Midst of recovery...

praise God im recovering, but not yet fully healed. yesterday i felt God saying to me and i could feel the sadness in Him when He said, "Im sorry Andrew for not holding on to you tight enough..."

before He could say anymore i replied, "no...dont say it. im the one who shld say sorry, i ignored Your voice. no matter what happens, know that my love for You is stronger than my circumstances..."

God how i wish I could give You a hug right now. its really in times like these that im sooo close to God and im really grateful and i really treasure the relationship i have with Him. not forgetting those who stood by me for the past few days, indeed, thank God for people like you who dont disappear the minute i hit the fire, but u guys n gals go through it with me....love ya peeps...^^

You can never experience the closeness of God, you cannot experience the '4th man' encounter until you're in the fire. its where the '4th man' shows up next to you, and you shall not be harmed. not only you know He's there, but you can experience Him.

i really wanna thank God that i made it into the Holy of Holies. ;) more than just emotions, more than jus opinions of man, more than just revealed truth, ive learnt to walk in DIVINE REVELATION and in the realm of KNOWING God, which is to know by EXPERIENCE. in the Holy of Holies, its pitch dark, and theres nothing nice to look at, it seems like a boring place to be in.

but in the darkest times, when emotions fail you, when even people who you thought were strong in the Word fail you, but when you cross the veil, and in the midst of darkness, and you cry out to God, His glory will fill the entire room! its just you and God, one on one, no one else.

its where EXPERIENCE is. many people have strong/stable emotions, and are even strong in the Word, but unless you cross the veil you will be limited. you will never experience what it means to be in God and He in you. that closeness that even when nothing's happening, you experience Him because He abides in you and you in Him.

everyday i think of God, everyday i long to encounter Him. although my wounds have not fully healed, each time the pain hits me again, automatically ill focus on God. AUTOMATICALLY. because i dun wanna think of it anymore. yet everyday the thought of meeting those people came back. and i said no, i will look to God.

wed, thurs, fri will be my 3 day fast. why 3? 3 is the number of the Trinity. im gonna need the power of the Trinity to see breakthrough in my ministry, in the church, in the celgrp, and in my own personal life. and im gonna fast 3 days every week until we move to EXPO.

a diamond is without value until it is put into e fire. and for gold to be solid, you have to 'hammer' the molten state. sometimes we come out of the fire, still feeling the effects of what happened, and God begins to 'hammer' on us, just when we thought everything's over.

its the way of changing us, making us stronger. at least im coming out of the furnace soon, for those still on the shelf or worse, still on the wheel....its time to BUCK UP!

End of me...Beginning of God...

something crazy happened yesterdae. i still get the shivers whenever i think of it. sometimes people dont see what you are going through that only God can see and understand. and ull feel as if, your whole world is collapsing and it seems that whatever you are giving, you are losing.

thats jus one of the things i experienced yesterdae, the sense of loss, that everything is being taken away from me. sometimes people just look at the outward and become quick to judge. and indeed words either bring life or bring death to a person.

for yesterday's case, it brought total death and total loss for me. it destroyed my hopes, destroyed my visions, and destroyed what i had left. and its not the first time. and it seemed as if i was outnumbered yesterday. so i refused to fight. and it became worse. i felt so much loss, so much depression, that i began to plunge deep deep deep down...

well, God bless those people. i wont give names. dun worry, even if its e people closest to me who pushed me over the cliff, i wont blame you because i will still love you. just as God loved me. love is not just loving a person just because he/she's good, but loving unconditionally. so many times we break God's heart, yet he's always quick to forgive. i thank God for increasing my capacity. to love people even when it feels as if its not worth it. and i thank God that im able to do that.

after that conversation which i refused to answer, i just shut off my MSN. and i began to cry in my room. i began to cry out to God. it felt like Jesus in Gethsemane. and i kept on thinking about it, and i plunged even deeper. until i couldnt take it anymore, i went into a realm of no return, i went ahead of God and i plunged into enemy territory.

as i crossed the line into darkness, immediately something changed in me. i stopped crying all of a sudden. and anger and revenge filled me. i had thoughts of having revenge on the devil for destroying my life. i attempted to take on the devil one on one. it felt as if there an aura around me. and that aura made me feel good, it made me feel its ok - no one can offend me anymore, it felt as if im unstoppable, all-powerful, it felt GREAT!

it felt as if, im finally a MAN! strong! and undefeatable! and i dun seem to be offended anymore. the kind, soft, understanding andrew was no more and i become an image of my past. i mutated into one of them. and no doubt it felt great, and i continued to seek the devil out in his territory and seek to destroy him. i had such unnatural boldness and courage. unfortunately that feeling was leading me further and further away into the Unknown.

soon i felt as if i was sooo close in getting the devil, it was when God came to my rescue. and Holy Spirit began to shout from the depths of my spirit. "Andrew...turn back now! before its too late...!" i was so broken i replied without tears, i replied smiling and laughing, "forgive me Lord..ive got nothing left, so why not give him what ive got".

it seemed as if God felt that He didnt get through to me, so He said the same thing this time through liwen. who was chatting with on MSN back. and Liwen said the EXACT SAME THINGS that God was trying to shout out to me. and something hit me, i felt even more rage, more revenge, but deep down i know this has to stop. so i stopped and turned back for a moment. one side, e devil says "come to me, bring it on", e other side says, "come back Andrew"...

i sooo much wanted to prove myself, to prove that im strong. and pride overwhelmed me and i was stuck between the light and darkness. i thought about the things that person said to me and i looked at the devil.."i can make you whole, you dun have to be ridiculed anymore!", then i thought of what God said "andrew, i can understand." and i had to make a choice. and i chose God. i turned to God and started walking in His direction.

i can hear the devil shouting, "what are you doing? dont make a fool of yourself. what has God done for you?? what have your brothers and sisters given to you? i can make you strong, i can make you complete, why go back and be ridiculed and criticised when you can be invincible and strong!?!?! come back!!!" and i told the devil straight in his face, "id rather be a fool for Christ than a fool for a fool like you!" i wanted to say the f-word to satan, but God shut my mouth.

i was back with God. but i was still feeling the after-effects of stepping into enemy territory. i came back to God a wounded soldier. and i felt this sense of heaviness and pain in my chest, as if my chest was tied to a stone. it felt uncomfortable. and i couldnt seem to cry anymore, i had become to hard, to tough, too unbreakable. and only God could break me.

and i really thank God for people like Liwen and Joyce (frm my ministry). for people that have gone thru what i went thru to be there with me in times of crisis. and joyce said the very things that were on my heart, she revealed the secrets in my spirit that only me and God knew. i was like...HOW YOU KNOW?? that kind of feeling. and i felt God speaking through her.

and one of the things she said finally broke the hardness in me: (these things only me and God konws, no one else..until God spoke)

1. when you feel like doing something that is beyond your means, always ask God if it's what He wants. always know that He'll not make you go through things that you can't handle. it's not wrong to be hungry for God's words.

2. and also not wrong to have passion for saving souls...

3. but always remember, dun go to a point where you win the world but lose your soul...

