Hmm...not much...:D

well, this week's been preeti norm i would sae. which is, hmm...kinda bad actualli. except jus last night i managed to play "Open Up the" Gates on my guitar...woohoo...well, most of it..haha except the intro part where i slipped (BBBB BEBBBB BE...)

had BS yesterdae...really feel strengthened last night. ended my qt at 1am. thank God i din wake up late todae...yea =D i jus feel tt i really need more of God's presence. more than ever. its sth u can get so called "addicted" to...haha ;) there's power, healing, dreams and visions when He u receive a touch frm heaven.

its really cool how God who made the Universe, with all power and holiness, is interested in someone like me. i really feel so loved and secure...when someone tells me "I love you", yea, ill feel touched...but when Almighty God says "I love you", man i am willing to give up my all jus to experience Him. =)

Lookin fwd to CG this tom. well, looks like ill have to "start" preparin for PSP tom...haha =P

Service was great...

Running After You

Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...Yeah

Your Word, is a light unto my path

Your love, guides me through my darkest night

And even though sometimes your ways i cannot understand

I'll never walk away because my future's in your hands

I don't care what people will say

I'm running after you

I won't turn back and go their way

I'm running after you

No matter what may come my way

I'm running after you

It's you I'm following today

I'm running after you

I'm running after you

I'm running after you

My first unforgettable Spiritual Attack on me

Yesterdae night was a horrible night for me. after my quiet time, which ended at 1.30am, i went to bed. I was tired
and had no idea if I was awake or sleeping when this incident happened. I felt a sudden heaviness upon me. It felt so
heavy that i couldn't move myself. Not my hands, not my legs, not even my eyes. It was horrible. I felt suffocated and
as if Death was sitting right on top of me.

But as i struggled through that 30-40min of intense battle. The LORD came through for me. I remembered the Word,
which was the sword of the Spirit. In that experience I saw, what seemed to be horrifying images, "Demons", if I
could put it that way, and they were charging towards me. Each time they charged at me i would feel like death came
on me. It was undescribable...it was scary.

I oso heard voices shoutin towards me. Horrible voices like "I will destroy you!", "I will crush you!"...etc. I still
remembered vividly the horrible voices and visions. Something that natural human brain couldn't describe. I felt
powerless at that point in time.

That was when i began to fight back. Asking the demons to leave in Jesus' name. Because there's power in His name.
"All hell trembles at the sound of that name". But it didn't have much effect. Then i quoted verses frm the Bible. Verses
like: In Him, we are more than conquerors; He shall make me the head and not the tail, I will be above and not
beneath; In Christ we have the victory! and more...i couldnt even remember all of them. Each time i would declare
these verses to the Devil, there would come a flash of light that would set me apart, and I would feel free...but only
for a short moment. Then the sense of heaviness and discomfort would set on me again. I repeated the Word again
and flash upon flash like the Sword of the Spirit. But I couldnt really see the Sword because it was a bright.

It was like a battle between heaven and hell, and I was in the middle. I do admit that at ONE particular moment, I
wanted that power that came upon me. That thought dawned in my mind. I, for a moment, had this thought that if
only I would surrender to that power and have it...That power that CRUSHED and OVERWHELMED me with fear.

BUT nevertheless, I know in my spirit, the power of God is greater. Although I've never really felt that power, I wanted
to unleash that power. And true enough, the power of God was unleased in His Word! The power of the Devil I no
longer looked upon, I saw a greater power, the Power of God and SUPPRESSED and CRUSHED the same power that
crushed me! After 30-40min, the demon left me and i just went into a deep sleep, not remembereing what happened
until this morning. I really give my thanks to God and glory be to Him who rescued me forevermore.

*Ive learnt that:

*1. There is power in the Word. It might jus look like words on paper. But in the realm of the Spirit, that realm that only
the Spirit of God - who lives in me - sees, is a double-edged sword of the Spirit. I saw the power and the glory of that
sword before my very eyes, though i couldn't see the Sword clearly. It reminded me of the book of Revelations.

*2. There is power in the name of Jesus. But that power MUST be accompanied by the Word. That relates me to binding
the Devil. Ive learnt that, yes, whatever we bind on earth will be bound in heaven, BUT, it must be accompanied by
the Word. You have to weaken your enemy before you can capture/overcome it. And the secret weapon is none other
than the Sword.

*3. I've renewed my longing to be strong in the Word. Indeed the more verses you can remember, the bigger your
Sword. Right now I just long for the full double-edged sword. The entire bible which i was tryin to read finish. When
toubles come, rely not on your own strength, because the Satan is the god of this fallen world. But He who is in me is
greater than he who is in the world!

