Celgrp

it was great. at e same refreshing..its been like one month since we had a proper cg meeting. its either combined zone PM or CG outing. Pirates' Breakaway draws near..haha..and i heard from adam that its creating a big hoohah among the leaders..cus its a really large scale event first of its kind :DD haha.

today's cg game was so damn funny..haha..PuppetMaster. lol. one guy is e puppet, one guy is e puppeteer. its like charades, just that now use the puppet to demo haha. the puppet wont know the word also..and he can also guess. only e puppeteer/puppetmaster knows e word/clue.

haha..then that wenrui and tricia so funny..LOL. tricia had to stand behind rui and puppet him haha..holding his hands, legs and any part of him thats flexible to do specific actions LOL. so funny..had great laughs..lol..and when she was whispering into my ear..i have no idea why pohchoo suddenly laughed..or was it jolene? haha..

mebbe cus it looked like something? lol..nvm..haha. the 'golfer'. man thaddeus almost swung my hand away! haha. i was the puppet ma..lol. swing my hand so hard. LOL! message was great. i was reminded how the way up is the way down. and we dont like by the pattern of this world, but the pattern of the kingdom of God :)

my cg seems to have an 'unglam' anointing haha..i like LOL. yea..thanx pam for the argars lol. Breakaway briefing tmr at 9am @ Vivo. dunno if i can reach on time lol. i have a feeling ill wake up after 9 haha..=/

its not compulsory for me..tho..but yea..if i could id love to go.

service..hooray! SOTM finale! =)) congrats to all multiplying cgs.

Friend pages

Hmm im bored now so ill just do another random, blog. haha.

heard of the newest Facebook? yea..the website where u can upload ur face and place bookings. okay, thats crap. lol. i have an account there, but i wont be using it.

i have accounts at wholivesnearyou.com, tagged.com, hi-5.com, and some other weird 'connections' accounts/sites. yea..so dont bother inviting me to join more and more of those pages.

firstly, im not that desperate to meet new random people, cus im already random enough. second, friendster's my core..i took lots of time meeting new people and having them added to my friends list. haha. lastly, tagged.com is creative..but friendster looks more neater to me.

i dunno why..everytime they change their layout its always weird, but after awhile i kinda got used to it. last night didnt do much..random crapping with huixin, wyelin and getting songs from adam for today's cg.

liz's house not available so cg will be at my house. everyone around me is multiplying. i know of 5 celgrps around me that are multiplying this week or the next. hur hur hur. stress. wait a minute..did i blog this last night? gosh, i dont even remember what ive blogged. that shows how random it is. lol.

anyway, im already preparing for service tmr. had my qt this morning..a rather short one. while i was practicing the songs i just went into my 'secret place' and the presence of God overwhelmed me to tears. it was just wonderful.

a friend was telling me yesterday..that i looked a lot like her cousin. hmm..its strange, 3-4 people have come to me telling me e same thing. why cousin? do i look very cousinny? haha. or is it all of u have e same cousin? ^.O

ya..that was crap. lol. see? once again..im off topic. just look at my title and look at my post now. randomly off topic. haha. yea...the more im talking about being off topic, the more off topic i get. O_O

guess ill stop here..lol..nothing much to blog. mebbe will blog again after cg :D haha.

Random

sheesh i have to stop putting 'Random' as my post titles..haha. but really..these are random posts done out of boredom. i dont need to have something to say to blog haha. when im bored..i dclick IE, type blogger.com and here i am..

blogging for no apparent reason and have totally nothing in my mind. haha. okay i shall end this post right here, right now..haha..jus kidding. im not gonna have a 2 paragraph post LOL!

was chatting with PL yesterday and she told me of a good place to eat fish and chips..woo..id love to try it out one day haha. wait till we're free then we'll go try one day and see how's it ^^

nothing much happened e past few days..no more strange random people who needs money..not that im sick of giving free money, its just that. its not normal anymore..when enounters dont happen haha.

when im busy..i slacken my QT, when im bored, i slacken my QT. man..i cant go on like this. i dont like to live such that i only pray when i have things to do. even when im bored, or when im free the whole day, i wanna keep my prayer life strong also.

its been pretty quiet the past few days..nothing much has happened, even on MSN..im not as busy as i used to. busy as in...chat windows all over...lol. oh yes, last night i had curry flavoured cup noodles. man, i think i suddenly got craving haha.

its true that i know some ppl who cant wait for me to update my blog..haha. so im doing a favour for you now okay? haha :DD anyway, by right my cg was supposed to have overnight cg/chalet t pasir ris today..but i dont know why..mebbe poor response..then in e end cancelled.

everyone around me is multiplying..it gets a little agitating for me. i was just telling pam, sometimes we look around us, we see the same people..some since day1. and is not 'good' in a sense..every year, we should be seeing new people..meeting new people..having new members, new celgrps, and breaking new boundaries!

Dr AR Bernard once said, if ure e leader of a group, then its time to change your group. we should not backslide..thats common sense..everyone knows that. neither should we be stagnant. i will always remember..your faithfulness is measure by your fruitfulness. no point talking the talk, and not walking the walk.

Either we're hot, or we're cold. if not we'll be 'vomitted' out. ps phil once said, worship without passion, incense without fire..is nothing more than just dust before God. just like BBQ. what happens when the fire is low/dies out..

the food become soggy..cold..sticky..and sooner or later..ants will come. we have to keep the fire going, same with fried food. God give the oil, we have to light the fire. in e course of e past few days..more pimples have spawned on my face. gosh. and i admit im not eating well either. everyday at home..GOSH.

if anyone is having lunch at pasir ris/woodlands/punggol/yishun/extreme ends of singapore. i would be more than willing to join u man! my jogging routine is as dead as my appetite =/

i miss sec sch...and those lanshop days..=/

Random

i dont know if i ever mentioned this..but i just realised months ago..that when i was born. well, i dont really know how old i was at that time..but Singapore had this "Singapore's cutest baby" contest.

and my parents told me I came out as the grand winner (in the whole of singapore) and they even showed me the photos it was chromish color back then..no color photos. when i heard it and saw e photos..no words could come out of my mouth. i just looked at the photo..and all i thought of was God..

When did this happen? how come i didnt know until awhile ago? God..what have I done to deserve this? and the presence of God overwhelmed me. You have given me so much..so much I dont deserve. How can Your love be so great? Im in awe of You..

i looked at myself and i really couldnt tell. right from the day i was born, i had been called to be a person of influence and example. what a privilege. i seriously couldnt believe my eyes and ears.

God..You are just impossible man..

Granado Espada, Mars

just yesterday in GE, ive been given a new nickname..thanks to some cheeky clowns..haha.

my IGN was Dresari, but they morph it into "dress-sari san" WTH LOL. so unglam can! haha..but also damn funny. now im the target of their 'suan-ing' haha..but they are really fun people la..haha..Chevaliers Faction (Carracci Server)

im told u can see mars in e sky tonight..its s beautiful. ive always marvelled at the wonders of space. as a child i loved going to my friend's house just to take the telescope and stare at the night sky all night. amazing stuff. too bad sg has lots of light pollution..if not the view would be awesome..

ill never forget that night in Tioman..i was along the wooden jetty in the night..it was very dark and i lay on the platform staring at the night sky. the view was fantastic..you could feel as if the earth was really spinning and not like the straight sky u see in singapore..

when you see the stars and how they are arranged..you can really see the 'curve' or the 'spherical' nature of the atmosphere. like we're inside a dome of gas :))

God is just so amazing..when i saw the night sky..all the beautiful stars and planets that were visible..i thought to myself. the universe is so big..so magnificent and beautiful..

yet a person like me..so small compared to all His creation..is the most precious..He chose to die for someone like you..instead of everything else in the whole universe put together..not even the angels in heaven can compare with you..

Random

woke up early this morning..after a funny dream..haha..i was holding someone's hand..lol..cant tell who..haha. so weird. :P

God is funny. haha. while i was gaming today..a lady walked past my window..

erm, in case ure thinking..man i saw a ghost..NO. haha..my window outside is the corridor O_O. anyway..lol yea..she was asking something in chinese and u know my china is not very good..i only heard "ni neng jie wo shi kuai $10 mah?"..

immediately..automatically.."orh..ke yi.." took out another 10 bucks. and just gave her. and i think she got shocked. her smile made me smile too..she thanked me and i said bo ke qi :)

and continued gaming..

and God whispered "you are one crazy fella..when ure depressed u give..when ure gaming..u dont even need to question if the girl was cheating you or not.." and i just felt God smile :))

nah..i didnt give because i was attracted by her. even though she's young. people in my celgrp and church look better..but..thats not the point. love is unconditional. i love because i want to..i give because i want to. no need to even stop and think.

even though sometimes its important..but when ur relationship with God is strong..you can easily tell if you're led. yes..ps meng mentioned during bs before..the true mark of maturity is the ability to be led by the Holy Spirit.

and yes..i find it strange too. haha. my poor money =/ BUT! its not my money anyway, its God's money. we are just stewards. so are we people who look after his money? are we people who take what God has given us and multiply it? or do we spend it on our own desires?

dont be a user, be a steward! only when God can trust u in e little, will He give u much.

i really think God is doing something in my life. haha..last week was the elderly man..this week is the young lady. what's next? haha. and the lady told me: duo 1 - 2 tian wo wei huan gei ni de..

i just smiled. i never intended for her to return me :)) the elderly man also. even though the tissue was one dollar..i never intended him to return me any change :)) thats AGAPE. learn from God..BE like God.

and yes..haha..who says gamers cant have godly attitudes! mine was auto..haha..and i really thank God. when He tests me..sometimes im amazed how i can pass without even realising He's testing me. Thats how we should be! not just believers..even Satan believes in God! But be a disciple!

i like Seth's nick: It costs you nothing to be saved, but it costs you everything to be a disciple!

ive been re-listening and watching the sermon videos of Dr. AR Bernard and Dr. Joyce Meyer. im just so blessed by it. early in the morning..i have the presence of God. and now im not really starting my IHP yet..i thank God for the time i have to spend time with Him and to finally start back my jogging routine.

once again..it all boils down to your foundations..

if your foundation is right..whether ure gaming, or depressed, happy or sad..you will do NOT the good thing, but the RIGHT thing, because greater is He who is in me, than He who is in the world!

