Financial blessing, Commitment, Sacrifice

after that tithe and sacrificial offering a few days ago..i give my tithe..and the entire week's allowance as offering. minutes ago i received my allowance for this week, it's THREE TIMES my normal allowance! praise God!

but at e same time..i cant believe im so stubborn, im so stiffed-necked..God, I let you down again. just when i saw your hand of blessing move in my life. i cant believe myself. recently, im facing my own personal struggles..

my life has never been this tough ever since i became guitarist..ever since i started 3/12, ever since i started playing for 2 cgs..i feel as if the devil is all out to get me :S im easily worn out. and you know my thoughts and emotions can sometimes take a hold of me.

God..im going to breakthrough in my spiritual life! no way im going to take defeat lying down! i will get up! and i will fight back!

stupid devil..you wanna play with me? ill show you what i can do through Christ who strengthens me! im gonna do a 5/12!!!!

yes..im crazy, im insane. 5/12!!! you hear me!?! i cant take it anymore..all your stupid temptations and attacks on me. but God is always good, God is always faithful. and you just pissed off the wrong guy!!!

5, the number of grace. the last time i did a 5/12, man..i was thrown soo may situations and struggles during my fast..God showing me that His grace is sufficient. i dunno abt u, but the number of days u fast for is significant. and it corresponds to the type of test u are gonna face during ur fast.

pls pray for me..5/12 is like.."emergency procedure" for me. somehow i got a feeling that the next week is gonna be a rather testing week. ill have to be dependent on Christ throughout my 5/12.

but i will breakthrough!!!!

the devil is a weakling! he has to actually prey on people who are tired!!

Men's talk, Thoughts, Reflections

man's talk today was great. haha. Bernard led praise! hahahaha!! i see his face on stage, i immediately think of him as the comedian from drama haha! cant stop laughing. but yes. he's a leader as well. and for that..*respect.

this post is for the curious gals. haha. cus so many of u wanna know what went on during that meeting haha..your 'curiousity senses' cant stop tingling and screaming! LOL.

i wont go into exact details but ill briefly summarize. this is just the first session, which means there are more to come haha. okay la..guys can read also..cus my blog is not selective. im no respector of persons :D

today talked about many things. i can summarize in 3 words:

Guide, Guard, Govern

yes..our church is short of men..there are more ladies in our church. ps zhuang said something very funny..haha..he said if all e men rose up one day in positions of leadership and living examples, then all the girls, from all over e place will swarm here and we would experience church growth and revival..:PP

sounds crappy? but that is true. lol..its been proven. haha. he say until damn funny..like as if:

The moment the men rise up, the ladies will strike! hahaha..that kind..LOL.

sin didnt enter the world because of the eating of a fruit. if it were so..then Eve should be the one who sinned, because Eve ate first THEN she gave it to her man. then the bible wouldnt have said, "just as through one MAN, sin entered the world.."

the word man is not generic. its not talking about e human race. it is talking about male man. and so..chaos didnt enter the world because of the eating of a fruit, but sin entered the world because Adam failed in his responsibility!

Where was adam when eve ate the fruit? where was adam when the serpent was tempting Eve? He was WITH her!!! then i rem something someone once said..an example.."Where are the men when the cg members quarrelled with e usher? where were e men when people are gossipping and talking about other members behind their backs?"

if you see someone doing wrong..tell e person off. why let a weed grow in e celgrp? adam told me before when we were having some personal talk..if he sees any weed growing in e celgrp, he's not afraid to pluck it out. if u dont like a celgrp, if u think u cant click..then by all means leave or change!

but of cos he dont encourage that..but he told me if its necessary, he will do it. and it has thought me a lot. just because a lady does wrong, doesnt mean we can close one eye. its good to give way to ladies, but when attitude, spirituality, or character is involved. we must take action!

ps kong talked about not being a compromiser. why compromise the kingdom of God because of one person? what is it to a person, if he/she gains e whole world and loses her own soul!?!

okay, back to the men's talk.

ps also talked about man and woman. that when God formed Eve, He took something out of adam. but God didnt replace the missing part. so man cant be woman, and woman cant be man. they'll often over-exxagerate. because its just not meant to be.

YOU WILL NEVER BE SATISFIED! i mean..we still love people even tho they are gays or lesbians. but thats how life is, if God says it, nothing's gonna change it!

you cant find a true man in a girl..you cant find a true lady in a man! PERIOD. like e bible said, The wise delights in instruction, or something like that. Adam said to me before, be TEACHABLE!

apart from the 3Gs, ps zhuang emphasized alot of service, leadership, simple things like queueing for the celgrp, helping sisters carry stuff, helping the leader do admin, carry e guitar, serving in a ministry, etc.

and i know what it means to juggle 2 ministries at once. and sometimes the things i do, can be tiring, can be draining physically..playing 2 celgrp a week, serving sound, queueing up, staying back late to wait for members, even though i stay e furthest!!! you think its easy? NO. you think i have too much time on my hands? NO. certainly not! (like Paul, haha)

and please..i dont even complain! lol.

all these things should be automatic. you love someone, you SERVE that person! i dont care whether you feel like doing it or not..if you gotta do it, you do it to the best of your ability!!!

yes, giving is part of love..praise is part of love..but SERVING and LAYING DOWN ONE's LIFE is the greatest unconditional sacrificial love a man (in fact, anyone) can show! to be a man is not to be macho, to be a man is to be like God!

i rem my life mottos: WWJD/WWJS. what would Jesus do? what would Jesus say?

ps zhuang also talked about being a real father. communication, time, sacrifice, saying "I love you", hugging your kids..all these should be part of your life!

i dont think any fathers read my blog..but ill just say it anyway. some people just think like e world!!! im not just talking girls..even GUYS behave this way! im someone who cant take nonsense.

So what if someone says "I love you" to you? SO WHAT! Who was the first person to say, "I love You"? GOD HIMSELF! eeee..dont wan la..eeee very weird la..eeee, eeee, eee..

WHEN GOD SAID I LOVE YOU TO YOU..DID YOU "EEEE" AT GOD!!?!

WHEN YOU TELL GOD HOW MUCH YOU LOVE HIM, DID HE "EEEE" AT YOU!?!

come on!!! wake up your idea!!! who do you think you are!!! i have people who confess to me, did I "eeee" at them!?!?! did i even show attitude to them? NO! i shall not reveal who. haha. but yes..there are 3-4 in my life. im gonna be open now.

look..theres nothing wrong in confession. i think its healthy. it shows you're genuine. whether or not u are gonna pursue the relationship is another matter. if you are gonna react like the world, WHAT MAKES YOU DIFFERENT FROM THEM!?!

YOU THINK GOD DIDNT DIE FOR THEM!?!

If God loves them, WHO ARE YOU TO HATE THEM!?!

ps zhuang said:

Maturity does come with age. Maturity comes with the willingness to accept responsiblity!

did i ever mess up a relationship? NO. why is it some people can get married at such a young age? Just because you're older doesnt make you eligible for going into relationships if you're not willing to accept responsibility in the first place!

being older doesnt mean you know how to handle such things! i mean, i still talk those 'friends' of mine..i still joke with them. you mean to tell me, you believe everything you see on television!?! give me a break!!!

which brings me to my final reflections and thoughts..service was awesome this week. what is a curse? A curse is a frustration, a continual cycle of defeat and weakness!!

what good is a promise, if the windows of heaven are not open over your life? i know of girls..AND some guys. going from one relationship to another. what is your foundation? adam would say. what are your priorities!?! continual cycle of defeat? sounds familiar?

Be a man! Be a tither!

Have anyone ever seen me quarrel with another person? NO. yes..there ARE times one or two will disagree with me and start making noise and whining at me. but did i make e fire bigger? no. because i know how to take responsibility and be a peacemaker! cg had this message some time ago..dont tell me you forgotten!

people can raise their voice at me..but have i ever raised my voice. i can honestly say NO! unless ure talking about this blog..then..yes..i have lots to say.

i dont like to raise my voice..and people shldnt force me to. you dont know me well enough..when i raised my voice e last time..e person almost wanted to give up on me, on life and commit suicide!

but that was past. now i am who i am now by the grace of God. i dont need to raise my voice. thats how intimidating i was last time..man, you dont know how saddistic and murderous i was. my words can kill, i carried knives at home and waved at my parents!

but now, thank God..my words bring life, encouragement, conviction, discipleship and joy to people around me!

i still keep those cards and letters i received since e first day i stepped into church. because i know..the extent that God has changed me. what a radical change it was. so please..you think im a very soft person? haha..i choose to be soft.

im not interested to be a man..im interested to be a GENTLEman. if i can..i would choose not to raise my voice. because you wont like it. i know my weakness..when i raise my voice, im prone to committing 'murder'.

thats just my weakness. either you accept it or you dont. if i can deal with it..whether you accept it or not doesnt matter to me.

after e talk sat adam's car along with timo and thad..we went to old hollywood char kway tiao. it was fantastic! haha. just being there was an emotionally and spiritually enriching moment for me. i could imagine last time..the passion of the people there, the fellowship..the arise and build back then..etc.

it brings back memories. then again you say, how can it bring back memories if i wasnt there before? well..thats how e anointing and e presence of God comes in. God's memories become your memories..

somehow, even tho i have never been to hollywood, God began to place this feeling in my spirit man..and i felt the days of hollywood.

thats how life with God should be. close, intimate, supernatural. the rhema and the secrets of God are only reserved for those who are truly hungry and committed to God. among many other things..haha.

