Short

There's a price to pay for the anointing.
How anointed a person wants to be, the more he has to be willing to go through..
The breaking, the moulding..

At the end of the day, it all comes down to one word: Surrender.

True friendships are forged in the fire.

Missing MP3, Reformat done, CNY, Testimony

Ive reformatted my laptop..after 2 days. Why so long? Cus I only had 2-3 hours a day to use my laptop O_O. And for winXP after reformat, you have to install every program, antivirus, what not..Im using Norton 360 now btw, less memory consuming that Norton 2008. And my OS runs faster cus less resources used.

Also, I have to update, restart, like dunno how many times. The patches was the KILLER.

Update, restart, install SP1, restart, update, restart, install SP2, restart, update, restart, install SP3, restart, update, restart. DOTSSSS.

All those crazy service packs...omg...O_O.

I couldnt find my MP3.

Just when I couldnt get any more stressed and depressed...

All my prophecies inside....I cant lose it....=(((

Just pray that its in the office.... =x

If ure lookin for CNY pictures, I have none. I haven bought my clothes, my com, my guit, and...I haven even opened my angbaos...

Anyway, Im thankful to God for one thing...

100 dollars+ entered my bank account out of nowhere. =D

Randoms

God doesnt call the qualified,
He qualifies the called.

To find a capable friend, the world is full of them.
But to find an available friend, even God is looking for that special one!

People who are there, may not necessarily be there.
When God says He's there, how does He show it?
Moses was already on the mountain, yet God still asked him to be there?

"Backsliding is not just going in the opposite direction and drifting away in your spiritual life, backsliding is anything but moving forward, and that includes unproductivity and passiveness." - A.R. Bernard

"The devil doesnt have to make you backslide, all he has to do is to keep you busy." - Ps Kong

Have you been distracted as of late?
Are you living "for the sake of" or "for the glory of"?

Going to reformat my laptop now =/ Unknown trojan blocks all updates, norton updates, spybot updates and even windows update O_O.

Dont know when will be the next time Ill blog...hopefully tonight.

Alienware!!!!

(Click on the ARROW button on the player to select HD Quality for the video =))

For the ALX, it costs more than 5-6k. For the standard gaming ones, probably around 3k. Yeah..woots..the cooling isnt bad. Power-wise..hmm. =O

Runs on Quad processors, TWO graphics card and up to 8GB RAM. You can plug it into a Plasma TV, LCD, TV, DVD System, Widescreen panel, or a dualpanel (Yes..a dualpanel, 2 screens combined into one).

Someone deliver one of these babies to my door pls =DD

I feel so near to God..

Maybe He misses me too much haha.

What if one day when I sleep, I wake up somewhere else? lol. But there's so many things I havent done. My grandpa isnt saved, pohchoo hasnt sent me the pics, I havent bought a new com/guitar...

...

And...

...

Im still a virgin :$ =(( hahaha..okay kidding abt e last part. But if it really happens itll be sad.

So young and Im already thinking how I wanna die haha. I wanna die like Enoch...who loved God so much, God called him to heaven, just like that.

Okay, Im out of inspiration to blog haha.

Crushing sensation...6th time

Its back..my inner chest feels crushed...

Now my inner neck feels it too...and I feel it everytime when Im resting...

How????? =(((

Trojan? Worm? Virus? Short entry

I think Ive been infected with a malware that disables auto-updates, feeds, etc.

Antivirus cannot retrieve update list.
Spybot cannot retrieve update list.
WMPlayer cannot retrieve update URL.

Even my windows update, when I click it, it redirects me to some fake google-looking page even though the URL is the same e.g. windowsupdate.com or something.

Certain websites have the "Page Load Failed" error...sometimes.

Worse thing is..I cant send a Microsoft Support..why? Because my email symbol cannot be pressed!!!! And microsoft website, under the 'Confirm email' textbox, they dont allow copy n paste..O_O Noooo.

Anyway, sorry guys, I wanted to upload quite a lot of pics lately but I couldnt as Im waiting for pohchoo to send me the pics. Yea..=/ Since..erm..december? haha.

CNY Day 1 ... Crazy Day

Feel so stoned and sehh..

Dropped a mug and broke it, got stunned, dropped my handphone too and it dismantled. Fixed it. After 10 minutes, my handphone accidentally slipped from my hand again, dropped on the floor and dismantled again. Fixed it again.

Shortly after, while reaching another relative's house, at the carpark, I almost got knocked by a Honda car, didnt see it turning from the corner. Then at the house, accidentally spilled a bit of dessert/soup/watever-u-call-it..lol..then while taking angpao, accidentally dropped it..

WAAAHHH..

And my head hurts..

Weird, Gaming

Dont worry, Im fine now.

If I had to lose a friend, so be it. Im okay with filtering people out from my life.

Thats how how I get angry, or what I do when Im disappointed. I wont shout, I wont show a face. Ill smile =) Talk nicely, lovingly, as if I dont know anything. Love the person, forgive the person.

And then when Im alone at home, I direct everything to myself and 'torture' myself. Hurt myself until Ive become numbed. And then within the next few days, I wouldve forgiven and forgotten. It works like magic haha.

