Incident at NP toilet

After my lunch at NP...I went to the toilet to relieve myself.

The toilet was sooo peaceful and quiet..then suddenly..."DONG DONG DONG"!!!

Wah, heart attack. I didnt respond, I just quickly, ganchiong-ly, finish my thing and went out. Only to realise its the cleaner. O_O

Wa lieuuuuuuu.... ._.
So rude! At least say something ma...ROAR!

Luckily she only "DONG DONG DONG"...dun have the "CHANGGG"...
If she really "DONG DONG CHANGGG" I think I really DONG CHANG already!

I was so tempted to flash my police card, inside NP toilet lol. "Deterring public servant from discharge of duty". For me in that case, was shitting hahaha. Okay nonsense. Unsound mind also can arrest lol..

Now I know, Chingay doesnt always happen at the Padang or at Marina, but also in NP toilets!
...When cleaners decide to join the Strikeforce Ministry... O_O

Okay, enough of ranting...going for night shift patrol now...I hope I can wake up on time tmr for S4...=)

Weeeeeee...testimony!

Haha I had my one hr prayer just now cum QT...

God began speaking to me about being a dwelling place for His presence and anointing. And also about how when we build God's house, He will build our house. ;)

While I was praying, I was rather irritated by this sharp pain in my gums..I stuffed my finger in my mouth, touched it and began praying in tongues. Yesss...with a finger in my mouth...how weird is that? I think I sounded kuku too haha...

But Id rather be a fool for Christ haha.

After I rebuked the spirit of pain and discomfort, the pain was gone..So like Benny Hinn always says, 'check your healing'. Yea, pain gone..after awhile, it was back. I was pissed off, at the spirit, I prayed even stronger, with holy anger...hahahaha. Now, its totally gone. And God even told me a followup after that healing, to go brush my teeth and rinse properly.

Yeah, Im so happy. God heals gum pain! LOL =DD

So...pain and discomfort is a spirit. =O Lets start rebuking every pain and every discomfort in the name of Jesus! Yeah!! =)

Oh yes, even though the pain was only at a small portion, I felt like covering it with my whole hand to 'overpower' it haha. But my mouth aint that big LOL.

Anyway, next time you pray for breakthrough, or double portion of anointing..basically, everytime you pray for yourself, lay hands on yourself. You'll be amazed at the power the flowing in and out of you like a continuous cycle of living water.

And when you pray for your family, even if its just from a quiet place like your own bedroom, have the faith to just stretch out your hands.

When I prayed for ahgong, I stretched out my hands to the exact place his house would be. From Boon Lay, I roughly knew where Bt Merah was. So, I stretched out and prayed.

If the centurion can have faith to just ask Jesus to "Speak the word, and she will be healed..", what more, the stretching of hands?

Its time to rise up people. Even people in the olden days had more faith! What more, in the 21st century?

If you do what you've always done,
You'll get what you've always got.

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I had half-day leave today.

Joshua had a feel of my black 'monster wife' today...haha.

Lent my wife's amp...sob lol.

Letter to God...(I know my Lit sucks, but You are worth it. =D)

Lord, I gave my life, I gave my finances, I gave my time...
Lord, I even gave my youth away...

Everytime I see young people gather, having fun, even if its the wrong kind of fun,
Even if its bad jokes or using vulgarities for fun, I feel jealous and sometimes sad...

Here I am, living for You...yet I dont even have anyone to have dinner with...

Lord, everytime I eat chicken rice I would think of You. Because everytime Im in tears, I would be eating chicken rice and You would be there to tell me everthing's gonna be alright.

Lord, Your love account in my life is an an unbeatable 9,000,000 units. Lord, I remember every single time You were there to encourage me. Whenever Im in tears, and I know You are there, you automatically add +1000 in my account...even though at times You are quiet, yet just because You were there, You meant the whole world to me..

Im happy Im walking the narrow way, carrying my cross daily to follow You...
Where You lead me I will go.

You have met my every need. The more closer I am to You, the harder it is for me to feel attracted to anybody, no one can beat You when it comes to meeting of needs and being such a great Friend to me..

Thats how real you are to me. You're as real to me as any other person in this world.