Phew...presentations over. Now PSP assignment!

finally, gotten over with the CSA and IAC. left IMMF presentation. so excited...tom got BS...yea! :D although ive created quite a few number of java applets frm scratch, e pcoming assignment is really i huge test for me. even though ive been successfully creating applets, this time its different. it comsists of topics and methods ive not even understood fully yet. topics like Methods and the Switch Loop and others...

well, nth much happened today cos its a short day...frm 8-12. hahaaz..=P at e same time now im doin this PSP1 evaluation survey. so troublesome, each question have to submit individually, n there r 18 qns. not like others when they jus give u all e qns on 1 webpage and u jus submit when completed, this survey every question was 1 page, and every qn i had to submit. whoo! man! i noe its abt PSP and java, but i think its a little too much to come up with so many applets, =P (0_0)' *Dia0*

No title again..pls

man, i loved yesterdae's service. ps laid hands on me and fell under e power of God. man, i was really hungry, after all tt happened last wk, i decided to renew my walk. as i lay on e floor, i could feel His presence saturating over me. it felt somethin like rushing water flowing frm my toes to my head, wave by wave...and there was this burnin sensation on me face. man it really felt good :)

i really thank God for anointing me once again. im beginnin to love His presence again...=)

today woke up late...*Sigh* later doin presentation for CSA. so many things to do, so little time. im certainly lookin forward to BS at City Bay View Hotel this wed. CHristian Lifestyle lesson 2....whoohoo *Hee :D

Service startin soon...hee

well, ive jus taken my getting started test. so sad, yesterdae i was revisin until i was too tired n i dosed off. well, i only studied only like...half of e book. this morning i woke up late. but thank God really...even though i only studied e first half of e book, e entire test was based on e first half, well...most of it. except e names of God, e Jehovah thingy...but, haa, i knew half of it...:D

service startin soon. in cafe now...with my frens. =) cant wait for service to start. :D oi know tt ill b touched by God, and ill really be blessed by His word.

later gotta do e finishing touches for my IAC,IMMF and CSA assignment. really very rush. yet i thank God tt i still have time to spend time in His presence =). yea! :D

What a week...

this week's been "okay" for me...jus..."okay". for e whole week, dunno how to put this, but ive been constantly threatened and forced by my dad. to help my mum at her workplace. initially when my mum asked me, i had already considered going to help. but since ive been pestered everyday, lectured and scolded everyday for not being able to help, firstly bcos:

i was to work in oct. my sch hols are frm end oct to end nov. therefore, a clash. secondly, i had to work on weekends which means no church, no makeup cel grp or no make up service neither. i know my own priorities so it felt uncomfortable giving up sth tt means a lot to me. to some worldly desire such as money. "Honor God and God will honor you". its really more than jus a need for money, its really a difficult test for my faith. "For it is He who gives you the power to get wealth". My dad, a "long-time christian", he told me everyday...wants me to skip church, skip God, skip His word, His presence to work. all for e sake of money...He keeps on telling me to honor my parents. yes, i am willing...to work for my mum. BUT, after all ive been through, i know, my conviction, tt i just CANNOT do it. in my mind was like, "do you love ur family more than God?" "Do you love money more than God?" "Do you always rely on man's understanding more than God?" "Is man's understanding and wisdom higher than God's?" i really felt like telling tt to my dad. i jus couldnt...i mean, no christian i know would ask me to pursue money at e cost of my relationship with God...man....

i told myself tt i would not put money above God. i jus cant. we've been through too much for me to let go. even though, as a result of these events, ive grown dry...but ive told myself tt i would rise up. after this whole week, after tonite's cg, after this weekend's service. im gonna renew myself. i dun have any worldly desires anymore (e.g. money for God is Jehovah Jireh, my provider.)..."Seek first His kingdom and righteousness, and all these things will be added to u as well..." everyday, i feel little or no presence of God at all...i really cant live without it...

e easiest thing tt God is able to bless us is income. "Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy." i dun jus know this..i believe this...i act on this...it is never out of convenience tt i give God what i have. sacrifice is greater than jus an offering, and obedience is better than sacrifice.

I believe in blessings of God...i dun believe in this worldy thinking tt "God helps those who help themselves..."-it was never written. "Only doers of the Word will be blessed." The fact of e matter is, we cant help ourselves, tts y there's Jesus, tts why we are saved not by works, but by grace through faith.

very troubled at e moment...but i thank God in advance tt its gonna b over...:D

A new day...a new life

this mornin i did sth ive nv done b4...qt on e bus...wow. it felt kind of weird at first...but e really felt God encouraging me. after all, as my friend, God is interested in everything...:) *Hee

e cool thing is tt, i didnt feel nauseous anymore when i spent time with God on e bus. normally it would be worse cause i was...well, reading on e bus! but i really thank God tt he kept His word and assured my safety and comfort =)

also, as i was in e bus...man e aircon was sooo cold, i was freezing man. but each time i felt His presence i would jus feel e warmth...e warmth of His love. :D really felt good despite feeling weird doing qt on e bus. man, it was an adventure...haha =P

indeed when theres a breakthrough with my relationship with God, there will be breakthroughs in my life. so happy...got A+,A,A,B for tests...yea! :D