MAN! IM ON FIRE! haha..dont touch me or ull get burnt :PP

Ministry, Shopping

guess what.i woke up late. the person im supposed to pick up..woke up late too. haha so in e end went down on our own. when i was wearing my shoes about to leave, my IC called. its the end. lol..at first it wasnt.

service was great. sermon was great. FINALE soon! im so excited. haha. was doing speakers external today. i must say i managed to grasp the sermon, thanks to the mascot haha. even when im outside taking readings every 10 minutes from the start of svc till e end...i can still listen to the sermon. =)

i love doing the simple things..haha..things probably some people wont enjoy doing. like refilling drinks in the fridge and packing walkie talkies. refilling was done before svc, and keeping e walkies was after e svc, after debrief.

then had a short discipleship with my IC. for not being accountable and not letting them know i was late. they understand if im late..but e main thing is to take initiative and be accountable. what Joyce said really impacted me, if you wanna be someone great..you have to start living like that person and live by example..

i know i was wearing my shoes when she called and she so happened to call before i could wear my shoes and sms her..but i know i shld have smsed her e moment i woke up. so yea..we learn through our mistakes. and personally..because i know im not perfect..that's why i give room for other people to make mistakes. what matters is the attitude.

had a snack at foyer 3 with pam, pohchoo and liz. yea..my fav burger and juice. haha. then went to bugis accompany them to shop. a bit weird right? call me sister andrew man! lol. i was so tired and blur..got once i walked right into a barcode sensor at the exit of the Sony shop! the owner and some ppl outside were staring at me lah..lol..

and way i knocked into it..i didnt really knock with force..but it looked as though i was straight towards it and hugged it O_O. thank God it wasnt some female mannequin!! ^.O if not even e whole bugis will know me..GOSH!

i dont know how many times we walked past this junction..i think like five times! we went to almost every shop in the entire bugis junction..bugis street/village! hoooly. to cut the long story short..they shopped till 5 plus..had a short meal at this bubble tea shop..had cheese toast and choco shake. yum. before tt met up with trish.

after we had our light afternoon snack..went to meet jed, lijia and cheryl! gosh sec sch pals..so long never see! :)) yea..guess what..they shopped again! this time...till 8 plus...

had dinner at this really gd place just a few streets across Bugis Junc. we had this really nice wanton mee. and the sauce really rocks! haha. thanks to Jed. lol. we were sharing our sec sch stories..pri sch stories and those funny teachers we had...

Jed and his 'thambilakalo" LOL..what e hell is that man hahaha! he was trying to rem the name of the indian teacher in pri sch..haha. i laughed so loud i think the whole kopitiam heard me..i turned around and everyone was staring at me..even the vendors! O_O

WHAT IN THE WORLD IS HAPPENIN TO ME??? hahaha...everywhere i go..sure unglam one..and sure attract lots of attention. gosh. i think i can go buy a shirt with a tomato in the center one day..cus my face always on the verge of tomato-ing haha..

after dinner..went to chill out at starbucks. i was so full i could give birth! luckily i didnt order anything haha. we chatted again..about army..about school..God..and pamela's "jump out the window" parody..LOL. if u find it show me k? i wanna see..haha..i really cant recall x_x lol.

after that jed went to have a smoke..then went to find his friend at the LANshop while we continued chatting haha. eventually..at 940..they wanted to go shop at bugis street again..haah but i had to go aldr..before i knock into something/someone else..lol..

i shall end my post with 2 videos =)

Service and thoughts

today's service was awesome. what a greater time to live than now.

its just so amazing, what ive been blogging the past few days..and that incident yesterday, all flowed with today's message. you might tink..nah..just coincidence, u can be certain that i have no idea what today's sermon's gonna be before today!

and some of the things ps kong mentioned..are actually in my previous posts for this week! i sat there..and i was like..goodness..i blogged the exact same thing days ago! :O

and it was the exact words! :O

but SOTM was good. like ps always said, its a spiritual mirror that reflects how conformed you are into His likeness and image. it sets apart the true disciple, from the nominal believer.

oh yea..there's this pastor from India who added me on msn. :O im just so amazed..how did he find my blog? "Oh i was searching.."

in case u didnt know..many ppl view my blog. not that im showing off or anything, but thats just how it is. my blog is on google for some reason: taiwanese, ppl from hong kong/china, sri lankans, indians, a business entrepreneur from UK, and a book author/publisher from the US..have tagged me before. and how did people like that ever come across this small 'lame' blog?

They so happened to find my blog...

i mean, how can such big shots..pastors..entrepreneurs, book authors, SO HAPPENED to find my blog. this blog has nothing more than my lameness and crappiness combined haha. i never dreamed to be an influential blogger..

neither did i dream of becoming a blogger...who people can tear in e presence of God just by reading it..or get encouraged, or even get discipled just reading my blog..after all..its just a blog.

For e first time, i have a pastor in my msn contact list. God is just so amazing. When he asked me, "So..how's your ministry?" i was silent for a moment...i was telling him how moved i was about his ministry because it revolves round helping homeless kids and reaching out to the lost and needy..

http://graceorphanage.org/

this is his site. seeing those pictures...im just so moved. but when he asked me about my ministry..i was thinking..i dont have a ministry ._. im just a student with nothing much in my hands..im just a guitarist in a celgrp..

i have nothing compared to a church. i have nothing compared to an orphanage =/ im already thankful, that God can use someone like me..to bring down e presence of God. but im nowhere near that guy..

seeing myself with my own ministry is a dream..really..it seems like it can never happen. but God somehow, through that website He said 3 words..

"Maybe one day.."

well..its been said that if ure close enough to God, God will share His secrets with you. but you need deep close intimate relationship! its only reserved for the true believers. those 3 words were the words that rang in my mind..

God, what is it? give me a preview of my future :D but those 3 words..kept me excited, in suspense..and in awe of God.

and God said no more. what a CLIFF HANGER!! T.T you know those shows when something exciting is about to happen..and the show ends? or "to be continued..", or "Let's go for a commercial break now, we'll be back.." God has an amazing way to make me crazy over Him. lol.

im not saying my future wife is gonna be a cliff-hanging wife..lol. yea yea..now by seeing how God 'woos' me..maybe someone out there is gonna try e same thing on me..haha just kidding LOL.

okay, im getting sidetracked..lol. back to e service..sermon was fantastic. i cant wait for tomorrow's! and the praise and worship was just awesome. i was so tired and drained out..no wonder is so easy for God to touch me and its so easy to tear in e presence of God on my knees.

when u are weak, God is e strongest. when uve come to e end of yourself, that's when God is closest to you. and i experienced it for myself. i was crying so much i could hardly sing..i wanted God to raise me up to a whole new standard and level..i wanted a double portion from Him..

i knew without Him, i was nothing..without Him, i couldnt do anything. i like what ps said "God uses those who have spiritual concentration.."

and im really thankful. all these while..i dont really say i have spiritual concentration but to the extent of how God uses someone like me..no one can deny it. its nothing to boast about. im just doing my best..:))

because i hardly talk much..i spend most of my time..thinking, listening and feeling. im not a talker. people tell me how they cant believe i have an introverted personality. well..thats the truth lol. cant tell? thats because when ure filled in e Holy Spirit, He makes you a different person =)

everytime when im quiet, i dont have anything to say. ill just talk to God. because no matter how shy i am..He's the only person im comfortable talking to. im not saying i feel uncomfortable around everyone else..its just the way i am. i dont look stoned..many things are going on inside of me..

ill be honest here. most of the time..im thinking about God. really. what He's done for me, what He's gonna do..my encounters with Him the entire week. the things He spoke to me, etc. i think thats how i have encounters with Him almost every other day. not because im super spiritual or what..

its just that im there and im available..for Him to move..for Him to touch. if you dont spend time with Him, even if He wanna touch you also cannot. because ure just too busy. its just like a real-life relationship. i had this revelation a long time ago..that..if you cant keep your love relationship with God strong, if your relationship with God is not strong..

then how is your relationship with your future partner going to be strong? people ask me..a person like you..how come no gf? haha. well..its simple. i dont believe in fooling around. i know my weaknesses and i know if my relationship with God is not STRONG and intimate, then there's really no point in pursuing a relationship.

thats why people keep changing girlfriends and boyfriends. because they're never satisfied, they just dont know how to HANDLE these kind of relationships. because they're so far from God. God is love..without love, how can you love?

common sense? you dont need to be a rocket scientist to discover that. i mean, u wanna talk about relationships, i have a few whom i have in mind. but do i give it a shot? no. if it doesnt work out..it doesnt! stop being a fool and wake up your idea!

its one thing to be courageous..its another thing to be reckless and foolish! its not that i have no confidence in myself..i do..i know who i am, what i have. but..what is discipleship? ps made it very clear today.

if ur spiritual life is on the rocks..then everything else will be on e rocks. your life can only prosper to e extent ur soul prospers. as simple as that. period. no buts, no ifs. running away wont solve anything, time wont solve anything..change your thinking and face it!

After service we went for BK to have dinner and fellowship..man they shrunk the size back to e original size LOL. and christine, get well soon :) i dont know why..ive been very quiet lately.

around the same time last year..before my IHP..i was also in this state. im tired..im worn out. i dont have e energy to act like a 5 year old kid anymore. there are so many things going on in my head. and maybe, im not used to being around people. for 4 yrs in poly. i live the life of a 'soloist'.

