Pirates!!! Piracy!!! Pirated!!!

No, the words in my title are not coherent and they dont link...yup..

as always...=p

went to watch pirates yesterday with liwen, david, zack and pam. good show. cant wait for pirates III LOL. thanks to pam we waited for e end of e credits to see a nice, cute, 'horny' dog. *applause...x) after e movie, took cab home.

ive lost interest in KO(Msia) already...lol. ive lost interest in games really. tink even if u treat me to 2hrs in a LAN shop ill prob doze off. kenneth supposedly have a new game, a horror FPS cum mystery game, i might be borrowing from him, heard its quite nice.

i only hope it doesnt burn my graphics card :S

well, im home again, while everyone's in sch having fun, meeting people, now its just me and my wife, miss toh shi ba. so romantic right? =x yea, can prob picture all e people i know, outside with friends, hanging out, having meals, joking around together.

and here i am, the only word that ever came out of my mouth since i woke up was a yawn. okay, mebbe MORE yawns then..for over a year now, e only words i say in a day is, yawn, and once in a blue moon, i get to say 'hi' verbally. other than that, my voice box is generally not used at home for the past 365-400days...

yea...shocking but true. i might be moved SLIGHTLY if a volcano were to erupt in front of me, or an earthquake or mebbe a UFO flying across the roof, other than that, its rock climbing in my room, everyday, for 400days...yea.

feels good, its like living in a prison cell. wait, its worse, prison cells you get to talk to the prison warden, or talk to yourself or talk to e wall verbally, even in prison you have prisonmates to talk to...but here, i hardly use my voice box. well, *applause please...:S

Deliverance

Just a brief summary of today's sermon by Mike Connell:

The devil is a theif who has come to steal, to kill and to destroy.
You can see a robber, but a thief is concealed, u cant see him coming until its too late.

Sheep get lost and defenseless -> Thats why we need God, our Shepard. (From CG message: Rod + Staff)

How does Jesus deliver people/destroy e works of e evil one?

Expose -> Speak/Renounce -> Confront

Acts 10:38, Luk 4:18, 33-34

1) We are empowered to bring reconciliation with God (Salvation)
2) We are empowered to heal the broken hearted (Emotional healing)
3) We are empowered to deliver the captives (Spiritual healing/Deliverance)
4) We are empowered to recover the sight of the blind (Restoration of visions and dreams)
5) We are empowered to set to liberty those who are crushed (Physical healing/deliverance)
6) We are empowered to preach the acceptable year of the Lord (Financial restoration)

PS: Those in brackets are summaries only, ps mike preached quite fast so if there are any mistakes let me know :)) Im just recalling :D

1) Demons are spirit beings -> We are spirit beings in a body
2) Demons, as spirit beings, crave bodies
3) Demons move freely from place to place
4) Demons can recognise people, especially people who move greatly in the anointing
5) Demons have a will, a personality, a name

1 cor 4:20, eph 4:26-27

Each time we sin or break the law, we give demons LEGAL ACCESS into our lives!

SPIRITUAL DOORWAYS FOR DEMONS

1) Generational curses/iniquities (Exo 20:1-6)
2) Occult practices (witchcraft, magic, mediums, fortune telling, etc, deut 18:9-12)
3) Idolatry / False religion (1 cor 10)

People think: Hungry Ghost = more problems mean more demons therefore more offerings, but in TRUTH, more offerings mean more happier demons mean more trouble!

Sometimes things happen in our life even though we dont allow it, but we forgot that we gave them LEGAL ACCESS in the first place!

4) Personal habits/sin (Mt 18:34-35)

unforgiveness is a good ground for demons to access your life. once e devil has a grip over your mind, all he has to do is to squeeze a bit and you'll fall into depression/heartaches/emotional problems, etc.... (frm AFV :D)

5) Sexual sin (1 cor 6:13-18)
6) Rejection
7) Abuse

8) Shock / Trauma

Fear is a spirit. Once it enters you, itll long to stay in you! Unless you deal with it.

9) Curses
10) Abortions

Col 2:14-15, mt 27, jhn 1:12
Satan has already been defeated and disarmed. Deliverance is merely to ADMINISTRATE/ENFORCING that defeat, of what Jesus has done on the cross.

HOW TO GET DELIVERED?

1) Repentance (Prov 18:13)
2) Forgiveness (mk 11:25)
3) Be willing to renounce (Ps Kong: e power of confession :D)
4) Rely on God (u can fool people but u cant fool God)

THOUGHTS

service was great. reuben morgan was really anointed, and e songs were great too :D e moment e first worship song hit, i felt e tangible presence of God and tears rolled down my eyes...

then e preaching was awesome as well. e moment mike connell stepped onto e stage, man e atmosphere changed. e atmosphere was thick with e glory and e anointing of God, it felt as if anyone could manifest at anytime, anywhere..lol

but yea, e Holy Spirit doesnt disrupt His own services, so we had a 2 hour ministry session after service for deliverances. it was awesome, i remember as this brother, (thank you brother, ill never forget you..thank you for obeying the Lord, thank you for taking that step of faith! =)), as he laid his hands and prayed for me...