Its like, I know I can go into depression and get out of it on my own, I can 'cut' myself and yet not die lol. Pretty freaky huh? But thats who I am..what goes on behind the scenes of my..'good points' haha.

Isolation helps, me and my comp...games help me destress, ignite my creativity and makes me forget about people, forget about anything in fact. And in the virtual world, people are nicer than sometimes...church people...*cough...

There's unity, there's teamwork, they care about each other, especially in a clan. And I can talk non-stop haha. Ill never feel left out, Ill never feel bored, Ill never feel lonely, Ill never get distracted by anything...its like heaven.

When you talk to them, they will reply. They say guys cant multitask, but here, they can game, eat, chat, fight monsters/players, and care about you at the same time. Its awesome.

I miss ROSE, and Im gonna go back again lol. In there, you buff people, they thank you. Here, you do a kind thing for others, or you be their listening ear, or you show concern, you hardly receive anything in return.

You dont have to worry about being backstabbed, because there will always be someone there to watch your back and defend you, sometimes even fight back for you. In there, there are people, who when they find a rare item, theyll ask you if you want it first or not, before they sell it.

I can always have fun, there's not once I played ROSE and I cried lol..irritated yes, but I had friends who were there and we PKed (Player Kill/PVP) their clan lol.

You get to meet so many people, hear so many things about their kids...yes...some of the players are DADs..about work, their country, heritage and culture, etc.

You wanna play with me, joke with me, tease me, 'bully' me, play 'dirty' with me, thats fine, just dont step on the wrong button.

Im like a Recycle Bin waiting to explode...and when I do, you may change, you may react, while I can just in a few moments, reverse back to my state as if nothing happened haha.

There's no such thing as bad partners. Only bad decisions.

TTD Skin with Mayan Civilisation Iconset

Frustrated

Forget it..

Ill just continue to play my computer games. Ill try my best not to go out with anyone.

Ya, Im 'weak'. And I hate myself for it. So what?

Want to, but cannot, unless you dont mind.

Nonsense.

Short post (Explicit)

Locked.

Service, Celgrp International

Service was explosively mind blowing haha..I think my brains flew away aldr. =O

http://www.wbschool.org/Chinese.swf

Here's a very good link to more references to the history of chinese characters relating to incidents in the bible.

Before buddhism, taoism and confucianism, there was Shang Di from 2500BC, haha chinese history. Its really good that our roots came from Huang Di who worshipped Shang Di. Its just amazing, I wish I could have the DVD of the sermon haha.

Anyway, fellowship was at chinatown yesterday. Under A Division, high crime rate lol. Risky man. That night, while I was at the table waiting for the girls to come back with their food, this man approached one of their bags and stared intently...I knew he was gonna try to snatch and run, so I stared back at him.

He saw my eyes and he got scared and walked away haha...

Ps Kong once shared a story about the anointing, there was this guy or girl, I cant rem..who was gonna be robbed or kidnapped or something..no, in case ure wondering, its not the one in the alley where the rapist saw a large shadow beside the girl who got caught the next day.

This one is something like...

The guy/girl was gonna be 'attacked', upon reaching the boy/girl, the gangster felt the anointing of God, so strong, he stood there convicted of his sin and started to kneel down and cry in front of the boy/girl he was going to attack and said he was sorry and whether his sin could be forgiven..

Just..WOW.

I mean, with anointing like that, who can touch God's anointed?

Anointing so strong, that when people look at you, they wanna confess their sins and follow Christ, thats what I aim for. I dont have much, I smile a lot. So I ask God, use my smile, to bring faith, hope and love, healing to the wounded, encouragement to the discouraged, etc.

I believe with a small mustard seed faith like that, God is gonna move in unusual miracles.

Anyway, recently, it seems my cg is going 'international' haha.

We have members from australia, malaysia and this week, from mainland china, a canadian black and a black african. Man, these guys are cool man haha. So nice to talk to them. A great fun to be with. I can imagine, like Adam said, if our Sportsmania event, if we are gonna have captain's ball or basketball, we will DOMINATE LOL...

I dunno but the blacks have this really nice outgoing personality, it doesnt matter whether ure feeling happy or sad, when you talk to them, they just lift up your spirit...really cool people. I wanna see more foreigners in our cg. =)

Who knows, God might be calling us to the WORLD in 2009..hahaha. =D

And last night, after chinatown, met up with tor, karwen, karyie, chinho and eileen at JP. LOL..siao siao siao..haha. After that went, NTUC to help eileen look for nuts....A LOT....of nuts....like....6 packets?....8 packets??? LOL. Ive never seen so many nuts in one basket in my entire life haha, and she almost killed me for saying that =x oops.

Then there was karyie and her sushi..which I have totally no idea where it came from lol.

Anyway...

Gonna eat breakfast now..ciao.

Revelation

How you treat people is how you treat God.
How you talk to people is how you talk to God.
How you react to people is how you react to God.
How you think of people is how you think of God.

How does God treat us?
How does God talk to us?
How does God react to different people around Him?
How does God think of us?