Dear Lord, my God
How awesome is Your love
My everpresent, Saviour and Friend
Your grace overflows like a spotless dove.

Your smile like the sunshine
Bringing sparkle to my eyes
Expelling the darkness in my soul
And bringing life to dead dreams.
You hear, my every cry

Your touch, like the white fluffy cotton
So soft, it melts the hardest of hearts
Touching the very core of my being
And ingniting faith in my spirit
You brought life, to every bone

Oh Lord, my God
My heart reaches out to You
Spirit to spirit, my sorrows became but a few
The vastness of the universe
The height, the depth and breadth of earth
The expense of my love for You, is heard

How great is Your love
That drew me in
Forever You are my Lord and King

Ps Kong

I really admire this man...

His facebook account has like thousands of comments a day yet he answers most, if not, ALL of them.

For a guy his age, for a guy with that sort of busyness, to do a feat like that is extraordinary. Yet some people cant even reply one sms.

And mind you, its excluding his church emails, handphone smes, missed calls, etc. He's just amazing.

Gotta have the heartbeat of chc, gotta have the heartbeat of ps kong. We have a lot of catching up to do. Dont get left behind. Liks Ps Dyson said, you want growth, you gotta prepare for growth. You want breakthrough, you gotta prepare for breakthrough.

The pastors are moving very fast..we cannot afford to slow our momentum.

From a believer, some of you have become disciples...now its time to move on to be a SON, to be a DAUGHTER of the house.

Alone...

So many things are happening lately. Ah gong jus got weaker, now he's too weak to even move. =/ And on the same day, which was yesterday, I almost fainted at Changi Airport toilet, feeling nauseous and felt like vomiting at the same time. Even Timo told me my face looked white...

I dont know if its the food, or Im simply worn out and fatigued...

I appreciate mum for driving all the way there to pick me home.

Its not easy being a parent, sometimes we should learn from our parents.

I was thinking...if only I had a car. But then again, when u feel like vomiting and fainting, would you still drive? lol.

The more tough times I go through, the more drifted away I feel from my friends. I remembered what Amber said sometime ago, when we are 'up'...everything seems like a joke to us, we can smile and laugh and joke about everything...but when we are 'down', everything becomes so magnified, even the slightest joke could cause serious emotional damage...

Honestly, I feel friends are leaving one by one...maybe they cant bear to associate with someone whos going through so much, maybe they themselves cant handle it...I dont know. Maybe they're scared? Perhaps..

(No communication...) Sometimes I just wish I knew what people are thinking. Yea, I know, I sound like a girl, as if my needs are equal to a girl's and this may shock you, but that is true. My top 10 needs are the (guys' top 5 + the girls' top 5) needs. =O

But isnt that what the renewing of the mind is all about? God is both a man and a woman combined. And besides, a woman was formed out of a man, therefore, in order to be a real man, one has got to be able to relate to both sides...there has to be a woman on the inside.

Yes we guys want sexual fulfillment and recreational companionship, but if you do not feel the need for affection and openness and honesty at the same time, then I wouldnt say you're complete now does it? To be like God you gotta fuse the two gender realms together...

Anyway...back to the point...

I was telling Amber the other day..I just feel like cutting myself away from everyone..I am a threat to Satan..anyone who steps into my life is taking a big risk, a big step of faith..

Just by associating with me alone they could end up with even greater trials in their lives. :S Bad things may happen to them. I know Im wrong in saying this, but its like im a curse..=x In a time when I need emotional support the most, Im cutting myself away from people..I really dont know what to do..

If a guy doesnt feel good about himself, he's as good as not existing at all..

I dont feel close to anyone now...its like Amber said, everything is magnified. If a person comes to me, smiles and says hi, how are you...to me, that person just added +1000 points in my life. On the other hand, normally when a person is busy and cant afford to spend time with me, Im okay..because I understand I, myself, is busy most of the time.

But during such down times, unknowingly, a person could lose -1000 points in my life just like that. Everything is magnified, intensified. It could happen to anyone...

They say true friends are forged in the fire...likewise, friends that once were could be lost in the fire. Its so weird, last night I dreamt of a pet hamster, white fluffy and cute hamster. I dreamt that I was spending time with it and it got lost..I felt so sad..

