RaNDoM

hmm i see my hit counter shooting up to the sky really fast so i guess i better blog lol..if not people say why i never update LOL..

basically what happened for this wk is that theres some scandal between teck seng, chris and some Mr Liew whom i dunno haha..lame..LOL

a love triangle or threesome of some sort..haha. then that Chris go and tell me, i should join in e fun, then itll be a foursome! haha! ^.O

and that Ivy cow, whole day laugh at me..lol..i sue u then u know ah...hahahahaha :PP

recently my friendster profile page..my comments/testimonial section has become an invasion section lol. stupid mosquito (wen zi) call me stupid terrorist, insect eater and over-react uncle! *Bish! lol..i never EAT the baby cockroach shell okay? i took it out from my mouth. since u wen zi (mosquito) u better be careful if not i eat u also since im insect eater O_o.

hahaha...random. (told u this post is random ^.O)

i was jus clearing my SMSes when this SMS really made me LOL..

From Liyun:

Teck Seng love you forever. Chris said he wanna stay with you. Muack! Huggie hug hug!

*OMG *cough! *cough! *vomit* *pui! ^.^

lol..lamers..for a start im not gay..im only a shemale..lol jkjk!

cut my hair..now to color it. emerge conference in 2 days, live global broadcast on thursday night! oh yea. ^^ still got lots of work to do..=.=

Ministry + tearing down day.

guess what..i woke up late today :S supposed to wake up at 530am, which i did. then slept immediately after i silenced my alarm lol. and woke up at 630 :x reached expo at 815am tho. did comms today..haha. thank you God, for staying with me throughout to help me lol.

not bad, i spoke thru comms quite often today. which means i managed to catch e message to be transmitted, haha. just one or 2 people's voices i have problems decyphering LOL.

anyway, svc was great. ill be going back on wed to help with the rehearsals. oh, ill give one emerge spoiler. they are changing the stage. lol. or at least, itll look very different during emerge. haha..cus after ministry today, stayed back to tear down e equips.

my hand almost kena splintered by the stage platforms! lol. the whole thing is heavy and its wood! and oh ya, i found an insect wing in my fishball noodles! i kept on chewing, then eh..how come hard hard one..then i took out from my mouth and i got the shock of my life! lols. the other parts must be somewhere inside, if not in someone else's O_O hahaha..hope i didnt spoil ur appetite lol.

just some pics.

this is how empty the stage is!!

The tearing down process..

The Beattitudes

To be blessed in this context = to be approved by God.

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

its been a great series..and theres still 4 more weeks to go after emerge! tmr ps will be teaching on salt and light. i think its soo at e right time, esp for emerge in 4 more days. later will be serving..doing comms..ahhhhh! God I need You!!!! lol..im someone who really cant comms for nuts..haha..save me..lols.

oh ya, btw, dunno wad happened to MRT today..it jammed. and i was stuck at eunos for half an hr or so. trains had to reverse, change tracks, etc. and when e train finally came..it was full! reached tanah merah..full! platform full! train came. not for passenger service. had to change tracks/reverse again. then train came..i squeezed..hahaha..

okay, random lol. pam can testify to that lol..she said she was stuck also. oh wells. God bless SMRT..haha..i forgive u, even though u spelt smart wrongly..hahaha..

service's been great..had dinner at the malan noodle place. not bad. at least get to try something new..hehe..all in all..ive been so blessed and impacted.

no room for the soft, shallow and superficial.
only room for the strong, mature and committed.

4 more days..

4 more days..

time to emerge!

Random

i was just eating my breakfast just now when i remembered something i wanted to type last night but i didnt. its surprising to see how people come and go. like evan said, God never moved. He's always there. it takes a heart of brokenness to be able to touch Him and sense Him.

there's no such thing as "God, i cant feel you." if your life is built on the RIGHT foundations. you wouldnt have shaken. your life is nothing more than a reflection of who you are. period.

you can have 2 of the exact same person. but their attitudes different. they will live life totally differently!

i really miss those times when we would have a mini PM at someone's house during the weekdays. last time on every thurs, e day before cg, we would have a small PM at rach's house. i remembered i was there along with bao, pam, fel and sandee. and that small period of time we had, was something i treasured.

sometimes we say "Im born this way", its nothing more than a stupid excuse! so what if ure born this way? "Im born this way" is not the same as "Ill live this way"! stop giving yourself excuses! even if u want to make an excuse, at least make a better one!

Attitude is cultivated, not born!

CG

cg was awesome. what an encounter i had today. ive nv felt closer to Him than when i pray. Jesus Himself loved praying..He is doing it 24hrs a day to intercede for us. and when we pray, He gets excited and almost immediately..He shows up.

the lights were off..i couldnt see anything on e chordsheet, particular with me having astig. it didnt help much..so i just tried playing the song as much as i can, by hearing. but i knew God helped me out. hehe.

sometimes im reminded on how God takes every prayer seriously. i prayed this morning, that God would enlarge my capacity and let my hands do something that ive ever done or hardly do. and true enough, today's meeting was a 2hr mini CGPM.

sitting there and playing for 2hrs straight is something i attempted and conquered in my walk with God. haha at the end of the meeting..i stood up to stretch my hand..and lo and behold, i almost screamed..hahaha..

my left lower arm is cramped..and my fingertips are blistic LOL..(okay i made that word up, blister, blistic? hmm..not bad eh..haha..better than 'You may now love the bride..' hahaha!!! if u wanna know what happened during my PSLE mock exam cloze passage. ask pam, i tink she remember and she can testify to my 'God-given talent' hahaha..)

all in all..everything was great..what an experience it was. i remember i sat there..and while i was playing i started feeling nauseous..cus i was still recovering..but now im feeling so much better. and i think i can say now..im healed lol.

5 more days to emerge! yahoo! and cant wait for svc tmr..later i mean..haha..

my cg got weird people..

got liang po-po, lagger, mr mushi, ti-momo

hmm..what does that make me? o.o

i refuse to say nidorino..^.O

Windows XP Royale Theme

this is the site to download the Royale theme aka Media Ceter 2005 theme for WindowsXP.

kinda similar to the longhorn testing stage if u can put it tt way.

i personally prefer this skin over the vista skin LOL.
heres a screenshot



http://www.softpedia.com/get/Desktop-Enhancements/Themes/Royale-Theme-for-WinXP.shtml

and oh, u dont need any theme softwares like StyleXP, or WindowsBlinds, etc.

just install it and run via desktop(rclick) - properties ;)

Random Reloaded

okay, ull be expecting a few random posts from here on out. cus im a random person. but yet, at the same time, im randomly unrandom. O_O

yesterday went for PPP lesson 4. was late. now ill describe why. when i reached clementi station, i was stopped by 2 koreans who came up to me and 'interrogated' me. i tried to be a nice guy and i helped out their survey. if tt was not enough, they stood there and preached to me for 30minutes. i really didnt know how my patience level went up so high.

and i was still sick back then..stand for 30minutes, i sworn i couldve vomited in front of them. seriously, i stood there about to faint and nauseous literally. PPP starts at 4pm, by the time they finished 'talking' it was 410pm. and i was still at clementi. deep down i was thinking, theyd better be grateful i stood there to listen. cus i dont think anyone else did. awww..