4. you have not lost anything... but you are gaining something more worthy than money...and that is dependence on God...

i felt a break in the stone on my chest and i was back regained my spiritual consciousness. thank you Joyce and liwen for obeying the Lord. ;) indeed...God understands. God told me yesterday "its ok when people dont understand, because i have walked with You and i know You. i know the sacrifice you have given and i will not forget you. even when the people closest to you fail you, you know I will never fail you, because i love you and i understand...."

durin my QT after dat, i went back to God with that injury. and as i fell prostrate before God, which is the deepest form of worship, it became a sacrifice of worship and of praise. the presence of God came into my room and turned my room into the Holy of Holies. and FIRE came on me, i felt my whole body burning, burning, burning, i told God, "what is happening, its so hot.." yet i wasnt perspiring, it was a supernatural, tangible fire.

and i felt it burning and melting away the stone in my chest. i felt a sense of release, as i was feeling hot all over, i felt God's hand like electricity, and he held on to my right palm and we joined hands as i felt hot all over, as i felt the fire of God! what an experience it was. you dont need deliverance from mike connell, you can deliver yourself when you're repentant, when you earnestly seek for it. and you begin to allow God to have liberty to do what He wants.

i heard God say, "luckily you didnt go too far into the Unknown". from dat moment on, i choose not to fight and defend myself anymore. instead of fighting the devil i chose to laugh at him instead. "you want me? you have to go through Daddy!"

indeed true friends are there not just in the midst of joy, but when you're goin thru hell, they are there for you. ;) i admit, ive never heard God speak to me more tangibly than yesterdae. through 2 different people. first by speaking into my spirit then supernaturally saying the same things through people and mind you...it was the EXACT SAME THINGS! praise God ^^

i mean a lot to God...if not He wouldnt have shouted

Service 4, 5, 6

SERVICE 4 - thanks to Alex for e notes

The things that happen/exists on Earth exists in Heaven - what is true for the natural is true for the spiritual.
When we get a breakthrough in our lives, you are getting breakthrough for others -> we are blessed to be a blessing. our faith can change people's lives!

An Open Heaven Is Blessing & Favour Upon Your Life
When Heaven is Open, We’ll see visions
Visions take a long time to come pass -> between seed and harvest, you have time.
Wondering is Walking w/o Purpose -> we are not survivalists, we are revivalists!

GOD gives us vision to be a blessing to the world -> out of a vision you have the fruits. but ur vision has to be from God and not from your own interest. a good idea may not be a GOD-idea!

Vision is the power of imagination
Your thoughts are more powerful than your prayer
We must see things before they happen! -> to prophesy is not to predict things to happen, but to MAKE things happen.

Your vision modifies your future -> if you can see it, you can have it
GOD wants us to be stronger, better, smarter, more blessed, etc TODAY than we were yesterday! -> vision takes you forward!

Luke 24:29

There is always someone who will remind you of your past and defeat your Faith
You can change the people opinions around you if you walk in victory
When we fulfill people's dream, God will fulfill our dreams.

SERVICE 5

luk 5 : 1-11
a church is built on networks.
-dere are 3 people in our lives: people above us, people same lvl as us, people higher than us.
-these positions can change.
Fruitfulness is the platform for elevation.

We are here not just to play fair, but to WIN the game -> 2 produce fruits
-God is a bottomline God and His bottomline is PRODUCTIVITY/FRUITFULNESS
-nets need to be cleaned -> look after the infrastructure of your life.
-u need a miracle when u need a miracle

The moment you come to the end of yourself, you know it is the beginning of God!
-dun underestimate your miracle.
-dont just take a net, cast your NETS! the church is not a floating restaurant, but a fishing boat.

SERVICE 6

Jhn 2: 1-12
for every 1 prophecy concerning the 1st coming of Christ, there are 4 prophecies concerning the second coming of Christ.
Jesus will come when everyone thinks He is not.
God will change water into wine. -> those who were weak will say you are strong, those who are dry/hungry you will be filled, etc..

God can do anything and everything, all He needs is people who can believe for it!
The softer you are, the more easier God can work through you. If you're hard, God will chisel you.
-our body does things that our spirit follows. -> get your spirit right! remove the 'lumps' in your life.
-dun be stones, be CLAY! be SPONGES.

stay on the wheel when the Potter starts to work with you. dont move frm wheel to wheel, that is why church hoppers dont grow and get discipled because forever they remain a lump.

God puts you in the fire to see if you will crack under heat/pressure. -> if u crack, He'll bring you back to the wheel and then back to the shelf. But if you stay strong, He will give you glory and fill you with new wine!

Prophecy from ps phil at the end: he prophesizd something exactly wad ps ulf prophesized, rivers of healing will come through our church, the anointing for healing! yeah! =)

Service 2 + Service 3

Before i start off, i wanna thank Pook (my thailand penpal) for this AMAZING work of art! ive been looking for someone who is interested in animations and i simply love this pic. well, the theme may not suit me but still, i really appreciate her work and effort. its simply amazing how shes able to come up with something like that in less than 30min and i can really tell she loves and enjoys doing it.

heres what she did for me:



how sweet :D thanks girl. really appreciate it. cant wait to finally get an animation header for my blog ;)

service was great. he prayed and laid hands for poly and uni students in s2 and on those age 25-30 in service3 as well as for SOT students who are graduating.

haha the chicken joke was soo cold, LOL. lionel was laughing like mad lol. dun tink i nv see hahaahha. as for liwen..hmm...happy chickening LOL. chickens are everwhere hahas. jus dun dream of one tonight lol. ^^

i almost fell off the chair when i heard that lol..."since then, more chickens have died"...manz hahaha stunner! lol. somemore the look on ps phil's face...hahaha he looked seriously not serious hahaha =p

service 3 was a bit special, there was this guy from SOT helping to carry the books and CDs by ps phil and while he was standing on stage beside ps phil, suddenly the Holy Spirit moved thru ps phil and there on e spot he prophesized to the guy beside him and to his wife. the power of God came, the atmosphere changed and ps phil prophesized over the couple and prayed and laid hands on them and they fell under the power of God.

God spoke thru ps phil again, EVERY SERVICE, that God's hour has come. God is moving faster like never before, He is excited and Hes moving very fast now. how much more must we??? no time to waste...dont wait till ure too far behind before you attempt to catch up...itll be very hard to catch up.

we are living in the kairos moment now, every day, every service God moves to the next level and we must try to catch up. next week is gonna be explosive too. cant wait for tomoro. hehex ^_^ God im addicted to You..im addicted to Your presence...im addicted to EXPERIENCING You...im addicted to Your House...God i want more of You!! :))

SERVICE 2 - MAKING ROOM FOR FIRE (ENTHUSIASM)

-not only do we need to be baptised by the Holy Spirit but by FIRE!
-without fire, incense is merely dust. -> the difference is FIRE.
-oil is meant to be burned. (if ure smart enough ull noe wad oil represents ^^)

start having the fire when you're young, and keep it going when ure old.
-when oil is on fire, you wont burn out, ull burn on!
-anointing is impartable.
-anointing is measurable.
psm 133 -> anointing starts form the head downwards. starts with the leadership then the body of Christ.

2 kings 18:30
-Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. God moves when YOU move.
-How to draw near to God? FOCUS on God.
-Dont just focus on your needs, or your prayers or your problems...focus on GOD! -> its all about relationship; deep calling unto deep.

-Fire comes down when:
i) you offer yourself on the altar of sacrifice
ii) you pour out what you need the most, your PRECIOUS, something ud rather keep for urself, on the altar. (e.g. frm e bible - the pouring of water on e sacrifice on e day of drought).
-1 kings 18:32-35

-You go in the direction you are moving.
-Get in order with the House, dont be found 'out of order'.
-Private revelation is a refuge for the rebellious.