It would be nice to have a pet sometimes, but Im not really a pet person, but the one thing I caught from that dream was:

Sometimes even animals can be more available than people.

Its like when ure down, ur pet is there for you to talk to and all that. They may not know how to talk, they may not even perceive emotions, but just by being there, that pet has gained +1000 points in your life, at that moment, your pet becomes your best friend.

Im sure pet owners will know what Im talking about...

This weekend is ministry on saturday (which is yesterday), service today, work from monday to friday, then night shift on friday and saturday. For one month, my life's been like that..Ive been busy Sunday to Sunday, for one month, Ive only had a single day's break which is my 1 leave day I applied like 2 weeks ago...

This sucks...

But anyway, Im glad Im walking the life of the cross. Im glad Im suffering because of Jesus, laying down my life for Him, for my family and friends.

They say God is love, and love is the desire to benefit others at the expense of self. You can prophesy or call down fire from heaven, but without love, you are nothing. No God, no love.

Ultimately, whats on the inside, will show on the outside.
Whats NOT on the inside, will not show on the outside.

Ive sacrificed a lot...but I love the life of sacrifice...even if no one was here to be with me, I will still do it, not because of who I am, but because of who He is...

His grace is sufficient...

Hillsongs - Deeply in Love

In my life You've heard me say
I love you
How do I show you it's true
Hear my heart, it longs for more of you..
I've fallen deeply in love with you..

You have stolen my heart
I'm captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with you

You and I, together forever
Nothing can, stand in the way
My love for you, grows stronger
Each new day.
I've fallen deeply in love with you

You have stolen my heart
I'm captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with you

You have stolen my heart
I'm captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with you

Sacrifice, Empty

The things I do, the things Ive sacrificed, the initiatives Ive taken...are all just to meet someone else's need at the expense of my own.

They get blessed, thats it. They have someone to talk to, thats it. They have someone to listen to, thats it. Its all about them...

Dont even talk about 'cheap labour', Im free labour. Labour for people to exploit, Im just a 'disposable friend' to some people.

Not one person have ever treated me as special. Dont even talk about special, a friend also dont have. Its like..I have friends but I dont have a friend.

Pranee is right. Its like nobody can satisfy me anymore, except God...because the hurt and emptiness is just out of reach of man. In a way, thats true. In a way, that isnt. Im easily satisfied. I can go for fellowship, not talk to anyone and feel like the happiest person in the world, just to be there...but...it could also end up being the opposite.

Sigh...

Whatever that means...I dont know what Im saying also...lol


This is the wound on my feet. You can see the white thingy beside the flesh..thats my skin dangling..LOL.

And this is what a FRIGGIN SLIPPER can do to you. =(

Painnnnn

Okay lets just say, I got 2 abrasions on both feet, one of which exposed the flesh and is 'pus'-ing =/

Its the stupid strap on my slippers. Who in the world invented slipper straps in the first place? Those hard ones..O_O

I was walking an ex cg member home, cus its rather late and its not safe for a girl to home, at the same time, chit chat about cg and retention of friends, blablabla..

When halfway, the abrasion started.

Not bad..managed to walk her home..like 20 minutes away from my house.

And I didnt bring my ezlink cus its walking distance and Im kinda health conscious so yea. Didnt know I would get injured...all in the name of manhood. =x

I was in great pain I was sweating.

Any moment I could have a hole on my feet. The abrasion..or CUT rather..is the length of 3/4 a guitar pick...or...the diameter of a 20 cent coin.

First the skin started to peel off as I walked..then the flesh got 'scraped'...and next thing u know, pus is coming out..and the flesh is exposed.

Limping home for more than 30 minutes wasnt what I had in mind..the thought of not knowing how Im gonna get home in the middle of the night, swept through my mind. And at any moment, the flesh could open up and my feet would bleed..which I thank God it didnt.

I wonder how Im gonna go to work tomorrow..=/ I have deployment to some inter Div pool competition to help out. O_O

Ahgong

Visited him just now, he's better, on the inside. Just a little weak at the legs.

But I could really see the change. Its so happy to come to a house where there's no idols in it. Its so easy for the presence of God to come.

