Short post

Officially started my 3/12 again. i think its become a habit to do 3/12 or 5/12 every week haha. which is good i guess. prayer and fasting should become part of your life. it should be automatic, not prompted, you dont need a reason to pray or fast, if you love God, it should be naturally part of your lifestyle!

i think im getting really addicted to this skin. haha..makes me wanna blog more. lol. my record was i think 12-15 posts in 48hours or something. im actually watching thewinekone right now haha. i seriously enjoy his videos. even though some of them are..well..'crude'. thats why for me personally, i rate it M18 haha. but yea..im mature enough to know its just a joke and i dont take it too seriously ^^

http://www.thinkingoflaughing.com

one thing i like about this template..not much scripts and dynamic data. takes faster to load. but of course there IS a short lag cus of my archives lol. once it hits a thousand plus ill probably relink. cus its starting to lag lol. my archives are like..almost as long as my contact links. :o

this sunday doing stage! excited..but a bit nervous also..cus i only did it like..1-2 times? :S but yea..itll be a good experience for me..get to know more people on stage and backstage. maybe get to say hi to pastor too. ^^

but yeah..the stress is there. with the whole world watching, you cant afford to lose your cool throughout the service. must be alert and quick. and comms have to be good. which i dare not say im good at yet..=/

lots of diagrams and storyboard to do! graaah! stressed and lonely! -.-

Blogskin Orientation

You might ask. WHOA. SIMI LAI EH..what is this!?!

Haha no, i didnt lose my blogskin..i just decided. No more fancy, stylish, bright and "IT-literate" blogskins with complicated scripts and design frames. lol. im not really a fan of programming, and to think i came up with 3 different blog templates is quite a feat for someone like me. haha.

You might be asking, will I design skins again? maybe. haha. right now, i prefer the old-fashioned blogger. its neater and more professional looking. the reason i dont do such templates are probably because i dont have the time and passion to do such things..

especially ive been doing programming for like..the past 4 years? O.O

Just some orientation to this skin. you might not be used to it. haha. stopping the music comes when you press the END button. cus its at e bottom of the page. at the moment, esnips is down so yea you dont hear anything.

Programming 1-o-1: Always allow the reader to mute/stop your music, videos or any other dynamic scripts that take up bandwidth.

I know..my friendlist is rather initimdating..along with my archives since my blog is YEARS old! lol. i think i started it since i joined CHC. actually, i do have a previous blog, but ill only give u the link if u ask me..cus something happened there and i decided to shut it down.

so yea. its still there..but no one touched or viewed it thats all..i havent deleted it cus all my journey with God are in it, and call me sentimental or whatever, but i treasure every moment i spend with God :)

and yes, the 'comment' feature is enabled again. you can try it. even i myself have not tried it haha. lets see how it works :) yea..so thats about it.

Wrong day, Encounter, Song

RANTS

Today was so screwed for me. Not only did i woke up late. i missed the attendance for IHP AGAIN, and i missed the QLA lecture! omg. for my IHP, at least i informed my supervisor, told him im present, not absent. as for the lecture..i was going through the slides, hoping to catch up.

to my horror of horrors, the slides got blanks!!!! yeah! lecture notes got blanks! as in ____ u know? blanks! put there deliberately. what in the world is going on in your head man! im trying my best to study and the module leader is trying his best to make me fail but leaving behind stupid blanks for me to guess. O_O

and guess what..there's no MAKE UP LECTURE! no such thing! you have make up service, but no make up lecture! i miss the explanation never mind..i was hoping at least i still had the notes to refer to..but this totally sucks. imagine the bible..every verse had blanks for you to fill in..and imagine ure a new believer, reading it for the first time..HELLO??

okay, lets talk about something more down to earth. lets assume, you are getting married. the pastor reads the covenant.."...till ____ do us part". then youll be like..till what pastor? "let me repeat..till ___ do us part.."

"what pastor? what is it?"
"ive read it, cant you hear it?"
"no we cant."
"too bad.."

you agree, say 'i do' and you are now happily married and ure in a celebrative mood. and next thing you realise..that blank was 'happiness'. "till happiness do us part".

"oh erm..sorry Mr Tan and Mrs Tan.." im afraid you have to divorce right now..because as of this moment..your covenant is no longer valid."
"WHAAT!?! WLETMDKNNBCCBNNHEKPKBBBBBSBSBKNNBKSMLJ!!!! &*#&@(#@!!"

yeah!!!!!! TAKE THAT YOU GOON!!! thats how stupid education is. im gonna take over MOE man! i may not do a better job..but at least i can do a SMARTER and more DECENT one! graaah so angry!!!

ENCOUNTER

okay, back to blogging. lol.

today's been very tiring and stressing for me, emotionally. because of all these nonsense that happened. just needed to let it all out. cus ya..i have no one physically to talk to. just thinking of Brkaway Camp makes me feel even more far away..

next year before march, who knows..they might plan another outreach during the march holidays and guess what..ill still be in school programming all day, all alone while people are laughing and having fun..

everyone will have their exciting memories. as for me..i dont have any memories of L-O-L, breakaway is gonna be the same. the only memories i will have are those of my storyboards and ASP.NET.

people tell me, ehh i met so many new friends. and ill be like..yeah, toshiba tecra is my friend. O_O esp when they start sharing..laughing..taking photos..doing cheers and dances, and ill be like..its okay, 2 years in army soon..ill be 'gone' for at least a year or so..until it becomes more relaxed in the second year u know..blahblahblah..

and when im in army, guess what..they're gonna have even more outreaches. people get to work to earn money for building fund, people get to meet more friends, people get to have exciting memories of their youth..im sorry i dont have any of that..:(

i was feeling so down, that just now as i was walking home..i decided to get an ice-cream from those roadside motorbike sellers. i love the old fashioned taste. reminds me of how i was young, i used to buy ice cream whenever the icecream man comes in his bike, at my grandma's house.

as i was walking home with the icecream in my mouth and in my hands..i heard a soft voice in my head, "mmm this ice-cream is nice..". and at first i thought it was me, my own conscience and emotion telling me, yummy, this ice cream is nice..

but after awhile i realised, it was the Holy Spirit, God Himself. so i was like..'yeah..it is..'

'why dont you try the chocolate ice-cream? its nice too.'
'erm..its okay, i dont feel like eating chocolate..this is enough for me..'
'noo, noo, you should try..next time you try the chocolate okay?'
'erm..okay..'
'ull be amazed at what chocolate can do for you..'

and i started pondering..what did He meant when He said that..is it a trick question? lol. i really wanna thank God for being there for me when im down. He never fails to cheer me up. which is why i chose this song..its a really old song. but im so in love with it. in love with God.

SONG

Lenny LeBlanc - Above All

Above all powers
Above all kings
Above all nature
And all created things

Above all wisdom
And all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

Above all kingdoms
Above all thrones
Above all wonders
The world has ever known

Above all wealth
And treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what You're worth

Crucified, laid behind the stone
You lived to die, rejected and alone
Like a rose, trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

QT, Luke 15 NLT

When he finally came to his senses...

...I will go home to my Father and say, "Father, I have sinned against both heaven and you, and I am no longer worthy of being called your son. Please take me on as a hired man."...

...while he was still a long distance away, his father saw him coming. Filled with love and compassion, he ran to his son, embraced him, and kissed him...

...we must celebrate with a feast, for this son of mine was dead and has now returned to life. He was lost but now he is found.

REFLECTIONS

1. He had to come to his senses. You have to choose to wake up.

2. His father understood and loved him. God has never moved, you have. He has always been there, always waiting, always ready.

3. Despite all, the father took the first move. You take one step towards God, He will take a thousand steps towards you.

4. His father had the ministry of reconciliation. So should we as His children.

5. God is more happy when you are happy/when you are with Him, compared to all the things you can ever do for Him.

Randomness, Bored

First day of school wasnt so bad. at least i did something. its not the first time, but i realised im quite weak and vulnerable. in many ways, esp when i lose my fasting 'anointing'. ps once said, your life wont change with time. life changes only when your thinking changes.

if you think certain people will be like that..you will eventually act according to what you believe. and guess what..that person will respond the way you 'THINK' he will to.

just wanna blog abit about my personal life. in the past, i used to think, im not appreciated, people dont care, that every time my sacrifice is always in vain. but after my talk with adam, things changed and more importantly, ive changed.

i dont know if anyone is going through the same thing as me. but one thing adam said that really hit me, dont expect people to appreciate you. people are selfish by nature. for the people around, they are always not appreciative, for the person him/herself, he/she is always wanting self-appraisal and self-approval.

either way, both parties are still selfish nevertheless. one side refuses to acknowledge the sacrifices of another, the other side just wants to be happy with him/herself..aka self-flattery. then ask yourself, who do you live for?

