Jogging, Pissed, Close your browser NOW.

Grr..so mad. Ive been running like crazy, exercising like more than the ORD people, and I still look so GDmn same! I cant stand it!

My hands..WTH. People 'grip' the pull up bar, I 'hook' the pull up bar. O_O WHY!?! Because my hands cant fully grip the bar! "Huh?" Because they're frigging small! -.-

How do people do pull ups?

They jump.
They grip.
They pull...using their arm muscles.

Me?

I jump.
I hook.
I slip.
I drop.

WTH!?!

I just cant grip the GDmn bar! Even if I do grip them, I'll be using my fingers and my palm/wrist muscles to pull. WHY? Because they always slip.

Ohhhhh..but how do the short people with small hands do it?

Its because they're small! For someone my size, to have hands THAT size, is just ridiculous.

Im damn pissed. You look at some people, they dont exercise, they keep fit. And here I am, sweating my butt off at least twice a week, and after one frigging month, I still look the same! GRAAAH!

I wish I could just f-word my way through this entry, but I know some 'retarded' people are gonna make a whole list of crappy comments and 'feedback' like, "Ohhh you must luuurrrrrve, its all about lurrrrrrve mannn...". O_O

I dont get it, why do you wanna feedback in the first place!?! Does my back have a mouth for you to feed!?!

But seriously, there are lots of f-words in my mind right now, so pissed, I cant take it! And what about next week? Whole week..GONE! Poof! Just like that.

Serving later. Thank GOD my fingers are big enough to press buttons!

Sorry, its 2.40am, my most 'redundant' posts are all posted after 2am, after midnight. When Im at my most 'insane'.

Video, Rants (Weird dressers, smokers), Games

Another funny video Torance showed me during guitar lesson haha.

Yesterday while I was jogging I noticed something, girls tend to wear a lot during the day and wear very little at night? O_O Im not saying all do, but there are a few weird handful. I dont get it. Whats so hot about the moon and whats so cold about the sun? ^.O

And as seen in most real life scenarios..people who dress like that, sometimes, are the very same people who like to say, "We can wear what we want, it doesnt mean you can be tempted wat!"

Well..let me say this..such people are born with no brains and common sense.

Its like you, queueing for the toilet.
And then a bangala comes by.
Then when you wanna use the toilet, he stops you and shoves you aside,
He then knocks you down and punches you in the face, saying:

"I constructed the toilet, it doesnt mean you can use what!"

Hello? Where are your brains? Your left brain go to your left breast and your right brain go to your right breast isit?

Or are your brains on your butt? Cus it looks like a brain too, big and round, with a 'line of division'. O_O. If you're not that kind of people, you can ignore my nonsense, otherwise..

Please..you may think you evolved from monkeys..

You may look like one,
Smell like one,
Or even behave and think like one,
But please, you're not.

Start embracing your humanity and start using your brains for goodness sake!

Speaking of people with 'weird' dressing...

Just now I was ta-paoing food home, and I was at the traffic junction, out in the hot sun, waiting for the green light. Then I saw this schoolgirl, looking like a total eskimo.

She was wearing a sweater jacket, inside is her school uniform, then inside somemore is the school t-shirt. I guess, she's probably wearing her PE shorts INSIDE her skirt too. God knows, she might even be wearing another layer underneath, a bikini, or something..O_O

Seriously...

ARE YOU PEOPLE INSANE!?!

You think this is the discovery channel!?! Then again, whats so cold about the sun, and whats so hot about the moon? And people who wear like that complain how hot the weather is.

"Ohhhhh my make-up, ohhhhh my mascara, ohhhh my, ohhhhh, ohhhh, ohhhhh..."

You having orgasm isit!?!

Gosh, have you lost your frigging mind? Or..maybe...

You never had one in the first place? O_O

I think NS should be compulsory for girls, since they can handle it so well.

And..its not just the girls. Even guys! Wear school uniform, then wear jacket, out in the frigging hot sun. Okay, at least guys are not so 'overly-dramatic', they wear lesser layers. But still, if you wanna look cool, if you think its such a great fashion sense..

Then let me say this,

The only fashion sense I see..is the Ah Ming Fashion! Yes, the fashion of monkeys!

*Woo-hoohoo! Waaa-haahaaaheehee! *Scratch Armpits!

You look like a total clown, and a total retard for crying out loud.

Next,

Has anyone ever encountered people who smoke 'over-dramatically' as well? Im fine with people who smoke, I have friends who do and they're nice people.

But..people who stand in a corner, puffs the cigarette and they start blowing at people. Yeah, 'blowing' people, that sounds so wrong. But anyway...

So, these guys are standing there, cross-legged, AH KUA AH!?! *Arms folded. Then when people walk past, they 'blow' at them. You think that looks cool?

Let me tell you, you look like a frigging gay!

Have you seen their face when they do that? Some are even more extreme. I just cant help laughing at their pathetic face. When they 'blow' at people, they have this "Kiss me!" look on their face. And they really blow as if they are kissing the person (just look at their lips), even if its a lao ah pek!

And its a guy blowing the smoke!

So what? Now your sexual orientation is screwed too? Oh please!

And..

There are those, when they blow the smoke, they look as if:

"Ooooooh, help me, my ka cheng got traffic jam, my pang sai cannot come out.."

They look seriously constipated.

One last thing..hahaha..

You know when after the smoke, instead of throwing away the cigarette, there are those who like to 'flick' their cigarettes (or 'tap' their cigarettes)? Please. That flicking action is so ah kua.

(Again..I have nothing against homosexuals. I have good friends who are 'different'. I just love to talk about people who wants free publicity and attention.)

You know how when a male homosexual bends/waves his fingers in a feminine fashion? Well, some people after smoking, love to show a bit of feminity on their 'flicking/tapping fingers'.

Ohh yes..you look soooo sexy..O_O.

The only people I know, who move their fingers like that, are ladies....
When they're going for manicure. O_O

Some people just need to go back to primary school,
And study Hao Gong Ming. O.O

New games Ive downloaded haha. Pretty cool suspense, mild horror games. Where you're trapped all alone in an abandoned mine or cave. Nothing to do with ghosts really, just wild creatures like dogs, spiders and giant rock worms, that grow under the ground.

The physics are really cool, you can pick up objects, turn them around, stack them, etc. And the user interaction is really good too. To open doors, you have to click with your mouse, and drag your mouse, as if you are really opening the door, same with swinging tools like hammers, axes, etc. =)

Feeling -_-

12 months is all he has,

After that the doctors will have a 're-evaluation'.

How can I carry such a burden with me into my NS? To LOUD camp?


Going jogging now, alone...

Guitaring

Now I have a total of 7 guitar students.

Each week Im teaching to at least 5 people, and for free.

People think Im crazy,
People think Im too 'overexaggerated',

But I think its great to have a dream while you are yet young.

When I had that same dream 2 years ago,
I had no one to teach me, no one to guide me.

Only after I became cgg that it was Pow Wee who came and rose me up.

I had to learn my own chords,
Strum my own rhythms,
And exercise my own technique.

Didnt know what was right, what was wrong.

Words alone, cannot express..

God is not looking for those who qualify for Him,
God is looking for those who LOVE Him.

So what if you've let Him down?
So what if you've let people down?
So what if you're worn out or dead?

Rise up, take your mat, and walk!

*Links updated

Obedience is greater than sacrifice

I felt horrible.
I felt pain.

Emotions were running inside of me.

The wound is still healing.

No matter how much my flesh said no,
No matter how much my heart aches,
No matter how much my thoughts ran wild,

I forced myself to go for prayer meeting.
And I broke through, even though its a little, but at least there still is.

I didnt care how people think.
You think it was easy to be there? No.
Every single second, my heart aches.

Does it take guts to face people you've let down? Yes.
Does it take guts to face people who've let you down? Yes.
Does it take guts to put aside everything and focus? Yes.

Was it emotionally draining? Yes.

But I guess thats how I am, stubbornly stubborn.
Stubborn to people.
Stubborn to God.

So stubborn to God's love, that it forces me to do the ridiculous and the embarrasing.

Its not about the pain, or the sacrifice.
Its about the obedience.

I know the feeling is weird, tense, you name it.
But I still went.

How strong is your will?
How strong is your spirit?
How deep is your love?

If I can do it, so can you.

Sometimes you need to stress yourself,
Pressure yourself, force yourself.
Be fearless, be 'ruthless' when it comes to God.

Back in JW days, even if no one went for extra service, I still went alone.
Even when no one went for PM (there was once), I still went, prayed with strangers,
Met new people.

Its not JUST about the people.
Why are you in church?

If one day, bibles are banned.
If one day, churches are banned.
What will you do?
Where will you go?

Can you still love God?
Can you still encounter Him, hear from Him?

