Update Update Update!

well, i let me explain y i wont be putting notes on my blog for this wk. firstly its bcos i have fragments of notes frm service 2. svc 1 's notes was great.

din really feel like blogging this week, ive got so many things on. tues PM, wed BS, thurs CG, fri CG again, sat SVC, sun ministry, sun guitar class. e only day i can get to sleep well, thats 6 hrs btw, is sunday night till monday morning. which is tonight! yea! amazing right? =.= haha

lets start off on thursday CG:

i must say i wasnt really at e best of shape at tt point in time. i was dead drained, i felt real dry and i felt offline. went and bought my new acoustic Blast guitar frm Guit77, thanks bao for accompanying me. without brothers like bao, my dream wouldnt have been complete. okay, i admit..i played rather badly for cg tt day, partly cus e songs are foreign to me. and it was my first time to actually TRY and figure out how it supposed to sound and stuffs...

and so, after cg, i was pretty tired...it gets more tiring to try not to be tired...

and so lets continue with friday's CG:

it was better, no doubt e songs were easier and i could play without much difficulty. e atmosphere was stronger...come to think of it, its not just the CGL or the guitarist, EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU ON THE FLOOR help and contribute to the atmosphere. like wad ps mark said, we are a team! we should stop cuddling around and actually start sending everyone out there into the soccer field!!!

friday was more people, and i was really encouraged by e e110sters. e atmosphere was there. halfway during e preaching i had diarrhoea and had to rush for a break. but thank God i made it in time for e closing. then evan took over as we prayed for e easter special offering.

i was still tired...but God pulled me through

come to Saturday's service:

it was a bad aircon day for me! not only did the train's aircon, from BNL to TNM, was spoiled (or for some reason it wasnt on), e train's aircon, from TNM to EXP, was down as well! it was like sitting in an oven, no wait...a greenhouse...man it was draining.

then reach expo the weather hit me like a heatwave lol. then as i was queueing i remembered during one of e PMs they were saying sunday svc ppl are more exciting than saturday service'. frm my point of view, its prob because saturday ppl queue longer, in e midday sunny afternoon, thus making us drained, lethargic and thirsty, compared to sunday, when e air is cool and refreshing and service starts at 10am so e queue is not as intense as S1's...

message was great. ps mark talked abt being a team and how we shld build God's house and He will build our house, about setting e right priorities, placing e House of God as our first priority and stuffs, and i was tremendously blessed by his messages.

oh and i jus realised tt one of my CHCMSN pals whos in melbourne studying now, and she told me that ps Mark Conner is her pastor in the church she' attending in melb...wooooot! lol. i like wad ps mark said, a church is not a somewhere you go to, its somewhere you BELONG to!

after svc went to makan at popeye at changi airport. nice fooooood ^^ guess what...we missed e last train again! lols. so me, pam took bus frm airport to city hall, then frm there she took bus 16 and i took 174m.

now for sunday's svc cum ministry:

first of all, i wanna thank God for promoting me to be overall IC for e conference area as well as outside e hall as well. sooner or later ill be doing stage...haa. well, a few hickups occured, and after going round the merry go round, we came back to e same conclusion tt e prob was with e brother's guitar. so i got him a mic stand and attached a mic near his guitar.

overall snd lvl was good today, mebbe cus e guy who normally blasts e sound lvl in his rm, is attending sermon today...haha. all these while ive always been e servant, e one obeying other ppl...now all of a sudden im instructing people and asking them to do stuffs, to me i felt weird, haha...but change is always good :D

btw today alvin couldnt take cab with me and my bro so we took train directly to expo. and guess what, i reached on time! hahaha. and already at 7am ppl are queueing outside hall 8 waiting for e queue to setup! x)

today's message was great as well! ps mark talked about igniting e passion within us. its one thing to do what is good, its another to do what is RIGHT. its one thing to be at where ure supposed to be, its another to be DOING what ure supposed to do.

many ppl turn up, (for ministry e.g.), jus for e sake of turning up. but how many actually have passion in serving God's house and His people? passion is like fire, you add more coal, it burns brighter, u leave it alone for awhile, e fire will eventually die out.

u may be smart, good looking, rich, but that is not e primary key factor to success. e secret to success is in one's PASSION and ENTHUSIASM! u may have all e brains but without passion, you are equaled to having nothing at all!

also most of us care abt our physical tank, or our spiritual tank, when we are feeling dry, we pray, when we are hungry, we eat, etc..but how many actually monitor our emotional tank!?! u may be a professional surgeon, with brains and skill, but if e surgeon, doing a heart operation on a patient, and u imagine e surgeon to be under depression, anger, etc..what would happen to the patient!?!

what goes on on e inside will eventually come out on e outside. altar calls was good as well. my eyes are closing from sleeping only 2 hrs plus last night. and today i happily took home e conference rm flightcase key by ACCIDENT! lols. ill be returning them tmr during PM =) yeah!

but after svc, b4 i left, i stayed behind and helped out with e BS classes.

im dead tired, ive not had good sleep for e past 2 weeks already...UC diagram, ER diagram, BCE diagram, FB diagram, database, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh.....FAINT!

Authority For Victory Lesson 1

man, it was goooood, superb! i wanna join bible school! lols.

talked about the pre-adamic race (the first human civilisation), the first rebellion and the dinosaurs! lols. and next lesson will be talking about the Fall of Lucifer during the first rebellion. its so intriguing to know the things that happened between Gen 1:1 and Gen 1:2.

the bible is 6000++ years old (or writes the events for over a period of around 6000 years). so how did the fossilized dinosaurs and mosquitoes that are dated MILLIONS or even BILLIONS of years old....come about? ;) JOIN AFV or go bible school! hahaha...yea i know some people already at GHS. lols. yayaya...thank you very much...lol

preadamic race : those born before Adam
adamic race : those born after Adam

at first the lesson talked about Spiritual Warfare. that as believers, we are not on the defensive side, but we are on the offensive side! Problems and crisis are inevitable, and we must FIGHT the good fight of faith and finish the race, win the victory, plunder hell and populate heaven! =) even God Himself was not only a loving, good, caring, Shepard, but He is also a good Military Commander. Spiritual Warfare is something personal, something close to us.

The higher level you go, the tougher the demons. Satan doesnt fight us most of the time, as there is only ONE satan, and he cant be everywhere at the same time. So we cant say the devil attacked us, UNLESS we are apostles, or someone important doing great things and upsetting the devil himself that he wants a one-on-one fight. However, he has his own army of demons.

Lord of Hosts - "Hosts'' refers to Angels. God has an army of angels with various ranks among them, and God always ensures total victory against all His enemies.

Josh 5:13-15 -> 'He' refers to Jesus, in His pre-incarnated state, before He became flesh.

In the OT, God reveals Himself as 3 forms:

Human Being, Angelic Being, Non-human Entity (e.g. Burning Bush)

'Adam' in hebrew means 'man'. E.g. Jesus came as the last adam (the last Man), etc.

PS: Its always good to have a hebrew/greek bible so that translations can be accurate.

In Gen 1:1 - God created the heavens (plural - 3 heavens) with the angels, the earth and all that was in it...OUT OF NOTHING and everything was wonderfully and beautifully created.