Laid hands and prayed once again. This time, I could feel the heat from the HS.

I really liked it when he shared that Jesus came into his room at night, and he talked to Jesus, spent time with Him, and that night, he had a nice, peaceful sleep.

If an old man with a mustard seed of faith like ahgong could encounter God, we young people gotta buck up!!

It is not the people you hang around with, that will determine how far you go.
But its how you treat them,
your attitude towards the ones God place in your life,
That will determine how far you go.

Stewardship is not just about money,
Its about everything God has entrusted to you.

My Love Bank Exchange Rate =D

Since someone wanted me to put it up so badly...here's my Account Profile LOL.

Love Language: QT > WOA > PT > GG > AOS

On the scale of 1000:

DEPOSITS

CHC member (spiritually stable + similar spiritual level) : +500
Has a ministry: +250
Loves guitar: +50
Loves computer games: +50
Has a nice smile: +10
Loves to challenge my lameness: +25
More lame than me: +15
Nice, decent looking girl: +25
Enjoys talking to me: +20
Playful (to me): +30
Enjoys any calm music: +20
Loves to enjoy quietness, and scenery: +50
Praying with me: +100
Send me random smses: +25
Talks nonsense: +40
Laughs a lot: +40
Just being physically there: +50
Goes jogging with me: +25
Simple person (NOT EQUALS simpleton): +100
Has an encounter with God: +300
Hugs: +50

WITHDRAWALS

Fiery-tempered (NOT EQUALS sharing frustrations): -500
Non believer/different vision: -800
Takes me for granted: -500
Ignores 1 calls/smses after 24hrs w/o explanation: -100
Ignores 2 calls/smses after 2 days w/o explanation: -250
Ignores 3 calls/smses after 3 days w/o explanation: -500
Ignores 4 calls/smses after 4 days w/o explanation: -900
Communication ceases: -2500
Non-listening: -200
Not a cheerful giver: -300
Selfish: -300
Prideful and overly sarcastic: -250
Forces me to go night cycling: -150
Brings me to places of height: -300
Getting me into dark, confined spaces: -100
Throwing me into water: -400
Adventurous, risk-taking sports: -500
Watch soccer: -100
Roller coaster: -500
Clubbing: -1000

Ahgong

Ill just make it short and sweet.

1. Discharged
2. Cancer contained - no spread
3. Just a minor crack in the rib, no fracture.
4. Today the idols will be removed from his house - Pray for smooth sailing and protection.
5. Pray that when he looks at the idols for the last time, the reality of God will be so real, each time he sees them, he will think of nothing but junk!!!

He was discharged on friday night...just after the week of morning prayer.

The power of prayer, not just that, the power of UNITED and ANOINTED prayer.

No use praying like mad when you have no anointing, some people roar like a lion when they pray. In the hospital, I could hardly make a noise...all I did was to whisper an open prayer, holding hands, laying hands.

To make things worse, I had to pray in a language Im not fluent in...I keep on getting stuck on what to say, and my mandarin, when I prayed, was like BOGUS! You hear me pray mandarin you would laugh..

But its not JUST the prayer, its the FAITH that will activate the hand of God!

Your prayer musnt just flow from your mouth, it gotta flow from your heart. You must be desperate and persistent about it.

Now that ah ma's discharged, ah gong's discharged. (Now I can also get the "God and Ancient China" DVD for him!!! =))

If an old frail man like ahgong can have cancer, throat infection, fall down and be AT HOME RESTING!!! Then is there anything too hard for God?

I know I complain a lot. I know I emo and depress a lot. I know sometimes my smses or blog entries can be disturbing, but who cares. Its not I who live but Christ who lives in me. If you know me well, if you know GOD well, you'll know everything will eventually come to a place of breakthrough..

I know when I was young, I was violent and saddistically angry.

Im glad God has a hold of me now...now He's using me the other way round. I was angry at one point in time, during PM, I literally sat there bo liao, think of any demon and start binding. I didnt care which demon, I didnt care if its 'innocent' or not, just whack! No mercy!

Thats how angry I was, even though I never showed haha.

