. but i was alone..."lonely...im so lonely..." hahaha, anywaez, i got a seat on e floor area.

waited for evan/wayne/liwen's call cus they comin too. but i was e first to reach and seriously, getting seats is really hard esp when ppl are flooding so rapidly, hahaha =x in less than 10min, the floor area is filled and by e time evan and some of e110 reached, the terraces were almost full as well. lol

so i ended up sitting alone. but i really enjoyed e service, the presence of God and most of all, the preaching of the Word. really moved me to e next level =) service ended and i took sharon's car along with liwen and viona (liwen's cousin), and sharon dropped me off at dhoby ghaut. well, it was kinda a 'weird dropoff' lol, cus u see, she wanted to drop me off in the MIDDLE LANE of the road, at the traffic light since it was red! LOL

so i got off and surrounded by cars on all sides, i made my way to e stn having crossed the traffic light junction, hahahas. halfway during the ride, i was sitting beside sharon in e front, then she asked me a very intriguing qn which had a 'strange memory' in my mind, "hey, do you think there's something wrong with the car?" hahaha. the last time she asked me e exact same qn was after the she realised that the car wasnt moving with force after my leg accidentally shifted the gear to 'N' when we squeezed 8 ppl in her car! hahahaha =p lols....oops

on my way home, lots of funny things happened to me on my train ride back. first of all, got this lady sitting next to me who started to doze off. and when people really go into DEEP sleep they start to move about. and i guess u know what happened after that, she eventually started to move towards me. and there was no space for me to move to e other side.

after sitting there for 5min, i felt so paiseh and uncomfortable, my face almost gonna look like tomato! normally ppl who 'fall' on one side react by going back to 'neutral stance', but this lady somehow nv le, she stayed there! =.= wanted to change seats but no more seats, then dun wanna stand oso cus im like alighting at like...boonlay!?! lol and i was too tired to even bother.

was hoping that she would get off at clementi or JE or something. but she didnt! she actually alighted at boonlay! omg, ALAMAK! lol. eventually she realised that what she was leaning on wasnt her bolster! then she paiseh, i lagi paiseh. then wanna faint liao...she go back to sleep and the same thing happened again! woot...-.-"

but now not so bad, she didnt 'stay there'...lol. if that wasnt bad enough, opposite me got this bunch of youngsters, they were chatting and i was tired from ministry and i was dozing off myself! lol. but they kept on laughing hysterically and loudly...LOL. until like jurong east or something. *faint haha.

i was killing 2 birds with one stone man! one moment im trying to prevent my face from becoming tomato, the other hand i was controlling my laughter and laughed through my nose...yes it prevents my mouth frm moving and prevents any sound frm coming out unless i really cannot tahan hahahaha. but normally is other ppl around me that cannot tahan! LOL! =p

SUNDAY

heres e interesting part. woke up at 430 in e morning shared cab with my bro and elvin to EXPO. reached exactly 7am despite heavy rain for DAYS! hahaha :S guess what? NO ONE was there! except DFO and TV crew head. even the soundstore is not open! LOL.

msged pam asked if she or any ushers reached yet, guess what....it was because of the emergency procedure that stopped the trains! hahahaha! lol...heard frm her abt 10-20 ushers got stuck or something lol. no wonder...XD

was doing conference rm that day. but i still get to hear the Word. e message was really good. s1 was serious, a lot of notes, s2 was lighter, s3 was light! hahaha ps Joyce shared stories and jokes, haha. enjoyed every moment of it. and ive really learnt a lot and grown a lot. but more than jus hearing e Word, i wanna APPLY e Word =)

im so excited this week, ps kong will be preaching on visions and goal setting! ;) yeah, hahas. cant wait. and this week is also the last 2 lessons of the Tabernacle(GOTP) series. and we're havin it in JW building! hahas, miss the building loads ^^ lolz.