e glory of God came upon me and almost immediately my legs weakened and i fell under e power of God. as i lay there with e brother praying for me constantly, i broke out in weeping i cried like ive never cried before, i was literally crying out loud, every negativity bottled up finally came out...

although during tt process anonther brother's head landed on my hip and another's hand landed across my neck, but i was feeling numbed all over, e glory of God covered me and God gave me e assurance that He was there right with me...

i remember weeping for 10 minutes, and my face was burning hot. even the tears felt like hot water flowing down my face...tt brother prayed for me one last time, gave me a hug and everything was well, i know that ive been 'reformatted'..lol

as usual after deliverance i tend to feel hungry and thirsty, and tired. and my eyes were red...felt weepish for e next hour or so. must have plenty of rest, eat well and drink lots of water...lol like medical checkup :S

well, after svc went to eat at BK at changi airport, BK had never tasted so good lols. managed to catch e last train home...

well, still have my IHP in my face...ive been 'reformatted', we'll see how it goes. i feel like starting all over again, which i felt i shld like AGES AGO lol...

im e kind of person tt doesnt like to try and fix a problem, im e sort who would give it up and start all over and not dwell on it too much...

well, tonight later gonna watch pirates with liwen and e110, haha...tink its gonna be a good show :D Jesus i wanna hug and kiss you all the days of my life!!!! You are my true lover. Even though im dust, but in you i am a diamond!

Ive failed you so many times, yet you remain faithful, because u are a covenant keeping God! you will not break your 'marriage vows' you made with your church. next time in future i will shower my wife with the same faithfulness and love that God has showered upon me!

well, i still got a long way to go. :S next weekend is 17th anniversary and FOP. im serving on sunday night's FOP, arrgh i wanna serve on Friday! im gonna be sooooo lonely...lol *sniff

Rock climbing everyday in my room...

I miss gaming, i miss going to LAN shops. I miss chionging ROSE Online...arrgh.

I need a new hobby. T_T

here's just a list of online games ive played since young:

pri 5-6: Half-life
sec 1-2: CS + DOD
sec 3-4: gunbound + maple
poly 1-2: ROSE Online
poly 3: Knight Online + DotA

apart frm MMOs i play AVP2, CZero, HL2, Op Flashpoint, Simcity 4, Theme Hospital, Simtower/simtown/themepark/etc..., Sims2, WC3+WC3FT, JK2, JK3, CoD, CoDX, CoD2, Utopia/Earth 2025, HL1 mods...

cant rem all, mostly FPS games...

Roseon was my fav games ive played and solely dedicated my interest and passion into (cus u can see i spent 2 years on that game alone...) stupid koreans....*urrgh so mad. pay to play? man, e game's not even completed! T_T my castlegear!!!!!

im bored at home, even KOL is driving me to the mountains...was talking to eric jus now and he also mentioned to me tt he lost interest in games. are we so stressed and busy that we tend to forget even how relaxation, entertainment and fun feels like?

yea, thought so too...been so numbed by life itself that enjoyment doesnt exist in my emotions anymore. i forgot what fun and excitement feels like...

and about my IHP? i dont feel anything for it anymore...

seriously, i dont feel anything for anything/anyone anymore, ive been cut off from fun, from excitement, from enjoyment, from people, from company, from everything but IHP and supervisors!

arrgh can you imagine? ONE WHOLE YEAR, MAYBE MORE THAN THAT NOW.....ONE WHOLE YEAR OF ISOLATION AND WHO-KNOWS-WHAT-YOU-CALL-IT, you can buy me the most expensive computer with hundreds of games, or treat me to a thousand movies...

nothing excites/interests me anymore...T_T

Update update update!

its been awhile folks..no wait, its been REALLY REALLY long since i last updated :S

oh wells..here goes..

marriage enrichment session 1 and 2 was awesome! really learnt a lot...XD and also, ive received bro KC's email on e feedback regarding my song, ive never known that songwriting is something so creative and complicated..

and for bro KC to be able to write songs for ALBUMS, for national competitions...its really the power of God in someone whose heart is totally committed to Him..

he emailed me a very looooong feedback, a lot of things to take into consideration when writing songs, but it was good, constructive and practical :D

was serving on sunday, woke up late, but managed to reach in time. thank God. but i was really really tired, dead tired. sleeping only for 2 hrs ++ and serving till 1plus in e afternoon. then after that went down to marina superbowl for evangelistic outreach.

not bad, e first few games i was really into it, although it was my second time bowling, e first time i bowled was sec1, at the west coast recreational centre, after my LAN games of CS and DOD...i miss those lanshop chionging days...:S

during our 'warmup', i managed to bowl such that my ball came out of the drain twice and hit the pins..lol one frm e left drain, one frm e right drain...but subsequently after the so-called, 'warmup', i was too warmed up already, and i began to doze off...feeling tired..

my muscles amazingly didnt cramp at all, after bowling non-stop for 4 hours. without proper stretching, cus i didnt know i had to last tt long, lol..

