Disturbed, Provoked, Questions and more Questions..

Today is half day, but my half day is gone, cant even do a ONE report from 1pm-6pm. Thats why I hate being around people. I feel I can do so much alone. Nothing can distract me, no one can disturb my plans. Not that I hate them, but I just feel damn pissed about the whole thing.

So unproductive. I hate myself. I think Im going to go emo and slip into depression...Sigh.

God, You can control time if You wanted.
In fact, You have all the time in all of eternity..
You can do everything You wanted.
You can do so many things at one time.
You can be omnipresent, omni this and omni that...

I am created Your image and likeness. Yet my capacity is so limited by time and space. I just feel so far from being like You... =(

Why did You create time in the first place?
Why cant I even work and rest at the same time?
I thought all things are possible? =S

So many questions, so deep they are, but I know I probably wont get most of the answers until I 'go home' to be with You..which is like..still a long ways off.

Im a thinker, Im a feeler, Im an observer, a hearer.
Talkers have their gifts, but a quiet person has his too.
Extroverts can connect with the seen, while introverts like me connect with the unseen.

Whats Your whole concept about time and energy, mass, physics and quantum studies? One verse that intrigued me was that You had to REST on the seventh day. When did infinity come to a limit? Or is there something significant about the word, 'rest'? Is there a deeper meaning behind it?

I wanna do so much, yet I cant.

God, please renew my mind to be more like You, and REALLY more like You. Im a little impatient Im sorry, but thats how hungry I am.

Let the verse, "...created in His image and likeness..." be so real to me...

Jogging, 2008 Reflections, Service

Went jogging just now, and after my run, I walked around awhile and chatted with God. And scenes of 2008 began to play before my eyes. Truly, its been the greatest year of my life. And I believe 2009 will be the best year yet. =D

Indeed we are going from glory to glory, strength to strength, faith to faith!!!

Here are just a list of things I wanna thank God for:

1. I wanna thank God, for my NS life. Enlisting into SPF was definitely exceedingly, abundantly above what I asked or even conceived in my mind. Tough as it may be, it has toughened me in some ways. And for my posting, even though it has just started out, I thank You for everything. From the people, to the schedules, being able to NOT miss a single service. Indeed, what else can I say? God, I love You...THAT much. And faith moves the hand of God.

2. I wanna thank God for a few people:

a. Amber - You have been a shining example and a great friend. Even though I only showed up late 2007, I didnt really know you nor anyone in the cg. I was there as a servant, but in 2008, I thank you that I feel more closer to you and ur cg (Im now there as a friend and a part-time member? haha), slowly, one by one, step by step. Serving you early this year, have opened my eyes to alot of things, gave me spiritual exposure and challenged my skills and my spirituality...challenged my thinking to a whole new level. =)

b. Seowshi - What can I say? 2008 was the year you came into my life. I dont know whether is it I came into your life or you came into my life haha...but I just wanna say thank you for everything, every sacrifice, every effort to do your best. And God will honor you. You are like an angel sent from God, if not for certain things you have done or said, I wouldnt still be around, or I wouldve just stayed at where I was. I wanna say that no matter how small or insignificant the things you do or say may be at times, your presence alone, was already more than what you could say or do. No matter how small...no matter how insignificant, it has changed destiny, changed lives, and Im sure you have been blessed greatly in return as well. =)

2008 was also the year you pioneered the 'Teach guitar for free' thingy in my life, being my first student. =D Because of you, God has opened many doors for me to teach others for free, to be a blessing. And now..coming to the end of the year, "Teach guitar for free" ... for some reason has now become "Teach guitar and then give guitar for free" LOL. But its great. I dont know of anyone in church who has ever done that..

c. Timothy - Its interesting how we first met in TAF club. I remembered I just smiled and said hi. Now that cute chubby fella is saying to me, "Andrew, I feel you have to change in some areas..." haha. Indeed, God works in mysterious ways. Thanks for being a great friend, a close brother to me. I just feel that in 2009, there's just so much more I can learn from you. Everytime I see you in the forefront, Im just fidgety, its just something about you that I wanna 'extract' out. But I guess, God feels its not the right time to reveal it. Im glad Im always hungry spiritually, I wanna get everyone's anointing lol.

d. Alicia, Pranee, Adelene, Qiyu, Stella, Joshua, ChinMing, Kaiser, Ziyang, Torance, Wyelin, Shing, Weiming - Thank God for all of you. The little things you've done, the great things you've done. Just knowing you guys, was the greatest moment in my life. And I will say again, all of you are my 'test subjects' LOL. Im just finding your hidden talent and then Ill hunger and go for it. =D Haha..nah, you guys arent my test subjects..haha. You guys have been great. But really, I AM looking for something about each of you that I can learn, I can 'extract' haha. Hope our friendships can go to another level in 2009. =)

e. Adam & E420 - There's just so many things I wanna say. I could just combine all the previous 4 paragraphs and paste it here in one huuuuge block. If I could use my 'awesome' vocabulary to sum it up, it would be to thank you guys, for making my latter in 2008, greater than my former. Thanks for leaving my life, never the same. Multiplication...will come to E420 in 2009 in Jesus' name!!!

