Back from posting day

Why am I home so early, you might ask?
Its because I didnt go to division.

Why didnt I go to division in the afternoon, you might ask?
Because my course has been assigned to 2 weeks in-camp course training.
So yes, Ill be staying in for another 2 weeks.

*SHH! Yes. I know what are you gonna say. Save it!

New squad, new bunk, new IC, same coy commander.
OC/FI? Not known yet.

Ive seen my timetable. Its crap really. Im ops support. How in the world is studying security devices, role of sentry/prowler, gate security gonna help? I seriously dont see any link. (*Not that there's any link in my life in the first place. O_O)

I hope they made a big mistake. What on earth is an ops support officer doing in a sentry support course? Its like me going to the girls toilet for goodness sake. =/

On the important side, I seriously hope that e new guys with me, will be much better and not so 'resemble the devil' like my previous bunch. =X

Having said that, there's this guy in my bunk who talks and GOSH..even LOOKS like an e420 'special friend'. Just that taller!

WAAAAHHHH CRAP! =/

Why am I always stuck with weird/crazy people? Not that my God is weird and crazy but its just that..arrgh. =S I really dont know what to say. Yea, His ways and thoughts are higher. But it seems they're so high I cant even reach =S

I hate parties.

Booking in tomorrow

Booking in tomorrow.

Everyday, I fight a battle not knowing when itll end.
Everyday, I realised that in the furnace, there's no one else with me.
And God is watching outside the furnace, looking at my every thought and deed.

I see myself being carried out for a moment,
And placed in once again, cracking everytime it happens.

My heart is just pieces of fragments all stuck together.
With the super glue of encouragements and love.
With scars that will remain.
Even Jesus had scars from the cross, although he was resurrected in a new body.

It really says a lot.

Everyday, is happiness that never last.
Everyday, I wonder, think and reflect.

I saw myself in Jesus...
Neglected, lonely, in pain, disappointed, hurt, wounded.

His disciples left him,
He felt God had forsaken Him.
He wished everything could just end,
Yet He said, "Not my will, but Yours be done."

At the end of Himself,
He never stopped loving,
He never stopped serving,
"Forgive them, for they do not know what they do."

Talk about going through hell,
He alone, went through hell, literally.
Yet He went there not to be defeated, but to conquer all.

Its okay to be alone.
Its okay to be at the end of myself.
Its okay if during my journey through hell, no one talked to me,
No one came to me, just like Jesus, everyone thought He was dead.
Forgotten.

They could do nothing but watch and pray,
And see the deliverance and the power of God.

In everytime I mourn, in everytime I let out frustration,
In everytime I felt pain, was there even one time I said no to God?
5 months of pain, and Im still here.

By His grace, Ive won every battle thrown at me.
People thought I was dead, they thought what happened to me?
Yet they failed to see, the hand of God in me.

The victories God gave me,
Silent as they may be.
Victories only I celebrated alone.
Another level, yet another devil comes along.

Its time to ask yourself,
Are you worth the devil's effort to throw in everything he's got?

5 months, and the devil hasnt stopped.
He gets more desperate every single day.

Are you laughing every single day?
Do you socialise every single day?
Is your life, "okay", "can cope"?

Arise and Build is coming.
The evil one is more pissed than ever.
Because he knows Im gonna outgive my previous pledge,
In the midst of recession, in the midst of all thats been happening to me.

Its good to know your rank in God's kingdom.
Now how about your position in Hell's Top Wanted list?

Pour My Love On You

I don't know how to say exactly how I feel
And I can't begin to tell you what your love has meant
I'm lost for words

Is there a way to show the passion in my heart
Can I express how truly great I think you are
My dearest friend

Lord this is my desire
To pour my love on you

Like oil upon your feet
Like wine for you to drink
Like water from my heart
I pour my love on you
With praises like perfume
I'll lavish mine on you
Till every drop is gone
I pour my love on you

Is there a way to show the passion in my heart
Can I express how truly great I think you are
My dearest friend

Lord this is my desire
To pour my love on you

CHORUS

My Life 'Motto'

1 Cor 1:27-29 (GNT)

"God purposely chose what the world considers nonsense in order to shame the wise, and he chose what the world considers weak in order to shame the powerful.