after svc went to changi with e110 and w318 and ate the chicken meal there, cant rem e name. its soooo YUUUMMMYYY! hahas. but the price also very fainting lol. after dat spent 45minutes deciding whether to go orchard meet vivian or not, in the end ended up going home! hahahahas...lionel and pam really cartoon sia. lols u guys really amuse me...^^ praise God for interesting and different people, hahas =D

went home with pam and zack. enjoyed my weekend. jus being around people that i love is enough to brighten up my day :)

THOUGHTS

this wk is my 2nd week of my 5-day jog frm 1130pm-1am. hope i keep up. well, its time to move on to a new level. haha. frm NC16 to M18! LOL.

my PM team member told me he submitted the assignment oredy. but then the teacher somehow didnt receive it and he ASSUMED we didnt care when we didnt know it didnt get through. worse still, he didnt even bother to check! and since that day my team member ponned class, i got all the scolding for completing my part of the assignment...irony right?

something tells me that my team member doesnt care and im trying my best not to make the wrong judgement, although there were times i felt like changing all that. im on the verge of getting a ZERO all because of the attitude of another team member as well as the wisdom-without-understanding attitude of my lecturer...=.=

guess i can only rely on God now. if God is for me NO ONE can be against me! no weapon formed against me shall prosper! not even the disguting attitude of fallen humanity...more than showing who i am, im gonna show who God is!

on the same day (monday) after the dreadful PM lesson, played DotA with my classmates in class from 4pm till abt 645-7pm. and i really had fun, hahaha. im getting into the DotA mood soon, hahaha...lol

mus really brush up on my c-programming...

Joyce Meyer - Service 3

SERVICE 3

(any missing notes or verses do let me know, i missed the first 10-15minutes, thanks.)

-The kingdom of God is righteousness, peace, joy and the Holy Spirit
-seek the power of the Holy Spirit, and not on your own poor self-image.
-stop chasing things, CHASE GOD and let the things chase you!

-don't just seek God's hand, seek His FACE.
-have a healthy self-image.
-As a man thinks in his heart, so is he. -> you are the result of who you think you are.

heb 5:12
-the Word of God has to confront and correct you sometimes. (dont just focus on the blessings/positive part of the Word, dont live a selective christian walk! but embrace the WHOLE COUNSEL of God and of His Word.)
-stop living on milk. by now you should be teaching others yet you need others to teach you the BASICS!

-meat = the TRUTH of God's Word -> the meat of God's Word confronts, convicts, corrects, changes, and disciples you.
-the truth will set you free, yes...the truth about YOU will set you free, not the truth about others. stop trying to be others and love yourself for who God created you to be!

-we all may start somewhere, but we will never stay the same if we feed on the meat of the Word. -> stop living on milk and getting spoonfed all the time. its time to go to a new level!
-be willing to be confronted, warned, rebuked, corrected and discipled if you want to grow.
-many are willing to learn but few are willing to accept the process of learning.
-the Word of God is the only things that can heal your heart, because it knows and reveals your heart.

-love is not something God does, it's who He is!
-God loves variety. dont pity or feel bad about yourself just because you are different. -> the disciples were different in every way, yet they formed a great team altogether.
-take the Word of God seriously, take the Word of God personally -> it is for YOU.
-you can still enjoy yourself even when God is correcting/changing you.

-know your strengths AND weaknesses. -> but focus on your strengths and give your weaknesses to God and let Him work on it.
-God's strength is made perfect in our weaknesses!
-stop wishing this and that about yourself, we dont need wishbones, we need BACKBONES!
-failing doesnt make you a failure; you are not a failure just because you fail.

-our worth is not dependent on what others think of us.
Isa 53, Jhn 21:18-19, 20, 21-23
-dont worry about someone else, just follow God!

Joyce Meyer - Service 2

SERVICE 2

-when ure in Christ, u are a new creature.
-you cant have faith, without first seeing that there is hope.
2 cor 5:17, 21
-we have been made righteous in the eyes of God. Not our own righteousness, not imputed righteousness, but God's righteousness by His blood.

