Thoughts...

today really enjoyed and was tremendously blessed by today's service. Ps talked abt e big difference between ministry and serving God. Ministry is what u want to do for God. but to serve God is to ask God what he wants me to do, not out of religious duty, not bcos its expected of you, but out of love and passion to strengthen e relationship betw u and God.

well, im still tryin to find my ministry, i have a feeling its guitar, yet, there's always e sound ministry where can bring down God's presence. but for tt i need to flow with e Holy Spirit very well. guess life's all abt finding ur identity in God. our ultimate destination of service is not jus in church where we do e singing, dancing, vocals, pyrotechnics, lightings, sound, usher, etc. e final destination is for eternity. our lives here are just a preparation for service in Heaven, where we'll be rewarded accordingly and allocated different areas where we can serve God.

sometimes i really feel e need to stop abortions in our society. every live lost is one genius lost. who knows e person who is to invent a cure for aids couldve been aborted years ago. each individual has a different calling, purpose and destiny and potential. its a pity to see ppl die w/o using their potential talents hidden in them to bless e world. suicide is selfish apart frm sin, ppl who commit suicide deprive e world of another blessing. we are all blessed to be a blessing.

ive just received my membership (OM) card today! so happy. ill continue to strive to get e MM (ministry member) card. life is more than money, findin right partner, etc. its about knowing what you are born for and what u can do to be a blessing to others. just as life was given to us by God, we are to likewise give life to others. and im glad with God, all things are possible and if I am for God, no one can be against me...XD living in supernatural abundance is sth im always thankful to God for. today Rachael returned me $100 first cos i lent her $200. and e big thing is, i gave all tt $100 for offering today, ive never, i mean, NEVER, reached a 3 digit figure. i really felt tt my heart was to open and so willing to give to God, cos i know no riches on e earth can be compared to what God did for me.

dunno y everyone on MSN afk (away frm keyboard), well, at least pamela responded...haha...yup. *SmiLe*

wad a week. and what more blessings to come!

cel grp was great yesterdae, had a great time fellowshippin. powpow oso came and stayed over at my place cos my parents went ona cruise, hee :D yesterdae was readin rachael's bk on "A Divine Revelation of Hell" by Mary K. Baxter, one of the many authors who had encounters with God. man, how i wished i had those encounters, although her encounter in this bk was sth no one would want to exp.

ive come to realise e importance and value of my salvation and God's love for everyone tt none should perish but be with Him forever in Heaven. How humanity has fallen to evil and sin, alcohol, lust, greed, pride, self-dependance frm God, etc. But im glad Jesus paid e price, although he did not have to but bcos he loved e world he chose to exchange his life for us. It's rather logical tt doing good does not take u to heaven. but its a free gift frm God to save us frm e world.

ive learnt tt e body dies but e soul can never die. and we all have to face God and he will reward us accordingly. "What good is a man if he gains the whole world and loses his soul?" At least now, ive got e peace of God tt even if i were to meet God someday, he wont have to say to me "Do I know you?" :) Just as earth, evil, good, blessings, miracles are real, so are heaven and hell. ive oso learnt tt, we must not wait for tomorrow to accept God's free gift of salvation and heaven's citizenship, for we will not know if tomorrow comes...

but i have to thank God tt he rescued and called my frm darkness into His light. when i was rebellious, hot-tempered, petty and at times had thoughts of suicide. but His love changes lives. im here bcos of Him, and I live for him just as he himself made e first move to make me fall in love with him. :D what e world gives u will one day be gone, but what God gives u can never be taken away.

Time flies and things change, yet we can never stop growing. God's purpose for our lives are always exciting, full of action, full of e supernatural. no limits for me :) "God's strength is made perfect in weakness..." XD

well, im certainly lookin forward to service tom...i wait everyday jus for church. where i can experience God's power and love, and jus feeling his presence makes me feel at peace, joyful, loved and secure...:D

My parts have arrived!

yes, they're finally here, my parts, yes...my parts have arrived. ohnonono, its my lapop parts tt have arrived...haha =P e MeLly ppl told me tt my laptop's speakers are connected to e motherboard for my model. Tecra S1. so they got me a new motherboard...heee...XD well, collectin tom, they say...lol

well, went to powpow's hse n tried e new CSS (Counterstrike: Source) uses half-life engine. e fun thing abt it is not e fraggin but shootin tin cans and rollng barrels and shootin guns down slopes...haha

preety good physics, like real life....haha. oso, finally my mu has reset for e first time! woohoo! haha...well, qt soon.

cya.