Thats IT for you. IT = no life. lol. im someone who likes quietness and solitude. and thad was so funny..he said, why cant our celgrp have those nice sweet quiet girls. and i so agree with him haha! cus we're a bunch of madmen and madwomen, im one of e few sane ones.

i just dont have my 'click' lol.

our cg needs some of the quiet serious type..people whom i can click with. haha. e only people whom i feel relatable to, people i can really share my secrets are adam and timo. tim reminds me of myself in my earlier days..

adam's story and his life itself..reminds me of myself..i mean, both of us went thru similar problems. he was sharing with me. there used to be more people whom i can be transparent with..but people change..and mebbe last time we were close..but now not as close anymore..

man..this post is long! haha. gotta wake up early tmr..then pick shuxia up at clementi and share cab down to expo. its gonna be another looooong day lol. i would be so shagged that the things i say would probably freeze people..lols.

i hope i dont wake up late..if not she'll kill me! haha.

oh ya..met wyelin in svc and finally..my DEBT IS CLEARED! haha. i passed her e CDs. now hopefully she will stop 'edifying' me LOL. man..those eyelashes pic will prob stay with me my entire life! O_O haha. hey..sorry u were 'interupted' when u were trying to do ur recruitment =/ i knew u were trying ur best and some 'things' just went wrong at e wrong time :S

also i dont know..after service i went to apologise to the usher if me or my cg members have caused her any trouble. i dunno. im not a celgrp leader...im just a servant...im willing to defend the people i love..

but i dont really care if ure my friends or not..im not interested in doing the good thing, im interested in doing the right thing. if you have a character problem, then you have a character problem. i dont care who's giving the excuses..im someone who place character above relationship. that is why i choose my friends carefully.

and as i was saying..yea..i went to apologise on behalf of the celgrp. i, a member, not a leader, am willing to lower myself and take the blame for my celgrp. i, who stay at boonlay, who came before 330, am willing to take the blame for anyone who's late. im not even a fellow usher.

if nobody's gonna do it, i will do it. and its not the first time im apologising for people..for my celgrp. i just never told anyone about it..until now. i dont care if people appreciate me or not..last time im easily shaken by this..

but now..im different. how you think about me, i dont really care. and i dont really bother. what matters is God. my devotion to God..is stronger than even my own celgrp, my own family. not that i neglect them..they're just not my priority anymore. i dont live for the approval of man, i live for the approval of God. that's what it means to have the fear of God in your life.

dont live a life of brokenness without the fear of God..and dont live in the fear of e Lord without a life of brokenness. what made me do what i did yesterday? what made me do what i did today? the fact that Jesus died for them. and they are a 'king's child' so I treat the old man, the usher, like a child of the King of Kings..and the Lord of Lords!

and to see her smile back..im relieved. i know adam doesnt read my blog..and he doesnt have to know. the sacrifices ive made. im just going to live a life of obedience!

Random

Recently ive been leaving the com on overnight for the entire week. Esp when im doing my revision till 2am plus and then 'accidentally' dozing off after that.

Man..i have to stop..=/

just one week before the exams..ive been trying to cut down on electrical expenses. by sleeping without aircon..i mean..all of us have to step out of our comfort zone one day in order to achieve something right?

But this week was tiring..ive been sleeping from 3-6, or 2-5 everyday. and last night was the only night i slept soundly, and waking up naturally without having to use an alarm clock.

actually..last night i dozed off too. i logged out of my game..chatted on msn awhile. those who came to my house before will know how 'anointed' my bed is! haha! is like the moment u lie on it, ull fall asleep!

even if u just sit on it..ull feel like lying down. and when u do..POOF..ure in lalaland. im not those kind of people who will say "Hey! that's my bed!" i mean..i let anyone lie on it..as long as u dont mess it up or anything like that.

actually i wouldnt even mind if u mess it up..haha..ill probably just tidy up my own bed after uve gone home. =/

boy..im still tired. i dont know why..thank God the 'kawaii' red dots on my face are disappearing haha. definitely looking forward to service later. yups =)

Tears of a broken child..

exam is finally over. IM A FREE PRISONER. yes..e prisoner..what an oxymoron. why? because i still have my IHP still march next year..starting NOW. T.T

paper was okay today..when i first went into the hall..e moment i looked at e paper. i was so stressed and i just forgotten what looked through once more, just seconds before entering the hall. the last thing i saw in my notes, appeared to be the first question.

but thank God, i managed to finish the paper. its the only paper that i finished early. so had early lunch. i like the weather. kinda refreshing and suits my mood..now..cold and teary.

as i was walking from boon lay back home. there was this old man that appeared out of nowhere as i was walking along the sheltered pavement towards the main road. it was still pouring..

this old man..held some tissue and a red packet with a random number on it. people were walking past him. but i dont know why..i started taking out whatever i had in my pocket. when he saw me..he was limping on one leg. he couldnt move very fast. instead of him walking towards me, i dont know what came over me...

i just went towards him. smiled and before he could say anything, i gave him what i had. that $10 note. he smiled and i could tell he was moved. he spoke in hokkien, i wish i could say God bless you in hokkien, but i simple smiled back. "Hor wa ah?..Gam sia..Gam sia..lu tak chek nia, lu jin ho xin"

and he continued to thank me in hokkien ("gam sia..gam sia..gam sia orh..") as i walked away smiling. not before long, i then realised what had just happened. the remaining allowance i had for the week, was for tomorrow's service, to pay my tithes and offerings..and for fellowship. i had given that amount that i was keeping for fellowship and dinner tomorrow..

i started feeling sad..that $10 meant a lot to me..and it kinda pierced my heart when i gave it away just like that. as i was walking in the rain..my eyes started tearing. no one could see me cry..only God..

"Andrew, do you know what you've just did??"

"no..does it really matter God? im stressed..im tired..im sick of having to take exams again and again..and the same ones..im sick of not being able to do well. God..I love You..all i want is shine for You and to make you feel proud of me.." - i was crying..in the rain..as i walked back..

"Andrew..you've had a hard week, you're stressed and tired and frustrated..Do you know what you've just done caught the attention of Me and all the angels in heaven? The moment You gave that which was precious to you, all of us stopped and we saw you..

And I see your tears. You just gave your precious to someone you dont even know! Do you know what impact you have made in the spiritual realm?"

And i couldnt hold my tears anymore..i broke down when i got home. "God..it doesnt really matter. All i wanted is to pass this exam..if i dont make it this year, im going to give 50 bucks to another stranger next year.." i was crying like ive never cried before..

"yes, im tired..yes im frustrated. God, im soo stressed..but i dont know what made me do what i just did just now. God thank you..thank you for giving your precious to me and blessed me all these years..even though i dont deserve it. im already happy just to be in poly...God, what more can i ask for? What ive sown, ive reaped so many times already..

Because of you..i can encourage others..because of You, i can usher in the presence of God during celgrp, because of You..that old man was blessed. God..what have i done to deserve all that uve given to me?? Im just a nobody..im not rich, i have pimples on my face..and ulcer in my mouth..i dont dress like others and i dont have muscles like a hunk..

tears kept flowing..

God!!! God!!! God!!! tell me..what makes me so special!!! You've done so much in my life i dont know what to say..i just want to pass this semester..God i want to move on..i did my best..i really did. i ignored the fact that im blur..i didnt regret my forgetfulness, i pressed on and moved on..like how you spoke to me through Ps Joyce i lived today in faith!

God, i have no idea..i just gave away the remains of my week's allowance. i dont know what came over me...!"

and that soft voice spoke in my heart..

"Andrew, you are a true disciple. Im impressed by you." and i kept quiet..tears was all over my face. Those 4 words.."Im impressed by you..", i...how am i supposed to react when God says that to me!? i just kept quiet and wiped the tears off my face..

"how many people would actually do what you did? What if that man was cheating you? This is probabaly your worst week in your life..yet you gave, unknowingly, because love inside of you is genuine and strong.."

and it so true..i was so moved. indeed if you have the heart of God..is there any circumstance that can change who you are? is there any problem too great for you? despite what i went through..i remained firm as a rock..because my life is built on Christ the rock.

when the winds blew, i swayed..but i was never uprooted. when the storms came and swept through my life..i rocked, but the house never fell..i didnt change. Im still the andrew who loves God..im still the andrew who loves people..in the worse day of my life, i encountered the greatest God..a road in the wilderness He'll lead me..a river in the desert will I see..

If God can do it for me..

He can do it for you..

Stressssss!! HELP!!!! Rant ALERT!

Few more hours to exam. HOLY MOO MOO COW!

What if i get mental block like today? AHHHHHH! i dun wanna repeat! and i dont wanna get expelled T.T

SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT!!

toiletpaper toiletpaper toiletpaper toiletpaper FLUSH!

ahhhhh!

GRR i cant take it anymore! its more blessed to give than to receive! GOOD! NAH! I give away my wireless technology..anybody want? can take. thanks.

What if i forget my name?? What if i wear a skirt and a bra to school and i dont even know..okay im thinking too much..THATS THE WHOLE FRIGGING POINT! I AMMMM thinking too much. because of all these stupid notes.

im gonna assassinate the MOE and take over his place. this is so unrealistic. giving us essay questions on wireless technological theories are soooo UNPROFESSIONAL! wireless technology is meant to be tested! not to be WRITTEN! haiyooooo...you TOOT isit???

You fail england ah? ya..you fail singapore too! I can make shit out of my butt better than you can set all those crappy test papers. I think even my fart smells nicer than my test paper!

PUUUUUUUUUT!!! Ahhh! Oh no! *cough cough..*CHOKE CHOKE! sniff sniff...whoa! what is this fragrant, sweet smelling aromatherapy!?! I THINK I FEEL 20 YEARS YOUNGER!

ya right..^.O

Having written test on wireless tech is like asking you to go to your wedding dinner:

And instead of SAYING an introduction, you DANCE an introduction...

"Heeeeeeeyyyy makarena!! I can shake my bom bom. *turns around, places hands on butt. "ooh lookie here! my name is Buttman, nice to meet you..! *shakes butt, accidentally falls down.." SO UNGLAM RIGHT!?!

Heaps and heaps of technical jargans..more like technical TROJANS! You IT professionals train people to fight against viruses and trojans and you yourselves impose your virusey and trojaney tactics on us by creating this whole cursed information technology!

KISS MY BUTT MAN!

Come on andrew, bear with it!

DO I LOOK LIKE A FRIGGING BEAR TO YOU?? besides..i shall NOT bear with this nonsense any longer. so furry..the more i bear with it the more its gonna take its paws and whack me upside down, inside out!

im not making and sense..no? yea..im making dollars! you can probably stop reading and close this stupid browser of yours and reformat your com. you can do some good charity by doing so.

stupid exams..dont piss of a lame guy! if not ill take my wheelchair and knock you down flat! where did this wheelchair come from? IKEA OF COURSE! as if there got sell wheelchairs O_O

Im sooooooooo irritated. STUPID EDUCATION!

YOU TAKE AWAY MY LIFE! YOU TAKE AWAY MY SANITY! YOU TAKE AWAY MY FUTURE AND TRAP ME IN THIS ENDLESS CURSE OF WHATEVER..damn.

i couldve sworn id bring in my notes into the exam hall today lah! toilet so near! put in my pocket go into cubicle and read noone will know also! damnit. i shouldve done that...then i wouldve gotten my A!

stuff those small slips of papers into my underwear u also dont know! you better be happy i didnt freaking cheat! and dont force me to! i can stuff it everywhere!

into my socks, my underwear, my shirt, my pants, shoes..

easier to hide than bombs! i can stick my notes onto the back of my 10 dollar note u also wont know! i think i just might do that..last paper..I SHALL END WITH GLORY! MUAHAHAA!!!