I know I can.
Because I still feel Him, even in dry or painful moments.

Its not just about DOING THE THINGS,
Its about KNOWING the person.

Its not about going to church,
Its about meeting God.

Its not about praying to Him,
Its about having communion with Him.

Its not about fasting,
Its about seeking His face.

Its not about singing songs,
Its about expressing your love.

Its not about lifting your hands,
Its about surrendering a 100%.

Are you someone stuck to religion?
Or are you someone with a genuine relationship?

If you're not willing to do the ridiculous,
You'll never experience the miraculous.

TWK Films - Freakin' Moviegoers

This video is a tribute to all those who dont understand the meaning of switching your handphones to silent mode.

And...

Also to those who love to attract attention.

Enjoy...

Typical Singaporeans Rant.

Typical singaporeans are facey people.
They care a lot about their face.
Not just physically, but also emotionally.
They are always overwhelmed by generation gaps.

Typical singaporeans have a big ego.
They walk around with their heads lifted high...
So high that they cant see the lamp post in front of them. *BANG.
Sorry to say this, but especially aunties...
Or even 'youth aunties', they love to put their bags on one chair and sit on the other.

For what reason? I dont know, maybe they wanna show off their bag?
Or showing off their feministic dominance?
You dont see guys doing that do you?
Well, maybe its because we dont carry handbags.
Except for tinky winky..which Im not so sure, if he's a guy in the first place.

Whenever I see ladies doing that..I love to give up my seat.
It becomes SOOOO easy. Just to suan that lady in front of everyone.
I love doing that.

A friend once told me,
In the eyes of a lady, she's always fat.
Maybe you should stop taking up 2 seats just for one tiny butt of yours.
You think this is cartoon network???

A typical singaporean loves to hog the escalator.
Okay, so you wanna stand next to your girlfriend, fine.
But come on, if you both stand to one side, and you behind your girlfriend...
You can still hug her from behind right?

Sometimes you should really use your brain to think..
Ah! That shows one thing, you arent really a creative boyfriend after all!
You could also use your God-given eyes, to really start looking around you.

In front of you, is NOBODY at all.
Behind you, is one whole pasah malam gang of people all stuck because of you two.
Then again, you think this is America's Funniest Home videos ah?
Well, let me tell you something. This isnt america, and this isnt your home.
So behave properly, in public!

Typical singaporeans love to enter a lift, stand there like a museum artifact, and wait for the door to close.

Why doesnt anyone press the buttons huh?
You want me sign you up for usher isit?
If you wanna enter a lift to stand there at the back.
Go take the stairs of the escalator.
You can stand anywhere you want, you can even sit down and let people trample on you.

Typical singaporeans walk really slow!
Im fine with slow walkers, but please dont HOG THE WALKWAY!
If you are...*cough...not so fast. Please stand one side.
This is not your grandfather's road..
Okay, this is a walkway, not a road..but still..

Fine, assuming its YOUR grandfather's road.
Well, Ive got news for you. YOUR GRANDFATHER ISNT THERE!
Ohhhh wow, how come I didnt know?
Cus you're blind you dimwit!

You think your father pay tax I scared ah?
Well..let me tell you something.
My Father gave your father a job okay!
Ohhhhhhhhh...wooooooowwwww...thats so corny...
Im so a-maize-d.

Sorry my lameness and crappiness. The heat's getting to me.
I shall end with one video:

Hotness Prevails - Worst Video Ever.

If you think that is me, I feel sorry for you.

2 more weeks, Emotions

2 more weeks and Ill no longer be around.

No more smile.
No more queueing.
No more serving.
No more guitar.
No more waiting.
No more treats.
No more recording.
No more lameness.
No more crapping.
No more freezing.
No more 'provoking'.
No more videos.
No more late night jogs.
No more fellowship.
No more service.
No more celgrp.
No more rhema.
No more word of wisdom.
No more word of knowledge.
No more prophetic words.
No more encouragement.

2 more weeks and this blog will no longer be active.

There will be no more posts,

No more sermon notes.
No more revelations.
No more encounters.
No more experiences.
No more lame rants.
No more thought sharing.
No more reflections.
No more pics or photos.
No more new songs.

I guess my blog will be pretty dead by then.
My hit counter will probably freeze.
My tagboard would collect dust and cobwebs.
The song on my blog wont change.

There will be change. For better or for worse?
It will be the last time you will see Androne the way he is right now.

How I enter will determine how I finish.
Words alone cannot express the thoughts and emotions.

Gotta prepare for my holiday with God..

VXP - Modern Classic Skin

Things like these cheer me up. (No I didnt use Paint to draw the background.)

Shadrach, Meshach, Abednego, Service 4

They couldve took the easy way out.

Whats so difficult about bowing?
Besides, Im sure God understands right?

They couldve fought for their freedom,
They couldve fought for their happiness.

"Just bow and you'll be free."
"Just bow and you'll be happy."

Its so easy. So comfortable.

But how can someone experience the 4th man, unless he is first thrown into the furnace?

Many times the moment we see a drowning person,
We try to jump in and save him, throw the float, do so much.
Not knowing that the person could swim on his own.

I may be down, I may be crushed and hurt deeply,
But at least I still know that God knows what He's doing.

When Jesus was on the cross.

There were those who cried and sympathised with Him.
And there were those who, not knowing what the plan of God is..
Shout, "If you are the son of God, come down."

There were those who shouted, "He's innocent! Let him go!"
Does it sound politically correct? Im sure it does.
Does it sound like the right thing to do? Yes.

BUT...

In that scenario, it was NOT the GOD thing to do.
God had something in mind.

Yes, there are those who needs to be saved.
But there are those who God has allowed to go through the fire.

As I stood in service 4, God began to speak to me.

"Andrew, will you let me break you even more? Can I have your permission, to deal with you and to shape you and mold you? I know it hurts right now, it hurts Me more than it hurts you. But I have a plan, can you take the pain? Can you take the heat? Will you let Me take you to places your eye has not seen, your ears have not heard, nor mind conceived?"

Ps Tan gave the altar call a second time, and I went.

Totally broken, totally surrendered, in tears.
I remembered hearing Ps Aries, standing in front of me..
Praying for 5-10 seconds, before I felt it.

I remembered God telling me the first few days when I became cgg..

"You will go through fire like you've never experienced before. I will change so much in you. Sometimes you have to go through what other people went through..alone..will you let Me take your hand?"

Back then, I didnt know better. I just said 'yes, do what You will.' Not knowing the consequences of that prayer until recently.

I may be in a valley right now, but as long as Im holding God's hand.
Im happy enough.

Do you love Him enough to not only let Him break you,
But to break you..all the way?

Brokenness (long post)

L.I.F.E.

1. Leave to Cleave
2. Intimacy with God
3. Faith in God (Fidelity/Loyalty)
4. Example through brokenness

You will never come to a place of example if you havent fulfilled the first 3 stages.

I dont care what people say or think about me.

Misunderstanding? Ive been there. Lots of times.
Belittling? Ive been there.
Discouragement? Ive been there.
Loneliness? Ive been there.
Loss? Ive been there.
Betrayal? Ive been there.
Low self esteem? Ive been there.
Poverty? Ive been there.
Sickness? Im there now.
Barrenness? Ive been there.
Persecution? Ive been there.
Taken advantage of? Ive been there.
Unappreciated? Ive been there.
Failure? Ive been there.
Desperation? Ive been there.
Hopelessness? Ive been there.
Fear? Ive been there.
Purposeless? Ive been there.
Public humiliation? Ive been there last night.

I can just put down one whole list..

People can say Im backsliding, people can say Im immature, people can say Ive done bad things in my life, people can say Im unstable..they can say all they want.

I would not be in a state of brokenness if I hadnt choose to leave the world to cleave to God.
I would not be in a state of brokenness if I never had intimacy with God
I would not be in a state of brokenness if I never had faith in God..
I would not be in a state of brokenness if I have no fidelity or loyalty in God..

In a way, its because I have those, that Ive come to a place of example, a place of brokenness.

Always being there for someone, then when the going gets tough for me, the person vanishes. And all other nonsense.

The last thing people wanna do now is to pour oil into fire.

If God wants to break me, let Him do His thing.
Dont play God unless you're certain you're part of His plan for my life.

Its not like Ive not been broken before.
Its not like I have once left even though many times I said I would leave.
Its not like I have once shouted at someone even though I felt like.

Its okay if people dont understand, Im used to it. Im not expecting anyone to.

If there were people who understands in the first place, I wouldnt have been broken.
If people understood in the first place, how am I gonna help people who are in the same way, misunderstood by others?

Ive done so much for God and for people and yet, my life is full of breaking points.
So much that sometimes I wonder how I can be broken so many times and yet Im still standing.