after that had a short men's talk in e car..and adam sent us to eunos MRT. went home.

tomorrow is another day..im gonna meet up my supervisor to talk to him about the details of the NUH project and discuss to see if its realistic for me to do :)

Service

man..arise and build is drawing near..im so excited..but at e same time..a bit troubled..cus my AnB every year is decreasing :S

not bad..managed to get good seats today. thats 2 weeks in a row. haha. today i didnt get stopped by security..not bad..their competancies are improving hahaha. they know who is running, who is brisk walking :P lol.

i think its time for e ushers to start getting used to my face haha. you have wayne, then his successor adam..soon it shall me me! muahahaha! LOL

praise and worship was good today. man..the song Here In My Life really kicked in pretty well. :)) sermon was awesome and powerful. many were saved at e end of e svc as well. it was a great service all in all! =))

went to bedok for dinner and fellowship. we ate at the Foodfare kopitiam just next to the interchange hawker center. the chicken curry is roxors! haha.

chatted a bit..laughed abit..

after that trish bought dinner for pam. John (adam's bro) and his friend happened to drop by..said hi. then me, trish, pohchoo took a lift from his car back to expo to pass food to pam. and we camped at foyer 3 for awhile before goin home.

nothing much after that..just seeing pohchoo going bonkers and tricia with her tweety bird head LOL. ya..was pretty tired..it was officially the end of my 3/12 today. for 3 weeks in a row. yet, im still hungry for more..im not satisfied..

later got man's talk. im shagged but certainly lookin forward to it haha. people tell me..its okay, i dont have to go e extra mile..but i choose to..because if Jesus was here, He would do the same thing. obedience is always greater than sacrifice :D

did a third video on youtube. its uploaded already but the icon isnt set yet and i still have to edit the details a bit. so ill post it here when its fully done.

otherwise u can always get e direct link from me via msn :p

oh yes..just now some strange fella called me like..12.30am plus..sounded like half male, half female. e moment my phone rang, i immediately panicked for ONE second. lol..cus no one calls me at this hr unless they're really bored..or when ppl share their problems to me.

and yes..i know this 'strange' friend is reading this hahahahaha!! then for some reason..her voice changed back to normal..my phone must be lagging LOL.

luckily i never use "Ahmad Muthu Roti Prata" accent hahaha!!! or some "Singtel announcement service. The number you've just called, is currently not available" haha!!!

Guys night out, E420

it was great. even thought i was in e midst of my 3/12, certainly this day was memorable.

we started off by having dinner @ maxwell hawker center, next to my old church :D it was raining slightly, and i was a little wet..but i managed to find my way there. haa. great weather..i love the feeling of drizzle droplets blowing at my face..feels refreshing, especially after a tiring, long day..

and so..met up with adam, timo, thad and sebas joined us later. earlier on i was settling my NS medical examination problem with e customer service staff @ CMPB via phone..and i was told to expect a call from some commanding officer regarding the details of what exactly went wrong, blahblahblah..got no call. LOL. AM-CHIO ah? hahaha..

we sat at e table..talked abt some guys stuff..and was hearing the guys share their army stories..about good/bad officers, geylang, clubs, and all..lol..how it was like, the 'culture', people daring each other to try things, about some of their men doing 'business' in hotels, etc..being in e world but not of e world..etc.

when we were done, we took e train to katong mall. along e way sebas had to go and meet and have a meal with his boss. so we said farewell. we miss you sebas! =) and we'll always pray for your breakthrough! :D

on e train, was hearing adam share this funny action movie (M18), cant rem e title..its about a killer and his CARROT haha..yes..he actually used his carrot to kill people..and everywhere he went..amidst the corpses..you'll see a half eaten carrot.

hhahaha so funny la..:p

we originally intended to play LAN/pool @ katong mall..but when we got to paya lebar..we were shocked to see the streets so crowded..everyone preparing for hari raya..or something. totally packed like orchard road..so e 4 of us shared cab to katong mall. not bad..1 dollar per person :D quite worth it..better, cheaper, faster.

we were hanging outside the lanshop inside katong mall..in e aircon. we were waiting for Zen/Xen to show up. he came from camp. but he was delayed, so we just hanged around outside the lanshop, in e aircon..and there we chatted about antinomianism, sin of commission VS sin of omission, cheap grace..how our salvation is not guaranteed, the point of no repentance, etc.

we also asked questions, etc. indeed, what is fellowship without God in it? =)

we talked all night..almost an hour..standing outside the lanshop..some went in, some came out..some scolded vulgarities, some smoking..got the smell, but no smoke..haha. i mean, the tobacco SMELL, once in awhile its okay. it helps to relieve tension and certain pains (i know it helps remove headaches, afterall it IS a drug). but the smoke? no. haha.

i love conversations about God. we could go on the whole night. haha. i think we preached to ourselves just now..so that makes it up for not having cg meeting this week :DD haha. yeah.

do you still think of God, even when you're doing your own things?

after that we decided not to lan/pool..cus we really really chatted like vey long haha. it was great. went to hongkong cafe nearby to have supper. for me..my "dinch" haha. man..the chicken cutlet rice with curry rocks! the curry is perfect! sweet, spicy..and tasty. after eating finish, i literally cleared my plate of the curry gravy hahaha..

everyone ordered a glass of iced milo..the cup is quite big. i decided to be different..so i ordered iced Horlicks instead haha ^^. thomas joined us after that. also..Zen/Xen was stuck at paya lebar so adam and timo went down in a cab to pick him up.

after eating..we chilled there. played bluff, taiteeee and laughed e whole night. and timo the taitee king/queen..zomg double flush..insane fella. lol. then in end everyone was flushing all over e place..and me, spoiling e market hahahaha! thomas left earlier cus he went to meet some friends..

we ended shortly after 1am haha...WHOOSH! shared cab home. Zen/Xen officer leh..pay 1K!!!! omg! he's a really nice guy. shared cab with thad, timo and Zen. adam went home e other direction. Zen stayed @ woodlands.

people think when you see the sign "Boon Lay", its scary..please lor..on e cab i saw another scary sign, "Mandai Road, Singapore Zoological Gardens"! hhaha..okay, nonsense..i was saying we can go see night safari hahaha! okay, lame ~.O

but yeah..you think a "Boon Lay" sign is scary? wait till you see "Johor"/"Woodlands checkpoint" sign! haha. then we were joking and saying..after we drop off Zen @ woodlands we could go up the woodlands causeway into Johor then head west to Tuas 2nd Link and head down into Jurong/BoonLay hahahaha! O_O then timo @ buona vista haha.

it was a fun, fulfilling night. i really felt we bonded closer together. not just as brothers..but as people of God. it was a healthy balance of "God + People + Fun" =)) reached home at 2.30am

i will always remember what ps kong said, everytime you fellowship and have fun..how do you think God will feel if you leave Him out?

Food for thought.

Celgrp PM @ Rhonda's

it was great. presence of God was there. while we were singing in e spirit..I WAS TOTALLY CAUGHT OFF GUARD when rhonda asked me sing the song i composed..lol.

my mouth opened like the grand canyon and deep down i was like: haaaaaaaaaaaaaaar??? :O

lol..but in e end didnt..e members were singing in e spirit in key of E..if i suddenly change to key of G it might sound weird. and ive tried before..the atmosphere drops. plus the shockattack i had..lol..i totally blanked out and forgot e lyrics! :S so paiseh..lol.

had fellowship @ westmall food court. haha..funny things happened. we went to this 'mini-wok' stall. i ordered "Suan-Tian Pai Gu Fan" (S/S pork rice w/egg), Emma ordered deer meat. then he was asking e lady: "Aunty, you mei you lu rou?"

then e aunty replied: "Aunty mei you lu rou..zhi you ren rou.." we all froze..and emma started LOLing so loud all of us started laughing and went high..hahaha.

daphne came today. she was same class with me..i dunno when..lol..so long ago. haha. last time i hardly talk to anyone so..yea. haha. after eating we took train home..and crapped along e way. lol.

"So later you walking home ah?"
"No..i fly home"
"ooh..which flight ah?"

O_O

i shall end with another video: haha

Update

went to NUH yesterday. before i left my house, i was like searching on e net how to go to NUH, lol..cus i only went there once. ive only stepped into a hospital like 2-3 times only in my lifetime..not including when i was born la..haha.

met Mr Benjamin Png for the first time..really nice guy. nice to talk to also..haha..cus he's in his late 20s..not much age gap haha. gave me all the statistics and requirements for the system. i looked at them and i almost fainted!

the database is HUUUUGE! and the system they were using is complicatedly complicated. i see already i thought Windows XP had become Cabinet XP. yeah, i made that shit up..hahaha. but seriously..gosh! and to ask me to do something better than a PRE-DEFINED SOFTWARE is a challenge. haha..i wouldnt say its impossible tho..lol.

but lets say i really DO make a program better than that VMS system that some angmoh in e states came up with on e net..then man..the influence..of course, its all just a dream at e moment. i really really want to do it..but i just dont know how, or im not adequately skilled enough to do a whole new program from scratch.

graaahhh stressssss....

if i managed to do a whole new better Volunteer Management System from scratch..im gonna be rich and famous..if i ever do something like that..i make sure i walk round orchard road in a skirt, wearing an underwear on my head! sheesh..the insanity of this project..i think my hair is not only gonna be white..they're gonna be TRANSPARENT! yes..u cant see them because they have all fallen off!

doing my 3/12 again..man..i think i might do a 5/12 one day. 5 = grace. i really need e grace of God REALLY BAD NOW :( goin for rhonda's cg later..they having PM so really need stamina to play through haha.

went to sch today for briefing..man..time is really short, projects starts e following week..ahhhhhh! SKILLS!!!! ahhhhh!!! TIME!!! ahhhh!!! ahhhhh!!! ahhhhhh!!! *DIED.