SERVICE 3 - MAKING ROOM FOR MIRACLES

Miracles are WORKED. you have to WORK for your miracles.
Miracles happen when you step out. God moves WHEN you move.
We need people around us ot PUSH us on. -> dont give up just because it is painful, dun give up jus because it is uncomfortable...STEP OUT of your comfort zone!

-Most of the time, the moment just before a miracle happens, there is bound to be a period of high tension before the release, before the explosion/breakthrough.
-We must learn to DISCIPLINE ourselves when that happens. -> e.g. sudden anger outburst/mood swing, etc....(theres a climax before the miracle).

Faith overcomes reality!

-Faith is not denying the facts, but embracing the TRUTH, looking beyond the facts. the fact is you may be sick but the truth is you are healed in Jesus' name. the fact may be your bank account is empty but the TRUTH is you are blessed with an overflowing abundance!

(I felt as if God was speaking to me directly...^^)

-every opportunity WILL appear as a problem. theres no opportunities without problems.
OUR MIRACLE IS ALWAYS WITHIN OUT REACH!

God asked e woman what do you have? she said jus a little flask of oil. why bother to search all over the place for a miracle when its in your hands in the first place? God is asking what do you have? its not about what you have, but its about WHOSE HANDS it's in!

its not about the little you have, but about the POWER OF GOD on that which is in your hands!

THOUGHTS

happy bade to rachel! =) after service went to opp kopitiam makan with carmen and liwen. carmen so funny, hahaha "ps phil spend so much time on 'im so excited'" hahahahaha. we had a funny, cold conversation lol the way the said that and her expression hahas. we ate western food, haha guess liwen is still crazy over the chicken hahaha =p

i got a revelation yesterdae while talkin to liwen. my food poisoning was interesting. it wasnt ordinary lol cus who will get food poisoning frm eating ba-baos? hahaha. so we were talking and she asked me how many days i was fasting i said 5.

then we continued chatting, then out of curiousity..i went to check wad the number 5 represents and AMAZINGLY, ACCURATELY and DIVINELY, 5 represents GRACE. and after what i went thru, it was the verse "His grace is sufficient for me" that brought me thru ^^

God's timing! God's timing! yeah man! hehex =D it was a fast of grace. so next time u want to experience God, jus fast haha. for the right reasons of course. and if im not wrong, the number of days u fast has a significance and things will happen in accordance with the number of days u fast. :D

looks like i wont be fasting for 11 days haha cus 11 represents human error and judgement lol! 7 sounds nicer lol. and 40 means 'testing'. Jesus fasted for 40days and was tested in the wilderness. cool huh? hahas :))

and id never thought the day might come when the person that i had to wake up before has to wake me up now...hahahaha! x)

Service 1 - AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!!!

BEFORE SERMON

Service was GGRREEAATT!!!!!! no wait, its better than great! no words can describe. it was the Holy of Holies!!! the place of EXPERIENTIAL RELATIONSHIP!

praise and worship was EXTRAORDINARY! offering was EXTRAORDINARY! the moment they hit the worship song, presence of God just overwhelmed me and tears were flowing down my face like a running river. at tt time i was still feeling uncomfortable over the food contamination that i had this morning.

after PnW, ps phil didnt went into e offering, he didnt even make announcement, we continued to worship and God began to speak through Him and he saw a vision in his spirit, CHC... 1,000,000 members!!! is there anything to hard for God? ps Cho's church almost hit 1m! "Now is MY hour." says God (thru ps phil).

"You may have tried certain things and may have failed. but im going to give you a new anointing, new power, new wisdom and i will change you and you will change the circumstances around you. i am going to open doors that no one can shut and I will close doors that no one can open ever again!"

what God is about to do, noone can stop it. 2 more wks and its time to pack our things, get everything in order and move from the tent to our tabernacle temporarily! and God is excited! God cant wait to give us our new building. a 10,000 seater concert hall. an iconic structure that people will say its impossible! a structure that will reflect the glory of God and put Singapore on the WORLD MAP. besides services, it will be a top arts and cultural centre for performances. tens of thousands will be attracted and tens of thousands will come to the Lord. TOURISTS will come from all over the world just to look at the building.

1 million people....1 million people....1 million people.....glory to glory, strength to strength!!!! =)
its time to make history. its time to rise up! its time to cross the line and STEP UPWARDS to the next level. only when we STEP UP will we be able to receive higher level promises! ;)

it was a time of encounters upon encounters and God jus began to show up in that place. ps phil told us that to worship awhile because in 5-10min time, everyone is gonna start prophesying over our own lives. and we worshipped and waited. and GOd came. i prohesized a lot of things over my life, and like wad ps phil said, "prophecy is not predicting things to happen, prophecy is MAKING things happen!"

and i began to prophesy healing to my own body, and on the spot when i began to ask my own body be healed NOW in the name of Jesus, there and then my body began to heal and the pain left, next thing i knew i was totally healed by the power of God ;) yay! ^^

SERMON

ps preached a short..and i mean SHORT message on REVIVAL AND RESURRECTION. ps phil wanted to take his own time, bcos we HAVE the time to wait on the Lord, for God to show up again. there was just an atmosphere of excitement and expectancy and faith in the air. everyone was jus waiting for God to show up which eventually He did. =)

here are some notes:

2 kings 4:8-17
ONE of the keys to revival is making room for God.
Mary made room for Jesus. -> but theres always a price to pay, the price of persecution, etc.

U may try means to hide God but sooner or later, He's gonna show up.
Making room for God has a price, its a sacrifice.

How much God can move is dependent on how much room you give Him. -> what is it that occupies your heart, emotion, thoughts most of the time?
What you think about determines where you're going.

The church is not built on knowledge, but on revelation.
We MUST learn to MANAGE our miracle, if not we'll lose it.
Revolve your ENTIRE lives around the House of God.

AFTER SERMON

ps phil called us to continue worshipping and waiting on the Lord. ps phil then prayed for the 150 ps graduates from SOT, and laid hands on them individually.

he also prayed and laid hands INDIVIDUALLY on everyone age 30-35. if im not wrong hes gonna pray and lay hands for diff groups of ppl in e course of the weekend. indeed God has started to move, the cloud has began to move.

dont be too far behind. like wad ps said, one new level for one service. by end of this weekend its 6 levels higher!!! ;))

last wk we had ps ulf talk to us on calling and angels, today ps phil talked abt revival. next wk we have ps john talkin to us on financial breakthroughs. all for what? its all linked to our great move to expo! =) and yup, we've been allocated to service 2. sun 10am.

ps phil also said that we are gonna have THREE services at expo! and somehow by God's divine intervention, we are gonna move on to 30,000 - 40,000 within the next 12 months! yeah! God is excited and so am i! hahahaa.....if God is running, then man...ive gotta start flying! lols. i dun wanna miss anything, because its the season of acceleration! ;)

its getting faster and faster, so many things, so many encounters....ahhhhh im gonna SSCCRREEAAMMMM!!! lol!!! XD

Food contamination

man 2 meat paos can cause food contamination in me. went to sch jus now felt pain, pain, pain, giddy and nauseous. for those who prayed for me, thanks guys n gals ^_^ although ive not fully recovered but im on my way there becos greater is He who is in me than he who is in the world! =)

im in e midst of my 5day-12hr fast. well, im fasting for my frens, for my personal breakthrough, for our new building, for my ministry and for this weekend's services. i had an encounter with God jus now. well, ill be goin for multiple services this weekend :))

as i came home frm sch, i was on e train. i had a conversation with God, wont go into details hahaha its secret between me and Him =p lols. well, after i came out frm e train and walked home. as i was walkin home, i saw Jesus on the cross in my spirit. and i saw the nail-pierced hands and feet.

and Jesus said to me, "I did this for you. I did this because I love you". i was soo touched. and i replied God, "im doing this for you, im doing this because i love you. what im going thru now is nothing compared to what youve done for me at the cross. i can never outgive you, nothing i do can make up for Your love towards me. Jesus i love you...

even if i have nothing i will still love You, even if my life is not as good as i hoped it to be. i would still be happy just to have known You.