Random Thoughts

My new desktop theme downloaded from themexp.org =) Its called MSNi or MSNk or something like that. haha

one more paper. im so dead. dead tired. hope i dont fall sick. =/ not only im dead, im bored. looking at notes for 3 days in a row..hardcore!

oh wells, was just pondering about some things and this phrase came into mind:

"What would Jesus do?"

In the situation you are in, "What would Jesus Do? (WWJD)", or "what would He say?". to me, thats really a test of discipleship to see how conformed you are into His image. in times of stress, what did Jesus do? that's what you ought to be doing.

sometimes we are so busy. do we think like Him? do we see things e way He sees them? do we speak like Him? is our tone and gestures a reflection of the love of God in our lives? are we producing any fruit?

then i remembered..if a branch is cut off from the vine..not only will we die out eventually..but we'll become stagnant and unproductive at the same time. anyone having these symptoms? =)

some people may not read the bible at all in their entire lifetime, but when they see us, they should see the word made flesh. there are areas in my life i have to change..learning is a lifelong process. are we going to hear the voice of circumstance? or are we going to hear the voice of faith?

many people told me over the years.."but i feel".."but i dont feel"..please! Faith is not a feeling, faith is a substance. i tell you the truth, as long as the earth remains..you will NEVER..NEVER EVER..feel right! NEVER!

The just shall live by faith.

face it, u live in a broken down world. there is a God and there is a devil. if you are gonna live by how you feel, then im afraid you are easy-prey for the 'god of this world'. if he can change e way you feel, he has won my friends...

ps once said..your attitude is the only thing you can change. not even God, let alone the devil, can change. so why live by feelings that are subject to change, when you can live on the firm rock of Christ and be renewed in your thinking?

if your attitude is right? then no feelings or emotions can ever take control of you. adam once said, people slip and fall, is not because they are weak..God doesnt see us as weak. no matter how high you go, if your foundations is wrong from the beginning, you WILL crumble and fall.

you may not now, but one day you will. any tom, dick and harry can prophesy that to you.

stop feeling, stop wondering, and start knowing. it didnt say: faith comes by feeling, and feeling the love of God. it says: faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God. besides..what you feel may not even be RIGHT for a start!

Do you even DARE to trust yourself? That carnal flesh of yours that selfishly seeks to benefit itself all your life? Can you say you really trust yourself? Let alone your feelings? Its one thing to care about your feelings, its another thing when someone is DEPENDENT on their feelings. neither am i saying that u be a mindless robot.

when i was showering i received a revelation from God. we ARE the temple of the HS right? God has blessed us right? what is to be blessed? it is empowered to succeed, empowered to multiply and be fruitful.

therefore, if you are not careful and you let negative things get into this 'temple', it also WILL be empowered, it WILL multiply, and sooner or later, it WILL produce fruits. what goes in, will come out. whats on e inside, will one day show on the outside.

just like a pregnant lady, when she's with child, you can see it. similarly, if you have a stinking attitude or a rotten mindset, then im afraid one day its gonna show. in e natural, u cant possibly abort a baby just like that if you dont want it..you raise it up!

similarly, if you have a rotten attitude inside of you..dont abort it. dont kill it. but feed and nurture it with the attitude of Christ, and one day, when it grows into a full grown..it will show forth the glory of God in your life. just because a baby is born 'wild' means that it will grow into someone with a wild personality right?

We are all agents of change. Stop looking, stop feeling, stop wondering, and start changing. God moves when YOU move. God stops when you stop.

Well..im out of inspirations..as usual..i have many lengthy posts in my blog. sometimes i just type what the Holy Spirit puts in my mind to meditate upon, and i just type it out. it might seem God is speaking to you, praise God. if not, its still okay. it always happens..not that im good or anything..not that im super spiritual or anything like that..

im just obedient. what God speaks, i say. and i myself apply it in my own life. thats how we grow and mature.

back to mugging..=/

Paper 2

damn..this is the most sickest paper ive ever taken.

when i sat down and stared at the paper..immediately..MENTAL BLOCK! O_O sheet, i totally forgotten everything! ahhhh! oh shucks. i cant fail this module again..if not expel X_X

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

*inhales..

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

This is probably the most stressed day of my entire life! Probably the WORST! T.T so many blanks..each question carried like 6-9 marks and there are like 8 of them! GOD!!!! :(( Today totally sucked. =/

LOOK! Im so stressed that even my hair is falling off!!!! And those pimples! Gosh i think my face looks like a moon now! Thats how stressed I am. Pimples, ulcers, migraine. what not. Not to mention, this morning i couldnt find my exam block =/ Im so blur, you'd think that your eyes are failing..

While the paper was being collected and counted..i sat there, and i looked around me. WHOA NOBODY SIA! all left one hour before the paper ended! GRAAAAH!!!

If you see me walking..say Hi to the MOONWALKER! O_O If you see me, you'd probably think its the mid autumn festival or something! ^.O

Hooooooly Mother Rooster..i think my craps are intensely being upgraded and levelled up. YESSSS! THEY ARE! ahhhhhhh.

Seriously, what do you call the study of crap? Lads and germs, let me introduce to you...

Crappishcraptomiacraptoniccraptology! The study of crap. Well done. *Applause please..

My throat...i think its becoming phlegmish..

My forehead...i think its heating up..

T_T

btw, okay, i did go cut my hair..in case someone believes my crap of my hair falling out..haha. but seriously, there are times my hair drops..not in patches la..just one by one. as i was in the salon i sat there..

then omg the girl (quite young, around 20+) wash my hair, keep on looking and smiling at me O_O i dare not look at her back..so paiseh. then got one time..i just look at her thru e mirror in front of me for a second to see if she was still staring at me..then she started laughing =/ oh my gawd. so unglam. i wanted to run away..but i cant T.T

then they will massage ur head while washing ma..normally is a guy who do for me..but today my hairstylist was attending to someone so got e girl to wash instead. i tell you..my face almost burst..she rub slowly then keep on staring at me thru e mirror to see my reaction..

of course i felt weird la! sheesh. my face almost become tomato i tell you! do i really have a funny face? O_O gosh..i think ill stick to the mid autumn festival moon-face :x

Finally blogger is up! OMG

A new video of MAB doing his song Prog. man..is it just me or is my keyboard malfunctioning like me? some keys when i hit doesnt come out O_O

and i burnt my ulcer today while eating dinner..yes..i burnt it with hot smoking sauce from a hotplate! oh yes..stop the mediaplayer in front before attempting to play this video lol.

stress! next paper is at 9am! oh gosh..and my bro is using the calculator! ahhh...anyway, thank God for emma. haha. can borrow from him tml. hope i can wake up =/

1 paper down and Craps

Okay, as usual, stress made me do random things.

Firstly, i forgotten the exam room and my seat number when i got there. Luckily i managed to find the room. When i entered e room, it felt strange. i started to wonder, man, im i in the right room?

i walked to my table. stared at the paper. phew, right room. then i wondered. man, am i sitting on the right seat? then this time, i felt really weird. i started the paper. the room was quite small. i was nervous about the table, not that itll come alive and "HELLO ANDREW!" or anything like that..=/

then true enough, the teacher went round marking attendance halfway thru e paper. and i AM sitting at the wrong desk! OMG! and the girl behind stared at me..also with a blur look, cus she thought she's e one who sat at e wrong desk. in e end we had to swap tables. O_O so unglam! T.T luckily im at the side, not in e middle x_x haha

i think both of us like super paiseh la..sheesh..luckily she didnt know i was the one who sat at the wrong table! haha! hoho! T_T *sob.

e paper wasnt too bad, but im not sure what i wrote was correct, although most of them i was rather confident. just that e qns are a bit tricky. =/ and ive never written so much, so fast with my hands in ages that my fingers began to cramp! esp near the index/thumb area. oh gosh.

its gotta be worse than menstrual cramp lol..wait..i DONT have menstrual cramps! haha! okay, im a bit nonsensical right now. so pardon me. and pardon urselves for not being able to pardon me LOL.

after the paper, went to had dinner in canteen1 alone. luuuuuneleyyyy, im suuu luuuuuuneleyyy, i have no body...only my head, arms, hips and legs...and i forgot the rest of the song...lalalala...

okay, this is crap too. MAN! i think my whole post is crap! lol. it wont be long before the entire USHER ministry tracks me down to this blog x_x gosh. thanks to 2 'faithful' clowns LOL. if one day im gonna do part-time acting and i appear on tv..man, im gonna be the laughing stock of the millenium! O_O

but im serious of giving it a shot..haha..adam has inspired me. i mean, the money is good. i wonder what role ill fit in..pervert? maybe. haha. sheesh..adam told us, during e interview they will ask u to do some expressions, happy, sad, crying, angry, and pervert. i think ill pass e pervert section with flying colors! hahahaha...

then again..how do colors fly? hmm. I KNOW! I KNOW! look at the rainbow! its in the sky right? There you have it lads and germs, FLYING COLORS! err more like...hovering colors..haha..

yep..hovering colors..just like the hyperlinks on websites ^^

whyyyy am i talking about websites? GRRR. Down with programming! haha. jkjk. I have the spirit of insanity and paralysm (an invented word for lameness, sounds more 'professional')...oh noesss, someone save me!

"Hang on! Ive got you.."

"Huh?? Where are you???"

._.

PM

man..one word, awesome!

met wyelin and cass at expo b4 PM..i dun see how my face has a spirit of laughter written all over it. i think i must be carrying some holy laughter anointing cus both of them were laughing like gas e moment my face 'popped' there. then i remembered those eyelashes..OMG..i tell u, i was soooo paiseh..then they had another usher with them..

and she was staring and prob thinking like..'whats going on'? lol. ahh. where to hide my face? hmm..lol.