He chose what the world looks down on and despises and thinks is nothing, in order to destroy what the world thinks is important.

This means that no one can boast in God's presence."

Sad, Disappointed, Routine, Nothing

Private post.

Jogging - Strange Encounter (Freak)

Today's jog was a bit strange. When I went to the park downstairs..

First of all..

It felt strange. very empty, very dark, the atmosphere, tense. I was feeling gittery all over, as if something was gonna happen, as if I was being watched.

I dont know how many people at this point, alone in a dark park with such an intense atmosphere, would cancel any activity and go home lol.

What made things more scary, was that, as I looked around, on an empty bench, there was a small light...a small wax candle being lit. O_O

Its dark, its quiet, the air is filled with intensity, and there's this candle in the middle of nowhere..how much more creepy can it get? =/

Nevertheless, I was focused on losing my 2kgs! So...

I prayed in tongues. HAHAHA!!! =/

Still, my heart was beating, but I was cool. Did my warm up under a set of trees, thinking will there be a rat or a cockroach running out of the bush from behind me or not. I didnt turn around to look at the bush, I continued my warmup and started my run.

My spirit felt uneasy as I ran, surprisingly, I ran quite fast haha. Maybe cause something made me wanna just finish it asap. Praying, talking to God along e way, etc.

During my cooldown at the park, I was lying on this situp bench doing my crunches. So..Im looking at the sky and doing my crunches. Then switching to my pushups.

As I was cooling down and doing my 'routine' pushups and crunches, I heard something, or I THOUGHT I heard something in the bush a distance away. I thought, just leaves..

So I was doing my crunches on the situps bench, looking at the sky, when all of a sudden, a tall skinny figure (170cm), wearing gray, loosed, long sleeved shirt and jeans appeared in front of me! Closing in on me! I was stunned for a moment, I didnt even have time to panic. I immediately sat up from my crunches and looked at him in the eye as if he were some passerby..

He backed, almost as if in shock, like he's seen a ghost or something. Now look, I dont know if he scared me out or I freaked him out. I think we scared each other. Imagine being him, walking and seeing a dark figure sit up out of nowhere, hahaha..

I was wearing black =p The bench was black..lol

But anyway, I think he saw me. I mean, a fat guy on a bench, bending up and down, very hard NOT to spot meh? O_O His face had a sinister, cunning look, but his expression changed e moment he realised I saw him. Almost as if he was gonna attack me or something..=/

A few metres away was a picnic bench, he sat there and observed me, behaving suspiciously. I was getting gittery all over. But I was still cool...surprisingly...haha. I pretended to think, 'maybe he's gone away...'. And continued my pushups and crunches! LOL.

After like 3 minutes, he left, walked towards e void deck of my block.

I still felt uneasy, the candle thing was there, it totally gave me the chills and to think I had to walk past it! I stared at the candle..was something going to pop out? =S

Anyway, shortly after, 2 guys came towards me..
Both sounded like chinese nationals or hongkong, or w/e..

The first guy: Skinny, 168cm, red tshirt, jeans...with a blood spot on the lips. (I couldnt tell, it was dark blackish red)

The second guy: Muscular, 172cm, wasnt wearing any thing on top, but bottom was greenish-brown berms.

(In mandarin)

Guy1: *chatter chatter (Couldnt hear)...try asking him...

Guy2: eh eh..hey..scuse me, did you see a skinny guy walk past here?

Meee: (trying to speak mandarin) er..a guy? (obviously I was tense, a guy means a guy wat, why did I ask a stupid question? lol) How did he look like?

Guy2: Hmm skinny, not so tall..wearing something, erm, what did he wear..?
Guy1: I cant remember..

Meee: Erm, did he wear a gray long sleeved shirt and jeans?

Guy2: Yes..yes..its him. Did you see where he went?

Meee: Hmm that way.

Guy1, Guy2: Thank you, thank you...

Meee: erm...you're welcome.

Now I looked more confused than shocked hahaha. I didnt know what was going on, but from the looks of it, something happened to the red guy and he called his big bro or a nearby friend, to help chase the 'culprit'.

The interesting thing is..