HaRdCoRe

yesterdae was hardcore man, woke up at 5+ go to sch, den go for overnight prayer meeting till 5+ this morning. now in sch...den later tonite got cel group. wahaz...its really amazing how u can achieve almost anything when u rely on God's strength and not on ur own. :D

dunno y for e past few daes ive been feeling nauseous...even now im feeling nauseous. mayb it was sth i ate...? i dunno. yesterdae during praise n worship as well as durin e prayer session, man i was feeling nauseous all e way. but e moment i began to pray in e Spirit, i felt a surge of strength and my discomfort was gone :D But there were also times when e discomfort was so great, i couldnt really focus. told myself tt i would leave at 1am, but its really by God's strength tt i could pull through till 5am+...=) The power of God is really not limited by anything...:D i could only pull through becos i relied on His strength and not on my own.

yesterdae i met this indian brother. even though he was in bible sch for a few months...man he could really pray! even i was taken back...i really felt very...urm..."small" hahaz :) every minute he would rebuke, bind, and attack e devil. my my POV he was like in a war or sth. a very aggressive prayer warrior...lol everyone was physically tired, but at tt moment we're not in e physical realm, we were in e realm of the Spirit, e realm of the supernatural, where there are no limits. =) ive decided to really work on my qt and prayer walk...:D

towards e end, we had sth like a Holy Spirit session. we jus spent our time seeking God. and true enough, He was present. ppl began to tear in His presence, even me. was really touched. b4 e prayer meeting i had a quarrel with my bro, and God really spoke to me. and, well, i wouldnt say too much cos its too personal. *Hee..But i rem Him saying to me: I will lift you up above all e storms, I wll lift u up beyond your own imagination, and I will fulfil my purpose through you & u will impact e lives of many.

tt really touched my heart, even though i was feeling weird after wad happened at home. man, i blew my top. but i had confessed and sought e Lord and he forgave me :D and He told me tt He will lift me up :) God can really melt e hardest of hearts..yea =) during e prayer session man, i cried b4 God. i had an encounter with Him. He told me tt no matter how dirty my hands were, he will nv let me go. and i told Him tt if i were to let go, He would pull me back. really felt e love of God durin tt moment.

how i long for more encounters with Him every day...:D
(Trusting God for strength to last me the entire day) :)

BlasterWorm? Blast you man! =P

so heng...my lappy kena blasterworm attack for a moment...cos my HopSter hang, makin me connection insecure for a minute...tot my lappy kena infected sia. but i went to service centre they say my lappy's safe n protected. i din noe e worm can transfer via other ppl's lappy too, cos they usin e same network. tt was my third time i "visited" e service centre oredy...haha :D

so excited...tom goin for overnight prayer meetin...sth always happens when i go there n i always get blessed and touched by e power of God each time i go. =) goin to e hse of God is always a life-changing thing...:)

also, my fren's classmate's mum, whom i was prayin for, was out of ICU!!!! whoooohoooO! her mum had a shortage of white blood cells and was in critical condition. on mon, was her "deadline". but by God's miraculous power, and by our prayers, on mon, e doc said her white blood cells suddenly shot up drastically! yea! =) i really feel tt God always leaves e best for last, when we hold on to e end. :D and He is nv late...:)

right now struggling with Poisson Distribution. i believe tt God will help me achieve sth i cannot achieve, as always...:D "With man, it's impossible, but with God, all things are possible".

So pain....now gone! Woohoo!

Jus now in e bus along e expressway, man i was in great pain sia...diarrhoea symptoms...owow. i tahan until clementi...den i started feeling nauseous. so i prayed and asked Jesus to remove the pain. He told me not to worry...i will be fine. still, e pain remained. i prayed e 2nd time n this time he told me, dun worry, u can survive this.

abt now i was felt like vomiting oredy. i really prayed like a madman. man, i was in such great pain i started binding the pain, i bound the sickness, man, i bound almost anything! haha :D ive never bound so many things in His name b4 durin prayer in such a short time. :) lol

e pain was still there but it stagnated, it did not become any worse, but slightly better now. i prayed real hard again for the pain to go away. still e pain was still there but better now. then Jesus said to me again, do not worry...oookay, so i tried not to worry. surely enough, e moment i reached sch. e nauseousness was gone! yea! :D i really did sth ive nv tahan-ed b4...haha surviving a diarrhoea-ic pain along with e feeling of vomiting for 20min, on a bus thats wouldnt stop shaking...lol i really feel a sense of achievement. ;) tt was when i realised. instead of making problems go away, He wants me to conquer and overcome tt problem. really feel so encouraged :) tt was also when i realised, tt when He died on e cross, He bore our sicknesses and pains, and "by His stripes, we are healed". "Its finished" at tt moment. pain and sickness no longer has its power. :) Praise e Lord!