we were havin an inter-CG competition and e top 2 members frm e top 3 cgs will compete. andy, our new friend, and me, we got third place, 10 dollar haagen daaz vouchers each. i intended to give it away...oh wells, its still with me..:S

after tt ended around 6 plus, went to makan at long john outside cityhall MRT. falling asleep, i carried myself to the counter, ordered food and ate. surprisingly e food woke me up. after eating we chatted for some time, then we went home.

reached home around 9+pm.

im really tired, and im losing appetite for food and appetite for SLEEP even! yes! i dont feel like sleeping sometimes, or i have dreamless nights...well, i DO have dreamless nights nowadays...:S

i dont know man, i feel tt my life is going in circles right now, the moulder -> the shelf -> the furnace -> back to the moulder.

arrgh when will the masterpiece be completed!?! when will i be unbreakable in the furnace??? and oh and when i thought my IHP was gonna end, guess what..im gonna cross into AUGUST!!!

*Faint, arrgh...

anyways, had guitar lesson with bao just now, guess tt took my mind off certain things. everyday im alone, EVERYDAY! except for CG, svc and guitar, other than that, IM LITERALLY BY MYSELF THE WHOLE DAY! well, i do have my wife with me >.< Miss Toh Shi Ba...

everyday during lunch, i wish i could be out with someone but everyone's in school, im e only clown around thinkin of where to go for lunch while others are havin lunches with their friends/classmates/colleagues.

people have classmates, sad to say at e moment..i DONT. i literally have no one with hang around with. and oh, its been more than 365 days already and i am by myself everyday!!!!

am i gonna suffer frm some social disorder? or a split personality? i dont know, im getting unstable...im unpredictable now. i can change very fast, im like a chameleon, always defensive and changing colors to suit e environment, to protect itself...

well, this wk is reuben morgan and mike connell, its gonna be a great service. and next wk is FOP and our church anniversary.

i kinda feel uncomfortable everytime we have FOP, people from other churches eating snacks during FOP PnW or preaching, people moving around, handphone noises, people dozing off, lousy body postures, no bible, not serious, leave whenever they want to, move whenever they like to....i cant stand it!!!

if u are not serious abt God then dont go for FOP in the first place! its e festival of praise, not the festival of play!!!! if u wanna clap, then clap louder, if u wanna sing, then sing with all your heart, if u wanna worship, then worship with all your strength!!! if you believe that Jesus died for you on the cross, if you believe that Jesus is the son of God, if you believe that Jesus is your Savior....then....

He definitely deserves a more radical bunch of people he call brothers and sisters!!!! dont be wimpy, dont be weak, dont be frail, dont go with a lousy attitude! if the spirit who raised Jesus from the dead lives in you, then you have NO RIGHT to live as if the spirit of death and depression is in you!!!

arrgh...id better stop now...lol. but really, if u guys wanna go there for e sake of a wonderful service, then forget about it. you're not there for a wonderful service, you're there to worship and wonderful Savior!

Time to update

which is more harder to believe? that a good God allows Marah experiences or to see someone undergo a 24-hour, 180-degree change? well, ure looking at one lol...

man changes but God transforms. i can be down one moment, and the next day, im at Elim. :D

yesterday ps audrey came...man it was tense...well, for awhile tt is..lol

learnt in cg that God's character is revealed at the good times, but man's character is revealed during bad times. will you still love God and praise Him when things go wrong? well, i certainly do, even though im upset with myself, ill nv compromise my relationship with God...

u might think im a very scary/mysterious person, but tell u e truth, i change very fast and i adapt very fast. not that im double-minded, but im more 'versatile' u can say, although its my strength, its also my biggest weakness...

good times, i change, i grow and i adapt, but bad times, i go down, and i feel low. success does not follow failure, but failure follows success. thats how life is you cant help it..thats why we need to live by faith and not by sight!

if u put me with happy people, ill be happy...but if u put me with negative people, i wont even bother ill just leave that company.

u dont have to be wise, just hang around wise ppl and ull be wise, u dont have to be a fool, just hang around fools and ull be destroyed!

tmr is marriage enrichment first lesson with ps kong, so excited, they say its e best marriage seminar ever, not tt im married, i mean, we all have plans/visions for our future right? if you dont then...well you have no future..haa

sunday is lesson 2, but im serving, and have evangelistic outreach also...how ah? hmm....lol...

arrgh...viva on friday le....shall i prepare my 2-word presentation? lols...:S

Nuts

i think id better stop sleeping with the lights and laptop on...

what to do, im bored, im tired, im nuts.

thats right...nuts nuts nuts...

arrgh cant take it anymore...

but wait....i must be thankful when ppl give me something..

okay, thank you...!!! nuts!!!!

I really dont know what to write

I was really encouraged by the tag made by Steph earlier on...

i may not know who you are, but certainly, that one statement touched me in a way and changed my day completely...=)

It made me remember that my blog is viewed by people internationally..i remember theres two china guys, a korean guy, a business entrepreneur in UK, an inspirational book writer in the US, a lady from india, a fellow brother in malaysia, and a few other people from africa and indonesia...

i really dont know what to blog about. my problems or my dreams or my thoughts...