Praise n worship was a great way to start e prayer meeting. been tired and stressed e whole day, all i needed was something to awaken my soul haha. and we sang in korean, wow! i had a bit of a trouble pronouncing some words and catching up with the subtitles..haha..

but e presence of God was awesome. to be in e midst of Dr Cho's delegates and pastors is really an honour for us. i mean, we are puny..compared to them. they have like 850,000, almost 900,000 to 1mil members! we are less than one tenth lol. but in God is always glory to glory, strength to strength. =)

even though Rev Josh Hong's accent was a bit hard to understand..but like adam said..haha..there are things i really catch from his message, mebbe bcos he..i wont say repeat..he emphasise a lot. and i think its really a word in season.

we really have to get used to kneeling down and pray. in my qt, and in service, im okay with kneeling down and worship, even though last time when i was younger, i found it really hard. back then, id only kneel down when others are kneeling down..but now its different, the depth of your worship, expresses the depth of your love for God.

but as we knelt down and prayed and cried out to God as a church, it was a whole new experience. i can see why 6 out of the 10 largest churches in the world are in Seoul, Korea. they have a strong and powerful prayer life that can change an entire nation.

to the koreans, kneeling and praying was probably something they're used to already, because they have such strong prayer lives. not to mention worship too. when the their choir representative went up to sing, man..the presence of God came all over me.

i dun understand why people can be laughing and joking about her, she represents the largest congregation in the entire history of christianity. when i saw her sing, deep down i was like..man, God is good. who am i? im just an ordinary guy with nothing in my hands, except a love and a desire to serve Him.

i started feeling: who am I compared to her? and i thanked God for using me. But He encourged me, you are special in your own way. She may represent the largest church in the entire history of the church, but you are unique, like everyone else.

we all have something someone else doesnt have. so..thats pretty much my day..not "fast and prayyerrrrrrr", but 'mug and prayerrrrrrrrrrr"...wonderful! O_O lol.

after PM went to talk to adam. he prayed for me..cus ive been having spiritual atk via dreams lately. 2 so far this week. total random dreams, but waking up feeling fear gripping me all over. and i have no idea what im afraid of. its not normal fear, its e spirit of fear. yep. and it grips you..elaine was sharing with me also..and i can relate to her.

man, whats the 'CMI (cannot make it) choir leader' up to..? Lucifer was a choir leader. in case ure lost. haha.

oh, and adam also prayed for my paper tmr so..yea..

pimple, ulcer, headache..what else could spawn on my face? LOL. thats about it after PM rushed home with a crazy bunch of people. didnt have dinner lol. poor me. guess ill have bread with sausage. haha. no mood to eat also..those codes and privacy statements in front of me is simply 'eye catching'...

headache! Who are you? Before me you shall become a plain!

NO WAIT..thats so wrong. If my head becomes a plain wont that make me a retard? hohoho!

wh..wh..wh.......wheres my brain?????

Stress

1. Stress makes me forget details.
2. Stress makes me sotongfied.
3. Stress prevents me from being in my optimal condition.
4. Stress clouds my brain so that even when a pillar is in front of me, I dont notice it.
5. Stress is contagious. My stress will spread to people. Others' stress will spread to me.
6. Stress makes me blur and confused.
7. Stress is depressing.
8. Stress manipulates my moods, thoughts and emotions.
9. Stress is good? Hmm. Was there stress in the garden of Eden? NO!
10. Did God say on the eighth day, "Let there be stress?" NO!
11. If you had a brain, use it. There's no eighth day. Or did you not notice.
11. Is God the God of order? Yes.
12. Is God the author of confusion and chaos? NO!
13. Then who invented confusion? Confucius. Okay I made this one up.
14. So what can you do to relieve stress?
15. Screw the devil. Screw programming.
16. No human, no stress. Is this true? Somewhat.
17. Is there such thing as a stress-free life? On earth, no. In heaven, yes.
18. Was the computer invented to be a blessing? Yes to the user, no to the programmer.
19. Stress gives me weird, scary dreams at night. Only recently.
20. Gamers love games, girls love msn. But programmers hate it all.
21. Amen. LOL.

Ikan Bilis Friend Rice

Saw this one of Robin's friendster comments. its found at staff canteen terminal 2. haha. uber hilarious!

Anyone wanna share with me? ^.^

At the Beginning

Taken from Anastacia - At the Beginning

We were strangers starting out on a journey
Never dreaming what we'd had to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with You

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start

And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

In the end I wanna be standing at the beginning with you

THOUGHTS

Id never thought I felt the presence of God hearing this song. How true huh? Life with God is unpredictable. He'll take you to places you dont wanna go. But despite everything, God im gonna stand with you. From the first day I met You, ive decided. No matter what happens, ill never let go of Your hand.

One thing im certain, You have always been there. ALWAYS. God, there may be times You're not doing anything, and I know i have to take certain steps, but im glad, even though there are times You're silent..but Im happy to know, that You're still there.

Your presence is all I need, Your presence is all I seek. I know a Father will never leave His son. God, I love You. God, I trust in You. As i listened to this song, i remembered the story of 'Footprints'..and i saw God..piggybacking me along the crystal clear waters of the white sandy beach..

and the next vision made me tear...imagine the following:

even in the darkest valleys of smoke and fire. The sky is dark, there is fire and smoke everywhere, the sound of rumbling thunder. rocks falling from the valley walls on the left, on the right. and in the middle, there stood a figure walking..very slowly..carrying a little child on His back. That's my God. That is YOUR God. =)

Dreams again, The curse of programming, Downfall of Toshiba

i dunno why..its 430am. and i was awoken by another dream.

dreams of huuuuuuge waves crashing down on me, dreams of oversized cockcroaches the size of a gorilla swarming around me. this just sucks.

fell asleep last night while looking at those stupid ASP.NET codes and notes, i get sore eyes everytime i look at codes. 1 more day..all ive done is to just get started. God, save me!

i woke up, opened my IE, when i came to my blog, i received a trojan virus. great..cockroaches and viruses! just what i need. JUST WHAT I REALLY NEED! OHHH FAGGOT, YOU ARE SO FAITHFUL!

i still have my half-done assignment to submit before the paper! is this really the end? is there no end to the curse of programming? once ure in it, you cant get out. because programming will change every 2-3 years and if it changes before your year in poly ends, you're doomed.

you re-learn stuff, you discard stuff, you're like being USED! ive not revised half of ONE of my 3 modules you expect me do well for all 3 papers???

i might relocate my blog somewhere soon i think. my archives are overloading! lol. i may not. THIS FAITHFUL CURSED LAPTOP better not ruin my revision, it better not screw up my IHP! If not im really gonna bomb toshiba and pour buckets of cockroaches into billgates' pants!

The stress becomes sleepless nights...

The stress ends in strange dreams...

Im no longer stressed, Im frustrated.

Am I losing my sanity? I hope not.

Am I gonna slip into depression again? I hope not.

Am I losing myself? I already have.

When will programming stop? I think im the world's smartest prophet.

...

...When the Lord returns. YAHOO! GOOGLE! ALTAVISTA! Im so smart!!!!!

oh yes, my first strange dream had wenrui in it, now this dream had Seth. wth. lol.

Shaolin Part 2

I am Bonkers.

I am Dickhead.

I am the protector of souls,

And the redeemer of the fallen.

I am...

I am...

Hmm i forgot who I am, AH YES!

I am...



The "Confused" Shaolin Master?

Stupid Nana

A stupid boy named "Nana" went for baptism in a chinese service.

What was his baptism name?

Ben-nana (Banana) HOHOHO!

Exam

wanna know how stressed i am? i said exams was next week. but no, i jus remembered its this wednesday, thurs and fri! O_O holy sheet..

and oh, thanks miss chiu for 'edifying' my pictures and giving me free publicity..ahahahaa! ur exams are over, now its my turn lol.

and goodness gracious me, i have 2 days to study for 3 papers. excellent job andrew. you are so blur that i think my eyesight is failing. still got time to be lame..since when lameness had time? okay, i tink ill stop with it lol.

oh crap..sunday morning spiritual attack not enough, now the shocking horror. =/ i think im gonna explode, implode, unplode, deplode, replode, every other..plodes..O_O

year 5 dont sound good. expulsion dont sound good either.

GG.

God Of My Forever

this is the 6th time im blogging today..

i missed the presence of God so much, after what happened this morning. thanks Pranee. =)

as i was listening to this, tears just kept flowing down my eyes...

God, in good times, in bad times, in sickness, in health, You will never change..

You are the God of MY forever! =))

so what if ure screwed up..

so what if ure not perfect..

does that change anything? NO. because God is still the same no matter what ure going through!

God lives in TODAY. Who are you to live yesterday?

God lives in TODAY. Who are you to live ahead of Him?

Flow with Him. Live today!

Granado Espada Tropical Island V2.4.0

Check out the new trailer in e videos section! =)

It might take forever for it to be released in SG =/ man..lol.

Fear Injection

i just had fear injected into me. did the stress of my exams really get to me this time?

no..im not gonna let it happen. ive not felt fear for a loooooong time. it feels so uncomfortable, so strange, so weird. yes, this is my 4th post today. im feeling a little better. but that tingling sensation is still inside me.

and im gonna get it out no matter what.

greater is He, who's in me!

im not gonna live regretting just now, im gonna start over now! i shall prepare and look forward to tuesday's prayer meeting! yes! =)

Dead + Weird dreams

JAMS starts at 10. not calltime, but their main svc starts at 10am. i woke up 950. i was feeling very stressed and emo. i was confused. tired. felt like an 'extra'...so ended up not going.

after that i went back to sleep again at 1015. MISSED THE ENTIRE SUNDAY SERVICE ONLINE T_T.

not only did i missed JAMS, i missed the sermon as well. i missed everything...=/

as i was asleep i had weird dreams. dreams of me in a war zone, and i saw eric in the upper storey of a torn-down building, not eric from cg, but eric from my sec sch class. eric tan. yea, strange right?

then the scene changed to me with now, the eric from my cg. something happened and he ended up using some chemical on a cloth to choke and kill a policeman who entered his house. yea, the scene was such that i was at his house. i dunno why but it looked like the block opposite my grandma's house O_O

then i was at the void deck of another flat. this time. wenrui was there. he passed me a sniper rifle. a modern AWP. yea it kinda looked like that. and at the void deck, we had target practice. he suggested the cg went for outing at a shooting range.

i took the rifle. heavy as it was. normally when you hold a rifle, u rest ur index finger on the trigger to standby before u fire.

for this rifle, e moment i touched the trigger, the rifle went off into the air, and i wasnt wearing any ear protection. as a result, my right ear was so pain i think it bled. my right ear was temporarily deafened and it feels like a rock stuck in my right ear..=/

then as i aimed at the target board. suddenly people walked past in front of me. how strange. so i held my fire. i waited for them to clear my view. i didnt know where i was. my fingers got tired and this time, my fingers wanted to rest on the trigger. unknowingly, i fired a second accidental shot into the air..and i remembered i saw someone in front of my scope!