You cant just ask any tom, dick or harry to take my place, lead my life.
He or she will crumble under the pressure.

You have your own breaking points, I cant handle.
I have my own breaking points that you cant handle.
There's nothing to compare about.

I never said I was angry with God.

When someone close to me was yelling at me with that tone at the coffeeshop.
Maybe not yelling, maybe just overly excited.

At the corner of one eye, other tables were staring at me.
At another corner of my eye, another table was staring at me.
I stared at the soya bean stall, the owner was staring at me.
Char kuay tiao stall, cooks looking at me.

Did he attract a lot of attention? Yes.
Yet the people around werent looking at him, they were looking at me.
They probably thought, "Man, this guy so lazy one ah? Did he do something wrong?"

Yet what did I do? I sat there, nodded my head, and smiled.

Did I know I was gonna break, yes.
I was tired, I was serving the whole day..

Ps Tan gave a special altar call, I knew I had to go.
Yet I couldnt. I felt like I disobeyed God, I let Him down.

I was downcast already.

But yet, I sat there, like a lamb being led to the slaughter.
Knowing what would happen. And yet I didnt talk back, I didnt retaliate.

I just let myself be broken, deep down I just thought, "What an honor it would be, to be broken by the one you love and trust the most, by the one you respect the most, by the one you looked up to the most."

I was totally conscious.

I knew what was going on. The things I said that I shouldnt, the things I did that I shouldnt.

Dont worry, once I enter the academy, you will have one less problem to worry about.

I couldve just let it all go, I couldve just pretended nothing happened, go home, play my games and cheer myself up. But I allowed myself to be broken, so broken that Im no longer recognisable by people...to the point where people could no longer believe their ears or eyes...

I was wearing the same shirt, the same jeans, carrying the same bag..as that day I encountered the 3 angels. Coincidence? On that day, the same thing happened to me, I did the same 'stunt'.

Just that this time, there were no angels. Just one. And she was the only one who didnt look at me and say, "How come you become like that?"

Thanks for being a listening ear.
Even though I just came to take back my guitar, but I was really blessed by the sharing session.
Thanks for pressing in even though it seemed impossible for anyone to press in.

I didnt know what was gonna happen that night.
I didnt know why my guitar had to be with you until last night.
I didnt know why I ended up taking the guitar from you last night, of all the other days.

Its so strange..how the encourager can become the encouraged,
How the one who once needed encouragement, now becomes the encourager.

You have grown stronger, and really become mature.
Keep on going and never despise the days of small beginnings! =)

If not amber will come to me and ask me why I never take care of her member haha.

The prophetic word I once shared with a friend on msn, came back to me.

XXX: y do u think God always let me experience trials? but others ard me, are all so happy
XXX: or am i too pessimistic?

Androne : nope. its because you've asked God to raise you up and to change you.

Be careful what you wish for.

I remembered I once sang this prayerful song to God..

Fill me Jesus, fill me now
Fill me Jesus, with Your precious holy power
I am Yours, my Lord
Do to me as You will
So fill me Jesus, right now.

All of us want to be comfortable, to have fun.

How can anyone fall in love with brokenness?

No one

No one knows how it feels like to have a family member's life on the line.
(And yet somebody can treat it as a joke)

No one knows how it feels like to be FORCED to disappoint 2-3 people in your life.
No one knows how it feels like to be FORCED to break your own promises and convictions.

No one knows how it feels like to have your last few precious days taken away from you.

Everytime Im always giving, never receiving.
Enough is enough. Im empty now, what else do you want?

LOUD camp? Loud indeed. So loud that people are deaf to the cries of another.
Excitement? Indeed. So excited people lose their sensitivity to the feelings of others.

No one knows how it feels like to lay down your life for another person.
No one knows how it feels like to give all you've got to make someone else's dream come true.
Only to realise, "Oh Im sorry to disappoint you, I cant carry on helping you anymore."

Maybe you're used to breaking promises.
Maybe you're used to living for yourself, so that you can have fun.

Im tired of compromising all the time.
3 nights not enough, people want 3 whole days.

One whole week gone.
The week after, gone for 2 years, no idea what will become of me.

If people want a compulsory attendance, why ASK ME IN THE FIRST PLACE?
If people want me to be perfect, then Im sorry, I dont belong here.

Secret Place, Revelations, Happenings

The past few days have been experiential for me.

A few days ago went jogging with tor, shi, kar, laughing kar and another of their member, (dont know the name :S), jogged 6 rounds non stop round boon lay sec. I heard its around 4.8-5km. Hmm, I dont know, I just needed to be alone, to get things off my mind.

After that went to macs with tor, kar, laughing kar and the 'other member' gosh, I need something to name him..lol..anyone? =/ Met up with amber. She' so funny lol.

Amber: I came here just for you, you know?
Andrew: Aww Im so touched.
Amber: (Touched?) I like.

Wahahaha..faint! =|

Sat there and listened to Tor share his jokes haha. Then went home after a short while.

Today was literally home the whole day, no guitar lesson, no nothing. And I miss NP Canteen1 kaki fuyong and chicken chop/cutlet haha..I miss the fish n chips too, chicken butter rice from canteen3, and canteen4's jap and western. =/

So I took a trip down, all by myself, to NP canteen1 just to have lunch.

Well, on one hand, I was hungry and was craving for NP food. On the other hand, I make it an effort to have lunch with God at least once every week. So I just sat there, alone, by the edge, stared at the scenery and enjoyed my food, talking to God.

And its in those times when Im alone, God speaks to me the most and I just had a revelation:

Sometimes we pray,
Sometimes we talk to Him.
But why is it...
There are times He doesnt reply?

He is nice, gentle and patient.
He doesnt cut people's conversations.
And so..whats the reason?

Its pretty simple.

Its because He is waiting for our heart and our minds to stop talking.

Most of the time, our head spins so quickly, but our heart is slow to engage Him.

After the lunch, went home with seowshi. We shared many things on the bus, and even though I may be in church for a longer time, there were still things I learnt from her.

Just came back from jogging.

Many times, people come to me and thank me for this and that, but it should be me who's thanking God, for placing so many great people in my life.

I mean, just reading Tor's blog never fails to inspire me. Even though there are ups and downs in his life, yet he is someone genuine. His cg is such a warm place to be in. I remembered when I was playing for Amber for one month, every week was a moment I could never forget...

Not only because of the presence of God, but because its the people.

Young as they may be, though they dont have much, yet every week you see them smile, every week you see them worship, the older ones helping the newer ones, its just such a moving sight.

They may not be the most 'outstanding' cg, or the biggest, or the most 'professional', but its the little things that they do that make a difference.

Sometimes we just take the things we have for granted, being in a fun and happening cg, its so easy to forget where we came from..

I will never forget those days...

I took the guitar alone in my room, cried buckets, not knowing how to play the guitar.

I had no one to teach me, yet with tears in my eyes, I forced myself to play. I just kept on strumming downwards, my chords were nothing, I sounded horrible, yet I cried all the more,

"God, I want to play for You, God I want to worship You, You are such a nice God, I cant stand myself for playing such horrible tunes to You.."

And I would feel so discouraged and sad that I couldnt even worship God properly.

Thats how I started out.

Man looks at the outward appearance,
But God looks at the heart.

Survey from Zoe's blog

1. Beer: Bear.

2. McDonald's: Fillet-O-Fish

3. Relationships: Nil

4. Purple: Cupboard

5. Power Rangers: Brown Ranger. *Its morphin time! *KA-BANG! "Wild Boar! Heeyah! *Oink!"

6. Weed: I dont have a garden.

7. Steroids: How bout stereo?

8. Cartoons: Car toons

9. The President: Sang Nila Utama

I...

1)...am obsessed with: blogging

2)...can't live without: God. Yeah! And of course, my guitar wife.

3)...am proud of: my lameness

4)...really need to: sleep

5)...don't get why: people dont laugh at my jokes :(

6)...relax by: gaming

7)...am excited about: getting excited. Oh no, that sounds wrong.

My...

1)...fridge usually contains: more smaller fridges

2)...teenage years were: hilarious

3)...family is: great

4)...biggest regret: Hmm regrets, nah, I dont live in regrets. I have a purpose.

)...friends don't understand why: Im so irritating

6)...attitude to exercise: Sanity

8 random facts about myself :

1. I am random

2. I can be really random

3. I am lame

4. I can be lamer

5. I am quiet

6. I dont like going out or meeting people.

7. For some reason, I understand and relate to people really easily

8. I am imperfect

Continuation:

1. who is your all time inspiration? - Rev Kong Hee

2. have you had a crush on me? - naaaaani? lol. we never met.

3. if you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you and why?