Jesus, my heart BURNS for you...

History Maker

Is it true today that when people pray
Cloudless skies will break
Kings and queens will shake
Yes it's true and I believe it
I'm living for you

Is it true today that when people pray
We'll see dead men rise
And the blind set free
Yes it's true and I believe it
I'm living for you

I'm gonna be a history maker in this land
I'm gonna be a speaker of truth to all mankind
I'm gonna stand, I'm gonna run
Into your arms, into your arms again
Into your arms, into your arms again

Well it's true today that when people stand
With the fire of God, and the truth in hand
We'll see miracles, we'll see angels sing
We'll see broken hearts making history
Yes it's true and I believe it
We're living for you

We're singing
Holy is the Lord

And my heart burns for You

The Power of FOCUS (Concentration)

FOCUS

Luk 11:34
-Focused light has tremendous power! -> we are called to be the LIGHT of the world.
e.g. sun : strong source, 5,500 degrees, laser : weak source, hotter than the sun, can cut thru metals and heal cancer!

-Focus is the centre-point of your attention
-Focus brings power and energy

You get what you focus on.
-phi 3:13-14, luk 9:51-53
-Stay focused on your purpose!

How do you stay focused on your purpose?

1) Build on your STRENGTH.
-What are you naturally inclined to do? What are your God-Given talents and abilities?
-Focus and develop them!

2) Build on your DISTINCTIVE.
-What makes you unique/different from others? What are the things that you can do when others cannot?
-What are the things you find yourself doing effortlessly? Go for it!
-Know what you're wired for. No one is the same, we are all unique.

3) Build on your REVELATION. (This is what we have that non-believers dont have).
-What has God SPOKEN to you over your life (rhema)? What is your life assignment?
-acts 6:4, 1 cor 10:23 - everyone has the power of choice. dont waste your life making the wrong ones! (A good idea may not neccessarily be a GOD-idea)

Dont live on second-hand revelation, hear God for yourselves today! What ever God says over your life WILL come to pass, get the VISION and God will be your PROVISION.

DISTRACTIONS

Distraction is to have your attention drawn away to something other than your purpose.
Distraction stirs up confusion/jealousy/both.

1) Dont get distracted by INTERIM SUCCESSES.
-dun be too confident in your 'winning feeling'. Hewlett Packard's purpose was to major in the printing industry, but what happened? because of their winning feeling they thought they could do almost everything.

as a result, HP cameras, PCs, MP3 players, anything other than what they were designed to accomplish, were worth nothing. there was no profit.

-jhn 3:22-23, 24-26, 27
-You can never have what God doesnt want you to have, and what God has given to you, no one can take it away.
-Jealousy and distraction drains you.

2) Dun be distracted by COMPETITION.
-Focus doesnt mean you're naive, that you dont know your surroundings/rivals.
-Jhn 21:17-22, 18:33-37
-Focus tells you when to fight and when not to fight.
-Focus prevents you from missing the big picture.

E.g. Netscape company was e one who ushered the internet era. they started off very well. but what happened? they got distracted by Microsoft. instead of making their product better, they got distracted and focused all their energy on bringin Microsoft to court and trying to shut Mircrosoft down / to sue Microsoft.

as a result, Netscape was sold to AOL and everything came crumbling down. what happened? distraction...UNNECESSARY distraction and wrong choices!

-Heb 12:2
-Glory is released under pressure. -> you wont know the depth of your character until you see how you react under pressure. (every diamond is a result of the furnace).
-Purpose = joy + pain. you cannot just have one, you need BOTH. if not it wont be called purpose anymore, but selective purpose.

just do what you're called to do and they'll do what they're called to do. ''mind your own business'' =)

sidetrack a bit...^^

-you wanna live life your own way? its your choice. we are all imperfect. rely on man/urself and ull get an imperfect result, but when u rely on God, ull get a GOD-result, a blessed result, the head and not e tail, above n not beneath, more than enough!

which reminds me, the quality of your harvest is dependent on the quality of the SOIL....AND....who's the Gardener of your seed!

getting back now...^^

3) Dont get distracted by the PAIN of LIFE.

i) The pain of DISCIPLINE - always be willing to be discipled.

ii) The pain of SEPARATION from friends. -> every new level you go, you must learn to let go and be open to your new circle of friends. -> its a way of life.

iii) The pain of DISAPPOINTMENT -> how painful it is, is dependent on the difference between your expectations and the reality.

iv) The pain of OBEDIENCE -> life's greatest treasures can only be learnt through sorrows. the greatest treasures of life and character are found in the most dangerous place, the valley of the shadow of death. -> without a problem, you can never see how God can move.
-Jhn 7:1-6

v) The pain of ACCUSATION -> ppl without a focus will do anything and at anytime. but people with a focus will do the right things at the right time.
-prov 4:25-26

-whenever you try to achieve great things, there are bound to be ppl who will pull you down. so dont be pulled down, you step on them! -> as long as ur will is in e will of God, God will make every setback into a comeback, and turn every bad situation for your good!


THOUGHTS

so excited for next wk...tabernacle last lesson! yay! haha..yup. gonna learn abt e Holy of Holies! =) im expecting God to move in a great way and take our church into a whole new level. and next wk is phil pringle and triple-C...yeah! ^_^ so excited.

indeed we are moving from glory to glory, strength to strength! :))

Tabernacle part 3, Ministry (S1), Last OPM

TABERNACLE PART 3

BS was great, on e tabernacle. ill nv get tired learning new things, but its more than jus knowledge, its revelation. cant wait for the finale next wk, the Holy of Holies...man so excited...hehe...^^

met pam and rach to queue, on e way met willard, so we go queue. din really get gd seats, but anywayz, yup we made it into e audi. we dun just want to be in e outer court, but INTO e Holy of Holies ;) we had to sit on e steps. after awhile, wayne, adam, sebas, daryl and liwen came.

man i love the Word! =))

MINISTRY (S1)

today's ministry was really an eye opener, hahaha. well, its my FIRST TIME doing B4 MAIN SERVICE! yea!!! :)) well, not really easy listening to comms, haha. im like e 'middle-man'. every instructions to various stations in the main audi had to come through me.

well, practice makes perfect. one thing's for sure, im someone whos not afraid to fail. how can you be successful without first failing? ;) pressure releases potential, pressure releases anointing, pressure releases character!

heard a bit of e sermon, and guys n gals, get rdy for a great svc this weekend ;) ps kong is preachin and we have ps sidney to lead PnW =)

THE LAST OPM IN 2005, JURONG WEST

sadly to say, no one i know for a long time, went for opm. only me, eugene, pohchoo, jianhao and wendy. and of cos seth, on e other side. din see evan either. no wayne, no peng, no adam, no quincy, no yongren, no shin, no bao, no pam, no bro..

oh wells, since i was servin, so i jus prayed with my ministry pals. and i felt ps kong's msg came at e right time, he talked abt being focused and not being double-minded. great msg.

one word to say....MEMORABLE. the first session was jus PnW, lingering/waiting on e Lord all e way, prayed a bit before the first break. i was servin in overflow cus they needed manpower. man i felt e presence of God.

durin the first break, finally ate my BREAKFAST, haha. break-fast to be exact ^^. ate one plate of delicious noodles and a small bowl of porridge.

