Going in

When people go army, they have fellow church friends inside, ex-schoolmates, familiar faces..

When I go in, I have none of these.

I feel so far, so distant...feels like I have no one to joke with,

No one to talk to, no one to pray with, no one to share with.

With every push up I do, I think of you guys.

Every week, the only thing I long for, are your smses, your calls, my book out.

This week is my IPPT, 'confinement' is not a nice word.

Service + Fellowship

What makes a real man?

A real man is not defined by his role,
A real man is defined by his purpose.

In the world today, many men have great roles...

Family breadwinners, high positioned businessmen, etc. Yet they live an unsatisfied, unhappy life, because they base their manhood on their role, and have lost their vision and purpose.

On the other hand, you can have someone who is ugly, someone who may not be in a high position in the business world, and yet he can live a happy and satisfied life, because that man, even though his vocation, his role is small, he does it to fulfill his purpose.

I suddenly thought..

You can have a good looking person,
You may be handsome, macho, pretty, sexy, and yet...
You live a life that is unsatisfied, always going around in circles,
Thinking you're never good-looking enough.

On the other hand, someone ugly, not as 'well defined' in shape,
He/she lives a happy life. He/she knows his/her purpose and has good self-esteem.

Its not about how good you look,
Its about how good you feel about yourself.

Its about having the faith, that God made you who you are,
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Its about having self-esteem and confidence in yourself.

To me, an attractive person is not someone who has the features,
But someone who has the countenance.

Fellowshiped last night with my cg and w460 combined at paya lebar singpost.
The entire day was great, service, fellowship.

My guitar string broke. Haha. But...

I really wanna take this opportunity to thank Seowshi, for replacing the strings, and for being a good steward, more than that, a great friend.

Everytime I meet up with her, without fail, the things we share, our experiences and all, every meet up is always fruitful. Even though its been late at night, really, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for always being there, stepping out, taking the time and the effort.

Your perseverance, your dedication, has moved me on to another level. I am who I am today, apart from God who chose an imperfect person like me, its because of you. I really miss spending my nights with you and torance..chilling at mac, the jogging and lameing sessions.

You guys give me strength, you guys give me motivation.

3 more months...3 more months...Ill press on...

Hati Hamba - Sari Simorangkir

Verse

Standing in awe of Your grace
Setting my feet in Your ways
Entering into Your presence
To behold You face to face

God of all Heaven and earth
Holding me in Your embrace
Unfailing love that surrounds me
Oh..God I stand amazed

Chorus

My Jesus, My Lord
You're the love of my life
Wherever You go
Wanna be by Your side
No longer I
But Christ living in me
Serving You for all eternity

My eyes set on You
In this race that I run
No longer my ways
Let Your will be done
Make me a servant
My heart's ever true
Clinging to the cross
I'll follow You
I'll follow you


This week's been hardcore shooting all the way, 6 frames, with the 6th frame as my final exam. Since the first frame, Ive been shooting with a finger injury. First was internal bleeding due to the clipping of the gun trigger multiple times.

Yes, my finger is too small to grip the trigger correctly, even the instructor was kinda shocked how small my hand was. Its ok if people think, Im being pessimistic or what, its a fact. I live with a small physical handicap.

For a guitarist, I have really small hands, when I do pull ups, I cant grip the bar properly, I cant even shoot properly, I failed my first 5 frames, eventually a blister formed above the internal bleeding spot, the scar is still there.

I was the worst shooter but amazingly, I managed to clear the final exam. But not without pain, the whole week is exerting force and further damage to my finger. Every shot, not only was there pain in my finger, there was pain in my heart, knowing that Ill fail because my hand is small and weak.

God can use my hands in such a way, is not because I qualified for it, but because I allowed Him to. So many times, we wanna please God, yet we do not know that it is He who helps us to please Him.

Just like the story of the father, son and the lawn mower.

We can never fully please God, we can never fully do what He requires of us, why? Because we are imperfect. We cant move the lawn mower to begin with, yet why does God do what He does? Its because of love and He wants to fellowship and get close to us.

Had my first swimming lesson yesterday, it was hell. 150 push ups in 30 minutes, in sets of 20. Its amazing how I never had cramps or muscle tears. God is amazing, He is faithful.

Sometimes people will let you down.
They will say things you dont like.
They wont say things that you like.
You try so hard to please everyone,
Yet you are just an imperfect person like everyone else.