Okay, I know I sound scary, but thats who I am. I hardly get angry, but inside...sometimes there's a volcano. If my anger can bind demons and break powers...you better be careful not to make me angry..hahahahaha...=DDD

When I was a bit younger there was once I "KANINA!!!...." the devil. I know its not nice, but at that time, who cares? lol. Now okay la..I dont swear anymore, its more or less gone. Now I use more beautiful vocabulary when Im angry haha.

Anyway just pray for the remaining days of my grandparents life..let there be love, protection, let the kingdom of God come, that no weapon formed against us shall prosper. Let God be so real to them, every single day, its gonna go from glory to glory, from strength to strength!

Confused, lost.

Love is the desire to give at the expense of self.
True friends are interested in each other's lives.
To have friends, you must first be a friend.

Check this out from my handphone:

Inbox: 46
Outbox: 404

Why does it always seem Im just wasting my time and energy?
Why must I waste my phonebills on investments that give no returns?
Why...must I be the rare one who is a DOER AND NOT A HEARER?

Where are the rest of the sons?
Where are the rest of the disciples?

Have you wondered around the premises waiting for the promises?
When was the last time your life took a whole new step and entered a whole new level?
When was the last time you had a spiritual breakthrough?

You have not because you ask not.
You believe for things, yet you cant bring yourself to ACT AS IF IT HAPPENED!
What faith is to you? What is the definition of faith?

How can you be a conqueror when you're always either a supporter or an escapee?
Is God like that?

Its not that Ive never tried.
Im exhausted. Maybe Ive been sowing seeds on ground that are stony, grounds that are thorny. Im glad a few went into good ground though. But most of them..nah..lousy soil. Ill be very blunt.

Ive always been giving and sacrificing...if I can do it why not you?

People ask me why Im so closed up and dead on the inside...its not because Ive not mixed around with people. Its just that hardly any of the people I mix with, made me happy. Period.

I dont know what it feels like to be happy, to have a companion, to be loved? Joke? Yes..here and there..but jokes mean nothing to me. The hype/happiness is only temporary...

My love language is QT and WOA. PT and GG are secondary..and AOS is a total gonner for me, I feel uncomfortable when people serve me. Yes. Cus its always the other way round..Ive come to place where Im soooooo happy to serve people that when people serve me, it feels weird!!

Ever since I got saved, living a life of sacrifice, the life of the cross, became a conviction to me. A conviction so strong that even in my darkest moments, I still sacrificed..

Because Ive been put down, at the same time, giving more of myself away, the 'wound' deepens, and before you know it, something else comes up, or some other joker comes into your life. And you sacrifice again, then maybe u get hurt again...and it just keeps going on and on.

Ive never really fully recovered from my wounds and hurts...

Its like you having a cut.
The scab appears you peel it...again...and again...and again...
Next thing you know, it bleeds again.
A scab tries to form, you scratch it, you peel it.
It will bleed...BUT...

Slowly, it will get 'used' to it and recover pretty fast...but...a scar is left behind.

Thats how my emotional being is. Its like a scab being peeled over and over again. Everyone Ive met, has hurt me some way or another, its not that they never tried to cheer me up, they do. But..the hurts always override the happy feelings...

Till now, Ive not met a SINGLE person on this earth, that has made me feel happy enough to forget my troubles...O_O Like my friend was telling me, it sounds as if only God can satisfy me, which I feel deep down...sadly...its true..=/

And I dont ask for people to make me happy...Im the kind of guy who just hardly expects anything in return. Unconditional...all the way, eventually, Ill come to a point where, my human nature cannot handle it anymore and God comes along the way.

Im not God, I cannot be unconditional...ALL the time, but I still try to. At the expense of myself. Damaging myself in the process..why? Because of a conviction so strong, no angel in heaven, no demon in hell can take it away from me.

I guess, Ive come to a point now, where its hard to repair my soul. Its not that God cant heal, yes He can..but at what rate do I get hurt compared to the rate I get my inner healing?

To me, whats the use of mixing with people? To me, love = depression. So much so that, thats why...whenever people try to irritate or make me angry, I can still smile.