first of all, they're talking to e wrong person. u know i had the right to say, u know who my ps is? but i didnt. secondly, they were talking abt things ive never heard before. but i tried to be as open as i could. it just didnt feel right on the inside of me.

when i reached for PPP class, i sat down, and i literally almost fainted. luckily i wasnt carrying my laptop backpack. ^.O feeling better today. but still on my way to full recovery.

sometimes ud better be careful what you think/confess/say, sometimes God will test you on your word. lol. rem e time i said i respected the koreans? yea..anyways, ill never forget my angelic experience..with the 3 angels on my way home e other time.

really..if u want me to share my angelic experience again jus tag/PM/sms me ;) really, ive never seen any of those 3 anymore lol. and they supposedly stayed beside, if not behind my block. :o lol. oh wells, im glad that God stationed angels near me =) i tell u i was so moved e other time when i met them..that encounter was simply memorable.

recently ive been playing this new game on the home desktop. Granado Espada. the server is located in Singapore Science Park. lol..and i think because of that..my campus hasnt been able to block its IP hahahaha..which means i can play it in school! loool! provided my lappy can handle..haha. im gonna try installing tmr.

LINK - Granada Espada Site

also, recently im back to playing SOF2 again..haha..for some reason i love blowing off people's heads, arms and totally dismantle people with a shotgun lols..i think im stressed..haha..

because ofmy sickness theres so many lessons i missed, so many things not done..i was so pissed off yesterday. it totally closed my doors! i was so damn angry that i time was wasted and that i have a mission to fulfill before Emerge and it just took away that frigging time!!!

urrgh..you make me sick!! literally and metaphorically!! ARRGH!

Im pregnant

sheesh i really dont know why. everytime when i move about alot, or when i stand for a short period of time. ill get really cold, weak and nauseous and sometimes a bit giddy. guess my insides are screwed up. X_X

im still coughing though..

now i think i got sch phobia. either my stomach starts acting the moment i reach school, or worse..just moments before my sch ends. either way..ill suffer if i go to sch. X_X and also tmr got the stupid pee pee pee lesson4..lol..win aldr..hold it in LT28. everyone confirm play game, watch movie lol..FINISH!!! ^.O

btw, im playing this cool game called Granado Espado. its a new game. currently released not too long ago. but its 6 GIG! lol..and it lags at medium on my desktop! O.O but still fun to play..haha. its the first game with the system MSS or something, cant rem the name..that allows u to play 3 characters at once. graphics are stunningly good. its just the lag and the crowd LOL.

school or no school? hmm...

arrrrrrgggghhhhhh...

i think im pregnant!

at least no menstrual cramp for me..hahahaha..not funny.

For stubborn people

sometimes i just love to offend stubborn people that refuse to wake up their idea.

either they're too stupid to accept the truth or they're too foolish to ignore it.

everytime i see a worldly view/opinion, i just love to insult it and break it.

honestly, i dont even care if i offend the person.

id rather u hate me for telling the truth than love me for telling a lie.

one example is the term:

"Real men dont cry".

i love to irritate and insult people who think this way..i feel they lack common sense.

So many people have brains, so many people have success, but lack common sense.

"Oh, my boyfriend's a real man, because he dont cry."

oh, ok then. you can continue living with him.

when ure feeling down and out, ill guarantee you'll be lonely. because your pathetic boyfriend cant sympathise with you. not only is he emotionally shutdown, he's emotionally dead. when you're sick and in hospital, all he will do for you is "I am a man!" No, "I love you", no shoulder for you to lie on. congratulations. you can breakup now.

Real man dont cry huh? So you're saying Jesus was a fake man huh?

Oh i see now..

And if woman was formed out of a man, then it must mean women dont cry too huh?

You're not making sense my friend. Im not making sense?

Nah, you're just not catching any sense!

And i hate people who complain about their life.

If ure 8 and you sulk, ure cute.

If ure 18 and you sulk, ure disgusting!

Grow up please. God is not raising up a generation of kids. But a generation of youths that are discipled! You can have all the doing and yet not have the being. You can enter but not inherit. Just because you eat bananas doesnt make you a monkey. Just because you're born in mcdonalds it doesnt make you a hamburger!

I mean, when i go through rough times, i TALK about it. i dont WHINE about it.

and now ive learnt, dont just talk about it. talk TO it!

nobody can touch your attitude.

you want your life to change, then change your attitude!

no one else can. and i mean NO ONE! too bad, too sad!

so..are you gonna sit around and wait for Deepavali?

Comeon! DO SOMETHING WITH YOUR LIFE!!!!

Worst day

woke up today. as i walked to the MRT station. it was freezing cold. and i was perspiring. waited the the bus, felt the same. walked to classroom, feeling cold and perspired, and i was really perspiring a lot..

even when i was walking under the sun..i could hear ppl around me going, 'wa, very hot sia'..then i realised it was just me. i was still feeling cold. my skin was literally cold..under the sun. and as usual, i was perspiring a lot. felt really uncomfortable. i realised something was wrong with me. dun tink its pneumonia..:S

during lunchtime, i wasted 3 bucks on my meal. after eating for 2-3 bites..i felt nauseous. i decided to stop eating for awhile. i needed to take a deep breath. canteen was crowded. i was alone. im not getting enough oxygen. im not panting though. im still perspiring. i think im dehydrating...

then i couldnt take it anymore, i went to the toilet for awhile, just in case i throw up. at the same time, i was starting to feel weak and giddy. i couldnt walk straight. felt like collapsing and throwing up both at once..

i decided to go home. on e way home, i tell u i struggled. struggled to keep myself from freezing and dying of cold sweat. struggled to keep my stomach in tact so that i dont throw up. struggled to keep myself awake so i dun pass out. i stood beside the door. i was passing out. i quickly walked to the pole and grabbed it as hard as i could. strained my eyes open to keep em awake.

the harder i tried..i started feeling nauseous again. i was falling and i was about to throw up. deep down i was thinking..which will happen first? i found a seat and i sat there, stoned. i was spacing out..my thoughts were dissipating and my eyes staring into space. i saw e buildings went by, i felt the train moving. i started to have motion sickness.

i told myself, "no. not now..", i tried closing my eyes. i almost passed out, i was so tired. and i almost vomitted also the moment i closed my eyes for a few seconds. i have this problem sometimes, whenever i doze off on a train, ill feel as if my stomach is jumping out and i would sit right back up again. tts why sometimes i stand rather than sit on e train.

i had the 'cannot doze off' problem for a few years now. i dunno how it started also ^.O

everything i did, i was collapsing, i was on e verge of vommitting. and i was feeling cold sweat. i was in so much pain and discomfort i started feeling irritated. i whispered in my heart, "God, cmon, give me strength to reach home safely, its the LEAST You could do..after all Ive done for You dont tell me You cant even do this simple thing.."

i almost said "if u cant even do this simple thing, You're not God..", i ALMOST said it, cus i was starting to get really agitated with myself. almost angry. but thank God His grace was sufficient. i managed to walk home..even though there were times i almost fell, i was losing my balance and i had to hold on to some railings/pillars to support myself.

honestly, i felt like a dying old man!

im trying very hard not to see the doctor as its costly and i dun wanna talk about my financial struggle as of this moment yet. but i am going through some crisis. im on the verge of becoming empty..very soon..

also, ive not seen the doctor since sec sch. my body have always healed itself whenever its down...

its been 2-3 months already. i really dun wish to drag it, but im stuck. all i hope and pray now is that im making the right decisions. yet all these while im always willing to give with a smile, always willing to bless with a smile..like my problem doesnt exist..