I was so shocked and shaken i thought i killed someone. wenrui said, 'thank God u didnt kill anyone.' then the scene changed, this time at wenrui's house.

i cant rem what happened, some policeman found guns at his house, came to check and while doing so, said something offensive/insulting to him, but didnt manage to find the guns. and in that dream, wenrui took out the handgun and shot the policeman right in front of my eyes.

he ran out of the house i followed him behind. downstairs a policeman was walking by, wenrui grabbed him from behind and shot him in the head.

scene changed again, now im eating with E420 in somewhere that looked like rochor tao huay alley. and i saw eric(CG) and wenrui. coming. we ate. nobody knew both of them had killed someone and the e police were looking for them. both of them wore gloves so as to keep their fingerprints from being spotted.

we talked awhile..both of them told the cg, they both killed someone. police arrived, everyone fled the scene except me and the 2 killers. i was so afraid, people were dead before my eyes. and now the police are coming and here i am..dunno why, but im lingering with those 2..

the police arrived, found us..i woke up..and realized its 1.30pm. and i missed the sermon T_T.

omg someone please kill me now. i cant take it anymore. the stress, the burden. i feel really weird right now. honestly, WEIRD. i cant describe this feeling. its like nothing matters anymore. but yet, at the same time, i dont feel anything..must have been numbed by that weird dream just now and the fact that i missed everything..

my stomach feels uncomfortable. what is happening to me?

OMGAWD

oh my gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawd..

oh my loooooooooooooooooord..

oh my frooooooooooooooooogg..

FROG???

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

nooooooooooooooooooooo!

ive been OOOWWWNEEDDD T_T

wyelin u watch out..Canal and Toto coming your way! LOL.

Im the ambassador for the Ultima Toiletries Company! Bwahuhuhuhu!!!

Service, Fellowship, Encounter

i started my day trying out my new Catherine haha. love the weather! =) after that went to meet pohchoo at expo. i said id reached at 245, end up i really reach at 245, but at tanah merah LOL. yea..bought the luncheon meat egg burger, not bad also haha.

the orange juice really made me go to e toilet =/ haha. twice! sheesh. thank God it wasnt coffee haha. if not in e service halfway i later cannot tahan haha.

praise n worship was good. oh just to say one more thing, pow u did great during the AN zone PM! =) sometimes there are things beyond our control, but what matters is that we still maintain that good attitude and have the heart of a winner and id say u pull it off pretty well. =) it was just a little stuffy back there. :D

nothing beats me more than screwing up my first recording haha man..i totally owned LOL. okay, back to e service. it was awesome. i had an encounter during worship =) yea..3 days in a row! hehe.

well as i was worshipping..i saw in e spirit..me inside a cathedral looking chapel. made of precious stones and crystal clear gold. and i was alone. i was rather distracted at first, cus my nose was irritating me. then God asked me not to get distracted and focus on Him..and no matter how hard i tried, my nose kept coming back..

and so..im alone in this chapel. and i was singing as if God wanted my worship to be extravagant, to be able to penetrate thru the chapel and outside could hear. thats when i realised that worship is not just about love..its about carrying the presence of God from where you are, into your surroundings.

when people are down, and your worship, gives them strength, helps them draw closer to God. thats how it should be. the blessings of God are not selfish. blessings are meant to be shared =)

and so, as i stood there. i felt the glory of God when we sang e second song. and i almost fell. my legs were giving way and i could no longer stand anymore. and i just knelt there before God. and i say, "God i need You, without You i am nothing. thank You for all Uve done, but im not satisfied. God, come and fill me once again.."

and i knelt there..my face was burning and tears started overflowing as we sang, "I wanna stay...I wanna stay here, with You. God, i dont want to ever let You go.."

for the entire song, tears just wouldnt stop flowing..i knew that i had met with God. i only have one life, I wanna lay at Your altar. One love, God, I have with You. Touch me again, fill me as You hold, my outstretched hands..

i was so happy at the end. i told myself, im not there just to feel God, i wanna touch Him for myself, i wan an experience, an encounter. =) and no matter if ure serving or worshippping, when we do it with a willing and worshipful heart, i believe God can touch you right there and then..

there are times when i serve and yet i can still tear in e presence of God. ps talked about having a heart of brokenness. not a broken heart. but a heart broken by e grace of God. the taiwan emerge video was awesome :D

and today's sermon by Dr Joyce Meyer was exactly in flow with what i experienced during worship..

Seizing the moment! what a great message! dont live worrying about tomorrow, and dont live regretting yesterday, live now! TODAY is the day of salvation. Faith is NOW. Know who you are and what you have. are you going to be like the man who stayed at the pool hoping for someone to carry you?

or are you gonna GET UP like Jesus said? you want a miracle? get up and walk. God only moves when we move. miracles dont fall on your lap just like that.

when Jesus was born, he was born in a manger and raised by his parents. he didnt one moment, in heaven, next moment..born on the cross. "Hello earth! Ohhh lookie where I am now..OH MY, im on the cross! Wah so fast ah?" O_O no! it didnt happen that way..lol.

seize the moment, enjoy today as much as you can. Dont eat leftover food, and dont eat uncooked food! thats what i learned from today's message. :D

if you want something, go get it. kinda like the movie Pursuit of Happiness. i tink its a great movie haha..God's common grace at work =)

well..after service we went to Paya Lebar Singpost KFC. we are really deprived of KFC lol..either its BK or its bedok. man..haha. and e food court at Singpost not bad also. we ate there once. its pretty empty too and got lots of seats. haha.

tmr's gonna be a stressful day for me. i dont mind serving JAMS, but this is the wrong time. i cant stand half-eaten bread (Word of God) for 2 weeks in a row. It feels like ive not attended service at all :S and my exams is on e following week =/ after that immediately 20 weeks of IHP x_x gosh, when is this nightmare gonna stop?

i feel so deprived...

my head is gonna explode into millions of pieces u can make jigsaw puzzle out of it =/ dun worry, i dun have any lame jokes today, cus im not lame. im tired. lol. very. thinking about tomorrow makes me wanna drag my feet =/

if i tell lame jokes now, ull probably be freaked out and run to hide under a bush and do your business there. let me know if u make any profit or loss..lol.

got to know Tian En today. nice guy to talk to. even though he from E406, but fellowship and connecting with people need not only be those within our cgs right? haha. yea, we were joking with bao haha.

*Sigh..tomorrow..is gonna be.....

its gonna be...

whats it gonna be???

its gonna be...

gonna be...

ah 1..

ah 2..

ah 1, 2, 3..

luuuuuuuuneleeeeeyyyyy, im sooooo luuuuuneleeeyyyyy...

i have nooobooooooddddy..

only my head, arms, legs and hipssssssss....

Catherine!

in case ure wondering, no..Catherine is not my girlfriend haha. aww =/ lol :pp

okay. i finally got my Catherine card. lol. (lvl57) ya, i know im a bit slow..thats becos im not a hardcore gamer..or at least, im not anymore. haha. she's so fun to use. i could solo one whole room haha. but if a boss spawns then im doomed cus i dont have any offensive skills to use haha.
guess i wont be lvling my main characters for awhile. lol.

nothing much happened today, just tt staying at home on a friday night is weird haha. and adam appeared on yest's episode of BJWG ahhhh! noooo..hey wait, i think i blogged this yesterday. hmm. AHHH! i tink i just went senile for awhile..hahaha..

and i think wyelin's new hair is totally rocks! haha. really nice hair there. =) not that it looked like rocks or anything like that..haha. hopefully i still can recognise u haha. dun worry abt MSN, when im here, every computer virus or bug or glitch will fear me! cus im the record holder for the most number of reformats in one month. haha!

ya, during yr1 in my sch i reformatted my stupid toshiba laptop like once every 2 weeks for 4-5 months. lately, my toshilappy have been behaving well so..yea..hope it doesnt break down when my IHP STARTS!!!! HOLY COW I TINK IT MIGHT! its a very faithful laptop.

it will breakdown during assignments, exams and during last yr's IHP, WITHOUT FAIL. i think the toshiba laptop is more faithful than God! nah, God is faithful. Toshiba sucks. hahaha.

eric wont be joinin us for svc this wk cus he had to go back to camp till monday. boohoo. dun worry man, ull be back with us soon :D yea, been keeping in touch with him since last wk. and dun let it just be me, all of us have a part to play in the kingdom of God.

what do you do when you cant bring souls? you do your best to KEEP THEM! someone once said, there is always something u can do. oh yess..LIZHEN, get well soon! =))

thanks karwen for showing me ur 'afro' explosion hair. lol..u almost freaked me out =/ anyone wanna imagine me with long hair? haha..then ill look like that weirdo crazy guitar freak MAB. nah, he rocks lol.

man, im gonna miss sunday svc. AGAIN!!!! i hate it. last wk i already missed the most important sermon of my life and this week im gonna miss it again cus adam wants me to help out in JAMS. why is ministry always interfering with my spiritual growth???? it shouldnt. im gonna put a stop to this nonsense! grr..im getting a leeeeeeetle pissed. =/

okay, its almost 4am and im stoned. no wait, i must say im still awake! haha. cant wait for svc later..haha. gonna queue. hopefully before 3 haha. i love the sesame seed chicken burger that e vendor at foyer 3 sells, not the ramly one, the other one with e snacks and tidbits. the mayo is shiok and the chicken and the bread itself..man..i eat it with a cup of iced fruit punch while im queueing.

TOTALLY HEAVEN! haha. yummy. lol. okay, signs are showing that im hungry now and i am..guess ill wait for breakfast haha. OKIE DOKIE..i shall end with another lame crap ive come up with and one picture of my lovely Catherine haha.

Why is Santa's surname 'Claus'?

Because he's too big sized and got stuck in a chimney, suffering from 'claus'strophobia. wooo!

okay, please kill me. hahaha...