Lantern-mooncake festival

How did I celebrate it you must be asking..

Not with lanterns and mooncakes..but with mos burgers and handphones. Then again, you might be asking: I can understand mos burgers with mooncakes, but whats e link between handphones and lanterns..well..both have lights. Okay, lame.

Seriously, im getting addicted to mos burger..lol. but nothing beats BK and KFC! woohoo. and yeap, we can have all the Zinger in eternity because Colonel Sanders is a tither! oh yea..and in eternity, you dont have to worry about getting fat! WOO! lol.

Dinner with cg @ mosB wasnt too bad..chatted a little..crapped a little..and receiving the revelation that eating shrimp can make pohchoo and jolene laugh. after that walked around raffles city. well..not exactly a city..cus you dont see skyscrapers and landmarks around..

I think i just crapped again..its 2am..cant blame TOL. oh yes..tomorrow..later i mean..ill be goin down to NUH to look at their system. from what ive heard from the phone convo with the guy in charge, the system looks pretty easy to do.

the hard thing is..VALIDATION. yes..to implement a user-registration, login/logout, edit, system requires TONS and LOADS of validation. and all e while, validation is part of the 'extra/optional' features in every program.

okay, ill rephrase that. our assignments, practicals and tutorials, to get a pass..must have e basic functionalities..validation is last, it helps you get beyond just a pass. and normally we are just happy with a pass and not much validation is done.

went home with thad..met gavin from my sound ministry along with his wife. speaking of which..last week's ministry felt kinda weird..haha. cus half of e people around me are either married or attached. and it was nice talking to some of them. being surrounded by young people is gd..but once in awhile..we should learn from the more mature and elder ones.

some were talking about their marriage, how happy it is..and all that. for a moment, i thought i had forgotten im already 20. most people are already dating 18 onwards. lol..i remembered ps kong was sharing during e marriage enrichment..that majority of married couples in church were celgrp members. haha. sheesh..thats freaky in a way..lol.

and i rem ps talking about how our church has more ladies than guys..and that there are not enough guys to go around with. LOL. and i think it was during emerge when he said he was thinking of starting the dating/matchmaking thingy with e church..haha..he was joking..but he looked and sounded as if he was serious haha!

some random stuffs:

Can a person be too busy? Yes.
Stop saying : You know God, you believe in God. Please, even the demons do!
So what is it that makes you different???
Stop living a double life!

Update

finally some blogging. rem last time when i shared i went to meet up with my supervisor to discuss the project? well..i remembered that day. we were in the meeting room having a short discussion. and while we were talking..he went out to answer a call. so i was alone in the meeting room for awhile.

the chair was comfortable and the table was a 10-seater business table. then God began to speak to me.

"Isnt the chair comfortable?"
"yeah.."
"would you like to be in a room like this next time? sitting on the board of committee?"
"erm..it would be nice..but..i cant even imagine one day ill sit at a table like this.."
"thats why you wont."
"..."
"see that chair over there at the end of the table?"
"yea?"
"how would you like if one day you were to sit on that side of the table?"

*i pondered and i was lost for a moment in thoughts..then my supervisor came back in.

a few days back..after ministry..i was tired and shagged..my eyes were soring and i was dozing off even while walking and standing up straight. i sat at one of the seats at tanah merah thinking about what i just did a few minutes ago..

earlier on, as i walked out of expo foyer2 and walked towards e mrt station, this guy from the yellow ribbon project approached me selling pens for 2 bucks each to help raise funds for e yellow ribbon project, to give a second chance to ex-convicts.

i was tired..shagged..and a little cranky..but nevertheless i bought it from him. all i had left in my wallet..was 2 bucks. which meant that officially, i was broke.

as i sat at the bench at tanah merah thinking what i just did. i suddenly realised the reality of what had just happened. im broke. i was hungry, i was tired..but i had no more money left. i had given my last 2 bucks to help the yellow ribbon project.

my heart started feeling pain and my eyes became wet. that 2 dollars was precious to me. it was whats left of my allowance. what if my cgm calls me out for a meal? what if someone calls me and asks me if i wanna go town..i would love to..but i cant.

i began to talk to God. my heart is full..but my pockets are empty. i finally realised what it means to feel that way. however, i felt Him putting His arms around my shoulders. He didnt say anything..but i could tell He smiled.

You can give without loving, but you cannot love without.
Love that doesnt cost, is love that is lost.

How much sacrifice have your walk with God cost you?
Are you living a life of convenience, or a life of selfless, unconditional sacrifice?
Are you a believer, or are you a disciple?

You make that decision, today.

Geek!

E420, erm..42? erm..24? erm..420? OEI! MAKE UP YOUR MIND! hahaha!! :p

someone tried to be funny with e camera and clicked at the wrong time LOL

err..OKAAAAYYY! ^.O

The glam side of G420 LOL! Credits to Pohchoo for e pics ^^

My first video! Okay i think i blew it. LOL! (PS: Background music autoplay is disabled so that you can hear me)

Ministry

first of all..all of u guys can ignore that Rachel fella. just in case ur wondering who is she, to tell u e truth, i also dont know. you can however click on her free publicity link HERE. lol. and yes, she's older than me..supposedly. yeah, her posts with the f-word and the a-word was deleted. what a lack of vocabulary. lol.

communication is the key of life. when you fail to effectively express yourself, you fail in relationships. failing in relationships will result in failing in life. and vocabulary is the basis of communication.

back to ministry. lol.

yea..i managed to wake up in time. and my phone charger is kaput. something broke inside somehow. and so i didnt charge my phone. i was like asking the Holy Spirit to wake me up at 530am (learn from Wyelin). and i did wake up on time. of course i had my alarm to back me up as well..but it didnt seem to work as well..lol.

and its like anytime my phone could just go dead. cus aldr got e low batt warning e night before. only slept 2hrs last night. i was literally straining my eyes e moment i woke up. took cab, went to fetch linda, naresh and OCK. i was like..where are you? where are you? cus im supposed to go their house pick them up lol..and its only my second time doing 'cab IC' lol.

did speakers external today. not too bad..just a bit shagged and blur. people i know walk past me i also dont know lol. and yea..i was talking to timo before svc..and Belinda was standing along e aisles just beside me and i didnt know either..lol. she looked so different close up. but still beautiful because she represents what the cultural mandate is all about ;)

of course people who represent the cultural mandate best are others like Jack Neo (i saw him couple of times in e front row, in front of e choir. its like all e celebs sit there..lol) and Elim Chew..oh yes..and the all time favourite..Wahyu Hanafi.."So how much has God blessed you with? *Pause ...alot... *Pause HAHAHAHA.." LOL!!!

okay nvm..inside joke LOL.

yea..presence of God was good today. even tho i was serving, i managed to set aside time to praise, to worship, to pray. after svc helped pack up and then went home. and so here i am..blogging from home. okay, thats a stupid statement..of course im blogging from home! hahaha..lol.

oh ya..early in e morning, everytime i take cab..i will always have labour pains! (stomachache) lol. i never eat anything, i nv drink anything. and its so early..my stomach has problems getting used to it. oh wells..lol.

might blog again tonite.

Service + Fellowship

svc was great. presence of God touched me deeply. haha. oh..yea..when i fast..i realized im more free and happier. haha. when i fast..i can get gd seats LOL! yeah..i didnt tell anyone. but yes, i was the first who went into e row.

haha. even tho i got stopped by security for 'running' for 3 SECONDS, when im actually WALKING FAST. yeah..security ministry need more training and discernment. hahahaha..anyway, i wasnt that front..its really by God's grace i ended up quite front LOL. and so..yea..ended up first..lol..

dont think anyone needed to know. yea..lol..if u read my blog..gd for u, for those who dont..haha..i dont expect them to know either.

ya..i feel better when i fast..probably my flesh is too dead to scream out. ;) ppl ask me why do fast 3/12 every week. okay, for those who read my blog, ill be honest here. a real man..takes initiative, a real man is decisive, and a real man casts away his pride willingly.

im not here to show off my spirituality..because I know ive not arrived. neither am i here to show off my manhood, i dont have to impress anyone. all these are not important..because ultimately its about God, not about me. now dont get me wrong, for all those who thanked me, i appreciate it..but i know my priorities, at e end of the day i want God to have all e glory! =)

okay, why 3/12. i believe 3 symbolizes the power of the trinity. i want the power and the presence of God to be everywhere I go, in everything i do. the past 2 weeks, ive been fasting for the celgrp, and yes..by God's grace joyce and eric came the last 2 weeks.

fasted for exam results, and now fasting for this open door God has given to me to be part of NUH. even tho its not official yet, cus i have to go down to take a look at their software, nevertheless, i thank God in advance.

fasted for spirtual breakthrough. to play 2 celgrps one week is not easy, to be able to flow with 2 different leaders and to have the capacity to play 2 days straight is not easy. thursday, God flows one way in rhon's cg, fri, God flow another way in adam's cg.

its all about spiritual discipline, like i mentioned in my previous posts. fasting for presence of God, for service, for revelation, for dreams and visions, etc. and i know my own weakness of the flesh..thats why im taking measures to crucify myself.

im not boasting or anything..i just wanna be obedient, to be used by God..and to go all out for Him. not cold, and never lukewarm!