KO server is under maintenance and so now im kinda free.y supervisor will be meeting me this thurs to discuss on how i can improve on my system so tt itll be presentable for the demo 2 wks frm now..

but deep down i know...its not going to work out...unless i finish every single function in one week! and who's gonna help me? theres no one out there...its just me and my laptop, my best friend. no one to talk to, to one to have lunch with..

for 20 weeks my greatest companion apart from Jesus is my laptop. i have not met or talked to ANYONE at all for the pas 365 days..yea im going nuts. im gonna suffer from anti-social disorder or something..

im unusually quiet..because ive lost the feeling of communication. ive lost the feeling of being around someone..ive lost the feeling of being with a group of people. maybe tts e reason why ive become lamer over the past 365 days...yea...cus i talk to myself..

im probably lamer bcos ive been sitting in front of my lappy foy a year now...and hardly even walking...yea feeling cold right? of course you would..it just rained earlier on...>.<

my latest craze at e moment is crazy taxi. thanks aini for sending it to me.

im looking for a new MMORPG/MMOFPS to play tts free.

im fasting today...i dont know for what also...im too dunno-what to think of anything...a lot of ppl say ive grown thinner, i dont really know, and i dont really care...i think ive grown fatter thats all. tmr is celgrp, sunday is evangelisitic meeting, im like struggling whether to go or not..:S

this sat is marriage seminar with ps kong, heard its e best marriage seminar in e world :D its gonna be for 7 weeks, he going through the lessons with e whole church...

maybe i shld get married to my laptop..>.<

Report submitted...more like rubbish disposed...

it was the thinnest, most pathetic, worst looking, most non-report looking report in the world, the most out-of-place report in the history of mankind, was being submitted yesterday afternoon..

and i think i forgotten to sign on my report...*dots

the weather was hot, i went to e canteen hopefully to grab a bite, so crowded, so hot, so many people, queue so long, i lost appetite..

and at 12pm noon, with nobody to talk to, nobody to have lunch with, i went home...and allowed myself to get my mind off some things by hanging around in KO for awhile..

then went for prayer meeting...it wasnt bad. then evan spoke to us after PM...

and she mentioned the few magic words, 'celgrp leader, of FIVE celgrps...' its over man..its gone...maybe i heard wrongly e first time round...maybe im just giving myself unnecessary anxiety, stress, worry and pressure..

maybe its never meant to be in e first place...T_T

Its monday..no wait, its tuesday..=x

well, i sort of 'skipped' report submission today..and expectantly, my supervisor called in e afternoon. i cant continue like this, pls, just give me my F and let me move on...yea i know, 'move on ur si-lang-tao'...very well then, better to move on ur si-lang-tao than to stay put with bo-tao-nao...

and here i am stoned in front of my LCD again. im gonna go sleep soon and im not gonna touch my IHP ever! its just not going to work. its like asking a guy to give birth for 20 weeks non-stop. im not over-exaggerating, oh..in fact im UNDER exaggerating...

put it this way..im in school for more than 365 days...last break was BEFORE july2005...

not only that i have to do something i have no control, no decision over, whatsoever, i know nuts abt ASP.NET and this is nuts...

everyone is like getting paid sitting in front of a comp while i get nothing rotting inside a room. with nobody to talk to, i eat with my laptop, play with my laptop, and even SLEEP with my laptop...i tink im gonna start talking to my laptop soon...

20 weeks of isolation, inside a stuffy, snoozy room all by urself, let me tell u something...ITLL DRIVE ME TO THE ASYLUM!!! and think about bringin friends, evan always say, 'dont tell me ure so sad no friends..'

well....the truth is...for 20 weeks...YES!!!! I DONT HAVE!!! IM LIKE TOTALLY CUT OFF FROM ANY FORM OF SOCIAL NORMS HERE OKAY???? *urrgh...

everyone is busy with their own stuff, ive not met new ppl, ive not talked to anyone else other than my cgms...FOR TWENTY WEEKS MIND YOU! well, other than my supervisor...:S

im gonna go insane..!!!! tink im gonna do some half-naked video and post it on youtube or something..its driving me nuts!!! and still got 2 weeks...and still got a ONE HOUR PRESENTATION!!! whhhaaaat the...yea ill present and i have 2 words for ya..."Hi, Bye!"

yea..very polite...well..at least im honest right? >.<

but thank God for guitar lesson, it keeps my mind healthy...free from all those unnecessary worries that do me no good...although bao is increasing e fee, i dont mind and ill try my best to not only meet his needs but to fulfill his desires...

after all, its not my money, its God's money...yea and speaking of which...how many of you actually remembered that e money u spent belongs to God? im talking about reckless spendthrifts here...yea...like, go ahead spend all u want...its not about what u have, but how u use it....

last night i came up with a song, i cant say its my song cus its inspired by e HS. i merely just thought about what im going through and e lyrics and tune just came in 15min...must praise God i must say...