Blogspot spoil? sleeping? sick? hang?

hmm...dunno wad happen, my new template doesnt seem to show...sobz

anywaez, yesterdae had a wonderful cel grp meetin was good food too...hee :D had a touch frm God too while spendin my qt alone. well, tt was after wayne and lionel left my hse at abt 12am...=)

later my cg will b goin to sing nee's hse to give her a bdae surprise...:D oops, hope she's not readin this...haha XD for all u fellow bros n sistas out there who are sick or havin exams, i wish u all e best and good health to be upon u guys n gals :) indeed, there's nth God cannot do. :D

cant wait to go for service tom...although im gonna b late again...but i have no regrets man...haha :) allowin other cel grps to use my hse for make up, its indeed an honor to serve in e family of christ. =)

*Wonders...scratches head...*is Ownagemu down??? haha...cant seem to connect. and i dunno wad e MELly ppl did to my lappy e past few days, not play cz need cd key...doh...must have reset my registry or sth like dat, and yup, cant seem to play Call of Duty, some sounds are either missing or in a bad format. sigh...guess its bcos tt my lappy's not fixed yet...doh...

well, gtg now...cya

I'm back!!!

yea got back my lapppy. well, it wasnt exactly fixed cos e parts havent arrived yet. :) so they return to me 4 e time being. jus started to play sims2, so fun...haha XD

looking forward to cel grp later...hee

nth much happened e past few days or so...wake up, eat, play, eat, slack, eat, QT. of course there were other things in between la...lol =P

well, im intendin to declare november my workout month. hopefully i can build myself up...:)

well, expect more of my blog by e end of this week. i believe service is jus as good as ever and better. knowing that we are free frm e system of e world bcos we live in e realm of e supernatural. a place of not just enough but a place of more than enough.

God may have written our lives in His book, commanding blessings upon blessings, yet all we have to do is to receive. of course in our fallen/corrupted world, will tend 2 take it away, true happiness, love, peace n all. cos there's always e devil in control, preventing us frm receiving e blessings of abundance. but im glad that i dun have to submit to e world, He who is in me is greater than he who is in the world. =)

lunch time! cya ;)

Yes, 1 more day...:)

yea, 1 more day till i get back my lappy...den can MU MU oredy, haha...:D i really appreciate e hols, can feel relaxed and secure, knowing tt if God is for me, no one can be against me =) and can oso spend time fellowhippin with my frens...:)

really had a great time with God 2 nights ago...it was so intimate, nothing else could be better in e world than to spend time in God's presence. i was so touched and ministered. Once again, God renewed my love for Him by giving me an encounter with Him tt night.

well, i can finally say my bible reading's back to normal (regular), i jus cant live one day without readin sia, so exciting all e Kings of Isreal, etc. i love all e wars written in e Bible. jus cant wait everyday to read more, suspense...whoo...haha XD well, ill b havin my BS tom, but so sad no longer at City BayView Hotel, now moved to Bible hse. but nonetheless, God presence and anointing will be same bcos He's e same yesterdae, today and 4eva...:D really lookin forward to tom...*Hee =) gonna b blessed and impacted and changed inside out...;) yea

Well, holidaes are here...i suppose...

so exciting e hols r here man...yea. so happy, can spend more time with God and my guitar and MU...haha :) well, im not exactly at home now....*SiGh* dunno wad happened last night. i normally would plug my desktop speakers or my headphones into tt teeny weeny slot in front of my lappy. yesterdae after i removed my plug and restarted e lap, found out tt now my lap speakers had no sound. o...k....at first tot it was some driver prob, but realised tt its e HOLE!

