'Ginosko' - Knowing by experience! It's about having an experiential relationship!

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Introducing Mr Potatohead

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Saturday, July 11, 2009

Revelation!

"You will never be happy, until you become happy".

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Friday, July 10, 2009

Do you love enough to cost you something?

What Im about to post here, might shock a lot of you, especially those who have grown up with me since my younger days.

But for the first time, Im going to miss final service, for Dr AR Bernard. :(

Yes, you heard me right. And its over what? Some jamming session. o.o

Sounds ridiculously immature? Yes.
Sounds wrongly prioritized? Yes.
Sounds like a new friend? Yes.

But God said, go ahead and do it.

Very "ZOMG" right?
Well, let me explain.

Lets just say I literally broke down in tears, when I heard it.

First as an advice from my cgl, to go ahead, since I already made a promise, secondly, as a double confirmation during my moment with God just now. He double confirmed it and He explained why.

Yes, Adam is right, in the first place, shouldnt people be hungry for the word of God? Both he and I am surprised that my bro's cg, no one believes in multiple services, in fact, NO ONE is going. To an extent, its true. It just shows their spiritual hunger, maturity and commitment level. It also shows a wrong priority and a lack of insight? Yes.

And to think I grew up being discipled, back in the days of JW, I go for all 6 services whenever ANY guest speaker is coming, and as far as I remembered, I always went alone, cus no one else would want to? Hahaha. I can still laugh about it till this day. But I enjoyed those days a lot.

At one time, being laid hands upon for 3 different services, 3 different altar calls, by the same speaker, Rev Dr Ulf Ekman. It was great, 3 different impartations all in the same weekend. You wanna talk about double portion, that weekend I had a triple portion.

However, God being God...He has His ways.

It was kind of a last minute adjustment, a foolish decision on my part I must say, must be because Im too tired to remember that this week is Dr AR Bernard.. O_O And so, I made a decision to commit to people's lives, in this case, the jamming session.

Was I heartbroken? Yes.

Acting upon my cgl's advice, I went to ask for their permission. Yes, these are my 'juniors' yet I still humbled myself and asked for their permission. But knowing them, they said its very hard, blablabla, so on. To me, I was a no nonsense guy. If you know me, I really cant stand people who arent serious with God, plain honest. They can sacrifice God for something, instead of the other way round.

Yet...when I sought God, how strange His response was!

Now..the question is, why do it?

I prayed, no answer.
I read the word, no answer.

Until when I came to the end of myself and my mind turned blank, God spoke in a still small voice. "Just do it. It doesnt matter no one knows, I am sending you, just do it."

Thats revelation. Man does not live on bread (logos - written word) alone, but on every word (rhema - the spoken word) that proceeds from the mouth of God. It comes from the Holy Spirit, God Himself, not just from pastors or preachers.

Sounds absurd right, that the God you love is asking you to leave His presence, His place of anointing and fellowship...but of course, for something greater. And God knows if He reveals everything to you, you wont be able to take it.

When one loves God so much to such an extent, even if He asks something like this of me, I would still do it. But not without much pain and pressure...tremendous stress.

Like people always know me for my 'perfect attendance', yes, apart from BMT confinement, I have never missed a single service, PM, or cg meeting for 6 years. Even if I missed cg, I would always go for make up. "Absent" doesnt exist in my dictionary. Commitment is a conviction, not a preference.

A conviction is something that wont take no for an answer. A conviction is something that, if you have to die to live it out,
You would gladly do it. A conviction leaves no option or choice, to say no.
To you, going against your conviction is as good as sin.

Thats how strong my conviction was, no exam, no birthday, no gathering could stop me from being committed. To me, Id rather sacrifice all my friendships and relationships, just to be where God is, He is not just my first, He is my only. Any friendships that took my time with God away from me, I would rather abandon that relationship than to compromise.

In this situation, I couldve easily done it. Haha, but for some reason, God chose otherwise, for the FIRST TIME.

Now that Im going to do something drastic like this, what are people gonna say? What are they gonna think?

Of course, God assured me this and that, and I knew I was doing the right thing and I felt the peace of God. And Im really grateful to Him. Anyway...

Here was what God said to me...

"Yes, I know you love church, you love my presence, you are dependent on Me, you sacrifice a lot..and you wanna come for service, because you really love to. But........

......

But......

......

It is still something you want."

Wow. Period.

That..my friends, is maturity.
That..is what I call, MIND BLOWING, HEART CONVICTING, etc.