2nd session packed up L4 and went down to B4. prayed thru prayer list, worshipped, prayed again.

durin 2nd break, met up with seth went to buy some drinks. got myself a can of milo. den went back down to B4 for 3rd session. it was phenomenal. we prayed for the individual NATIONS represented in our church, china, india, south africa, malaysia, indonesia, etc...

i was at the B4 side console, when ps yong came frm the artistes' room and stood beside me. i was like whoa...hahas lol. so basically, durin the PnW and prayer i was next to ps yong and when he lay hands...man. you feel electricity...:)) ^_^ ps yong is around 1-2cm taller than me...hahas.

the entire OPM was great, phenomenal, memorable. our LAST OPM. indeed how we finish will determine how we start the next race.

God and I quarreled like a couple

as i came home frm sch jus now, i bumped into this nice lady who came to ask me a few qns on savings and financial stuffs. so i jus helped answer wadever qns she needed. she asked me on things like, 'oh, how much do you save every month' and stuff.

after that few seconds of 'interview' my mind went back to my building fund...and i was like thinking, "im gonna be bankrupt after 18 years...who needs an insurance/savings plan or wadever s**t. ive been giving since i got saved, not just to God but to people around me. what if they mock at me and say, 'he could bless others but he couldnt even keep some for himself!'

what kind of love in this world could make someone young and imperfect do a crazy thing like this, as to give up LITERALLY EVERYTHING he had, all his life savings, all his time, all his effort, everything for Someone you couldnt even see.....what kind of faith can GRAB the HEAVENS!?!

i felt terrible. my heart was imploding. when i reached home i broke down and cried. next thing i realised i was feeling so terrible and down, i began to grief God and break His heart by disobeying Him the minute after I said 'im doing all this because I love You'...i felt i have let Him down, other than giving what else have i done for Him...? NOTHING!!! all i have ever done was give give give, give until i got nothing left to give.....T_T

everyone has his/her own period of valleys, unfortunately, its my turn. while i was in e shower, Holy Spirit began to talk to me and the presence of God came over me. i was scolded by the Holy Spirit. i felt really bad, i felt so broken, so foolish...

next thing, i was quarrelling with God! i said things like "You asked me to give, give, give, now i got nothing left with me, what else do You want from me!?!", "You think what!?! Im JESUS ISIT!?!", etc...

and of course, as usual, i could never out-argue with God. wont go into e details of our 'conversation'. eventually, God won and i felt really bad. i apologised to God and asked Him to forgive me and i told Him, "God, what i did was stupid. its ABOLSUTELY NONSENSE. **** the devil, hes a #&@(*)#@, i wont let that that stupid choir leader win over me anymore. Lord, i wanna say that no matter what happens, i will love you forever. forget what i did just now, let's start afresh."

after much persuasion, i felt the peace of God once again. man, i mean, we QUARRELED like husband and wife!!! lol.

satan, as long as i live, im gonna make your life in hell a living hell!!!! what am i saying? he's already in hell....okay nvm then. ill make sure u wished u had repented you dickhead! see me and God not happy ah? jealous ah? 's-c-a-r-e-d' ah?

stupid ugly choir leader, u cant sing u cant dance, so wad are ya gonna do? whos your daddy man? my daddy is God, u wanna separate us, uve gotta go through HIM! no wonder all the world music is so....ya know? you think what? 666 can win toto ah!?! more like win TUTU you TOOT.

hahahahahahaha....ok. im starting to crap...lol hais, and God, of all times why must talk to me in the shower??? i very paiseh you know? hahahahahaha ^_^ in times like these i begin to realise how much i have loved God faithfully and the measure of the sacrifices ive made. it was never out of compulsion, but out of love, out of faith! at e same time i also realised how much I meant to God and how much He loves me.

He knew i was gonna be like that yet He chose to gave His life for me. Thank you Jesus for having a light burden and an easy yoke, to hear all my craps and nonsense and thank you for tolerating me and always there to lend a listening ear to my troubles. and thank you for believing in me. each time i fall, let my resurrection be of a greater glory! ;)

blog again later, goin for Tabernacle part3 now...XD

Feeling B.U.S.Y. ?

found this on friendster, found it rather true. hahas

Satan called a worldwide convention of demons.

In his opening address he said,"We can't keep Christians from going to church."

"We can't keep them from reading their Bibles and
knowing the truth."

"We can't even keep them from forming an intimate
relationship with their saviour."

"Once they gain that connection with Jesus, ourpower over them is broken."

"So let them go to their churches; let them havetheir covered dish dinners, BUT steal their time,`so they don't have time to develop a relationship
with Jesus Christ.."

"This is what I want you to do," said the devil:

"Distract them from gaining hold of their Saviour
and maintaining that vital connection throughout
their day!"

"How shall we do this?" his demons shouted.

"Keep them busy in the non-essentials of life and
invent innumerable schemes to occupy their minds," he answered.

"Tempt them to spend, spend, spend, and borrow,borrow, borrow."

"Persuade the wives to go to work for long hours
and the husbands to work 6-7 days each week, 10-12hours a day, so they can
afford their empty lifestyles."

"Keep them from spending time with their
children."

"As their families fragment, soon, their homes
will offer no escape from the pressures of work!"

"Over-stimulate their minds so that they cannot
hear that still, small voice."

"Entice them to play the radio or cassette player
whenever they drive." To keep the TV, VCR, CDs and
their PCs going constantly in their home and see
to it that every store and restaurant in the world
plays non-biblical music constantly."

"This will jam their minds and break that union
with Christ."

"Fill the coffee tables with magazines and
newspapers."

"Pound their minds with the news 24 hours a day."

"Invade their driving moments with billboards."

"Flood their mailboxes with junk mail, mail order
catalogs, sweepstakes, and every kind of`newsletter and promotional offering
free products, services and false hopes.."

"Keep skinny, beautiful models on the magazines
and TV so their husbands will believe that outward
beauty is what's important, and they'll become
dissatisfied with their wives. "

"Keep the wives too tired to love their husband
sat night.""Give them headaches too! "

"If they don't give their husbands the love they
need, they will begin to look elsewhere."

"That will fragment their families quickly!""Give them Santa Claus to distract them from
teaching their children the real meaning ofChristmas."

"Give them an Easter bunny so they won't talkabout his resurrection and
power over sin and death.""Even in their recreation, let them be excessive."

"Have them return from their recreation exhausted.""Keep them too busy to go
out in nature and reflect on God's creation. Send them to amusement
parks, sporting events, plays, concerts, and
movies instead."

"Keep them busy, busy, busy!""And when they meet for spiritual fellowship,
involve them in gossip and small talk so that they
leave with troubled consciences."