- Timothy - He's one of my closest friend, bro and helper.
- Torance - His blog is inspiring and genuine, he's a great laugh too. I mean, he can make people laugh too =/ OOPS.
- Shing - Her entries are always about God and the Holy Spirit. Full of revelations.

4. place that you wanna go to the most? - My bed..Its 3am.

5. if you have one dream to come true, what would it be? - To be able to give every friend 1,000,000 US dollars as a blessing.

6. do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? - Ive even seen double rainbows. O_O

7. what are you afraid to lose the most now? - Monopoly. Nah, Im kidding, I didnt misread the question.

8. if you win $1, what would you do? - Photoshop it and add 6 more zeros to it. (1,000,000) OH YEAH!

9. if you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him or her? - If the person is someone I love, and she's a close friend to me, yeah.

Relationship is nothing without the basis of friendship.

10. list out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.- Er, who? Many people tagged me. Oh lets see..Lookie here, the last tag was made by Androne. Hmm, 3 good points about Androne?

Lame, Crappy, Insane. Bahaha.

11. what are the requirements that you wish for your other half?

Genuine love for God
Genuine love for people
SMILE! Even if your teeth is ugly. =)) You will still look beautiul.

12. which type of person do you hate the most? - Dont know, I dont really hate anyone.

13. highlight of the week? - *Searches room for highlighter pen.

14. if you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or keep quiet? - I would first admit them. If others find it out, I will listen, only to people whom Im close to; people who know me inside out.

Just because I look like a guy, do you even think Im really a guy? Hmm.

15. what do you think is the most important thing in your life? - God

16. are you a shopaholic? - nope. but i am a gamerholic.

17. what's on your mind right now? - Blood cells, brain cells, nerve cells...*Zeee-monster

18. if you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change? - To be more proactive.

19. what's the last shocking thing that you seen or heard? - the photo on my previous blog entry.

20. what's bothering you lately? - my fitness

I tag......

1) Someone

2) Anyone

3) Everyone!

To take this quiz.

Haircut, Braincut, Random.

Welcome to the FBI Criminal Record Database.

Target identified: Androne Retard Lee
Age/Gender: 20, Male + Female + Alien
Arrest warrant: Multiple attempts to commit farson.
Appearance: Looks like like an ordinary guy, until he opens his mouth.

Crime description:

Farson: When an arson attempt ends up freezing things/people instead, it becomes F-arson (Frozen Arson)

Precautionary measures: Avoid contact with target at all costs, as prolonged exposure may prove to be tranquilizing or even fatal.

Bounty: Any witnesses must immediately dial 1800-down-with-retards. A bounty reward of SGD$1,000,000 will be issued on the spot as the target is a wanted man.

Other info: Target is capable of multiple, nonsensical facial expressions to camouflage with the crowd. He is most frequently seen alone. God knows, if he's really a screw loose. If you come into contact with him, do not attempt to confront him alone, he's heavily armed with a mouth that kills and a facial expression that cripples.

Prevention is always better than cure.

Prank Calls

To the girl who gave me 5 missed prank calls without a number.

Dont ask me how I know you're a girl. I can stalk too.

You must be really pathetic not to know...
That I dont answer private/unknown/null/home numbers.

If I do, just prepared for lots of words.

I am alive. So if you wanna prank call me. Whoever it is, Im gonna reply.

Why? Because I am an accountable person.
You just have to learn to deal with me, thats all.

And dont make innocent people around you, do your dirty work.

If you know me personally, I can be your best friend.
If you dont know me, then Im just gonna treat you like a stranger.

Nothing much to think about.
Its common sense and human instinct.

Im a boring and serious person (Im not a 'fun' person), thus, Im seriously boring.
So avoid me like the plague.

And yes, I am a lame person.
I can be so lame that people hate me because anything can be a lame joke.

Maybe its because Im sitting down, thats why Im lame. (Cus Im not walking)

"Hey mate!"
"No Im not your mate. (Im single)".

Came to my rescue

To those who are tired, He is your strength

To those who are discouraged, He is your rod

To those who are feeling lonely, He is your companion

To those who are stressed, the joy of the Lord is your strength

When you look at the world, you will be distressed.
When you look at yourself, you will be depressed.
But when you look to Him, you will be at rest.

Harvest Times - Choosing the Right Partner 2

8 Fatal Flaws to watch out for, when looking for a partner (Rev Kong Hee):


1. Anger


Prov 22:24 - "Keep away from angry, short-tempered people". (NLT)

An angry person is like a time bomb.
An angry person is like a terrorist, he/she keeps you hostage.
Anger is normal frustration, but in your anger do not sin.

How do you tell if one has gone overboard? (These people will destroy any friendship or relationship; they are inappropriate.)

a. Person reacts by screaming, name calling, cursing, swearing, shouting threats.
b. Person reacts by face turning red, or body trembling in rage.
c. Person clenches/bangs fists, storms out of rooms, slams the doors.
d. Person deliberately hangs up the phone.
e. Person expresses physical anger: shoving, hitting, throwing objects, etc.

If you are seeing little warning signs that your partner has an anger problem, they are like sparks telling you that fire is sure to follow.

Extricate yourself from that relationship.
Insist that him/her seek help from God through prayer and counselling.


2. Victim Consciousness


People who blame others for all their problems.
A result of the fall when Adam blamed his wife. (Gen 3:9-13)

They can even end up blaming authority, leadership or even God.
They dont take responsibility over their own actions.

People who cant accept responsibility over their own actions have never grown up.

They have a hard time receiving love or support.
They enjoy 'sufferings'. Holding on their pain gives them the illusion that they have power over those whom they perceive have hurt them.

No matter how hard you try to console a "victim", they will refuse to be cheered up.
No matter how much you give, its never enough.

They walk round looking miserable, and yet not telling you what the problem is.

No matter how much suggestions you give to make things better, the "victim" will always have an "its no use" attitude.

If you know anyone with this issue, you have to confront this issue even if it makes the person uncomfortable.

If the person doesnt change, dont fool yourself. Its not gonna work out.


3. Control Freak


The opposite of the "Victim conscious".

Victim: Avoids making any decisions
Freak: Must make all the decisions personally

Victim: Wants you to tell him/her what to do
Freak: Tells you what to do...ALL THE TIME.

Control Freaks:

a. Have a hard time opening up

b. Dont like to admit they need people

c. Highly posessive and easily jealous - They control ALL your time and do not give you space for normal friendships

d. Get hurt easily; They get upset when they dont have their way or feel out of control.

e. Workaholics - They have a hard time resting after work

f. Usually have sexual problems in marriage - hard time letting go of themselves in bed.

g. They usually become very domineering and critical parents

In order to change, one has to admit he/she HAS a problem and let God take charge.
-Psm 32:4-5

3 diseases / plagues that kill a relationship:

a. Control - domineering
b. Fear - intimidation
c. Selfish exploitation - manipulation

Avoid these like the plague!


4. Sexual Immorality


1 Cor 15:11

2 Areas of sexual immorality:

a. Sexual addiction and obsession

Porn deadens male libido in relation to women
-It turns men off the real thing.

Porn destroys intimacy
-You cant say you love someone and yet fantasize about having sex with someone else.

b. Lack of sexual integrity

Job 31:1

Does your partner flirt around?
Does your partner stare at other people's bodies?
Does your partner make sexual comments about other people to you?
Does your partner touch other people inappropriately?
Does your partner have sex with someone else while having a relationship with you?

If your partner doesnt respect you before marriage, you can forget about being respected after marriage.

Ignoring a problem wont make it go away, deal with it.


5. Hasnt grown up


The person may be an adult and yet have no sense of responsibility or maturity.
You end up becoming more of a parent than a partner.

4 questions to ask:

a. Is your partner financially irresponsible?

Constantly borrowing money.
Late in returning debts.

Does your partner plan ahead financially?
Does your partner spends money indiscriminately on luxury items he/she cant afford?
Is your partner always changing jobs?

Luke 16:11
God watches how we handle money.

If your partner is careless in treating money, he/she will be careless in treating you.

b. Is your partner undependable?

1 Cor 13:11

A child:
i) Is always late for
ii) Breaks promises
iii) Forgets the rules
iv) Never does what he says he would do

In a love relationship, you should be a lover, not a parent!

c. Is your partner unmotivated?

Does your partner have a purpose or sense of direction in life?
Is your partner decisive?
Does your partner retreats from problems instead of facing them?
Is your partner someone who is waiting for someone to come along and give him his 'big break'?

That person hasnt grown up! He/she is merely waiting for someone to do everything for him/her!

We all go through stages of indecisiveness in the process of growing up, but when this stage lasts for years and years, its no longer a 'stage'. Its just a permanent immature state of mind!

The more your partner behaves like a child, the worse your marital sex life will be!
You will feel as though you are commiting 'incest'!