The conversation was casual and unusually calm. =/ That gave me the chills lol. And I looked back..thank God I prayed!!! HAHA!!! ;)

I love walking close to God. Sometimes, He may not say a thing, but His actions speak for itself. I dont know how I managed to stand straight, put a smile, remain calm, when Im surrounded by a guy with blood on his lips on my left, and another guy, muscular with tattoos all over, on my right..lol. Anyone wanna be in my shoes? =p

And mind you, there were quite close..less than a metre away. Stepping into my 'personal space'. I was overpowered, but I felt calm and in control, as if I were dominating that situation.

Shortly after, I heard a loud, "OEI!!!!" and then a "YAAAAAAAA!!!" a distance away.

Seriously, I dunno what happened =S I CONTINUED DOING MY PUSHUPS AND CRUNCHES!! LOL!! =/ Of course, I felt a little bit uneasy, what if the suspicious guy come back for me?

I dont know. Was it the right thing to do? Im confused and puzzled. All I know was God protected me and I did something Ive never done before, having a casual chat with a stranger who could kill you in one blow =S lol..

I felt the peace of God, that REALLY surpasses all understanding lol.

Live by faith and not by sight.

Will sleep soon, nights! =)

Alienware Theme - theskinsfactory.com

First of all. I FOUND THIS!!! Haha. Check out the website on my entry title. Its a professional 3D modelling company. All the stuff you see here are 3D, not 2D!!!

The MSN skin - I downloaded from MSN plus website.

As for the mediaplayer skin, its really cool. (Downloaded separately from the same website)

It animates!!! (*From top to bottom of the pictures) Basically, those texts flash like some high tech gadget. And before it 'opens up', it makes one spin on your desktop. And why is it 3D? Cus that thing can animate NEAR you or FAR away from you and the size varies according to its physics/dynamics! =)

And those buttons, when you hover your mouse over, there's a blue-lit ring flashing, and yes, those buttons can be pressed. Its not just there for show. You can close the 'shutter', open up things, etc.

Also you can see it the package modifies my firefox as well. It comes with its own set of icons too. Total its about 50MB.

When you download it, you're not downloading the skin directly. The download link installs the Alienware program..which THEN, allows you to choose which theme you wanna apply. =)

Have fun.

Credits: To Wyelin for the song. =)

Randoms

Guess what? I forgot yesterday was deepavali. And I forgot a friend's birthday, 2 friends in fact.

Im forgetting so many things, I feel so cut off.

Feels like I dont belong anywhere, or to anyone. Like Im living life by myself. Even people having holidays I also dont know. Call myself a friend, I cant even be there for them.

Anyway, since I was already on the train when I realised that NP would be closed, I just went to westmall alone. Wanted to find a spot to sit down alone and eat, but couldnt find any. So I tapaoed some dim sum home to eat.

I felt so saddened. I really wanted to have lunch with God..but it turned out like that. :'(

All these while, He's the only one I really fellowshipped with. When Im eating in academy, there's always an empty chair beside me, while everyone else were sitting closely to each other.

Even though Im having my break, every night I still have the sunday night feeling. Im just not used to freedom anymore, even today, I have no plans to go out, no plans to meet up with anyone. Im just not used to friends, not used to people, not used to free time anymore. =(

I have my breakfast and lunch alone everyday..

Well, at least I can go for my night jogs again. Heh..

Going JP for lunch now..ciao.

Beattitudes of Friendship

I found this on xinyi's blog:


Blessed are the friends
With a joyful spirit,
For their joy will be multiplied.

Blessed are the friends
Who offer good service and counsel,
For their wisdom shall be appreciated.

Blessed are the friends
Who truly listened and understand,
For theirs is a rare and special gift from heaven.

Blessed are the friends
Who provide solace and comfort,
For their kindness shall never be forgotten.

Blessed are the friends
Who remain loyal and true,
For they shall be called most worthy.

Blessed are the friends
Who help us in need,
For they are friends, not just in word,
But in deed.


Finally I can go running..!
And...I got craving for Jap Food in NP!!! WOOHOO!


Dear friend, I know that you have a vast taste of secular music. But are the ones you're listening to, forming 'beautiful crystals' in you, or 'deformed crystals'?

Service

Great word, great conviction.

Innocence is not virtue.
Virtue is innocence tested.