Just take a moment to think, who are you thinking of most of the time? Yourself? your friends? or God? how often is God in your equation? everything you do, everything you say, is it to please men? is it to please yourself, or is it to please God?

i think SOTM really changed me a lot. your love for God must EXCEED EVERY OTHER FORM of relationships! if your foundations are wrong, when the storm hits, ure gonna go down. into self-pity, into resentment, into fault-finding.

soon ull realise your whole world is about how others think and how you feel. very self-centered. just stop for a moment..and ask God, God..what do you have to say? who is the first person to run to when ure down? who is the first person to seek advice from when ure struggling? who is the first person you ask for views and opinions before you actually do anything? how many times has it been God?

if you truly love someone, then theres no need to expect anything in return. love is sacrificial, love is unconditional! have i ever asked anything in return? no. not at all. i do what i do, because i love God, and love people, period. no terms, no conditions, no ifs, no buts!

a preacher once said, even if you were the only person on the earth, Jesus would still come down from heaven to die for you. if theres no one who appreciates or treats u e way u treat them back? would you still love? would you still press on? would you still be obedient to the calling of God in your life?

but u say, its so hard..well, if you understand what love is, if you have a clearer revelation of what love is, then its not so hard. i can say it because its my testimony, my own life story. when someone does right, Jesus praises and rewards, when someone does wrong, Jesus rebukes. when someone doesnt know His motives, Jesus loves.

obedience is greater than sacrifice. i live for God's smile! =)

School

not bad. finished ER Diagram and Data Dictionary and Dataset/constraints. now left with the flow diagrams and storyboard to submit by monday for my checkpoint 1.

video 10 and 11 is out. haha. last week youtube had errors uploading and they were doing maintenance e day before.

today so sad, put in 60 cents my potato chips didnt drop. then i put another one, hoping 2 will drop. but one one dropped and e other one tts supposed to got stuck at e edge O_O. if i were in e flesh i wouldve shaken e entire machine and knocked it till my potato chips dropped lol.

luuuuuneleyyy, im suuu luuuuuuneleyyy, i have nobodeeeeeee, im on my owwnnnnnnaaahhhun!

*Status: levelled up.
*Stat points available: 5
*Stat distribution:

Frost: 2
Retardism: 3

Combined PM, Thoughts, Testimony

Okay, i decided to revert to my previous skin. Haha. yes, a good programmer keeps backups of his files and logs. haha. cant believe i just said that.

COMBINED PRAYER MEETING

PM was just phenomenal. And I have a testimony to share. haha =)

okay, lets start by talking about the PM. i dunno about you, but everytime when i engage God in prayer, i never fail to pray till tears come down my eyes. the longing is so great, the presence is so strong, and the vision powerful.

the power of imagination!

im gonna get the picture of the Tokyo Dome Stadium from some chorus board friends and put as my desktop wallpaper. so everyday in school, as i boot my laptop, first thing i see in the morning, is our new building..and whenever i see it, ill begin to pray for it and see it come to pass!

indeed our hearts are full, and our pockets are empty. people always say CHC is a youth church. but if you are smart enough, ull know that youths become working adults one day. thats why we have so many millionaires in our church..not because we 'import' them from other churches, these millionaires are HOME-GROWN..

we dont take millionaires from outside, we raise them up from the inside! because all these millionaires, love God and love people and were discipled at a very young age. the power of educating the youth! you wanna be successful? you wanna be a true disciple? NOW is the time. faith is NOW.

and the vision of my first US$1,000,000 by the age of 30 became sooo strong during the prayer meeting. indeed, ALL things are possible. if you dare not do the ridiculous, ull never experience the miraculous!

i believe we can have our own building, ITM-FTM-TPTM! (short form, haha). i believe in 30,000 people or even more..when we saw the tokyo dome and one of the church leaders said it can sit 50,000-60,000 people, my mind blew away..immediately, i had the faith to believe for 50,000 members.

then again like ps said, its not about membership, its not about buildings, its about lives being changed for the glory of God! but right now, the focus is on the 22mil, each zone 1000 members. we have work to do. its time to rise up and to contain the vision God has placed in our lives.

and like e song we sang today stated: we have to pray like never before. prayer is the key to revival. prayer is the answer to any problem we can ever face. God is the only person in the face of the whole universe, that gives us the answer sheet for every test in life! :PP

man i just love singing old songs..it stirs up the passion when we first came to church :)

TESTIMONY

okay, for the testimony. basically i smsed pam told her i just left (1230pm) and ill reach on the dot. even though somewhere inside of me knew, i wont be able to reach by 130pm. =/ but i still confessed it. and spoke it. even when thomas called me, i told him i would reach on time, even though i looked at the time, im gonna be late.

but the amazing thing was..when i reached, i thought i was late. then i realised PM changed to 1.45pm. i reached at 1.43pm. i needed to chiong to e toilet cus of e long journey, and i thought i would be late in a sense - PM would have started when i was still in e toilet.

i told myself, God, i said ill be on time, dont make me look like a fool now..and when i reached back to my seat. it was 1.47pm and 3-5 seconds after i reached my seat..PM started!

and God began to speak to me.

Your reality says u are gonna be late. and it IS a fact you WILL be late. but because you believed in me and you believed in the power of your own words, you shall have whatever you say. i had time to reach the hall b4 PM, and God even changed reality so that i had time to go to the toilet!!!

and i thought..man..reality didnt change my words, my words changed reality! the catch here is this, are you willing to do the ridiculous? are you willng to be a fool for christ?

i believed im a man of my word. if i say ill be on the dot, ill be on the dot or earlier. even though it doesnt seem i would reach on the dot..somehow God will CHANGE REALITY to make sure that whatever i said, came to pass because i believed in the power of confession!

after PM didnt fellowship much..the girls went to do their 'stuff'. and im e only guy cus timo had to give tuition. so i decided to go home.

THOUGHTS/RANTS

now to talk about the Breakaway camp :S i dont think i can go. actually, its not i dont think i can go, but i really cant go. weekdays is a total 'buang' for me. 9-5 everyday. and if i were to go saturday morning itll be like..prize presentation and ill feel so left out again..:S

i dont know..everytime i miss some big event like this..first was the L-O-L, then now breakaway camp. i try very hard to not feel left out, i try so hard to feel i belonged to the cg, i belonged to the zone. but the more i try, the more events i miss, the harder it is. i really dont know how much more stress i can take. =/

last year was my final year..missed so many cg events. this year final year again! :( i just feel so outcast and deprived. and next year, im gonna go army. worse. sometimes i struggle with thoughts like: if i disappeared, will anyone notice? and other stuffs.

i never had any exciting memories in primary school cus i never talked to anyone. i never had much exciting memories in sec school..cus im always the one who chiongs home. in poly, i had ZERO memories cus the only i did for 4 years of my life..is TYPE, TYPE, TYPE. no social life at all!

total waste of my time. IT courses are the courses which are generally independent-based. as in, much of the things u learn and apply, are more or less independent tasks. even the learning is independent-learning, they only scrape the surface for you. how well you do, is dependent on the individual, except for group projects.

and i always thought i was the independent and introverted type. but there are also times i realised, that thats not true. in actual fact, im socially-dependent and extroverted, just read my blog, i have so much to say!

its just that because of the situations im placed in during my lifetime, it has reduced me to nothing more than someone that floats by...

everyday i sit in the room, i see people joking, laughing, chatting, lan-gaming, lunching..and there i am, alone, fasting on most days, never open my mouth at all for the whole day. everyday i only say 3 words, "hi", "bye", "okay". im so socially deprived even to the extent i feel uncomfortable talking to people!

oh wells..ive always encouraged others..live one day at a time. and here i am, encouraging myself too, to live one day at a time. itll be nice if someone could encourage me one day instead of me encouraging myself..

sometimes i just get e feeling some people are 'spiritually intimidated'..mebbe bcus i can be quite discerning, i carry e presence of God or whatever..i dont know. sometimes i just wish i can be treated like a regular friend instead of being so formal with me all the time. im a human too..im imperfect too..im a youth too..lol.

i dont know..i mean, its good when people tell me, hey, ur posts are so encouraging, i feel e presence of God when im with you, when i read your posts and all. praise God for that..who wouldve thought God could use someone like me. i mean, just look at my personality, i seriously dont think you find anything attractive about me other than the fact im a random retard lol. O_O

sometimes, i would like to know from people i know, what is it that makes me so different. i mean, its encouraging to hear directly from God why..but just for the record. itll be good to know people's opinions as well.

oh wells..let me decrease and let God increase!

Service, Fellowship

service was just phenomenally awesome. right from the pre-service prayer meeting, i knew today is the day of breakthrough. especially after having completed another 5/12, i know that today's service will be better, and stronger. and indeed, God is true to His word.

this song is a pretty old song, i remembered singing it during my first celgrp meeting with Evan. service was just awesome, the word was just awesome. The Fourth Dimension. man! that was some powerful revelation!

The realm of thinking, believing, dreaming, and speaking! and just by seeing an artist's impression of our new iconic building just adds the zeal, the fire and the passion into your prayers! even without the music, we prayed up a storm, believing God for 30,000, believing for greater prosperity and a place in e marketplace, for e marketplace to penetrate e marketplace.

and when we mixed our prayers with our giving, e presence of God just overwhelmed me. even from the praise and worship, till the end. every song we sang, i was in tears..because i know, my God is real and what He has done before in my life, He will do it again! and this time, in greater measure beyond what i can even imagine!

no eye has seen, no ear has heard, nor have entered into the hearts of men, the things which God has prepared for those who love Him! hearing Yusof's testimony wowed me, seeing the AnB video wowed me even more..seeing the video on Yoido Full Gospel Church..totally blown my head off!

we have much work to do guys. i mean, just look at them. most of them are elderly people or people in their late adulthood. and they can have so much passion, so much fervency, so much love and hunger for the things of God!

i really miss overnight prayer meeting. just ask those who were with us in jurong west, the most exciting event is emerge. but for me, the second most exciting event is overnight prayer meetings. every night was phenomenal and God always showed up.

YFGC. the largest church in the history of mankind. just think of it 750,000 members. and recently i heard they crossed 800,000 to 900,000 people..almost a million. and yet they're more on fire for God today than they were yesterday.

no wonder 20 of the world's largest church are in one city alone! Seoul, Korea!

120,000 people in the stadium praying under the chilly 5-6 degrees rain, and they are all older adults! some ppl i know..can even give excuses like, "aiya, i very tired, i dont wanna go for svc, aiya, today very hot, can dont go anot, aiya, i alone la..nobody go with me."