now in order to get sound out of my lap speakers, i had to slot my headphone plug, yes...e pointing thingy into e hole...well, halfway. had to actualli touch e inside of e hole in order to get sound. tts so lame. XD well, im in SCHOOL! wow....actualli waitin for my cel grp fren cos his lap worse, cannot log on to windows at all. lol so yea, we are gonna be fellowshipping at e MEL centre later...omg.....=P

well, at least yesterdae was good. after bs me and my "jie"s had dinner at PS. went to look for guitar pick couldnt find one...sobsob. well, i guess theres always a second chance...:D went to follow vivian and sing nee go look at pianos and keyboards, i looked at e piano it stated $56,892!!!.....my eyes almost went rolin' rolin' rolin' sia...and i tot my laptop was expensive whew! before tt i went to look at e electric guitar and voila! its cost was no different frm my lap....oh man....

so excited every week, cant wait to go back to church every week to meet my frens and God. time flies now....heee =)

9.28PM:

sobsob...went to MEL this mornin. left e sch 3kg lighter. it was a hardware prob and they had to keep it for servicing for 4 days! excl sat n sun. tt means ill only b able to get it back next tue-wed, latest thurs. boohoohoo, my MU! arrgh

well, i certainly hope someone can lemme his/her com to do my MU-ing *Hee :D well, wad to do, me intend to go lanshop play lo tom, sth ive nv done n somewhere ive nv been 2 for 3 yrs now...Haha =P at least i could play 4 a few hrs in e afternoon before my cel grp tom nite...:D

Is there someone out there, cool

Who can lend me play my MU?

I would love to use his/her com,

Of course without consent form.

Is there someone out there, cool

Who can lend me play my MU?

I would love to play a while,

Unless he/she is, of course, vile

Is there someone out there, cool

Who can lend me play my MU?

I would thank him/her very much,

Playing MU MU on my couch

Ouch!

-WeRDNA (All rights reserved.)

Lovin God

service was great todae...ps kong jus came back. woohoo! :) haa :D i was touched durin service. ii like it how ps kong said tt God's presence is everywhere but His power is not everywhere. We must make the decision to want to receive e power. ;) yup...*Hee =) dunno y, i really miss overnight prayer meetings...e 5hrs i would spend prayin, seeking e face of God and living supernaturally for e entire day not on my own strength but on God's strength. wonder when will b e next prayer meeting...hmm....haha

fellowship was great too, though it was short. we went to e kopitiam opposite and took up 1 whole stretch of tables, frm e left end 2 e right end...paiseh...haha but of course there were gaps la...haha. had yummy chicken chop rice. mmmm....lol hungry..? haha...okie, mebbe im still high...XD

after tt, well, i went home as usual. Baoie told me tt later he would come to my hse n teach me guitar. well, i was carryin his guitar to my hse first when he called and asked if i could go back to church instead. well, being e human tt i am, i got shocked and u noe...haha. despite e bad hot weather, e Holy SPirit told me, "If you really want to learn guitar show me..." so i knew wad to do which im glad i did. so being hungry to learn guitar as i draws God's presence for me durin my qt, i forgone all odds and headed back to church. and i nv regretted it :D

got to know a few chords and songs frm Baoie. and with him was felicia, wayne and vivian at e cafe. o...k...so at least i have ppl to chat with...=) vivian is tryin to learn guitar too. okay, i would say u were not too bad for a start. seriously okay...? haha, XD if ure readin this pls dun bully me k? i mean it...haha :D cos i feel tt everyone has a musical talent and gift somewhere. cos i believe God deserves everyone's praise, and we cant praise if we dunno how? amen? :D God travels through an atmosphere of faith through praise and worship =) one of our purposes is to bring praise and glory to God. so no matter who u are, we are all created in His image and likeness, to have dominion. :)

well, frm next mth onwards im gonna start e guitar plucking method. if tts how u call it haha. i saw how PowPow did e electric guit scaling...whoa, i was shocked and stunnned sia...i oso blur...haha. well, im glad there's no sch tom. hee, can finally spend time with God. of course i would like it too if one day i could spend time with God along with someone else. ya, i mean u noe...yup. :) of course there's somethin more important now, if i cant please God how am i going to please my future partner? hee. i told myself tt no matter what, God is always first. =) He is always on time...yea! :D and He's always full of surprises...