God does not call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

People who are willing to step out, people who are willing to do what no one else will do, people who are available, people who are broken in spirit, etc, i am who i am today not because of what i do, but because of who i am. im someone who loves God more than anyone else. let me rephrase, my love for God is greater than every other love!

ill never forget what God spoke to me, "Andrew, I will raise you up to be a standard for all the men, I will show through you what does it mean to be a real man of God, for your name is Andros, "of a man"..."

adam asked me to brief the cg abt some cg matters today. and its my second time briefing my fellow members. even though it was short..it was the first step. the first time i debriefed was during evan's cg i think..when she was not around..for one of e svc or PM..cant rem.

The thought of leading 5 cgs is scary..but at least it keeps me moving forward! =) its not a guarantee yet..but at least, slowly, step by step, i can be more and more like Christ, to be more and more of who God wants me to be.

had fellowship at BK airport. God began to speak to me.

"Take initiative, take initative, even tho its embarassing, take initiative..offer to carry people's stuffs, offer to order food for people, offer to get the cleaner come, take initiative to plan, offer your seat to the group of ladies on the train, offer to call up people, even tho your phone has no more batt..take up responsibility, be a fool for Me, when no one else will do it, you take the step and do it, and i will empower you! for my grace is sufficient for you!"

yeah, u see the surface of things and you think all these are natural..yet you do not see the hand of God at work. im not here to glorify myself, but to glorify God! im here not to show off..see im so gentleman, see, im so godly. NO!

im here to say..i am nothing. God is everything! God, let me decrease and let you increase! i am where i am today..is because of God and because of the people around me. period.

u know...just now on e train...there was this HUUUGE group of like 5-6 ladies. and i was e only guy sitting. and i decided, i gave up my seat..and i could hear them talking abt me and teasing the girl friend who was standing..cus i gave up my seat for her.

yea..i DONT CARE what people say, the world will say..ooohhh u like the girl, ooooh ure sicko, i dont really care. i rem my face was so hot i think i blushed a bit..but not obvious. yes..so what if i liked that girl who was standing! I LOVED HER BECAUSE SHE IS SOMEONE JESUS DIED ON THE CROSS FOR! thats why i gave up my seat for her.

Who are you to bless what God has cursed..but in this case, WHO ARE YOU TO DESPISE WHAT GOD HAS BLESSED? DONT TREAT JESUS DYING ON THE CROSS LIGHTLY! because i dont! and i dont give a damn to people who treat God lightly.

you can be childish in your thinking, i dont care. people in e world will think like that..will you if you see me doing that? i also say this because yes..i didnt attract attention..but yes..i didnt care..i just wanted to be obedient. even tho it was embarrassing because those were really pretty girls. and they were looking at me in a teasing manner..i didnt care.

IF YOU'RE SO FULL OF YOURSELF, IF YOU'RE SO FULL OF YOUR OWN FACE..NO WONDER GOD WONT USE YOU!

am i fierce? i dont know. im on fire thats for sure! and i will burn down every worldly thought and every lukewarmness! you think its easy to be a city harvester? no. if you wanna live a convenient, comfortable life of ease and relaxation, then you're free to leave! and ps kong will say e same thing.

i rem back in jurong west days..when he sees someone moving and disrupting the service, ps kong would say out loud, in e middle of e service, from the pulpit, "Usher, GET THAT PERSON OUT OF THE HALL!" im serious, he did do that. and i wanna learn to be like him.

Manhood talk is coming. hoho..im gonna be so changed. so u better buck up and be careful. because a real man live by truth, and a real man is not afraid to confront! =)

dont think i will tolerate nonsense for very long :p

serving later..gonna pick up a few soundcrews along e way. and dinner with cg on tues and wed..not sure if im goin for the dinner thingy tmr or not..cus no one going lol.

will blog again..

CG @ Liz's

cg was great. i think pam's communication game was really creative..haha. everyone was mad..and it seemed only me and thad were e only sane ones. lol.

there were 2 teams. 3 levels.

level1: pass msg via mouth. and the message was like some tongue twister cum rhyme/poem la..LOL! little brown cow become little round cow..LOL GG! win aldr lor! thad shouted the answer earlier on..now pass down aldr still can become round cow! lol!

level2: pass message via pen and paper. dunno what cookie recipe mississippi. then got spelling error one..i think is purposely one..haha. tricia again..and her fillipino, philipine, philipines, duno how they spell LOL.

level3: pass msg via sms, no dictionary, only manual. including punctuation and spelling. then e original text was "I, "insert name", will queue for service..". so tricia was e first, so she typed, "I, Tricia, will queue for service.." and she passed down. in e end, everyone wrote, "I, Tricia, will queue for service.." HHAHAAHA!

its really gd we have like interaction and more discussions during cg. i kinda like it :) i mean..once in awhile its gd to have it like that rather than e usual stuff. i believe the cg message doesnt come from the leader alone..but all our lives should be a living bible. that when people begin to read our lives, theyll see great is our God. =)

lol..i NG-ed during praise today..came in at e wrong time..oh wells. this is what happens when you see thad and tricia throwing tissues at one another and u cant help but to look haha. then that thad go and put e tissue on tricia's head..wah, then i cannot take it anymore..then end up NG lol.

Lesson learnt: Never laugh uncontrollably when you're playing..esp when you havent eaten e whole day. lol!

The moment trish "eeeeee" i cant stop laughing! see lah! LOL! i sabo adam..you sabo meeee! lol. luckily she never, "so unglam" if not i confirm, not only come in wrong time..ill also lose rhythm man! lol.

after cg went to playground downstairs lighted some sparklers, shared testimony with everyone holding sparklers in a circle. after tt played the blind cat or something. one guy will blindfold and touch whoever is on top of e playground. of cos got someone who will guide so that he dont langga..lol.

the blind cats were thad, me, timo..but adam was e most funniest. by right..the ground is the 'sea' and we are supposed to hop if we step on e ground. but when adam was the blind cat..we all ran all over the 'sea' haha..then thad wanted to get everyone to sit on e bench. LOL. we even took photo of adam. lol.

yea..we took some cg photos..but "Teacher BO-choo" will upload on sunday..cus she intend to take more tmr..haha. after that..sent joyce off to hong kah busstop..then went back..had my dinch. lol..cus i havent eaten e whole day. 1/12 out of 3/12 more!

man..the Tempura Nuggets were the nicest, crispiest nuggets ive ever tasted in my entire life! lol. thanks liz and family for making refreshments! moving house eh? haa. grats. looking forward :) haha

at e end of e day was tired..perspiring..but happy. because i know that my fasting paid off :) joyce came the first week i fasted which was last wk..now eric joined us e first time. and God moved so strongly today. and fellowship was great. open doors to NUH..etc. so many things.

im gonna fast again next week..and i believe we can add one more soul to our family. prayer and fasting indeed does wonders! spiritual discipline..Dr AR Bernard always says..you want to have upward mobility? then back it up with spiritual discipline!

looking forward to svc tmr. wonder what ps is gonna preach on..haha. and next sun is manhood talk! oh GOSH! haha! so exciting! lol. ive listened to past manhood talks by ps kong on the chc website. its still there haha.

will blog again tmr :)

Plogging, Picture logging, Haha

For those who's wondering about how i play 2 guitar at once, no im not Michael Angelo Batio, i merely used a software to record different channels, lead, melody, vocal separately, then blend into one. i didnt record in a studio, its done at HOME! in my own room lol..with a built-in mic on my laptop.

Erm..Hmm..

Retarded styrofoam freak.

Me and E406(1). I am soooo random.

The nose-digger, the alien, and the china apple tower. There are more pics on my friendster.

Celgrp @ Rhonda's

first of all..thanks for the comments ive received abt the song i composed. well..its a song God composed too..because i was in e spirit..when e lyrics came out. and like i said, i cant compose songs for nuts..just like how i cant do programming for nuts. and being in a room where noise is enclosed, i cant really sing too loud either.

and so..ive decided to upload my song on my blog..just for 24hours. if not ppl will start talking..i will remove it 2.30am on friday, past midnight haha. yes ive changed it since e last recording. i added a second guitar. tried bass on acoustic, sound doesnt sustain, train electric..sounds horrible..

for celgrp..it was great. wonderful experience..haha its rhon's first time preaching officially and its my first time playing with her and learning her flow. so..yea..it was an exciting experience. new experience for me haha..i mean..rhon..she was my pri sch classmate haha. and to be able to serve her is..man..*whoosh..unbelievable.

also, last time i was round and timid, i hardly talked to anyone lol. i dont think she knew me also back then.

well..what can i say..God showed up and tearing in presence of God as i sang.."Let the whole world worship You...". message was great too. continuation of last wk. i have a feeling itll be different from adam's, haha..but i cant be sure.

after cg..rhon surprised me with the mooncake..or whatever it was..haha! cus everyone was having an exchange, some angel, mortal thingy..and i was really taken by surprise. even my reaction was lagging cus i was like..huh? what? haha..but yeah..thanks loads. =)

took group photo with the cg..its very seldom i get to be in the middle with cgl..rhonda. normally in groups photos im either at e side or some decoration dangling somewhere..haha. but to be in e middle..was..a new experience for me :D

middle as in..not in e middle of e front row..but middle as in...middle of e entire group..yea. just looking at the pic in jianhao's cam, suddenly a thought flashed across my mind. *one day, who knows..i might be a leader also.., after all, someone once spoke to me about leading 5 cgs during discipleship..ill never forget that..it pierced me deeply..