You let the emotions overwhelm you,
You let life surround you,
And you've forgotten the one who brought you out of Egypt.
The one who fed you when you were hungry,
The one who clothed you when you were naked,
The one who placed His hands on your shoulders and wiped your tears.

So many things are happening in your life,
You feel so far, so distant, in a loss of direction,
I dont know who you are but I just sensed in my heart,
There is someone who feels that way right now.
Your friends might not be there,
I might not be there, but I still love, I still care, just like how God would.
Stop looking around and start looking inside,
Know that greater is he who is in you than He who is in the world.

Be strong, because God is strong.
You read my blog, even though you know I wont update as often.
I pray everyday, its very easy.
The moment I step onto my blog,
I feel the heart of some of my readers,
I know their thoughts,
Not because Im super spiritual, but because I love,
Because Im willing to make a connection.

When you pray for people, you are connected with them in the spirit,
Stop regretting yesterday,
Stop worrying about tomorrow,
What are you going to do today?
If you waste all your 'todays' worrying and regretting,
Your breakthrough will never come.

Dont be discouraged by what happens around you,
Be encouraged by what has happened to you,
You are saved, you have a relationship with God,
You have friends who care, friends who listens,
His grace is sufficient for you,
What you have now, is already more than enough,
If only you could see it.
Stop looking at what you dont have,
A miracle starts first by looking at what you have,
Your 5 loaves, and 2 fish.

If you are reading this and this impacts you,
Know that I love you, God loves you,
Just as how God has never left you, neither will I.
Everyday Im sad, knowing that there are people I cant encourage,
Knowing that I cant be there for people hurts me a lot.
I wanna do so much for people, yet in a blink of an eye,
It seems as if all my friendships and connections are cut off just like that.

3 months and 1 week may seem long,
If I have to pray for you for 3 months everyday, I will do that.
I miss teaching guitar, I miss msning, I miss being a shoulder to cry on,
I miss being a listening ear, there are nights I would lay on my bed in tears,
Thinking of everyone of you, my heart, has gone with you.

Thank you for making me who I am today,
Now its your turn, to be who you are meant to be.

Life will be happier, if you just had God and your friends.

The simplicity of heart. Let it touch you today.

Going back in

A day ago, I was out.

2hrs time, Ill be back in.

Hate this kind of feeling.

Emo.

Ukida - The Champion House

Book out day

Im back. For now, lol.

2 weeks have flown, just like that.

1st week was funny. Funny people, "DVD Seller", well, some guy brought in a portable DVD player and he 'kena'ed by the FI (Field Instructor) LOL.

Everyone stared with open eyes and gaping mouth, we were like, "OMG DVD Player..BEST!"

Then there was once, we were given 10 seconds to fall out and enter our rooms, then our key got stuck! My bunk mates were like, QUICK! QUICK! Everyone else has gone into their rooms, and we were stuck outside like a bunch of angry monkeys trying to break into our bunk.

5...4...3...2...

1...*And the door open, we all CHIONGED IN SCREAMING! lol..it was insane.

One thing I must say, IVE NOT EATEN SO MUCH IN MY ENTIRE EARTHLY LIFE! GOSH.

Im considered quite small compared to other 'big sized' guys around me, dunno why, chinese always smaller and shorter =/

Anyway, these guys eat a LOT and eat VERY FAST. I look at them eat, I thought, ITS A MIRACLE! But really, we are fed A LOT A LOT A LOT of food! The food there is good. Seriously. But its waaaay too much lol.

Training is tough, one FI is screwed, but other than that..thank God for good bunk mates. I think my squad is the most united, most disciplined, and most happy squad. You look at others, chinese one side, malay one side, they dont cooperate with their IC, they are always slacking.

But even though my squad is the ah-pui squad, or "Nasi Lemak squad" as FI Nizam likes to call us, lol..we are always the first, if not the second to fall in.

Ive been homesick, I miss so many people, there were nights I would lie on my bed, think of you guys and tear. Not because training is tough, but simply because you guys mean so much to me. All your individual calls and smses really brings a smile to my face.

Just like that, 2 weeks have passed.

Every night Ive been praying..I must say this..

Ive been closer to God than Ive ever been, Ive prayed more than Ive ever prayed, and Ive experienced breakthrough in such measure, that its unbelievable.

Everyday I would pray, and the breakthrough would come immediately the next day. And it goes on CONSECUTIVELY every single day.

Next week starts my shooting classes, I really want these 3.5 months to pass by quickly. Enrol into a admin vocation, do a 9-5 office job like my other friend does.