HELLO!?! you are still a youth! what are you complaining about!?! ps kong once said, you can have incense of praise and worship..but without the FIRE of passion, it would be nothing more than just dust!

and last time in jurong west, they have 6 services, whenever a guest speaker comes, i would go all 6, and in one weekend, i got laid hands for 3 TIMES and for 3 different impartations! in all my 4-5 years in CHC, ive not missed a single prayer meeting, missed 1-2 bible studies cus of timetable clash, perfect attendance for celgrp and svc and PM, for 4 years!

im not saying this to show off, im saying this to let you know, that if I can do it, you can do it! when im sick, im there, when i have exams, im there. when i have assignments, im there. good times, bad times, in sickness, in health..im there. all 6 services.

you made a 'marriage covenant' with God the day you got saved. if you cant even maintain your 'marriage' with God, you think you can handle relationships with people? give me a break! God is perfect, God is slow to anger, God is gracious, kind, loving, gentle, forgiving, merciful..and so much more! and if you cant even maintain a good healthy relationship with God..

how are you gonna maintain friendships/relationships with people out there who are imperfect, proud, arrogant, selfish, angry, critical and cynical!?!

every passing day, your life shouldnt be more boring, it shouldnt be more tiring, it should be more exciting, more encounters, more love, more faith, glory to glory, strength to strength..each passing day should be better than the day before!

for me, living the christian life is exciting and victorious but never comfortable! the moment you stay in your comfort zone, you are gonna lag behind so bad, you feel u can no longer catch up or contain the vision of the church. and people end up leaving..

stop complaining and stop giving excuses! start taking responsibility and ownership of your own life! if you fail to look after your own life, you will eventually lose it!

fellowship was good. i cant wait to try BK's mozarella cheese sticks again! those are ownage! haha. XD

later in e afternoon got combined PM, its gonna be great! the vision of the church is gonna get bigger and bigger and you have to rise up yourself, to be able to contain all that God wants you to have in your lifetime.

CG @ Home

cg was great. wesley came. accompanied by JS and yuanyuan haha. tianen came also. the first thing JS said was, "its good to be back" haha. did a short practice..really short..like 10-15min only. then went to join e others in the PM.

even tho we only sang one song for worship, but that song meant alot to me. what was the most memorable thing that happened to you when you were young? my life turned around, because of one Person.

to me, that was the most memorable thing that changed the course of my destiny. people come and people go, but like adam said, we are still here because some point in time, we had an encounter with the living God.

you can go to church, you can pray and read the bible, u can be so busy doing the routine, and yet have ZERO encounters with God! you can say, but i know God. yeah, even satan knows God, even the demons know and believe in God and they tremble!

today's msg was on the law of the harvest.

1. Your seed must be planted.
2. You must render your seed useless.
3. Expect to harvest what you've planted.
4. The size of your harvest is determined the moment your seed is sown.
5. Your seed must be planted on good ground.
6. Wait for the harvest.

You sow time, you get time. you sow love, you get love. what you want, you sow. what you sow, you reap. how much you sow, how much you'll reap. and there's always a period of waiting.

cg games was funny...my group cant act for nuts. lol. swimmer, facial, and a butt smacker! LOL. what you all thinking sia. haha. i tink we sign up for comedy better lol. haiya..what to do..got the 'retard' anointing from me. haha. =/ oops

thanks tricia for e refreshments. haha. somehow for some reason, she either buys e best cakes or she bake good ones herself. *clapclap lol. thats what makes our cg beautiful. not a single person is the same or has the same gift. everyone is different, and everyone is part of the body of E420.

if ure looking for a 'click' then itll be hard to find real 'clicks' here..because everyone is different, everyone is unique. well..i guess thats the only common thing we have. we're a unique click of uniques. haha.

lunch with thad tmr before he flies off. we'll miss u and we await the return of Mr Shakespeare-Hates-Emo-Poems haha. after that will be svc with ps kong. hes back and yea..AnB is coming up VERY soon.

time to arise, time to build..thats why its called ARISE and build. its also the period of time where true disciples will be differentiated from the casual believer. we may be a liberal church, but when it comes to character, discipleship and commitment, we are as strong.

when its time to love, we love. when its time to rebuke, we rebuke, when its time to give, we give! someone once said, the world is ruthless in taking money, we must be ruthless in our giving! unequal amounts, equal sacrifice.

we are a no-nonsense people. either ure hot or ure cold. dont be lukewarm. which is why people come and people go. i love timo's testimony, adam's too..you cant reason God, you cant expect or predict God, He's always on the move, He's full of new things and creative ideas. The moment you put Him in a box, then theres really not much He can do in you and through you.

i hope i can wake up tmr to go to changi..im dead tired.

MRT, Randomosity, Rants

one thing that suddenly popped into my mind. im sure uve encountered ppl who 'chiong' the moment the door of the MRT opens.

yea..u know what im talking about. if ure one of em, i have nothing to say.

first, lets talk about people chionging in.

i love it when they do that and when they're shorter than me. cus u know..the sides of my laptop protrude out from my bag. so its kinda hard and sharp and i like it when people chiong in and they feel pain because of my laptop in my bag haha.

press ur hands against the corner/side of a table and ull know what i mean. im not even talking about people who 'knock' onto me and accidentally knocked onto my bag lol. nothing's more satisfying than seeing that look of pain in their eyes and when they turn around and stare at me, they have nothing to say. lol..cus i wasnt even moving hahaha! :P take that!

now, lets talk about people chionging out.

i dont see whats there to chiong out from? someone farted inside e train? someone got BO or something? ~.O okay, im getting a little crappy but i dont mind making fun of such people haha!

cmon, its not like theres a bomb inside e train right? okay, so there ISNT a bomb. therefore i can deduce, that without a bomb, people chiong OUT of the train, even to the point of chionging down the escalator. why not just jump down? O_O its faster that way, and its only 2 storeys down. no difference right? im sure ur 'hype' will overwhelm ur pain so that u wont feel anything when u actually LAND. ^.O

and so..having said that..without a bomb, people run OUT of the train. so what happens if theres really a bomb? people cant wait to camp inside e train? lol. actually..that MIGHT just happen. singaporeans being singaporeans, bad singaporeans to be exact, "until they come to city harvest", like ps always says..haha, i think they will most likely cant be bothered when the train operator announces theres a bomb.

they'll probably take their own sweet time, to walk to the emergency exit. the uncles will be like, "OEI! WA LAO EH, JIN JUAY LANG AH! AI SHIO-PA AH!?!" and the aunties are probably go.."WA OEI! WA EH KAR AH! (someone steps on their shoes), OEI! WA EH NEHNEH AH!" okay..what was that? i dont even know where it came from. lol.

when supposed to chiong, u stone. when supposed to be relaxed, u panic as if Jesus has come back O_O helloooo???

oh yes..i shall go off-topic for awhile. lets talk about people who 'blast' their mp3s on the train.

yea, u sit there, holding an mp3 or some other audio device, and u start blasting..and mind you, you dont even have a sub attached, so what ure blasting is nothing but 'tweety' sounds thats so 'high' and distorted it sounds worse than a guitar distortion! not that distorted guits sound bad..but yea..u get e point.

sometimes i feel like going to them..say hi, stare SUPER close at their face, as if kissing..then suddenly go.."AHHHH-CHOOOOOO!"

then theyll be like "OEI! WLETMDKNNBCCB!" hahaha. u wanna blast at least blast some nice music with a HIGH-END mp3 player with QUALITY outdoor audio devices! nothing to show, then dont show lol.

the next time some uncle, aunty, ahbeng or ahlian, tries to be unglam, be careful i video u down and post it in the midst of all my retard videos. ull be famous in no time! they always have men's talk. does it mean e men rise up and e women stay where they are? no right? hello? some people just need to be more 'glam' u know?

in what they say and in how they conduct themselves. and holy crap, this naked woman keep on popping onto my screen! OEI! im fasting you know! lol. damn. i go clear my lappy tonight lol must be some stupid adware. i got 1 more day left..i dont want my previous 4 days to be for nothing if this naked woman keep on popping on my comp x_x

oh yea, in case u think im a malenist (meh-ler-nist), opposite of feminist, from my previous post. then i think ure thinking too much. cmon, u really think im anti-female meh? im only anti-stinking attitude! and besides, didnt some ppl say im half female too? O_O ok, just ignored what i just said lol.

i mean..cmon..be realistic. during altar call, u gave God your heart. im sure u kept your brain right? i hope..

i guess this is what happens when ure dead tired and doing a 5/12 at the same time, and at the same time, while blogging ur hands are shivering =/

CG @ Rhonda's, Random

shall i start with random, or shall i start with cg? haha.

yesterday while i was at my workdesk, all of a sudden, this group of ppl a few desks in front of me started playing e guit. no matter how soft they tried to play, it can never 'stealth' through the guy from sound ministry, me. haha

speaking of which, yes, apart from the courses and lessons we have to take before joining e ministry, there will also be a practical test after the lessons and a sound/hearing test. not just those loudness/softness hearing tests..but frequency range tests and to identify how many Hz is a particular frequency wave, generated onto your headphones.

but like every test..nobody wants us to fail, so they help to equip us thoroughly before taking e test, haha.

back to e guitar in e workroom, they were playing Break Free from HS. i was like..ehh..so familiar. then they played One Life, One Love. i was like. OH WOOT! haha.

i dont really know if they're from chc haha. but that song was definitely written by chc inhouse so..yea. could be from HOG also. cus we are affiliated lol..and during emerge everyone sang it :x

yea..thats random for you. and oh, this morning on the bus..what really provokes me are ladies, (i shall not call them girls or aunties for the sake of 'kindness'), ladies who sit on the outer seats on e buses and sitting there as if they own the entire row!

then they will have this arrogant look on their face that literally OOZES pride out of it. the moment u stand beside them, i dont know about u, but i can feel an atmosphere change really easily.

it felt as if it was Lucifer saying, "I shall ascend to the most high..". Afterall, it was pride that caused Lucifer to become Satan, but thats another thing and im not gonna dwell on it. Go for BS classes and ull know lol.

but basically, thats what pride is. in fact, pride and selfishness go together. its about "I", "me" and "myself", "I want this", "I want that", do you care about how "I" feel, this is how "I" feel, how "I" think..

everyone was squeezing on the bus..the driver was shouting 'pls move in!' 3 times. and she just sat there as if she's e only person on e bus.

and i dont know, its always the ladies! whats up with that! you have inferiority complex or something? if u have pms i can understand. but it doesnt mean u have to compromise on your character! oh, perhaps you didnt even have one in e first place.

