Ministry, Sick
Ministry was fine today. did external speakers. im very tired. ive not had proper sleep for 2 weeks now. last night only slept 2hrs plus then woke up again to go for svc. later gonna sleep and wake up early again..
met pam while serving. and today's drama they changed e script. after svc helped to pack up and then went home. everyone had left and rhonda's cg was in orchard. and i was just too tired to move.
i didnt get to sit much during service either. i was standing almost throughout. by e time svc ended i could no longer have e energy to stand or walk. i was walking left, walking right, and drifting from side to side.
even on the train i was dozing off while standing.
just now in the afternoon, i 'shutdown' for 2hrs plus. woke up..feeling even more tired. now im down with a flu and my eyes hurt. as in, really hurt.
every blink is painful..when i touch my eyes, they hurt. i feel so weak and drained. 2 weeks. not ONE day i slept more than 4 hours.
i feel tired just smiling. i feel tired talking. my nose is killing me. i might end up feverish like last time :S and im broke..i dont have proper meals. everyday survive on junk food and cheap snacks/bread. either that or i cook maggi mee at home. the only propermeal is my dinner. which is irrelevant because its e end of the day.
project is 20 weeks. thats an average of 140days without proper sleep. =/ i might end up in hospital before my project even finished :S and talk about 400 days without break.
plus last year..thats 800 days without break! why? because we have no semester break for final year. and to take final year TWICE..thats a different story. the only break i have is the 2 week study break before the final exams.
okay, minus the study breaks every year, assuming its 100 days in total..which is already UNREALISTIC, i still have 700days without break!
thats 60,480,000 seconds of my life wasted on projects and programming!!!
i just feel like a deadman now. and i cant sleep. im lonely, tired, stressed, frustrated, worried and sick. i just feel like hugging someone and cry now.
i cant imagine my 3rd week. what if one day i become so weak and every bone and joint in my skeletal structure collapses and all my bones separate on their own and drop out? :S
met pam while serving. and today's drama they changed e script. after svc helped to pack up and then went home. everyone had left and rhonda's cg was in orchard. and i was just too tired to move.
i didnt get to sit much during service either. i was standing almost throughout. by e time svc ended i could no longer have e energy to stand or walk. i was walking left, walking right, and drifting from side to side.
even on the train i was dozing off while standing.
just now in the afternoon, i 'shutdown' for 2hrs plus. woke up..feeling even more tired. now im down with a flu and my eyes hurt. as in, really hurt.
every blink is painful..when i touch my eyes, they hurt. i feel so weak and drained. 2 weeks. not ONE day i slept more than 4 hours.
i feel tired just smiling. i feel tired talking. my nose is killing me. i might end up feverish like last time :S and im broke..i dont have proper meals. everyday survive on junk food and cheap snacks/bread. either that or i cook maggi mee at home. the only propermeal is my dinner. which is irrelevant because its e end of the day.
project is 20 weeks. thats an average of 140days without proper sleep. =/ i might end up in hospital before my project even finished :S and talk about 400 days without break.
plus last year..thats 800 days without break! why? because we have no semester break for final year. and to take final year TWICE..thats a different story. the only break i have is the 2 week study break before the final exams.
okay, minus the study breaks every year, assuming its 100 days in total..which is already UNREALISTIC, i still have 700days without break!
thats 60,480,000 seconds of my life wasted on projects and programming!!!
i just feel like a deadman now. and i cant sleep. im lonely, tired, stressed, frustrated, worried and sick. i just feel like hugging someone and cry now.
i cant imagine my 3rd week. what if one day i become so weak and every bone and joint in my skeletal structure collapses and all my bones separate on their own and drop out? :S
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