I wanna come out everyday, give guitar lessons, encourage people, I just love serving people, my heart is always with others. Even though I had a rather 'lonely' 21st birthday in camp, I never once thought of myself.

Love never runs out.
Love never tires out.
Love is there in good times.
Love is there in bad times.

Greater love has none other than this, than for one to lay down his life for his friends.

There's no greater definition of love, than this:

Love is the desire to benefit others, at the expense of self; Cause love desires to give.

To me, its easier to love than to BE loved. We work so hard to gain people's acceptance, to gain their respect, yet its so easy to just tell someone, 'hey, you can do it'.

I like what thad said to me,

"Always remember, when you're out there. They are just humans. But you are not, you are more than that."

The day has come. (Final post)

Well, officially this will be the last time Im blogging.

In 1-2 hours time Ill be asleep and when I wake up, I wont be coming online anymore.

So..what can I say? Haha. I dont know too.

Guess this blog will rot? Haha I dont think it will. Maybe? Maybe not.

Just wanna say a special thanks to alicia for dedicating a blog entry to me. =) You will play the guitar one day. =) And you will do so much more than me. Keep going, keep working at it, and the potential thats inside of you, will come out one day. =)

Thanks timo-mo, for a blog dedication too. =D Just wanna say that, its okay, if you feel you've neglected me, we all have neglected someone some point in life.

Deep down, I dont live to be appreciated, I dont live to be served. I live for God's smile. =) And since the day I received my enlistment letter, I knew that you were gonna be the one who will exceed the things I do. You and thad will form the power team of E420.

As a celgrp guitarist and as a connect group leader at the same time, dont ever think ure there to carry double the burden, double the responsibility. But see it this way: You're there to receive double the anointing, double the impartation, double the blessing! And through this period of transition, you will see the celgrp grow, you will see your family getting saved, you will come to your place of transformation! ;)

Thanks thad too, for your advices and encouragement and praying over the phone. =) I will be praying for celgrp revival when Im inside, to make sure I dont get too disconnected haha.

Ps meng once shared, everytime you pray for someone, somehow in the spirit, there is a connection, a drawing a closeness, and when you finally meet the person, the person can tell. Really cool stuffs, it was AFV lesson I think.

Above all, pray for the right people. =)

To everyone..

Love you all.
Miss you all.
See ya all.

Byebye.

*Hugs and kisses.

Good times, bad times, You are the God of my forever.

Service 3, Service 4, Photos

Service 3 was awesome. Great impartation, healings, miracles. Dr Che Ahn really moved the church to a whole new level. As for service 4, it was great too, even though the sermon is a bit long haha..but its good, cus it was the last service.

A few things that kept on ringing in my head.

You are only as good as your weakest friendship/relationship.

Its not just about what you do, or what you believe, But who you do it with, and who you believe it with.

Dr Che Ahn said it pretty clearly too, people can say what they want, they can say they believe a lot of things, yet just because you believe, it doesnt mean you have the faith to live it out!

Many people believe because they feel that somehow, they are saved, or somehow that God is with them. Like wayne said during LOUD camp, stop living a life of believing and start living a life of faith!

Faith is not just believing, faith is acting, faith is knowing, faith is experiencing!

Faith and love, are definitely NOT feelings. They are actions executed, based on decisions made from your thinking and attitude!

Its so amazing, haha, how I once said,

God uses people.
The devil uses people too.

I remembered saying it a few days ago, and on sunday, ps robb thompson said the exact same thing! LOL. Praise God for that.

Im currently in the midst of packing my stuffs, a few more hours to go and Ill be away for 'some time' haha. I dunno, I just feel like Im going on a mission trip. =/

Anyway, here are some pics. This will probably be the last time you are gonna see pictures here for a long long time. =O (Credits to Queen Pamela)

Ooooh, cake! Ooooh, cream! Ooooh, FATS!

Lets dig in. Okay, maybe not 'lets', cause its just me. O_O

The countdown begins... *Can you tell thaddeus was really really hungry? Look at what he's got in his mouth hahahaha..

Ahhhhhhmmmm! *look at the 'intense concentration'.

Ever wondered how 2 spoons + 1 fork entering your mouth feels like?

Where did the cream go? :O *Correction: Going.

Oh look, suddenly its Adam's birthday! Nah, its me. Look at my new hairstyle and plastic surgery! Wow! I have indeed grown in size and stature. Even my hair's grown..vertically that is. :O

Opening the present, with food in my mouth obviously LOL.