Job 38:1-7, neh 9:6 -> angels shouted for joy when the earth was formed. (gen 1:1)

then in gen 1:2 how is it possible that they were shouting the for joy if something didnt happen in between gen 1:1 and gen 1:2? they shouted for joy because the earth was without form and void? that darkness was over the land? (gen 1:2)

"Without form and void" in original hebrew is 'Tohu Va Bohu'. -> wasted, unfilled, empty, upside-town, topsy-turvy, etc.

Isa 34:11, Jer 4:23 -> in gen 1:1 everything was created (Bara) and was good and angels shouted for joy. in gen 1:2 the earth became Tohu Va Bohu. In between was the first rebellion of the first nations (the preadamic human civilisation), and the fall of lucifer who in the book of Isaiah 'deceived the nations' (Lucifer existed before Adam, after Adam Lucifer had become Satan, the serpent represented). And God brought judgement upon the wickedness of the nations. Causing MASSIVE DESOLATION (there was sulphur, fire, darkness, etc).

Sidetrack:

Dinosaurs, Apemen, Nathadel (spell correctly?) man (stone age men) existed in the preadamic period. One of the preadamic man in the book Isaiah described having seeing huge beasts with tails or something, cant rem the exact reference. (Ps Kong talked during the conference on e book of Isaiah part 1).

And scientists concluded the that most accurate cause of dinosaur extinction is the large meteor(s) which rained from the sky (sulphur) causing fire/darkness/etc. -> Judgement of the first rebellion leading to MASSIVE DESOLATION. (although the bible did not exactly described much about dinosaurs, but thats the most accurate we can get.) -> secret things belong to the Lord =)

Elohim Bara (Heb.) -> God created
Elohim - plural, Bara - singular -> God plurality-singularly created the world out of nothing.
Plural-Singular is the same as..'you is', 'he are', etc.

why is Elohim plural? -> The Trinity! Father, Son, Holy Spirit

'Waters' - Mayim (Heb.) -> plural -> the clouds, the seas, and the gaseous state of air in between, thus you have your firmaments.

-Gen 2:7 - 'Life' = chay (pronounced as 'shay', Heb.) -> also plural
-3 forms of life: physical (bios), soulish/mental-emotional (psuche), spiritual (zoe)

After the first rebellion, after the earth became Toru Va Bohu, Elohim 'recreated' the earth. "Made'' in exo 20:11, in direct hebrew translation is the word 'asah', meaning 'recreated'. -> that was when God completed His work in 6 days and Adam came forth. (Gen 1:2 onwards)

Elohim bara (created out of nothing) -> Toru Va Bohu (first rebellion and judgement (preadamic period), fall of lucifer) -> Elohim asah (recreated with whatever was left/found useful -> Adam came from dust and Eve from his ribs)

Evolution DOES NOT exist! we did not 'evolve' from Apemen, u may look like one, u may behave like one or even smell like one, but we were created after Adam. During the preadamic period, God did had NOT yet breathed the Breath of Life into the apemen or the stoneage men.

Only when Adam was formed, did God breathe His image, likeness, creativity, ability and productivity into Adam, creating him in His likeness and image! thus we are all created in e likeness and image of God =)


Yea, next lesson is the fall of lucifer, cant wait..hahas. I wanna learn hebrew! lols. or mebbe get a hebrew bible haha..indeed e bible is more than John 3:16!!! ;)

What to do when you don't know what to do

service was great today. worship by Andrew Naylor from CCC and a special item by International Singer cum Gospel Singer, Vicky Vilakazi from south africa. Her voice was really tremendously great. =) aini's fren came today as well...x)

prayed for mission team and then we prayed for south africa. i remembered e time when we prayed for sri lanka, the next day on the newspaper, sri lanka and the tamil tigers discuss peace talks for the first time in decades! there is power in a faith filled, fervent prayer!!!

and as usual, the preaching is always great. not only it inspires, but it transformes lives. no use having someone to inspire you and yet your life remains the same. there's got to be a renewing in your mind! having a positive attitude is useless without a renewed mind. without a renewed mind, positive thinking will only last for a limited amount of time. and the moment a storm hits your life, you crumble! (think i posted this in my prev post..hmm..haha)

after svc went for wordpower...alone...yea..with pohchoo. not bad..considering i didnt get e next 20 verses (21-40)...i managed to fill in 8 full verses, of course prone to punctuation errors..haha. i just know in my heart that pohchoo's gonna advance to the next round, hahas, no one can doubt that lols. after tt met up with eugene and huixin and went to bedok for makan and fellowship, watermelon ice...wahaha..so big..LOL

without further a do, here are the notes:

-2 Chr 20:1, 3-4, 12-14, 22, 25-26

1) Set your heart to SEEK God

-prayer make things happen.
-you do not have because you do not ask. -> as long as something is in the will of God, and when we ask, believing we have received it, it will come to pass.
-ask and it shall be given to you, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened.

-psm 9:10, 14:2

2) Focus on the PROMISE, not on the problem

-dont make hasty decisions based on life experiences alone!
-no doubt they're good, but we live in a fallen down world...life's experiences are not accurate.
-but rather, make decisions based on what the Word of God says! make decisions based on conviction and revelation!
-failure is not final and failure is not fatal. -> only God's Word is final!

-in between the place of promise and the place of possession, is the gap of problems and storms.
-are you going to have a pity-party, sit around the premises and wait for the promises, are you going to worry about anything and everything, or are you going to step out in faith and calm the sea of galilee in your life?

-if you have faith as a mustard seed, you can speak to the mountain be removed and be cast into the sea and nothing will be impossible for you!

3) Having done all, STAND before the Lord

-what does it mean to stand before the Lord?
-it means to be unwavered, to anchor your faith in God and to trust Him to bring you through your problems. dont panic, dont be nervous, trust in the name of the Lord!
-delay is not denial!

4) Wait for the Holy Spirit

-dont try to be smarter than the Holy Spirit, dont try to be faster or to overtake the Holy Spirit, He doesnt follow us, we follow Him and we are led by Him.
-the difference between a babe in christ and a mature believer is the ability to be led by the Holy Spirit.

-dont underestimate the power of imagination, if you can see it you can have it.
-> if you can see success/solutions, you can have it, likewise, if you can see failure, you will have it as well! your life is a manifestation of your thoughts, and your words set the boundaries on the picture of your future.

-your vision is your future, and your future is in your vision.
-be quick to respond and quick to obey. -> God doesnt go by reason, God goes by FAITH!
not that God is against reason, but He is just ABOVE reason; He is beyond natural human reasoning. His ways and thoughts are higher than ours.

5) Praise God in ADVANCE

-praise is vocal, to praise is to 'shout'. silent praise is like chicken rice without chicken, without rice, boiled ice-kachang, bak-kut-tea ice.
-praise is the language of faith!

-the presence of God travels through an atmosphere of worship.
-BUT the POWER of God travels through an atmosphere of FAITH!
-the presence of God can be everywhere/multiple places at e same time, but the POWER of God is centralised at a specific location at a specific time; a kairos timing.

-> when Jesus raised Lazarus from the dead, not every dead person from every tomb came forth at the same time!

-faith is not required when things are going well, but when your life is in a mess.
-when you praise God at the point in your life when you feel the least in praising God, that's when your praise becomes precious to God.