Because Ive been hurt so bad...anger and disappointment becomes NOTHING...its like no feelings at all...total numbness..=x

I was talking to a friend on e phone I think what my friend said was so true,

That sometimes its because of conviction. Most people do not have a strong conviction. To them, a sermon is an ego-stroker, something to make them feel good, feel encouraged, to them, its just a good idea, an inspiration, a great sermon...

The word never really became part of their lives, its not as if its something they would be ready to DIE for...the word has not become flesh!

I kinda understands how pastor would feel, knowing that the sermon he preaches every week, the time, the energy, the sacrifices he made, that the sermon would fall on stony ground, thorny ground and some on good ground....

Its just how I feel about people, about friends...Im not here to rant on how I feel or what I think, Im here to share with you what Ive SEEN and EXPERIENCED.

The question I would leave you today is pretty simple..

What kind of ground are you?
No use sowing the BEST SEED, in a lousy ground.
Because 999 x 0 is still ZERO.

Short

Congrats Amber!!! Haha =DD

Going for night shift now...

Guess what Ill be doing on saturday?

Coming home, sleeping, going makeup cg, going service/ministry...NO TIME SIA!!! =x

Have been visiting the hospital lately...I havent even wrote my valentine's letter for cg O_O

Haha..what is valentines day? x.x

Updatesssss, Valentines

What will I be doing on valentines eve?

Today is half day till 12pm. Then return back to station for night shift, actually, just half of the night shift haha..'attachment' to the regular NPCOs go patrolling duties, respond to case, etc, 10pm-2am.

What will I be doing on valentines day?

Serving childrens church, nursery, conference rooms, BS classes. Most prob going make up service on sunday.

Jus now met stella and jasmine at JP, helped them shop for some valentines day gifts for ahem...2 cgls..haha. After that went to LJS to eat dinner. Yes, Im slow, I didnt know LJS got CHEESE sauce LOL. That goes to show, I seldom eat fastfood...I only eat computer LOL..

Of course, before all that, I went to hosp to visit ahgong.

I jus realised during this season, 2 of my paternal side, uncles and aunties got saved. Now parents saved, grandparents saved, 2 uncles, 2 aunties...from my paternal side. Only left with 2 more uncles and aunties.

So now...literally my whole father's side, is almost completely saved!!! 2 generations!!!
After that...the time will come for my mother's side as well. =)

Anyway, back to stella and jas.

Ive not seen jas for ages..and I mean..AGES...like dunno when. Glad got to catch up with them.

For 2 hours, I WENT HIGH..lol..literally...HIGH. I kept on crapping about anything and everything for 2 hours straight..I think I was the most talkative and annoying one hahaha. Everything they said, I had something to say of it lol..and something means...lameness, coldness..whatever..lol

Ive not chatted and laughed for 2 hrs straight for a long time!!!...last time being...like what? one yr ago? =S literally I behaved the way I did in my videos..haha..for TWO hrs straight. Even sit down and eat cannot keep my mouth shut..lol..

My high pitched laughter really sparked an uproar LOL. Imagine walking quietly..then suddenly I, from behind..starts..singing some song along with the radio in the shop or I suddenly go, "wohoohoohoohoo..." haha.

Though I was 'attacked' at times..it was fun.

Its really nice to have people who just enjoy you for who you are.

Nowadays, you tell a lame joke, people ignore you. You do stupid things to cheer people up, people think ure crazy.

There's no more simplicity of heart.

People have become too complex, too complicated, too 'cemented', if thats e right word...it takes a lot of effort to just make them laugh or smile. No wonder God cant touch/speak to you! Whereas for today, Im with a happy bunch of people!

Im a complex person, living a simple, happy life. I can be stoning, doing nothing, with no one, and I can still smile to myself...sometimes even recalling some jokes and start laughing to myself...quietly of course.

Sometimes you hear people ask me, 'why you smiling?' thinking of girlfriend ah?

Nooo. Im jus thinking some happy stuffs...

Thats how I get out of depression. The depressed encouraged himself. Even if you leave me alone in depression, I can still get out of it myself.

Thats the gift God has placed in me.

So hard to have friends who are simple, happy people. (not simpleton)
So hard to have friends who enjoy your company.
So hard to have friends who appreciate the things you've done.
So hard to have friends who like what you like, laugh at what you laugh at, dislike what you dislike..friends that share a common vision and interest.