-God deals with us, but He still loves us and we still belong to Him.
luk 5:1-7
-if you want a bigger haul of blessings, then head for deeper water!
-Dont be shallow-christians! stop doing what YOU THINK is right, what YOU FEEL is e right thing to do, what YOU WANT to do whenever you want, etc... -> "I", "Me", "Myself" the unholy trinity.

-stop thinking its all about 'me', 'me', 'me'...no it's not about you, its about Christ!
-dont live by your flesh, dont live by your emotions/feelings, live by the Spirit, live by the Word!
-tithing may be 10%, but it didnt say you have to stop at 10%! -> start going deeper into God.
-> the depth of your love is dependent on the depth of your sacrifice.

-God always tend to asks us to do something that we are uncomfortable with, that we dont think it makes sense, that we may not totally agree on, etc.
-"but i feel..." -> stop the "I feel" attitude. its not about what you feel but about what GOD feels.
-Victory is when you choose to do the right thing while you still feel wrong about yourself.

-dont get stuck at the 'what about me' mode. if everything is about you, then perhaps you're the most selfish person in the world.
-e.g. living just to have enough for yourself is selfish when you should have more than enough; blessed to be a blessing, not telling people about the gospel is worse because you have what they dont have, etc.

-everything great that God calls you to do, He always gives it out to you in different levels. And God tests you on every level.
-dont live to get your way, live to get GOD's way!
-if you wanna go higher, go deeper.

-to go higher, sometimes we must learn to let go of other things, even those which are precious to us. -> you cant have resurrection without death, and you cant have death without first experiencing pain.
-feelings will never go away, BUT you can control it and not let it control you.
-dont think you are spiritual just because you know the Word, but when you DO the Word.

-we dont know anything if we dont do anything.
-dont obey your feelings/emotions/thoughts, obey the Word -> the SPOKEN (rhema) Word.
-> when Simon obeyed to cast down the net despite feeling discouraged and pointless to do so, he received a catch so great, more than enough, that the nets began to break. ("Because You say so (But at Your Word), i will let down the nets").

-learn to live BOLDLY! -> be bold to love God and to do what's right because God sees your heart. Dont compromise your character just because you want approval from others. dont fear men, fear God (reverential fear).
-God will promote you when He wants. (ps kong taught abt knowing the soverignty of God).
-obedience is better than sacrifice.

num 13:17-30, 31-33
-stop scaring yourself with negative thoughts about yourself, step out and obey...QUICKLY. -> david, despite knowing who Goliath was and who he was, he saw who GOD was and he RAN TOWARDS the battle.

-as believers we know that we never fight battles ourselves because God is with us. -> and He always wins. We are never alone. God is IN us, FOR us, WITH us, ABOVE us, UNDER us, and THROUGH us!

-the word 'WITH' means it takes BOTH us and God to win. -> no point in God cheering you on and fighting for you when you keep on feeling lousy about yourself!
-God is transmitting signals of blessings and encouragement to His loved ones all the time, but the problem is many of us do not know how to receive it.

Heb 4:15-16
-Because God understand us, we can come with BOLDNESS before God. -> stop thinking that you dont deserve this and that. -> because you think it that way, you will not have the blessings of God even if God tries to push them down your throat!
-look at Jacob. even though he lied, he cheated and he stole, etc...yet when He wrestled with God, he said, "I will not let you go until you bless me!"

-what kind of attitude is that? he committed wrong and detestable sins, but yet he didnt see who he was, he saw who God was. And he was bold enough to run to God and not let Him go.
-when ure feeling bad, who do you run to? do you run away from God or do you run TO God?

-God loves you for who you are, but He loves you too much to leave us the same. -> but no matter what we did, we can still come boldly before God and let our requests be made known to Him because He cares, and He understands.
-dont look at what's wrong with you, but look at what's right with God.
-dont listen to your head, listen to your heart!