'ohhhh you dont understaaaaand..when i have PMS, its like im being possessed...i cant control myself..." yea right. Satan is called the deceiver, not the PMSer. if he can posses u thru PMS then there wouldnt be a need for demonic possession through sin and other means O_O.

demonic posession through PMS? thats something new O_O

if you cant even control yourself, how are you gonna control your own life? ohhhh you dont understaaaand, life sucks. life doesnt suck. life is always on e move, always changing. life sucks because you suck! period. sorry for being direct, but thats how it is.

God placed laws in the world for a reason, the law of sowing and reaping, the law of faith, the law of imagination, the law of self-esteem..you are who you think you are, etc.

so yea..that girl sat there till she reached her stop. sorry, im typing really fast and the term, "girl" automatically came out ^.O

i reached school rather on the dot today..my friend helped me signin. when he loaded e site it was 9:59:45 when the signin was done, it was 9:59:59! LOL! woots! haha

cg was great. presence of God came. rhon, est and JH, jiayou in your studies! haha. even tho u have 'curfew' from pastor hahaha. next week ps will be preaching during cg herself, until rhon's exams are over i think. oh man..ill be sitting next to her. and its not e first time..haha.

i think she saw me everywhere aldr lol. had dinner after cg @ BK westmall. i was like thinking, oh man..saturday better not have BK haha. i miss KFC lol. esp when i got 1 more day to finish my 5/12.

cg later @ 8.

Carlsberg Spoof, Vivocity

Haha thad was telling me about this video..i just sat there and stared O_O. i didnt know how to react lol.

okay, i managed to finish my 2 diagrams today, only to be asked to further improve it. and its like improve to 6 times more detail! omg! ._.

had dinner @ thai exp @ vivo. chicken curry is teh roxors lol. feeling damn tired. but i think the spice woke me up =/ after dinner had ice cream with cg at the rooftop. talked about random 'hot' stuff lol. time really flies..it feels like just days ago we were kids. now we're all grown up.

cg tmr @ rhonda's then cg @ my house on friday. and i have 3 days more to complete my 5/12. press on! gotta finish homework for my QLA module :s

Humour, Leadership Files

okay, this post is not gonna be some lame crappy humour that i always do just in case ure wondering, haha.

i dont know why..for some reason:

when im fasting..all of a sudden people are so loving and nice to me. they wanna ask me out for lunch and stuff. haha. and all of a sudden eating in the workroom becomes legal and there are times people would tapao food into the room and i would sit there, smell the fried chicken and drool..thats why im called androol..

okay kexin came up with that nick back in JW days haha, not me..lol. God certainly has a sense of humour. when its like a fairy tale man..all these things happen only when im fasting. haha!

This week's leadership files is great, its entitled: Doing.

If you only do what you can do then you're only ever going to do what you can do!

But, if you start to do what you cannot do, you'll find you can do what you cannot do.

And what you absolutely cannot do, God will do, or a team of incredible poeple will, who are attracted to the person attempting to do what they cannot do.

Don't imagine God will ask you to do what you can do!

He asks you to do what you can't do.

Then you'll need Him to do it!

But you're the one who starts the impossible dream.

No-one, not even God, gets inpsired by the mediocre.

Attempt the impossible, ignore the critics, attract the best, accomplish the unbelievable!

I guess this shall be my daily devotional haha. last time ps kong used to do those daily devotionals for us. im gonna dig up my old shelf for it! :D

1 more diagram! one million by 30! ONE TWO THREE..YES! haha. oh yes..cass seems 'amused' when i said, "MSN screwed me" ^.O hahaha. anyway, yea, since sem started im having probs with MSN. i think its e sch traffic =/

dinner tonite with cg @ vivo. i heard my mum is havin dinner with her friends @ vivo too. :o

Facebook, Rants, Random

Okay, im gonna start by talking about facebook. yes its fun, but i dont really see how it 'connects' people. its just for people who are bored and have nothing better to do who find interest in the clicking of a mouse.

How is facebook not 'sociable' enough u might ask. well. just take ONE application as an example. or even the 'superwall' thingy or the superpoke thingy. dont tell me you poke/write on a person's wall because you really mean to..

all you wanted was to accumulate 'points' to unlock more things and features. right? its not a one-on-one interaction, but a whole mass of activity. even i get poked and wall-written by people i dont even know. who somehow have my email on their list.

as such, thanks to those who wrote on my wall..but no thanks, i dont really think you meant what you write/draw and i dont really think its meant for me. pls dont get me wrong..i have nothing against facebook or 'facers' lol.

and i have no idea what is wrong with IE. it seems to lag and its slower than firefox for some unknown microsofical reason. yeah, i made that word up, microsofical. (micrsoft-i-cal)

what do you do when you see ur loved ones being hurt? Has God been there for you? Yes. Have He interceeded for you? yes. are you really serious about this relationship with God? You decide. When people say you are the worst, did God say, "you shall be the head and not the tail?" all the time.

God is always on the move. He is not a slacker. and He doesnt sit on His throne, cross-legged reading the "Jerusalem Times".

ps robb thompson once said,

true friends are willing to confront your enemies.
true friends place character above relationship.
true friends would rather you hate them for telling the truth, than to love them for telling a lie.

and many others..i remembered he gave one whole list. lol. as such, i dont need to be flattered by people. im not interested in doing the good thing, im interested in doing the RIGHT thing.

one day Jesus was walking past the synagogue and he found people gambling and what not, and He overturned the tables, yelled at them and chased them away, in some translations, even throwing the tables/chairs at them. but when He saw people gambling outside the synagogue, He fellowshipped with them and ate at their house.

Hmm, is the Jesus you know a double-minded person? How can He contradict Himself? The fact of the matter is..He doesnt. there is one good anger in the bible and that is holy anger. its perfectly normal i must say.

if someone says your God is fake, blesphemes against God and you dont feel a thing, then its time to evaluate if ur relationship with Him is genuine or not. likewise, christianity is not a religion, its not based on a set of dos and donts, even though that is essential.

i remembered attending Getting Started class. im not even talking about CL or VL or FT1/2, its getting started. it talks about the sin of commission and the sin of ommission. when Jesus died on the cross, He died for the sin of commission. however the sin of omission is something we live and deal with daily.

After we are saved, we are being saved so that one day we will be saved.

sounds chim? nope. i think this is in CL or VL lesson. it talks about salvation being a lifelong process. your salvation is not guaranteed the moment you say the sinners' prayer.

We have been saved - redemption
We are being saved - sanctification
We will be saved - glorification (in e end times)

murder is not just what you do, murder is what you say. adultery is not just what you do, but its what you think. many times the world try to 'cheapen' or make the gospel sound pretty easy and 'cheap'. but it isnt.

and i think it was ps tan or ps meng, he said during BS, everytime you fail to stop a person from sinning, that itself is the sin of omission. you know something is right, but you dont do it. when u see someone stealing a wallet, u know its wrong, but you dont call the police, you dont inform the victim, u let the thief escape.

by doing that, ure saying, its okay to steal. never mind, God will understand. yeah, He understands that its wrong, and every time a person does wrong, he/she has 'hammered' the nail one inch deeper into Jesus' hands.

in the garden of eden, Eve ate the fruit, the husband was beside her, and she gave some of the fruit to adam. the bible didnt say eve sinned and therefore, all sinned. the bible said, just as adam sinned, all have sinned.

even though Eve ate the fruit first, the problem doesnt lie with eve, the problem doesnt lie in the fruit, sin entered the world, not because eve ate a fruit. sin entered the world because adam failed in his responsibility.

it was not the sin of commission that 'destroyed' the world but the sin of omission. and just a few weeks ago, i was reminded on one of the bible studies on the sermon on the mount. some people are too censorious, on the other hand, there is also another extreme.

cant remember the word for it. but it means being oblivious or ignorant; closing one eye too much. balance is important in life. sometimes things happen and we cant pretend as if nothing happened.

there are somethings which are okay to overlook, but there are somethings we cannot afford to overlook. there are some things which are ok to say, 'leave it to God.' on the other hand, there are some storms that Jesus will just pass you by..there are times in ur life when ure facing a storm and Jesus is sleeping..

He has given you power and authority, with that small measure of faith. learnt in cg few weeks ago, small faith + big action = big results.

what is a big action? doing the ridiculous to experience the miraculous. being a fool for Christ.

when the wheel of reality comes, you dont hold on to it. you let it pass. and ive always let things pass. u might think i sound as if im upset with someone or something.

well..i dont get upset for more than 1hour and i dont get angry for more than 2-3hrs. people are not the problem. the devil is. especially when ure fasting! lol.

the problem is not with people..some people have an attitude problem is because they have opened the doors of their life to demonic intervention. its like a cycle of defeat or a curse, you enjoy it, you cant break free, and it becomes a part of you no matter how hard you try to change.

nothing happens in the natural without first happening in the supernatural. ive always told myself to see things in the realm of the spirit. because most of the time, the things in the natural wont make sense.

thats how i break free from depression in less than 24hours. i engage the realm of the spirit and i win the battle over there. i uncover the plots of the devil and i expose their intentions.

we are not just believers, we are disciples. we are not just disciples, we are soldiers! in Authority For Victory we learnt the weapons of warfare. and the armors of defense.