soundcrew + cgg x 2 + cgl x 5 + songwriter cum composer cum worship leader ??

thats like hardcore man...indeed God's dream is bigger than ours to comprehend!!!

bao helped me to change a few of e chords of my new song Reaching Out, my FIRST song in fact. din really put much effort into it cus i know tt im not cut out for songwriting and stuff..but even God can use the things which are not to put to nothing the things that are...

have u ever encountered people whom you talk to online/offline and they dont reply you? well, let me tell u something if ure one of them...get a life! its pretty obvious ure trying to avoid someone well, lemme tell u some good news...they cant be bothered!

ya...YAWAS!

these kind of people are the rudest people in the world. the worst thing you can say to someone is NOTHING! oh wait...i guess im talking to my laptop now..typing and conversing virtually with my laptop..yea..see? so smart..=x

people who fail to communicate are people who fail in relationships. ever seen the life of a yawas? yea, broken relationships and wrong company...see? i dont have to see to know. its just common sense...yawas are just people who fail to communicate thus fail in any form of relationship...

ive just installed this new audio editing software, Acid Pro 6.0...the HUD is like super complex and professional looking...all e cool functions to explore...well....a bit too much =x lol

slept at 5 yesterday..today morning more likely...think im gonna fall sick anytime soon. cus i still have this friggin report to do and im dead tired..and i cant sleep :S

arrgh...i need a one year holiday!!! T_T

Arrgghh

Have to submit my report by 12pm.

I have bits of pieces here and there...but i dont feel like doing at all. Its not gonna make any difference. T_T

Wad will happen if i wait until 12pm? :S

Settlers' + Service + Thoughts

Went to Settlers' Clarke Quay with W390. Had a great time eating, fellowshippin and playing lots of games. haa. to cut e long story short, i had a great time. huixin was thinkin of benjamin sheares while junsen was evolving into the giraffe...haha...

saturday had lunch with josh, joanna, liwen and david. while me and josh waited for e rest outside orchard MRT. this malay dude approached me with this donation package for the elderly in some home...without hesitation, i straightaway gave 10 bucks...

then shortly after that this lady came up to me with a name card, passed it to me and introduced herself as someone from some agency..then she started e conversation by askin for my name and number...i i gave, then she continued talking...then she said something like, 'actually, we're from a modelling agency and we are looking for dashing guys and i feel u are one of them'...

i was like...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! :$ lol.

(Why on earth did i give my name and number? >.<) :S =x lolz

in e same wk, this elderly lady came over to my hse selling pork floss...it was a huge packet for 16 bucks. without hesitation, i gave her 16 bucks and bought her product to help her as well. most people save up money for their personal enjoyment..

there were times i wonder if they're cheating me of my money...i know there are people who wont give, but i will give nonetheless. love is unconditional. God looks at ur heart. God says bless your enemies. everyone on the face of the earth by right belongs to God and God has a purpose for tt person's life, even if he/she cheats you...YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO TREAT SOMEONE FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE BY GOD TO THAT OF AN ENEMY!!! - even if he/she is!!!

immature people do what is good, mature people do what is right!!! immature ppl live by experience and emotion, but the mature live by conviction and revelation!! mature people do what God will do, think what God will think and see what God sees and feel what God feels!!

but ive never in my entire life..saved money for myself, well, not since i came to CHC. every money i saved throughout my years, it was for missions, for e building of God's house, for the poor, for the needy, for the purpose of serving God (guitars, etc.), and for blessing others...

ive never bought CDs, even though i buy them and burn for others for free, i never buy clothes, i nv buy accessories/games..the only thing i spend my money on for myself was for food, which i needed for daily living...

i can say, 90% of my finances are with God, with others and never myself. i thank God for giving me a big heart for others...i love God more than myself, i love others more than my own life..

and God, i want more to give away...i want to be able to drop a million dollar cheque for my tithe one day, for my offering, for building fund, for birthdays/love gifts...God take all of me for all of You..!!!!

service was great, although the speaker wasnt really dynamic, but it was the presence and the power of God that made the service complete. people were healed..many man of God have come and spoken to our church concerning the impartation of the gift of healing..

its not just for the healing evangelists..every BELIEVER has the right to receive the supernatural. God works through His church! One man can make a difference, but the unity of a church can bend the knees of a nation!

have to complete my report by today..and guess what...i havent started...

i hate to drag a messed up situation and drag it to e end. just give me the results slip and move on man...i cant wait to start all over again. but they are dragging and dragging something that will never work out...so irritated. waste my time, waste my energy. im not gonna bother anymore, im not even gonna touch my IHP. jus give me my F and im out of here to do it again. i dont mind failing, i mind people who stop me from moving on!!!! arrgh....

still got like 2-3 weeks...and the presentation. gosh. think im gonna pon it.

LET ME MOVE ON!!!!! arrgh....

i cant people who bring me to my past, i cant stand people who keep me where i am, i need people who can bring me to my future and destiny in God!