-you have little lives because you ask God for little things!
-learn to pray for FAVOR and pray BOLDLY about it. dont have to be shy to God. you have not because you ask not! (let God surprise/shock you everyday).
-its not about who we are not, but about who we are in Christ.

2 sam 9:1, 6-7, 8
-God is looking for people whom He can bless. God is looking for people who are willing to RECEIVE.
-God likes people who dont let go! people who dare do ask God and run to Him even if we dont deserve it.

Be hungry, be bold.

Loving yourself, Loving your life - Joyce Meyer (S1)

-you can never hide from your problems, the only solution is to DEAL with them.
-you can never run away from yourself. in the toilet, u are there. when you sleep, u are there.
-therefore, learn to love yourself!

-psm 107:27, Mt 22:36
-how you love yourself determines how you love people
-if u wanna see changes in your life, you must first be willing to face the truth
-we all have responsiblities; we all must take responsibility

-staying the way you are is WORSE than facing change/coping with change.
-feeling ashamed of something abt you've done is different from feeling ashamed of yourself.

-if you:
i) feel bad about yourself all the time
ii) feel guilty/nervous/anxious/fearful all the time
iii) always compare with others all the time

-> this will eventually create a 'storm' on the inside if u no matter how hard u try to hide it by trying to be someone ure not/do things to show others that you are alright...
and the moment a SMALL matter happens in ur life, you will eventually respond in an unbalanced way and affect the people around you as well as yourself.

-stop looking at others, stop blaming others and start analysing the common denominator, yourself!

-what you hate about yourself the most, that is what God can use the most. -> nobody asked you to handle it on your own, give it to God! -> let go and let God because He created you and He knows the way you work and what makes you tick, He knows best, how you function, etc.

-A selfish person is like the walking dead, so full of himself, so full of death.
-God prepares you for that which He has prepared for you. -> dun be surprised if you find God leaving you on the shelf while He works on something else, because He is preparing you!
-God chose you on purpose, even though He knows your weaknesses and even the mistakes you will make before you actually make them! -> you are no surprise to God, He made you!

-you can never love your life without loving yourself.
-as believers, God has ANOINTED us to live ordinary lives in an extraordinary way! -> we dun have to wait for something BIG to happen in order to celebrate, we should be happy and celebrating every moment of our lives! -> love God, love yourself, love your life.

-dont look at what God doesnt want you to have and WASTE your life on it!!! -> focus on what you have, on your strength, on your distinctive (ps kong's msg).
-stop looking at your negatives, stop looking at OTHER PEOPLE's negatives! -> the amt of +ve and -ve in ur life is dependent on how much +ve or -ve you focus on. -> what you have faith for, you attract, what you fear the most will overwhelm you.

-there is POWER in the LITTLE things that we do. sometimes we tend to remember the little things more than the big things. -> THIS is the power of life.
e.g. a person maybe a high status/position person. when he shares something with you/meet your needs, you'll remember that small act more than his great position/status. e.g. remembering your birthday, etc...

-If you are not happy and positive with what you have or where you are now, you will never be happy/satisfied even when God promotes you because you will never have enough. -> be happy, be positive, God will promote you whenever He wants. -> stay focused on your calling!

-dont try to be someone you're not; dont try to do something God has not equipped/enabled you to do. -> fulfill your calling. (live by revelation, live by the spoken (Rhema) word of God).
-> whatever God has called you to do, He will provide, He will give you the anointing, the desire, the grace and the strength to carry out God's purposes for your life.

-God is not obliged to take care/maintain that which He has not given to you.
-the more you try to make yourself happy, the more unhappy ull become. -> instead, whatever ure unhappy about, there is sure someone else who is worse off than you, mix and meet the needs of such people, that are going through the same crisis as you.

-God has not called us to in-reach, but to OUTreach!
-you are what you are, you have what you have. -> God made you that way and He said it was VERY GOOD. so love yourself! -> dont give up on yourself because God has not given up on u!
-learn to LOVE the little things.