To Guard! To Guide! and to Govern! ONE..TWO..THREE..YES! haha.

Maturity doesnt came with age or status, maturity comes the moment you can be led by the spirit. maturity comes the moment you take up responsibility.

and its not just the men who are soldiers for christ..it says all of us are soldiers for christ. only the 3Gs is part of the manhood talk haha.

didnt go with pl to tampines today..cus i think she got held back with some busy-ness from her project and it was also quite late for me by the time i reached there. plus i have to do my QT at home and break my fast. so yea..we're cool lol.

gotta go school chiong my 2 diagrams later..=/


PS: video 9 is out. =p

Bored, Lesson, IHP, Shopping?

its so boring now. went for QLM class in the morning. learnt about decision tables and trees. *faints. sat at my desk stoning. feeling sleepy and tired. no mood, no inspiration to do my diagrams. =/

at least im done with the TOR and gantt chart. gosh. a day in IHP is like a thousand elsewhere. O_O

last night decided to give missxin a surprise lol. sang birthday song on mp3 haha. then she sent me this really funny ringtone of her screaming in class: "ni jue de ni hen farnie meh?" haha. it sounded cute. but when my mplayer keeps on looping it sounds like those toys where u pull the string and it will say something lol!

just now pl was asking me if i could accompany her go shopping cus she couldnt get anyone to go with her. so i said i didnt mind going..better than rotting here lols. im meetin her after my sch.

now the catch is..its in tampines. =.= what came over me? hahaha. what was i thinking :o. but yea..i really didnt mind. im fasting anyway and i couldnt eat till 8 for today. just smelling the food is tempting enough..:x

esp when u didnt fast for a week and ure body is once again used to food, its hard to break the craving. but once today is done, im sure tmr's fast will be better ;)

Quiet Time, Love

Taken from 1 Cor 13 in NLT:

If I could speak in any language in heaven or on earth but didn't love others, I would only be making meaningless noise like a loud gong or a clanging cymbal.

If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I knew all the mysteries of the future and knew everything about everything, but didn't love others, what good would I be? And if I had the gift of faith so that I could speak to a mountain and make it move, without love I would be no good to anybody.

If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn't love others, I would be of no value whatsoever.

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

Love will last forever, but prophecy and speaking in unknown languages and special knowledge will all disappear. Now we know only a little, and even the gift of prophecy reveals little! But when the end comes, these special gifts will all disappear.

It's like this: When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child does. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. Now we see things imperfectly as in a poor mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity.

All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God knows me now. There are three things that will endure "faith, hope, and love" and the greatest of these is love.

So you think you can love? =p

Desperate

Im tired. my flesh is screaming out. devil is tempting and provoking me in every way possible.

just now as i was showering, i was asking God. God, i need a breakthrough. no one knows me more than You. God, show me how to break through, show me how to come to the next level in my life.

You know my strengths and weaknesses, God, you know what lifts me up and what pulls me down..God, i wanna know one secret from you...i wanna know the secret in me, to be more than a conqueror.

God, i wanna know more about myself. life is about discovering our identities and purposes. and God knows them all..so this question i asked was kinda a little too 'radical' lol =/ but i really wanted to know something about me that God knows and i dont :S

and God said something really simple, 'you wanna know how? seek Me. Fast and pray. and I will show you how to be an overcomer.' even though those words were simple. but they were powerful. the secrets of God are only reserved for the spiritually hungry, they are only reserved for those who truly seek Him with all their heart.

and for those with a close and intimate relationship with Him.

i really need a breakthrough. i realised i cannot afford to not fast at least once a week. :S w/o fasting, i get tired easily, i lose control of my thoughts and emotions easily and i feel drained and discouraged easily. and i dont have as much encounters with God as i would normally have when i do 3/12, or 5/12. when i dont fast, i dont have as much revelation too..

starting tomorrow, ill be starting a 5/12 again. all the way till saturday.

desperate situations call for desperate measures. its one thing to love God. its another thing to be passionate for Him. if you are serious about Him. show it through your actions. God said in Revelation, either ure hot or ure cold, if not ill spit you out of My mouth.

dont be lukewarm, dont be passive, dont be double-minded, dont live a double-life. even in proverbs it says a double-minded person is unstable in all his ways. if you truly love God, then love Him all the way, with all uve got. if u wanna love Him half-heartedly, then its better to not love at all.

God gave His all by sending His Son to die for us. Ps once shared:

an atheist once went to a church..he saw the congregation giving God half-hearted praise and worship. people were dozing off during the sermon, etc. Then the atheist couldnt stand it anymore, he stood up..went to the platform, grabbed then microphone and exclaimed:

"What is this!?! Is this the church? or is this the funeral? You tell me your God came as man, died on the cross, then risen from the dead. Is your God real or not!?! Why are you behaving this way? Is this how you praise and worship Him?

If God really created the universe..if you really believe He came as man, died on the cross and raised from the dead..then God definitely deserves a more radical bunch of people!"

and that story really shocked me. yea..God gave us His all. then we as His children shouldnt downgrade Him by living such average, pathetic lives. God deserves the best, because He is the best! =)

tomorrow, start diagrams and storyboard :O

OUT!

YES! im finally out of that room! FRESH AIR!!!! FRESH FART!!! no jus kidding abt e second part.

just wanna thank QY for the call last night..lol. even tho its like past midnight. i think i sounded like a deadman lol.

got one time i talked like an hour on e phone or something lol. still slightly sick. but at least now i can breathe properly. God never fails to give me an encounter in e toilet even as i prayed. this is not even my home toilet, its a public school toilet and God's presence just moved me to tears inside.

the christian life is not about going to church. its about bringing the church outside. bringing the presence of God wherever you go. people say, its impossible to have QT in army camp, its impossible to have QT at work, its impossible to have QT in school.

because you said so, it shall be according to as you say.

i just thought of something random..if a cartoon is called: Spongebob squarepants, then what is the M18 version of it? Spongebob nopants LOL. =.= retarded.

"Dear Toshiba Tecra S1...will you talk to me?"

Stress, Sick

cant believe im sick. physically. they say people fall sick 75% of the time is due to psychological triggers. when someone is stressed, worried, depressed, angry or in trauma.

and yes..im not only sick because i dont have enough rest, im sick because im stressed. my body is just as dead as my mind right now.

and im stuck in this stupid room, cant do anything, but to wait for my supervisor to reply my mail. cus i wont know how to continue until he replies my mail. then the teacher is staring me as if im not doing any work.

how to do work if im supposed to wait for my supervisor's reply? doink.

and its stuffy here. makes my nose worse. people think changing the aircon temperature will keep them warm. true. but its so stuffy it makes me feel even more sick and sleepy. ure already breathing in recycled air.

and u want to breathe in WARM, stuffy, recycled air? thats just doesnt make sense. you feel cold, bring a jacket, go outside, run 2.4! dont adjust the stupid aircon just because ure cold. last time it was worse..in some classrooms aircon can be at 28-30degrees. for what?

this is a classroom, not an igloo!

just because ure cold, it doesnt mean someone else isnt sick. yes, i shouldnt be in school. but you think i am the sort who will pon school just because im sick? NO. why waste money on medication and MC when ur body can heal itself? you think ure so weak? -.-

its just a flu. and some sore eyes..really sore eyes. and with this temperature and stuffiness, i might get slight fever anytime. just because some ppl feel cold -.- i have nothing to say to you then..

and just look at the classroom..only 5 people! im wasting my time here. i cant go makan while i wait for my supervisor to get back to me. must wait for this class to end. and the teacher is not even teaching anything. we are just inside, doing our work and he just sits there and monitors.

and some say i have poor time management. O_O its not that i have poor time management, its just that i have efficient time disruption! ~.O

i wanna get out of this room. go sit at my workdesk. listen to some soothing music and go for my lunch. rather than have my lunch later at 1pm and waste my time away.

i know..im gonna go toilet. yes..i shall my have lunch 'toilet'. mebbe ill do that. 2hours in a room doing nothing. i have completed last week's work. i am waiting for my supervisor to tell me out of the checklist of diagrams, what i need to do next.

cant i at least do something else? and tmr i have lessons. everyday the only people i talk to are either my parents of the stall vendors when i order food. mebbe i shall start talking to my laptop and hope one day it responds to me ^.O

yeah, im talking rubbish. since when the things i said made sense ~.O

i dont even remember how i sound like anymore. people have colleagues, students have classmates. but I have no one around me. everyone's chatting, having fun, laughing..im here staring at my screen and thinking about use case diagrams.

im not talking about communication on sms/msn. im talking about real-life verbal communication. and people find me boring. i dont really care.

you are not in my shoes so dont try to talk as if you know what i go through for 700 days!

oh, and btw, Java updated at 11.50pm yesterday. Congrats and good luck to all programmers. All that you've learnt have officially become useless.

Thank God im done with Java.