AquaNova Skin

New blogskin: AquaNova

Changes:

1. New navigation menu
2. New color scheme
3. New 'Misc' section created (probably for future video uploads)
4. Google search removed
5. Front page is now accessible via the menu
6. New digital clock
7. CBox has been relocated to another frame via menu

Additional notes:

When you load the page, if you encounter a square-shaped outline at the center of the page, which you have to click in order to make it disappear, then click it the moment you load the page in order to remove it.

I'll be contacting Microsoft Support for more details on this. Think it has something to do with ActiveX control. That box/outline appears whenever a media file is present.

The reason why the sudden change in blogskin is because a few parts of my old blogskin 'FiBoNaCCi' were messed up. So being the person that I am, I'd rather start anew than to try and fix a problem. And so, that's how i ended up creating this blogskin in my record timing of 2 hours compared to 3.5 hours on 'FiBoNaCCi'.

Here's a final tribute to FiBoNaCCi Blogskin:



Credits:

http://www.grsites.com/textures/

Enjoy...=)

Nothing to post..really?

e end of the week is coming soon, and it feels pointless to do a project report. seeing an example given by my supervisor: it appeared 2 inches thick! and he said thats not big, e biggest was as thick as 3/4 of my drinking cup...!!!! :O

and the presentation e week after is 1hr long...think ill go there say 2 words: Hi, Bye..! :S

totally moodless already...honestly, at this point in time, bothering abt e project is merely wasting my time...if u know me well enough, ull know im those kind of person who - whenever i encounter a messed up situation, id rather restart anew than to try to clean up the mess...:S

well, i uploaded my first youtube video, felt weird to have a youtube account and no videos..

basically...:

i extracted video using SDP a web playlist extractor...

then using windows movie maker i cut and edit which took me abt 40minutes to open e video file which is as big as a movie file (6xxMB)...

after editing i saved e movie file and exported it as a wmv file which took an hr..

then i upload on youtube which took another half an hr...altogether, you can count for urselves..lols...

PS: the video has been moved due to the development of a new blogskin

bored bored bored booooorrrrrred :S

i cant seem to bring myself to start on my report.

went to eat just now. ate the jap stall in canteen1...hotplate egg+onion with crispy chicken and teriyaki sauce topped on it...mmmmm....the steam, the smell, the sauce..hahaha...

im rock climbing now...how? how? how? ahhhhhhhh...lol and supervisor is comiiinngggg....hmm looks for a place to hide..lol

its really annoying seriously, its like my project is gone, and doing a report makes no difference..lols *sob

Tuesday...yes its tuesday...really...not bluffing =x

in sch now...supervisor coming later, report report report!!! :S

but...

yay! ive got hillsong's new album "Mighty To Save" =) its totally nice..:D

i love this song..."For Who You Are"

i will worship You for who You are...

i will worship You for who You are...Jesus! =)

Blogging again? =x

well, im free now when i shldnt, so...yea...im gonna blog more on e things that happened e past few days rather than blog down my thoughts...:D

thurs' cg was good, a but in e beginning a bit dry. friday was different. there were more people, e atmosphere was better. then it came to a point when towards e end, as we sang Sanctuary, i finally realised tt i could be one level higher, or CLOSER to it..

evan wanted to lay hands and pray for ppl, and so she told me to kind of 'take over and lead the celgrp in worship'..i was stunned. then as we worshipped i felt e prompting to go back to e stanza, but surprisingly...i didnt know what to do. evan was so far away from me, and the entire 'ministry session' was dependent on me...in a way.

then as i played e intro of sanctuary before the stanza, suddenly everyone went into e spirit, then i saw evan's eyes staring right into mine..then i was like..'ohno', but eventually we managed to get back into e flow...

its worse than giving a word during cg..lol im still trying to master sharing and playing at e same time, then all of a sudden God adds something more to it...LEADING! seriously, it was my first time and honestly speaking, i was blown away..LOL

but true enough, evan intended to sing e stanza, and it was so accurate what the Holy Spirit prompted me, but everything happened to fast...lol...hmm...:x

for saturday's fellowship we went to bedok to eat...cus evan flying off e next day. looks like we have a new lamers' club in E110..LOL joanna and meijuan...!!!! *faint, scream, shriek..

i kena overpowered :S haha colded, defeated, de-throned!!! hahas. a grp tt lames together stays together...hahaha ok, im going random...:x must control..lol. joshua soon itll be ur turn to join us! muahaha (evillaugh) lols...

yesterday after S2 went foyer3 to get some food, man e queue was looooooooooonggg!! but still got to finish up like 20min b4 PM started. during PM at first i was a bit sleepy, prob cus i woke up early plus e food...hahas but thank God eventually i caught e spirit of prayer and i prayed through...

if pastor kong could do it, we could do more! tts something ill go by from today onwards...=D

if the same spirit tt raised Jesus from e dead lives in us, we have NO RIGHT to live as if He's absent in us!!! We have to live Him out! thats also one the things we ought to exercise as salt, salt exerts flavor!

and so, after yesterday's PM we spent like 30min deciding where to go..lol. and since joanna was hungry we accompanied her to wisma's food republic to eat. while everyone else, pamela, kexin, aini and the rest went home...oei, pang seh ah, leave e poor sister alone with us to freeze each other!!! lol.