-> zachaeus was short, but he did something about it, he climbed the tree. he stepped out and did something with what he had and did not allow people's opinions/his 'handicap' to cripple him.
-Stop fearing man, fear God! (not human fear, but reverential fear).
-the moment you fear man more than God, or do something/compromise just to get the approval of others/to please others, you will NEVER be able to fulfill what God has called you to do.

-dont just tell people about Jesus, SHOW them Jesus!
-while learning the steps of Jesus, we must learn the 'stops' of Jesus. -> before Jesus did a major miracle (e.g. raising e girl frm e dead), He stopped along the way to help someone else.
-get interested in other people's lives! dont be so full of yourself! -> the little things are most remembered.

-the little things that we do can change people's lives and make them happy, likewise the little things that we DONT do may bring unhappiness to you/them.
-Jhn 21:1-12 -> Jesus has just been resurrected, overcame death, went to hell and won e devil, took the keys of life n death frm satan, and now is full of glory and victory.

and what does He do...?

He prepares His disciples' breakfast!!!! -> the power of little things! the heart of a servant, a true friend. never despise small beginnings, if you are faithful in the little, much will be given to you!

-how come Jesus, the Son of Man, could wash the feet of His disciples? -> because He knew who He was and where He came from + was going. -> Love yourself, love your life!
-God is interested in every little/small detail of your life.
-we may be on our way to Heaven, but ironically, how many are enjoying the journey?

OOP test

today was OOP test. it wasnt too bad. the worse thing is its an open book test, and i was so kan-chiong i forgot to bring my notes with me to the table even though i brought them...=.= lol

after test went home. still deciding whether to go wayne's hse or not. bao called me. i decided to go anywayz. and guess what??? at around 4-5plus i fell asleep. and i woke up like 8pm!!!! woot. guess this is wad happens when you only have 1.5hours of sleep the night before lol.

cus i reached home quite late yesterdae frm coffee club. told myself cannot fall asleep if not sure wake up late one. like the other time, woke up after BIS test ended (prev sem), hahahas, got zero =.= but still got a B for overall in e end, praise God for that. =)

and so i tried to stay awake till 4plus i fell asleep while installing Call Of Duty 2, thanks ken for lendin me ;) played a bit today after my test. so much action! lol. tense, tense, tense....hahaha. well, i didnt wake up late for e test. cus my alarm clock was sooo annoying. when e alarm sounded, normally i would shut it and go back to sleep automatically cus i was too tired.

but then i pressed the 'button' not knowing that it merely stops the alarm from ringing and not the actual alarm. it is supposed to ring for one hour!!!! so there i was, pressing and pressing, not dealing with the root and pressing the 'alarm' switch to the left to turn off alarm mode. lol

so i couldnt take it anymore and woke up....hahahaha FINALLY! lols. hey ken/sha-ren-wang, mebbe some day ill come over and try the famous prata near ur place ^^ suddenly got kraving hahahas...x)

Coffee club ^^

sch ended at 1 today...stayed in sch till 3 to wait for kenneth to end class then go his house and FEAR. but then he told me hes gonna be goin out with class till abt 5pm so i went home first. and guess wad? i DOZED OFF and woke up around 530!! hahaha...

reached ken's hse at 6plus, cus wait sooo long for the 189 (eh, i forgot the bus number!) hahahaha, but i tink its 189. hahas.

finally completed FEAR in officially 3 days! hahas. ok mebbe someone has broken my record :x first time saw ken's sis, sharon aka sha-ren-wang...haha nicknamed by mr. matthew lim! haha, that lamer...lolz. all exfairsians so kinda mixed around quite well. ^^ and shes frm new creation so, yea...fellow sister in Christ =D

heard ure visiting FCBC this weekend ah? haha (tt is if ure reading this, sha ren wang...haha) drop by to CHC oso le...hahahas =p jus 2 halls away hahaha ^^

someone whom kenneth claimed u would suffer if u ate with her...hahaha =x went to coffee club at holland-v with both of them. met up wiht their cousin zi xie slightly later. chatted, had fun. i didnt intend to get anything as i was leavin quite soon cus it was late. then it was so nice of sharon to treat me a cup of iced cuppo, thanks man...i owe you one ;)

had lots of laughs with them. great bunch of people. =)

been pretty stressed lately...problems jus cant seem to stop, it gets worse each time. and im becoming more numb. T_T

someone make me laugh...