Treating others, talking to others, reacting to others thinking of others. That might sound like so many areas to improve in, you might say. But...the fact of the matter is...all of them are still classified under one thing, RELATIONSHIP.

We are made for relationships. God did not create Adam and Eve on the first day but on the last day, after everything has been created.

Yes, adam has to tend the garden, but he's merely tending to what God has already made. Yes, he has to name the animals, but he's merely naming the animals that God has already created.

Have you jumped into God's boat and sailed with Him? Or do you go round planning your own life and doing your own thing, sailing your own boat, flying your own plane?

It doesnt matter if its career, relationships, family or ministry.
God is the same yesterday, today and forever.
And to be made in His image? Are you the same yesterday, today and forever?

If you claim you are the same yesterday, today and forever, like God...
Are you the same in a negative way? Always passive, always unfaithful, always unaccountable, always unproductive, always complacent, always moody? Or the other way round for the glory of God?

Such a simple revelation, yet it has to power to determine where you will go, and who you will become.

Do we follow ourselves, do we follow our friends, do we follow people out there, or do we follow God?

We become who we follow.

Long day, RANTssssss, CG

First, I wanna start by ranting about people who rush INTO trains. Whats your problem man? Is there a dog behind you or something? Or a polar bear? Hmm if there's a bomb in the train, you'll run in too? HAHA..Ill laugh at all those uncle and aunties, who run in and only to realise, the train has NO CHAIRS LOL!!!

Even if they look young, but because of their attitude, I love to call them uncles and aunties too. Bleah. I mean, relax man...never take train before ah? Or you're so amused because you've never seen a MRT all your life? Aww I feel sad for you...poor you...

No wonder you're taking trains..cus if these people were to drive, many people would get killed in road accidents...just look at how they manoeuvre through a crowd with their impatience, negligence and lack of a humanity..all of them are like robots..or rather, MONKEYS...why? Monkey see, monkey do.

Secondly, today I saw this bangla walking around the coffeeshop holding his hammer and blade. Wa..you think this is MMORPG? Dual sword warrior level50 ah? LOL. I felt like going to him and ... "oeii..you think this is construction site ah?" haha...

Deep down, I wanted to say, "You think you Phua chu kang ah?" but then i remembered, PCK is a contractor, not a construction worker haha. Gosh, at least put inside a box or something..carry around swinging the hammer and blade like that..O.o your chicken chop the size of skyscrapers ah? gosh, if there was a chicken that big in the first place we'd all be chicken shit. LOL.

Thirdly, I was supposed to despatch some files today. Apparently, the car I was in, had to attend to a case of teenagers sniffing glue, drug related stuffs..so the guy told me, "hey, we go catch people first ah?" I was stunned....O_O

I had no uniform, no equip..went there, machiam plainclothes officer from CID lol. O_O. So upon arrival, me, my 2 partners, went up this HDB, to 20 over storeys high and went to a stairway and there, 2 other officers were detaining 3 people..we were there to take them to lockup.

My first time 'attending' to a case..haha..all I did was prevent him from escaping..the handcuffing was done by e regulars. 2 malay boys and 1 malay girl..I overheard their convo..apparently, he was influenced by his friends to 'try' it. =/ sigh. Sec sch only..also I dont see whats so fun, I play my computer game more fun lol..

So he was handcuffed and sat behind me in the car. Gosh..the regular officer seized the plastic bag of glue and the whole car smelt of glue!!! Until the driver had to open e windows lol.

Later on in the day, the team ldr asked me if I was free and want to visit a case of fire broken out at a unit. "Eh..you free anot? Wanna go see fire?"..."HUH???" lol..I was quite busy so I couldnt go..furthermore, if I went, Id be late for cg =/ cus it was just a few moments before my knock off time..

Grandma will be discharged this week. =)

Something amused me today...how on earth did I manage to chat with Wyelin over computers and laptops??? :O Weird. haha.

CG was good..we had malaysian, mainland chinese and canadian in our cgm today haha. Cool meeting so many new people from overseas.

Service tmr..=)

Plastic Fantastic

Low Batt

Gosh, laying hands and praying twice in a row is TIRING, EXHAUSTING, DRAINING, WHATEVER-YOU-CAN-THINK-OF. haha =O

I only had the afternoon itself to really pray, prepare and stir myself up yesterday. And one in one shot...all my 'mana' gone hahaha.

Feel so shag at work today. Im not sad or disturbed or anything like that..just...shag. Period. Thinking of my bolster and my beddddd...yesssss...lol.

I need to increase my "Max MP" lol. Like Amber said, laying on of hands require spiritual stamina. Because your faith, your 'power' or...'virtue' will leave ur body and onto the person.

And I was thinking, no wonder Ps Mike Connell said you gotta be spiritually strong before you lay hands esp in e area of deliverance, if ure not careful, you might end up needing deliverance instead. =O

Okay, I need to recharge spiritually...Im starting to get tempted easily =x

Resistance

Ive been having a headache the whole day.

And this afternoon I got news my grandma fell and was hospitalised. Ive been praying the whole afternoon at my workplace, well...to cut the long story short.