but feel very weird...everyone say go home, somehow it felt like they nv go home le...hmm...like they going somewhere else...hmm...

and peng went shopping...so only left me, eugene and joanna. initially wanted to call both celgrps to see if they wanna meet for dinner cus it was almost dinner time, but everyone seemed keen on going home, so we just had dinner by ourselves at wisma...

not bad e food there, great place to fellowship next time...if we end early and try not to be so slow...:S *sigh, all never join army thats why not decisive...=p

after makaning we just sat there and waited for joanna to recharge her mana so she can use frost nova again..hahaha. well it was more like dinner to me..cus we ate till 5 plus. i almost kidnapped jo's jacket..haha.

after that went home...and chionged KO. my priest is halfway to lvl45 now..:D theres one number tts in my head now, 2062..haha joanna can identify right? =p

and just now, supervisor called...:S

Long update (Sermon Notes Attached)

its been a great celgrp/service/prayer meeting for e past few days. =)

the presence of God was so tangible, and we are back in hall 8! =) on sunday ps dennis presented a new song item, kinda hiphop/rap style...he's a cool dude :D

one thing that inspires me though when i attended sunday svc, is that adults have no problems kneeling before the presence of God. its something i feel that the youths in our church must catch, i mean, in the presence of God, there is freedom...

right now evan has gone to taiwan..how i'd wish i were there for their first ever taiwan emerge! indeed china is opening up like never before. just like China, the sleeping giant has awaken in the natural, so shall the giant arise like never before in the realm of the spirit!

at e same time, im still kinda struggling with my project...report and presentation this week! few days more. and also im kinda burdened with things concerning the celgrp. i will never forget that day when Joyce spoke those words to me, it was as if God spoke it to me concerning me and my future and my call in Him...

im looking forward to saturday already...no celgrp, no BS...but deep down...im a bit burdened and worried about a particular thing...somehow i feel evan and i have similar pasts, similar burdens, and similar convictions...i realised that...everytime she shares her aspirations, her convictions, it never failed to identify itself with mine...

it happened ALL the time...

well, pastor robb really preached a good message last wk, and my bro bought e 10 laws of relationship DVD+CD+Book set for 215. ive seend the DVD, well, some of it...its really inspiring and life transforming...

its one thing to hear e Word, its another thing to DO the Word. its one thing to DO the Word, its another thing to FINISH what you have started!

PS: You can obtain my combined sermon notes (compilation of 2 services) from HERE

(rclick -> save target as; it's a zip file)

Yeah, QT + prayer with God for an hour plus...

it was great...i cried in e presence of God TWICE in an hour...an hour 10 min to be exact, but i dun really care how long, as long as im in e presence of God, in e spirit and in e realm of e supernatural...:D

i talked, i fellowshipped with God. there were times i was intimate with Him, times when i touched Him and He touched me, times when i shared my secrets with Him, opening myself up, i even had a joke with God..lol

well, if u didnt know i can recover from an incident in 24hours, well...guess u dont really know me well enough..LOL

i can hear ur 'hmmm...' lol...its okay i still love you..hahaha

reached sch at 730am today...breakthrough man! lol. well...im looking forward to CG later, e HS and me have something in stored for e cg..hahas. x) the atmosphere is gonna explode! =p lol...

Completed AFV

ive officially completed AFV...yay.

today more or less KOed e whole day. partying at high lvl areas, buffing and healing ppl.

still 2-3 weeks more...report and presentation/demo!!! *faint.

cg and svc will be great. seeking to spend an hour daily in prayer; with God...

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i give up.

i dont care anymore.

Its 4.30am!!!

yea, its 430am and im not asleep yet...was playing KOL.

the thought of being fooled and betrayed by the very one you trust the most disgusts me! so irritating. cant take it anymore...that b*tch.

each time i try to sleep that stupid face appears before my eyes...

now she stops replying my msges as well. damn u, selfish piece of sh*t...

i cant sleep, and nobody to talk to also...everyone is sleeping, either that or theyve become yawas or too busy to talk. come to think of it, hardly anyone talks to me nowadays...everyone has suddenly shut themselves up away from me...

there it is again, that stupid face...grinning at me...urrgh! better dont let me see you in sch or in church or im gonna knock you down with a car if i had one...arrgh...u took away the very hope of ever passing my FYP!!! selfish, inconsiderate piece of dunno what....

Beat down..

went to arcade to thrash some noobs in SC2...feeling better...

but its not lasting long...

im dead, tired, beat!!! its been more than a year since i last had a break!!!!

arrrggghhhhh, someone save meeeeee

just now as i was walkin to e busstop after sch...(what sch? i was absent!!! >.<) and i almost got knocked down by a car, i was 0.5m away from death...

at tt point in time i felt like running that person who fooled me down if i had a car, or mebbe even raping the **** out of her...urrgh...T_T

and just as i thought it was all over, guess what...TWO MORE WEEKS!!! project report and presentation/demo!!!!! what the...arhagrhagrhagrhagrhahhhh....:S

k...no more mood to blog now...mebbe ill blog again...