3. I wanna thank God, for Himself. =) For being everything to me, nothing and no one can ever replace You. Thank you for revealing more of Yourself to me. Thank You for moving greater in my life. I never had much, but You have taken what's left of me, to glorify Your name. Just like how You are happy when Im happy, Im happy too when You're happy. Because of You, ***missing text (no vocab available for description)***

Because of You..everything happens! =)) That would be the best I can put it in words. 2008 is the year I received my second unusual miracle, it is also the year, I experienced marketplace breakthrough and miracles. =)

New level, new devils, but the same God that is gonna defeat them all. =)

Service today was good. Remember Lot's wife...

Do not look back at:

1. OLD SINS that have been forgiven.
2. OLD DEFEATS that got you down.
3. OLD CONFLICTS that made you bitter.
4. OLD VICTORIES...and think you have arrived ;)

Thats it for now. I will blog my visions for 2009 sometime soon. Before this entry 'explodes' cus its too long hahaha.

Thats not my name? They saw my dick? Rants.

Sorry for the lack of updates, no time to blog lol. And thanks to those who encouraged me and all, I was out of depression in 24-48 hours. =)

Okay, I really must blog this, I cant contain the laughter anymore..

They saw my dick...
They saw my dick...
They saw my dick...
They saw my...DICK!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Tranny song, WTHROFLMAOLOL!!!

Okay, the air has come out of me. haha. Sorry man, I jus cracked the first time I heard this song. Hehehehehe.

Okay, Im sane now. =/

Anyway, christmas drama was good. Every year the drama team is just so creative. And every service, every day, they just come up with creative ideas to add more scripts to the drama.

Sunday..omg..what sunday..I meant..thursday..I keep on thinking christmas was on Sat and Sun =/ Thursday, after svc went to fellowship with Pamela's cg, together with Queenie, Stella and Aini. Tapaoed at Airport T3, makaned, fellowshipped and played some games..haha. It was great. =D

Looking forward to service...=)

Let me rant a bit here now.

Is carrying umbrella a fashion statement? LOL. The weather is cool and windy, but I see people carrying umbrella, esp..well..the ladies. =O

Hmm if its hot, I can understand, if its raining, of course, why not. But on a cool, shady, windy day? =S Hmm.

Ooooookay, assuming ure afraid of bird shit, but there arent any birds around, let alone much trees. O_O

Or worse come to worse, ure scared of wind. So maybe you wanna protect yourself from being blown away or something, but that too doesnt make sense, neither does it make dollars. By carrying an umbrella wouldnt you get blown away easier? :O Hmm.

So someone told me, "Cus it looks like its gonna rain ma..." Haha. Okay. So..

If I look like I need to go to the toilet...does it mean I take off my pants now? ^.O

Depressed

Im crying on my 21st birthday, Im crying on my POP parade, and now Im crying on christmas.

I can forgive others easily, but I can never forgive myself.
Others can let me down, but I cannot let others down.
Others can take advantage of me, but I cannot take advantage of others.

Sometimes I wish Id never existed...Id wish all the problems would just go away.

No one to turn to, in times of need.
No shoulder to lean on, no one there to give me hug.
No one to talk to when Im down...

No one understands what Ive been through, nor know the sacrifices Ive made to get to where I am today. Its not easy to put up a brave front. If I smile for one second it's already a miracle. Thats how much it's cost me.

Sometimes, I think back..I was happier without any friends. No one to hurt me, I wasnt close to anyone, I could hurt people and not feel a thing...everything was plain and numb.

So many things I wanna blog last night, but everything's gone...

Revelations, Randoms

Hmm yesterday I got 2 revelations.

The first one:

You can show unconditional love, and yet not have unconditional love.
Because just by showing unconditional love to only one person,
That alone, is a condition.

The second one:

"My friend is bad" is an example of poor vocabulary, and a lack of wisdom.
Firstly, how can a friend be bad? Please go to http://www.dictionary.com
Secondly, there's no such thing as wrong friends, only wrong decisions.

Okay, now for some random stuff.

I dunno why, people are msging me, "hahaha your dream...". Like 5 people already? LOL. Seriously, I dunno what made u laugh hahaha. Its kinda freaky to me. =/

Oh well...sometimes people see my face only wanna laugh. Guess it cant be helped LOL.