Even ps himself saw porn before, but he did not compromise.
At least I know now, that Im not alone. I was quite surprised he said that,
But I like ps for being honest and straightforward. *Respect.

Seeing how the people around me in my bunk, compromise just by seeing a girl,
And to know that Im exposed to those kind of things everyday for 4 months and yet never compromising, Im really encouraged.

It doesnt really matter what people say to me,

They see my testing, not my heart.
They see my trials, not my battle.

God is at work...

I remembered I once prayed, "God break me, and use me as You will.."
Now the process has begun. I am still here, I am still loving, I am still serving.

God has more faith and confidence in me than some people.
I guess that's one way of looking at it..

POP

It was over for me. =( All gone. My biggest day was my biggest disappointment. Because of some idiots.

My 21st was kaput, now my POP, all the big events in my life are broken to pieces, no good memories left behind.

Friends gone, dreams gone, happiness, joy and love gone. Everything gone..

Im angry, but my face is expressionless,
Im depressed but no tears would come out.
Im still trying to smile, still trying to encourage people, still trying to love people.

Burying and pressing everything down.
All my hurts, all my pain, into my 'recycle bin'.
And I think its running out of space..

The sharp pain in my chest is back.
The last time I almost fainted, and was admitted to A&E.
Stress/Fatigue/Emotional pain, resulting in an unstable high-low blood pressure makes me feel that tight squeezing sensation in my chest.

I dont know when Im gonna collapse.
I dont wanna meet anymore people.
I dont wanna talk to anyone anymore.
I dont wanna go anywhere, or do anything.

For some reason this pain makes me feel closer to home,
Making me feel as if everything's gonna be over.

Instead of finding love and getting more hurt,
Instead of helping others and letting myself be taken advantage of,
Instead of putting in my best effort only to wear myself out,

Holding on to the pain seems the most easiest solution for me..=/
Id rather be hurt once than thrice. =(

At least..its over. Ill never have a 21st again, Ill never have a POP ever again in my life.

Im just thankful I have great parents and a super great God..these alone, are enough for me..

Posting Results, Rants

Yesterday was company night, with KFC and Pizzas. Not bad, everyone putting on a great show. But somehow, it feels like my 21st birthday, feeling lonely despite being not alone. To put it in short, its simply because Im having a happy occasion with the wrong people.

And I dont understand, how people can tell me in the midst of it, have fun, enjoy yourself. Honestly, I dont care. Im a 'no nonsense' guy. I cant tolerate anything sub standard, character and attitude inclusive.

If you wanna do something, do it well, put in ur best effort!
If you wanna live life to the fullest, then live it like you have it!
If not, then just forget it.

Being surrounded by monkeys..'ohh have fun!', whats so fun about stripping and beating each other up? Being childish is fun to you? Wake up!!! Im sure a kindergarten kid is more happening than you!

Just because I love someone it doesnt mean I can approve of his lifestyle. But still, I kept on loving, kept on serving.

The past 2 weeks Ive been silent.

Cleaning up rubbish left by others, paying for food only to be eaten and 'koped' by someone else, and during meal times, Im always the last one left behind. What happened?

Basically everyone else either cut queued, except me. Or..they dont wash their hands. EVEN..when people had to make a rule saying you MUST wash ur hands before you eat, esp after that food poisoning case. And after eating, everyone just "ohhhh lets go..'', while I sit there alone, with my food jus arrived! HELLO!?!

And you can still ask me, "aiyo andrew..why you now then start eating?" or.."Aiyo andrew, why you eat so slow?" Because seriously, everyone around me gobbles food down as if a toiletbowl is being flushed like that.

Worse still, Im surrounded by sloppy, disgusting idiots. Not only that, clumsy as ever. Your butt so big you cant even see your feet is it!?! My boots get stepped on by fatty bomboms every single day! And every single day I polish my boots for goodness sake! I even have people ACCIDENTALLY sitting on my boots.

I mean, are you from mars or something? How on earth is it possible to 'accidentally sit' on a pair of boots thats bigger than e size of your face!?! O_O Are your eyes so small you cant even see a truck coming at you head on?

I have people who dont bathe, dont brush teeth, and neither do they change their clothes the whole week! No Im not exaggerating. And the same guy has been 'geng'ing since he came 4 months ago. Not only he 'skipped' physical activity, he eats rice the size of mount everest! I see already I also scared man. O_O (And its all just ONE GUY!)