Thats my Catherine taken at Thueringen Lakeside, outside the City of Auch. =)

Combined AN Zone PM

it was awesome. i reached outram interchange at around 755 though, so i reached at clarke quay around 805, and rushed down to riverwalk. thank God they just started haha. =)

the praise n worship wasnt good, the prayer was just as good. man, i miss overnight prayer meetings back in Jurong West. :( i want overnight PM every week! hahahaha..

yea i know, i have my own quiet time and all..but sometimes its in these overnight prayer meetings that God moves differently, there are some things u can experience in OPM that u dont get to experience in ur daily quiet time or in normal svces/church PMs :D

towards e end the sec sch, poly/jc, uni, misc groups of us youths got laid hands and prayed for. its been so long since i felt God's presence all over me like that. its always good to get refreshed and empowered once more to move ahead..

i lay on e floor..and my whole body was hot. my hands were shaking. as many people were being prayed for in that small auditorium, God moved mightily. i had to get up so that others could be prayed for. man, my legs..haha..i couldnt even get up properly, i needed someone to pull me up. and when i finally got to my feet, i almost fell again..cus e glory, the kabod of God was upon me :))

man, the offering message was probably the most effective! haha. we were told to exchange wallets with e person beside us and EVERYONE went crazily excited haha! and we were supposed to take the biggest note and give it as an offering hahaha.

but yea..eventually we got back our wallets and we learned a very important lesson. thats how cheerful and ready we should be during offering! cant wait to give the biggest note! :PP

after PM, was waiting for everyone..then one by one slowly disappear lol...waited for adam, pam and tri. while walking out adam went back to get something from wayne, when we came out..everyone disappeared O_O so unglam.

but so happened wayne came out and gave us a lift to city hall! woohoo =) haha. so, was given a ride to city hall along with adam and rhonda.

so in e end, took train home with rhonda. so cool, she and wayne going batam for mission trip! i wanna go for one some day :D

exams coming, exams coming..ahhhh! 1 more week. NO! exams is not coming...IM GOING! ^^ like David, im gonna run TO my exams. oh yeah!

err but for my IHP..i think ill hide under my bed now..=/

haha..

btw, i love this song! God Of Wonders by Third Day. originally sang by City On A Hill. as i was walking back frm e MRT..the streets were quiet so i was alone again. and what do i do when im alone? well i talk to God on my way home.

and i had an encounter =)) yes..ANOTHER ONE! haha. dun give me that face..thats how it should be! ^.^

yea..and so i was walking and im so amazed. i thought back on how God has blessed me. and no words can express how much I love Him. He is always there, always faithful, always there to put a smile on my face. and i just teared while listening to One life, One love from the breakaway album.

and now this song..man..i look at how big the universe is and how small i am compared to it. but in the eyes of God, even though im one of the smaller creations...He treats me as if im as big as all of His creation put together! =) or even bigger..

God..only You can melt my heart..You've made me cry more than anyone on the face of this planet..haha..but I love it. and I love You. :D

Staying home on friday night will be a bit weird..but im looking forward to Joyce Meyer :DD oh yeah..haha.

"Im pinky and the brain. Im pinky and the brain. I am a genius, Im also insane! Bwahuhuhuhu!"

who on earth laughs like that!?!?! O_O

San zhi lao hu

3 lil tiger
3 lil tiger
run fast fast
run fast fast
1 no eyes
2 no ears
very weird
very weird

Not bad, my china is beri goot! ^.^

Okay, this is so lame and random. Try singing that out haha.

Another day + Random

man, another day has passed when im just stoning at home while others are probably at work or in school somewhere. its so weird when all u do at home is talk to noone except the com. and my parents when they come home.

just now after my dinner, i was bored so i decided to go JP arcade for awhile..anyway i still had like 9 bucks in my Tapz card and i use only like 2 dollars everytime i go there, i go JP only when im very very very bored and dying of antisocialism. (okay, i made that word up)

and things didnt turn out e way it should. the impossible happened again, i dunno how, but my card could not be read.

obviously some clown went to de-magnetize my card, mebbe someone placed it on top of my amp or something. and so, there goes my 9 bucks. i walked to JP only to walk back again. feels so weird, i needed someone to talk to me, verbally. i havent opened my mouth in days. my voicebox is deteriorating faster than my brain, faster than me ageing =/

i miss sec sch. i miss those sec1-sec2 days when everyday ill meet up with my gang at a lanshop and play games together, eat together, spend e whole day together having fun, chatting, screaming and laughing away.

back then it was the age of 56k and the 512k. thats my childhood for you. and i didnt get my handphone till i was sec3 or sec4. now even sec1s are playing the PSP, have handphones and broadband at home. good life huh. lols.

ive been thinking lately, remember the angelic encounter i posted a few months ago? well, actually, i posted it twice. if u wanna know just PM me on msn or something =) haha. basically, i met with 3 angels late at night. its a long story so yea..im not gonna blog it again haha.

i havent seen those 3 again. not even once, even though they 'stayed' just one block away from me. my handphone number is with them, even my house address is with them. how did u end up giving them? its a long story also. haha.

well, ive never seen them or heard from them since. and that night will always remain in my memories as a covenant of a God who cares, a God who loves, and a God who's in love.

Many people know God is love, many felt God's love, but how many actually experienced God being in love? I have. How many actually experienced God crazy over you? I have. that night was special. it was intimate. even though i went through the most painful night, in the darkest night, God's light shone e brightest.

i might blog again later..lol. i just lost my train of thoughts..

oh yes..STUPID DOG STOP BARKING! its past midnight and the neighbour's door is just outside my bedroom window, to the right, along e corridor!!! yes, my unit is next to the corner unit of my flat O_O

Random

well yesterday, i was chatting with wyelin, and she was sharing some stuffs with me and we were talking about the things of God, spiritual gifts, etc. seriously, whenever i talk about God, it always seem i can go on forever haha..there's so much about Him that amazes me.

how i wish i was just on fire as she was. haha. i wish i was saved when i was 14! haha. but oh wells, God has His times and seasons. and i can NEVER talk to a 14 year old..haha. the age gap is just too..well..wide..haha.

but she's different. she's someone of a different spirit :DD all in all, yesterday was an 'impossible' day..haha..apart from what happened when i was serving..i actually manage to click with someone i thought was impossible..haha..seriously..its just impossible..or i used to have this perception that i can never communicate with people under a certain age group.

God proved me wrong. haha. age is just a number. whats important is our attitude and our state of mind. you can be 14, yet on fire for God. or you can be 55, and yet cold towards God. and to think we started our as complete strangers! lol.

i always tell myself, there's something i can learn from her. and indeed, there is. there's many things i have learned. and God began to remind me of certain areas in my life that i need to change. i know i used to be this and that, i want the fire back. i want to stand between the living and the dead!

God is good. He doesnt see you for who you are. But He sees you are who we are meant to be. God builds on the positive, He sees through the eyes of faith.

When you face a problem, God doesnt see the problem, He sees the solution. When ure stuck, He doesnt see you as being stuck, He sees you as an overcomer. There's no 'problem' in God's dictionary. When youre in a problem and u tell God : God im having a problem..

He will look down from heaven and say: "Huh? Problem? What problem? I dont see anything there. I see victory!" Life is not about being better than others, life is about being better than ourselves.

well, things went a little 'mad' after we added Shing to our conversation haha. i think the florist rocks haha!

My supervisor is starting to call me to ask me what i wanna do for my IHP. seriously, i dont know. 20 weeks immediately after exams, that seems like forever. holiday? is there even such thing? which english faggot invented the word holiday/break? i think i need to go step on his tomb! LOL!

Here comes the stress/emo/depression period...

New friends

I have 2 new friends:

Say hello to...

Pandalin and Shingda! Wahaha! LOL!!!

Craziest day of my life; UNGLAM! lol

well i managed to wake up today. took train down..but reached 730..haha. okay la, not bad. my crazy moment started before the service.

some guy at the console in e mainhall pressed a wrong button and there was a loud "BOOM!". from where i was (conference area), it sounded like a bomb. so the guys at e back thought terrorist threat..

next thing u know, the comms was flooded:

"TV to sound.."
"Video to sound.."
"Chorus board to sound.."
"Yakkety-Yak.."
"Err..false alarm, the terrorist threat was a false alarm, some guy pressed e wrong button.."
"O_O err..roger."

Ps kong, Dr AR Bernard and the entire security team was on high alert and i heard ps kong and Dr AR Bernard almost entered the main hall to check out what happened. =/ even i feel so paiseh even though i wasnt the one who pressed the button.

well, basically it changed something in the sound system. just imagine:

a guitar plugged into an amp..and its turned on. imagine just pulling out the wire without turning it off, yes.."BOM". now imagine it 50-100 times louder, on an auditorium sound system. =/

as usual, i always prayed in the morning, God give me anointing and understanding to solve any problems that may arise. (sound/equipment problems/etc)

i dunno what happened Su Wee was telling me..wah, spiritual attack ah. and i kinda agreed haha..cus the next thing that happened was:

when svc started, EVERY TV in the ENTIRE conference area, became flickery, no sound, and turned blue screen. even the artiste room! omg. comms spam again. i went into the video room to get the video guy..and he gathered a group of guys to help restore back the service video =/

gosh..what else could go wrong? no thats not the end.

shortly after service started, one of the nursery rooms wanted their aircon adjusted, okay so i went. and now imagine a sound guy wearing formal, in a room full of girls, trying to catch a cockroach and failed. SO EMBARRASSING LAH! :$ i think i can go hide my face in the sand now..i dare not go back to the nursery..lol..cus everyone would know me T_T ahhhhh..LOL

every girl in the room was like: Hey you! Jia you! You can do it! :p i knew my doom was ahead lol..i turned around and "Huh? what?" haha..AHHHHHHH!

basically e cockroach ran to a lady and as i was trying to catch it, the lady just PIAK it with a tissue!

i tell you..i was soooooo stressed! so unglam and malu la. ahhhhh! i wanted to run out of the room :$ and the girls were like..close the door! dont let it get out! and so..i was trapped and everyone was staring at me..AHHH! God save me!!!!

now now..DONT LAUGH! if not i stuff my fist into your mouth! wahaha :$ ahhh..*hides face

well..if u think thats e end, wrong! haha. one of the childrens' church room ceilings was collapsing. OMG! ronald went to get a ladder and helped fixed it. then shortly after..curtain near the sound 'container' was falling..=/ DXO went to help out.

omg..God!!! What is this? Am i in a video game??? T_T LOL. "You totally pulled a prank on me this time! oh my goodness..i know i prayed for anointing and wisdom..but catching cockroach? falling ceilings and curtains? a bomb sound? oh man..God...NOT FUNNY! haha"

thats not all!!!! my life today was soooo dramatic!! during the sermon, outside nursery again. a rat was found running around! OH MY GOOODNESSSSSSS, God please stop..i cant take this kind of joke..=/

This kind of thing was uncalled for man..oh God, please..please tell me im not in a comic strip. and God just smiled! ahhhhhhh! nooooooooo!