I dont know if any of you have come up to this level yet, maybe you're in SOT and you kinda know how it feels like..mission trips? Haha. Or like Sun or Ps Kong, who travel to and fro, to serve, to minister, and to lay down their lives for the kingdom of God.

It totally hit me. I felt I have gone up another level.

I remembered what I learnt in SOS, the leaving of the comfort zone, the story of how God told Abraham to gather his family and pack up, and they moved to another territory.

Its my exact same situation, just that, its not that bad, as to leave my country yet, but the measure of sacrifice is there.

Will you go where God sends you?
Do you love God more than you love His blessings?
Since the day you came to church till now, how much have you grown?
When you say you sacrifice for God, to what extent? To what measure?
Is He your first? Or is He your only?
Is He just your God? Or is He also your Lord?
Even if He is your God, is He your God of all?

Its time to stop thinking about yourself.
Its time to pick yourself up, wake up, and 'level up'.
Heaven and earth will pass away, but His word will never pass away.

Yes, we are all God's children.
But have you come to a place where He treats you as an adult?
Yes, He's our daddy, but children grow up.

God equips you to be independently dependent on Him.
That when the storm rages, and Jesus is asleep.
Why? He's waiting for you to step out, take initiative, take authority and calm the storm!

When He said, you of little faith, did He necessarily mean, "you dont believe ull be alright?"
Or did He mean, "you dont have faith to calm the storm?"

Move from initial love,
Past faltering love, growing love, transforming love,
To mature love.

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Thursday, July 09, 2009

The 3 Levels of Obedience

1. Partial Obedience

Based on a double-minded attitude.

People with this mentality obey because its something good, or they like the idea.
However, they are the ones who become the 'pilots' at the end.
These are the ones with commitment issues, people who just want to be comfortable.

They dont usually last the distance.

Because they are unstable, your relationship with them will be unstable.
So be warned.

2. Genuine Obedience

Being said, people with this mentality are generally nice people. They wouldnt mind doing favors for people they love and cherish. They are genuine and they really mean it.

There are 3 types of Genuine Obedience:

a) Satisfying Genuineness

These people obey, because it benefits them.
There's something good to earn from the experience.
They like the 'feel good' feeling.
They may also do it because it brings great joy to see their friend/leader happy.

b) Fluctuating Genuineness

These people are genuine.
However, they are fickle-minded.

They change their mind pretty quickly based on a different set of interests in their life. They can obey one person for a moment, and then next thing you know, that person is doing something else, for someone else. BUT..he is still GENUINE, yes, but to someone else. There is still an element of genuineness, but that attitude is often questioned.

He is not able to place a priority or make clear judgements and decisions.
And after they are done with their 'secondary task', and having lost focus, they come back to you.
And as previously said, when they do, they are still...GENUINE.

An irony; A controversial attitude.

c) Sacrificial Genuineness

These are the people who arent afraid of losing something.
They are willing to go the extra mile, even if it costs them something.
They are genuine to the max and most of them do it with joy.

Why do I say, "most...of them?"

Because there are people who are sacrificial, and yet put on a long face. Genuinely ingenuine. But yes, they dont mind sacrificing, but for the sake of something or someone. And when asked to do something, they can be sincere, but they get affected by the act of obedience, easily. But still, they go all out for it.

3. Hardcore Obedience

People who are hardcore in obedience, do it, simply because they have nothing else better to do.
They are super genuine, super flexible - adaptive and able to cope with change.
They think of the person whom they are helping all the time.

To these people, obedience is not only genuine, not only sacrificial, but obedience becomes something DEFINITE and UNCONDITIONAL in their lives.

It becomes a part of them.

Unlike the previous 2 types of obedience, this one has no terms and conditions.

Its automatic and very seldom, they will take a 'no' for an answer.
But dont be mistaken, they are not naive nor simpleton, they know what they are doing.
They are fully aware, fully passionate and excited about doing the things they are supposed to do.

A level of maturity.

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Sunday, July 05, 2009

450. Thanks Alvin. (Not the chipmunk :DD)

My new wife. She's heavvvvy man, real hard, real heavy rocker.

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Mini Sports CG, ORD...not now, Rashes!

Had a great mini sports cg/fellowship at liz's place. Thanks girl for making the arrangements, ur place is the best lol. And today's weather was superb-ly awesome! WOOSH.

A week ago, I received an sms.

Its the first one with the words, "ORD" on it. I was so happy! Then the next word, "IPPT"..wah, sian. LOL.