Sometimes I just feel like putting your whole head into the pile of rice, since you love rice so much! But seriously, the rice mountain is so high you can put a human head in it, or at least, half! No exaggeration again.

ROOAAARRR!!! So mad!!! Why am I surrounded by looney clowns!?! Ahhhhh!!! You think this is cartoon network ah?

Anyway, back to my posting results..haha.

Division: Juliet Division (Jurong)
Position: NSOSO (National Service Operations Support Officer)

Basically, unlike ur usual 'staff assistants', this office job aint an ordinary slackers' job. Yes, its an office job, but the only difference is that, this post, is doing office work under the operations department.

As in every div/hq, the operations dept is like a crucial part of the heirachy. Ill be doing more of planning, logistics stuffs under a managerial board, as an assistant. Crucial role? Yes. Stressing and challenging? Might be, especially on big days such as NDP, etc.

I might even get to sit in the same meeting room as the 'higher-ups', I dont know..I heard someone whispering something about it haha.

As you can tell, Im not really familiar with this post..why? Its new. Yes. My batch is the first to get it..lol. Just pray for the right people.

But for someone like me, I prefer to work alone. =/

Random Thoughts

"True friends are interested in each other's lives." - Rev Robb Thompson

This is the juncture of my life, where I see friends come and go the most.

Its during this period, 'friends' whom once were, no longer was. In place of them came new ones. Its almost as if there was an exchange. Sometimes, when a person is within reach, whether is it physically or communicatively, we tend to be close.

And then when the distance increases, and you no longer see someone for a moment of time, the friendship fades away. Relationship that cant stand the test of time, relationships that cant stand the test of distance and inactivity.

I dont know if its because of my lack of a social life or something, its like, friends, in a spiritual context, for some reason, the few who still remain in my life, are the ones I hold on closest and the dearest to.

Its like, the moment there is friendship or a connection between me or a cg member or a fellow church mate, that person becomes my priority, that person becomes someone I would cherish for life.

Im someone who doesnt speak a lot.

I feel a lot, I think a lot, I reflect a lot. Im not an outdoor or a rahrah kind of person, I blend into the wallpaper, even though Im not really doing anything, its easy for me to just enjoy the company of friends, just by being there, was enough for me.

And throughout the years, I realised something about myself, I dont mind jokes, I dont like games or interaction, most of the time, but one thing I enjoy the most is just sharing experiences and talking about the issues of life, talking about God, spiritual stuffs, moving in the gifts, encounters..

To me, thats what excites me the most. Because no one turns me on more than Jesus! haha.

Im looking forward to thursday...

Visualise..visualise..visualise!
*ponders for a moment.
"TOMORROW IS THURSDAY!!! WOOHOO!!!"
Yeah right, it will never happen. =/ lol

but..but..but..yea yea yea, smack my butt! =S

Something

Its one thing to say that you depend on God,
Its another thing to give Him your life completely.

You can depend on God and yet hold on to your own life...

When will this emotional rollercoaster stop? =/
I hate to find myself in tears every sunday night..

Service, CG, Randoms, Encounter

This week has been tiringly boring haha.

Wake up, breakfast, rehearsal, lunch, rehearsal, dinner, sleep. Gosh. Btw, POP is on friday 5pm. We have 4 POPs going on at once. 132nd NS intake, OfficerCadet Intake, Regulars, and Combined (Brunei police, prison, senior officers).

Anyway, the boring things aside. Service was great yesterday. What a powerful message on the 4th dimension! No more praying with limits, no more living within the boundaries of our 3D world. Time to step out, time to break out.

Arise and Build is coming. Im excited, yet at the same time, the devil is gonna hit us hard, he always does. Seriously, he's just a lion with bad breath and no teeth, all he does is roars, lies and puts fear into people.

Yesterday my cg, wayne's cg and rhonda's cg combined fellowship at airport. LOL. It was funny seeing the huge group hogging a corner at T3 LOL. Had POPEYES..felt so pregnant after that =x

On e way home, on the train, there was an 'incident' with a 'difficult guy', who I found out from my bro later, that he's a 'regular'.