Always

Always - Hillsong United

Did You rise the sun for me?
Or paint a million stars that I might
Know Your majesty?
Is Your voice upon the wind?
Is everything I've known marked
with my Maker's fingerprints?

Breathe on me
Let me see Your face
Forever I will seek You

Cause all You are is all I want, always
Draw me close in Your arms
Oh God, I wanna be with You

Can I feel You in the rain?
Abandon all I am to have You
Capture me again
Let the earth resound with praise
Can You hear as all creation lives
To glorify Your name?

THOUGHTS

yay, jogged 2 days in a row! hope i can continue with it for 3-4 more months. man, i intend to do it all the way! lol. lets jus hope i dun become more vain in the process...hahahahaha!!!

intend to jog everyday from monday to friday. of course, i jog at night where it is quiet. =) school has started and everyone is having common test except us...lol so sad. this morning when i came to school, everyone was like going home, MULTITUDES literally! and i was like the ONLY person walking INTO school...:x lolx

well, this friday is popiah party at wayne's house. im curious to know how its like cus its my first popiah party! hahahas =D well, serving this weekend for joyce meyer. ill try my best to get all 3 sermon notes...yes which means ill be attending multiple services, boon lay to EXPO. even if there were 6 services in EXPO, i will still go, because i can meet God and i can be filled with His Word ;)

well, im beginning to have a liking for DotA for some reason, hahahahaha! had fun with 2T15 today. haha xianzhi was like trying to pwn me twice, and twice the creeps KSed him hahas. man, when can we play again? x)

Remember Lot's Wife

-luk 17:32, gen 19:12-13, 15-17, 24-26
-Looking back will hinder you from focusing on your future and from fulfilling your God-given potential.

1) Dont look back at at OLD SINS that have been forgiven.
-1 jhn 1:7, 9
-your friends determine your destiny.
-your choice of friends reflect your character.
-Isa 43, psm 103

-When God forgives, not only He removes your guilt, but when God forgives, He FORGETS!

2) Dont look back at OLD DEFEATS that get you down.
-psm 37:23-24
-Just because you fail, that doesnt make you a failure.
-Failure is not fatal, and failure is not final!
-People who never fail are people who nv TRY anything GREAT.

3) Dont look back at OLD CONFLICTS that make you bitter.
-Dont nurse a hurt, dont curse a hurt, dont rehearse the hurt. But release the hurt, and God will disperse the hurt.
-prov 17:9
-Be a dove, dont be a vulture -> always carrying dead things.

-Forgiveness is the attribute of the STRONG.
-Gen 41:51
-Its easy for believers to forgive (supposed to...) but it takes an extra mile to FORGET. -> we all need the grace to forget. We need our Manasseh.

4) Dont look back at OLD VICTORIES/SUCCESSES and think you've arrived.
-phi 3:13-14
-Dont ever come to a point where you are comfortable, where you think youve arrived.
-There's always more in God -> the size of your God determines the size of your goal. (learnt in CG message.)
-Dont look back, look UP and look OUT!

THOUGHTS

yay! finally my electric guit has been healed! LOL. thanks bao for helpin with e maintenance. =D so stun, re-string halfway realised one of e strings cannot be tuned. then mebbe thought wrong string, so swap, den eh...cannot le....worse. so we thought maybe e packaging included e same string twice...but it was bcos e string was touching the fretboard!