And..I dont whats wrong with my connection..the download speed sucks. =/

And...I need a new laptop.. =O Mine's already like 5 year old!! Thats even longer than my first PC..=/

Service, My Hope, Nightmare?

Candlelight service was great. What a beautiful sight. Indeed you can never know what one small candle can do, it will light up your life. My Hope was good too. Glad to meet new friends. Over-abundance of food though..haha.

Last night I had a strange dream.

Isnt it interesting? That what we dream most of the time at night, is what our mind is being fed while we are at our 'sleepy stage' lol.

If you talk to me about this and that, when Im sleepy before I go to sleep, it will register itself in my sub conscious mind, as my conscious mind is shutting off lol, so that when Im sleeping, my sub con becomes super active and I begin to dream about it hahaha.

Anyway, alicia...youuuuuu...lol, chat to me about chinese ghost show...

At night I really dream of ghost!!!

Well, I was first on a MRT, and it was going backwards from Jurong East. What do I mean by backwards? The track thats going to clementi...I was on a train on THAT track, but it was reversing..back to boon lay. On the train, I was...squashed by2 girls? lol..but thats not the point hahaha.

And so halfway, the scene changed.

I alighted at a jungle with a group of 3. Me and 2 other guys. We were there for some investigation or jungle trekking of some sort. It was midnight.

We went into the jungle and there were news of a pontianak roaming around, eating innocent people and thus we had, 'missing people' cases. So I figured we were there to check it out or something. To me at that time, it was like, "Nah..where got such thing, just go lor"..haha.

And so one of my buddies, (I dont know any of them btw, nor recognise their faces haha), went missing, played around...at the site where the Pontianak was supposed to show up, he planted a bomb, hoping to destroy the entire section of the forest to wipe out the Pontianak and her home.

He was crazy or something..he wanted to detonate it immediately. It was at an abandoned building in the middle of the forest. And so, just before he pressed the remote, a vine...emerged from the bushes behind him, grabbed him, and pulled him in and he died.

Next day, the SAF was deployed to the forest as well. They encountered a metal fence and attempted to blow their way through, to get into the forest.

I was there again with the last guy remaining, who was my buddy.

Both of us, together with the SAF who joined us shortly later, were standing at the abandoned house in the middle of the jungle, at midnight. It was cold, quiet and creepy.

My buddy was going to plant a second bomb, to destroy the place. He did place the bomb. So he stood in front of the bomb, at the corner of the house, briefing the SAF about the situation.

His back was facing the bushes behind.

When he had briefed finished, the SAF were reluctant to believe that a Pontianak actually exists. All of a sudden, there was a woman coming from the other end of the 'open section' where we stood, surrounded by trees and bushes.

She was wearing some cloak of some kind..and her face was just some gray thing sticking onto it. She was faceless. Talk about being creepy. Everyone turned and prepared to fire. When my buddy talked to the Pontianak and told her that if she provoked us, she would die and this entire section will be wiped out.

Btw, the pontianak wasnt really a spirit, but someone you can touch tangible with your senses.

She made some strange sound and next thing, she was gone.

Everyone was on high alert, prepared for whats gonna happen next. My buddy, whose back was facing the bush, later on suffered the same fate as the first guy who died. Vines coming from behind grabbing him, but this time, the pontianak stepped out, and pulled him into her mouth with the vines and my last buddy died.

The SAF attacked the pontianak but they were losing one by one. And so..I was the last man standing, I just stood there, watched the whole thing. People were lying everywhere, some injured, some dead.

And Pontianak looked at me and started walking towards me. So I walked backwards.

She continued walking towards me and I continued walking backwards. We walked in circles. O_O Then she stretched out both her hands towards my face and said in a creepy voice, "Can you stop walking backwards?"

I said, "Look, if you'd stop walking forward, Ill stop walking backwards"...

She said, "Can you listen to me for awhile..."
"I dont mind, but can you stop coming forward for awhile? Look, I wanna help you but first could you give me some space?"

So she stopped.

I was totally calm. Her voice was creepy, yes. I stood there, and she stood there, face to face. I was thinking, maybe her vine is gonna shoot out again and eat me up. And the vine did come out. But as it did..the gray spot covering her face began to dissolve away and I saw her face.

MAN! I sworn I wouldve freaked out. Her eyes were yellow and were looking up, her face was whitish gray with wrinkles and she has dried up purplish lipstick on her lips. And her mouth was just a line with a small hole. Her hair was curled up, but shoulder-length long.

And she said, "Why do these people want to destroy me?"
"Well, many people have died because of you.."
"Do you hate me?"
"Of course not. I came here just to see you." (which I did, cus I didnt do anything but watch lol)

Her face began to change shape. She was pretty..but her skin was still whitish gray.