Skinny, but defined body, 166-168cm, short pokey hair, slightly wrinkled, moderately big eyes, wears sports singlets and berms, carries a blackish blue handphone. Bumps people, and finds trouble at the exit of a train on the green line, between lavender to raffles city.

And so, in short, he made a 'scene'.

LOL..being police-trained, I can recognise the guy the next time I see him. Watch out. If I not happy with you, I take out my warrant card then you know. Anyway, he was the devil at that point in time. Come to think of it, he looks like lucifer too. HAHA..stupid dickhead. o.o

Anyway..something amazing happened during make up cg yesterday morning. Towards e end of e meeting, we had a 'turn to ur neighbours and pray' session. So I was praying with this brother. He was a little 'unique'. So it was quite a challenge for me, first of all, I dont know him, secondly, he had difficulty praying and flowing and all that..so yea..

Anyway, I didnt know where to start or end, and we were supposed to discuss something regarding e sermon and then pray, and so, I was asking him some things and he didnt reply, or rather, didnt know what I meant or how to communicate. So..yea, for a moment, I felt like I was talking to a wall..making a fool of myself.

However, I started praying and we ended. I ended the prayer. But I dont know if he doesnt know it ended or what, he was still praying. So I was a bit stressed and irritated. Deep down I wanted to say, "Erm..Ive ended already?" or something like that..

But deep down, I knew this wasnt the end..

And true enough, my heart was open, I knew I wasnt good at prayer, all I had was a willing, servant heart, a vessel that God could use.

I let Him down in some areas this week, and you know how it feels like..to let someone you love down and yet having to face Him, and worse still, ask Him for things through prayer, it feels bad. But thats how amazing God is, He loves, He forgives. His never-ending mercy, picked me up from where I was and brought me to where He wanted me to be.

As I continued praying in tongues with the brother, the Holy Spirit whispered into my heart, "Pray for family...". Being human, we tend to reason in our heads. "Huh? Family? A bit 'off' ah? The sermon was about a renewed mindset and You want me to pray for family?"

I felt awkward, and hesitant at first. But I obeyed anyway. Thats how faith is...it never makes sense. Hahaha...

As I moved in obedience, HS moved me into the realm of gifts and, just like a download from heaven, in an instant, I received a word of knowledge, and I began to pray. Not loudly, but firmly, slowly and lovingly. I prayed for his family. I didnt know what to pray, but at that point in time, the thought of 'oh no, what am I gonna pray for?' never entered me.

I knew from past experiences, that as long as I obeyed, God will take over. The words just came out..and amazingly, it found its way to the sermon message and the words just related and flowed so perfectly. Word by word, I didnt stumble at all, not one word.

And as I prayed, he started weeping and crying, heavy sobbing and he was ministered on the spot, and I didnt even lay hands on him. It was really an eye opener for me. Just by being a blessing, I myself felt blessed. I knew at that moment that I was doing the right thing at the right time with the right people. =)

Oh yes, remember the water research done by Masaru Emoto? I have a website thanks to Desmond. Haha. Just click HERE

I found this new song by KC, he wrote it. We havent sang it yet, but maybe we will sometime later or probably during Asia Conference, I have a studio version of it though, haha..but Im not gonna upload it on imeem. *Respect. Haha.


The God I Know - GanKC

When the stage is bare tonight
There's no one else
Just You and me
When the curtains close behind
There's no pretense
I'm on my knees

I will lay down my all
For there's no greater cause
Than You my Lord
It's all because of You
It's all because of You

The God I know
Glorious and holy
The God I know
Is faithful and true
The God I know
A tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The God I know
Light of this city
The God I know
Strengthens the weak
The God I know
Is strong and mighty
As He is, so are we

Holy Holy
Is our God
Is our God

The church He knows
Glorious and holy
The church He knows
Is faithful and true
The church He knows
A tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The church He knows
Light of this city
The church He knows
Strengthens the weak
The church He knows
Is strong and mighty
As He is, so are we

God

I want you to face the mountain,
So that you can see,
When the mountain is out of the way,
All there is left is Me...

Only I can move the mountain,
Only I can push it away,
Only I can conquer the problems
That you face today..