STUN!! lols...btw, after playing on 5 strings for so long, now finally get back 6 strings, play that time very farnie le....hahaha. mus get used to it once again, hahas =x

feel so funny manz, sunday stay at home...jiu ming ah!!! lol. so weird, more weird than last time go for friday's service 1 at JW. cus we had CG on sat and sun CG will go out oso. now our CG also not confirm thurs or friday...hahaha. so excited for this wk, Joyce Meyer. if she's gonna give diff msg then ill be goin for both. but e prob is that im serving...boohoohoo....LOLs. mebe serving all 3 svces oso...lolz.

one more building fund pledge.....God...if You dont move i wont be able to fulfill it by my own strength! people may think it is foolish, but id rather be a fool for christ than a fool for the world! ;)

New year has come...dont think we've arrived!

went to watch Narnia with liwen, sharon, wan ting, wayne, sebas, wendy, mandy and rhonda's 2 frens on thurs. its sooo cool! and its BIBLICAL! yeah! hahas. its SUUUPER blibical...the death of the lion, the cracking of the stone, death having no power after the perfect sacrifice, 4 rulers representing the 4 corners of the world, etc.... =D

had a great time with u guys ^^ and of course something funny happened and i wont reveal the person, haha. ^^ today had thanksgiving celgrp and i got the Faith Award! praise God! =) and really the time and effort and financial sacrifices that i made, really meant a lot to me. of course everyone's a winner, but it takes more than just effort, but its all about going the extra mile.

although this yr's been rather tough for me, emotionally, but i thank God that ive grown so much. but of course, like what pastor said, in order to move on, we must:

1) Never look back on old sins that have been forgiven.
2) Never look back on old defeats that got us down.
3) Never look back at old conflicts that made us bitter.
4) Never look back at old victories/successes and think we have arrived!

Lot's wife looked back when God was destroying Sodom and Gomorrah and what happened? She turned into a pillar of salt!

its only the beginning! God has greater plans for us in the marketplace. and He will provide our ICONIC STRUCTURE, 10-000 seater concert hall/arts centre, it will be a tourist attraction and it will put singapore on the world map!

God is building His church and the gates of hell will not prevail against it! =) im so excited for 2006! its been only 4 services and expo and man, i feel we can really break 30,000 in 12 months! oh and btw, praise God we crossed 20000!!!! we have 20,002!!!! halelujah! hahas

was kinda late for service, for the FIRST TIME! for me that is...lol CG ended at 230 but we hang around until 330...see la....hahahaha =x but e Word was great. ill post e notes in the next post. went to cut my hair today, forgot today is saturday, in e end owed e shop lady one buck. but thank God she say never mind, jus add to e total e next time i come. :))

i heard straits times talked about us...and our new plot of land or something....anyone knows which day and which article? hahas...thankiews =D (or was it new paper? lol)

its really sad. although its the new year, yet many people never have a renewed mindset. they live life without meaning and without aim. they are all survivalists and not revivalists. they live as if they were living in the same year, as if nothing's changed.

really wanna thank W318, Evan and most of all, i wanna thank God for making my life like Heaven every single day! ;) becos the Kingdom of God is in us! yeah! :D today after svc went to makan at BK. then went peng's hse played pictionary with wendy, junsen and pam...hahaha so funny...LOL

thinking last train was 1130... me, JS and pam rushed to the MRT station only to realise the last train is one plus!!!! FAINT! lol...after JS left. only left me and pam, and we saw these bunch of uncivilised, undisciplined, unmoral, noisy, worldly, vulgar, bunch of kids who behaved as if....arrgh cant describe....littering the train, monkeying around, making a fool of themselves, not good looking also, unglam...i can remember the faces....

me and pam was like sitting there, listening, and observing throughout, and confirm they were going for the countdown at orchard, but obviously they were late...man if singapore year end coundown is full of these kind of people, the nation should start worrying man...

i even took pictures of the litter in my HP. lol...u all watch out...haha. later ill be joinin zack to attend service. then mebbe meet those servin for lunch =D