"Will you destroy me too?"
"Nah, who am I to decide your fate? You didnt attack me.."
And she held my hand..stared straight into my eyes.

She said, "You are a nice person, could you do one thing for me?"
"Hmm..sure..what is it?"

And she began to whisper in my ear, I didnt know or couldnt hear a word. But in my dream, I agreed.

Pontianak: "Thank you...you are such a nice person...thank you so much..."

And she started to 'muack muack' me....=OOOOOOOOOO!!!

And so I never knew what she said to me. The next day, I dreamt myself, walking to the same spot alone. This time, it was in the afternoon. I held the detonator in my hands...

I smiled. Stood a distance away from that abandoned house...

And pressed the detonate button. *A huge explosion took place. And I looked up into the sky, hoping to see my pontianak friend again...

OPS, Faith and Giving

--OPS--

Well, slept at 4 plus this morning haha..after a tiring night ops. Basically 3 cars were scheduled for e operation. One CCK, one woodlands and one TL car. Because I know nuts and have ZERO experience, I tagged along with the TL haha.

Basically e main objective was deterrance of MVT (motor vehicle theft). And since I was in the TL's mobile, we patrolled both locations. Basically just go round carparks, in areas with high crime rate, on blinkers and scare off people who are trying to commit MVT.

The rationale behind this is really simple, since most NPCs have night shift teams, and the area is soo big and the really need manpower, so we, the office hours staff, get deployed for ops like these to help them 'look after' their zones/districts. Preventing crime and all. It lightens their work load and at the same time, residents can have the peace of mind that nothing will happen to their parked vehicles. But its not 100% fool-proof.

MVT cases still occur now and then.

Well, there's a few interesting things that occured. While patrolling on mobile, there's this really brave girl, but like someone said, "i dunno if its called brave or simply asking-for-it"..haha, this girl was wearing tshirt and shorts that couldnt be seen, jogging alone in the middle of the night, in some ulu spots somemore. =O omg..

Its was like...'visually distracting' haha..but at the same time, what was she thinking? If I had a girlfriend I wouldnt let her go jogging in the middle of the night alone. We patrolled from area to area, and almost every area, we would see her. O_O Either TL was driving in circles or she's really random..jogging anywhere and everywhere..lol.

And some pathways along the road, that she jogged on, were beside forested areas and abandoned houses. =/ So creepy lol.

After awhile, we parked quietly at another carpark with nobody around. Man..everywhere we went is quiet, dark and ulu. And then all of a sudden there was this car that drove in. There was a couple inside. I was standing outside the patrol car when e guy started to walk towards me. Man, was he huge and fierce looking..

I was gonna take up stance, preparing myself to draw my baton just in case..then he was like, "Hey sorry ah officer, can you dun summon my car, I just wanna go toilet, Ill be back, I promise.." and I was like 'oh sure'. Haha *relief. First time ma..the adrenaline.

Another time, TL's car met up with the woodlands car, and while the senior regulars went to tapao some food, I was alone with another NS guy. Then this auntie suddenly come from nowhere, "Hello officers...*waving frantically...you guys from woodlands ah?"

"Er..no we're from jurong.."
"Oh hahaha..nice to see you guys patrolling around. Im from IMH ah..but I dunno why they put me inside also. Im not insane right?"

Both of us just stoned there stunned and just smile and politely answered the lady lol. I was new, so I asked e other guy, "is she a regular?" "What regular? I dunno her sia.." haha. =/

And so we ended everything about 3 plus..and I walked home..took 20-30 minutes lol =S

--FAITH AND GIVING--

Well, I shall not reveal too much. Cus..I wouldnt know who read my blog anyway right? haha. Indeed those who sow in tears shall reap in joy.

Faith moves the hand of God.

All of us, will come to a point in our life, in our walk with God, that sometimes you just gotta trust and obey. Sometimes things dont make sense, but you jus gotta do it with joy. All of us will one day come up to a level where we have to break out of this shell...this old wineskin.

Back then, certain things cost you greatly, but as time goes by, you realised that the reaping has overtaken the sowing. Its time to go higher, dream bigger, and constantly upgrade yourself, be more anointed, more excellent. Going from glory to glory, strength to strength.

And I remembered ps once preached, glory is value. Your value has gotta go up. Where you are now, cannot be the same as when you first came to Christ. Everything is progressive.

Ive received a vision, a dream, Ive caught the fire, it's time to pass the baton.

Never let the fire of God burn out in your life.
Because whats left, is debris and charcoal.

Extinguishing a fire is worse than not lighting it at all..in other words.