i rushed for the toilet immediately. man in e toilet i saw this huge cockroach in front of me. man, i was shocked. then i heard e Lord say, "Dun worry, stop worrying. You have conquered something greater than this. This is nothing to you. Dont worry, it will leave you alone...i wont let anything happen to you bcos im here with you and i love you". i told Him, "ok, i wont worry anymore. guess i really have no choice but to trust you...:D". then e huge big fat cockroach went outside the door ;) when i left e cubicle, i couldnt see the cockroach anywhere...praise e Lord! even my Lord would protect me frm cockroaches...haha....feel so loved and secured. :) in e mirror i realised tt my face had turned green due to e "so-called" exciting bus journey. lol so embarrassing...

reached e class rm, i asked qi wei if my face was still green. thank God...haha. qi wei said, "why? u see ghost isit? haha". honestly i did, in a sense....i had an encounter with God...:) and that changed and strengthened my life. again in class i found out tt i din bring my 2-pin-plug fitter. thank God again...for e 4th time in 1 hr. Guo Hua got spare...wahaha....everything jus goes well with God. so happy today....*Hee =)

When things are upside down, God will turn them upside down to reveal His power, love and glory... :) He simply nv ceases to amaze me...thank you Jesus...:D

So Happy...:)

yesterdae as i was abt to start my qt, my worship cds were in s sense "stolen" frm my bro.....arrgh...so sad. i really get e presence of God thru those CDs as i praise Him...*sobs*

dunno y after i feel deprived of God's presence i just cried again...man, seriously ive never felt so "addicted" to God's presence b4. :D and im also happy now tt i need Him more now than i used to...=) as i was cryin in my room, longing for His presence, Holy Spirit spoke to me:

HS: Andrew, do you love Me?
ME: Yes
HS: Then why do cry just because you have nothing left with you?
ME: Cause i jus wanna feel You
HS: Is your worship towards me so limited? Am I a God who is limited?
ME: Of course not.
HS: Then I'm sure you can find other means...
ME: But your presence won't be strong...sometimes i play the guitar i don't feel You at all. i jus dun want you (your presence) to leave me...
HS: (Reading my mind) You know? it's not that im not there...i am always there with you when you spend time with me. You just have to FOCUS on me, not on the song, or on the tone of your guitar. I am always there for you, waiting for you to reach out to me. WOrship me with all your heart, soul and mind, not with all your abilities. and if you truly love me, you will do whatever it takes to go after me.
ME: (feeling bad at e same time charged with faith) I understand now. thank you. I love you.(wiped tears)
HS: I love you too.

then his presence left. BUT i know he is still there smiling at me with eyes of love no words can express....and i felt really happy n blessed...:D

my prayer walk has been strengthening e past wk. yet i noe im not satisfied, i wan to "lvl up" ;) "He will make me the head and not the tail, i will be above and not beneath"... ;)

really enjoyed service jus now, man, each time when Kong plays "Lord ive come to bow down at your feet..."man i would jus tear in God's presence, tt song is really very touching :D so i went home and i so-called "try and error" e chords of e song on my guitar and man, i got e tune! yea! haha :) it "sounds" right, but mebbe jus a few chord diff like c-c7 or g-g7 or sth like dae...:D but it sounded good, hee...and His presence jus came and touched me..:D

So sad...lost an AD in FS Test to 1 qn...*Grr*

jus got back my FS test results....so disappointed and regretful. in e start of e test i skipped one qn. at e end of e test i forgot to return to it. but its not tt i dunno how to do tt qn, i KNOW how to do tt qn, but i forgot i skipped it cos its my first time skipping qns in a test. tt qn was 4 marks...i scored 82 (A), but tt qn cost me an AD(distinction >85)!!! *Grr* wah tts it.....i wont skip anymore qns in e following test....*SiGh*

but i rEally have to thank God for giving me an A, although e effort i put in to get an A was inevident, its was my closeness and relationship with Him tt helped me through. He sort of gave me "solutions" durin e test. most ppl dun get answers 4 qns durin tests its bcos they nv ask God haha, Hee :D lol n when u ask, also dun find Him replying, "Do I know you?" =)....walk with God n He will walk with you...*Hee :D

yea, this fri goin watch e all-time-lame-fav "AvP" movie...lol at e same time i really hope tt my 2 frens comin along with me could come 4 cg....;) if i can see it, i can have it!

Praise e Lord! =)