5 times in a day...>.<

20 minutes more..

something incredible just happened...

i was chatting online with this fren of mine, she msged me...

we are not close to each other because of our own busy schedule...and she was sharing with me on how she's agitated over this particular person...then when it seems that u roughly know what that topic will lead to..

she suddenly sends this msg:

"dun be to stress...god is always there 2 help u!!!" - out of e blue, and it struck me...

because just minutes before that, i realised that this sister didnt sign in for me!!!! i msged her in e morning to help me cus i overslept due to e stress i put myself in e night before. then knowing that she reads my SMS, but she nv reply!! nvm, i trust her...

and GUESS WHAT!!!! ****!!!!

blatant betrayal!!!! no reply, then act as if nothing happened! orh, you think im not in school huh..u think it makes no difference to me huh...u think if i fail nvm huh, even though i know im gonna huh..well...she doesnt read my blog, but....SO WHAT MAN!?!

arrrghhhhh! stupid yawas!

and im like a fool in school...for what?? oh guess what, im in school, but im absent!!!! hello!?! and now im staring at this error message...urrgh!

im the new:

theWHINEkone!!!! yeah! call me that!! im a whiner! lalalala...make my day....

1 hour left..

1 hour left and im doing this:



! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

2 hours more...

service was great, ps tan preached a really kairos message. if u dont know who God is, ull make foolish choices, like Adam exchanged the entire world for a fruit/lie, esau, his birthright for a bow of stew, judas, his eternal salvation and his own soul for 30 pieces of silver...etc.

u can experience a miracle and yet not know tha character of God!

people backslide is because they have the wrong mentality that God is a good God therefore, He wont allow anything bad to happen to us, or that He should not let us wait for the promises to come.

no doubt God IS good, but that doesnt mean your life will be a bed of roses...He sent His OWN BEGOTTEN SON, Jesus to the cross, what makes you think you can live life anyhow you want, take responsibility, take up the cross and follow Him!

this wk is last lesson of AFV, yay! can move on to GOHS. and this weekend is robb thompson. its gonna be great...x)

2 hrs more before i submit my FYP, a project that i feel was gone e moment i started it..

if i was given something i knew, id have done it and prob get a B or a A..but this ive not even GLANCED...i didnt take ECAD or CSP, i know NUTS about server-sided programming...im only familiar with java man, and i dont think java will take me far in this project, its concept is not even used in e project! *faint.

and in 2-3 yrs time, java will be gone/replaced with something else...now people are studying C#/visual c#, j#, etc...and im still struggling with C programming...not even c+ or c++, let alone c# and visual c#....:O

i told cinthia, if i passed this FYP ill shave my head and walk around orchard rd with a pair of underwear on my head!

...we'll see...

Survey..

Aini, i shall respond to your call for a tag..haha..

7 random things about myself:

i) I love the presence of God
ii) I love the Word of God (in AFV last lesson atm..)
iii) I live by conviction
iv) Im a soundcrew, and at e same time a celgrp guitarist for two celgrps
v) I have a vision to be a celgrp leader of five celgrps
vi) I have high emotional tolerance and capacity, depression free
vii) Im blessed, saved, free from the curse, life rocks, life with God is an adventure! :))

7 things that scare me:

i) Heights
ii) Insects
iii) Projects!!!
iv) Nothing else
v) Nothing else
vi) If u think im an average, typical person who's scared of death, think again..my God defeated death itself and broke its power and defied the laws of death, because He loves me! =)
vii) Pampers!!!! haha jus kidding...(*oh-oh...i think im in trouble :S)

7 random songs at the moment:

i) Sun Ho - Your Shoulder
ii) Sun Ho - Always On My Mind
iii) CCC - Show Me How To Live
iv) CHC - Sanctuary
v) CHC - Destiny
vi) CHC - Take All Of Me
vii) Delirious? - My Glorious

7 things i like the most:

i) Church and the presence of God
ii) The Word of God
iii) E110 + W390
iv) My lappy...(although breaking down, thinking of sending for repair or when i have e money, ill get a new one, mebbe a widescreen multimedia laptop xD)
v) My acoustic and electric guitar (getting new effect pedals soon, or mebbe a new guitar)
vi) My new and improved OM card...aiming for an EM card one day :)
vii) My new tee given to me by Evan :D

7 things i say most:

i) Yes, amen, hallelujah :))
ii) Jesus, I love You
iii) Projects are over!!!!
iv) hahaha (in different customized variations..=p)
v) ha? what? eh? huh? ooh.., erm.., hi, yay, yeah, hello, bye, hmm.., orh..(*nods head), *bish
vi) If Jesus is not your Lord of all, He is not your Lord at all.
vii) Its not about who I am and what I can do, but its about who He is and what He can do through me...x)

7 people to do this:

i) Anyone
ii) Everyone
iii) Someone random
iv) Anyone and everyone bored
v) People
vi) Human beings
vii) You...hahaha! *bleah