I was marvelled at how fast my hand moved, I am Andrew Angelo - Hands without shadows! BUUHAHA! And thad's obviously marvelled at something up his sleeve, erm, I mean, up his nose.

Do I look like a birthday cake to you? =p

The biggest birthday card in my life.

The most expensive present in my life.

Creative Zen Stone Plus.

(Thanks loads to E420, especially to thaddeus chew chew chewbacca.)

ROFLMAOLOL. Nah, he's the greatest person anyone can ever know. =)

Will blog again later.

Service, Fellowship, E420

Service was great! Robb Thompson! Haha.

Okay, I was informed that after I spent 10 bucks to get my O level cert replacement, that my original was found! O_O Okay. LOL.

After service had zone debrief and our 'final cheer'. Took a group photo.

Had dinner cum fellowship at 18 Chefs @ East Point, Simei.

Just wanna say, thanks to each and everyone of you for celebrating my 21st, thanks for making my last fellowship memorable. I may not have a great party (because Ill be in camp), but spending my 21st with the 10 of you means all the world to me, to me, its more than enough.


To Adam (Lame King):

Thanks for being a great leader, a great friend, thanks for being Jesus in my life. Through you, Ive learnt a lot, Ive grown a lot, I am who I am today, is because of you. The sacrifices you've made, the discipleships, the personal talks. Every seed you've sown in my life, has bore fruit. Nothing is wasted, nothing is in vain.

One thing I will miss: Your discipleships, your preaching, your company, your lame jokes and your love and encouragements.


To Thaddeus (Madam Chew LOL):

More than a friend, more than a brother. If you wanna talk about being open, you've seen everything about me, my ups, my downs, my nonsense, and my lameness at its most extreme haha. You once told me you've learnt a lot from me, but I too, have learnt a lot from you. Despite your own issues, thanks for being the one who listens, the one who cares, and the one who motivates.

One thing I will miss: Your nonsense, your 'scoldings', the way you challenge me everytime, the times spent talking crap and guitaring, your jokes. Haha. I will certainly miss the times we exchanged revelations and experiences.


To Timo-mo (Father Timothy =p):

Someone who perseveres, someone who never fails to avail himself. You too have seen my ups and downs, you saw me for who I am, that without God, I really am 'nothing'. You saw my extreme side too, it just simply shows how much I needed God, how much I relied on Him.

That behind face of respect, admiration and inspiration, lies someone totally broken, someone totally surrendered. Thanks for being someone to talk to, someone who's always there. When Im away for 1-2 weeks, I know I can count on you to carry the baton, to rise up like never before, and I believe you will see change in the celgrp, change in our connect group even though one member isnt there for the time being.

God's grace is sufficient for you. Be it in guitar, being a CGC, if God asks you to do something, you can be assured you CAN do it. Because He wont ask you to do something that you cant do. =)

A true father indeed.

One thing I will miss: Your advices, your company, your encouragements, and your discipleship. Even though your words are gentle, yet they carry so much power and conviction. Will miss your 'screw loose' times too haha.


To Pamela (Queen Ah Ma):

Thanks for always being a great testimony, a great company and a great sister. Someone who never fails to convict me haha. Someone who always bring life into the cg, always getting excited over the smallest things haha. Next to thad, you're the next person Ive known the longest in the celgrp; since day 1.

One thing I will miss: Your 'scoldings' and your sillyness that never fails to bring a smile haha. Though at times there will be unfortunate 'incidents', yet through it all, my capacity is enlarged and strengthened because of you.


To Elaine (Doraemoness LOL):

Thanks for always being the smile and the joy of the celgrp. Your gentleness, your cheerful attitude, is something I wanna have. The testimonies you share, everyone of them, really blessed me.

One thing I will miss: Your smile, your joy, and your awesome, power-packed testimonies, as well as some of your lame jokes that freezes me haha.


To Tricia (Bimbo Auyong):

A great person to talk to and to hang out and fellowship with. You did a great job as team IC for LOUD camp! =) In the midst of crisis you stood firm and kept on believing. Someone whos dramatic actions never fail to bring a smile or a laugh. haha.

One thing I will miss: Your dramas LOL.


To Pohchoo (Dua Poh Zua):

Someone who always take the initiative. You've sacrificed a lot and I appreciate everything you've done for the cg, the big things, the little things, the plannings. Though all of us have our imperfections, but its our imperfections that makes the cg perfect. Someone who never fails to speak your heart and challenge the people.