Everything went well, the xray, the scans, no internal injury, only superficial bruising. For the first time, I laid hands on my ah ma and prayed for her.

Thank you Jesus, thank you those who prayed.

Then feeling the faith rising within me, I decided to visit my grandpa too who had throat infection, above his prostrate cancer. I too, mustered the faith and the courage and in 2 hours, Ive laid hands and prayed for 2 people...

I tell you...it's tiring and draining...but Im happy and Im glad I obeyed and acted in faith.

Now my head still hurts..having a bad headache. But still despite my circumstances, Im still Andrew. And thats why Im called Andrew.

3 days in a row, the devil came from every side...but greater is He who is in me, than he who is in the world. No longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me.

Sometimes I wonder, Satan got nothing else better to do isit? Why cant he just steal a computer to hell, install maplestory, GTA 4 or something? Computer games are so fun. LOL.

Anyway, something embarrassing happened at Alexandra Hosp.

I was in the toilet peeing, all of a sudden I heard female voices, I thought..."SHIT, am I in the wrong toilet???" I panicked and couldnt erm...'do properly'? So I quickly finish up my thing..Heng I do halfway no 'recoil' =X. My heart was beating damn fast. I super ganchiong and panicky lol...then I saw this red thing hanging from the ceiling...

"Hmm..looks like a flush..." *Or..I thought it was a cute red flush..not bad..hang from the ceiling, so convenient. Want to flush can sit on the toiletbowl and flush.

And I PULLED IT. Suddenly got this "beeeeeeeeeep" and then a red light came on.."OH CRAP"...:$ I quickly ran out of the toilet..=S

Continued..

Well, I couldnt hold my excitement..so I decided to message the third guy...whom God 'whispered' for a split second to me about..

I asked him..."Hey, how are you doing spiritually? =D" what a good catchphrase for an introduction huh? I guess it sounded pretty random to him and I probably scared him or something haha..

So he was like.."very good haha"....

So I was like..."I dont know if its ur desire to be a cgl, but ur name jus flashed during my prayer time.."

And he said, "it is.." =O omg. Haha. Nailed it..furthermore he went to add, "also lately, God has been prompting me to fellowship with Him and to pray more.."

And he was sharing how during today's sermon and through cg, God's been speaking to him and during service, he felt the gift of faith activate for a split second. ;)

Im just so excited...I think Im addicted to prayer already. Everyday if I get a vision, my life will change man.

So everyone...please pray tooo okay...cus I dont know who God will reveal my future too HAHA.

Sentosa, Testimony, Prophecy

SENTOSA TESTIMONY

I just wanna take this moment to thank God for Friday...

Office hours staff had halfday. We went for buffet lunch at Hyatt Hotel, total cost amounting to 600 plus, each person about 40-50 bucks. And then we went to sentosa, went on the skytower, luge ride, skyride and 4D magix theatre! And later, we had coffee bean treat.

Total spending about $150 plus..

But the best thing was...ITS FULLY PAID. FULLY SPONSORED by welfare dept. What a great blessing from God. I was so paiseh, I ordered a small vanilla ice blend with coffee and cream.. my colleague insisted, "aiyo...small where got enough...?" and he told the cashier to upsize my coffee. =O

It felt good to be prospering. I wish I could treat all my friends like that...

Buy them free guitar, free Ed-Hardy, free coffeebean/starbucks, etc. God gave me a taste of how it felt like. Afterall, one of my prayer requests is to have my first milllion by 30. I guess God is starting to give me glipses and tastes of greater things to come.

PRAYER AND PROPHECY

Something amazing just happened. I had a chat with xiaoshi on the phone. Thanks for being my listening ear and sharing my burdens..

After that I went into prayer, pouring my heart out to God and asking Him to take all of me in exchange for all of Him once again..

I began to ask Him to show me a vision of my life, of my future, of my purpose and destiny..but instead, He flashed Amber's cg before my eyes...short glimpses..I also dunno why...

Then the Holy Spirit whispered..."100 people......" and I felt the anointing and began to pray in that direction, not knowing where God was leading me to. He even gave me a period.."1-2 years..."

And a prophecy came to me, one of a double portion, growth, multiplication, coming their way. I just felt it. I know it and I know it..I exercised my faith..I shared with Shi and Amber... about the 100 people, growth and the double portion..

And Amber's reply freaked me out:

"Wah...I was praying for 100 too!"

I was so happy, even though I didnt get my vision, but somehow God moved in and through me. Im glad Im used by God once again. Im happy I could serve people again. Indeed, every human interaction, God is there!

Also, later on, I went back to prayer, and I asked God to continue giving me visions, and a third name, apart from Amber and xiaoshi, flashed before me....

They know who ;) But I dont know..his name just came to mind..haha. Oh well..who knows yea? Itll be a good thing to meditate on..

It all made sense now..

Bad things happened to me..to break me...
He sends people to encourage me...
Then He uses me in a way, Ive never been used before to bless others...

Thank you Jesus...