Who am I
That You would know me from the start
Set me apart
Who am I
That You would place eternity
Into my heart

You have given to me
More than this world could give
My purpose is found in You

One life, I lay at Your altar
One love, I have with You
Touch me again
Fill me as You hold
My outstretched hands

One Word, You know I will follow
One heart, broken to You
Use me again
Your mercies follow me
For all my days...

In Your presence
In Your power
Holy Spirit
I surrender...

thats the cry of my heart...

Prayer meeting

okay..so i did wake up at 730am..exactly..cus of my phone alarm. but i was too sick to move, i dozed off shortly after i stopped my alarm. then was once again woken up by pam's sms at 9. so i stayed home and watched the live broadcast.



the moment ps kong finished e last point, i rushed off to expo for the PM at 130pm. i reached at 145pm tho, but praise God, haha..it started at 2pm, yep, it was brought forward. it was awesome. sick, in CONSTANT pain, but it was worth it. and i felt we really broke through..



im so geared up for emerge. 4 days youth conference and we are really praying that the authorities will allow us to bring in 2 satellite vans cus we will be having a global broadcast on the opening night. people from all over the world, from australia, to china, to europe, to america to africa, all the continents! will be viewing our conference live! :)



its gonna be so exciting. my throat still hurts..every time i cough it feels as if my throat is swelling/bleeding. everytime i sneeze, it feels exactly like when im coughing. and my eye still hurts. i think i slept in e wrong position of some sort.



i know Cin is thinking of dunno what sleeping position ah..lol..:p



anyway, random. yea..after PM went to have a bit with josh, wendy and liang popo..lOl. i hate my throat..i cant do strange sounds anymore. the frequency would be so high or so low that u cant hear em ^.O



after tt took train home with pam.



tmr got sch..stil got my PI blog to do..shld i go? haha..nvm..go la..let the monkey-cow see my porno eye..hahahaha!!!

One life, one love, one word, one heart.

service was awesome today. felt a little drowsy and weak. before e service started, i was perspiring in e queue. at the same time..my body temp was burning on e inside. when i stepped into e hall, it was freezing cold. and i think i caught a cold. because its freezing outside my body, but burning inside. plus, the perspiration made it worse.

tts why ushers shld let sick people go in first before they get 'warmed up' outside esp when they have a fever..hahaha..

before long, that feeling of coldness combined with hotness caused my digestive system to go haywire. i started feeling nauseous and i resulted in diarrhoea. at the same time, i was like iced volcano. my skin was literally freezing and it felt icy cold. i felt weaker and almost fainted.

i sat at my seat. dozing off, feeling giddy, slightly nauseous. adam saw me 'flying off to wonderland' he quickly got me a panadol..thanks man. all in all..this message came at a kairos moment!

rem my previous post abt my past recollection? those painful nights in my sleep. those emo modes i often fled to. all those symptoms, ps kong mentioned all of them today during service. okay, so i knew there was someone i didnt forgive in my past that led me to become like that. but throughout the preaching, i didnt who i didnt forgive. hmm. i forgot, but i didnt forgive? err, a bit OOP eh? haha..

towards e end, God spoke and told me..'The person you've nv forgave, all these while. You dont remember the person? It's because you chose to live as if that person didnt exist. You've buried the person deep down inside your spirit and soul for years. You've been putting up a brave front but in actual fact, ure hiding the identity of that person..."

and God continued..

"And that person, Andrew..is yourself.."

immediately, those things ive blogged previously..came to my mind. all those memories..those hurts..just playedback in my head. and immediately, i decided..to release myself to God. it was a hard decision, it was a very painful one too. but whats gotta be done, has to be done.

by e end of service..i was feeling better. now just left with my cough and cold. each time i sneeze is machiam im like coughing like that..like my entire gullet is flying out X_X oh and i love e new emerge songs too! =) today's "Breakaway" sounds a little..metal..haha..but still cool! XD

and my eye needs rest..haha. okay, so after svc we went to kembangan zi-cha. erm..OKAY i dont know how to spell..but yea u get wad i mean o_O i hope..lol. anyway, food was good..haha..not bad..i learnt that nicole means a person with cold knees..okay nvm..random. lol.

service, round 2 tmr..plus churchwide prayer meeting! chiong ah! lol. *cough cough..

Continued.. (+Tricia)

basically cg was good. the thing that i caught from it the most, is that:

1. Not every prayer will be heard by God.
2. If your heart is not right with the people around you (you recently talked bad about someone, you were angry with someone, you were angry with yourself, etc.), your prayers will be hindered.
3. If your heart is not right with God, your prayers will be hindered.

"I cant feel God anymore" is a stupid excuse! dun make me repeat my previous posts. ive said it, pastor have said it, God has said it, and WE will say it again, your life wont change with time! its time for you to go back to kindergarten to learn basic english...

just let me blog a few more thoughts..

the stupidest thing a person can do..is to CHOOSE to lose someone that they've never lost! sounds stupid? but i have no idea why people still do it. they are like the seed that was sown, but the cares of the world choke up the Word.

really, start waking up your idea. stop complaining, stop thinking, and start believing, start acting! God said it, I believe it, that settles it. no more, no less. you CANT rationalise God, you cant rationalise your life. dont even try..it doesnt work. and if it doesnt work, it DOESNT work!

ONLY faith can please God, ONLY faith can change your life, period!

during cg, i must say i was very impressed by the korean visitors. they're really very friendly and funny..haha. esp the yongren-lookalike LOL. it was later revealed that he is a youth pastor of his church in korea, and the other 2 lovely ladies, one was the head of the Choir ministry and the other, a celgrp leader...

i was shocked. stunned. lost for words..haha. they're so nice to sing us a blessing song after the celgrp. i tell u, i was so moved. i just stood there, presence of God overwhelmed me. i mean, i have my highest respects and salute to the korean church. they are the carriers and living examples of revival. Dr Yonggi Cho, the last i heard, his church crossed 900,000.

just his leaders' meeting alone, he had to book an entire outdoor stadium. their celgrp leaders alone are in the 5-digit quantities (xx,xxx)! i totally admire them, totally respect them. and when they sang that song, it was as if, i felt an impartation. i mean, to have them to sing us a blessing is really an honor..

and we took a group photo! i must say that was the coolest thing ever :) ill upload it once Peng sends me e pic..haha. i was so blessed last night. XD man, i miss e110 haha..not that i dont love e420, i mean i do, with all my heart. ^.^

btw, just wanna say thank you to one person. tricia.

i mean, i wasnt feeling very good, during cg, i could kinda tell my singing was like a frog croaking, and when i prayed, i tell you, the heavens really moved..haha.

but before the cg, she was the only one who came up to me and 'how are you feeling?', and really i was moved. it was something i didnt expect, yet at the same time, it was something i appreciated. :)

haha honestly, i dont care about what 'carpet', 'cushion', 'curtain' thing..hahaha..u chose to be a person of initative and really thank you, those words really meant a lot to me. xD cheers.