-praise in advance breaks the power of the devil in your life. -> Satan has come to steal, to kill and to destroy. and what he has taken from you, the moment you offer the SACRIFICE of praise to God, God and His angels will fight on your behalf, and He will rebuke the devourer for your sake! -> Every relationship is built on trust and communication.

Dual Celgrp Meeting

cg was great. everything, from the pnw, to the preaching of e word and e fellowship. =)

finally freehomepages is up again, but i have a feeling it wont be long before it goes down again lols...learnt a lot in CG.

learnt that trust is e extension of our faith.

the first 10minutes of our day will set the tone for the rest of our day.

the law of expectation: we WILL get what we expect out of life, the good AND the bad.

if we say we will fail, we will fail. if we say life sucks, like will suck for you. if you say u cant make, u wont make it. what u have faith for, u attract. what u fear, will overtake you.

we are a self-fulfilling prophecy of our thoughts and words. 70% of all sicknesses are psychosomatic. we can self-talk ourselves to sickness, to depression, even to suicide!

optimism and pessimism are contagious. if we are optimistic, people around us will feel positive and optimistic..if we are pessimistic, then people around us will feel the same.

example: 'aiya, life so tough sia, cant take it anymore..' and people around you will go, 'ya lor..i also cant take it...'!

God wants to give us His best, therefore we shouldnt be shy to ask God for the best. dont make God sound like a liar! when He says He will give you the best results, a promotion, a financial breakthrough..dont ask Him, "really ah? You sure its for me?"

you wont get any answers, and you wont get anywhere or anything!

its not about how much you have, but its about in WHOSE HANDS its placed in. Little becomes much, when placed in the Master's hands.

its no use to have a positive thinking yet an unrenewed mind! without a renewed mind, your positive thinking will last for only a limited amount of time and when the moment a storm hits your life, you crumble!

you can be saved in your heart, yet unrenewed in your thinking, in your heart, in your thoughts, in your speech, in your actions! thats what it means to be BORN AGAIN! not just your beliefs, but your ENTIRE BEING!

Things turn out best for people who make the best of the way things turn out!

Another day, cant think of title :x

in sch now, pretty slack, which makes it worse..lol. and so, in my free time i was reading blogs, forums, and surfing all over e web. and i found something that made me drool!!!!




A RAZORBACK SLIME BUMBLEBEE! WOOT! lolx

btw, i found something that can occupy my boredom...outside my block is the orientation games for SOE freshmen. think ill stand at e corridor of my 1st floor classroom or even open e window and give them my fullest support:

"boooooooooooo..."

lols, nah, im not that mean :x wahaha i very guai one...^^

gotta play for cg later and tmr...will blog again ^^

Joke of the day!

well, i told ya ill be blogging more right? ok, so here's a funny post...hope to bring some smiles to u people out there...and so without further a do...here goes:

hahahahahhahhahahahahahhahAahahhahahahahahaaaaa!!!!!

okay, there you have it, the joke of the day! *applause please...=p


ok, enough of crippling people out there...my parents jus got back frm taiwan and they bought back lots of tidbits, pretty nice stuff x) and for their 5 day holiday tour, they were in the same group as mediacorp actor Mark Lee and his wife. how good can it get? lols.

they had fun together and took lots of pictures during their 5 day holiday in taiwan.

dota, dota, dota...had a few games with dan and hua today. played sonic 3 + knuckles as well. man, i need a new game. i kinda missed those days when i would hog the comp the whole day on ROSE Online and chiong lvls and PK ppl..lol

guess ive moved on and grown a lot through such a short time, sometimes i wonder if im growing too fast...again thinking of the things that happened in my life lately. feel so down, as if other than God, no one else is around me...yea i think u get what i mean..

thurs is cg and im not sure if im ready for it somehow...

i need to rekindle once again.

2 phrases i live on now:

1) Dont live to please man, live to please God.
2) People will let me down, but God will never let me down.

life is like climbing a mountain. the higher you go, the higher e air pressure u experience, and e more dependent you have to become on your only source of life...

sometimes people offend or hurt you without knowing. either that or they are oblivious to it.

no man is an island...

WOW! 3rd time blogging today! something's wrong with me :x

I was jus browsing thru marianne's blog when i found something that could ease by boredom =p

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected. It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well. At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.Your friends tend to be a as quirky as you are - which is saying a lot!Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

Your Quirk Factor: 50%

You're a pretty quirky person, but you're just normal enough to hide it.Congratulations - you've fooled other people into thinking you're just like them!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

well, all these are more or less 100% true about me..haa

2 personalities that i have:

either the noisy, crappy, lame, laugher cum joker

or the quiet, loner, thinking, feeling, bubbly person..

which one is the real me? well, i can switch between them in different circumstances.

still kinda getting over what happened the past few days....

Oooooh

oh, guess what...I'm playing sonic 3 + sonic n knuckles collection on PC!

e last time i played that was in pri sch, when i played it on sega saturn. lols.

hoping to get started on my gantt chart again and my database soon...

guess ill be blogging more often now...although i do so often already...

haa...bye

Easter Services, a very different experience.

easter weekend was really different for me. first of all, the drama was good. added pyrotechnics and the 'raining' stage equipment that creates rain on the stage...pretty cool. for all u drama ppl, singers and dancers as well as backstage people...great job! =) *applause

indeed every year we are moving from glory to glory :D for both days, ps kong preached a different sermon and its really good to see hundreds, mebbe even thousands responding each service during the altar call.

DAY 01

during that day hall 7 was having some indian sale thingy...se we had to queue at hall9. and man, the queue was loooong, it literally filled half of hall 9! there was so much excitement, so much frens...

went for s1 and s2...s1 i was alone. with E406. they had 2 rows of people and during the altar call, 1 row plus plus was empty! i was like...OMG! praise God man..then i looked at myself...and my expression changed.

b4 svc tricia passed me her bag and asked me help her book a seat, cus she'll be singing. and she told me tt she'll be comin back to sit. and so i kept a seat empty at e cost of inquiring ushers, even after service started. then PnW ended. she wasnt back. seat still empty. pastor kong came up on stage. and he was staring at me and the empty seat next to me...!!!

service 2 similar things happened...basically every service (4 services) e406 had frens that responded i suppose...and each time i sat there alone..i felt even more alone. i came to a very sad conclusion...and so the rest is inevitable.

after service 2, i already had no mood to eat. but seeing wesley and eljin(or elgin) wanting to get a hotdog bun from foyer 3, i followed them and got one myself.

on e train ride heading to e west, halfway i decided to join pam, huixin and JS to makansutra at esplanade, since i didnt think i could sleep well that night. although i was tired and self-persecuted, but i managed to enjoy myself that night. was helping them to finish the carrot cake...when the thoughts came in again and i felt full, and lost my appetite.

its already 11.40pm by e time we reached there. its pretty interesting to see JS create his 'ultimate wife' out of prawn shells, limes, dead leaves, lime seeds and prawn feelers..lol. and the spring onion 'fragrant roar' that finally managed to make me laugh...

well, not for long...i felt really down again. was wondering where i could find an atm so tt i could take a cab home later. as it got later i felt even more down, so i asked pam if she wanted to share cab. then we were okay. since there wasnt any atm at sight at tt point in time, its really nice of pam to call her mum to come down when she alights so tt i could borrow some cash.