Ministry, Sick

Ministry was fine today. did external speakers. im very tired. ive not had proper sleep for 2 weeks now. last night only slept 2hrs plus then woke up again to go for svc. later gonna sleep and wake up early again..

met pam while serving. and today's drama they changed e script. after svc helped to pack up and then went home. everyone had left and rhonda's cg was in orchard. and i was just too tired to move.

i didnt get to sit much during service either. i was standing almost throughout. by e time svc ended i could no longer have e energy to stand or walk. i was walking left, walking right, and drifting from side to side.

even on the train i was dozing off while standing.

just now in the afternoon, i 'shutdown' for 2hrs plus. woke up..feeling even more tired. now im down with a flu and my eyes hurt. as in, really hurt.

every blink is painful..when i touch my eyes, they hurt. i feel so weak and drained. 2 weeks. not ONE day i slept more than 4 hours.

i feel tired just smiling. i feel tired talking. my nose is killing me. i might end up feverish like last time :S and im broke..i dont have proper meals. everyday survive on junk food and cheap snacks/bread. either that or i cook maggi mee at home. the only propermeal is my dinner. which is irrelevant because its e end of the day.

project is 20 weeks. thats an average of 140days without proper sleep. =/ i might end up in hospital before my project even finished :S and talk about 400 days without break.

plus last year..thats 800 days without break! why? because we have no semester break for final year. and to take final year TWICE..thats a different story. the only break i have is the 2 week study break before the final exams.

okay, minus the study breaks every year, assuming its 100 days in total..which is already UNREALISTIC, i still have 700days without break!

thats 60,480,000 seconds of my life wasted on projects and programming!!!

i just feel like a deadman now. and i cant sleep. im lonely, tired, stressed, frustrated, worried and sick. i just feel like hugging someone and cry now.

i cant imagine my 3rd week. what if one day i become so weak and every bone and joint in my skeletal structure collapses and all my bones separate on their own and drop out? :S

Star Throwers

SERVICE

Service was awesome. Its been ages since Ps Tan had the chance to speak. And service was certainly awesome. Even though the PnW was kinda funny, for me at least, cus of the 'modified' praise song..

yes, Run To You is an emerge praise song, but i think they changed it, lyrics and melody. :O i prefer e older one..haha. ask me if u want, i have the emerge version :P

message was about making a difference and being a star thrower! even though its just one person, one person is still a difference. i remembered what God said, never despise the days of small beginnings.

i rem what ps said, in 1995 all it took was a group of 1500, who heard and internalised the message on making a difference to start forth a revival that resulted in more than 23000 members.

right now, as part of the 'new' 23,000, having heard the message on making a difference, what are you gonna do about it? its one thing to love God, its one thing to love people, its one thing to believe, but its another thing to COMMIT to and ACT on it!

many people want to believe, many people want to love, but the moment you mention commitment, sacrifice, responsibility, accountability and discipleship, they back off, they fall out. and that separates believer from disciple, the immature from the mature!

what good is it, if you can prophesy, you can perform signs and wonders, but yet without love, you are still NOTHING!

either you're hot or you'e cold. dont be lukewarm. God rather you worship and serve Him with ALL your heart, soul and strength...or not serve Him at all.

Ps always says:

If He is not your Lord of all, He is not your Lord at all.

Many people recognise Jesus as Saviour, "save me from my family, save me from my friends, save me from my poverty and sickness.." but they never make Him their LORD! but not here. CHC is not a place for believers, in a way..CHC is a place for true DISCIPLES! people who take up their cross daily and follow Him!

Its not a place for the shallow, its not a place for the superficial and nominal.

An interesting incident happened to me during towards e end of the sermon..

Before the offering even started..already during praise and worship, God was already prompting me.."Andrew, how much do you trust me? You did great last week, are you gonna do it again this week?"

And immediately after God said that to me, Ps said, "God is asking today..'How much do you love Me? How much do you love Me?'

and i will always remember the scene during easter drama..the scene when Jesus asked Peter 3 times, "Peter, do you love me?" And He asked again and again.

And i remembered i sat there, almost tearing and i said, "God, I love You..God let me decrease and let You increase.."

but there was a turn of events. When the offering message was preached, i began to look at my circumstances, i thought, God, I wanna do this, i wanna do that, God i think i just give my small note itll be enough..afterall, God ull understand..besides, i have given both my tithe and offering at the same time..

at first i felt the peace of God..so i thought maybe it was okay and God understood..but..deep down, I really wanted to give that big note, but it meant so much to me.

But i made the decision, God, even though You say, dont need/its okay..i will still give to You because I love You and i will show my extent of love with my measure of sacrifice.

and God's presence overwhelmed me to tears. And God kept on saying, "Andrew, its okay, you dont have to give me so much.." but i knew, deep down, i loved God more than life itself. and i took that step of faith and stepped out of my comfort zone.

And i felt God smile.

It takes love to obey God, but it takes PASSION to go the extra mile!

If your giving doesnt touch your heart, it will never touch God's heart. and cg offering message was revelational to me also..adam said and ps also said before, an offering is still an offer, God can decide whether to accept it or reject it.

and i told myself, every week, when I give to God, i want every offering to touch my heart. every week, let every offering be an opportuity to give my precious.

and God began to encourage me, cus i thought, God, if i give so much to You now, how am i gonna give a decent amt for the building fund?

and God said, dont worry about the building fund. its not about how much you give, its about the attitude in which you give, even though the amount ure giving might be small..even though its unequal amount, its equal sacrifice!

and i was so touched and encouraged.

BEFORE SERVICE

before svc was quite interesting..queued beside wyelin the androne-stabber LOL. keep on stabbing my side and my shoulders (from ALL directions! lol) wyelin, if i make a video outside my house definitely cannot have you lol..ull make me look so unglam and clowny..boohoo lol :S

*turn left, turn right..turns behind..then kena laughed by her cgm. T_T waaaah. THANKS! lol =/

met QY said hi and chatted awhile..then met thad outside hall 8 to get my iced milo..haha. chatted awhile with thad and adam then went back in.

yea..has some mini craps session with cassariel LOL. she and her trademark "*flings eyelashes" haha. oh ya, i know this post is a bit long. but i like long posts. haha. if ur God is real, if you really love God, then your life wont be boring, you'll have many exciting adventures with God..both in e natural, as well as in e supernatural!

If someone is your lover, you'll naturally have lots of things to talk about the person. and ull want to boast about how great God is in your life! =)

AFTER SERVICE

before i start on this part, i learnt a new term from 'round-round' aka TYR haa. He was talking to me about WAR (Wayne, Adam, Rhonda) haha..but i prefer to call our 3 cgs combined, RAW..WAR just doesnt sound right haha.

So yea..had fellowship with RAW after dinner lol. (W460, E420, E406). ate at singpost food court in e basement. actually the food there is not bad, the ambience is really good to chill out, and theres hardly anyone also..great place to fellowship, have dinner and to chill around hearing 'militant songs' and cold jokes. haha.

and also, hearing thad sabo adam, jianhao sabo rhonda, then adam i think buay tahan then end up sabo wayne hahaha! oh yes..man..esther's tie is really eye-catching O.O lol

took train back with pam, joyce, rhon, bro, thad, emma and desmond. did some funny things like grabbing *'pamela' and then hitting each other's hands while grabbing the *'pole'. haha. ok, i think she's gonna kill me LOL. =/

at boonlay stn bumed into stella, she had to wait for sis to call in about 15-30 minutes time. and so..she had nowhere to go for e time being, so i did something i have never done before! its like almost midnight. and it was a really strange night haha

i accompanied her to the exercise park downstairs my block..sat on a bench and started talking, sharing and catching up with life and celgrp, until her sis came to pick her up.

but u might say, its good i did that and looked after her what..so whats so strange about it? well..simply put..ive never stayed up with a girl so late and to sit alone in a park and chat. :$ yea..guess theres always a first time for everything lol..i was something new to me haha.

thats what makes walking with God exciting. haha. but yea..thank God, its okay to have such experiences, with fellow brothers and sisters and furthermore, i knew her since evan's cg days. so yea..we're both 'safe' haha.

if it were someone else, i wouldnt have known what happen haha. but i know i did the right thing. im serving later and have to wake up at 430am reach expo by 645am. i couldve gone up to sleep and let her wait for her sis alone..but i didnt. i took initiative, i took responsibility.

okay, i must say something

during dinner i admit i was feeling a little down. i began to remember that my entire week's allowance is no longer with me, and i started feeling emotional heartpain :S and i started having thoughts like:

who would go out/fellowship with someone like me, who's always giving and sacrificing so much. next time, what if i go on a date/celgrp dinner, and in that same week, God asked me to give my precious..then would I lose face? will people leave me?

even if it happens, i told myself, people will leave, but God, i will still follow you, i will love you even more, i will serve you even more, good times or bad times, You are the God of my forever!

CG @ The Upper Room

Getting to christine's mansion is like..!!O.O!! the path inside is so ulu and got trees everywhere like some jungle trekking like that..haha then along e way got those empty an broken down multistorey shophouses and private houses like those u see on TV and those 'ghost' shows like that..lol

that place is called tanglin hill btw. haha. next to tanglin park. even christine's house from the outside, looked like some haunted mansion..but inside it looked damn grand. its e biggest house ive ever stepped into!

7 bathrooms, one billard and video games room and one tabletennis room! gosh! i havent even explored e house finish lol. and i think i saw 2 kitchens o.o and its 3 storeys and has a pool as well. like adam said, if u have a party at home, its good but when ure alone at home in such a big house its different haha.

the reason why the place we had our cg is called e upper room, is because its basically what it is! lol. its the UPPER room. literally. haha. the amazing thing happened during practice.

i was practicing with adam the songs. and when i started plucking You Are Deserving..first time, the presence of God came so strong, and His glory was upon that place, just like the upper room. it felt so heavy i could hardly lift my head and i started crying like nobody's business...it just kept on flowing..it flowed so much i started sobbing and sniffing..

because it just wouldnt stop. its been awhile that i felt like that. i think adam felt it too. and it was just amazing. to have an encounter just practicing alone is enough to revive the cg meeting that was gonna happen later on..

and cg was indeed a blast. right from the games. its been like AGES since we played current game. i think e last time we played, or at least i can remember was during e110/w318 days with evan lol.

even tho we ended up singing only one praise and one worship, God showed up during the prayer meeting. it really felt like e upper room..and to think names arent important..there is a difference between knowing a name, and not knowing a name.

and yea..i came up with that name lol. adam was like asking me..what shall we call this place, or this special celgrp meeting? then during practice, because of my encounter, i decided to call that place e upper room. haha.

christine's a good cook! yep. trish too, even though you 'baptized' me O_O lol. service later! woosh! sunday serving, call time is 645am due to drama pract. WHAAAT! lol.