Concept 2009

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Randoms

You can have good attitudes, without having any of the BEATTITUDES.
People in the world, dont know God. Yet they can be living examples, have a good marriage, great career, excellent academic qualifications, etc.
So that doesnt make you any different now does it?

If to you, a person is stupid when he humbles himself
And ends up getting stepped upon,
Then it just goes to show that to you, the act of humility and servanthood itself,
Is stupid to you...thats why you're not one.

Pride is saying you dont need God.
Pride is saying you dont need people.
You can be a christian, or a non-believer, all men have pride.
What is pride?
Pride is what turned Lucifer to Satan.

Some people believe God makes people sick, to teach them a lesson.
Some people believe God wants you to be poor.
Some people believe, God's people should be the most LOWEST in society.

Therefore...it is safe to say
Some believe God curses, while Satan blesses.
Some believe God withholds, while Satan gives.
Some believe God strikes, while Satan heals.
Now I wonder, which God you serve.

"A double-minded man in unstable in all his ways..."
You can live one life in church, and when you're outside, you're living your own way.
In church, you can say amen to humility. But outside, to you, humility is nothing more than "just your own problem, who ask you to look up to me???"..

You're afraid of troubles and problems, and you push it to someone else.
If Jesus was afraid of the cross, you wouldnt even be here today.
Its like Jesus saying to you, "I died for you because I love you..."

And your attitude to me is like you saying to Jesus, "Too bad...its your problem...I got ask you to die for me meh?" Wake up your idea.

Dont tell me, you didnt mean to say certain things.
There's no such thing as "I didnt mean it"...you didnt mean it, because you are.
"...out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks..."
When someone's tongue slips, its not because he didnt mean it,
Its because the person simply lacks self-discipline and self-control.

"As you did it to one of the least of these, you did it to Me..."

When you miss a sermon, do you bother to go for a make up service, even if it means going alone?
When you dont experience God in a service, do you go for another even though its the same service, just to touch God, just to experience God?

Even more so, you know that during the week ull be busy and you might not have the time to spend with God. Do you at least make it up to Him? For me, I dont like it when I tell God, Ill spend time with Him and at the last minute, I fly aeroplane. At least it bothers me and I make it up to Him by spending more time in His presence and fellowship with Him on the weekends.

Do you fly aeroplane with God?

These are convictions I live by. Do you have any convictions in your life? Or are you a person of comfort, convenience and preference? You just wanna do some things because you FEEL like?

The proof of your desire is in your pursuit.
How hard do you pursue God? How hungry are you spiritually?

Do you love your bags and shoes more than you love God?
Do you love your bed more than you love God?
Do you love your wallet more than you love God?
Do you even love your friends more than you love God?

Worship is not putting God first, worship is putting God only.
There's no room for second best, or third best.

These are things I have felt, what I have seen, what has been there. You can choose to ignore it, you can choose to accept it and change.

No one likes change, not even me.
But Ive changed and moved on, with the vision and the heartbeat of CHC.

So what if people say we are 'brainwashed'?
As least we're brainwashed to lead a righteous life.
And yes, our brains have been washed...and therefore renewed.
What about you? You're not even brainwashed and you lead an unrighteous life?

Come on.

You can have a saved heart and yet a pagan mind.
God wants your mind to be renewed. He seeks life transformation.
People who blatantly talk about brainwashing, never grasped the concept of a renewed mind in the first place. They think as long as they believe, they will be saved.

Well, let me say this, demons believe in God too.
Demons know the bible too.
Demons can quote verses too.

So where do you stand now?
What makes you different from the rest?
Are you even DIFFERENT from the people out there?

Haha, people ask me to be more outspoken, to share more, to speak my heart more.
Will you take it? lol. I think if I do, no one wants to be my friend. =p
Unless you have a strong spirit, strong convictions, and a strong conscience...=O

In any relationship/friendship, there must be common vision, common values and goals, if not its very hard to maintain. There will be compromising here and there.

I think friends and partners shouldnt live to tolerate each other, but to really love, to accept, and to give into each other's lives.

"Love is not you having the person, Love is the person having you." (Random)

Its alright if some people dont change. I can still love while hurt, encourage while depressed, heal while brokened. These are just whats on my mind lately...And Im talking about various people here. Not just one or two.

I think pastor made a good statement yesterday...

"God has a destiny and purpose for you. Some people dont follow, they want their own things, plan their own life, and yet they dare ask God to bless their plans?"

God is moving.
The church is moving.

Dont be left behind.

AqueousXP

Seow Shi jia you. =D

Amber Tan Xiao Fen =)

Haha, hot topic eh?

Well, lets see...its a pretty strange how I got to know Amber and her cg.

Whats even more strange is how I got to know the strange way that got me to know her cg..

Before I share about this great inspiration of mine,

It all started with Shing. Well, back then, I was crazy about chc, I still am btw, I wanted to know a whole lot of people so I added practically anyone or everyone from chc haha. And Shing so happened to be a random add to my Myspace page, which is...'dead'....? Haha.

Eventually through the wonderful invention of MSN, she found out that I played guitar for cg, so there was once her cg (Amber's cg) needed someone.