6. Emotionally Unavailable


NEVER GET INVOLVED PEOPLE WHO ARE EMOTIONALLY SHUT DOWN!

Symptoms:

a. Your partner cannot show emotions

A relationship is the interaction between two people. Not a one way street!

b. Your partner cannot/will not talk about feelings

The purpose of a relationship is to relate. Not just to keep each other company! Otherwise, why not just have a pet will do?

1 Cor 6:11, Ezk 11:19

c. Your partner cant open up or trust

Its not enough just to have good intentions, you gotta knock down those walls.


7. Hasnt recovered from past relationship


a. Your partner carries tremendous anger and resentment toward a previous mate

Ask each other, "What is your opinion about your ex?"

b. Your partner still feels guilty and responsible toward a previous mate

Is your partner still worried about his/her ex?
Is your partner afraid to trust you?
Does your partner cry on your shoulders about how terribly he/she's been hurt perviously?

Then his/her heart may not be fully healed to love again.
Give the person some time to be totally healed by the Lord.
Dont play the 'rescuer' yet.


8. Emotional damage from childhood


a. Sexual abuse and trauma

Many victims struggle with the ability to be intimate because of past hurts.
They may struggle weight problems, e.g. turning to food to soothe their inner hurts.
Person exhibits deviant sexual behaviour - confused about the original purpose of sex.

b. Physical or verbal abuse

c. Parental Abandonement

The trauma of living in a single home family, etc.
They may not easily trust people because maybe theyve been hurt and are afraid to get hurt/disappointed again?

Itll be hard to convince him/her that you truly love him/her, that your love and trust is genuine.

d. Parental addiction to drugs, alcohol, pills, gambling, etc.

Children of addicts develop a syndrome of codependency.
He/she is obsessed with only pleasing you.
Unless you feel good, he/she wont feel good about himself/herself.

They have a hard time communicating
Difficulty trusting
Have a tendency to become addicts themselves

Psm 31:7

e. Extreme religious beliefs

Was he/she taught that sex is evil or unclean?
Or on the other extreme, taught that sex is the only way to holiness?
Or that the expression of feelings is unbecoming of a christian?

Does he/she believe that abstinence from affection and romance is true spirituality?

None of us are perfect, we all struggle from emotional baggage since young.

But the good news is that Jesus Christ is the answer to all personality deficiencies and character flaws. He can heal us and make us whole.

Luke 6:37

We shouldnt say, "Sorry, you have a character flaw, I cant be with you."
Love them and go easy on them, just as how Christ loved you.

But...

These are just the things to expect before entering or considering a relationship.

Every relationship takes 2 parties to make it work.

Another Rant (Strange Church People)

Was chatting with Alicia just now on msn, and she was sharing about how these 2 guys from some church, dressed in formal, came up to her friend with a Book of Mormon and started 'preaching' about how other churches are fake and theirs is the real church.

I love to make fun of people...who are 'stubbornly irritating'.

I dont care if ure bangala, chinese, indian, malay, or white, if u have an issue with your attitude, Im gonna get you. lol.

And so yea..talking about that incident, theres one group of people im gonna rant about here:

People who try to win people from other churches OR
People who think one church is right and the other is wrong.

I have one word for you:

CHILDISH.

Why are you so insecure?
Instead of thinking why another church is wrong,
Why not ask yourself if the very one you believe in, is right?

Assuming their church is the 'true', church, then why are you so afraid of what people might think or say?

Where is your testimony? Where are your fruits?

If people arent talking about you, its because you're not doing anything great.

Why is your heart thinking one way and your mind thinking another way?
Dont you have a vision, a purpose, a common goal?

And please, you wanna win people from another church, hoping they will get 'brainwashed' by you. I mean, come on, these ARE church people, they KNOW SOMETHING.

Its like going to a baby boy.

He's born, and one day, he sees himself in the mirror..

"Oh, I am a boy" (Because he realises he has a thing in between his legs, known as the penis).

And these people who try to win people from other churches, are like morons who go up to the boy and say, "Hey kid, you know what? You are a girl."

You think the kid will believe you? Give me a break. Or maybe you're just too stupid to realise that a penis is a male reproductive organ?

You guys are just plain dumb.

You're trying to convince someone with a strong conviction that what they believe in is wrong, thats really smart of you. You can talk all day about how they are wrong, and yet you yourself can show NO FRUITS of how you are right.

Pretty stupid huh?

People with a big mouth but zero brain.

Okay, maybe you ARE a smart person, so smart that your head is so big, I can no longer see your COMMON SENSE.

Come on, seriously, you guys just need to drop your 'theology' and start having some common sense. You dont even have level1 wisdom, you wanna act like you have a level10 wisdom? Hahaha, you are indeed a laughing stock. So much that you are out of stock.

You probably would be standing there preaching your sermon to someone who has a strong belief in something, and yet not notice that a cockroach just went into your pants and into your a-hole.

The cockroach wouldve already laid some eggs inside of you while you are there, preaching your sermon, trying to tell a brick wall, "You are sand!" O_O

Seriously, I think people like that watch too much cartoons. Thank God those people were talking to Alicia's friend and not me, I wouldnt have been so nice. lol.

And I think her friend is smart, he just stood there and "ya..okay lor".

Haha..which reminds me of Adam.."Orh..okay lor." LOL!

If it were me, Id probably..

First..

Smile!

Second..

"Thanks for your sharing, Im sorry if Ive wasted 15 minutes of your time." (Because you really wasted your time on someone like me LOL!)

You dont need to be a smart person to know, if you wanna convince someone something,

You be the example.
You be the testimony,
You earn the person's trust and
You earn his respect.

Insanity is doing something over and over again, expecting a different result.

Im right, people like that are insane lol.

Im a pretty teachable person, I can take discipleship, advice, but if you bring along an attitude of arrogance and 'abnormality', then Im sorry, you can go home, drink your milk and eat your vegetables.

You seriously have no sense of sanity, nor a sense of humanity. Yea, you can sound so genuine, and yet so genuinely fake. You can be so sincere and yet sincerely wrong.

Ive seen my fair bunch of 'strange' people, and the reason theyve stopped harassing me, is because they cant stand someone like me.

Okay lor..sit down then.

Oh and when you do sit down, try not to kill that poor innocent cockroach inside your pants.

"Ohhhhhh you see how big my Book of Mormon is?"
"Noooooo you see how big my encyclopedia is?"
*Slams on the person's head.

Your strategy isnt working, try harder next time okay?

If a horse is dead, DISMOUNT!

Short update

I forgot to blog, yesterday had guitar lesson with Alicia and her cgg, Thomas, forgot name haha. After that went jogging. Later might be going again.

Spent 250 bucks today at Peninsula lol..my electric multieffects (It may not be the best, but I love it!), a one-pin acoustic strap and an extendable cable.

My uncle blessed me with 450 bucks in advance for my 21st birthday. Cus I most prob wont be celebrating cus Ill be in camp. Its okay. Ill just spend it doing my QT with God. =)

Went to airport this morning to have lunch with mum who just came back from Cambodia. I miss hidden staff canteen's food. Everything there is nice :O

Then went to adam's house to take timo's guitar. Adam gave me and John a lift haha. He dropped me off at city hall then dropped his bro off at Bugis or something, then he went to vivo.

Met thad after that to 'shop' and had a quick bite at Funan Mac.

Lets see if I have energy after Iron Man to jog =/ haha. Meeting eugene later for movie, with timo and thad, all of us were like..when Iron Man?!? HAHA. Eugene just reached singapore. Coolness.

Will blog again.

CG, A day with the bangalas. (RANT ALERT)

CG was great. Timo was great. Adam was great. Most importantly,
God is good all the time, and all the time, God is good.

Timo, you did a good job on your debut. I touched God and thats all that matters. =)

Adam's message today was powerpacked. I wish I could have an mp3 of it. =/

Really prayer shouldnt be out of duty, but out of delight.

People lose the passion and fire not because they dont worship enough,
Not because they dont serve enough,
But because they dont pray enough.

Many people worship, many people praise, many people lift their hands, many people serve, many people kneel, many people share testimony, many people read the word, but so few people actually take time to pray and spend quality intimate time with God.

Praying is talking to God. Its that simple.

You can share so many things with your friends, and yet not share a single thing with God.

When Adam began to share about how he would talk to God alone in his room, it kinda reminded me of myself, I too, lock myself in my room, off the lights, take my guitar and start talking to God. And most of the time, I would end up in tears, having touched God in the secret place.

I always remembered how I would queue up for food in NP canteen 1 during my IHP days, I would sit by myself, cus hey, everyone else was in IP? O_O.