Dont let serving God become a routine. Always expect the impossible.

Small Blessing, Zee-Monster

oh yes..i forgotten to blog about one thing. haha. remember there was a time i was looking all over e place for sims2? lol..yesterday i managed to find it..with someone who's right beside me..lol..yes..i was practising with rhonda in her room then i looked up the shelf above the PC. and lo and behold..and original sims2 box! hahaha

and to think i searched all over the place for it O_O. anyway, im really thankful to God yesterday also. cus im broke, and im literally surviving on loose change, aka coins..and i didnt have money to buy a decent meal..and so i just bought some 50cent tidbits and drinks from the vending machine..

then i was so happy! a 50cent coin dropped from the machine! woohoo! which means one free tidbit for me! hahaha. then as i was praying and thanking God, He suddenly gave a thought in my mind.

how can someone like me, rejoice over 50cents, and people out there dont even appreciate the 5-10 bucks they get everyday. then God began to remind me of keeping a child-like faith. when u were kids, ur parents would give one dollar the first day u were in school..and u were so happy..

where have all the simplicity of heart, the attitude of gratitude and the child-like faith and excitement gone to?

suddenly i remembered what ps kong said during one of his manhood messages online:

he said,

People perish, not because of what they did wrong, but because of what they failed to do right.

i woke up this morning..i was dead tired. my eyes hurt..and i had no more energy left to move myself. and i skipped breakfast =/ i just feel like a deadman now..=

CG @ Rhonda's

it was quite good. presence of God came e moment we sang.."I want to sing"..haha. it was more of a prayer meeting. it was very nice of rhon & JH to get me the ice blend coffee haha. thanks guys. love ya.

i realised by giving a word and encouraging other ppl..even tho its not my cg..but still i obeyed. and even tho the word was for e cg, and confirmed by esther, it came back to me and i myself got ministered.

after cg, hanged around for awhile and fellowshipped. after that went to the void deck and had pizza. lol. thanks JS. we had 4..hawaiian, smoked salmon, teriyaki chicken and some beef thingy. haha. it was nice. felt like chalet lol.

on e way home..nat and wendy went high lol. then nat was like physically abusing me with her 'longman' book hahahahaa!!! partly because of yours truly, haha..i went high too and starting lameing and crapping =x oops :P

later tonite..cg @ christine's. oh man..im so tired i cant even keep my eyes open. have to submit TOR with gantt chart by e end of this week. next week submit requirements gathering/analysis and at least 2 diagrams. =x i hope i dont "sleep-play" tonight =/

No mood! HELPPPP!!!

Damn..i was late today. the sch system's login feature for IHP is disabled after a certain time. and as a result, im considered absent. WTH. =.=

totally ruin my day..what am i in school for now? no point =/ totally lost my mood to do. finally submitted my TOR..then i was replied with 'ways to improve'. sheet man..

it was supposed to be submitted last week. i did, got back on monday..ask me improve. (can understand, format criteria not met). then submit again...and got back today, ask me improve (this one i dont understand, format criteria met, but he say not enough substance) =/

graaaah i dont mind doing AGAIN. but look at the friggin time constraint!!!! this is one WHOLE system. NOT EVEN A HOMEPAGE! its a DYNAMIC PAGE with a database and a server. and im doing everything ALOONE!!!

ALOOONE!!! i hate that word! not only am i doing this stupid project ALONE, i AM alone!!! look left, look right..everyday less and less people. ^.O

im damn tired. IVE NEVER HAD A DECENT SLEEP SINCE LAST WEEK..in fact, since IHP started. why on earth did i take up this project in e first place. its not as if im gonna be paid! T_T

everybody working..got colleagues to talk to!
everybody schooling..got friends to talk to!
everybody holidaying..got ANYONE to talk to!
me? doing stupid IHP. nobody to talk to!
2 weeks already and i cant take it anymore!

i think im gonna end up at woodbridge before my project is over..sooo depressing! wasting my time! how can i sleep early if im so stressed..i dont think u know i have insomnia right? i cant seem to sleep before 12, and even if i do..ill wake up all of a sudden at 1-2plus O_O

everyday wake up at 645am..then most of e time i wake up late, then end up skipping breakfast. sigh..tmr cg @ christine's. i dunno if ill have enough time to practice. last week i was dozing off even while practicing..

during praise n worship i was half "sleep-playing" O_O. during worship, i play, then i close my eyes..then i doze off for a second =/ yea u must be thinking, 'how is it even possible?'. with ICT (infocomm technology), ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! even with projects, all things are possible! im blabberish rubbing..*erm i meant im blabbering rubbish

i hope i dont sleep-play again tmr :S

The church at home

Was having quiet time just now..i took my guitar, i can still remember that feeling last week. i hated myself..i told myself ill never touch guitar again. but as i sat on my bed..

i decided to put aside every distraction..even the lights. and yes, my room was dark. quiet and i was alone. and there i played and worshipped God with songs that just come out of my mouth at an instant.

and im not a good singer..and i was physically and emotionally drained. i couldnt play e guitar well also cause im sooo physically weak and drained... but i just sat there..in e dark..closed my eyes and worshipped. and the presence of God saturated my entire room.

and on e spot i remembered what i learnt in GOTP..that when e presence of God comes into your room, it becomes the holy of holies. and i just cried buckets as the presence of God touched me deeply and as i began singing love songs to God..

and man..i sang like a hopeless romantic..haha..not because of who i am but because of who He is. i looked at all the wonderful things He has created and im sooooo small compared to everything in the world..but He died for someone like me, He died for someone like you.

thats why sometimes...when im tired, stressed and drained..whenever i enter my room..it just feels different. because i know my room was saturated with e presence of God the night before. tts why when ppl come in my room and lay on my bed they can fall asleep peacefully hahaha.

because every fibre of my room..from my walls, to my bed..to my comp and chairs and pillows..have been soaked in e presence of God. and well..for my bolster, its definitely soaked with the tears of an imperfect person, serving a perfect God! soaked in the tears of a person that said, "God i am nothing..take all of me, in exchange for all of You.."

cg @ rhonda's later tonight. im shagged and tired. havent slept well for 2 weeks already. and gotta rush project AND modules. but God will show Himself strong!

finally i can get to talk to someone later tonight!!!! Gosh i think i forgotten how i sounded like O_O.

Random

A robber grabs a victim and says, "MONEY OR YOUR LIFE!?!"
Victim responds, "Your life."

What is tall, dark and handsome?
An illusion.

How many fingers do I have?
..."fingers"...the answer is: 1.

What do you call a girl who indulges on Polar/Old Chang Kee?
A powerPUFF girl.

If a guy with eyebags is called a panda, what do you call a girl with eyebags?
HANDBAGS!

Why does suntec office have 5 towers?
Because the sun is a star and a star has 5 edges.

Okay, i cant take it anymore, i think im going nuts. School connection is screwing me. and the radio is lagging!!! noooo..lol = i think its MSN..cus other sites can go ~.O hmm..

Mental

before i start with this post..i was chatting with my ex ROSE-pal haha. she's playing ROSE again..but another private server. she was telling me.."andrew, im very bored..i miss you..i want you to play with me"

i was like.."awww.." haha and she went.."i dont wanna sleep alone.." i was like.."!!O.O!!" hahaha..funny sia. its not like we met in person before. she's not even from singapore haha..she stays in KL. so i thought..man..thats e first time a girl actually tells me "i miss you..i dont wanna sleep alone." haha..stunned..but..

theres always a first time for everything right? haha. okay, its not e first time some girl told me she missed me..those words are powerful..when ure at ur lowest point hearing those words just makes you feel important and valued..and loved, that you actually matter to someone.

i think im gonna go mental soon. this loneliness is depressing. for 2 weeks now..i sit at my desk staring at the screen and stoned. nobody to talk to.

the only ppl i talk to everyday is my parents when i come home..and the stall vendor when i order food. =/ those in school have people to talk to..those working have people to talk to.

here i look around..there's hardly even anyone. everyday its like that. not even an sms or a call from any soul, not that i expect anyone to sms/call, u dont really need to. just now when i was at the canteen..

i was having my brunch..and i was very hungry. i ordered chicken cutlet meal. i sat there. ate the chicken and stoned. everything seemed tasteless to me..i think im losing my appetite. not those whereby you dont feel like eating..

losing appetite as in those psychological problems that kind. i was sitting there..i wanted to just close my eyes forever...i looked around..everyone in a table of at least 3-4, and here i am..eating alone everyday..

now im back at my workdesk..and again. im alone. before brunch, im alone. when i wake up, im alone. even when i sleep, i sleep alone. im scared i might suffer from anti-socialism again..im scared i will become the andrew again that doesnt like to talk to anyone..

in fact..i think im already at that state. i feel uncomfortable talking to people..i feel uncomfortable around people. it feels claustrophobic. people talk to me..i wont answer. its as if im locked up. im not talking abt msn/sms..im talking about in real life..

wasted 3 dollars on food that i didnt finish. you might think 3 dollars is nothing..that 3 bucks are from my coinbox at home where i keep my change coins. i literally have nothing to spend on..just losing one dollar is enough to drive me to depression..okay, mebbe not that bad..but u get e idea.

i wonder how some people can spend 5-10 bucks and not feel a thing..here i am..one dollar wasted and im already feeling depressed. mebbe its becos i know every cent belongs to God and anything that belongs to Him means a lot to me.

How much does God mean to you?

Do you take everything you have for granted?

Do you take the people you have for granted?

How much do you think of Him?