(cus i normally give multiple offerings for multiple services..)

i didnt mind at first, but as my thoughts just surrounded my mind. i felt even more bad and down, having to borrow cash...but praise God i didnt have to bother about atm as there was a night-rider 174m bus to take me home. although i didnt know where blk 669 was, i could tell it was pretty near to my hse, so by faith not knowing where to stop, i jus boarded e bus. while huixin and JS took their respective NR rides, and pam, her cab, home.

reached home at 330am.

DAY 02

was worse! by e time i reached home e day before, i already felt like not coming for service anyway. i felt really bad and selfish and told myself i shouldnt come today. but bcos aini and JS were attending i decided to come all the way from boonlay, a 1.5hour ride after waking up at 9am in the morning, to help them queue and if possible help e110 as well, cus e406 was inside and i suppose empty seats are evident during altar call...

guess what? e day b4 frens flew away, and today...everyone else in the cg flew away! wesley told me e night before tt his fren couldnt make it, so i can understand. pam working, can understand, but one thing i dont understand, our celgrp was officially assigned to 2 services as our anchoring services...s2 and s4. and for s4...surprisingly no one turned up!

i wasnt really emotionally healed at tt time, then i looked at e406 again, then i looked at myself, then i looked at my cg members. i fell even deeper. my heart felt like 6 feet below the ground and i almost teared. but i held them back.

as service ended, for the first time, i rushed home. i passed e recep, but i didnt couldnt bring myself to face evan...the wound was bigger now.

for 2 days ive been holding my hurts back. then as i came home today...i couldnt hold them any longer and i broke down in front of God in my own room. im starting to wonder if my sacrifices were worth nothing all these while...during service i called aini, no response, called JS, no response, called aini again, no response, called js again, no response...called wendy instead, and guess what, she picked up...'oh im with aini and js and we're outside...oh we are not attending service...' *applause!

also b4 that, called huixin 2 times, also no response.

THOUGHTS

ever since that day in sound ministry when Joyce spoke to me, and those words keep ringing in my head and in my spirit.."you will be a leader of 5 celgrps''...i looked at myself at my current state...i almost broke down.

how to be leader of 5 celgrps when i cant even.....

then i remembered one of the online sermons tt i viewed days before, ''the reason why God doesnt show you your exact future is yet...its because when He shows you your future, you'll be afraid because you will be doing such great things that when you look at it, you'll wonder how you're gonna get there.''

as i was in my own room feeling at my lowest...when everyone i loved seemed to vanish before my eyes...i remembered the time i broke down on e phone when i discussed my problems with evan and she was there for me.

and this week during cg i hope i wont affect the atmosphere during praise n worship...im gonna do something about it and i dont care if i please man or not, im just gonna please God!

LIST OF PHOBIAS - INTERESTING! =)

Here's a list of phobias taken from http://www.noboundarieshypnosis.com/Phobia.htm which i find rather interesting. Some of which would make this world a perfect world if people had a certain kind of phobias..haha. On e other hand, it could mean e opposite as well x)

CHC spelling bee people, if ure viewing this i can suggest ALL these words for Spelling Bee Finals! wahahaha! lols. for the sake of certain laws and regulations, i wont be posting ALL the phobias...(or copy entire content). u can view e website if you want more. =)

Ablutophobia: Fear of washing or bathing
Acarophobia: Fear of itching or of the insects that cause itching
Acerophobia: Fear of sourness
Achluophobia: Fear of darkness
Acousticophobia: Fear of noise
Acrophobia: Fear of heights
Aerophobia: Fear of flying, drafts, air swallowing, or airborne noxious substances Aeroacrophobia: Fear of open high places
Aeronausiphobia: Fear of vomiting secondary to air sickness
Agliophobia: Fear of pain
Agoraphobia: Fear of open spaces, being in crowded, public places or leaving a safe place Agraphobia: Fear of sexual abuse
Agrizoophobia: Fear of wild animals
Agyrophobia: streets or crossing the street
Aichmophobia: needles or pointed objects
Ailurophobia: cats
Albuminurophobia: kidney disease
Alektorophobia: chickens
Algophobia: pain
Alliumphobia: garlic
Allodoxaphobia: opinions
Altophobia: heights
Amathophobia: dust
Amaxophobia: riding in a car
Ambulophobia: walking
Amnesiphobia: amnesia
Amychophobia: scratches or being scratched
Anablephobia: looking up
Ancraophobia or Anemophobia: wind
Androphobia: men
Anemophobia: air drafts or wind
Anginophobia: angina, choking or narrowness
Anglophobia: England, English culture, etc
Angrophobia: becoming angry
Ankylophobia: immobility of a joint
Anthrophobia or Anthophobia: flowers
Anthropophobia: people or society
Antlophobia: floods
Anuptaphobia: staying single
Apeirophobia: infinity
Aphenphosmphobia: being touched (Haphephobia)
Apiphobia: bees
Apotemnophobia: persons with amputations
Arachibutyrophobia: peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth
Arachnephobia or Arachnophobia: spiders
Arithmophobia: numbers
Arrhenphobia: men
Arsonphobia: fire
Asthenophobia: fainting or weakness
Astraphobia or Astrapophobia: thunder and lightning
Astrophobia: stars and celestial space
Asymmetriphobia: asymmetrical things
Ataxiophobia: ataxia (muscular incoordination)
Ataxophobia: disorder or untidiness
Atelophobia: imperfection
Atephobia: ruin or ruins
Athazagoraphobia: being forgotten or ignored or forgetting
Atomosophobia : atomic explosions
Atychiphobia: failure
Aulophobia: flutes
Aurophobia: gold
Auroraphobia: Northern lights
Autodysomophobia: one that has a vile odor
Automatonophobia: ventriloquist's dummies, animatronic creatures, wax statues - anything that falsely represents a sentient being
Automysophobia: being dirty
Autophobia: being alone or of oneself
Aviophobia or Aviatophobia: flying

These are only in the 'A' section LOL. there are like hundreds in that site, shld go and check it out =) the longest word ive found was:

Paraskavedekatriaphobia : Fear of Friday the 13th!!!

im like...what the..!?! hahaha...the names are in some other language, latin or something, not sure..if there are multiple phobias with e same meaning its probably bcos it meant something else when used in direct translation ^^

Some updates

first of all, my parents will be in taiwan till monday...thats 5 days 4 nights. so ill be home alone for the next few days. well, i didnt really complete my gantt chart yet, but i managed to come up with the class definitions with all the variables and functions available.

evan called me yesterday and told me she wanted to sign me up for church's intermediate guitar class..but not sure if it will clash or anything, also im taking lessons from bao at e same time. prayed over the phone for friends after that.

currently i dun have any bs for the next few wednesdays...so weird. and honestly, i miss sunday morning services..haa. this week is easter celebration. to be honest...im stressed over one thing. literally stressed...but i have to do it.

im soo busy that its literally humanly impossible...now in 2 ministries, one of which double commitment to 2 celgrps, and with my 20 week (which is not enough) IHP, and easter and stuffs, i really relying on the supernatural and e impossible...

thats what being a christian is..its not jus about doing our best, its about doing the impossible!