Your only job is to believe,
To listen to My voice,
And when you hear what I command,
Obedience is your choice
But I will not make it too difficult for
The victory is already mine,
And I will fill you with my Spirit
And through you My grace will shine.

Not when you are perfect,
like you think you need to be,
but when your heart is willing to become
more and more like Me...


Was chatting with someone on MSN, and I thought this piece of poetry really spoke to me. And Im sure it will speak to you too. This song is really old school, but I love it. Its one of the first few worship songs I sang when I first joined E110. =)

Skins, skins, skins..CG and Service

Downloaded a new skin for my msn that matches my desktop theme. This proves one thing..YOU DONT NEED VISTA JUST TO LOOK GOOD!

There are like tons of good looking themes out there. I just love this media center theme, i even have a custom windows media center login screen haha.

Sorry but Im no fan of vista lol. Its better off to the business freaks, me a gamer, shall stick to XP hahaha.

Hmm lets see, update for this week..early bookout again. Yea, I booked out at 3 yesterday. Went for makeup cg at wendy's cg. Yuanrong is guitarist!!! Whoaaa...Cool stuff. Okay, maybe im just a LITTLE bit lagging. but oh well..lol =/

CG was good. I froze everybody there, haha. The message was a rhema to me, the 4 tests in life.

The pressure test, people test, persistence test and the priorities test. God began to speak to me so strongly in that meeting. Thanks yuanrong for the hospitality and the food! =)

Service today was awesome, no shortage, no lack, arise and build in 3 weeks!

God had already spoken to me an amount and ill be working towards it. Today was a rather 'different' day for me. Sometimes I speak a word during cg, but today, God gave me a word for my parents! Yes.

Can you imagine the courage it took. But I kept on telling myself, obedience is greater than sacrifice...so yea, today was something different for me.

Tmr is book in day. The upcoming week will be intense, full parade rehearsals. Most likely rehearsals ONLY, maybe add some other stuffs, blablabla.

Well, POP is coming, I dont know..I dont feel that excited somehow...maybe its because Ive been inside too long =/

Well, sleepy, will blog again tmr. Ciao.

Service and CG

Both were great. Arise and build is coming! I dunno about you but Im excited to give once again.

I may not be financially 'blessed' yet, but one day, Im believing for my first million by the time Im 30. =) I confessed it once and Im confessing it again. XD haha.

Nevertheless, the blessings Ive received from my previous Arise n Builds, the anointing, the favor, the early bookouts, the breakthrough academically and spiritually, has outnumbered my giving and God has blessed me with things that no money can buy.

Just think about it...

Sow your limited, and God will give you the unlimited.
Sow the possible and God will give you the impossible.

Lord, I give You my all in exchange for all of You...

This week's book in timetable is strange. I have swimming, gym and then out of nowhere, ushering!!! LOL!!! Yes..USHERING, for enlistment day on tuesday.

Even though it may seem like an interesting thing to do, but do pray for favor and the spirit of excellence to be upon me. That God will be glorified, what people in the world fail to do, with God, Im able to do all things!

I was thinking this morning, the good grades Ive gotten, more than just prayer, love and the grace of God, I have to credit it to Elaine too.

You see, Elaine's been the 'distinction' member in our cg, so I really wanted that anointing, I was really hungry for it, I wanted good grades..even though its law and not information tech, I wanted to see results Ive never seen before. And I remembered asking her pray for me.

More than being specific with prayer, prayer is hardwork, prayer requires planning.

Planned and specific to the point I know WHO to go to for prayer. More than just praying the right thing, Ive learnt its good to know the RIGHT PERSON to pray for you.

Someone so gifted and abundant in the anointing of good grades, like Elaine, thats why I asked her, and a few others to pray for me.

Im thinking, this arise and build, Im finding an opportunity for wenrui to pray for me. =)) HAHAHA! That guy, he has the THOUSANDS-OF-DOLLARS-DROP-ON-YOUR-TABLE anointing!

I want it! Im hungry and desperate! This arise and build, will be the best arise and build of my life! XD

Its amazing. Thats why God gifted us differently. Thats why we complement each other. Everyone is different, some total opposites. I believe, we're not just gifted to serve the unchurched, but the body of christ as well, our cgs, our zones, etc.