To all those serving in nursery please ensure your room is cleaned and no fooood!!!!!!! lol..haha. if not ill call the police! lolx. PLEASE..DO ME A FAVOUR!!! haha..:$

luckily i wasnt at the rat scene FIRST haha. the usher was like..omg omg omg..the policewoman was like wah..stunned. if i was there seconds earlier, man..i think im gonna hide in the toilet and never come out! lol.

just imagine.."hey! isnt that the cockroach guy?" ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh God, please i dont want..lol. thank God it didnt happen that way! :$ lol.

"God, whats next? a flying pig? tell me there arent anymore..."
"Do you want more?"
"O_O err.. no no no..."

oh wells, i missed a bit of the sermon because of what happened :S man, these kinds of things is just impossible! it only happens in drama serials! O_O but it happened to me..lol. ahhhh!

service ended. sermon was great. but i tink i need to refer to other ppl's notes =/ met up with eric, pam, PC and thomas at TM for makan. met E110 and E406 at expo stn. haa. me and G420 ate, fellowshipped, listened to eric's IQ jokes and hearing out 'rat' stories..haha.

and something about pam's drumstick haha. ok i better stop before i get into trouble with 'an usher' haha. after that we went to Yamaha. MAN! Eric self-learned piano and he plays so well! its perfectly flawless! u shlve seen him play! it can hypnotise girls! hahaha..

not bad la..he got potential for a new gf already..wahaha. lol. cus we met up with adam's friend and his sis and another of their cgm who also plays e guitar. the whole gf thingy was a tease haha..but if eric were to perform in a show, ill confirm go! haha. he's really talented..self-learned, plays by hearing..

i also learned guitar by self-learning and by hearing. but i feel, Eric no need anymore lessons..haha unless he wanna try playing on 2 pianos at e same time, or play with his feet haha. then he should take up "The Extreterrestrial Grade" for piano. lol.

took train home..violent pohchoo, pinch me not enough, go scratch my hand..but too bad u didnt realise i was wearing long sleeve so u scratch also nothing! haha! bleah! play with my hair somemore..i shave u then u know! bwahaha..ok lame..

okay, i need my 'beauty sleep' cus ive been so unglammed today..haha..mebbe ill sleep later LOL. graaah.

UPDATED

Eric's piano playing hypnotised me too..haha..
No im not a girl.
No im not gay either.
Im just "normally impressed". LOL!

Oh ya, yesterday Pohchoo shared a testimony before service. it was awesome! go blog it down haha or share with cgm e next time we meet :))

A.R. Bernard Svc1

hmm before i start on this post, i jus wanna update on my previous post. at Cathay, we met Jeremy, MeiGee, Charlene and Lijia, my sec sch friends! we met again during our taohuay supper haha..

Service was awesome. and the new song really moved me. God is not just my Saviour, He is my Lord. not just in good times, but in bad times, in sickness, in health. till death do us part, but since there's no death in God, we shall never part ;))

so many people..when things are doing well, praise God. but when they're trapped, they go "why God?" when they are well, praise God, when they are sick, "God, another time". how you treat God is the way you treat people. how you treat people is the way you treat God.

if you cant love Him, how can you love people. if you cant have time for Him, how will you have time for people? if you cant be serious with Him, how can you be serious with people? If you cant be committed to Him, how can you commit yourself to the people around you? if you cant be accountable to Him, how are you going to be accountable to people?

"Love your neighbour as yourself" if you dont love yourself, how can you love others AS you love yourself? and how can one love him/herself if they themselves have never experienced the genuine love from God?

service was great. the message was even better! i just wanna relate what Dr Bernard said about 'earthen vessels". we are unbreakable fragile jars of clay. i can kinda relate it to the bottle of perfume that the girl poured on Jesus' feet.

even if we were to break, the treasure, the fragrance will come out. thats why we are unstoppable, win or lose, God still wins! haha.

i seldom drag my feet for ministry, but this week i am =/ i dont mind wearing formal, just in case ure thinking that way. i just cant stand every year..2 years in a row, i kinda miss here and there on the sunday svc sermon! i feel so deprived T_T

anyway, im willing to do it for God. gotta pass my gift to Shing tml..haha..later i mean. if ure reading this, i hope ull be blessed by it =)) u worked hard, u deserved it :DD

met QY, Wyelin today..haha..=) and wyelin, u waking up at 7 ah? haha..im reaching at 7!!! grrr..dun use 'boon layan' on me! :@ bleah! easterner! boohoo..i have to wake up at 5..lol. you good! haha

before service, i had an encounter with God on the way to the toilet, after i met pam said hi and talked for awhile..as i sat in the cubicle. i wasnt really doing business. i had finished it in seconds..small one..haha. but tears were on the verge of flowing out.

i didnt know what was going through my mind. for weeks ive been feeling spiritually dry, FOP has made me very tired physically. my school and life at home isnt that exciting either. it was dry, dry, dry for 2 weeks.

and while i was entering the toilet, God reminded me, of how once I had nothing, and Im where i am today because of Him. Without Him, i wouldnt be living this extraordinary and impossible life right now. as memories began to play in my mind, i sat there in the cubicle and i knew all these things around me, i didnt deserved it, but God loved me so much, He has blessed me all these years..

"God, i have nothing, all I have is my love for You and a desire to serve you all the days of my life. I dont have much to offer, all I have, I give to You. Here is my life, as good as nothing, yet I surrender to You. God, im not the smartest guy, im not the most good-looking or most rich or the most talented, but God..I really want You to use me. Help me be a blessing to others.

I give You my all, for all of You." One trickle of tear dripped down my face..i felt the love of God overflowing, about to explode. "God, im just an average guy...how You can use someone like me, God..i dont have any words that can express my gratitude.." And right there and then, i had a mini encounter with God that soon 'exploded' the moment we sang the new worship song.

everything was in God's flow. as I sang, "God of my forever.." i felt Jesus singing the same thing, "Andrew of my forever.." and i was so moved and overwhelmed..i just didnt want to stop singing that song.."God, I will love You forever", "Andrew, I will love you forever.."

im not feeling emo because of anything..i was just in a state of love..

God Of My Forever - CHC (GanKC)

God of my youth, I remember
Your call on my life took me o'er
Your love have seen me through all my days
I stand here by Your grace
On this altar, I've written my life
Tells of a story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know

God of my forever
And forever I'm with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice, redeemed my soul
God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honor will always be
To serve my Lord and King

God of my life, I surrender
My heart finds its rest in your Word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for You has grown
Nothing matters when You're here with me
In the end just to hear You say "well done"
Bowing before Your throne

Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I'll walk the narrow way

Simpsons!

okay, one more thing to add to my previous post, u can go window shopping, just dont go vista shopping haha cus vista is teh suxor LOL.

anyway, simpysonny was good. haha super duper roxor. i dont mind watching it again haha. met elaine and her fried, er i mean, friend: Shi Ai or something..=/ went to have dinner together at KFC! yesh!!! finally..some chicken into my awesomely deprived digestive system! lol!!

(Why nobody else talk to her friend??? sometimes i feel im doing all the work, did anyone know she takes amaths as a compulsory subject, studies a weird combination of bio and chem (no physics), and is wanting to go TP to study design after she graduates??? i think apart from elaine, im e only one who knows that..O_O)

btw, glad to see eric and rowen..haha..i love these guys lol..in a 'clean' and 'straight' way..haha.

had cheapo shrooms meal with cheese fries..yummy. Nooo, i didnt eat mashed potato with cheese fries, i replaced it in case ure wondering..haha (im not a carbo-fanatic).dun wander too far..i dont have smoke signal to bring u back O_O

adam and the rest joined us later. =) the movie was uber funny! before u can laugh finish, another joke comes up! lol..woot! thank God for lots of air in my stomach lol..if not sure gastric after that. its 80-90minutes of pure laughter! but it has a nice story line and theme to it as well. a perfect 2D movie! haha.

after e movie we went to rochor rd tao-huay! the you-tiao with soyabean totally rocks! haha. 2 dollars can fill my empty stomach lols. after eating, walked to bugis mrt and took e train home. yes, i took e train home. ull never see me taking bus..not until the day pigs can fly..haha..

okay, e only time i take bus is e midnight rider 174m, if i miss the last train, which i hope not to =/ cus i had a very bad experience with 174m the other time..some of my cgms would know..haha. oh wells, thank God for experiences like that. at least i can say ive experienced it, and others dont lol.

oh yeah! A.R. Bernard tomorrow! gotta get ready my notepad!! lol..i think he's one of the greatest speakers ive ever heard. and i know adam will agree on that haha :D but one thing im beginning to get irritated with:

EVERY YEAR, when A.R. Bernard comes, im always serving conference area on sundays! EVERY YEAR without fail! which means i can never fully hear the best messages, on every sunday! T_T graaaah...

another random thing. GE is going p2p on 29 Aug, but if u have at least ONE lvl20 char in your family, you can have 90 days free period after 29 Aug. Hmm dunno if im gonna continue. lol. and one more thing, after downloading this game (not GE) for 24hours on my torrent client, I REALIZED ITS FRIGGING SPANISH! wth..lol..noooooooo..

i literally sacrificed my lappy and left it on the whole night, just to download it O_O and now its speaking in tongues to me, wth..T_T anyone happen to have MOHAA (medal of honor allied assault) let me noe :S i know its an old game..what to do..no new games that appeal to me. ^.O

lastly, what do you do when you leave an empty cup on ur desk for awhile, u go to the toilet, and when ure back, there are ants and u still havent finished the drink in the can?

well, since they love the sugar on the empty cup so much, i decided to drown then with leftover green tea from the can!

EAT ALL YOU CAN BUFFET! TAKE THAT YOU PESKY INSECTS! ohhhhhhhhh! i believe in the God of MORE THAN ENOUGH! muahahahaha!!!