"Crowd their lives with so many good causes they
have no time to seek power from Jesus.""Soon they will be working in their own strength,
sacrificing their health and family for the goodof the cause."

"It will work!""It will work!"It was quite a plan!

The demons went eagerly to their assignments
causing Christians everywhere to get busier and
more rushed, going here and there.

Having little time for their God or their families.

Having no time to tell others about the power of
Jesus to change lives.

I guess the question is, has the devil been
successful in his schemes?

You be the judge!!!!!

Does "BUSY" mean: B-eing U-nder S-atan's Y-oke?

Please pass this on, if you aren't too BUSY!

Service 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 compilation.

the sermons are more or less the same. on our holy calling, heavenly calling and our high calling.

on how we are created, formed, redeemed and called.

on how we have been saved, we are being saved and we are going to be saved.
the process of redemption, sanctification and glorification.

Jesus is the only way, we all know that. NOTE THAT He is the WAY, not the GATE! So knowing who Jesus is is not enough, going to church is not enough, we have to walk in His footsteps, become more Christlike, and also to embrace the His resurrection power at the same time not despising hardships/trials n tribulations. we are to rejoice in His sufferings.

most christians in e world would rather have selective christianity. they focus on faith, power, blessings, but not on the tribulations, testings and sufferings. if u wanna be a child of God, if u wanna be a disciple, then uve got to embrace the ENTIRE GOSPEL!

when we are in our calling, we are happy, we are protected, we are blessed, we have supernatural intervention, provision, so much more. we become all we are to become in our lives. theres such a great sense of satisfaction and peace and joy...=)

i dont know my calling, but like wad ps ulf said, its not just abt knowing ur calling, but its in the PREPARATION, in the FULFILLING of ur calling wadever it may be ;) i do not know mine because im still in my preparation stage. ^^ there will be a time of visitation (one day we WILL be LIKE Christ...), a time of glorification. we all have an individual calling as well as a collective calling that is to be fulfilled in the body of Christ.

life is more than what are we gonna do after we graduate, its about wad are we gonna do when we die. and no one likes to die, because one day everything we do, good AND bad, will be exposed during judgement. but we have been cleansed by Jesus, and because of His grace, He made us righteous in His sight and we dun have to live a guilty life, but a happy and peaceful life, blessed and not cursed. we want God to say, 'well done, good and faithful servant." and not "i do not know you"...

basically, this week for me's been great. so blessed to have ps ulf come. EVERY SERVICE is more of a move of the Holy Spirit, an impartation. the sermon is just to stir up our faith to let God move as well as to wait on the Lord...=)

so here's wad happened this weekend and how God moved:

Service 1 - Prophecy (unusual favor on CHC frm the nation; how CHC will be a magnet), invitation to the calling (public), 2 word of knowledge to 2 individuals.

service 2 - invitation to calling (individual/collective), gave a Word on our new building, altar call.

service 3 - pastor's course graduation. prayed for the graduates. they were touched and fell under e power of God.

service 4 - renewing of first love, deep worship (congregation bowed on their knees for 20-30min jus loving God and enjoying His presence).

service 5 - prophecy on praise and worship thatll bring forth the power of healing, CHC with greater anointing for healing, prayed for the breaking on hardened hearts, many touched by e presence of God as we waited on e Lord.

service 6 - gave word on new building, invitation to our calling (collective as a church), prophesized on the dispatching of angels as we begin to pray for our new building, on how we will have the land and God's angels will prepare e place for us.

ps ulf also shared 3 stories/encounters:

1. how he was riding a bike when he was young, and a car knocked him and sent he and he bike flying. e landed on the hood, spun a few times, shattered the glass. and he felt no pain and was not hurt at all. because a SPLIT SECOND before he was knocked, his spirit man cried out the name of Jesus and he shouted out "JESUS!" before he got knocked and THAT name saved and protected him. satan tried to kill Him, but God protects His people.

2. he was an interpreter for a powerful man of God. at e end of THAT service he was in, e man of God blessed and prayed for ps ulf "...May God send His angels before you..." then as ps ulf drove in an OLD OLD car (long time ago) on a bumpy dirt-road, praising God. he realised he was going at 70 km/h but his foot wasnt on e accelerator w/o even knowing, because he was so occupied with worship. then he remembered wad e man of God prayed..."may God send His angels before you". immediately the car literally lighted up as it was being 'pushed' under e night sky.

ps ulf was young in e Lord, he began to leave the realm of worship and started analysing wad had happened. when he did that, the light faded and the car began to decelerate and lost its 'pushing' power.

3. on how one day he was preaching on Isreal to a church and in e middle of e service he spoke in e fire of God to the people. someone came up to him and said he saw in e spirit:

a door opened behind ps ulf -> a golden carpet rolled out -> and there were PILLARS OF FIRE that engulfed along e carpet in one straight line -> the pillars of fire 'morphed' into angelic beings and HS said, "these are my GENERALS and they will take this message to the ends of the earth", e message on Isreal coming back to the Lord. the people of God was important to God.

ps ulf received a fax (i think) frm a couple in aussie/newzealand saying how they were blessed by the message, when ps ulf didnt even preach in their town. then he remembered the vision of the "Generals of God'' sending the message to e ends of e earth.

THOUGHTS

so excited for this week's BS on e Tabernacle. and next wk is Phil Pringle! yeah! =) and (quoting frm ps derek) ''Triple-C'' is coming to lead praise and worship :D haha so cool, 'triple-C'. :D so many things, so much excitement, and 4 more weeks before we move to EXPO!

but of cos thats only temporary. our final destination is our 10,000 seater cultural icon that'll place CHC on e WORLD MAP, and 50,000 and even 100,000 people! we are not in e business of bulding buildings, we in e business of building lives! =))

more than just excitement, its about the Word of God and the presence and the power of the Holy Spirit. i remembered durin one of e svces ps ulf said that God likes to prove He is God. each time people say its impossible, God will make another miracle with is even more impossible until, people have nothing to say, but glorify God :))

4 more weeks.....^^

Service 1 - Impartation/Invitation, Prophecy, 2 Word of Knowledges

service was great. not exactly a sermon today, but an impartation, a prophecy and 2 word of knowledges for 2 individuals =)

saw xian zhi, but dunno if he saw me, haha. he came with his fren and sat directly opp me hahaha =x. went to meet john and esther, her fren and her cg member. was kinda surprised they rushed for the back seats, i mean. its ulf ekman man..hahas. if u want something u have to fight for it ;)

so in e end me and john went to e front, like wad pastor said, distance is never a factor. anywae, e anointing and the power is in front like wad we learnt in BS, dats why bring fren mus bring to the front. hehe...=D

Ps ulf prophesized that there will be great favor from the NATION on CHC like never before. there will come a time where the entire nation will be drawn to us like magnets. including overseas, china, india, indonesia, malaysia...which are already opening up. -there is something cooking in the air ;) keke.

ps ulf also gave 2 word of knowledges to 2 individuals on their calling. learnt that we mus walk worthy of our calling. salvation is not jus a one-time event. we have been saved, we are being saved and we are going to be saved.