sometimes God wont reveal your future to you because if u knew how great it was..u wont be able to take it :x lol..

after that had some games at the playground nearby. played this ling-ling-qi-bang! (007 bang). haha and this titi/tootie/titu some titty tooty game like..the classic BOM-dididi! just that this version the sound effects we had to do were hard to rem haha..for me..lol.

also played a chain game called, "what is this?" haha so cool. we tried lighting candles but the wind was too overwhelming..3 lanterns were lit later on. my bro was monkeying away and we had fun. last game we played was with pamelas..ahem i mean pomelos (ehh that was what they said, even rhon hahaha not meee :S bleah), oranges and bananas. haha..

we had 2 teams and a bunch of fruits as our 'base' we are supposed to snatch e other team's fruits. but touching the opponent will result in 'freeze'. only fellow teammates can unfreeze. haha. so funny..jianhao and his crutch..he tried to freeze us by using his crutch to do 'long range freeze' haha..then i freeze him he go act injured, lying on the floor grabbing his bandaged ankle..

everyone rushed over haha..then he tried to freeze ppl LOL lameeee! oh ya..you ARE lame..LOL! after that played this game where u have to say something that uve never done. that is true of course. like, "ive never been in usher". every is supposed to have 10 sweets, but we used chips instead haha. i didnt eat of course..cus of my 3/12.

so everyone who has never been in usher is safe..then everyone else who is 'against' the speaker whosays, "ive never been in usher" (those who are IN usher), will have to give one chip to the 'speaker'. e one with e most chips wins lol.

shared cab with my bro, stella and a new friend ive met who came from makeup, from evan's cg, xian yin or something. cant rem e name. lol. i only rem xian something haha. she stays around same area as stella also..

2 more days..2/12 out of 3/12. in case ure wondering, 12 means 12hrs. yea..gotta prepare for cg tmr..tonight i mean. lol. my supervisor will prob call me again tmr and ask me if im gonna do NUH or not. well...i still dont know...you never repeat FYP before so dont try to say you understand..lol :S

but when he calls tmr..ill give him e answer on e spot. if he doesnt, ill email him x_x

Graaah, Crazy shower.

Graaah..God..ure driving me crazy..

In the shower just now..

"Andrew..are you up to it?"
"God..i dont know.."
"Do you trust my judgements and decisions?"
"errr..."
"no doubt this is from You..i cant even shower in peace anymore because of these thoughts! arrgh!"

"So, andrew, will you do it?"
"i really dont know..NUH IT man andrew? no way. Dr Lee sounds better.."
"Andrew, if u miss this..it will never come back to you again.."
"ahhh stop let me shower finish first.."
"No, i wont let you."
"what the..O_O"

"So whats it gonna be..?"
"ahhhh God, give me a break..."
"If you wait for perfect conditions, ull never get anything done."
"OKAY! OKAY! oh my Lorrrrrd..why must You tell me that when im showering.."

*silence

*i cant fail my FYP again.
*my programming is teh shit. how am i gonna do it? this is insane man!
*i only have one chance to be a youth
*not many ppl can work with NUH just like that
*i dont know..no harm trying right?
*what if i fail? if theres an interview and they ask me about my programming, what am i gonna say?
*then again, i went from a F to a A+ for my java bcos of God. mebbe He will do it again?

"ahhhhhhh i cant take it anymore..ill decide tonight after cg..mebbe the message will be right for me."
"Do you have to always wait for Me to give you a signal before you step out in faith?"
"ahh..okay okay! you win! you win! okay, honestly, im ready to go for it..just give e 'go' and ill go.'"
"what if I dont say anything?"
"errr..ahhhh..okay..tonight..tonight.."

THANK GOD HE NEVER TELL ME, WHAT IF TONIGHT NEVER COMES! ILL FREAK OUT MAN!!!! ^.O lol.

okay..i shall blog again tonight after cg..ahhh gotta keep focused..x_x

IHP, Doors, Dream

My supervisor just called and told me about this deal at NUH. currently they have a login/logout database/system for volunteers who help out there and they need people to help modify the system.

my first thought was wow..i wanna do it. can earn e spare bucks at e same time to give for AnB at year end. and if i do well, there might be a chance ill be called back to help out in e future. NUH is like big time!

id never thought of being an IT assistant in the largest health institute in singapore. im excited! im interested.

but..im not confident i can do it..my programming..*Sigh..oh man..such a big door..and im not prepared to enter it x_x. what am i gonna dooooooo...? :S

my supervisor even said, if i decide to do this system mod, then i dont have to do ASP.NET ecommerce websites anymore which i already suck at doing. ahhhhh..

God help me..T_T

and strangely enough, i had this dream as i dozed off in e afternoon a few minutes ago. i dreamt of e time in pri sch when we would have swimming lessons. i didnt know how to swim, and im still not a gd swimmer..im a gd floater tho ~.O okay, thats besides e point..

i remembered when e instructor gathered all those who cant swim and separate pools from e ones who could. then he brought all those who couldnt swim well..after a few lessons..and took us the deep pool. 1.8-2metres deep.

and he asked us to dive into the pool..from the stand. i remembered i was scared. i was only pri4. i aint tall either..but i was VERY ROUND! i remember standing there. and i jumped in. i didnt dive, i jumped. and i remembered my goggles came off and i was scared to death. my eyes hurt with all e water..and i had to struggle to hold my breath the moment i plunged.

i couldnt see where i was..everything was blur. my heart was thumping. and when i surfaced. i breathed like it was my last. and i searched for my goggles and found it. i got out of the pool, unharmed. did water get into my nose? surprisingly, i dont rem water entering my nose. prob i was already exhaling thru my nose e moment i jumped in.

then i rem now..the call i just received. its like God asking me once again..jump into the unknown, you cant swim, are you willing to plunge into the deep. my life is at stake, i cant see clearly..i cant breathe properly..im scared..but what am i gonna do? am i gonna plunge anyway?

God reminded me..of how i came out from the pool, unharmed that time. and God is telling me, He will do it again. if only i would take the plunge..how??? i dont know. i cant even do my sch assignment properly u wanna place me in e largest health institute in singapore..

God, thats insane! if i screw up, the whole NUH will know im e guy who couldnt do nuts :S

oh man..what am i gonna do...?

and oh great..my msn nick: "If you wait for perfect conditions, ull never get anything done." Has God ever spoken to you so loudly that everywhere you look, you see God at work! oh man..

the call, the dream, the nick..ahhh..i guess this is it huh..what am i gonna doooooooo...?

Many many things

okay, i think i better blog it down before i forget. so many things i wanted to blog about but kept on forgetting and sidetracking my posts..ahha.

first..im really happy for rui last week, who got blessed with $5000 from his dad.

second, felicia chin has updated her blog..haha..now got video greeting. she looked so angelically beautiful! =)

third, yea..i started my 3/12 again. ive decided..every week, im gonna devote a few days of my week to God and God alone. today, tmr and friday. i dont really mind if im e only one doing it. i told myself im gonna love God more today then i did yesterday. and i wanna spend more time with Him...

if u want to see breakthrough, if you REALLY REALLY desire it with all your heart..then ull find the time and the means to pursue it. walk e extra mile.

they always say..the proof of your desire is in your pursuit. oh yea, ill be helping to play for rhon's cg later. ps audrey coming! lol. OMG! haha. it seems every cg i play in..she's there. :O evan's, pauline's, adam's, wayne's, rhonda's, etc. lol..

i think she'll be like, "Whoa! You again!" haha.

okay, im lagging in my IHP proposal/TOR..gotta stop procrastinating. like Ecc 11:4 says: if you wait for perfect conditions, you'll never get anything done!

gotta start...NOW! lol.

Androne - You Hold

Stars light the heavens
Waters cover the seas
Your beauty reigns in all the earth
Your kingdom majesty

The earth bows before You
Creation cries to You
Your love, fills my heart and soul
How awesome is Your name

You hold, You hold
My world in Your hands
You hold, You hold
My life in your hands

was doing a short QT this morning when this song came to mind. i was just praying and singing in e spirit..when a melody came. then because it was morning, i thought..i wanna sing about the beauty of God's creations. and how small we may be compared to everything else..

but yet, we are the most precious to God. This is my third song i composed since i came to church. i kinda lost my previous 2 due to reformats. but i still have the lyrics. if you want this song, then feel free to PM me.

im not a good singer..partly cus im in my room and if i were to sing with my full voice..then people outside will think im crazy..so yea..i sang rather softly but boosted my level. yea..sound editing..good thing i didnt edit my voice to a lady singing. ok, random.

also im not cut out to be a song writer..lol..i cant write songs for nuts. this is just quiet time. what you hear is not a singer, what you hear is not a songwriter..what you hear is a worshipper. what you hear is someone imperfect, Jesus died on the cross for. =)

its not about me, its about God :)

Randomosity

My family at Bonavista River hunting cockatrices haha. You dont see any because seconds after i took this shot..i got ganged haha. i couldnt upload the pic of my family surrounded by man-sized chickens haaha. cus of some blogger error.

PM me and ill send u e screenshot of the swarm of chickens that surrounded me..haha..

This has got to be the nicest shot and pose ive taken with my family. This is Cite de Reboldeoux, the first pioneering town ull stop by. =)

From left to right (level68, Chevaliers Faction) : Anderick Dresari (Scout with oiled body costume), Androne Dresari (Male, ice-elementalist), Andriane Dresari (Female musketeer with Sir Lyndon's Coat)

My new desktop look: Vista Royale 2

And now, ending post with this pic. Highly speculated and conspirated. (erm, is there such a word? conspiracy, conspirous? hmm. okay, this word sucks haha..crap :p).