One thing I will miss: Your roars. Haha. As well as the times of craziness.


To Jolene (Cheery Dwarf):

Someone who listens, always there, always trusting, always open, always helping. You are the joy of the celgrp, even though times when you had your own issues, yet you are there, you kept on pressing, kept on believing. Someone who goes the extra mile. Thanks for being there in times of need.

One thing I will miss: Your smile and laughs. Your craziness and jokes. Your listening ear.


To Thomas (Da Lao Ban):

Someone who always, always, always speak your mind haha. Direct, reassuring, creative and innovative. He's the brain of the celgrp. You want ideas, go to him. You want opinions, he gives the best opinions. His words, his testimonies and sharings, can change your life inside out. Yet at the same time, he's always there to brighten the cg.

One thing I will miss: Your ideas, experiences, sharings. And also, your lameness LOL.


To the rest of the cg whom I have a relationship with:
Lizhen, Joycelyn, Ryman, Khanh, Sebas:

You guys are the best friends and 'family members' anyone could ever have. Knowing you guys have always been a blessing to me. For those who are new like Ryman and Khanh, seeing you in the cg alone, is an encouragement to me. Your company, is one of those that really blesses me. Always bringing smiles and laughter.

More than just the joy that comes from God, E420 is the reason I smile. You guys will change and grow, so will I. I wont know how the celgrp will be 2 weeks from now, and you wont know how Ill be like 2 weeks from now. =)

May God surprise us all.


To a few special individuals:

Wyelin:

Even though its kinda strange how we actually got to know each other, its really by God that 2 total strangers can open up, share and click so easily. When Im at my wits end, you were there, for some reason. Though you may be young, never despise your youth. Everything starts small, and I believe, your seed will grow.

I may be away for 1-2 weeks, during this period, be strong, keep going, keep loving. Never let anyone tell you you cant do it. =)

Torance, Karwen, Amber, Alicia:

Its kinda strange how I got to meet you guys. Yet I know through it all God has a purpose. Ive learnt alot from your individual celgrps, just being there at a point in time to help to serve. Your company, gave me the extra boost. When Im feeling down, I know you guys are the bunch of people I can turn to. Its a guarantee, that I will feel better, that I will cheer up, that I will laugh haha.

Even though you guys are just starting to see my LQ, its ok LOL. There's more to come. Knowing you guys is really a blessing in my life. Just being there, is more than enough. More than just wanting to know you guys more, thanks for being a crazy bunch of people. haha.

Seowshi:

Fellow cg guitarist haha and a great student. Both of us, in a way share similar experiences, the same passion, the same dream, the ups and downs. Even though you were sent to learn from me, haha, I must say I have learnt a lot from you too. There were some things I go through that you didnt, there were some things you went through that I didnt.

Always exchanging experiences, and sharing our stories, really encourages me, really inspires me, and exposes me to life that is bigger than myself. I will never forget the small gathering we had late at night, every moment is a blessing, every moment was a God moment. I really treasure the listening ears, you left an impact in my life. You became part of me, a turning point in my life.

If it werent for what you said that night, I wouldve given up, I wouldnt be here. Even at times you feel unappreciated, or undeserving, or discouraged, I will say that you are a person of destiny and I am proud of you for always getting back on your feet.

Though I will be away for 1-2 weeks, though I will be passing on my wife to you, keep growing, keep smiling, keep being Jesus in your celgrp. As long as God has not given up on you, never say die, never say no, never say quit. =)

Your life my have changed, your problems may be different each time, yet God remains the same. As long as He's the same, you know there is nothing you cannot do. =)


To my family:

You may look around and think how fortunate others are, but no, to me, Id rather have you than anyone else! Words alone cannot express my gratitude. Thanks for being there, for leaving a deep mark in my life.


Most importantly:

Jesus, I will miss you. The times You were always there. And I know You will continue to be, because Your word says so. The times I cried to you alone in my room, those nights jogging and chatting and praying, thanks for making me more and more like You.

You mean everything to me. One thing I will miss, is the secret place, but I will do my best to have my secret place, even in camp. Lets shake the camp together for the glory of God! You have been the BEST friend one could ever have.

When I go in, show me more and more of You everyday. Let me be the person of the greater works. I am still willing to be Your servant, I may not have much, but You can always count on me, whether Im happy or sad, nothing matters more, than being in Your presence, doing Your will. Lets go in there and take the promised land.