salvation is 3 parts: redemption, sanctification, glorification. we must leave the low calling and seek the HIGH calling. we have a calling IN this life and TO this life. we have a calling IN heaven and a calling TO heaven. if we walk in our calling, we wont stumble....nonono, e Word didnt say we wont FALL, but it says the we wont even STUMBLE! yea...=D

after dat waited on e Lord for awhile, God began to speak to HUNDREDS of ppl and gave them the invitation to their calling to the mission field. and those we knew that God is speaking to them were asked to a public invitation to stand while everyone was seated and watching.

many began to stand, John beside me stood as well. as he stood, e presence of God blew past me like a wind. many who stood were shaking and weeping. the power of God filled e place. =) there was one individual who didnt respond 3 times before, and jus now durin service God called out to that person thru ps ulf saying that 'uve missed it 3 times already. this is your last and final time to respond or you'll miss your entire destiny/calling".

ps ulf knew the number of ppl dat were gonna stand and how many left that were not yet standing as well as the names of some who didnt stand but know that God is speaking to them. but ps ulf didnt force, he allowed God to move and eventually, everyone got their calling. it was a kairos moment, once you miss it, there might not be a second chance.

which reminds me, God doesnt give second chances, God gives new beginnings :)) well, wad kind of beginning? better or worse? depends on you.

so much has happened and its only SERVICE ONE! LOL...cant wait for service 2, 3, 4, 5, 6. ;)) yeah! :D im expecting God to move in my life this weekend ^^ so yea, ill keep u guys updated, keke....XD

Tabernacle Part 2 was AWESOME! =)

yea, so awesome. its getting more and more exciting each week. The GOPT course aka Tabernacle has been extended one more wk, so 4 wks in total. as usual i wont post notes here, because its too good.

like what pastor said, the Bible is not as systematic or easy as you think, its a mega jigsaw where God has hidden secrets and deeper truths. and only the hungry will find them. learnt abt e Holy Place yesterdae, on how the bread symbolises our will. okay, i shall not be a spoiler hahas..

in short, it was great. indeed we are moving frm milk, to bread, to solid meat. solid meat is only reserved for the serious, the mature and the hungry. i like wad pastor said what it means to be a new creation.

Jesus was the first 'new creation' after the resurrection. He was the 'prototype'. He was 100% and 100% God, the King AND the Priest. and like Him, we are all called to be King AND Priests unto the Lord. and like Him, when we receive Him into our lives, we are now a new creation.

what it means to be a new creation? its to be God-Man. on earth there are 2 species that walk, excluding monkeys, the Man, and the God-Man. we are all called to be partakers of God's divine nature. To be like God is not to BE God. as a new creation, we are now 100%, but by the cross we are MORE than a human, we have the divine nature of God, we are a God-Man, like Jesus.
that is why Jesus is called the "Man Christ Jesus", after the ascension. for more details pls enroll in bible school...hahhahahahaha =p and i will one day ^^

so never say, 'u know...we are all the same, we are all merely humans...'' NO! you are not! Jesus didnt die on the cross for nothing! thats why we reject Evolution. we are made in the IMAGE and LIKENESS of God. by saying we evolved from monkeys is saying that God is a monkey! which is not the case...

so excited for weekend svc with Ulf Ekman...im goin for 6 services. ill do the notes, but that doesnt mean u dun have to go =p hahahahaha. the Word must become flesh. ;) only the hungry, will receive the deeper revelation of the Word of God. =)

lets fast with Pastor Kong together. for our cultural centre cum indoor stadium in the marketplace, next to the MRT, downtown, 10000 seater! though expo may be temporary, our final destination is where God has called us to be, in the marketplace, for the marketplace to PENETRATE the marketplace. a miracle building that no one in the history of the church has ever built! =)

a building that will place Singapore and CHC on the WORLD MAP! yeah!!! :D dun care wad ppl say, only God has the last say ;) Facts are subject to change, but the TRUTH (God's Word) is final ;)

next wk we doin on the ANOINTING! man im so excited, and expectant for God to move powerfully in the anointing. keke ;)

oh ya, btw, anyone got the notes for the definition of 666, 777 and 888??? i know 6 is e number of man so 666 is a complete carnal nature, fallen/sin nature. help pls...hehe....thanks.

Hillsongs - So You Would Come

Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cried
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
To make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

Pain pain pain, yawn yawn yawn, tired tired tired!!!

sore eyes, painful eyes, sleepy, tired, dozing off every minute and its only monday! so many presentations, so many assignments, so little time, so little sleep...

bro working, come home late wanna use, so i cant use. sch is 9-5. so at midnight i start my homework, by e time finish my qt and everything else its 3-4am plus in e morning. then wake up at 6 to prepare for sch again.

panda, lord of the 'rings', wadever u wanna call me. sch started last wk. and im goin back to my sch mood...the slacker mode, heck-care mood, stoner mood. i become totally diff when got sch and durin hols. hols got time to spend with God, sch time dun even have time to dream. and of all teachers mus see that teacher. hais...and i tot when i passed that module itll be over. manz....

i cant stand negative people, i cant stand LOSERS! you wanna lose you lose yourself, dun come drag me down...

sobs. i want my spiritual fire back!!!!!!! building fund 3 more mths...wad am i gonna tell my parents when i tell them my savings is empty? 18 years of not just my hard work, but theirs as well...18 years! no its not my credit card account, its my primary savings acc that im not supposed to touch! yes....and its gonna be empty soon....T_T

i wanna go back to sentosa to work night shift, the 11-2/3am one. then again, no time for assignment, no time for God...arrgh!!! God moves when you move...ive already moved my whole life away! God i need more of You, more of Your anointing, more of Your power!

God i want the right people in my life, anyone who's not serious with You, anyone who doesnt life the way u want them to live, take them all away....take every distraction away. i wanna be more kingdom minded. there are ppl even in e church, who love You yet, set their desires on earthly things. i wanna be different, i wanna stand out and let the glory you've placed in my shine forth.

last saturday went ate dinner with evan at kfc b4 meeting joshua to go for s3. svc was great. great message on the glory of God. 4 more wks b4 we move to expo. and at e rate e cg is goin, it seemed as if 2 weeks ago was our last fellowship together in jurong west. cus by e time Os finish we would be at expo by then, so it means yea....no last fellowship in jurong west before we move T_T

God i want your fire! your fire! more of Your fire, in the name of Jesus!

Im crazy...

My ministry is like an action movie!

went 2 sch learnt life science today! very interesting, our DNA is 6 feet long. learnt a lot of cheemology....haha! life science has made me get excited over God even more ;)

today's ministry was very thrilling, scary, exciting, weird! lol...