And so, I would always be myself, talking to God all the time and having such a closeness with Him. "Man..God..this kaki fuyong is the best food Ive tasted in my entire life! God, thank you for creating rice and egg and chickens."

And I would just sit there, look at people play soccer in the field,

"Hey God, that guy very funny, stand in the middle of the field bare-bodied and start dancing haha."

"Andrew, if I asked you to do that, would you?"
"Haha er..no thanks."
"Just kidding. Andrew =)"

"Andrew, why dont you wanna take soccer up as your sport?"
"Nah, soccer is not my type. To think I used to look like a ball last time, haha."
"Haha, andrew seriously, soccer is a good sport."
"Hmm, its okay, Im not really a foot-person. Maybe hand sports Im more comfortable with."
"You and your computer again.."
"Haha, no, I dont mind badminton or tennis or something.."

And I would just sit there, smiling to myself and people would think Im a bit 'off' haha. Maybe thats how some of you think of me. I smile to myself not because Im nuts hahaha..seriously, talking quietly to God makes me smile. =)

And you ask Timo, that time we went to Liz's condo to play badminton, I went high! So did the shuttlecott HAHA!

Like adam, hahaha he's so funny..

"God, hows my hair? Okay anot?"

LOL.

Its that closeness of friendship, talking to Him like you would talk to a friend. BUT!

Of course, dont cross the line of familiarity and start going, "Heyyy yo! Gawwwd! Whaaaads up yo man!" Know your limits please..use your brain lol.

Another incident I had a chat with God which I dont mind sharing was during at work. Haha, you ask thad, that time I smsed him how I was irritated about the aircon being warm and I was hot and how I couldnt lower the temperature because some girl felt cold..=/

I was photocopying some statements and invoices and I was alone at the photocopier.

And I was like,

"God, this is ridiculous..that girl horny is it? Want me to take out my clothes is it? So hot."
"Andrew, dont say things like that."
"Okay, but this has gotta be a joke, the aircon is like 26, 27 degrees, she might as well go outside run 2.4 or something, how can someone feel cold in such an environment?"
"She's a girl."

He said, "She's a girl" and I stoned there, I didnt know whether to feel convicted that I should be more gentlemanly to let her have 26/27 degrees aircon or to laugh at that statement in sarcasm, "She's a girl"..and I started thinking, yea, they're so hard to understand haha."

God didnt reply so I shall not say anymore also haha.

What adam said is so true:

If you come for the sake of your friends, sooner or later you're gonna leave.
If you come for the sake of the excitement, you wont be stable in your commitment.
But if you come for the sake of God, you will stay till the end.

Isnt it true?

So many people leave church because either their friends are no longer in the same cg as them, or...they find new friends outside. Their heart is placed on a person, and when the person goes, they go along with them.

Who is God to you?

Is he a religious figure? A philosophical icon? Just a way of life?
Who is He to you? A friend? A saviour? A Lord? A solution vending machine?

Is prayer a mechanical process of what-to-says and formalities? Or is it something casual and yet personal and intimate between you and God?

Think about it.

Back to my day...

I had to be at adam's house at 11am at Simei, but met up with thad and met up with Khanh at bugis to accompany him down together.

After cg, went to Sentosa. Rhonda's cg was also there.

Played some frisbee and talked crap. Had delicious chicken rice. And just sat there and enjoyed the breeze, the sun, the sweat, the people.

When I was younger, I used to dream that one day, I would take my guitar and sit alone by the cool night breeze by the beach, and start worshipping God. And just having a honeymoon of a time there, in tears, on my knees.

Thats why whenever I go to the beach, I would sit there, enjoy the sights, sounds, smells and think of God. And just be lost in thought, lost in love.

Well today was a day with the bangalas.

I was telling kar after the jog haha. It was just crazy.

Ask thomas, thad, timo and khanh, the queue at vivo was insane..lol..it literally went round the entire 3rd floor! LOL.

Adam drove the girls there. So we were kinda running late, end up taking the bus which had NO queue at all! LOL.

It was scary when we reached the beach. Its as if the whole of India dropped from the sky and landed on sentosa. Groups and groups, as far as the eye can see. :O

Im not being racist, Im just making a general statement.

I dont understand why some people find the word "Indian" a racist word. WAKE UP DOOD!

And so..we were surrounded, right from the bus. It was so dramatic..on the bus.

The whole bus was indian, even the driver was indian. The only people standing were my cg members and a few other chinese. Everyone else that was sitting were indians. And some of them were squeezing. It was so dramatic, like some indian advertisement, where they would stack on each other in the bus, stretch out their hands and wave out of the bus LOL.

The main point is on my way back, as well as just now during jogging.

I was queueing for the bus, the entire queue was indian. Okay, seriously, I dont know what is happening or what event it is, I dont know if the President of India is in sentosa or not, but okay, the entire bus interchange was indian. I didnt even see a single chinese or a caucasian.

And so..I was in the queue.

This group of bangalas suddenly just came from the side and formed a diagonal line beside the queue. In other words, 'creative cut queue'. This is when you should start closing your browser cause Im gonna rant.

So, these people think their grandpa own the place la? I dont care if ure related to Sang Nila Utama or Sexy Nile Umaga, I was a bit provoked, but I didnt do anything. Typical bangala. Come in and pretend 'we cant see them'..and its almost night.

Once again, Im not against Indians or bangalas, Im against people with a lack of moral integrity! People with a social interaction malfunction! This is just so damn stupid.

You think you very creative ah? Form a diagonal queue, FROM the middle somemore!

Thank God for Singaporean Indians. There was this family in front, they were locals, I can tell. Because they are civilised! They scolded the bangalas and said, "You think this is your grandfather's road ah!?!" I was smiling to myself man.

Then just now during jogging, I was running past a sharp corner. And this floating teeth suddenly came out of nowhere and freaked me out. I was on a head-on collision!

And natural reaction when someone sees a guy charging at him at high speed - dodge right?

He didnt. He just stood there, looked at me like im some freak show from mars and STAYED THERE! I couldnt break in time, I lost control and did a body sexy twist like some circus clown. And I almost tripped and fell.

I was like "Wa lao eh, you cock eye ah! No wonder so many of you die on road accidents! Because car come at you, you just stand there and hope your glowing teeth scare the cars away! O_O"

Of course I didnt say that, knowing how lame I can get.

I was walking home with Thad one day after service, and we looked at the open field beside the MRT. At night, there will always be a bangala picnic.

Wah! I see the field, LOOK LIKE SOME CHESS SET SIA!

All the RUBBISH all neatly placed there. One look you will know exactly where they sit!

Plastic bags, cups, plates, boxes, cartons. Aiyo, you know what is cleen and green anot!?! No wait, of course you dont, your country dont have green right? Because all is..*I shall not say anymore.

But seriously, even dogs clean up after their meals! You guys are a disgrace to the human race!

Once again, dont get me wrong, Im not racist against Indians, I have indian friends and God bless them, but it cant be helped, incidents like this always happen to bangalas. Then what you want me to call them? Bangaloree people!?!

I just cant stand people who have an attitude problem.

One more rant..

I cant stand girls who look at me like Im some pervert, just because I turn my head and I happen to look at them.

You have no idea what a pervert is.
You have no idea whats it like to have 60 seconds of your life, having some black 'thing' of the same sex 'penetrating' you from behind! (This is a few years ago and I needed Mike Connell deliverance so Im not gonna talk about it anymore).

So dont give me that "See what see" look. I will throw an egg at your stupid face!

You so ugly who wanna look at you? I see you only, my great grandfather rise from the dead and climb mount everest!

You people need to seriously grow up.

If you're a girl and you behave like that to men, you just havent met a good one yet and I pity how pathetic your life is or how unsociable you've become.

And for another group of people, wake up, life is more than just the same sex you dimwits! Ohhhh, so what are you gonna do now? Start going to the zoo and start fellowshipping with monkeys and gorillas?

Girl: See what see you stupid black gorilla!
Gorilla: *ROAR! *Beats his own nehneh..
Girl: Ahhhhhhhh pervert!
Gorilla: No, Im gay thats why I touch my own nehneh.

Not bad. I combined the typical uncivilised ahlian with the typical uncivilised bangala.

Good day folks!

Service, Troubled

Service was great.

Is Jesus alone enough for you?

If you dont feel His presence,
If He doesnt bless you,
If He doesnt heal you,
If He doesnt answer your prayers,

Is He alone, enough for you?

For me. He is.

Stop wanting "this" or "that" and start wanting "Him".

Many people want many things, most of them cant be brought into heaven. Why live a fulfilled life here on earth and compromise on your eternity?

They are like a fool, who put their trust on things that are seen, things perishable. Its like eating junk from a rubbish bin that will one day be either incinerated or broken down and recycled into some other stuffs.