Weird day

today's been pretty dead. im supposed to do my gantt chart and come up with a working database by tmr and i cant seem to get anything out of my head. thanks josh for mapping the database layout for me. =)

ive been staring at a blank ms visio screen for 2 hours now...cant seem to get started. feels like im frozen, how i wish someone would jus come and inject passion into me. but imputed/forced passion is not applicable or doesnt make sense...

2 strange things happened to me today..

first was during e afternoon, as i dozed off, i saw myself in my rm with ppl arnd me...supposedly my cg members...and one of them, picks up my electric guitar and plays with it. unknowingly the guitar slipped off her fingers and as it landed on e floor, e entire neck came off.

i felt my heart sank down e pacific ocean for a moment...it was like a dream dying...my eyes became wet as i lay on my be motionless, deep in thoughts...and one tiny drop flowed down my face...before i realised what had happened in my imagination...

i quickly snapped out of it and went to kitchen to wash my face and grab a cup of water as i sat on my lappy again...not knowing what to do...i played AVP2PH and even watched e AVP movie again...at e same time, stoning there waiting for someone to chat with me on MSN...hoping to get that horrible feeling off me...

the second thing that happened, happened a few minutes ago...again as i was chatting with pam halfway, i lay on my bed again. this time i remembered josh's experience as a stagecrew, when he was at e wrong place at e wrong time and he got scolded by pastor kong and the emotions he felt when that heppened...

and now again my imagination went loose as i saw MYSELF in josh's shoes now...in the same incident..and that feeling was soo bad it felt as if i was at the lowest of the lowest of the deepest pit, and my heart sank once again...i remembered having feelings of 'stunness', and i saw myself, running away from that place of incident...

and again as i snapped out of it...i lay on my bed motionless feeling stunned and low, and a drop of tear flowed down my face again...feels like another dream jus died...and now im blogging and chatting, hoping to get tt feeling off me soon, and to start on my gantt chart and database...but im still stuck...frozen...and 'immobilized'....

i need the fire of the Holy Spirit!!!!!!! tmr i have to submit so many things...*frozen... easter, easter, easter....ahhh, ahhh, ahhh....*stunned...

Great Service!

first of all, yeah i managed to get this song! wahaha...lols. i used SDP to record e delirious video (CHC) into wmv format (6xxMB!), then using a video-audio converter i got the audio part of the video, after that i used MixCraft to crop e song and edited it abit...yea...hahas. =)

first of all...sermon notes :D (ps tan preached a really gd message this wk,
but more than just being hearers of e Word, lets be DOERS of e Word, whatever God says will NOT return to Him void ^^)

SERMON NOTES

-Col 2:18-19
-Everything comes from the Head.
-The body must follow the direction that the Head is facing. -> The church as a body have to follow Christ, the Head.

-Jhn 15:4
-The Head is the source of vision, the source of hearing, the source of confession, of manifestations and the miraculous, etc -> therefore the body has to be connected to e Head in order to function e way its meant to.
-The moment the body is disconnected from the Head, it becomes limited.

-Never blame the problem on the unreached/harvest for not making e right decision, the problem is not with e harvest, e problem is with e labourers!
-The attitude of the labourers must change..the harvest is there, but e labourers are few!
-Jhn 4:15 -> "pray the Lord of e harvest to send out LABOURERS..." -> not the harvest, but LABOURERS!

3 AREAS TO LIFT UP YOUR EYES FROM:

1) We have to lift up our eyes from OURSELVES.

-dont be inward-looking, always 'i', 'me', and 'myself'...its not about you its about God!
-its not about what you think, its about what God thinks!
-its not about what you feel, its about what God feels!
-its not about what you THINK is good, its about what God SAYS is RIGHT!

-if you want to be touched by God, then go touch someone else.
-out of our belly will flow rivers of living water. -> there's GOT TO BE a FLOW!
-when we were saved we have a portion of 'in-flow', now its our responsiblity to ensure that there is an 'outflow' so that more can flow into our lives!

2) We have to life up our eyes from being CAST-DOWN.

-have an 'up'-spirit, a positive attitude
-its not about how many times you fail, but its about how many times you rise each time you fail. its about being obedient and doing your best and letting God do the rest!
-be a possibility-thinker! and not an impossiblity-thinker!

-fear holds you back, but faith presses you on
-fear discourages, but faith encourages
-fear despises, but faith loves
-fear sees the problems, but faith sees the solutions

-be someone whom people will rather hang out with!

3) We have to lift up our eyes in the way we LOOK AT PEOPLE.

-dont judge others just because they are different!
-never look down on your own personality...each personality is unique in reaching out to unique and different kinds of people.
-have 'harvest-eyes'!

-we are CALLED to be witnesses, not ust full-time staff, pastors or leaders, but ALL of us
play a part in God's ultimate plan for mankind.
-a witness is just someone who gives a record or a testimony of what he/she has seen/heard.
-Jhn 1:35-42, 43-45, acts 1:8

3 REASONS/WAYS WE CAN BE EFFECTIVE:

1) God has CALLED you to be a WITNESS.

-the moment you are saved, you have a high calling. -> God may take you through the valleys
and dark moments to stretch and strengthen your faith, but God always shows Himself strong, thus when we see the power of God at work, we can be more effective witnesses!

2) God's POWER is available.

-when u are saved, u receive authority. but when you are baptised in e HS, u receive the dunamis power of God.
-it is something supernatural -> you dont need to be a pastor to preach, or a healing evangelist to heal...all we need is obedience and faith to believe the impossible!
-We need love and COMPASSION to move in the gifts of e supernatural.
-when God calls, He empowers!

3) We need to STEP OUT in FAITH.

-faith works through LOVE. -> if you can preach, if u can prophesy, but have no love, you are nothing!
-dont say you dont have the courage, real courage comes with real PASSION!

-fear holds you back, but faith presses you on
-fear discourages, but faith encourages
-fear despises, but faith loves
-fear sees the problems, but faith sees the solutions

-Heb 11:8-16, eph 4:11-16, 1 cor 12:13-14
-Whatever God speaks, it will come to pass. -> To us its the future, but to God, its HISTORY.
-God is the beginning and He has been to the end. He's the alpha and the omega!
-Everything He speaks to your life, its has already been fulfilled in His eyes.
-We just need to step out in faith!

-you will never go anywhere when all you do is sit around the premises
waiting for the promises!
-The live of Jesus, His entire physical representation of His body, will be the life of the church!

-Just as Jesus used His hands to heal the sick, to deliver the oppressed, to heal e needy and
be a blessing to others...THE CHURCH, as His BODY/INSTRUMENT/MANIFESTATION OF JESUS ON EARTH, must be doing the same!