E420

For the anointing for business, you have Thomas and Sebas.
For the anointing for academics and wisdom, you have Elaine.
For the anointing for love and service, you have Pamela and Thaddeus.
For the anointing for administration and creativity, you have Tricia and Pohchoo.
For the anointing for finance and inspiration, you have wenrui.
For the anointing for leadership and discipleship, you have our very own Adam.
For the anointing for anointing and presence, you have me and Timo.

So far, thats all I can think of haha. Thats who we are, thats what makes up E420. We're not just built on one man, but on every individual, playing his/her part, loving God wholeheartedly and loving people fervently.

Oh yes, do check out the Good News Translation on bible.crosswalk.com

Read the book of proverbs haha..its suuuuper straightforward and 'shooting'. I think its very pastor kong, haha..its very me too.

Back to preparation for book in...

POP is coming.

Scenario Based Test: 85/100
Final Law Theory Exam: 83/100

Total strength of squad: 38

Number of ppl retaking test: 22
Number of failures: <= 5
Highest score: 92/100
Number of distinctions: 5-10

Next week early book out at 3pm.

Where on earth do you get distinctions in NS exams, early book out almost every month, 150 confinement reports getting cancelled and being able to attend service every week, not for 2 months, not for 2.5 months, but 4.5 months!

God is good.

What are you hungry for?
What are you thirsty for?
Where is your heart?
Where is your treasure?
Where is your priority?
What/who do you think about most of the time?
What/who is in your mind?
Who do you talk about most of the time?
Who do you talk to most of the time?
Who do you spend time with most of the time?

Let it be the One who gave His life for you.

Hari Raya

Okay, so..I booked out last night. Kinda sad cus last night cant go for night jog as it was pouring. =x lol.

And tonight Im going back in again. Friday book out again. Pretty crappy schedule huh? But thank God this whole week is nothing but watching videos in the aircon classroom and parade rehearsals. (im gonna be fat garfield again!!! NOOO!!!)

Anyway, just a sidetrack..I need to lose 3 more kgs to be acceptable weight, first time in my life! WOOHOO! lol.

Took my final test on monday. Even though I did my best, I still have my doubts though. Cus there were 2-3 questions, I attempted TWICE, cus I wasnt sure of the answer. And unknowingly, the first attempt was the correct answer. O_O

Okay, I think my post title is a bit irrelevant cus Im not talking about hari raya. -.-

Friday is another crappy day..heard the entire intake have to go to jalan besah stadium to support the home team soccer match. O_O.

I shall publicly declare here, I HATE SOCCER TO THE HARD-CORE!

Anyone who asks me for a soccer game, be prepared for your referee to be kidnapped or your ball to be stolen (so that you cant start the match) !!! ARRRGGHHH!!!!

Last whole week for my RT (recreation training), we had soccer e whole week! OMG! I just stood in the middle of the field and stone!

Surprisingly, my team won even though I was teh shit.

I think I can be those lucky charm or statues, whichever team owns me, will win, just put me on display. -.-" *Rubbish!

Dont even make me start a whole rant on soccer..speaking of which, I havent been ranting for awhile, kinda lost my sense of sarcasm I must say..oops, i mean, "..I must type.." O_O

So yea, I have changed. But I dont care. lol..the moment ppl say 'hey, ure a little different' (and im not talking about anyone in particular, cus quite a handful said that to me now and then since ive enlisted haha)...

like wenrui said, its because they have imposed their expectations on you, and the moment you change or lose your consistency, they cannot accept it or they take a long time to adapt to it.

Haha..not bad, at least you know that there are people who know me just because they wanna get something out of me and they dont really love me for who I am..haha..pretty sad. well, not all, but still..lol..

Sorry, Ive become more direct and expressive haha..Im not gonna continue hiding behind my happy smiley face all the time, when all people do is take advantage of me.

Just like pastor kong haha..he has the 'professional' preacher mode. And he has his 'own normal' mode..and Ive seen that before. Trust me, you dont wanna come into contact with him when he's..'normal'..or, serious. lol.

So..as I end here, let me say this..

Before you go round looking for the right friends, please be a right one yourself.



Hmm I dont know what this is..but alicia asked me to post it. sooo..lets see. *test test.

*Its good the emo posts have stopped cause Im glad to be home.
(Back to my usual stuffs)