combined cg

man..today's cg was awesome! haha..feels like 'family reunion' lol! E420 combined with E110! :)) seeing my bro rising up to be a cg guitarist, i jus feel so happy for him. all this while, even though we have disagreements at times, i have always respected him. ive always seen him as someone who can do greater things than me.

even though im the elder one, i always lower myself to someone who's willing to serve him. someone who's willing to learn from him. and i must admit, GUYS especially find it hard to remove their pride and ego. but ive come to a point where ive mastered it. :) ive always told myself that there is something i can learn from him..

ppl will tell me, 'u got problem isit? ure smarter, more this, more that than him', i will strangle anyone who tells me that. ill take a bowling ball and smash your head until i can sweep it into a dustpan and dump it into a dustbin!

i have never seen myself as smarter or more good looking, or more successful or more anointed than him. in my eyes, my younger bro will always be someone i will look up to. i know of people who love to compare me and him, just watch out you dont do that in front of me. you wont want to see me 'fired up'.

i remember the times when i lay on my bed, and all i thought of were the times i caused harm to him, times when ive mad him feel sad or angry..and i would cry myself to sleep. it always moved me how God can take someone insignificant and make him a somebody. everytime i think of it, i would just end up in tears. ive always looked down on him, ive always wanted everything for myself, yet, through all those painful memories, God taught me how to humble myself and to esteem others better than myself even though they dont deserve it.

i remember those times when i would ask him for forgiveness in the middle of the night, in tears, i have never told myself i was right, never have..never will. same goes for all those whom im close to. part of who i am now, is a result of who i am not, in the past.

for those who dont know me well, im someone who keeps to myself, not that i dont now, but last time it was worse. i didnt like people. when im angry, ive always wanted to show im strong by blasting out. running from home, slamming doors, taking the kitchen knife and wave in front of my parents and brother, many suicidal tendencies, violent, rageful, aggressive, merciless..

i was saddistic. i loved to see people hurt, i loved to see them cry, i loved to see blood on their hands, legs, anywhere on them. when someone bullied me, id resort to revenge. i didnt stop until i see them cry out, or until i see them bleed. id pick up furniture in my house and throw them around, slam doors till the lock breaks, slam cabinet doors till they drop..attempted to murder my own family and myself with them..

u cant believe, u cant even picture it. now..by the grace of God, im the exact opposite. you wanna talk about my life testimony? this is my life testimony. yet everytime when i think of those things, ive always cupped myself with my pillows and blanket and cry till i sleep. and i still do once in awhile. in my tears, ive always asked myself, what would happen, what would i become if not for God?

what would happen to my family and the people around me, if not for God? there are still times when ive felt i didnt deserve my parents' love, times when ive felt i didnt deserve God's love, times when ive felt i didnt deserve the love from anyone. sometimes people see me in my emo state, is not because im angry, or upset..

its because of those memories that made me feel that way, behave that way. i would never forget the time i shouted to my dad "you are the worse dad in the whole world, you're not fit to be a father!" or the same thing to my mother, my brother. and in return i would say it to myself and i would struggle with suicidal tendencies.

those times when id beat up my parents until my mum and dad cried..im actually tearing just typing this...

i dont think i can blog anymore...

Thoughts and randoms (LONG post)

im still sick. but SLOWLY recovering lol. i dont understand why someone people just dont seem to wake up their idea. what is insanity? insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result! you keep on complaining about your life..and all you do is remain the same! cmon! start changing! if you wait for the perfect conditions, ull never get anything done!

and i mean, you WILL not get anything done! not should, not might, you WILL not! others are just plain stubborn. they expect their lives to be better and yet they themselves are not putting in the effort. the proof of your desire is in your pursuit. you want something, go get it, period! - pursuit of happiness.

and many times, over infinite times, i just feel like shouting at their faces: PLEASE WAKE UP YOUR IDEA! some simply cant be bothered. some dont believe anything i say. well, its okay, you are insane, i dont mind. continue to live your life of insanity then and see if it gets any better. whole day complain, complain, complain..how often do i even complain about anything??

most of e time, im always smiling. no im not crazy, neither am i emo. im just someone with a different spirit!! all those things uve learned, have u even applied them??? i hate those people who go, 'my life sux', 'my life is in a mess'.my question to you is: WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE YOU DOING ABOUT IT??? you can talk all you want until the rapture!

your life will ONLY change when your thinking changes!!!

your life WONT change if u try something different!!!

your life WONT change if you say something different!!!

your life WONT change if you do things differently!!!

your life WONT change if you meet different people!!!

your life WONT change in time!!!

your life WONT even change when the moment you start acting!!!

it just WONT, WONT, WONT...stop being an idiot and WAKE UP YOUR IDEA! cmon! stop being a cheapo in life! so many people fix their eyes on what captures their attention, rather than fix their eyes on something they want! am i saying that you are 'enslaved' to the world? i will gladly say yes! what??? did i say something wrong?? your eyes cant move on your own?? come on!! give me a break!! those are your eyes!! stop looking at your problems!!

you think i dont have any problems? yes i do. plenty in fact. by the way, let me share with you one very big secret, that no one else in the world knows..

"you can move your own eyes"..

WOW!!!! REVELATION!!! HIDDEN TRUTH!!! ASTOUNDING!!!!

remember the story of the 3 little pigs? it kinda reminded me of the parable of the sower, or the story of the wiseman and the foolishman. the foolishman built his house on the sands of life, the rain came, the floods rose, his house was swept away.

the wiseman built his house on the rock of Christ..the rain came, the floods rose and his house moved not a millimeter. and thank God, God is a loving, unlimited God. the fact that He can stand 8-9 billion people complaining their lives to Him 24/7!!!

u must be wondering, did someone offend me? no, noone offended me. im just typing my thoughts, thats all. by the way, if youre offended by what i typed..let me tell you another secret that no one else in the world knows:

"being offended is a choice"...

unless of course ure emotionally unstable or emotionally shutdown, then i got 2 words for ya:

OPEN UP!!!!!

for goodness sake! stop living in that small little puny lunchbox of your life and come out into the real world!! you might say, "see those problems i have? im in the real world, ure not!" well, let me tell you..you have a really frigging small world!

you can even say: oh im a christian, i am destined for eternity.

well let me ask you: if you're destined for eternity why live as if you are in a cage right now??? i remembered someone once said. some people are going to heaven, but they suffer like hell on e way there while others are going to hell, but they enjoy like heaven on the way there.

comeon!! stop being a oxymoronic person! some people say, 'oh you dont know what i am going through', 'I cant do this', 'I think..', I, I, I..stop I-ing!!!! then again, some people just dun wanna wake up their idea. fine, if you think you can sit in the cockpit of your life and fly your own plane, fine. for me, God is my pilot.

ill end here by summing up everything in one sentence:

Your life is a manifestation of your thoughts.