First of all, they inform me 2 weeks before hand, plus the last one week I was down with fever, flu and cough. So 1 week is gone. Now left 1 more week. How to prepare man? O_O And now only when sia? (still got like 11+ months more). O_O You think ORD is the name of your underwear, can use whenever and wherever u like? O_O

1 week to prepare, its like...a wife suddenly coming up to the husband, "Honey, I know your birthday is one month's time, but look what Ive already gotten for you in advance...a bra....." O_O In appropriate action, at an inappropriate time.

Wisdom is doing the right thing at the right time, at the right place with the right people.

This case clearly identifies the abundance of thought and planning but without an ounce of wisdom! Yes, in advance, everything prepared. Thats good. But just the lack of wisdom alone spoils all your efforts. GOOD GAME.

Anyway, was in expo at 11 plus to setup for decentralized services. It was awesome. Manning the whole stage by myself, well, half...cus you still have the front guy haha. But man, I was sweating like mad, to save cost, we only turned on the AC just before doors open. Not even during sound check. =/ I guess thats reasonable, now that our church is on-ing the AC at JW 24/7 lol. SOT, Prayer365, OPM..plusssss....riverwalk, expo, etc etc. Really lots of costs :x

Anyway, served for 2 zones straight. Not bad, got to hear 2 different sermons haha. Both are good man. But really, it was a great experience all in all. Even though there were hickups here and there, its just the beginning and as the first service, Id say everyone did a great job. =)

Btw, I just realised I have sensitive facial skin =((

As I was setting up stage for DC services, and sweating like mad in the hot stuffy hall, I was touching the cables so its no surprise my hands are dirty and dusty, and I remembered I made one silly mistake, that was to wipe my sweat. O____O

Dang, you shouldve seen my face minutes after that. My whole face was red with dark red spots on top of the redness O_O. Yes..rashes. My whole face rashed for over an hour! Until I couldnt take it anymore I went to wash my face with soap.

Even still, after that for an hour plus, my face still had the rash, it wasnt so bad, but now it was burning, itchy, everything you can name it. =/

Haha, Id wish Id found this out earlier though, then I can drop pes like aaron said on my FB HAHAHA. Allergy to dust. O_O So stupid right? But it happened, I also cant say anything. =x

Sigh, next time whoever kiss me better make sure u wash ur lips! LOL!!!!! HAHAHA. Kidding.

But really pls be clean, now then I realise my face is allergic to dust mixed with sweat. Sigh. I thought I was already lame enough, but this made me even more lame. O_O

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Friday, July 03, 2009

Linkin Park - New Divide

I remembered black skies, the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide

There was nothing in sight but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes across this new divide

In every loss, in every lie, in every truth that you'd deny
And each regret and each goodbye was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide
Across this new divide, across this new divide

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Blogger, Love, Happiness

Blogger currently has issued uploading pics. Sadded.

Posted on my twit:

Love is not an emotion, love is a choice.
Happiness is not a state, it is a discipline.

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Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Short Update

Just a short update.

This is my 4th day with my flu and cough. Fever has subsided already though..PTL.

Boohoohoo, poor nosey, throaty me. :( Sniff sniff, sobsob, LOL.

I really said I wanna take mc like 2 days ago. Yesterday I said I wanna take mc today. Guess even when it comes to 'chao-keng'-ing, Im pretty complacent hahaha. Dont know if thats good or bad. Ok la, its not that I dont like doctors, its just that God's healing power is just too real for me already.

All these while when Im sick, it was God who healed me and .. knowing from SOS bible study that each one of us has a guardian angel, Im really thankful, whoever that angel is, whom God has placed over me.

Itll be nice to have a chance to at least shake hands with my guardian angel and thank him/her one day. Scully is some chiobu! If it is, I dont mind being single all my life man! knowing I have a beauty looking after me! HAHAHA!!!! ok kidding O_____O.

Not every angel looks human, in fact, they are a totally different being altogether. Angels do not have the breath of God, while we do.

Very full now..had dinner with pranee opp church. Thanks for the dinner, even though Im like...zombified, sotongey (blurblur), and reaction a bit slow. lol. =x

I think Im not a potato already..now I feel like snail LOL. Okay, snails are eeeky! =/ I shall stick to potato or bear. Nah, bear's too aggressive, ok....

Im...

Still...

A...

P o t a t o . . . w o o t s ! (Blogger doesnt wanna upload my potato pic! :(( ... )

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Monday, June 29, 2009

Wyelin!!!!!! O_O

OMG! Why must your pretty face be everywhere!?!?! AHHHHHHHH...I wanna complain!!!!
I WANNA SUE EUUUUU...

HAHAHAHA.

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