I think of Him all the time..even when im in e toilet.

Only when you've come to the end of yourself, then you'll realise that God is all you need.

oh ya..i heard this week's svc will have a short drama..haha

Overloading module, Project, Template

I just realised something..i forgotten to add my archives into my menu. Looks like ill be working on my template more..i dont know..im thinking of redo-ing the entire thing lol.

Whats worse than doing a 20-week final year project? Taking a module at the same time. =/ Yes..i was informed last minute of my overloading module.

Went for the first lecture today..its called Quantitative Logistics Analysis..and it emphasizes mainly on Operations Management. Cheem stuff..and i saw the module description, "School of Engineering"..O_O Win aldr..lol.

Thank God there's no assignment for this module..only e-learning case study. It certainly feels weird to be sitting in the room and everyone knows each other except you.

Projects..projects..and more schoolwork..

Bored

I found this on timo's blog and I found it interesting:

There will always be the 5000 who just want to be fed.
And the 70 who just want to work for you.
And 12 who just want to serve you.
And 3 who just want to linger in your presence.
And only 1 who wants to know you personally.

What kind of friend are you? Who are your friends?

If you want to know how your future will look like,
Just look at your friends.
You become the people you associate with.

Take ownership, take responsbility of your own life.
If you dont guard it, you will lose it.

School

school started. and my eyes are ending LOL.

man..what am i saying? O_O actually, i dont really know too..

just now on e train i couldnt stop thinking about the 'million @ 30" thought..

i might consider sticking 'million @ 30' post-its on my desk, in my room and everywhere i go..to remind me of the goal i am pursuing. it might not come to pass..but at least its something that drives me..something that keeps me going. but i know God always does more than what i can even think..

He never fails to exceed my expectations haha..in fact, God always exceeds reality.

man..the people a few rows in front of my desk are gathered doing a project and their supervisor is there helping them..GROUP WORK eh? O_O and here i am..alone..doing something from scratch. God, i trust You to be sane..asking me to do such a project..im sure You will somehow make a way for me :x

checkpoint 1 in 3 more weeks. my supervisor asked me to improve and add more stuffs to my TOR. okay then. my mu just bought home Mr Bean Holiday haha..yeah..im gonna put into my comp and watch tmr lol.

speaking of tmr..stupid slacker teachers..i tried contacting them abt my overloading module..none of them replied me and i cant get them O_O i better submit my edocumentation AGAIN and my medical appointment AGAIN..

if not fine of $10000 and/or jail. what the. corrupted mindef O_O. ask people to submit, go for medical exam..then tell them invalid ask them take again. if i had one million, i wouldnt tolerate such nonsense.

i would just ignore them and pay 10k. i cant be bothered with people who cant be bothered.

Service, Offering, Reality, Project

Was at service earlier this morning, together with timo and liz. and it was great. we sang a diff second worship song today..One Life, One Love.

the message was a BIT different. ps kong improved on it. even tho its e same message i received a different revelation today.

halfway during e sermon..God spoke something to me. and i cant help but to tear after i heard it. God ask me one simple question: How desperate are you? How far will you go?

after the sermon..when the offering came..i put in that one note i had. i meant alot to me. even before the offering, even before the sermon ended..i already had tears in my eyes..because of what i was about to do..

that note i had..was my entire week's allowance. i just got it the night before. i sat there..and i held the offering envelop with tears in my eyes..

"God, i dont know how im gonna survive this week, God i dont know how im gonna give offering for this wk's celgrp..God i dont know how im gonna fellowship with my cg..but God..with all I am, i will worship You..with all I am, i will serve You, with all I am, I will follow You..all the days of my life..God, I love You, do a miracle in my life..not my will but Yours be done..let Your kingdom come, Your will be done in my life, through my life..

God im not perfect, God i dont have much, but what i have, with ALL..with ALL..with ALL I am..i give to You.."

when e offering bucket was being passed..my offering envelop was already wet with my tears.."God, many times Ive let You down, many times I feel that im not good enough, i feel as if Ive failed You..but deep down, I just wanna be where You are..this offering..represents my life.."

i cried and i cried..because i literally have nothing left for this week..my heart is filled but my pockets are empty..but there is one motivation, one cause thats greater than my reality..

reality says it cannot be done..but at the back of the envelop was one thing written:

To have SG$1,000,000 by the age of 30.

im already 20. im not getting any younger..every 45 seconds a new millionaire is raised. why cant it be me? why cant it be you? God, who am I? that you've placed eternity in my heart?

God..i long for the day i give You a 4-figure for my AnB..God, i long for the day i can give a tithe of $100,000. God, i long for the day where i can bless people with cars and houses! God, i long for the day..where i can give so much..that Singapore will have NO MORE tissue sellers! God, i long for the day..where my family can be blessed.

I long for the day where my future children will have the best in their life..just as how You have given me Your best. God i wanna give my best..it may not be much..but take it, use it, multiply it..God, not once have i ever thought of spending money for myself..not once have i thought of buying stuffs for myself..

even though i desire them deep down..but i know i couldnt bring myself to do it..because there are people out there who are in lack. people out there i can bless..people out there i can give!

there are hungry people in the world NOT because of the lack of food. but because of corruption and mismanagement of food!

People are poor out there..NOT because of the lack of money..but because of others who are corrupted, because of people WASTING their money away..because people who FAIL to manage their finances..people who FAIL to prioritise..people who FAIL to put Your Kingdom first..people with a poverty mindset! People who are outright SELFISH..

God..i dont care what reality says..im believing You for my breakthrough, i long for the day i can give 100 bucks to every tissue seller in singapore!

im blogging it down..because i want my dream to become my vision. that when the day comes, i can look back and say, God has done it for me, He can do it again!

Reality is nothing more than a LIMITER in your life!

Stop walking in the natural and start walking in the SUPERNATURAL! Stop walking in the realm of limits and start penetrating the realm of the IMPOSSIBLE! Dont hold on to your circumstances..they come and they go.

God says either you are hot for me or cold towards me. if u wanna do something for God, do with all your heart, soul and strength, if not dont do at all!

if Jesus is not your lord of all, He is not your lord at all!

just now i received a card from the cg..tim told me it was done by pam..and i must say i liked it. not because it has won the most artistic award or what..but because people like her bothered to do something with what she has..

i just realised that recently she's done many cards for many of the cg members..so much that i thought adam started a "Card/Greeting IC". but i know thats not so..people take initiative and effort and i appreciate everyone of them.

if you would come into my room..ull see all the cards and letters ive received in my 4 years in church..are all on my mini-board in my room. and i looked at the card timo passed me and i really wanna thank everyone! esp to pam..for taking time and effort off to be there for your members..to do something when no one else did.

somehow as i looked at the design carefully..suddenly something hit me! i just feel, right now..the season for me..is not just to be a guitarist..thats good..but i just feel God is doing something new. there's something about this project thats gonna happen..

afterall..if you recalled how i got this project..it was spoken to me by God...through my friends...and even through my circumstances. the voice of God was so loud and clear if i were to look at the sky, the clouds would say, "Go for it".

i dont know how im gonna do it. i dont know who to turn to..but God is doing a work in my life. i looked at the card one more time..it was a picture of a cute computer keyboard. and the characters, A, N, D, R, E, W were shaded or 'emphasized'..

and God just hinted me..just as how my name is emphasized on that card..one day, people will look at 'the keyboard', they will look at information technology, and just like the card..they will see Andrew, in BOLD, loud and clear!

even though that thought passed me in a slit second..it hit me prophetically. God is indeed preparing me for my first million. even if it doesnt come to pass..the journey is definitely worth it..because i move with God! and i was obedient! i fought the good fight of faith!

but i know..with God, all things are possible..and im praying to God..that one day..that millionaire anointing will pass on to my future wife and kids too :)

im still feeling a little heartpain after today's offering..and im physically tired..but im excited to see what God has installed for me this week.

Service/Ministry

service was good today. sang some old songs..haha..everytime they sing old song its feels like iim back in jurong west days..haha..those were exciting days..

was helpin PL to replace her for ministry today..then i think something happened and they reshuffled e manpower. so i ended up doing internal speakers. during praise and worship..as i was walking around doing my checks..

i saw this guy in wheel chair..it didnt look like a wheelchair..more of a mini mobile stretcher..his leg was stretched out horizontally..and he was lifting up his hands..when i saw that i couldnt help but cry..as the people sang..You are my freedom, Jesus ure the reason...

as i stood at e back of the terrace..i noticed when it was empty at e back..during praise..the entire terrace was shaking back and forth!!! haha..i was stunned..i looked at the lights..they were shaking!!! and i was trying to balance myself! lol!

the word was good..but i didnt felt i caught e whole thing..so im goin service again later haha. after yest's service..was supposed to help PL do her FYP survey on hardcore gamers before BS, after svc. but my debrief ended quite late so she was already in BS.

i told myself..i gave my word and i will keep my word. so i waited until her BS ended and took e survey..98 questions hahaha i think!!! i wasnt prepared but i gave it a shot..her BS ended at around 940pm the survey ended at shortly after 10! haha. it was like an interview cum survey..i was telling Joyce and she was like..'wah..you must have a lot of patience huh?"

yeah. haha. i didnt realise myself too. haha. after that met pam..and CG @ expo. NEVER buy drinks from vending machines in expo! yessss lol. the price can kill x_x and its not worth it at all :x

before that walked PL to e bus stop. chatted along e way. and i was so paiseh..because of 2 ppl shouting "SEXY EYELASHES!!!!" GOSH...my fanclub? LOL..and they were like..slapping themselves in UNISON! ~.O

haha..poor cass slapped herself so hard :PP hahaha.

i think the whole usher ministry is gonna recognise me :$

and oh..video 7 is out LOL. "Tongue Twister" ._.