Pour My Love On You - Philips, Craig, Dean

I don't know how
To say exactly how I feel
And I can't begin
To tell you what your love has meant
I'm lost for words

Is there a way
To show the passion in my heart
Can I express
How truly great I think you are
My dearest friend

Lord this is my desire
To pour my love on you

Like oil upon your feet
Like wine for you to drink
Life water from my heart
I pour my love on you
With praises like perfume
I lavish mine on you
Till every drop is gone
I pour my love on you

Is there a way to show
The passion in my heart
Can I express
How truly great I think you are,
My dearest friend

Lord this is my desire
To pour my love on you


Just listening to this song reminds me of the woman who poured perfume on His feet and wiped it with her hair. How much are you willing to go for the one you love?

The greatest of all is a servant of all.

Long update

love this song. thanks to Cin haha. okay ill stop the cinth thing...for now...muahahaha!!!

soo..ill just update on a few 'memorable' things tt happened this week. monday after PI was a complete comedy lah! lol! okay, i admit i over-reacted haha..but what to do? If God created me like that, then Ill just love myself the way I am..hahahaha..

"hoo! hoo! hoo!" lawl...

eh Chris..the bacon on the mouth and ur action a BIT the exaggerated eh? hahaha..DOINK! lol. stupid wen, keep on haunting me..lol. RAWR! O_O haas. i think i can sign up for some funniest home video audition ^.O okay, random. haha. or even go for a mediacorp interview and audition to play a role as a retard ROFL.

on tues during IMGT..as i was doing the tutorial in class..suddenly the gurl behind me tapped my chair with her pen. i thought she just tapped randomly. but she was actually tapping to get my attention. okay so i turned around..then ZOMG her face so near my face!!!! then those eyeballz so HUUUGEEE! i almost freaked out! i thought i saw a !Kung Bushgirl or something o_O i literally backed off a bit..lol..the face damn scary la..

then she asked softly and with a grin..okay a smile of some sort: how i design my desktop to look e way it is..so i explained to her. haha. DAMN..im having weird experiences with girl faces! ^.O first the one tt looked like she was gonna murder me, then my maid going "HUUUUH!!", then now this one..damn i think im gonna have womenofacialphobia..hahaha..fear of women's faces ._. okay lame..haha..

basically im sick today. dunno if its spread from someone or its just me not having enough rest and constantly thinking all the time, busy, busy, busy. started with a cough, then in the morning, a fever, now add on to it, a headache. just now when i woke up from my 'after-school' nap, my right eye was sore..or swollen..or something..

now my right eye is smaller than my left eye!!! so gross right? yayaya..ivy will finally take revenge and tell me that i look at too much porn o_O haha. cus we always disturb her haha..okay i better not say too much..haha..take care of ur eyes! :PP lols.

i kinda 'told' my sickness, u better go away urself before i watch benny hinn's videos, then ull be really screwed. but yeah, i want to screw my sickness. let u suffer and cry out your voice of surrender and pain as benny hinn prays through the video! yea im a saddist. love me for that. haha.

sickness is not there for u to learn a lesson, sickness is there for you to teach it a lesson and show who's boss!!!

Horror VS Humour VS Cinth

guess what..amidst of all the elearning..i totally blanked out on my FYP selection! O_O woot. lol..ya i cant believe it, u cant believe it. BUT GOD..saves the day..haha..thank God for round 2 tts coming up next week. okay so i dunno if i shld go intern or inhouse. both have their pros and cons..haha. i wanna do some office job lol..im good with hands on and sorting and administrative stuff :x okay, see where my 'gamemaster' leads me..haha

my gamemaster is none other than my best friend, God :) i remembered the last time i felt such a sense of sarcasm with God spoke..haha..i asked Him.."are you trying to be funny? 3 of them?" (if u knew what i went through for a short period of time..haha good for u, if not the next paragraph u can skip cus itll appear random to u..haha)

and He said (after a few days of quietness), "There's more.." *FAINT! lol. im so thankful haha for a friend like Him :D same flow..hahaha..tts what makes people unique beautiful isnt it? haha

okay, i know some people are gonna strangle me now because they disagree..LOL! God can be my Lamers Partner..haha. and..there ARE times Jesus Himself was lame..haha..remember the story of the people gambling at the synagogue? haha..He was throwing tables, and stuff were flying all over, then at one small verse.."the sick were healed." hahaha...so funny la...i can imagine the scenario lol..

there were also other scenes where He'd outtalk a bunch of religious people..and i marvelled haha. oh oh oh..i remember..

*Blind man comes.
Stares blankly at Jesus.."Lord.."
"What do you want me to do for you?" hahahaha..i dunno about u but i find it super lame lol.
and then i remembered Ps Casey Treat...haha rofl.

finally im 80% done with the elearning. the remaining i can do tmr during my 3hr break! LOL! zomg. the horror of thinking of it..haha. and just now that cinth..lol..yes! teletubby cinth! keep on teasing me on msn..grrr..with those...those..those..*sniff...words..^.O

trying to make me have wet dream..ROAR! lol. O_O i wont let u win!!!! grrr...haa.

oh..im back to playing pokemon yellow on my laptop emulator! OHMYGOODNESS what am i becoming hahaha...

Live webcast

ministry was fun today. did the live webcast lol. it was my first time and i must say, when i first laid my hands on the equipment. they were on the verge of shaking lol..a bit tense, a bit nervous. cus its LIVE! lol..and if u make one small error, millions of people around the world..will know! hahaha.

okay, its not just the fact tt its my first time tt made me nervous. basically, someone more senior was assigned to me to oversee this whole thing and to guide me. but 99% of the time. im doing all the stuffs. lol. 10-15min before the service, i met samuel (who was assigned with me to do live webcast.

when doing live webcast you CANNOT afford to doze off, or get distracted. its 2hrs+ of focus, not on one, but on TWO equipment..multitasking you would say. so, it was 10-15min before svc started and samuel met me inside the media room to 'brief' me.

he said A LOT, and i mean A LOT of things..and cramped his entire knowledge of these 2 equipment in that 10-15minutes. and since i wasnt a new crew, id prob be expected to be able to adapt and to absorb and apply as much as i could.

he said things like..before service, what to do.
when ps kong goes up, what to do.

what to do during:

praise, clapping, worship, sermon, prayer, altarcall, pre and post altar call, pre and post praise, pre and post worship, pre and post sermon so on and so forth..

but all in all it was a good experience even though i was a little tired. thank God for His strength. and sermon was great. the deeper we go, the more and more we will see if we are true disciples or not! below are just some pics..

oh btw, on the left is the video room and on the right is the chorus board room. o_O or is it e other way round? haha..cant rem. then behind outside is the chinese, jap and korean interpreter rooms.