Yes..some say im porning, some say i look murderous. lets take a vote :p haha...

Deeper

Have you ever missed some friends so much that you wish they were with you right now, walking right beside you, every step of the way.

As i was just doing my usual stuff, i thought of friends i missed..and in the midst i was reminded. And God began to speak, "You miss him huh? You miss her huh? You miss them huh? You wish they were with you right now huh? Every moment of your life..Now you know how much I miss you.."

And immediately i stopped whatever i was doing..i was so moved to tears..even as im typing this. i began to understand how much God loved me..how crazy He is for me. How crazy He is for you. He longs to be with you every second of the day..

As i was searching imeem for songs..this song captivated me. Its a very old song..one of the first few i sang back in JW. God, im sorry for the things Ive done. I know despite everything..i can be so busy..i can be so caught up with life..

what i wanted, was not success, although its important, what i wanted was not riches, although thats essential..but deep down..what i really wanted..the reason that i live, the reason that i sing..is because of You..

I long for more of You..God, I want You closer to me like never before. God, even when im around people..i want them to know You are with me, i want them to feel Your love and Your presence..

Deep down Lord, I love You..deep down, I miss You..deep down, I want to see the kingdom of God come, and Your will be done!

God, come and fill me till overflowing..every fibre of my being..let it be saturated with Your love, Your presence, Your power..God, i wanna love You more today than I did yesterday..

last week was great..i want this week to be greater. God, help me move from glory to glory, from faith to faith, from strength to strength! God! its not about what I want, Its about what You want. Its not about me, its about you!

More than just a servant..more than just an ambassador, God i want to be your worshipper! God, i want to be Your lover! My life means nothing without You..God, hold my hand..wherever You go, I want to follow..

Just let me be by your side, all the days of my life..

Shocking, Random

I found this

Cultural hub.
SGD660mil.
Iconic
State of the art
Accessible

Sounds familiar? LOOKS familiar? Shocking? YES! LOL! And look at the date of completion, 2011. thats e same as when our lease in expo expires! coincidence? dont think so. :O

the only difference is that they have the backing of JTC (Capitaland) which provides them the land and financial subsidies. but still..OMG! haha. we have to find our own land and raise our own money :S

I received a message on friendster today:

Kar Heng: hey, i just read your blog! just wanna tell you that everytime i read your entries..i am just so encouraged and blessed! you are a great man Andrew! haha..keep blogging! God Bless.. =)

Thanks bro. even though i dont know how you come across my blog..haha. This week gotta start my TOR on my IHP. Hoping to submit by e end of this week. wooo..

gonna do an ecommerce site selling books and CDs. anyone brainy comp geeks are welcome to help me lol.

Random pics

Phoney BurKingKing, Alienic Chiwa, Unknown Stranger


Look at the cups. E,4, 2, LOTS OF ZEROS! yes! E420! haha


Half of E420


Me, bro and Emma @ Wayne's

Sunday svc

was watching it online just now. it was awesome! thats how we should start our day, in the presence of God! even though it was e same message, yet i received a different revelation. thats why i dont despite simplicity, i dont despise same messages, i dont despise same services, because God is always progressive and just like that, you miss out on the touch of God!

during the ministry session..as they were singing God of my Forever, Lord Im Hungry, etc..

i felt e presence of God enter my room and saturated me. even though i was there playing my guitar along with e songs..yet..i was moved to tears. i decided to stop what i was doing, i decided to stop what i enjoy doing, i decided to stop whatever was comfortable for me..

and i knelt on my bed..praying, worshipping and touching the presence of God. and i was so blessed and ministered. and God spoke another word to me just now, and He double confirmed yesterday, "I will raise you up..Your time will come.."

oh yes..ps derek prayed for the entire church after he laid hands..and ppl here and there fell and were touched by e power of God..across the hall! i shouldve been there :( but oh wells..God came into my room and touched me in His own special, personal and intimate way and i wasnt left out ;)

and oh, before my IHP starts..i have a few more weeks. and this coming week im gonna start on my TOR and project scope. and i told myself, im gonna do 3/12 every week, and see the kingdom of God come and His will be done..i wanna see the presence and the power of God, everywhere I go!

With just 3 days of fasting, I have moved to a whole new level. God has done so much within these few days..even though im taking a break from fast today..yet God is still moving so strongly! Just now..God also challenged me to give a word to Pow Wee whos now in camp.

even though we are apart physically..but we are still AS ONE. we are still one team! He's not just there serving the country..hes out there serving the God of the country! Bao's on the frontline..he's in a position where people need God the most. You can call it his spiritual 'attachment' or internship =)

As i knelt down in tears..in awe of God..i decided to take my worship one step deeper. I prostrated before the God of the universe. and we learned in BS, prostrating is the deepest level of worship. You have lifting of hands, you have kneeling, but prostrating is the ultimate art of self humility and saying, God, without you I am nothing. who am I? that You died for me? Who am I? that You would use me?

As i lay on all fours before God, singing, "Lord Im hungry..for a mighty move of God..Fresh oil from heaven, fall in this place..God use me, God, here I am, send me..I dont have much, but God take all of me, in exchange for all of You.."

I felt the touch of God..like fire upon my body..upon my hands, all over my body. my hands and legs were shaking..as i got up, i couldnt move properly for a moment..because i was just so overwhelmed. Nothing beats starting your day, with an encounter with God. i dont know how much tears ive wept..but one touch from God, one word from heaven, and my life will never be the same!

when you wake up, who is the first person you think of? Before you do anything, who is the first person you think of? Everytime you do what you want, everytime you do what you enjoy, who do you think of?

I think of God.

Memorials

I love this song! this is e first praise song i learned in Jurong West church! man i miss JW! those were exciting days!!!

today's service was great..even though it was different. but God's ways are always higher! =) during worship i had a vision of me, and my whole row was just me and my army mates..all lifting their hands singing, "Jesus..no other name, no one the same like you. The truth, the life..the way.."

it greatly struck me, and the word given by Ps Derek at the end confirmed it somehow..that my time is coming..that there will come a time..where Andrew, the sleeping giant shall awaken and take the marketplace by storm!

"Andrew, dont think you've arrived..you may be a guitarist now, but you have not arrived. What you have now is nothing compared to what you are going to have..if you keep on loving Me, keep on serving Me, keep on living a life of consecration and devotion..."

and i thought..what a privilege..yet, what a responsibility! and indeed, coming to CHC, serving in sound as a stage guy, finishing all my BS, and becoming CGGuitarist are the few memorials in my life.

like ps derek said, not just a monument..but a memorial! when you look back, its not about me, its all about God. "Its all about You..and the world You promise!"

how can someone like me, be at where i am now? its because of God. im just an ordinary guy, serving an extraordinary God! i may not be smart, i may not be 'that' good looking, i may not be rich, i have one talent..just like ps said..

and that one talent is love. and the greatest of these is love! rem how i gave 10 dollars to a stranger? and another 10 dollars to an elderly even though i was in slight depression? its because of LOVE! love is the one talent i have..and the PRESENCE and the POWER of God is one talent i have.

im not gonna hide it, im gonna bring back a hundredfold return! so what if im not rich, so what if im not that smart, so what if im not that good looking? i have the greatest of all..love! without love, you are nothing.

sometimes when i see ps kong back when he was younger, it reminded me of myself. the geeky, nerdy, quiet and intimidated youth. but just as how God used someone like him, whose pockets were empty, but a heart that was full..i believe God will take me from where i am to where He wants me to be!

after svc went to kembangan zhicha with E406 and E406(1) haha. (1) means prime. Rhonda's new cg. haaha. crazy bunch of singers and actors! haha.

my 3/12 fast is officially over. and not only i received a vision today, not only did i receive a prophetic word today for my life, i also received my results and praise God..all my modules have been cleared! all thats left is my IHP and ill graduate. and i know ill pass. why? because God gave me that vision of me making an impact in camp! which means it will never come to pass if i dont pass my IHP haha!

also..God whispered something to me during worship, "Andrew, I am going to make you a standard for all to see. People will look at you and they will understand what it means to be a real man..a real man of God.."

and coincidentally..the name Andrew means manly; courageous. it comes from the word "andros" which means, "of a man"..

i didnt know how to reply. i didnt know how to react. but i know...there no such thing as a coincidence! God..if thats who you want me to be..then I need your anointing and your power like never before!

God, i have nothing. without you, i am nobody. take my all in exchange for all of you!

What is your memorial today?

If you have many talents, praise God.

But if you are like me, only one talent, what are you doing about it today?

CG

cg was great. tho we started late..but it doesnt really matter what time we started or what time we ended..God is always faithful ;)

i was surprised my cg's message was different from rhonda's cg's msg..haha. not bad..double revelation this week! woohoo!

yes! today is my last day of my 3/12 fast. haha. breakthrough!!! oh yes..met my supervisor yesterday. it went well. then got one malu thing happened..

he asked me..so who's your mentor? im like:

"lim..*eh..lim what ah? er..i forget already..:S"
"Aiyoooo!! haha! how can you forget?? ^.O"
"err..dunno i think very long never see him thats why.."
"orh..O_O"

im like:

*omg..lim what? i rem its lim something something...lim bo seng? O_O yes..it sounds crappy but the first thing that came to my mind was really lim bo seng ^.O luckily i never tell him, i think its lim bo seng O___O

i think he will kill me! HAHAHAHA!

guess im a natural crapper. of course i am..my pri sch cloze passages i get one digit or zero sometimes cus i just unknowingly crap my way through. like:

The pastor said to the newly weds: "You may now ___ the bride"

and my answer was "marry". O_O already married marry again for what!