Instead, so many wants to befriend you to get something in return.

With friends like these, you can go talk to your pet dog...O_O

Sermon last week, the number one need for guys is sexual fulfilment. To a certain extent thats true for me. But let me say, my number one need is not sex. I can live without sex, Im antisocial, what do u expect? Just look at how many people Ive turned away...nicely of course.

And...Im super stubborn. Its hard to get me interested in anything, Im always stoned, staring into space. And once Im passionate about something or someone, again, Im stubborn, its hard to get me to change or to like something/someone else...

My number one need is simple:

Genuine and happy friendships/relationships...
You can be my friend, and yet not be a friend to me.

Thaipusam, PM, Hospital, On Fire

Deployment started out a bit rough..last minute changes, my name not in the Armory list, cant draw arms, missing items, equip jam, etc. So frustrating, change here change there..

I was literally sweating with frustration...my face was burning until I was sweating...even though I was smiling..so people kinda mistook me for being stressed or ganchiong.. O_O

Anyway, the whole thing ended about midnight, went back to HQ and reached home around 2 plus..

Got lots of incidents to share lol..the most interesting was I had to guard a body...

Im not gonna go too much into it lol..too many things to say..slowly find out from me haha.

PM was awesome this morning, even though I only had like 2hrs plus of sleep, it felt great. I wish every morning is like this..

Yes, my grandpa has been saved and baptized =D

But today received news he fell and hospitalised. Fractured hip. =x The devil really has nothing better to do..cant even give me one week break without his nonsense..GRAAHHHH

Fine, you like hospitalizing people in my family, you good. I prayed for grandma to be discharged before cny, she did. I prayed for ahgong to feel better, he did. I prayed for him to be saved, some unknown guy called him from nowhere, talked to him on the phone and he got saved, now Im gonna pray for healing, ABOVE salvation...thats like the complete package, and I have faith to believe, it will happen again.

Even if it doesnt happen, so what? You have lost, my dear faggot. My grandpa now belongs to God. Old man also want to target...how cheap can you get? Call yourself the "king of hell" or the "lord of this age"...PUI man...

Dont piss me off lol. Im in a bad mood, if im not happy, Im gonna just bind every demon in hell, even if they dont disturb me. So what? Not happy ah? Come ah..I got 26000 world changers and history makers ready to plunder hell and populate heaven. And Im thankful God is raising up a whole new generation of young people..that is going to shake Asia by storm.

But guess what? We have already shaken the world, not just asia.

What a great time to be living in, I dont wanna miss a thing God is doing. God, this praise song is for You. Even though things may look down on me, I will still look up to You. Praising you in the midst of the storm, I will shake the heavens and Lord, I thank You for doing such a great work in my life..

Even as I go and lay hands on ahgong either tonight or tmr, I may be drained, but I know Ill get up again. We are...an unbeatable generation, for the glory of God!

Testimony

Some unknown fella called my grandpa today and talked to him over the phone.

Now he's ready to receive Christ and be baptized. =)

Never despise the power of prayer.

The little that you can do, becomes much in the Master's hands...

Grahhh

I hate deployment..especially on a sunday evening.

Deployment for?

What else?

Thaipunehnehsam.

Many do not know what that word means. Well, Ill leave it to your IQ to find out.

Its like...are you even Singaporean? O_O lol.

Pondering..

"...For I am a jealous God..."

Morning PM..yessss.. (Edited)

Im serving my ns, and I can go morning prayer EVERYDAY, ALL WEEK!!!!

Yesssss!!!
I love Jesussssss yeahhh!
I want overnight PM too..=DD
No deployment in Jesus name! haha.

My bro pre-ordered the "God and Ancient China" DVD..Ill be sharing with him.

Gonna be so blessed. What a great word...

Btw, Im addicted to Mafia Wars on facebook LOL. And Im officially migrating my usage from FS to FB. Yeah..its Profile cleanup time!

Butt....

For now, its jogging time!

Edited: Im so excited..I thought PM was today. O_O But thennn..its on Feb9..alamak *smacks forehead..