Exams over

whew..exams over...yup! sem1 ended jus like tt...well, i can say its ended cos ya...its ended in a sense...haha

finally i can have my own personal space for God. no more studies to bother me anymore. i can have all e time in e world...:D cel grp startin sson, well, certainly loking forward to being impacted by e Word of God. since today. for e past few daes, i can finally get to spend more time with God. i feel that im closer to him now. todae even though im fasting, but yea, i had mjultiple conversations with God. about wad...haha cant sae....well, abt my own life. how i feel this and tt and all tt...haha :P telling Him how much i love and thank Him for wad He's done for me.

basically we talked almost abt anythin under e sun. even abt my looks hahaha...but really i had a great time fellowshipping with God. well, for e whole day it seems. chatting with God can really bring down His presence too...;) God is interested in everyone and in everything. =) there's really nothing u cant talk to God abt. He cares, and He loves. And the most touching thing is tt He doesnt see u for who u are, He sees u for who u can become. :D

sook jai if ure readin this...happy bdae! :)

powpow's playin e guitar already...yup...it feels refreshing when God touches me...:D i want to bring down His presence through music too....=)

After Cel Grp (din wanna cre8 a new entry cos tt'll b 2 a day!):

well, i did exp God in a tangible way jus now...man, it feels so good...He melted my heart durin worship..:) when we were prayin for e offering...man, i felt it physically...i felt someone's arms around my right shoulder and lo behold no one was there....then i realised tt it was the Holy Spirit. He put his arms around me and tapped my right shoulder3x..wow...i was like whoohoo! haha :D

LIFT STUCK WITH ME IN IT! but God let me out...:)

i was leavin for bs n im gonna b late if i was to be held back. surely enough, as i left my hse, i was in e lift when it suddenly came to a halt. i almost had a "lift off". my heart oso "took off". i waited for 30 sec and i decided to seek God at tt moment. i was nervous and tense...i told God..."u cant be kidding...not now...." after like 1 min...e lift jerked and moved to e nearest floor. e doors opened and God told me not to take e lifts but take e stairs instead. as i left e lift e doors closed shut behind me and e buzzer rang...

e lift had jammed behind me and on e electronic sign was written "BLK 665A LIFT POWER FAILURE!" man, i was relieved. yea! praise e lord! :D it felt eerie and claustrophobic in e lift....glad God was there in e lift. but its a pity i din see an angel open e doors for me *sob*...haha....=) ttll b e day...lol XD see...i dun need any repairman...wahaha. indeed God saves those who call Him bcos he loves everyone not by what e person has done but by who e person is...:)

somehow e incident gave me a revelation: our daily walk with God is jus like tt...everything seems to be fine when suddenly there is a "power failure" in our spirit man. we struggle and many backslide. but in every tough time, God will always provide a way out to those who ask of Him. "Ask and it shall be given unto you". we jus have to choose....=)

BS was great.....discipleship...woooo haa :D after tt for e first time...i had fellowship on a wed night after bs...with sing nee and vivian. looks like ill b havin 3 fellowship sessions per week now...hee wed, fri(cg) and sun(svc)....hope can spend more time with my cg frens...

tom vivian comin my hse teach my bro chinese...wahaha...yup at e same time can teach her a few basic guitar chords ;)

Fallin down..but the Lord will pick me up!

dunno y since e past few daes, there's no sch, yet as i waste my day im losing e power of e fruits of e Spirit. feeling dry and offtrack lately...well, not exactly dry but it seems each day the challenges just get bigger and bigger. at this pt in my life its hard to stay focused on God.