May You be shown and glorified. Break every heart of stone and turn it into a heart of flesh. Show Yourself strong. And these 2 years of my life, will be one of the the greatest moments in my life. More than just the fun, the activities, Jesus, its literally our honeymoon together, being in an environment where all I have is You.

Lord, this song is for You.

Singapore Book of Records

http://www.singaporebookofrecords.com

I just wanna say...

WE WERE LOUD!
WE WERE EXCITED!
WE WERE CRAZY!

But...

Most importantly...
WE MADE IT!!!

Singapore's longest star jump wave belongs to City Harvest AN Zone LOUD Campers!!!

With a record of 273 people joined from one end to the other end.
Performing a chain of star jumps from start to end,
For FIVE MINUTES consecutively!

Even though it was physically tiring,
Even though you guys were jumping on wet and muddy grass,
You guys pulled through! Give yourself a pat on the back and say, 'well done'. XD

HO SAY AH!

NFSU v2 Theme

Sexaye. HAHA.

New Icons, New cursors, New look.

Gonna go JAP. Jog-And-Pray. Haha. Tomorrow morning going MOE to get my O level cert replaced. Then going home for awhile before rushing down to expo for LOUD Luncheon. XD

Power weekend with Robb Thompson and Dr Che An. Robb Thompson is one of the speakers I highly respect and you can say, next to AR Bernard, he's my favourite speaker haha. Most of my blog entries are inspired by his sermons.

3 more days.

Emotions.

God, Eternity

The question pastor kong always asks:

Is God alone enough for you?

If there is no money,
If there are no friends,
If there is no home,
If there is no food,
If there is no entertainment,
If there are no magazines,
If there are no more clothes,
If there are no more accessories,
If there are no more TVs,
If there are no more computers,
If there are no more sports,
If there are no more bags,
If there are no more shoes,
If there are no more handphones,
If there are no more colour,

If the whole earth didnt exist in the first place,
If the entire universe didnt exist in the first place,

If God only created one person, and that person is you,
If God created ONLY you, in the middle of a dark, empty void,

Is He alone enough?

If He is, you're blessed.

If He isnt,
If you think you cant survive in an eternity of nothingness and void,
Then its time to do a reality check.

It is not the friends you have that will last for eternity,
It is the friendships that you have earned that will last for eternity.

It is not the people who loved you that will last for eternity,
It is the people whom you have shown love to that will last for eternity.

It is not how much clothes you have worn that will last for eternity,
It is the people you have clothed that will last for eternity.

It is not how much food you've eaten that will last for eternity,
It is the people you have fed that will last for eternity.

It is not how much money you have earned that will last for eternity,
It is the amount you have given that will last for eternity.

Look around you...
Everything you see, will one day pass away.

When all is said and done, standing before the very face of God,
What are you going to say to Him? What do you think He will say?

Naked you have come and naked you will depart.

No one knows the times nor the hour, nor the day, except God the Father.

If an infant can pass away, even before he/she is born,
What makes you think, you who now live, have a lot of time?

You are here for a mission, for a purpose,
Stop being lazy and start doing something with your life!

It all comes back to You!

C3 Worship - Help Me
By Steve Deal, Dan Pringle, Joe Pringle, Leah Pringle, Darren Elliot)

Help me to stand up each day, walk in Your way
To read Your word and pray
Help me to fight a good fight, to stay in the light
To praise You day and night
Help me to not just survive, to be so alive
Smiling on the inside
Help me to let Your light show, to let Your love flow
So all the people know

Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohoh-oh-oh-oh-ohhhh!
My heart cries out to You
Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohoh-oh-oh-oh-ohhhh!
Your grace will see me through
Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohoh-oh-oh-oh-ohhhh!
You give me heaven's view
Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-ohoh-oh-oh-oh-ohhhh!
It all comes back to You

Help me to walk in Your love, sent from above
Lifting me up
Help me to sing a new song, when everything's wrong
You're keeping me strong
Help me to stay by Your side, I don't have to hide
I'll live You on the outside
Help me to always be true, I'm carried by You
I know You'll see me through

Help me, help me, help me
'Cause all I need is You


To all AN Zone youth, HUAT AH!
To all Ukida members, HO SAY AH!

"Why are we so proooo?"
*Clap clap clap clap!
"I also dunnoooo!"
*Clap clap clap clap
"UKIDA!"