Passion keeps you going. Where is your passion? Where is your interest? What is your obsession? When that which catches your attention dies away with this world, will your passion die away along with it? Will your love die along with it?

Their hearts are drawn away, with things, with people.

If God gives you that particular desire you've been longing for?

Can He be glorified?
How can you use it to serve God?
How can you use it to serve people and leave behind a legacy?

People can think Im dry and boring because I talk about God all the time. Or because I am 'numb' to this world. I dont really care.

I love God and Im committed to this relationship.

Whether you, reading this post, is in love with Him in the same 'obsessed' way, or whether you're as commited, doesnt really matter to me. When we get to eternity, all will be made known, God is gonna play your life in front of heaven like a movie clip. What will people see? What are you going to do about it? Is it worth it?

Are you going to waste your time, are you going to waste your life? I know I cant go back to my secondary school days, time cannot be reversed. The moment mankind is born, you have started dying because time has started.

Ecclesiastes 7:4 (NLT)
A wise person thinks much about death,
While the fool thinks only about having a good time now.

Tired. Stoned.

Prostrate Cancer Stage 4 (Final).

Its so scary how a few weeks ago I had problems down there too (thank God it was just external). And then few weeks later, sigh.

Slept only for 2hours. Going jogging now. Siao right? =/ I shall end with this quiz. There's really no motivation to blog. No motivation to do anything...

Taken from: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Guitar lesson? Encounters, Divine appointments.

This is something I have to blog about. =)

Well basically, its so strange.

1. Xiaoshi, for some reason ended late.
2. Karwen, for some reason wanted to join me and shi. But then felt like sleeping. But then again somehow, managed to join us.
3. For some reason, Im tired, sleepy, had to wake up like 6-7am, but somehow, there's this feeling inside, wait for shi to end, wait for her to finish meeting with her cgl.

My eyes were closing, but something deep down said, wait, wait, wait...

And so I waited, karwen also waited.

At 12am, both of us departed from home and met up downstairs. Walked to xiaoshi's house. Met amber and tor, and tor started crapping and going high LOL. Everyone was just lame haha.

Its very hard to find people to crap and lame with.

Most of the time, whenever I lame, people would just roll their eyes, ignore me or think im weird. Well, maybe thats why I feel comfortable with tor and amber and the rest of the JW gang haha.

Tor damn funny la haha..say dunno what Amber loves to 'adopt' other cg's members and send away her own hahaha..lame la. LOL.

Cus we were at Shell station, and shi was thirsty or hungry or something. Okay, I admit, the "Drink petrol lor" thing wasnt funny at all lol.

And so, its probably 1245am or 1am now. We started guitaring at this empty playground below seowshi's block. We started out by my playing some random songs, being TOTALLY random, like..suddenly a random cold joke will come out.

Or ill start acting like Retard Genesis, sudden kill actions/facial expressions, etc..

Then I started teaching on string muting, a few transition techniques, etc. Went through the songs shi has to play for cg later. After going through it was prob 2am already.

Everyone was literally drifting in the air, eyes closing, even for me, I also dunno what im playing also haha. The funny thing is, you have 3 sleepy people. And yet NONE of them is moving off. We just sat there and stoned, as if waiting for something to happen..and IT REALLY DID!

You have no idea how amazing God is!

We ended up having a prayer meeting! I dont know how, I dont know why. Its like, "Andrew, why dont you try starting a mini prayer session? Get everyone to pray."

I was like.."haaaaaaaaar...*squints eyes...you sure anot...this is public place, very weird leh... so random leh..." and deep down, God just said one thing and I replied so many things lol..thats how 'dazed' I was.

And so we started praying and presence of God came OMG!

I prayed until I teared. Just like that..20-30minutes have passed. I didnt wanna stop, but somehow, there was this nudging inside of me, HS was asking me to slowly end the PM.

And true enough, shi's dad called/smsed. So we left. What an experience. A bunch of people, who have never prayed with each other before, suddenly coming together and stirred up the atmosphere. I was like, 'whoa, like that also can ah..LOL'.

It was just awesome. None of us prepared for this, not even me. It was indeed a divine appointment.

Talking about divine appointment, back home, its 4am, I had a friend who msged me on msn for some songs, for some reason the person stayed online.

I mean, who will be online at such a time?

And so..this friend started sharing a problem, and I was just moved to speak a word and I just did, I was tired, sleepy and had the "Okay lor, anything you want" attitude. =/ Presence of God came and my friend was touched to tears. And it was just an encounter, a kairos moment.

I didnt know what was going on, what the person is going through, but what the person said really reminded me, God doesnt call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

God doesnt use the able, He uses the available.

I really had nothing to say. Once again, I thought, "Wa..like that also can ah..". God is just so amazing, who in the world will wait till 4am for something to happen? Which group of people would wait until 3am for something to happen?

Today was a day of divine appointments.

All in all..tonight was fun and exciting, now I have a motivation to pray every night haha. I mean, for myself, its hard to find people to pray with, and prob the reason why the breakthrough is slow is because we try to pray with our own effort, and praying alone.

And its amazing, we really need the power of 2s and 3s.

I think tonight sparked forth a new thing. Haha..midnight prayer group. (MPG! LOL!)

Lets do this again. :) Then again, its up to God and His timing =)

Okay gotta sleep. Gotta wake up 2hrs later to send ahgong to SGH. Itll be a miracle I survive tmr and ahgong accepts Christ because of another divine appointment haha. And then itll be another miracle if I got the time and energy to meet seowshi again to pass her my wife.

LOL.

She was saying, she think she has emotional attachment to my wife already. =/ Oh noooooooo, LOL! Haha. And my electric guitar is attached to Alicia gosh. Teaching guitar is as good as selling my guitars away! LOL! choy choy! =/

Alvin from Dennis' cg came today, my bro taught him :) Hahahha..my house is becoming a guitar school! omgosh haha.

Not only will my bedroom be the 'Upper Room' for my cg members, its gonna turn into a guitar school! LOL. Free of charge. Okay, maybe I shldnt say that, cus I see more people swarming to me. Now Alicia's cg guitarist wants to learn from me =/. He's going for BV audition this week or next week? haha.

Help me wish him all the best, even though I dont know him haha.

Alvin's a nice guy to talk with. He, my bro and me were jamming in my bro's room haha. Acoustic, bass, electric haha. And..HE WATCHES BLEACH TOO! =PPP

Okay, SLEEP!!!

Guitar, God, Strength, Randoms

Had guitar lesson just now, will be having another one tonight.

Tomorrow morning will be accompanying ahgong to SGH from 8am till maybe about 1-2pm in the afternoon for a checkup, all by myself. Its gonna be a long day, napfa has just ended and I dont have enough time to rest.

But what can I say? What can I do? Life comes, you just gotta learn to take it in.

Was just chatting with xiaoshi on msn, and a random thought just came to mind while chatting. Isnt it amazing, how every great man and woman of God, all started with nothing, just a desire, a love and a passion.

We were nobodys, with nothing in our hands, all we had, was a cry, "God, I love You".

And that love alone, has brought us to where we are today. As I look back, I see how good God has been. Nothing I ever had, nothing I ever accomplished, was from me.

Its as if God helped us to love Him, through the Holy Spirit.

Indeed, the financial blessings, open doors, everything was made by Him, through Him and FOR HIM. We didnt start out to be people with a stage presence or a public anointing, we just wanted to be lovers, worshippers, just like the story of Mary and Martha.

How can someone so wise, so strong, so big, so perfect, like God, dwell among and love people like us? If you want to compare the difference, its VAST and ENDLESS.

Yet what was it so special that connected these 2 beings together so closely?

It sums up in one word: Love.

Indeed it has no boundaries. Afterall, it can join God and man. Thats why as long as we have a dream and we love doing what we do, there is nothing we cant accomplish.

I remember a song by Delirious, it says, Love is a miracle.

Love is a miracle.
God is love.

Therefore, if you want a miracle.
Have God, have love.

Most people associate a miracle with intense spiritual warfare, fasting and intense praying and sacrifice, no doubt all these are essential, but without love, you are all missing the point.

If you want to see a breakthrough in cg attendance, LOVE people.
If you want to see a breakthrough in your spiritual life, LOVE God.
LOVE prayer, LOVE the word, LOVE fellowship, LOVE discipleship, LOVE commitment.

Many times we find ourselves in a dark room, hearing nothing but cries. God seems so far. Yet we dont realise, that the cries we hear in the dark where no one knows, are the very same cries someone else is having.

And we dont realise,

Even though the room may be dark with cries, its not just our cries only, there will always be someone else in the same room as you, going through the same thing.

Sometimes we ask, "God, why didnt you give me my breakthrough? Where is my answer?"

Most of the time, its not because He wants to hold back, but its really because He has already given you the breakthrough, the answers, you just failed to notice it.