Once you start a legacy, you leave behind something for people to follow. You set a milestone, you went the extra mile, you stood out and dared to be different.

They say, forget your past. But sometimes, you just gotta look at your past, in order to move forward. Remember the Lord. =)

You say you trust the Lord, how much do you trust Him? Let your actions speak for itself.

If your giving doesnt move your heart, it will never move the heart of God or your recipient. But yet, Im excited, because a big seed will reap a big harvest.

At the end of the day,

Its not really what you have, what you have given,
But its who you are that matters.

Flash Live Skin

Now this skin is HOT. LOL. Not only the color scheme rocks, the transparent windows, and flashing lights are so cool. It even comes with its own wallpaper and icons set.

1st pic: The My Computer window - The purple light at the top changes color all the time.
2nd pic: The start menu (TOP) - that white beam shoots out from the account picture.

Enjoy. =) (Ill blog about night stalker tonight XD)

Planetshakers - Evermore

I will sing
Of the mercy of the Lord
And I will shout
Of Your faithfulness oh God

For there is none like You
Seated in Your majesty
Holy One I come
To worship You forevermore

You are my God my life my all
And I live for You alone
I am Yours evermore
Heaven and earth will shout Your praise
The wonder of Your name
I'll proclaim evermore

Evermore
Evermore

And I will run
Into Your presence
And I will sing
Sing forever

Royale by WB

This skin by WindowBlinds is slightly different from the one you download on CNet or other computer sites. This one has a customised login screen, mini-taskbar, and other small but creative modifications.

The icons I used are from another set. They are high resolution-ed. =) And my firefox is using the google chrome skin =) Using a different mouse cursor too..haha.

A Pure Heart, Unusual Miracle

---A PURE HEART---

I was reading Shing's blog..

She said something about the verse "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.." that struck me.

Many times, seeing God doesnt always mean physically with ur eyes, or tangibly with your senses like how some people, after a great holy ghost meeting / church conference, will say "wow..it was awesome, I have seen God", etc. Its more like living a life without criticism and complaining, a life of faith and obedience.

For me, going back to camp, back then, wasnt something I liked, no matter how much I hated going back, I still went back. I didnt 'geng', take MC or whatever. I did my best, I lived my best. And now, looking back, in a way, I have seen God.

Confinement reports being cancelled, early bookouts twice a month, being given lighter punishment than the whole coy..all these things arent just great testimonies, but they're a demonstration of what God can do, for those whose hearts are towards Him.

Having a pure heart..is also like..

When ur parents are fighting, everyone's getting hurt and discouraged, you are able to see the hand of God at work, creating space for the gospel to penetrate in. You're able to, for example, see it as a good opportunity to show the love of God. You get excited...because you know your family is going to get saved.

But a heart that's impure, a heart that grumbles, will probably think.."Why must my parents be like that? Why must this happen again?" You will see the problem, but you cant see God. Instead of being the one different, you get dragged in and you follow everyone else..

Even though I hate doing ops, I try my best to look forward to it. Ive just been informed that because of my night ops, Im given one extra day leave. But what amazing is..

---UNUSUAL MIRACLE---

This whole leave thing...

Is part of an unusual miracle that took place just last week. You see, for this year, I only have 7 days of leave. And Ive used up quite a few, left with 3 days to clear by 31 Dec, cus we cant bring forward. So last fri, I applied my leave. And to my surprise, I was told I have 8 days of leave!!!

I double-checked with the staff, they checked e system, it says 8 days...:O

How can it be? No errors. Not only it looks like a miscalculation (cus I had only 3 days remaining), its even MORE than my total number of leave days this year!!!

And now, this night ops thing, they've given me 1 more day leave. Haha..the problem is..I have too many leave days, I cant clear them all!!! LOL. Its overflowing...

But also, my work is gonna pile up, so thats why Ive allocated 1-2 days in e week to go back and clear my work.

Back then during my sec sch days, after my Os, during that looooong break, I worked at Sentosa selling tickets and doing crowd control. I remembered I stopped work in May, my poly starts in July.

But at the end of June, I got a payslip for June..!!!? I didnt even work in June. And I dont think its those situation where ur pay gets brought forward due to some stuffs in the system, cus every month I DID get my pay, including end May! LOL..

That was my first unusual miracle. It was just before or during AnB season. And I was hardly even 1 year in church..

And now this unusual miracle of the leave-appear-from-nowhere, its also during AnB season.

And maybe I know e reason why its happening..cus..

IVE COMPLETED MY BUILDING FUND FOR MY 6 MONTHS PLEDGE! =)))

Random

What most people know: Patrolling is fun, its where all the action is.
What most people dont know: Escape from legal custody = detention barracks.