This is the main board i used throughout the service. whatever you hear online today, and in the video sermon they will upload, is managed on this board. bottom left 3, is the left, right overall, followed by ps kong's mike, then the interpreter mike which i didnt touch. the blue switches are the stage ambience and the congregation ambience. the red one is the overall mains feed.

the red lights above the board are the left and right DB indicators.

and above the board is the preview and live cameras. haha this one very funny. its interesting what you see on the preview cam during sermon. people digging nose, people yawning, making weird funny faces and poses! hahahaha. next time, dont think just because ure not on the LED doesnt mean ure not live..somewhere else..hahahaha!!! DONT TRY TO DOZE OFF EITHER! haha. imagine some pastor comes in to check the media rooms and on the screen u have..u know..haha.

just because ure not on the LED doesnt mean all the other cameras are not taking scenes. throughout the service EVERY CAMERA is constantly rotating and constantly recording..haha. try to sneak out the service early? can see also..haha then next time we will inform the usher to put e person at e back next time..haha jkjk.

and please, dont talk, dont use the handphone. besides God, the sound crew, video crew, some lighting crew (who come into e media rooms once in awhile) and the chorus board crew can see everything..lol.

thats why when theres VIP and they have to record the guests when we greet them, the director's room have every camera on the multi-monitors in front of him to spot.



just another view..

see those yellow lights on the second equipment on e left? thats the volume meter to show how loud it is on the live webcast. of course we have headphones to listen to PLUS a separate external speaker located on top of the left equip. the left side is where my eyes focus on most of the time..to see if ps kong is too loud or too soft, or the praise n worship, congregation, etc. seeing + hearing.

oh ya..u dun see any luminous yellow lights (except 1) becos service has ended..haha.

last but not least, the imac on top with the speaker at the right rear of that imac. i have to click record before the service starts to start capturing the service for the video that theyll put up later in e week. the config's have already been adjusted by the video crew.

notice the left screen..its the chc logo. this is after svc has ended. so what u see on e imac is what u see on ur mediaplayer live. and notice on the right..the cameras are still on after service! hahaha..'happy birthday to you' somemore :D jkjk..haha most of the time they're stationery for awhile before the TV crew keeps the cameras.

throughout the service im literally soloing..haha. samuel jus sat there to observe me..and tell me to change some features when failed to do it 'automatically' haha. also he was on the comms. there was once the TV person came over the sliding door on the left saying Ally's voice is too hollow..^.O so sam helped to comms the message over to 'house' and 'foldback'.

in case u wanna know, the center board in e middle of the hall is called the 'front-of-house' or FOH, then the one next to stage is called Foldback or FB. then right in front of the stage is the 'front field'.

oh yeah, emerge is 2weeks plus more! xD ^.^

oh, btw, my handphone battery cover is missing! ahh...O_O

so much assignment to do..grr..gotta chiong now..ciao.

CG

celgrp was good. fellowship was good. something funny happened along our way home tho.

me, thad and pam were taking the train from bishan to raffles. and clever thad suggested we alight at city hall even tho we had to go up the escalator, cus more chance to get seats. okay, so we alighted..and walked up e escalator.

we saw a train at the boonlay platform, then 'doors closing'. so i thought, its ok, we can wait for the next one. then the horror struck: "May we have your attention please. There are no more trains to boonlay. There are no more trains to outram park, jurong east and boonlay. Thank you and have a nice day."

have a nice day???? who say alight at city hall??? grr, if we went to raffles we couldve caught up with e last train! lols. *strangles thad..hahaha. anyway, im so used to missing e last train already. so we took bus 16 from city hall and accompanied pam to tiong bahru then shared cab to boonlay from there. so funny la..

then that pam, she seemed obsessed with skaters for some reason o_O keep on smiling and giggling each they they skated past...hahaha...*random.

rofl..john and his stupid 'CD-spoil' guitar plucking technique..lmao. divebomb-guitarist aka jerry yen..wth..^.^ also during fellowship dunno why thad suddenly started talking abt *ahem..haha..cant mention the person's name, scully its one of the reader's cgl..lol.

the members take on e leader's personality. sooo true. everyone's going 'food-mode' and 'lame-mode' and 'random-mode' now..dots..spiderboy o_O. played taboo during cg. all e weird random stuffs, bradpit's armpit, robinboot, i almost thought he was gonna say catman or something ^.O

kk rushing for svc now..will blog again tonite. ciao.

Random - blessings (LONG POST)

okay, its e-learning week and i havent even READ my assignments O_O. and i just received news tt cgm will be at wenrui's house! omg the horror..lol. BISHAN! and omg i knew it today itself O_O. luckily i have no school till 6pm. if not not only ill be late, i might miss cg, even if i make it, itll start late, and as a result i might miss the last train, as a result i might end up spending 1x-2x dollars on cab fare, and might be inclusive of midnight charges. and after tt i might end up sleeping late, then waking up late, then not being able to queue, then have to struggle for seats, etc etc..

._.

sounds exaggerative but its simply a chained cause-effect theory. i dunno how u can relate to the chaos theory but it doesnt matter..lol. sounds random but tts e point. u shldve thinked twice about coming to visit a randomer's blog ^.O

since its a random post imma talk about something random, which has been on my mind for months! :o i dont know if uve ever heard this phrase, it might even be a revelation to some of you o_O.

"Never say no to a blessing."

yes, never say no to a blessing. never! if someone insists, i dont see why you should reject it. to say no to a blessing simply means to reject the person of having the right to show kindness to you, saying no to a blessing is like saying no to someone's love, in other words, depriving the person of the intention to express love/gratitude.

if someone offers you something, if u feel bad accepting it and u say no, AND..the person is okay with it..thats fine.

but if he/she insists, then DONT ever say no. why u might say. lets say you prepare a nice card, a good gift, spend some money, do some 'research' on a person you love, and on his/her birthday/special day, you decide to give this gift to the person. imagine the person saying, "its ok, i dont need it", how would you feel?

by e way, i didnt learn this from someone wise or what..i learned it from a 13-14 year old kid!!! i was playing for a makeup celgrp and so happened i took the same bus as this bunch of sec sch girls after cg..to go for svc. she offered me a sweet and i said, its ok, no thanks.

then she said those words, and said it as if i offended her. i immediately felt so convicted. she was like: "how can you say no!?! werent you taught not to say no to a blessing?!?" after awhile it seemed she was teasing me, but then again..i felt God speaking to me like that..just through a young girl with the intention to tease. thats how amazing God is.

you think its easy to pick up the boldness to say to someone, 'have this', 'can i get you this/that', etc.? you think its easy to come to a point, worked so hard, live a selfless life so that someone else can benefit. and just by you saying no, you've just told the person. your boldness is in vain, all your hard work, is in vain.

take another example. the greatest blessing, cost someone His ultimate sacrifice, and not an easy sacrifice also. saying no, to the one who created you, saying no, to the one who died for you, saying no to the one who can make your life complete. saying no, to God.

dont have to reason in your head, im not talking about theology here, im talkin common sense. if u dont even have the common sense to respect someone's act of love, then i have no idea if ull ever truly love someone.

love is not something you can reason, a selfless act is not someone thing you can reason, its either you accept it or reject it. even if a stranger risked his life to save me and i heard about it through a friend or relative, i would still go to him and thank him/her and accept the person's selfless, sacrificial love.

you call this religion? you call this theology? you call this philosophy? NO! this is common sense! the act of GRATITUDE and RESPECT is something you SHOULD ALREADY HAVE AT SOMEONE YOUR AGE!!! unless of course, you are immature, then thats something else!

saying thank you is something so BASIC! saying thank you to a stranger is even more basic! dont tell me you lack BASIC COURTESY? such that when a bus driver stops for you, you are the last to enter the bus and you dont even say a thank you?

even when the cleaners at hawker centers clean the table for you..do you thank the person? you know how hard it is for someone who's 'looked down' upon, to be able to be a servant of all??? again, COMMON SENSE!!!! if your common sense is lacking i suggest you check yourself, really..a person with a seared conscience will make wrong judgements. u treat everything good as evil, everything evil as good.

thats why people end up with the wrong people. they just cant seem to find the 'right person' because they themselves are not right in the first place! sorry to offend you but that's the way life is..right produces right, wrong produces wrong. and dont even for a second think that life will change over time, time will tell, time will heal..