It may come in a form of a friend, an open door, an opportunity, or a still soft whisper.

God isnt rude, He wont tell us, "Why are you asking me for answers when Ive already given you a long time ago? You slow or what?"

He just keeps quiet.

In an intense situation, are you gonna complain and grumble about your breakthrough, or are you gonna start opening your ears and eyes, and look around you for the answers?

God has already given you every answer long before you even encountered the problem!

Your whole life has been destined for victory the moment you are born again. It doesnt say, your life is being destined for victory, the Word didnt say you are becoming more than a conqueror!

It says you ARE more than conquerors! God is not stupid, neither is He dumb. The moment you accept Him He already knows everything, and He has already given you all the answers, even long before you were born.

Thats why God can confidently say that in every trial, there is an escape!

He's not just saying it for fun, or just because it sounds good and motivating, He means what He says. Its just like in a room.

You're locked inside.

There's no way to bang your way out.

You pray, "God please send me a locksmith! God please send me a SWAT team to help me blow down the door! I dont wanna die here!"

And God doesnt answer, He doesnt send any locksmiths or SWAT teams and you complain and grumble, you get angry with God. Not knowing that in every room, there is a window! Its been open all along! And you're just stuck inside, overwhelmed by your problems that you failed to see the answer right before your eyes.

Isnt that how we behave most of the time? We think that there's only one solution to a problem. God is a creative God. He's capable of coming up with more solutions than you can think of in your entire lifetime, just for that one problem or crisis.

Sometimes we do make mistakes, we do go down the wrong path. And we think, oh my god, I made a mistake, I feel so paiseh to go back, Ill just be strong and endure and try to work things out.

It will never work.

Since the beginning of time,
God has proven it.
Satan has proven it.
People have proven it.

I once had a revelation, people who say, "I will try to work things out myself", really, are people who are proud, who say they dont need God or think they are equal with God. No doubt the person can be sincere, and yet sincerely wrong.

And soon they realise, how come things arent changing?

Its because insanity is doing the same things over and over, expecting a different result.

Yes, you can change your way of solving the issue, yes you can change the tone of your voice, you can even change your attitude.

But really..one thing that hasnt changed is that you are still trying without God.

They're so afraid of what people will think or say. If they're so afraid of people's opinions and responses, then it shows one thing, they arent really serious about dealing with issues in their life. They just do it for the sake of doing it.

The proof of your desire is in your pursuit.

One thing Ive learnt from the movie, Pursuit of Happiness, is this.

"If you want happiness, go get it!"

Strength is not just the endurance during a tough time,
Strength is the tenacity to get back on your feet, and walk back the right path.

I can put it this way,

Strength = Repentance

You stop where you are going right now.
You turn around.
You have a higher level of thinking.
And you walk back.

Its like those drama serials..

You see a girl emoing, walking along the beach, and suddenly she decides to commit suicide.

And she starts walking into the water, hoping to drown herself.

Along the way down, she says to herself, "Oh no, I dont wanna die, I dont wanna drown, but Ive got no choice. Ive already started walking down the water..looks like this is the end for me, Im gonna drown and nobody will know..but I dont wanna die, I have people who love me. Stupid ocean, I hate you, why must you drag me in..."

FOR GOODNESS SAKE, JUST TURN AROUND AND WALK OUT OF THE WATER!

3hr guitar lesson OMG lol, Facebook, Outs

Alicia came over just now. THREE HOURS lol..goodness gracious me.

After the 1st 2 hours I was already getting distracted, you still can sit there and practice wow. Miracle haha. Somebody learnt 2 strumming techniques, 4 chords, a little string muting, and some theory for a FRESHIE!

Installed Operation Flashpoint Game of the Year Edition.

Its an army simulator, its fun though, a pretty old classic all-time favourite. Some missions you really have to travel a lot! Its realtime so yea. Recon missions, you can just spend that 30minutes travelling, scouting one entire forest and then going back to town in the same jeep. omg.

Draggy and boring, I was hoping for some enemy recon squad to show up or something. haha. But other than that..when its action time, some crossfires can get really tough and its hard to manage a team at the same time. :o

Old primary school friends are popping all of a sudden, out of nowhere on my facebook lol. I got a class photo when I was in pri2, or 3 or something, cant even remember haha. Some people in my class I dont even know, I look at the name and I go.."Huh? Got such person one ah?" lol.

Someone say I still as corny as ever..well, what do you expect..corn seeds grow into more corns haha.

I must say, I walked in and out of my house like nobody's business today.

1st: For napfa.

2nd: Met seowshi at MRT to claim back my wife for evening lesson. Bumped into stella at the 154 bus queue. Shi was with her sis. Hahahaha gotcha! That time on the bus she and karyie keep on making fun of me and laughing at me..hump! You die! LOL. JK.

3rd: Went to pick up Alicia.

4th: Sent Alicia off to JP then to MRT.

I think I lost weight. =/ Anyway, dozed off just now, gonna jog later (make that 5 trips in and out of my house). Yea Im crazy. Always have, always will be. =/

This song is nice. Thad would certainly be interested to know, Ive found a hillsong playlist with lots of the newer songs in acoustic. =)

Here's a funny chat between me, Zhijia and Chooch on my pri sch facebook photo that was just uploaded a few days ago by Daniel Goh haha.

Zhijia: lol, andrew you are still so corny, remember that i was always hanging out with you at that time, haha

Andrew: hahahaha...okay la...now must deal with world hunger so must plant more cornfields..

Chooch: wow andrew.. ur so corny ~ guess i'm a-maze then ~ so lets go deal the world hunger issue together =)

Those were the days. =) *Missed.

NAPFA rants. Please close your browser NOW.

Ive not felt so confidently lousy about myself all my life.

Failing 3 out of 5 stations for 99 people to see. What a spectacular audience.

I look around, all looked to be athletes. Some were there to retake their napfa because they had a silver instead of a gold. What shit!

You dont want your friggin silver give me la!

Since pri3 I have never once passed my napfa. I really dont know how I survived.

To me, doing a minimum of 10 pullups seemed impossible. Cause everyone else did 6-15, except 2-3, one of them being me.

To them, hanging on the bar, pulling and dropping seemed impossible. I made that happen.

To me, doing a minimum standing broad jump of 2.3metres seemed impossible. ALL were either 2.3m, 2.5m, or 2.75m.

To them, for someone to jump 1.65m is awesomely incredible and humanly impossible. The crowd stood in awe and wondered if I came from mars. Every year since pri3, my SBJ has never crossed 165.

So many miracles happened today, I believe Im famous now. Not bad huh? Made a name for myself, in just 2 hours. Everyone now knows me as the guy who went, "I can do it"..*BAM..Fail. "I can do it this time"..*BAM..Fail. And a third time.

I overheard everyone's conversations, each had trained like what? 4-6 months for just the napfa test alone. And ohhhh pathetic me, I only trained one week just for my running and situps. Not bad, I achieved the impossible.

I have only 3 weeks before I go in, I cant even pass and you expect me to 'excel' inside? Give me a break. Im so hungry I ate all your kitkats, maybe thats why you got no more break to give me.

My instructor was a nice guy dont get me wrong. Its just me. The wonderman! Just that I dont wear my underwear outside.

I dont see the big deal about training for army or police. 3 weeks? I can just throw it away!

If ure in the army and theres a war, just defect to the winning side! Or use your programming skills to hack into a top secret military base and launch a frigging nuclear missile right in front of your enemy commander's cock!

*KABOOM! NO MORE FATHER'S DAY! WAIT....NO MORE FATHER! MUAHAHA!

And if ure in the police and theres a thief holding a frigging knife chasing you. You need fitness for what? Just take the goddamn gun and shoot him in the fawking head!

A kid can fire a gun, a kid can press a button. Need goddamn fitness for what?

And whats with the deal with standing broad jump huh?

So what? If theres a war, and theres a grenade behind you, you're not going to stand there..swing your goddamn arms and do squats for 3 seconds before finally jumping off and landing on your 2 stupid feet are you!?! You'll be wondering wheres your feet by the time you land!

Who do you think you are? Jack in a box? *Kuukoo Kuukoo..*BOING! Ohhhh you're in no frigging box my friend!

Come on..you have so much muscles your brains are under your armpit! EEEE...FAWKING STINKO!

"Ohhhh we marrrst preparrreeee for terrorist attaaaaaaggg!"

Oh, if ure kidnapped by a terrorist, what are you gonna do? Flex your biceps, shake your nehneh up and down and hope he will run away!?! COME ON WAKE UP! By the time you shake your nehneh, your nehneh drop already!

Sorry, Im in no mood to talk right now.

Just give me the recipe for a thermonuclear device and Ill just make one for myself.