-Just as Jesus's body was crucified, the church one day will face persecutions, trials and tribulations and be seen as if it were almost dead.
-But just as Jesus' body resurrected from the dead, the church in the end times, will rise up
and take the world for Jesus Christ! =)

THOUGHTS

after svc a hybrid of E110, W390 and E406 gathered at the food court to makan. hahas, it was really really hungry at tt point in time, cus i din have my lunch. hahas

btw, in e morning i was at bao's hse having guitar lessons, cus sunday he couldnt make it.
played TOCA3 (cant rem if tts e correct name for it), 7 GIG..lol i was like...waaaaa...haha. but not bad, its a pretty realistic racing simulation that features f1 racing, grand tour, etc. from formula-1s, to racing cars to monster trucks, etc. super realistic terrain and physics.

as usual my side mirrors were always the first to fly off..LOL! after awhile rhonda came to have her lesson too. and she's learning really fast. come to think of it, sooner or later me and bao will have to go for our NS..so who will take our place? hahas. *hint hint..lols

and so back to our fellowship after svc..:D

we were talking about hades, sheol and hell, and Jesus's descend to hell for 3 days after his crucifixion. then bao was like..."shio", "shio"...haha ('hot' in hokkien, supposedly he meant Sheol)...hahahas. we had many great conversations and stuff..about the first heaven, 2nd
heaven and third heaven, fall of lucifer, etc...man, i cant wait for AFV..lol and it makes me
even more excited!

i wanna go to bible school! lols. and the Isreal Tour 2006 is $4000!!!! woooooot! *sob..lol
we'll see after i complete my NS..hehe...^_^

then after awhile, we decided to play the number game lol. and david was the 'champion' lols. huixin oso...haha...the loser was supposed to makan the pig intestines and we tried our best
to eat up all the tao-pok so leave the intestines for huixin, hahas cus she koped e taopok instead of the intestines when she tio..haaa

of course i tio twice...but i tink david tio like 5 times..hahaa....really got to chat with him more yesterday during fellowship and in e train..hes a really nice guy to hang out with. and hes a 'lee' as well...muahaha! yeah man! hahas x) he plays e saxophone, a bit of piano and hes interested
in guitar..*hint hint..haha.

well..lets see what the cg is gonna plan this wk and next wk for easter and post-easter..:D so far
e110 is planning a chill-out at Settlers' Cafe at HV...

Long awaited update =x

finally, my long awaited update..hahas. well..been rather busy lately. so heres some updates =)

first of all, im glad to say tt ive completed FT2! yeah! haha. e last lesson was great. on eternal judgement, e diff kinds of judgements, etc. its really interesting to know tt we will be judged by even our MOTIVES, even if you never did e wrong thing, but u just think it consciously or subconsciously...its wrong!

God is reluctant to judge. its not in His persona. He is full of grace and mercy...BUT...judgement is God's response to man's disobedience and fallen/corrupted/perverted nature. It griefs Him to see His very own creation, whom He created to be e best, whom He love, whom He even placed them to be a little lower than the angels...become what it is today.

And so, being reluctant to judge He passes on the job of a judge to His son, Jesus. But during His earthly ministry, even Jesus (who is exactly like God e Father) was also reluctant to judge, for He did not come to condemn e world...even at e cross, Jesus prayed to the Father to forgive e people...and so who will judge us..? the answer..

is the WORD of God. it is e evidence, it is e witness of everything we do, e way we live, etc. thats why e Word of God convicts hearts, because it reveals a 'mirror' of ourselves, reveals our faults and tells us what is right.

well, celgrp yesterday was good. alex came for makeup...and i almost kena 'hoot' by pam for something..lol actually i did...ONCE...haa..=x bleah..=p anyways..haha..we had our cg roster assigned to us..and im doing e role of a guitarist cum greeter...and my bro got to do evan's personal assistant..woot! hahas..*faint

indeed easter is coming...mus chiong oredy...we mus stop riding on trishaws and start riding on the ferraries of the great commission! :D

im really excited this week...i dunno why..im jus excited every week...haha! well..i really need a God idea for my IHP. my super-V wants me to do a gantt chart, an access database with all the funationalities FIRST before doing the GUI and interface design. so that ill have enough time to do my proj report at e end of e semester. so fast its 5 weeks oredy...>.< *screamz..hahas...

More than a prayer meeting (WARNING: Long post)

It was awesome! fantastic! phenomenal! tangible! life-changing! anything else good and positive! =) truly its one of e best prayer meetings ive been to, not bcos of who we are, not even bcos of who the singers or leaders are, but becos of who He is! ;)

though i was tired, i was excited. there was a sense of great expectancy, esp easter's round e corner. it started off with praise and then a loooong worship. and i was literally in tears throughout the meeting ever since praise started, even when i was praying, i knew that what i prayed could make a difference.

but honestly, people tend to see our programmes as factors leading to our success as a church. but it is never true. prayer meetings are like 'behind-the-scenes' of CHC, prayer and anointing is really the engine and the dynamo of our church. ull nv experience e power behind e church unless ure willing to flow with the vision of e church. to be a part of EVERYTHING e church is called by God to do in this end-time generation.

as we began to pray, it was the most fantastic thing that ever happened to my life. strongholds began to break, powers and authorities (of e world) began to diminish, lives are changed and renewed, and the tangible presence of God was there and i can say, that i was truly lost in His presence. =)

nothing around me began to matter anymore. and as we progressed deeper into e 'power core' of prayer, i found myself in the Holy of Holies, one on one with the living God Himself. life can never be perfect, but as i was stuck in e presence of God, i experienced what a perfect life felt like...no fear, no pain, no sorrow, no strain, no limits.

people think the perfect life is in heaven...true....BUT bcos we have e Holy Spirit, we can experience the God-life...NOW! ^^ there are people who are saved, behave as if they never knew Christ...all the time they are sighing, 'sian-ing', confused, visionless, so down and negative all the time...

thats why i liked what ps ulf said, "u can be saved, yet unrenewed in your minds''. life wont change jus because you know who God is, but life only changes the moment your thinking changes. because our mind is the driving force for our confession, for our thoughts, feelings, emotions and ultimately, the manifestation of life that we perceive, on the outside.

your life can only be as good as you think it is. if you cant see it, you cant have it. simple as that. but more than just seeing, we have to ACT on what we believe. many ppl believe, but they are not willing to pursue. stop dreaming of having a good life and start making one!

now...back to the PM =)

as we went deeper into the holy of holies, ps meng began to move in the spirit, and i remembered, FOUR TIMES, there was an impartation: of faith, of love, of purpose, of strength, etc. when he prayed and imparted something into our spirit man, the moment he breathed teh breath of e HS, i felt a strong surge/wave that hit me right in my spirit.

it was something that i could feel. it felt like benny hinn all over again ^^ one wave by one wave, that hit me again and again, it was a great feeling. if i were standing on e front where e anointing is e strongest...i would have fallen under e power of God. and i almost did. there was just something supernatural that happened on e inside of me. and tears continued to flow down my eyes like a river...

there was a point when we really cried out our prayers...i have never felt so much passion as to literally cry out for the things of God (or e things which we prayed for)...e atmosphere was fantastic, it was tangible and e glory of God filled e entire hall. there was so much reverance that i hardly even dared to lift up my head, just like moses on the mountain, for i have seen/felt the living God. there was no doubt that God was there ministering to the people.

and there was a wave, a wave that could be felt as God's glory began to fill e place. i stood there motionless, my hands began to shake momentarily, and as we sang, 'Holy is the Lord' towards e end, and while ps meng gave another impartation, i saw in my spirit:

Jesus walking towards me and putting His arms around me. He stood behind me with both of His hands on my shoulders and He whispered into my ears with love that surpasses all understanding, saying, "you can do it!", "i believe in you", "I love you"...and He kissed me on my right cheek...and i was just....man, no words can describe it when e Holy One who died for me, kissed me. really, no words can describe that awesome feeling, and i fell in love with Him all over again..it was the sweetest thing that happened to me in my entire life. =)

after He said those words to me and kissed me, He rested His head on my shoulders, as He embraced me from behind with His loving arms. i was lost in His presence, lost in His love. i was totally gone man..x)

tears were rolling down my cheeks but i wasnt crying, i wasnt even moving for that moment. i have had an encounter with God...;)

towards e end, ps meng called those who needed prayers for a specific need to e front and he laid hands and prayed for them and the glory of God fell on those whom he laid his hands on, ministering to them. =) it was the FIRST TIME...in a 1-2hr mini zone prayer meeting, that God moved in such a great way!

i cant wait for the next PM...i MISS OPM!!!! hahas =) well, this wk's svc is gonna be different. as our key leaders, pastors and zone sups are overseas in taiwan. so who will be leading us this weekend? guess ill have to wait to find out =) but whoever it is, lets come with a spirit of faith and expectancy ;)

and yup, tmr's my LAST FT2 lesson! yeah! =) on Eternal Judgement, man so exciting. =) have a feeling tt quiz will be tmr as well...hahas x) btw, i MIGHT be reformatting my lappy. well, unless i settle e prob with my SP2 first..hehe.

after PM went to opp kopitiam with wendy, JS, aini, peng and pampam...had a great time although i was tired and dozing off every moment, haha. gonna start prayin and fasting for celgrp this wk...(x2)...i cant do without e anointing of God =)

Richard Roberts Day 02 (Serving)

well, theres not gonna be much on this post cus i was serving on tt day and ive only managed to catch a glimpse of e sermon. btw, i havent said in my prev post: r.roberts can really sing! man, come to think he used to be a nightclub singer..hahas =) he really has a strong vocal voice ;)

sermon's on the gifts of e HS. so heres e notes:

-The gifts of the HS are SOVEREIGN, they dont belong to us.
-Dont say so-and-so has the gift of this-and-that, the person does NOT have e gift, but e person OPERATES e gift which comes from God, THROUGH the HS.
-God does things the way He wants it, how He wants it, who He wants it done to and WHEN He wants it done.

REVELATION GIFTS - gifts that REVEAL

1) Word of Wisdom - Supernatural understanding of a given situation when human understanding ceases.

-1 kings 17, jhn 8
-several gifts can operate at e same time.
-dont reason with your head, obey with your heart.

2) Word of Knowledge - Supernatural information that is not available in the natural realm

-2 kings 6, jhn 4
-dont say the OT is irrelevant or that e NT came to replace e OT. e NT didnt come to replace e OT, but to FULFILL IT!
-if u love God's Word, then embrace the ENTIRE COUNSEL of God, dont live a selective life! (choose to believe what you feel best benefits you, etc...)

3) Discerning of Spirits - NOT thoughts

-acts 16
-be quick to obey even when it doesnt make sense.
-it is sovereign, God is in charge and He decides who and what to reveal the spirit of a given person to...not you.

POWER GIFTS

1) Gifts of Healings (PLURAL) - there are diff GIFTS of HEALINGS

-acts 19:11-12, acts 3
-it is a common gift.
-apart from blessing us, the next most easiest thing God can do is to heal.

2) Working of miracles - supernatural intervention by e HS to change/alter a situation.

-e.g. frm a group of 20 youths with nothing but a dream, becoming a strong local body of 20,000 is not e work of a man, but of God; a miracle.
-Josh 10

3) Gift of Faith - supernatural faith that takes over human faith.

-it is a measure of GOD'S OWN FAITH.
-e devil is afraid of this gift, because if God speaks, nothing can stop it from coming to pass.
-manifestation is a 100% guarantee (even more :D)
-sovereign gift, has its own timing.

VOCAL GIFTS - these work together

1) Gift of prophecy - hearing what God is saying and delivering it.

-it points e way, builds faith, encourages, strengthens, etc..
-God is in charge and I'm not!
-God works/speaks through people most of the time.

2) GIFT of tongues - this is NOT the daily, devotional prayer tongue that every believer baptized in e HS has e right to.

3) Interpretation of tongues - works together with e GIFT of tongues.

-strengthens/builds e congregation. always refer to e target audience.
-rom 8:26
-every gift is sovereign. God decides anything and everything!


MINISTRY

reached expo at 7am but hall8 wasnt open yet. waited for e guy to come and open. while waiting, 2 more cabs arrived and more ppl camped outside e back of hall8 haha. although i was physically tired, having slept only 1.5-2hrs e night b4...but i was excited.

since wed ive not slept well.

wed - do IHP, BS (2 hr lesson on res of e dead)
thurs - wake up at 6, go sch till 6 plus, 10-15min to practise for cg. slept after 12am
fri - do IHP, prepare for cg again, different songs, go for cg, reached home after 1130pm
sat - make-up guitar class, go svc, reach home after 11pm-12am
sun - woke up 4am. pray. go for ministry, end at 3 plus.

and here i am, preparing to go sch later to install software for my IHP. might be havin guitar class, or movie. we'll see what happens.

now, back to my ministry, few things happened. conf rm 2 was loud and disruptive again, this time, the same brother who had been 'blasting' e sound for more than 2 times before (if i could rem), from what i heard frm lynn, as he was abt to adjust the console volume again, zhun-zhun pastor tan came in, saw him and u-know-e-rest. hahas.

of course henry, like pastor tan, wasnt happy. partly also bcos no one was monitoring the level. but frm what i know, even if e snd lvls were monitored, e same brother frm childrens' church in rm2 will increase e volume time and time again. then when we explained to henry wad happened he was like laughing lol...cus it was at e unluckiest time...tt pastor tan came into conf rm2 and 'headshot' e guy trying to play with e volume...

cus most of e time, actually, all of e time is e soundcrew kena scolding by either henry or pastor.

didnt really witnessed the scene so i dun know much on what actually happened, but tts abt it lols. we were like, thank God! lols. b4 tt i was at hall7 sun's farewell thingy. and i was helping to tear down e place. and for 5 minutes i was standing right beside Sun when she came down and went behind e mini stage.

WHAT WAS I DOING!?! for FIVE MINUTES! 300 seconds i was standing right next to her and i was doing nothing about it! arrgh...nooooo...lol! what was i thinking man..lol. anyways, i helped move e speakers back to hall8.

after tt met up with mindy my IC for 'debriefing'. theres really a lot we can learn. and i really appreciate Joyce for really being someone who is able to lead and to motivate. although she may be strict or fierce at times, i really appreciate it. esp today when she was talking to us..and pointing out my mistake tt i did during e svc.

and she was saying, that she wont just anyhow say things jus bcos she feels like it, but she does things e way e HS wants her to do it. and when she told me that im gonna be more than a leader, tt she sees me leading more than 5 celgrps..something hit my spirit man and i felt e presence of God burning in my heart...

at tt point in time, it was as if she prophesied over me..and i jus felt it sinking deep into my spirit man, ull be a celgrp leader...and currently im already a celgrp guitarist for TWO celgrps. if u wanna talk abt e GIFT of faith, for that few seconds i had e GIFT of faith, 100% no doubt, that i will be a celgrp leader one day, leading multiple celgrps.

i mean, it had occurred to me in my thoughts once or twice b4, to lead a celgrp. but ive nv felt it so strong until today! I mean, Joyce is frm bible sch as well, she has e experience to move and lead e way she leads today and im jus so filled with respect.

my life will never be e same again...


celgrp leader of multiple celgrps one day....