When the newly weds entered the church, all the congregation ___ up.

and my answer was? "woke" O_O wth..yes! now u go..wth..last time i was like: CORRECT WHAT! my english dont have problem right?

lol. last time i was like..correct what. then my teacher back then, Miss Low Soh Tin, she would take my paper and whack my head and give me that strange look. and i would always wonder..why she always give this kind of face..i dont know if she's angry or she laughing cus i couldnt tell..

to me..that teacher was weird lol..

i didnt know what that look meant back then..but now i know its e cold look haha.

and during dinner with cg yest..adam was asking how come black pig sausages have less fat. and guess my answer: cus the black pig chao-tah so all the fats burn away already ^.O

okay, dont kill me now..haha. goin for svc..yeah! will blog again tonite lol.

Aqua Timez - Sen no Yoru wo Koete

VERSE 1

I want you to love me, but I dont think you will
I wonder around as I repeat to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if Im scared of getting hurt
Ill say "I love you" to the one I love

Do you love me or not?
I dont care what the answer is, I just need to know
No matter how badly I desire to be with You
There are many unchangeable things in this world
And my love for you
Cant be stopped by anyone

CHORUS

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
"I want you to love me but I dont think you will"
I wonder around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if Im scared of getting hurt
Ill say "I love you" to the one I love

Putting these feelings into words is so scary, but
Ill say "I love you" to the one I love

VERSE 2

The happiness we chanced upon in life cant be expressed in words
That's why we can only smile
Why we sing "Do Re Mi" among the vivid autumn colors
With winter at our backs, and the spring sunbeams peeking through the leaves
As to protect someone who's just been reborn

As I looked at the road I'd travelled and the path ahead,
My eyes were filled with cowardice
I wanted to look into your eyes, but was afraid I wouldnt be honest
I didnt want to know that you didnt love me
And live the rest of my days all alone
That day, I kept on loving you without getting hurt

CHORUS 2

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
"I want you to love me but I dont think you will"
I wonder around as I repeat this to myself
It's the only answer I have, even if Im scared of getting hurt
Ill say "I love you" to the one I love

Even if my feelings arent returned, I can say "I love you" to the one I love
And that's the most beautiful thing in the world

Saltwater fuel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h6vSxR6UKFM

you have to see it to believe it. turning saltwater into hydrogen fuel by simply passing radio waves through saltwater, separating the bonds between hydrogen from oxygen, creating massive amounts of heat!

i couldnt wait to blog about it! haha. imagine the possibilities, saltwater is like infinite, it is clean!!! imagine cooking with saltwater fuel! imagine powering your house with saltwater! drive cars with saltwater fuel! and hydrogen fuel is one of the more powerful sources of fuel. and its expensive! but with this invention..man..the world will change! haha.

yes! it gave me a whole new revelation of being the salt of the earth!

it means to be the answer to every problem!

it means to be a person of INFINITE possibilities!

..just like God! =)

CG, Rhonda

cg was great. and God is always faithful. although the flow was slightly different..presence of God was there. good thing wendy led a PM before cg. haha..really helped to stir the atmosphere. shared a word during worship today..and jianhao confirmed it with a verse and really..even though im not one of their members..

it was kinda last minute..like..on the spot God asked me to speak it. i wasnt prepared i was like thinking man..what words should i use? many things went through my mind..but like they said, obedience is greater than sacrifice. and i obeyed.

word was great. we will finish the race TOGETHER..AS ONE! =)) dont leave anyone behind. if someone falls, we go alongside and pick the person up!

after cg..rhonda came to say hi to her members even though she wasnt feeling well. that moved me alot. the heart of a leader, the heart of a shepard for her flock. and the members stood outside wayne's house..each holding a candle. and one by one..the candle was being lit as a symbol of the start of the 'olympics' as a new cg..

as torch bearers these people will run..and finish the race.

oh yes..wayne was just sharing about Nick Vujicic..when we looked at him, when we saw him preach, you'll know that we have no reason to complain at all..because he, has done it all! haa.

If Nick can do it, so can you.

after that went to prata house for dinner. and for me, to break fast. and the nasi goreng there was good. haha. or maybe im just hungry. then we were chatting, laughing and watching ECW Wrestling on TV..haha..those guys on tv are simply amazing. they're not just strong physically, but mentally as well..great fighting spirit.

me and my bro accompanied rhonda in a cab home after that. and oh..i accidentally slept with my laptop, lights and aircon last night :S crap. haha

well..will blog again..cya.

Memories of Nobody

okay, im a bit bored so ill just post some random stuff.

somehow i get e impression that people think im a really serious person..well..if you wanna rate seriousness out of 10, ill be 8/10.

i mean..im closer to God than my friends or family or whoever. and i think of God all the time. im starting to wonder, am i really that intimidating? haha. oh wells. i mean..i am a cg guitarist, and sometimes i wanna be your regular friend-friend guy as well..

okay, mebbe e anointing is too strong or whatever..haha..but deep down, i love to be treated the way you would treat everyone else, u know..joke..tease and all..dont have to be so 'formal'. lol.

btw, i dont really know who im talking to also. i just get this impression somehow. haha. anyway, yes..ive changed the song on my blog. this song is by the Bleach movie: Memories of Nobody. it is the ending theme song. yea..not bad..talks about love..i shall post the lyrics translation if i have the time. haha. its a beautiful song...

cg later @ wayne's house. i admit im a little nervous. yea..me..nervous..unbelievable right? lol. i was just viewing Nick Vujicic's photo gallery @ his site a few days ago..was so moved by it. IMO, he's e greatest human being alive today!

im gonna change my skin soon..my blogskin i mean..not my err..natural..skin. yeah. haha. what do you do when you're bored? watch winekone HAHA! TOL!

okay..i havent been talking to a single soul for 2 weeks now..as in really chat. im not talking abt msn, im talking IRL. guess im just one of a kind..like they always say, there is only ONE 'you' in the entire universe.

went to JP last night..played 2 bucks..then walked around. seeing people chatting, laughing, poking each other, eating, playing catching, and all..i dont know..maybe i dont have these kind of childhood the way these kids have..

when i was young, i was short, fat and ugly. i had low self esteem and i never talked to anyone. and when i talked, i dare not look at people in the eye. yeah..deprived childhood you can say. deprived socially. everyday i would go to school..geek my way through lessons and looked forward to the end of school.

im always e first few to leave the classroom after school and rush home..i hardly spend time with anyone, not even for lunch. ill just go home and get stuck with my computer games. because its only in those games that i get to meet nice people and have a good chat, good laugh..

and yes..my lanshop days..ill never forget..haha.

in other words, i had no social life outside cyberspace. the people in my games didnt know me back then..they didnt have to know how ugly and fat i looked. and i am still fat. i dont know..im not satisfied.

people tell me all the time..how much ive changed..but i dont seem to be satisfied..i never get enough..i wanna lose more weight, i wanna be even smarter, have more money, etc. call me a perfectionist if you want. its like..im never happy with what i have for some reason..yet at e same time i am extremely and easily grateful.

You can be happy, yet not satisfied.

i want so many things, yet i dont go after them. instead, i put aside my own interests and always putting others first. i know its good..but am i overdoing it? sometimes i wonder..

okay, im blank now..will blog again later.

Random

Where your treasure is, there your heart will be.

What captures your focus, captures you.

Do you think of God everyday, every moment, every second?

God thinks about you all the time. Even when you've gone so far..

How deeply and madly do you love Him?

Are you taking what He did on the cross for granted?

Ponder.

No title

Rhonda called to ask if i could play for her cg, cus my bro is still 'new' as a cg guitarist..so i thought..God, I love You, and i agreed.

and just now, i was informed that she was diagnosed and suspected of having dengue :S and ill be playing for wayne, while she rests..

talk about first day as a celgrp leader..spiritual attack, its nothing unusual. but i know you will get well..because God's Word is final and you are gonna be a great leader ;) Rest well girl! :)

then another thought came over me..playing for wayne..man..thats..scary O_O. lol. too many things to blog about. ask me personally and ill share my experience ;) sleepy now..haha..

3 day fasts..BREAKTHROUGH!

Dream

had this dream just now..it was sooo real. basically it was something about my long-lost sister or something..named "Elle". basically i received this sms from my aunt who revealed this to me.

throughout the dream it looked like i was seaching for her, but i never found her. actually one point i did, but i never got to see her face.

before that was a random dream of me back in the holding school at commowealth. and i was like in some sort of video game i was running around..monsters appearing..i was shooting, saving people, blahblahblah..

yeah..back to my dream about Elle, my long-lost sister. it was said she would be goin to my grandma's house for dinner and all..yea..u know how dreams end..they always end at the most exciting part..when im about to see her face..she was 15 or 16 this year..

and yea..i woke up. you know..when u wake up from dreams like that..half of your subconscious is still 'lagging'..active in the dream..so you think its all real. basically tts what happened. i went to check my smses and even wanted to call up my grandma too let her know ill be coming to her house for dinner today..

but then i 'fully' awoken. O_O.

i was just thinking about it when i ate my prata just now..the power of the brain. the power of visualization..the power of imagination. whatever's happening in your subconscious..your conscious brain will work according to it..

and thus, your conscious brain will 'obey' your subconscious and make you act as if it was real! and you think it was real!

in this case..my subconscious 'woke up'..therefore my conscious brain woke up and i felt as if none of it happened..thats how i realised it was a dream, before that i was gonna call my up grandma and all that..

if you can see it, you can have it..now i know what it means. what it REALLY mean. ive experienced first hand..and got this revelation just minutes ago..i dont know if any of u ever thought of this..