3 things happened today in short...i almost died twice and i really died once LOL. well, reached 610pm instead of 6pm. checked room booking to see if there was anything on. NOTE: i informed my IC and she told me something abt a replacement...so i assumed.

to my horror when i reached L4, the class was there with the speaker! and no one set the system up! waaaaaa~! thanks to wei xiang we managed to chiong up with the BS trolley and set it up at lightning speed. well, not exactly hahaha. also setup rooftop's wireless transmitter.

checked childrens' church to see if all was well, then at 8am, service started and class has ended. so can relax for now. went to eat with alan. I ATE TERIYAKI CHICKEN RICE!! YAY!! so badly missed....hahahahas!

really wanna thank alan for lendin me 4 bucks, cus he said its better than me goin to the ATM, felt really bad....when since alan insisted that i dun need to pay back. there was nothing i could do. really thank God for the people in my life :))

its been liek ages since i last ate such good food ^^ yumyum....XD now the main event starts. had some problems with walkie....fungus and all, but its not a big problem. jus change. watched a bit of e service in video room. after that was a period of time when i was literally going to and fro from B4 to L4 around 3-4 times...lol

3 things that happened that left an 'impact'...haha but before that u mus noe that in order for me to get to B4 frm L4 or rooftop, i have to take lift 1, 2, 3 or 4, 5, 6 down to L1/lobby. then walk to the Riveria take lift 7, 8 down to backstage B4. so heres wad happened:


1) while waiting for lift 7 and 8 in B4 backstage to get to L1, was kinda surprised to see 5 security camping at e lift. as i stood there they gave me the 'look'. then i was stun tio, then after a few sec i realised the lift coming down was pastor's lift where ps kong will be in with his personal 'bodyguard'. cus no one was allowed near pastor.

so i saw their faced and i received 'revelation'...hahahaha! so i 'siamed' e area wait for ps to be on stage then i went up...lol...*phew

2) when i came down from L4 to L1, then frm L1 to B4 via lift 7 and 8, i was goin to go to the sound storeroom to change walkie batt. then i opened the Artistes' Room door and lo and behold i almost interrupted a prayer session. and guess who was there...?

pastor yong (all the praise/worship leaders), the singers, musicians, etc. and some security. they were gettin ready to go on stage to lead PnW. heng no one saw me and i quickly exited the room lol!....*phew...again! lols....0.0

3) the third thing that happened i couldnt escape anymore LOL. i had to carry this 15-20KG METAL BRIEFCASE or wadever u call it. its locked and contains speakers, cables, transmitters, receivers, etc....who knows whats inside....

i was supposed to carry it frm B4 to L1 then frm L1 to L4. it has wheels so i thought it would be more convenient cus can pull/push. WHO KNOWS...as i was abt to enter lift 7 and 8 again, this time e security stopped me say, the lift's reserved cus pastor kong was leavin e stage. i almost fainted sia..

no choice...the only fastest way to get the stuff to L4 is via e stairs. so i carried this huge metal box around 20KG up the stairs! may God have mercy on my 'chiu'...lol u will never know what breathless is until you carried that 'bombcase' frm B4 to L4...service jus ended dats why lifts 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 all full!

when i reached e top, man 2 arms, shoulder to elbow...feels like its gonna come off! lol. and i was literally breathless u wanna inhale oso cant inhale much air...heart pumping as if it was gonna blow Bali up again...lolx =p

finished at around 1145pm. debriefed and took merz cab home with victor, shuxia and lynn. so comfortable i missed my turn to my house LOL! nevertheless....great day it was. praise God for 19,970 people!!! :D 30 more to go people!...hehe. the finishing line is just in front ;)

Ministry...testimony

today in sch had 4 hours of OOP, samantha was in same class as me...lol. she told me she goin for Tabernacle and asked me how e queue was like...haha. it seems every class im in theres always more than 1 CHC peeps lol.

yea, it was good today. well, except for one embarrassing moment LOL. was doing sound checks in chinese church room, childrens' church room, cafe then when i went to lobby. manz, e moment i turned on e volume...my ears almost corroded! lol!

at one time i met zack and hilde and peng at cafe...also met huixin and tricia during e break

well, back to e incident...apparently the guy/gal who set up e lobby system, didnt test the system. and when the BS has started, one of the crews remembered that the lobby system havent benn switched on, so they asked me to rush down to turn it on. (no one wouldve thought that the lobby system was NOT tested! waaaaa)

everyone looked at me when the awful cracking, distorted sound came out from e speakers, evan stared at me from the recep...man worse....the DFO (Duty Facility Officer) was abt to walk out of the FCC room which was next to the guys toilet and i almost kena thrashed lol.

luckily mindy helped me out and told me to lower the gain. and yea...thank God for good timing, the DFO walked out when the sound cleared off hahahaha yeah!!! =) if not the end will come hahaha...also learnt something new today haha. learnt to troubleshoot ^^

so lobby, check! went back to overflow to see if things were goin well. then went into video rm to listen to the Word. although it might be e second night, but man i jus love the Word and i dun mind hearing it over and over again ;)

after BS packed up, teared down and cleared the place. went back to B4 to get my stuffs and see if anything else needs to be done. left at 1220am...reached home around 1245am. ate dinch (dinner cum lunch), haha, ate wanton mee ^^ keke....

im gonna miss CG...T_T 3 weeks...but excited for part 2 of tabernacle next week on the Holy Place. and after these 3 weeks of Going on to Perfection, its ulf ekman then itll be our GREAT MOVE TO EXPO! yea!!! :))

Tabernacle was gooooood =)

it was awesome today...learnt a LOT. but sry to disappoint u peeps out there, there wont be any notes this time. its toooo goood ;) haha, got free coursebook also. not that im selfish but you should be there to experience God for yourselves ;) its something u have to catch hold of =)

jus like some ppl, jus by watching service online every week is not enough, you have to step out of your comfort zone and enter the House ;) true disciples and mature ppl dun live by convenience, but by conviction =)

like wad ps said, this seminar on Going on to Perfection is a new syllabus. its for the really mature and hungry and 'grown up' ppl, not for those still feeding on milk or babes in Christ. cus its rather cheem and deep, very theoretical ;) its really in depth study...:D everything had significance in e tabernacle...

from the colors of the curtains/veils to the pillars, to the size, furniture, amount of light, area, volume.....everything has a purpose, a prophetic significance, and has a meaning behind it. really cool stuff :D

so excited :)) weekend services hes gonna continue on GOTP. 3 weeks then ULF EKMAN IS BACK! yay!!!! lols....then itll be our move to expo and our opening ceremoony. so excited for christmas and our year-end countdown! =))

so many things, so much excitement....manz...i cant wait ;) indeed we are moving from glory to glory, strength to strength :D at e end of this year, more than crossing 20,000 ppl, we are gonna move on to greater things :) which means greater challenges, and greater obstacles, but at e same time greater move of God and greater victories ;)

like wad ps said, its not goin to be a new chapter, but a new book! :)

Downloadable file

I've managed to put the notes for Ps Robb Thompson's (Excellence in Relationships) onto a Word Document.

You can download it from HERE

Ahhh....Chooooo!!!

today was first day in sch. only had 2 hours of sleep cus i was doin e notes till 4 plus. woke up at around 6. left house at 7 plus. my eyes felt heavy, weak and sore...*ouchies...

and yes...ive fallen sick as a result too...caught e flu bug...>.< nothing much happened today, jus dat ive jus received my first group assignment and presentation is next week! so pro rite?...lols. first day of school...lols.

got 2 modules without exam, cus one is project based and e other only have test but no exam. guess its a relief i suppose. my eyes still hurt...dry, heavy, painful...plus my nose....*sniff sniff...

im too tired to crack myself today...lol. i guess thats a relief for some ppl hahahas! my table is like full of tissues! boohoohoo T.T *sniff

but THANK GOD today is holiday! mans if not ill make sure people crack...and not just me...lol. ppl see me crack before, but seldom ppl see me MAKE OTHERS crack lol. wahahaahha crack, cracking crackers! lol =p

excited for The Tabernacle conference/seminar later ^^. servin tom though (wed)..most prob in cafe, overflow. then friday serving again. so busy busy busy...and one more thing...my BIBLE READING! arrghs!.....better start soon....*Ahhhh-Chooooo!!! *Sniff :S