Richard Roberts Day 01

it was supernatural, it was awesome, it was phenomenal..it was beyond description.

lets backtrack a bit ^^ in e morning went to bao's hse for make-up guitar lesson. learnt 3 scaling patterns and a bit of blues. mus really practise man...:D went to expo together to queue...hot hot hot! lol...rushed in, managed to get seats but scattered. now we are 3 celgrps and we took like 5 rows in all, but scattered all over e floor area..haha.

its like in every direction we looked and every camera angle on e floor area i see ppl in either E110, W390 or E406..lol. bao told me tt wayne told em what E406 meant. ephesians 4:0-6 its an entire book by itself and it talks abt UNITY! whoa! we were like, revelations sia! hahahas..

and so...back to e service. i was really impacted by rev dr richard roberts' testimony on how a girl's leg, who was bent 90 degrees to one side, was shifted back to normal while e girl was watching their TV programme. i was really touched and inspired. and if God can heal a dog, a puppy rather, what more is He able to heal us! =)

after e sermon, we laid hands and prayed for e sick. and many were healed in Jesus' name and went up to gave their testimonies. many were healed of injuries, pains, aches, HEARING, and even 2 got out of wheelchairs! it was just amazing...

one lady who shared her testimony really touched and moved me to tears, "What did you feel when God's power healed you?"..and as she was in tears, she cried out, "I felt the love of God..." at tt moment, e love of God hit me as well...and i was so touched.

another lady, who was like 70plus-80plus who got out of a wheelchair for e first time in her life! when we saw her walking on e stage, everyone literally stood up and gave the loudest cheer and the loudest round of applause and praised God! =)

and God spoke through R.Roberts..7 promises God is giving CHC:

1) THE LAND IS YOURS TO POSSESS (amen to that! =) our new land is coming ^^)
-deut 1:8
-the Word has to be rooted in your heart. for out of e abundance of e heart, e mouth speaks.
-when faith goes in, faith comes out thru ur confession. but more than jus confession, uve got to LIVE IT OUT!
-faith is not a one-man show, God expects you to do your part. -> we ALL have a given measure of faith.

-Without God, I cannot. Without me, He will not.

2) WE ARE THE HEAD AND NOT THE TAIL
-deut 28:13
-we are all an army of God.
-head also refers to perspective...vision...etc. a high calling.

3) NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST US SHALL PROSPER.
-isa 5:17
-we may lose battles, but that doesnt mean we will lose the war!

4) HEALING IS HERE....BIG TIME!
-exo 15:26
-God is e same, whatever He did before, He is still doing today. God hasnt changed, but its our mindset that has got to change!
-dun think ull get healing/miracles/prosperity in heaven, because in heaven u dont even need those! you wont even need anything!

5) WE ARE GOD'S PROPERTY
-1 cor 6:19-20
-we dun belong to e devil, but we belong to God.
-nothing can take away what belongs to God

6) WE HAVE A RIGHT TO THE HARVEST ON THE SEED THAT WE'VE SOWN
-mal 3:10 -'open e windows' of heaven.
-what does it mean when u tithe God will open e windows of heaven? it means e windows of heaven will remain closed until we tithe. you dont have to open that which is already open! but you open that which is closed!
-'storehouse' represents God's work.
-to rebuke is to literally say, 'Stop it! That's enough!' -> God will rebuke e devourer 4 our sake.

7) HE WILL NEVER LEAVE US NOR FORSAKE US
-heb 13:5
-He's there when ure good, when ure bad, when u make e right decisions, even when u make e wrong decisions. all u have to do is to call out on Him. u dun have to wait for Him, He's waiting for you. u dont have to make e first move, He had already made e first move!


THOUGHTS

later gotta wake up at 430am, then go to expo by 7am to serve sound ministry. business formal...haha cus this week guest speaker. im gonna need e anointing of God like never before! =) i also hope i can get to hear e sermon hehe...^^ tmr's gonna be great, God always saves e best for last...x)

after svc today we fellowshipped at e expo food court. we were talking abt benny hinn, abt end-times, lucifer's fall, hell, etc..it was so interesting to hear each of us sharing our own experiences and thoughts. im really inspired by benny hinn, esp when josh showed my a glimpse of his book on his life testimony, "Good morning Holy Spirit" =) i mean, he moves at tt lvl of anointing that is totally awesome! i could rem few yrs back when he came, man he shook the entire indoor stadium with e glory of God! =)

btw today Sun had a photo taking session and farewell meeting at hall 7. din get to take photos..T_T sobssobs..lol. soooo much ppl tt we were literally 'hugging', squashing, squeezing whatever u wanna describe it, each other. in e end, she had to go and ... yea...missed it lols.

and strangely, after like MONTHS...i was beside this fella frm E406, along with joshua, and we were chatting. then my eyes suddenly opened and so did his, and both of us, although been around for some time without knowing, turned and stared at each other intensely at the same time! and then...

at e SAME TIME, both of us were like, 'hey! ure xxx from fmss right!?!' and we were like stunned!!!! hey i know im a bit slow okayz? haha..mebbe prob cus u guys sit together and fellowship together for e past few weeks..>.< yea, it was tim...lol. e funny thing is not bcos we were stunned, but we were stunned at e same time! LOL.

well, no photos, a bit lagging...but tis ok..hahas

cant wait for benny hinn to come back next yr....well...dats a loooong way...hahas ^^

celgrp with E110 at daryl's place

met with tricia and wendy at 6 plus, went to daryl's hse. only tricia knew e way haha so we followed lols. surprisingly, when we reached daryl's hse..it was soo dark and there was like no one at home. e streets were dark and quiet too.

btw, we managed to find his hse bcos of the basketball thingy outside his door..haha. so after abt 30sec, we heard e door open from behind. and when we turned around we saw nothing but darkness everywhere...even inside e house, and there was no one at e door...i was like...whoa...whats going on man...lol

then after another 30sec, we saw a figure walking to us from the door...IT WAS DARYL!!! we were like, DARYL! can you next time please turn on the lights!?! hahahaha =p well, cg was good today as well. played throughout e celgrp, praise, worship, ministering, prayer, etc. i was using daryl's guitar which was less painful so i thank God for that..haha.

well, there was ONE moment that i slipped which was very obvious and there was a split second pause...well, normally after ur legs get numb for awhile ull start feeling ants crawling all over your legs...really BIG ants..plus the aircon which was blowing at both of my feet...so i happily decided to move my legs to another position.

and guess what, i pressed my leg with an amount of pressure onto e floor and i was like, 'ahhh' on e inside of me and voila...the guitar oso 'ahh'. the strumming, rhythm became screwed and it jus went off. took me 1 sec to regain the momemtum. i was like....ohno...lol. it wasnt long b4 i made my first mistake and i did..lol.

oh wells...ive learnt from sound ministry that always expect the worst, cus when u serve things can just go wrong at anytime, and we've got to have the faith and the wisdom to overcome every problem, no matter how sudden or unexpected they are.

well, e only way u can learn is through ur mistakes. if theres no mistake, theres nothing to learn from. :D and like what 'miss mela-mela' said..i really need to learn sitting positions! hahaha! =p