They dont tolerate nonsense too.

Poly days, Deployment

I went NP C1 to have lunch just now...man, I just miss that place...everything about it. Eating the kaki fuyong was like heaven lol. And also, now its holiday season, so its not so crowded..pretty quiet and romantic lol.

Plus, today's weather was just great...oh mannnnn...=/

Went to checkout the new JP..it IS huuuge. Its like vivo and bugis junction combined or something.

Anyway, I just received news ll be deployed for night prowling/ops duty on wed. 9pm-3am. So boring can, carry gun patrol at night. Screen vehicles, lingering youths, etc. I think my gun also snore. Plus, I dont like the idea of me carrying a gun. If you know my 'inner-temper', me carrying a gun is not a good idea.

Like..if I see some idiot smoking and blowing his smoke at people's faces, Ill take out my gun and shoot him in his mouth. Dont care who. Show no sympathy, show no mercy, I dont tolerate nonsense..=/

And..

I have shaky hands, even if I do fire, Ill probably just kill someone else. O_O

They say doing patrolling you have to be garang..but look at me..people see my face only wanna laugh already. And I dont raise my voice. I just smile, take out my gun and kill him. And Ill probably still be smiling after that saying, 'oops..' lol and thinking its some lame joke that I just killed someone.

And I have to wear full-u somemore. Gosh. My pants are like dropping and u wanna put a gun on it..I think the gun in between my legs are good enough man..O_O. Okay whatever.

Graaaahhh, I hate ops. In e first place, I hate being around people. So good luck to whoever I bump into on wed night. You'd better go home, eat your veggies, drink your milk, watch your porn and sleep..dont let me catch you..lol.

Just some pics. (Thanks to whoever's cam lol), Rants.

Hidden Post.

Service, Friends, Thoughts

Well..first of all, let me start by sharing a revelation I received today and type it out before I forget it lol. =/

You can believe in God and yet not believe God.
You can believe God exists and not believe He is real.

okay, back to the post..lol. Service was great. I particularly liked the 2D, 3D thing haha. And the number line thing, it totally blew me away. Yes, God doesnt reveal everything to us right now, cus there is a time and season for everything and..God already DID say, "My plans towards you are plans of good and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope."

So dont worry, just because you cannot see the 10s or the -10s in ur life, it doesnt mean its not there. Dont close the storybook when you've not read the whole thing! And God knows ur beginning and end so why worry?

Hendra came yesterday, he brought along his bro, hendrick haha. How I got to know Hendra was interesting, lets just say 3 things, "Asia Conference", "Blog" and "YouTube". He's indo btw, completed his masters in Aussie and is now working there. His bro has a bach deg and is probably working also...(Am i right? haha).

But they're indonesians so yea..parents in Indo. Kulantan or something, I cant rem, pardon me haha. =/

I felt so small..lol, one masters degree and one bach degree (dunno if he plays musical pieces ok lame)..but anyway, the whole asia conference thing sparked and he chanced upon my blog and thus we've been contacting via email e past few weeks or so. So he's on leave for a couple of days and flew to sg to attend our service. *Salute man.

Well, first of all, its interesting cus he's been praying to God for a friend in chc, specifically in e media ministry and *POP..I came along, from nowhere lol.

Okay, the youtube thing was a bit lame...

We were supposed to meet in expo or something, but he was using another phone so I couldnt get through to his Aust phone no. You can imagine the stress and the panic..I was so ganchiong haha...how how how...

Then as usual, after PM, I just felt I needed to go to e toilet..(*this time i admit, I wasnt really urgent, just felt like walking towards e toilet..and hoping maybe Ill feel urgent then..=x)

But not all e time im like that k!!! haha.

So I was walking and wondering, its 5pm, how am I gonna find him in all the 7000 over people. =/ And I heard a voice.."Are you andrew?" In case ure wondering, no I didnt fly, hit e ceiling and freakout..I was stunned actually...it was Hendra.

So I asked, 'how did u find me?' lol..so he was telling me, he was wondering how I would look like, so he viewed my links or something and he chanced upon my videos. So...he was smiling and giggling to himself or something and I thought what happened, and I realised its my videos...okay whatever, I hadnt been doing videos lately..hahahaha...=/

Fellowship was great..watched The Day The Earth Stood Still, midnight movie, with rhonda, wayne and my own cg. Celebrated thad and timo's 21st. This year so many 21st...me, rhonda, pam, thad, pow, timo lols. The fairsian 'expenditure', cus confirm spend alot on all these 21st birthdays all one shot lol.


I give this a 3.5/5 as I was expecting better, but oh well, its a slightly above average show to me, but to some, you might not catch e storyline, but I did =D haha.