One cheer that made me ROFLMAOLOL...thanks to Thad's Idea:

Weeeee..will..
Crush you like a toufu,
Using our kungfu!

(Influenced by kungfu panda, speaking of which, I wanna watch! lol)

Thad's version:

Weeeee..will..
Crush you like a kungfu,
Using our toufu!
*Reverses actions. LOL!

HAHAHAHA!

Song, Prayer

The song on the esnips player is manual (autoplay doesnt work for some reason). =/

What is prayer to you?

God is always answering prayers,
Its just that sometimes we fail to hear.

We can be so focused on asking,
And yet not receiving.

We can ask for this and that,
And yet after talking to God,
We wonder away, we dont tarry, we dont wait,
We dont give God a chance to answer.

Prayer is not a monologue,
Its a dialogue.

What is fervent prayer?
What is persistent prayer?

P.U.S.H-ing. Praying Until Something Happens.

You stay there, in the presence of God, until you get your answers.

Dont have 'offline' prayer where you just leave your 'offline messages' to God.

Dont even 'prayer-sms' God. Prayer shouldnt be something mechanical.
Its good to have a list of requests to pray through,
But sometimes its even better to learn to flow with the Holy Spirit.

You're there to commune with God, not bring stacks of requests, lay it down there,
And then walk off! God is not your vending machine.

How would you like if someone you loved, treats you like that?
The person doesnt talk to you, doesnt LISTEN to you, doesnt even treat you as if you're there; as if you're invisible?

How you treat people, is how you treat God.
How you talk to people, is how you talk to God.
How you see people, is how you see God.

LOUD Camp, Ahgong

Camp's great and phenomenal. Today is day: 2/3

Its not just about the fun, or the excitement, but its really about God and about meeting new people. I, in particular liked the night time sharing session. I think its really eye-opening, it really bonds people closer together.

Also, not bad, we got an aircon room lol.

And Alvin's station on visualisation exercises really amazed me, cus, I saw the vision, right to the exact details! LOL. woot. I saw what I was wearing, what I was carrying and who I was talking to, 5 years, 10 years down the road! :O

It felt like ure being hypnotised, but yet, in a good way. Seeing yourself 5 years down the road, 10 years down the road. Really amazing stuff, first time doing a visualisation exercise lol.

Today's morning devotion was definitely a breakthrough, and it poured! Cooling! XD

Went to visit ahgong just now, tmr guitar lesson and then chionging back to sembawang. (Thats how I managed to blog btw)

Countdown to enlistment:

5 days.

Emma's going in the day after the camp. Jia you bro! You can do it! Maybe you can help my team member establish his dream: Tekong Harvest Church hahahaha OWNED! Go and rock the house (erm, I mean camp) down bro! LOL

I just wanna leave behind a really short message to those going through a tough time:

God is tougher.

Celgrp, Service, Randoms

Celgrp was great today, Tim, you did well. Im kinda surprised Wayne ended 1pm on the dot haha. Just in time for me to go for service. So after cg, rushed down to JW. I went alone of course. Sat at 3rd row from the center of the stage in front - Im just one person, whats so difficult about getting front row seats? lol.

Well, there was a miscommunication between the ushers I think.

I was supposed to sit one row behind, usher assigned me there 'cause she told me there was an empty seat, even though the seat had like, a lady's bag? O_O

So when PnW ended, and everyone had to sit down, the members in the row told me that my seat belonged to a choir member. So...now what? What do ushers do in this kind of scenario where I had to stand and attract the attention of the entire hall who is sitting down?

And members, its YOUR responsibility to let the usher know if there are choir members, the exact numbers, etc. Take initiative, like ps said, dont be a consumer christian! And ushers, dont neglect basic communication. Who knows? Maybe someone was allocated to that row the same time as me? Just that the other person, came in from the other end of the row?

And so..after awhile, they finally realised, "Oh theres a seat in front.." and so I moved up. I wasnt pissed or anything, I knew they were doing their best to serve the people, and Im thankful for that, but please do not neglect the little details.

And you know what? It was a child from childrens church that actually bothered to tell me, "Sorry excuse me, but that seat belongs to my mummy, she's in the choir, on the stage."

That came from the mouth of a 8-10 year old.

Indeed God uses the little things to put to shame the things which are mighty. If you dont wanna take initiative to serve, to avail yourself, to be involved, a participator and not just a spectator, God can always find someone else.

He's not looking for talented people.
He's looking for the available.