So, being a total stranger, and back then, I was just starting out as cgg, I didnt know much, nor had much experience. I was filled with excitement, just to be able to serve God..its like..."wow, Im finally serving God..and in less than 3 months, someone wants me to play in another cg" I was so excited and unafraid of failure.

I was still adjusting to flow with my own cgl, who was Evangelyn at that time. She's another great leader, I can say she was the one who saw me grow and impacted me the most...=)

So being a TOTAL freshie for God...I was excited, I had faith that says, "Fail so what? Fail only ma..I just wanna do something for You, God..." hahaha.

During that first meeting at one of Amber's cgm's place, it was only there and then, I met Shing personally, for the FIRST TIME haha. And of course, I eventually got to know Amber and the rest of her cg...well, not the rest, but some...cus I was really shy and...okay la...I still am a bit here and there...=x

I guess if God made a cow, you cant call it cat right? Haha...*okay, where did I get the COW from? Hmm...nvm, just randomness haha. The first thing that came to mind..=O.

When I asked Evan, she asked me if Im confident, am Im ready, and all...cus I was REALLY new. Furthermore my guitar is self learnt, there is so much limitation, but in the eyes of faith, there's no such thing as limitation.

So she finally said, "Andrew, if u think you can do it, and you want to, I think you can give it a shot.." And I was so encouraged and happy.

A freshie, being sent to play for other cgs...it felt like I was in "Just for Laughs" or something..

Even the thought of it all, made me laugh...I remembered when God told Sarah she was gonna have a child, she laughed too..LOL. I guess that was how I felt, but God smiled, because He knew I was gonna get a shock of my life that will propel me into my destiny..

Surprisingly, I flowed okay for the first meeting, and then, 2-3 meetings later, guess what? They had MINISTRY!!!

Ive never played for ministry before! =X But I played through...my first attempt. Haha, amber, I dont think you knew right? I dont know what Shing told you about me, maybe she said Im a good guitarist, whatever, and all that..haha.

I was literally playing on ZERO percent effort, 100 % faith...LOL...I knew what ministry session was, but Ive only been in one...and during that meeting, Evan was playing the guitar, not me, cus I was that new..

I remembered my first cg, Karyie was the laughing machine. Ive never been so scared of a girl in my entire life...but really she scared the living daylight out of me HAHAHA. Then her close 'buddy'...seow ting...

I was sitting on the bus and both of them were facing me..I dunno why they see my face keep on whispering and laughing..lol..first meeting only kena teased. O_O haha.

And then just last year, I met Seow Shi, and I didnt know her sister was Seow Ting. So one day, I think she said she meeeting her sis or something, and to my HORROR..I saw Seowting and I was like..."WAHHHH...YOOUUUUUUUU????" lol....haha.

Seowting gave me that mischievous impression, kinda scary haha..then Joshua was telling me, Seowshi was scarier hahaha..OOPS =X nah im kidding...i think..haha =p

Amber taught me alot..

You might ask, how often we really sat down and talked? Not much.

But she talked to me, through her life, through her cg. Her life, was a living bible. Recently, they've been having 50 over people consistently for around 3 weeks already I think, since xmas 2008.

It really impacted me alot. Seeing the number of people, seeing the unity in the cg, brought my faith to a whole new level..when I first started out with her, she would often give me feedback about my guitar playing during PnW, and I learnt alot.

More than just the figure of a person of authority, she was a great friend too. Even if I just had to but scotchtape for her, haha..I was happy I could serve someone like her. Even though buying tape was just a few minutes, to me, it meant eternity to me. Knowing that even that smallest acts of service we give to honor those around us, we will have our eternal reward..

Amber, you were the pioneer, of who I am today.

Because of the one memorable moment with your cg, Ive been sent to almost 5 other different cgs, maybe more, ranging from Sembawang, Yio Chu Kang, all the way to Bedok, Tampines. From the west, to the north, to the east...Ive seen so many cgs, flowed with so many leaders, and it really opened my eyes to a whole new realm.

Someone once asked me, how do I flow with so many different leaders from so many different zones? First of all, its a gift from God. And most of the cgs I go to, are my first times. And for some strange reason, when Im there, somehow there will be ministry, last minute moving in the HS, laying of hands, etc...

The answer is simple. Obedience, Faith, Worship, Relationship.

Ultimately, its not about flowing with the leader, its about flowing with God. If you can flow with God, you should have no problem flowing with everyone.

And when I go to other cgs, Im not just there to serve, Im there to be part of it. I soak into their vision, I soak into their fellowship, I soak into their atmosphere. I dont care if Im the only one tearing..I make it my own cg.

When you serve people, they will lead you.
But when you serve God, He will lead you.

Our relationship with God, will determine our relationship with people.

God is doing something, but my destiny is too big for me to see at this point in time, and God is revealing bit by bit to me...

I know being antisocial isnt a good thing, well, Im not TOTALLY Antisocial, its just im not comfortable being around people sometimes. Im more of a solitude, thinking-reflecting, meditative kind of person.

I have no problems being alone and stuff, most of the time, I like being alone.

Well, being alone is not the same as being lonely..loneliness, thats something else..that NS introduced into my life =S But im not gonna go into that direction.