Visualizing and imagination is just a small part of your brain. but when you have a dream, it activates your subconscious brain..thus, your natural conscious brain will flow with whatever your subconscious says.

just imagine..one day u have a dream. and a realistic one like:

you were talking to this friend and he/she asked you to bring he/she to church..and you interrupt that dream..when you wake up..your subconscious will still be slightly active bcos e dream didnt end properly. and trust me..you'll think its real and u wanna call up that person to meet him/her..

what you dream in your subconsious, if you can build on it, then your conscious body will think its real..and one day it will come to pass!

im not talking about daydreaming, im talking about REAL tangible dreams, from God. somehow your body will just know what to do..like this morning..i automatically went to check my sms and almost gave a call!

thats the power of dreams..if you have a dream of scoring straight As..your body will naturally think its real and it will react, making it come to pass!

Random

Im bored. im out of my game. havent been lvling for days now..basically my chars are just rotting there. still i havent met my supervisor O_O. grr..why am i dragging my feet x_x

seriously..i think..it sucks. this whole IHP thingy. i will never ever take programming ever again. id rather go for a sex change than to do some programming =/ i mean..seriously. i dont mind multimedia..graphics, animation..sound..but programming is just..not for me.

first of all..do i even look like a programmer? i think i look more like a program O_O. yea..a program of lameness and craps. my computer language is not binary, but colnary (the language of coldness)...

okay, i have a feeling this post will go to the cold and crappy region. sometimes i just feel like telling some people, "WHO CARES WHAT YOU FEEL? WHAT ARE YOU DOING ABOUT IT?"

yeah.

im not saying tt u be insensitive, im just saying be REAL..even the bible said, something like.."which of you, by worrying, can add an hour to his life?". are you going to live your life just by how you feel? if Jesus lived His life by how He felt, He wouldnt have gone to the cross and you wouldnt be saved today!

learn to get over ur emotions for goodness sake! even if you cant..FORCE YOURSELF! im happy because i CHOOSE TO! let me repeat...I CHOOOOSE my emotions. some people just need to wake up their idea.

great..i just lost my train of thoughts cus i suddenly got distracted. was just browsing thru some group pictures of ppl i know on blogs and websites and realized certain things..

this is a boring post..i think i shall end here..=/

Ministry

today was a really shagged day for me. not only did i not have enough sleep, wait...since when i ever had enough sleep? lol. in short..i was off form today la. had discipleship twice. one after briefing, one after debrief..

so those serving and u have discipleship..dont complain. i had it TWICE in 2 hrs! basically i wasnt aware and accountable to e ppl around me..instead serving has become a routine to me. i started doing my own things..not looking at how God would do things, etc..

so for those of u serving..if all e time all you think about is what ure supposed to do and what ure supposed to do..then it defeats the purpose! really. instead of serving God, you are now serving man. it is true..we serve the people in the house of God..but ultimately its still about serving God!

you can be soo busy..filling seats..securing stations..singing, playing the instrument..etc..and at the same time..you lose your focus on God and you start doing the routine, instead of really flowing with God.

you're just doing your 'JOB'. NO people! ministry is more than a job! ministry is more than a list of dos and donts! ministry is about God! ministry is WORSHIP expressed through service. so what if people upset you? SO WHAT!

are you there for people? or are you there for God? are other people's attitudes more important than your very own attitude towards God? Think for yourself.

im really thankful to God for these kind of leaders He's placed in my life. im thankful that even when there are times i make mistakes and i dont even know..that there are people out there who are willing to confront my mistakes, so that i can become a better person..more like God.

ive learned alot today. what it really means to be a servant of all. yet we are not our own. we dont work alone. the entire body of christ functions as one. when its time to serve, you serve. when its time to fellowship, you fellowship. when its time to worship, you worship. dont just do your own things..flow with God!

Service, Unsatisfied

service was awesome today. met up with joyce to accompany her to her first CIC class. teach her where to go..how to register..get e book, etc. both stay boonlay so its quite convenient for me. lol.

serving later..I MUST NOT OVERSLEEP! lol. oh ya..during service..whole row sisters except me..gosh..okay..tts so random..

man..Nick Vujicic was the ultimate preacher ever! his life testimony blew me away. His message blew me away. everything of him blew me away!

Personally for me, i must say i was blown away. not just by the revelation upon revelation i received. but by his character and attitude! =)

It goes to show that sometimes..we take things for granted, and we complain over the smallest things. just looking at his life testimony makes me WOW.

also..he said, we sing "I wanna stay..I wanna stay here, with You..". But turn it e other way round and God loves us so much that He sings, "I wanna stay..I wanna stay here..with you..". thats e most beautiful thing ive ever heard. and i will naturally tend to turn e song e other way round as if God was singing it. actually..if uve read my previous posts..i always talk about how God loves us and sings us the very song we sing to Him.

I just love the romance between me and God..=))

and when he said, "more than a conqueror". what does it mean to be a conqueror? to win. then he went on, "So if that makes you a conqueror, what is it that makes you MORE than a conqueror?"that really hit me. another thing he said that impacted me was the part where he says, there are times God wont change your circumstance, He will change your heart.

that really applied to me and sometimes, all i ask for is "God change my situation, God change this, God change that..". But actually, the thing that God wants to change is me. like ps kong said, "God is more interested in your character than your comfort".

they always say, "if u give a man a fish, u feed him for a day. If u teach him how to fish, u feed him for a lifetime". God knows that if He can change us, we can change our circumstance! =) No point changing our circumstance when we react the same way everytime something similar happens to us..

the only way to overcome giants is to become a bigger giant ourselves.

had dinner at singpost today..celebrated JIBABOM's birthday..and Pow's farewell. i dont know. i felt weird during fellowship today. many things were going thru my mind..

everyone's graduating..everyone's moving on..everyone's going army..and many many other things. all i thought of was.."God, make me more like you..", i cant stop thinking and meditating on what Nick shared today..even as i walked home..i cant stop thinking..

im not satisfied...

Food poisoning, Christine, Healing

my mum checked for me..the pancake i ate yesterday was not only soggy..and poorly fried..the flour was expired as well! O_O. sooo..yea..food poisoning :x

my skin wasnt reddish bcos of allergy..haha..actually yes..allergic to toxic/poison haha. well..despite the condition i was in..thank God the rash disappeared at night. as such, i was able to visit Christine at her place =) she's recovering very fast..oh yeah! haha. :D

along e train ride..i decided to buy a packet of tissue just in case. ya..its all about my nose. if its not blood..its mucus haha. i need to start eating properly. ive been like eating what...instant noodles, skipping breakfast and all that..junk food..yet at e same time..improper food.

having bread for lunch...is soooo not good. and i need to drink more water! but yea..thank God..food poisoning was completely healed in 24hrs! haha. i didnt take panadol..i didnt see doctor, i didnt go hospital LOL!!!!!

SONG BO!!!!! hahahaha...i feel so crappy now...lol...if im lame..tt means im normal. actually i intended to..but i told myself..wait and see. I gave God the priority, i made room for God to move. :DD (ps phil..making room for God)

haha. but seriously..all these wouldnt be possible if not for a brother..Jeremy..haha...teacher Jeremy aka Mr Fok, a friend i met while playing for sis Pauline's cg. yes, he's a sch teacher and by looking at his testimonials and by talking to him myself..he's a really friendly and loving guy.

and it was he who suggested to me..taking chinese tea will help clean my system. so...being the desperate and greedy person i am..not because im a FOODFREAK..but i wanted the rash, and the pain to go away..i took 2-3 cups of chinese tea! LOL.

and mind you..its not the mini cup u see in restaurants..i took the regular CUP!!! haha..the normal drinking cup. man...i peed e whole day..but it helped..and last night..i could finally shit! hahahaha. WOOHOO!

POOPOO, i choose you! LOL

yea..Jeremy was like an angel sent by God haha...thats how life should be. full of God, full of miracles and the supernatural! =)) haha..when you're close to God..He's just close to you. He likes to woo me..haha..thats what i like about Him :pp

when im sick, He says..."nnoooo, dont..let ME heal You :) you can count on Me. :D ". He just loves to be part of my life..and i enjoy having Him so close :) He just loves to give me surprises and show me His power, His glory, and His love. =)

sometimes i wish..i could be more like Him..:S how i wish i could say to people.."Dont worry, i have the answer to all your problems! Let me show you.." :( oh man...God..i wanna be like You..

besides, God also knows im financially tight right now. and God knows best. even when i was at my lowest point in life..i kept believing, i kept trusting, and God certainly builds on the positive!

im just so amazed by everything that's happened yesterday...and i rem what Ps Richard Roberts said..if you want healing..then pray for other people's healing.

likewise..i wanted to be healed. and i took that step to be able to be there for someone else, who is recovering from a leg surgery. :)) and as a result..the same love..the same prayers..came back to me..and God IS faithful!

going for svc now..man i miss ps tan's preaching..haha. he's the intellectual kind..and his preaching is always deep, but revelational and man..its just POWER! haha. he makes a good theologian i would say..haha..and ps kong mentioned before..ps tan is good in apologetics. as in, answering questions people will ask..like, "How can God be 3, and yet 1", etc..yea..

thank God for everything..Good times, bad times..in sickness, in health..You are the God..of my forever!