For some reason, all of Keanu Reeves movies somehow has a 'common grace' in it lol. Matrix was the crucifixion, "It is finished *Bright cross!", and now the flood lol. God searched throughout the earth but found no one, except Noah..and so on, so forth..

Thank God when I was watching The Day The Earth Stood Still, my eyes didnt stood still =O. You can tell I seldom go to the movies or to MIDNIGHT movies for that matter..

And this morning wyelin was psychoing me to go watch Twilight because of some guy...hahahaha! =pp Okay never mind lol. Its your sweet 16 and I wont disturb you for now haha. Hmm I think I wanna watch Bolt..haha. =DD

Will blog again tonight or later...what am I talking about, later is tonight. O_O.


Sometimes I just hate my male hormones. Makes me do things Im not supposed to do, think of things Im not supposed to. It turns on and off here and then. So irritating! Because of it, I have to make decisions in my life, change my lifestyle, impose limitations, etc. There are times I just wish I wasnt born with them. Ps told us to embrace our humanity, but this is one part of my humanity I just cant embrace. One of the factors leading to me being antisocial at times is this! Graaahhhh...!! Sooo irritating!!

Purple...lol

Its now e same color as my wardrobe cabinet..lol And with e latest WindowBlinds, I can make it transparent like vista aero haha..but my laptop isnt really performance based so..yea..haha. For fun only..=x

More hot stuffs at:

http://www.wincustomize.com/skins.aspx?libid=1

Short post, Update, Love

Something came to mind when I was in the toilet.

Relationship ends, the moment it becomes a contract.

The moment you or e other party starts implementing your own terms and conditions.
The moment you set targets or timeframes.
The moment you take it from a place of infinity, to a place of limitation.

God is love, and love is infinite, unconditional, boundless and eternal.

God is love, until you know God, you have not known love.

A relationship is meant for you to love each other,
Not to tolerate each other. Dont blame the other person if he/she doesnt change. Too bad.
You shouldve mixed your heart with your brains.

Afterall, you DID chose him/her before you realised the need for him/her to change!

When God loved the world, He didnt say, 'believe in Me or go to hell'. In fact, He didnt even say anything. He went down there, demonstrated His love, "I love you...God forgive them, etc..", and moved on. He was secure, He did what He had to do, to the best of His abilities. The rest was up to us. In fact, I dont remember God ever saying, "Love Me", in the entire bible.

He did say "repent'', but never once, "love me". Because "love me" belongs to the devil. God never asks us anything to benefit Himself. Besides, He is Almighty, is there even anything that He needs, such that He even needs some form of benefit?

Even the 1st commandment, it says, "Love the Lord, YOUR God."
And not "Love Me, for I am your God."

Ive got a revelation, and I dont think anyone has said something like this before:

The desire to love, brings you into a love relationship.
The desire to be loved, brings you into a LOVED (past tense, it's over) relationship.

Plastic Fantastic - Windowblinds

Cute eh? =DD

Update, Sharing

Sorry for the lack of updates..service was great =) Served on sat and attended on sunday.

Recession-proof anointing...as ps was talking about it, I realised that Ive experienced that breakthrough even before Dr John Avanzini came..

My pay raise, allowances, etc..all these happened before Dr John came, the breakthrough came, the moment I mixed my prayer with my giving, the moment I took that step of faith, the moment obedience became greater than sacrifice. ;)

On saturday, during sound debriefing, Suraj was sharing us his experiences with ps kong as they grew up together over the years. It was just mind blowing and eye opening.

One thing I caught from him was something he said:

"Many pastors and churches, when the preach an offering message, you hear things like '30fold, 60fold, and a hundredfold. However, in the bible, God mentioned it the other way round.. He started with 100fold, 60fold then 30fold.

God starts BIG! When you ask for this much, He always does exceeedingly, abundantly, above all you can ask or think. Same with the parable of the talents...

Its not 1 talent, 5 talents, then 10 talents, but 10 talents, 5 talents, THEN 1 talent!"

And to end off this entry..let me say..

Ive cleared all my building fund! =))))

Dumbos

Just let me rant a bit here.

First of all, everyday, I get reports of people stealing and then getting caught by CCTV. Seriously, thats the stupidest crime Ive heard LOL.

Either Im just too smart, or people these days dont know how a CCTV looks like. Maybe they thought its a screen at the counter? LOL. Seriously, I read my reports I wanna laugh. Sometimes, I get so amused by the reports I fart. =O

I mean, why steal under a CCTV? You want your 5mins of fame? lol. Let me tell you a quick and effective path to fame and glory. Just go to orchard and shout: "I AAAAMMMM GAAAAYYY" LMAOROFLOL...=DD

Seriously, I like to make fun of criminals or people with a problem up there or inside, deep down there..lol..anyway..