I guess Im so sensitive to God, is because most of the time, Im alone, just Him and me. Thats the good thing about being alone...=) Everyday, you just get closer and closer to God..consecration, whatever you call it..haha. WAit...I dun think thats the right word haha.. but anyway, yea, you get the idea haha.

One thing still scares me though, I gave my guitar to seowshi as her christmas present, the week after, they had 50 people. =OOOOO =///////

If you are looking for a cg on saturdays, W320 is the most happening CG in the whole of Jurong. =)

Planetshakers - I Believe

I heard a story just the other day
About a man who gave His life away for me
Complicated yet it seems so clear
If I open up my heart, He'll be so near to me
I believe in You
I believe in You

(Repeat)

I believe in You
I believe Your word has set me free
With all that I am
I will live my life for you
I believe

I read a story just the other day
About the way you healed the blind man, made him say:
"Here I stand, crying out to you
All I need is faith to see a miracle in me"
I believe in you
I believe in you

I believe in you
I believe your word as set me free
With all that I am
I will live my life for you
(I believe)

(Repeat)

I believe in
I believe in
I believe in you

(Repeat)


Havent got anything to blog lately. Haha. Usual stuff going to work and all.

Maybe someone can post a topic or a QnA and I will dedicate a post just to answer you? hahaha.

Clearvista, Ops?

ClearVista with a slight Windows7 look, color scheme to be exact. Other than that, nothing much special.

The closest thing to Windows7 is this skin:


Cool huh? I found it on the WB website but there are some bugs.

I was 15 minutes early.
I waited for 45 minutes like a clown.
Only to be told, there's no ops today.
Well, happy? Yes.
Irritated? Yes.

But Im glad its over.

Now to attend service...(I think I have a new favourite speaker lol)

Update

Havent really had the time or the inspiration to blog lately.

Just feels weird, for the first time in 6 years, the day finally came lol..

"Adam, I wont be attending service this sat"..

Miracle lol. Kena night ops deployment tonight. Ill be going service 4 tmr. =x

Haha. Dots.

-- I think this mp3 clip I uploaded on imeem says alot. --
(Sorry, if you hear a volume suddenly drop, nope, its not ur speakers haha. Something the webcast guy did with the levels I think, go up and down =/ But overall, the anointing in this clip is amazing, good for quiet time. Esp when ps moves in the spirit ;))

I just have a feeling someone needs this. =)

SUPER short rant. =D

To people who love looking stupid, Ill grant you the desires of your heart.

So here's something for those people who love squeezing into and out of the MRT trains during peak hours as if MSK had a twin brother, one inside the train, and one outside. O_O

People who can afford to push around in the MRTs would be driving their own cars if they had been pushing at the right places.

Back from Thanksgiving Bash, Thoughts, Revelations

Back..haha..

It was awesome. We had fun. And Adam's warcry was just epic lol. Night cycling was..."OMG" to me, cus firstly, I cant cycle. And even if I do, I dont think Ill ever last that long lol. But at least I didnt do so bad I guess, for my first attempt after 10 years? hahaha.

Glad Liz's friend, Anthony came. Great guy to talk with. Adam can talk to him about soccer e whole night and I can talk to him about police stuffs e whole night haha.

Sorry I didnt stay up e last night cus I have 3 days worth of workload to finish within one day and my weekends are kinda 'burned' already. And you know me, I get agitated when Im unproductive. Whole night Ill just think of my reports and work...and that burns me out even more..

Btw, just for general info, one sure way to kill yourself, is to present on-the-spot changes to me. Last minute changes, when given enough time, I still wouldnt mind. But last minute, on the spot, changes, if you present them to me, you're gonna die, whether ure my friend or not.

Im a thinker, and I can plan VERY WELL. Its just sometimes, people get in the way. And sad to say, most of the time they do. Im a very calculative person, I into details a LOT. Even long term plannings, I have them right to the details.

You dont have to change my plan, you just have to change the details a BIT and its enough to piss me and turn me off already. It doesnt matter what plans they are, even if lets say, a girl suddenly comes to me and asks me to be her boyfriend, you can go home, climb your window and jump down lol.

If you want to 'suddenly' me, you can 'suddenly' die.

If ure someone I know for lets say 2-3 years, Ill be quick and GLAD to say yes to you. But if ure a stranger or an acquaintance, forget it.

You just simply want a relationship MORE than you want me.

And so..

Just now I was thinking, and many things came to mind. So dont mind me penning down my revelations because in the future when I look back and think of the great breakthroughs Ive received, I get encouraged and strengthened. =)

1. "The truth hurts"

Well, simply put, if it doesnt hurt, its not the truth.

Any relationship thats not built on truth, will not last. It doesnt matter if you're a spiritual giant, a cg leader, a member, or an unchurched. You can even believe in God. Well..Satan-Lucifer believed in God, he even served God in the most highest place, yet he had no truth, he still went to hell.

In this world there are rules, and bad things happen when rules are broken.