TIME DOES NOTHING FOR YOU EXCEPT TO GIVE YOU AN OPPORTUNITY TO START ACTING!!!

your life will only change when your thinking changes. if you think you can live life on your own? fine. for me, i definitely need God in my life. and of course various people in my life as well. see your friends and you see your future. wanna know how ull be few years down the road? well, look at those you hang out with. u hang out with a loser? ull eventually become a loser. u hang out with the smart, youll become smart, etc.

you dont have to be a fool to say ure a fool, just hang around one and youll become one!

stop letting your circumstances dictate your decisions! do you have any idea WHO you are? do you have any idea how precious and how valued you are? it all boils down to your own sense of security and self esteem. if you know your true value and the authority and power God has given to His children, THEN..stop being sitting ducks to life's circumstances!

start taking action! renew your mind and the only way to overcome your giants is to be a giant yourself! stop looking down on yourself, having a pity-party about your life, come on!!! stand up and fight! are you gonna let life laugh at you for your entire lifetime???

what do you do when you fall down? remain on the floor and cry: Oh dear..i fell down. ahh, my legs must be failing me..ahh..i think im losing my sense of balance. ONLY A KID DOES THAT FOR GOODNESS SAKE! when adults fall, what they do? they immediately get up!!! its INSTINCT my friends!

(my friends??? i sound like a preacher/lecturer now..haha)

its like a fully armed knight..with the helm, breastplate, shoes, belt. sitting on the floor and saying oh no..i have lost..when in actual fact the sword and shield is just less than a metre away. thats why its important to know who you are, your value in God and the things He have entrusted to you!

okay, how did i get this 'revelation'? its not a revelation lol..okay it is..to some extent. simply put, its common grace speaking to me through the Bleach anime series. hahaha..God is good :D

okay, ive lost my train of thought..lol..will blog again tonite ^.^

New Theme

Laptop is better now. Thanks to...me! haha.

I named this theme AndroneKaiCosmos

KristosKaiKosmos - Christ in culture

AndroneKaiCosmos - Androne in space! ^.^

Oh Ill try to change skin this year, hopefully soon.

This is just changing the theme. Ill probably try to make a whole new skin soon...

If I have the time..haha.

Toshiba AGAIN!!!

arrgh i really gonna burn them now..

sound problem now..DOH..and mebbe some RAM issues..grr

keep on restarting, shut down, on, restart, shutdown, on...

I KNEW IT!!!! and its my e-learning week with tons of assignments..

guess what..the timing..I KNEW IT TOO!

TOSHIBA NEVER FAILS TO MAKE ME FLUNG MY MODULES!!!

TOSHIBA NEVER FAILS TO MAKE MY ASSIGNMENTS OVERDUE!!!

grr..u sucka, im gonna burn u down!

Burning toshiba is not arson..

Burning toshiba is CHARITY!

Random part 2

Hmm this was taken during sat after svc at bedok int. not e hawker ctr, but the kopitiam next to it. sells good curry and chicken rice ^.^

was tempted to upload one more pic..keep on laughing at e mouth..lols..but i guess i shant..lol

if not tricia will kill me =p

PPP is over! yes! haha..but still got one more lesson but unconfirmed yet..O.O now playing game in classroom..haha. oh yes, i finally found the torrent for microsoft train simulator haha. i used to play tt game..so fun.

ending at 6 today..boohoos..lawl..

oh..and one more thing:


rofl..some taiwanese singer..o_O eh at least not like kenneth..who took a pic with a gun pointed at his head..and he looked 60% like saddam hussein..hahahaha..cus of his facial expression. thats myheritage.com btw...jus signup a free acc and upload ^.^

ehhh..btw my face not so white can! hahaha..stupid kopitiam lighting m_m lol. okay, i admit my face is FAIR..but not white! RAWR! lol..

Random

have u ever talked/msged to ppl and it feels like ure talking to stones?

anyway, today is elearning week. the selection for our FYP has started, this week. unfortunately i have IMGT tmr. and the PPP thingy where they say if u dun attend u wont get ur diploma. beacuse mine clashed with my IMGT, i had to go for make-up. there are 3 lessons. i went for lesson 3 today. then tmr go for lesson 1 and 2..right before my IMGT.

ya la..someone happy can stay at home hor? miss immediate-violence-youth...kaka. lol. okay, since i got nothing more to type here..ill just post something random.

List of things that make me different from others:
List of weird things about me:

1. I like dark colors.
2. I listen more than I speak.
3. I think more than I act.
4. Girls come to me to share relationship problems.
5. Giving is addictive to me.
6. I hardly spare a thought for what I want, instead I place the desires of others above mine.
7. I feel nauseous/giddy sometimes the moment I doze off on the train. (Its not motion sickness).
8. I am hard to figure out.
9. I am mysterious.
10. I never scolded anyone in my lifetime.
11. I never raised my voice at anyone in my lifetime.
12. I never gave attitude to anyone in my lifetime.
13. I mature very fast when I was young.
14. I have stolen only once in my lifetime.
15. I have never pinched anyone in my lifetime.
16. I have never pulled anyone's hair in my lifetime.
17. I have never laid my hands on anyone in my lifetime.
18. When the going gets tough, I grow and mature even faster.
19. I have never shown anger to anyone in most of my lifetime.
20. I have never released a person's personal secret in my lifetime. I have kept every secret that I should keep be it from friends, etc. But for secrets about people being unrighteous, I will gladly tell the truth.

A true friend places character above relationship. Id rather have you hate me for telling a lie, than to love me for telling the truth.


10, 11, 12, 17, 19: except my bro. (childish days growing up). typical sibling rivalry.

4: I dunno why, but somehow they do. Probably its because im someone whom they can trust and most of the time they wanna know what a guy is thinking/feeling, etc.

Sermon on the mount, etc. Long post!

Man this series is the ultimate series..haha.

its gonna be so exciting..i heard this series is SOT standard so..yea..it takes a well-equipped disciple to understand it at first..lol. but i managed to catch it..hehe..:D

so many things ive learned from this series. its like a spiritual xray, it discerns the true believer from the non-believer, the mature from the immature, and to what extent are we conformed into the likeness of Christ.

its so true when ps said, the moment your conscience is off course, your will make wrong judgements. you end up making wrong decisions all the time, you end up going from one relationship to another, etc..and i feel its sooo true!

tts why we need God to recalibrate our conscience and renew our mind. also, he mentioned other things which blessed me greatly. its one thing to lead, its another thing to BE a leader. its not just about the DOing, but the BEing.

praise God, our missions work touched a total of 43,xxx people. and thank God for breakthrough average weekly attendance of 23,1xx. what we sow, we will definitely reap. we sent our best as a church, by sending ps kong and the rest of the team. people thought that we will fall away, but guess what? people are always wrong, instead its during this period of time that we hit our highest record ever. God is always good and He is always true to His word. what people say dont matter, what God says is final! xD

he also talked about the beattitudes. deep stuff, but its definitely something worth catching. one word from God and your life will never be the same again. :D also, thank God for open doors into China, Japan and into all of asia. if i could choose a time to be alive, its gotta be NOW! =) btw, missions in Japan..? tt got me interested..hahaa..

