Wrong day, Encounter, Song

RANTS

Today was so screwed for me. Not only did i woke up late. i missed the attendance for IHP AGAIN, and i missed the QLA lecture! omg. for my IHP, at least i informed my supervisor, told him im present, not absent. as for the lecture..i was going through the slides, hoping to catch up.

to my horror of horrors, the slides got blanks!!!! yeah! lecture notes got blanks! as in ____ u know? blanks! put there deliberately. what in the world is going on in your head man! im trying my best to study and the module leader is trying his best to make me fail but leaving behind stupid blanks for me to guess. O_O

and guess what..there's no MAKE UP LECTURE! no such thing! you have make up service, but no make up lecture! i miss the explanation never mind..i was hoping at least i still had the notes to refer to..but this totally sucks. imagine the bible..every verse had blanks for you to fill in..and imagine ure a new believer, reading it for the first time..HELLO??

okay, lets talk about something more down to earth. lets assume, you are getting married. the pastor reads the covenant.."...till ____ do us part". then youll be like..till what pastor? "let me repeat..till ___ do us part.."

"what pastor? what is it?"
"ive read it, cant you hear it?"
"no we cant."
"too bad.."

you agree, say 'i do' and you are now happily married and ure in a celebrative mood. and next thing you realise..that blank was 'happiness'. "till happiness do us part".

"oh erm..sorry Mr Tan and Mrs Tan.." im afraid you have to divorce right now..because as of this moment..your covenant is no longer valid."
"WHAAT!?! WLETMDKNNBCCBNNHEKPKBBBBBSBSBKNNBKSMLJ!!!! &*#&@(#@!!"

yeah!!!!!! TAKE THAT YOU GOON!!! thats how stupid education is. im gonna take over MOE man! i may not do a better job..but at least i can do a SMARTER and more DECENT one! graaah so angry!!!

ENCOUNTER

okay, back to blogging. lol.

today's been very tiring and stressing for me, emotionally. because of all these nonsense that happened. just needed to let it all out. cus ya..i have no one physically to talk to. just thinking of Brkaway Camp makes me feel even more far away..

next year before march, who knows..they might plan another outreach during the march holidays and guess what..ill still be in school programming all day, all alone while people are laughing and having fun..

everyone will have their exciting memories. as for me..i dont have any memories of L-O-L, breakaway is gonna be the same. the only memories i will have are those of my storyboards and ASP.NET.

people tell me, ehh i met so many new friends. and ill be like..yeah, toshiba tecra is my friend. O_O esp when they start sharing..laughing..taking photos..doing cheers and dances, and ill be like..its okay, 2 years in army soon..ill be 'gone' for at least a year or so..until it becomes more relaxed in the second year u know..blahblahblah..

and when im in army, guess what..they're gonna have even more outreaches. people get to work to earn money for building fund, people get to meet more friends, people get to have exciting memories of their youth..im sorry i dont have any of that..:(

i was feeling so down, that just now as i was walking home..i decided to get an ice-cream from those roadside motorbike sellers. i love the old fashioned taste. reminds me of how i was young, i used to buy ice cream whenever the icecream man comes in his bike, at my grandma's house.

as i was walking home with the icecream in my mouth and in my hands..i heard a soft voice in my head, "mmm this ice-cream is nice..". and at first i thought it was me, my own conscience and emotion telling me, yummy, this ice cream is nice..

but after awhile i realised, it was the Holy Spirit, God Himself. so i was like..'yeah..it is..'

'why dont you try the chocolate ice-cream? its nice too.'
'erm..its okay, i dont feel like eating chocolate..this is enough for me..'
'noo, noo, you should try..next time you try the chocolate okay?'
'erm..okay..'
'ull be amazed at what chocolate can do for you..'

and i started pondering..what did He meant when He said that..is it a trick question? lol. i really wanna thank God for being there for me when im down. He never fails to cheer me up. which is why i chose this song..its a really old song. but im so in love with it. in love with God.

SONG

Lenny LeBlanc - Above All

Above all powers
Above all kings
Above all nature
And all created things

Above all wisdom
And all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

Above all kingdoms
Above all thrones
Above all wonders
The world has ever known

Above all wealth
And treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what You're worth

Crucified, laid behind the stone
You lived to die, rejected and alone
Like a rose, trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all