well, yesterdae night i sought e Lord. again today, i failed to do what he told me to do. This cannot continue any longer....he told be tt im gonna start "backsliding" soon...if i dun change my thinking. so He, being a lovely father, insisted tt i go on a 7-day-fast. excluding weekends where fellowship is just as important. well, looks like ill have 2 start tomo. i feel so bad disobeying Him in his midst...but im glad e Holy SPirit is always there to guide me. =)

well, some time ago, e Lord spoke to me sayin tt this period of 3 years, im gonna face a lot of temptations and challenges, more than ever. and now im beginnin to feel jus e "start" of it. it seems so easy to get distracted and all tt...

well, thank Him bcos "Greater is He who is in me, than he who is in the world!" its time to pull myself together. looks like tom's bs im really gonna have a word frm him tt will change me completely! :D well, itll b more like a word of "correction". whatever it is, im willing to change. although i fear His so-called "lectuer" on me, but i thank God for "He has not given us a spirit of fear, but of peace, and a sound mind!" :D well, some time ago too, i think it was last yr, He did tell me tt He will find me the right person before i graduate! :)

well, honestly i dun sense anythin yet...But He did reassure me jus now in e shower, tt all will be made known to me after i SURVIVE e hard times in poly. well, ive still got 2 yrs to go...looks like i really need A LOT more of e HOly Spirit now...*Hee ;) its only e beginning...XD

Ps Albert is good....heeee

well, service has ended. but sadly our fellowship ended too...sobsob...everyone went home cos got exams. haiz nevertheless, im really impacted by what ps albert shared today. how we cant love Jesus and e world at e same time. and how e world tries to make u ugly look nice. i really enjoyed e part when he shared about ET...lol i mean tt how e world and devil look like if u put it tt way...ugly but cute, cuddly, and friendly. man....

even though i was ALMOST LATE for service...im really glad today and reassured that God is faithful and t He's nv late...;) well, today makeup cel grp ended at 11 and service starts at 1130, but e doors normally open abt 1100-1115. so okay got my cel grp to help me reserve seats. im really glad tt i dun have e tendency to blame the makeup cg. i mean, it really feels good to allow God's ppl (my fellow siblings) to use e hse for cg. even in my room i felt God's presence even though they were outside.

after e makeup cg, i decided to take a cab. by e time i left was abt 1105am. waited for a cab until 1124am. man i cant remember when was e last time i prayed for a cab...haha. but i really enjoyed tt moment. life with God is always exciting...He's so full of surprises. indeed he never fails me...yea! :D reached ON TIME! praise e lord! =) at tt moment i felt e Holy SPirit said to me:

HS: u see? dun believe
ME: okok ill believe. thanks for stretching my faith.
HS: God will honor those who honor him
ME: thanks again. indeed God is always on time :)
HS: no prob. i love u
ME: i love u very much

durin service i really felt His presence all over me. and i was again cryin in His presence as He touched me. well, eva's gonna sign me up for sound ministry. well, ive always loved how music can bring God's presence down. tt wad i wanna do. cos i have my guitar too....when im ready. the guitar ministry's for me. ill make use of every stepping stone God give me...;) man i feel like praisin God now...haha once i spend a great amount of time in God's presence...i jus want more.....yea! it feels so refreshing and exciting!...well, *CiA0*

Well...well...no title to add...:)

well, im so glad tt today is my free day...can finally spend more time with God. this afternoon i managed to play King of Majesty...well, its quite an achievement i mus sae. of course i din sign up for any courses or anythin like tt, but i feel its really e Holy Spirit tt guides me thru when i spend time worshippin and adoring him. ;) i have nothin else to sae other than "It was He who taught me guitar"...well, of course i wouldnt forget pow wee for really guidin me when i needed him. :D thanks ya....=)

since my mum removed my internet connection at home cos of my bro's exams(to avoid distraction etc...), i really must thank God that i can BLOG! wow! how? haha...at home well, its gd to walk around with ur laptop once in a while. *Hee :P truly enough here in my own room, im blogging usin well, other ppl's connection? haha...

wel, cut my hair todae...wahahahaz dunno y jus felt like cuttin so i went for it...whoo! :D feel cooler now..haha cant wait for tom's service. am really expectin od to touch me tom...and ill go a lvl higher! yea! ;) well, WWE startin soon yea, hahaz...*CaO