Next...

People get phone scammed, and then making a report. HELLO?

"Congratulations...you have won $50000 dollars, please transfer your $1000 deposit to claim your reward. Thank you."

And people actually DO IT!! O_O Gosh..like that I can be rich man...so easily scam noobs lol. And worse thing is...they make a report. O_O. Hahaha..not only you give business to the scammer, you give business to the police..you increase the rate of employment in Singapore with your stupidity.

I overheard my colleagues laughing somewhere in the backroom, "Hahaha..people these days, still believe that money is free one...LOL!"

That is why..come to Jesus, because He owns everything, and He loves you, and will take good care of you. =P No need to steal, no need to get scammed...hahaha.

True Worshippers - Mengenal-Mu, Revelations

Bila kubuka mataku (When I open my eyes)
Dan lihat wajahMu (And look at Your face)
Ku terkagum (I am amazed)

Bila kulihat hidupku (When I look at my life)
dan karya tanganMu (And all the works of Your hand)
Ku tersanjung (I am honored)

Kar'na semua yang baik (Because all good things)
dalam hidupku (In my life)
Itulah karyaMu (They are Your wondrous works)
Kau b'ri k'sempatan yang baru (You give a brand new chance)

Dan ku ingin mengenalMu, Tuhan (And I want to know You, God)
Lebih dalam dari s'mua yang kukenal (Deeper than all that I have known before)
Tiada kasih yang melebihiMu (There is no greater love than Yours)
Ku ada untuk menjadi penyembahMu (I am here to be Your worshipper)

What a great song..=)

Today as I was having lunch alone, sitting in a secluded corner in the kopitiam, revelations upon revelations just downloaded into my head from heaven, it was as if a sermon tape was being played. I quickly took out my handphone and noted it down..(the best I could)..

Pastor Kong once said, Good can never influence evil. Only evil can influence good.

That is because good is a choice, not an influence.

You may not have what it takes to be evil, yet you end up doing evil, you are selfish, you lose your temper, you lie, you gossip, you take advantage of people, etc.

At the same time, you may have what it takes to be good, but still, you also end up doing evil. Because no one is perfect, in this world.

We were all created in God's image and likeness, then why did mankind end up in this state? That is because the moment we enter the world, we are already subjected to the influence of its fallen state.

As a baby, we had no shame, no guilt, no worries, to a baby, anything is possible. You tell him he can be superman, he will want to be superman and even acts upon that word and tries to jump from furniture to furniture thinking he can fly. A baby can run around the house naked and not feel any shame...because shame is not from God.

Sometimes, I can talk about such 'mature' things (M18 or R21) or whatever (these are just manmade standards), not because I run round naked or I sleep around or what. Thats how it was from the beginning. The two were one, male and female. There was unity, no gap in communication nor understanding. Thats why our minds must be renewed.

If you're behaving normally in this world, together with everyone else, then youve not really renewed your mind!

Because we should be different from this world, above this world, better than this world!

People may never enter a church or read a bible, most of them are stuck out there. Trying to 'influence' them may not work all the time, in fact, most of the time, without the anointing. Thats why we have the cultural mandate.

Going in there, rising up, and making a difference. That way, more than just influencing people, we are now having 'dominion' on the earth, in society, in the kosmos.

Because of that, people outside now have the choice, to WANT to make the decision for Christ. Soul winning is more than bringing people to church, it is pointing them to the church!

The sun must first RISE into the sky, THEN there will be daylight!

Messed up day..

Today was a messed up day..

I caught a flu..dunno from where..guess from my own lame jokes..

As a result, I couldnt concentrate properly..I dozed off in the toilet, bought the wrong food for my boss, forgot to bring some items for dispatch, I was lagging after I was given instructions, etc..

Hungry..will blog again later..

"Ahhhhhhhh.." + Random

A few days ago..a friend, from JW service left her AC notepad in Expo. And today, me, from expo svc, left my AC notepad in JW. O_O

USHERS HELP!!...haha. =(

Anyway, recently, I got to know 2 guys online. one of them from indonesia, the other..ill let you know from where (dunno yet lol), but they are both overseas (one of which tagged my blog recently, its pretty interesting how he got to know about my blog haha, i wonder how many anonymous readers I have out there =O)

And..they've heard about asia conf and chc. Im so blessed to know these guys. Besides, one day in heaven, there'll be billions of saints, so why not get to know some of them first? =D

They've been asking about our church and wanna know more about what we are doing and all that, and sharing to them my experiences, hearing their stories, has just been fruitful these past few days..

Well, its back to work tmr. Let the week be fast...=O

(The AC photos on the CHC website is up =))