today woke up at 7am..gave rhonda wake up call, met her up at JE to go svc together. 'picked up' ti-momo and emma along e way. haha i still rem John (huh? emma's a guy!?! ROFL!) xP oh, and bao was telling me how he was dozing off while riding his bike to svc..MAN!! LOL.

yea svc was great today too, even though i was a bit tired/sleepy, but thank God for His presence that gave me strength and understanding to keep me awake :)) the most important ive learned in lesson2 is..no matter how much you have on the inside..the presence and the 'fragrance' of God will only flow out when the bottle is broken.

have no sch from mon to fri, cus its e-learning week. its good AND bad..haha. assignments and deliverables to complete :o

this week's been great for me. and its gonna build up then itll be EMERGE! OH YEAH! haha. was listening to the emerge DVD..and i was so touched i just teared in e presence of God. i believe God is gonna do something great, new grounds, new levels, new depths, like never before! :D

3 weeks to go! ^^

3 hour break.

my timetable is soo full of 3hr breaks la..lol. either 3 hr breaks or 4-6pm lessons. worse is come sch 1hr then 3hr break..like today..haha.

cheese prata..yummy..*pregnant..egg prata..hmm..*clears throat. =/

everyone's crazy over my 'mei-ren aunty' incident..haha stupid chris..u hear wrongly still say i say wrongly m_m *RAWR! haha. okay, basically, i ordered fruit juice punch from C2 yesterday..i selected honeydew and watermelon yum yum..ice cold, pinkish and sweet ^.^ haha..

then i told the aunty, 'melon honey', that chris hear mei-ren aunty..swee lor..haha..^.O

next week is e-learning week, that means camping at home, no sch. but lessons and homework as usual..just that now online.

oh ya, i forgot to mention in my previous post tt during our may-day aka family day celebrations, every cgl and ministry leaders received a choice of free handphones! one is nokia and e other ericsson..cant rem e model name..but its super nice O.O haha.

oh ya..FYI, the song Hero tt ive uploaded on my imeem, surprisingly has 46 comments in 1-2 weeks and its rated 5 stars! woot..haha..din expect so much publicity hahaha...

okay, ive decided..ill put up tt song on this blog haha..

feel free to click on the link on e player and comment k? keke =)

Mayday Family Day

okay, not only was i late..i got stuck outside the hall today o_O dots. then after 1-2 songs i managed to get in. the entire concert was phenomenal. we only get to see Sun like once, at most twice/thrice a year. i really salute her..was browsing thru her website..and i see all the ''#1'' under the taiwan radio charts/stations.

sometimes we tend to forget that she's our co-founder. if not for her sacrifices, we wouldnt be where we are. also, im suuper amazed by ps kong's mandarin haha. really, from e bottom of my heart..i think its pretty good! there were even some words he said that i didnt know the meaning of..lol.

haha, the thing that left an impression in me, was when ps was sharing, whenever he tried to get into Sun's concert, people would stop him. even when he dressed up like a rockstar, pierced his ears and wore a pair of sunglasses..he would always be spotted..hahaha..so funny..

the whole day was just simply phenomenal and memorable for me :) could feel e presence of God throughout..and when Sun started to sing the worship song, it felt like Benny Hinn's service once again..strong presence :D a powerful and thick atmosphere where lives can be changed, where dreams can become reality and where dead dreams can come back to life, faith, hope and love!

just like during B.Hinn..the moment u feel that level of atmosphere, u just know from e bottom of ur heart, that e sick are being healed. an atmosphere of limitless potential, where anything is possible :D

we also had a song item from Niu-Nai as well as dancers from O-School. its super rare that we can come together to relax to enjoy each other and to spend time together as brothers and sisters. because of our size..its pretty hard. lol.

we had to use THREE expo halls for today's family day event special, and yet, i can tell, its clearly not enough..hahaha..

today clearly ended with a blast! :D after tt we went hall 7 to have our free dinner. :D man! the ramly burger queue..IS INSANE!!!! lol. after queueing for on hour plus..i moved 3-4 metres and its only halfway to the front! o_O

in e end we left the queue. and at first decided to go BK..but then adam said his fren has managed to queue at hall 9 to buy for us. adam went over to help. he was telling me what happened at hall 9 ramly stall..i hear i also wanna faint!

the guy in front of him ordered 45 burgers! OMG..he ordered for 3 celgrps..^.O then someone ordered a few pieces of bread, 1 whole packet of raw meat and some eggs!!! WHHAT THHE HEELLL man..go NTUC buy la..LOL! weird people sia! o_O outside no sun, wanna cook urself on the road also cannot =/

in e end, after 2 hours plus, we got our burgers! WOOT. haha but nevertheless, i had my fill and was happy. man, i cant wait for SOTM lesson 1 this sat and lesson 2 this sunday! :) teeheehee...

oh yes, i love this song..it brings back memories back in jurong west days..! =) keke.

moooondaaaaay...

okay so i woke up today at the time lesson started, which is 9am. never overslept until like tt for a loooong time..lol. reached 945am for wireless tech. class. AND I THOUGHT I WAS LATE. someone was still at home snoring until 1pm! you rock! hahaha..

just a few random things. today after WT class, went to C3 with LY and TS. i help TS buy coffee..then i also buy one cup of cuppocino mocha for myself. then dunno why i carry 2 cups of coffee..ppl started staring at me machiam i REALLY need the coffee..hahahaha..dots..

most of them showed me this face:

^.O or o_O

hahaha..

anyway, its been 3 hours since i gave birth! yes! so happy my first invisible baby! huh? me? give birth? of course! its labour day!!! o_O okay, not funny..

okay, after i finished my coffee took e lift up for eCAD class. while going up, the lift door opened at the 3rd floor, and right at the corner of the lobby was this girl holding her handphone. and she was staring right into my eyes! OMG i almost freaked out..she looked as if she was gonna murder me or something..^.O

somemore her eyes open BIG BIG! i stone there sia..=/ then she nv blink i also never blink..then e door closed. omg if it was night time i confirm scream like a gu-niang..hahaha..jkjk lol. u dun wanna hear me scream like a gu-niang now do you? hahaha...

okay..so ecad ended one hour early! and guess what, it meant tt i now have FOUR HOURS BREAK! so what i do? i go home..haha. then went back to sch to watch movie for PI lesson. watch The Wall Street. surprisingly i dun see any walls le..hahaha..okay, not funny.

everyone really make e lecture room like cinema man..all e food and tidbits..haha.

tmr..later i mean..got the carnival and concert thingy. dun feel like goin carnival le..but ill certainly be going for e concert. and then the free dinner for those who attend e concert.

its the FIRST TIME chc got family day..haha, not bad. its impossible for us to have a church camp aldr, im sure u wont find a 25000 capacity chalet anywhere in singapore right? not even in the world..lol. if im not wrong even the hotel cant accomodate us hahaha..

..even a zone outing also hard to plan, dun talk about camp lol.

i think singapore's population just went up by another 4 million..cus everyone just gave birth..hahahaha..