Relationships arent meant to stroke each other's ego, once in awhile, its good. But if ure gonna keep on doing it, ultimately, ure just bringing him/her closer to you and one day, when his/her 'normal' attributes show, you get upset, disappointed and angry.

Its like you seeing a tiger, you tell it its cute, you feed it, and you ask him to come to you so that you can stroke it. And when you stop doing so, it bites your head and ure dead.

Even is business, daily life, this applies. You dont need to be a rocket scientist.

So please, practice common sense.

God said, 'give me your heart', because He wants you to keep your brain.

And if ur life isnt changing, then change your brain, change your thinking.

2. Love is not an emotion, love is a choice.

I personally dont believe in falling in love, falling out of love. Because since you've been falling here and there, it just shows you've dont NOTHING.

Continue falling, and you'll continue failing.

3. Character above relationship.

I dont have to say much, you love the person? Good. You've accepted the person the way he/she is. So dont complain if he/she doesnt change. Too bad, soo sad.

4. Generalization is a sign of mediocrity and the lack of passion.

People with the "they all", "you all", "he's always..", "she's always", "its always like that", attitude, are very often very shallow and mediocre people. It just simply shows that ure not interested in things/people. You dont bother to find out, you simply dont care, yet you want things done? Dumb. You can kiss the wall and hope it talks back to you..lol.

5. Pressing into each other's lives.

I loved what Adam said regarding this. And my all favourite, Dr Robb Thompson said this once before. True friends are INTERESTED and PRESS INTO each other's lives.

They love talking about what their friends love even if it doesnt interest them.
They love to find out whats going on in their friends lives.
Even if their friend doesnt talk back to you, you take the initiative.

They are your passion.

Do you have friends like that?
Do you have this attribute yourself?

The proof of your desire is in your pursuit.

Alienware - The Alien from WindowBlinds

With custom Iconset/Cursor.

2009, Thoughts, Randoms, Laptop?

Well..happy new year to all I guess.

This year didnt really have the christmas mood, nor the new year mood. My whole biological clock is screwed up. My year always starts around May-July since poly, about 4 years, now 5 years ago.

Well, lets start with christmas.

Didnt receive any presents, didnt buy any presents, haha. Okay, maybe a few goodies/greetings here and there, but thats just about it. New year, while people were counting down, I was going midnight jogging alone...'so healthy'...

Maybe at the end of 2009 Ill do a countdown, NO...ill do a countup!! YES!! lol..People will go, "5, 4, 3, 2, 1...HAPPY NEW YEAR!" Ill go..."1, 2, 3, 4, 5...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!" Isnt that great. =O

So instead of people going "....1....HAPPY NEW YEAR"...Id figured that something like.."10..(or)..60...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!" 10, 25, 60..then happy new year...got more POWER mah..haha. Ok, whatever..=S

Im just gonna make this a short post..im sleepy and tmr have to go back to work. =/ Then after that its..


HECTIC man!!! And I still have accumulated work from 2008 that have yet to be finished. Still have to pack bag. Buy stuffs...feels like...BOOKING IN...ZOMG! =X Im thinking of bringing my laptop...so much work to do =/ *Sigh.

Then again, I need a laptop bag to begin with..no wait..Ive been procrastinating. I wanted to get a new PC/laptop like months ago and I havent done anything, only today I started collecting ONE brochure. Well done Andrew, you deserve a smack on the head..

My "1" and "2" keys dont work, means my '!' and '@' cant be typed. I have to open character map! =S And I just found out that Toshiba laptops have a burnout problem. Ive researched on the net, many complained that Toshiba laptops are too HOT...even in an airconditioned room, it burns! =/ And I realised my toshiba has been burning hot and consuming more electricity then I guess..not exactly a value for money.

This oldie costs like what? 2.7k? Now a better one costs only 1k. And the specifications are so much better.

Im thinking between an Asus, Fujitsu and Lenovo Thinkpad, any suggestions? =D

Acer and Compaq, maaaybe, last resort I guess. IBM? Too business, doesnt have gaming/multimedia specs.

HP? Good but a LITTLE expensive, definitely out of the picture lol. Itll be nice if....okay never mind. haha.

Sony Vaio or other Sony laptops? Havent heard/known much.

Toshiba? NO. Until they fix the cooling problem with all their models (so strange, yes..ALL Toshiba laptops have this problem).

And no Dell, mass produced products have their setbacks..haha. Which is pretty obvious.

No Ferrari, no Lamborghini, and no...ALIENWARE! Haha...Although I wish one day I could afford an Alienware.. =O

The world is progressing..technology is getting better and as a result of market influence, and mass production, stuff gets cheaper too. Just look at Intel chips. Since the Quad came out, all the mass produced Duos' prices are dropping like nuts.

Thats how it should be, as we are being transformed more and more into the image of God. World's prices 'drop' as standards go higher, because of better technology, new discoveries, etc. God has infinite standard, and thus, infinite resources. Thats that ultimate, right at the top...you can go no further.

See? Even God represents business and economics..haha.

Okay, Im sidetracking, and this post isnt short anymore..lol. =/

http://www.alienware.com

(For the IT savvy, or those interested to see what an Alienware laptop is like)

WindowsMAX