Service was good. Looks like I wont be blogging the notes today. Gotta pray later. 21-day prayer chain starts today. LOUD camp is a few hours from now. And I still have to go jogging later. Ill prob end up having 3-hours of sleep.

Sometimes, I would go for a jog, and then after that, walk around the empty park/street, to pray. I can pray as loud as I want, in tongues, and nobody would be around. It kinda gives me the freedom and the boldness to really pray and engage God.

Thats why sometimes my jogging session will take about 1.5hours - 2 hours at times. Not because I run slow, but because I like walking at night, by the roadside, all by myself, enjoying the night breeze, the quietness and just being in a place of solitude.

Anyone can join me if you find it hard to pray at home. I will make sure you pray a storm! ;) Haha.

Praying in 2s and 3s is better too. =)

After service went to JP KFC to meet cg. Ate there, laughed at ryman then went home lol.

Incoming rant alert! =P (R21)

Im a very nice person, haha when this thing happened I just sat there and smiled. But here? Nooooo haha, my lameness is taking over. lol.

There was this female KFC staff who came by our table.

"Hello?...Hello...Hello!"
*All of us turns our heads.
"No playing of cards here ah!"
*All of us..Huh?

Ryman was showing us his 'magic trick' using pamela's "Overgrown" poker card set.

And that lady sounded like its her wrong month or something, which I think it is. And she was like raising her voice as if the chicken that we ate was her mum or her child or something. O_O

You know what she said? "Ahhh..we have rules here ah..keep your cards! We have rules here."

Seriously, I wanted to turn and say, "Oh hello..". I mean, if someone says hello to you, you say hello back right? I mean, seriously, I almost did that (told you I was born lame and I didnt even know it, ask me about my PSLE mock exam close passage, lol..you can ask pam or thad what my answers were, I think they forgot too, nvm Ill blog it next time, or if ure too excited, PM me haha.)

I didnt even know she was referring to the poker card. I thought she was talking to the cards or something..maybe a parrot will pop out or something?

Come on! Its an overgrown poker card, not some demonic talisman that we're gonna stick on your head right?

Ohhh, so what? Next time I wear a tshirt with a poker face on it ok?

"Please take off your shirt. We have rules here! No poker cards..erm, I mean shirt!"
*Takes off shirt.

"Oi!!! Boy!!! Why your jeans got poker face? Take off your jeans, we have rules here!"
*Takes off jeans.

"To hell with you..your underwear also got hearts one ah? Take it off too! We have rules here!"
*Takes off underwear...*shake shake shake.

"Wa lao eh, your down there also got spade tatoo ah?"
O_O Come on. You may be from venus but this is earth!

You want that huh? Thou shall not tempt the Cold One.

She should be glad I didnt open my mouth and shoot off. Told you Im a nice person. Yeah, for that scenario, Im the majority 96% of customers who walk off without even bothering to complain.

Waste my time, energy and saliva only. Next time go JP KFC, must remember to bring a club/heart/diamond/spade talisman. Must be careful of the 'predator'. "Ahhhh spade! Noooo its killing me..ahhhhhh!" *Manifests.

You got poker demon inside of you isit?

Next time I dont call Mike Connell okay?

I call Heart Connell. Come and deal with your heart.
You want Club Connell also can. Put you into Hougang Club.
Spade Connell also can, bury you with a spade.
Diamond Connell also can, give you diamonds as an early condolence in the event you die after seeing the next poker card.

When Im quiet, please dont wish Id talk more.
When I start talking, please dont tell me to stop.

Join the army, be decisive!

Huh!?! O_O.

Ministry

Ministry was great. Serving God is never tiring.

It isnt, it shouldnt be.
To love is to serve.

Jesus is the ultimate example.

CG later, and service. Back to today,

I was literally standing since 2pm lol. Standing and walking around. Thanks amelia for helping out haha..even though its only one room. And Ngai Kay, you did great too.

Almost every week, its like we have more and more SOTs coming in lol..teaching people and getting to meet new people from overseas who have come for our bible school, and chatting with them, its just such an eye-opening experience for me,

Im tired and worn out. My emotions have been getting the best of me lately, because of things that are happening.

Im glad Im fine today. Ill most likely be posting sermon notes later in the afternoon or evening.

As I took my train ride home, this song kept on ringing in my head. I just thought of something...

People say:
"You go to church every week, and almost every week you're serving, how do you survive?"

Well..I say this:
"You dont go to church, you're unplugged, how do you survive?"