Shinkenger Ep 34 Subbed

Its been a long time since I teared while watching Sentai, this is the best series ever!

You can download the subs at http://www.tvnihon.com

Overnight PM (Notes)

It was awesome! Great encounter, as always! =)

Here are just some of my notes:

A true disciple takes on the nature of the discipler,
To do the work of the discipler.

What does it mean to have the DNA of Ps Kong, of CHC?
DNA simply means:

Disciples, Not Attendees!

You will only follow those whom you want to be like.

Whoever or whatever you are following, that is what you want to be, PERIOD!

A true discipler presses into the lives of his/her disciples.

Jesus pressed in! He knew every single detail there is to know.

Just look at how Ps Kong fellowships, he doesnt just meet up people to have a good time, he presses into their lives and bother to find out every detail in their lives!

A true disciple positions himself for correction.

The disciple who received the most harsh correction was Peter(Simon) himself.
After Jessu was transfigured, Peter told Jesus that He must not die, that all these things will not happen to Him.

Guess what was Jesus' response?
"Get behind me, SATAN! For you are a STUMBLING BLOCK! For you are only mindful about your own interests and not the interests of the Kingdom!"

Imagine if Jesus were to call you the DEVIL! A STUMBLING BLOCK! Not from your cgl, not from your pastor, but from JESUS HIMSELF! How would you react? Will it make you or break you?

Your ability to progress, your ability to bounce back, is determined by your ability to repent!

True disciples are quick to figure out the mistakes, the errors in their life and correct it. They do not get stuck for a long time!

What is repentance?

Repentance is simply taking God's side, against OURSELVES!

Whether a person truly loves God or not, cannot be hidden by an outward facade of 'holiness' or spirituality. Eventually, everything will surface. You go to church just for the friends, the blessings of God, the 'financial and business strategies' and not really for the Blesser, and you think no one knows. But God WILL one day expose all things publicly.

There will come a time where not just you, but everyone around you will know, that deep down, you are one of them, one of the world, you belong to the kingdom of Satan and not of the kingdom of God. In the last days, God will separate the righteous from the unrighteous.

If God wants to know what type of ground you are, He simply needs to send a storm to blow away all the outer surfaces of your life!

There's a verse that says: Perfect love casts out fear.

Love is light.
Fear is darkness.
Therefore, PERFECT LIGHT (The fear of the Lord), casts out DARKNESS!

How do you know if you have the fear of the Lord?

When like God, you CANNOT STAND a single inch of sin!
You cannot stand a single LIE!
You begin to love what God loves, and hate what God hates!

If you can 'tolerate' or 'bear with sin', then you have not really have the fear, the reverance and respect of God.

Rants (Caution)

Until girls realize they are born with 'attractive powers' and not men, they will always quarrel over love, relationships and judge males.

Guys work, sweat, get dirt all over them, they dont attract and hardly appear on ads doing grooves. Knowledge is power. If you have no knowledge you will be POWERLESS!

If Steven Lim were to parade in his swimming trunks, even gays get turned off.
(His body looks great, no offense)

So dont blame guys for being attracted to something attractive. Next time you cry at a comedy ok? Or when you witness a crying scene, you start laughing ok? Maybe you can also try drinking some noodles or eat some soup! USE YOUR BRAIN!

Dont be NAIVE, SIMPLETON, and nothing more than a BRAINLESS BEAUTY!

And dont say beauty is shallow. Whats on the inside will show on the outside. If you're not as good as you look, it shows that you're fake, you're not genuine and you failed the mark!

Resisting Temptation; Turn Offs Hahaha

I discovered a great way to resist temptation. Shout at satan: YOU SHUT UP! GET LOST! AND GO BURN IN YOUR OWN FIRE!

For me, it worked, instantly! I was like WHOA! POWER!

LOL. Truth is light, and where light is, darkness has to flee. What truth is there in rebuking the devil that causes him to flee? The fact that you expose him as the one who steals, kills and destroys!

Many times we get tempted, we look at ourselves.
Many times people fight, they look at each other.
Many times we face a crisis, we look at the situation.

WE HAVE TOTALLY FORGOTTEN ABOUT THE DEVIL!

Where is he? He is hiding! He's a coward, a HUMJI! But a very clever one too! LOL. Dont be deceived, if you wanna get angry, get angry at him! Everytime we suffer, all he does is to vanish into the wallpaper and enjoy us getting destroyed. What a saddist!

Of course, dont go round shouting hahaha.

I was reading Matthew 23 today and I saw it in a different light today.

If you think I complain a lot and rant a lot, you havent seen Jesus! LOL. Just read the chapter. The entire chapter is Jesus rebuking the pharisees. Woe to you! Woe to you! Woe to you! Woe here, woe there! Curse here, curse there!

After He finished 'woe'ing them, He starts calling them brood of vipers! Snakes! Blind guides! Sons of murderers! A wicked and perverted generation! Etc.

Haha we know may know Jesus' heart and mind, but He really has an interesting PERSONALITY! LOL.

Imagine one day you go heaven, you say in a soft gentle voice, because you paiseh, "Jesus, Im so glad to see you..." And He goes, "YOU! WHY THAT TIME YOU PRAY TO ME YOU NEVER BELIEVE? Huh? Huh? Huh?" And he starts stroking your head. HAHAHA. Ok Im kidding. HAHA!

Man!

I thought Jesus was cool all along but He's still human, He has an 'attitude' sometimes.

God gets turned off too!

Sometimes when people came to Jesus to be healed, He didnt heal ALL of them, though He healed MOST of them. Sometimes He would just walk past. There was even once Jesus turned to a woman and said, "It is not good to feed the food from the table to DOGS!"

Can you believe it? If you were the woman and you were asking for healing, how would you have reacted? Yet nevertheless, He had compassion for those who were in need. And He responds to faith!

You thought Jesus is VERY COOL. Wait till you're His disciple. Many occasions the disciples merely asked for a question, and they got rebuked for their lack of faith and understanding. Like...what did they ever do to Him? :O Sometimes I pity the disciples also haha.

Nevertheless, despite being discipled over and over again, they still followed Jesus. It shows one thing, they were TEACHABLE. They can take scolding!

When they dozed off while Jesus was praying, they got rebuked again! What! Cant you even watch with Me for an hour?

How many of us ever failed to pray? We all have. Yet sometimes, we take God's goodness for granted. God is SLOW to anger, does it mean He doesnt have anger? No. He's just holding it. So...the next time we screw up, and God keeps silent. Please be smart, start repenting and do the right thing before God really says something! :DD HAHA.

Sometimes I find Jesus funny and at times sarcastic, I mean, poor pharisees, they came with a question and Jesus 'guai-lan-ed' them with a PARABLE. In the end, everyone got lost and confused, no one said a thing, and He walked off! LOL! BEST!

So please, its okay to ask God questions, just dont be RIDICULOUS or ask stupid questions.

Its like.."Oh God, Im so angry, Im so upset, I really dont feel like forgiving the person..." You complain to God. And you realize...He's silent. Then later you realize, you worried for nothing.

Another person goes.."Oh God, Im so upset and angry, I really hate him, God, please give me the strength and the power to forgive, better still, make him turn to You." And God is like: "Gooooooood! YOU ARE WISEEE! You asked for a good thing! Let it be to you!"

HAHAHAHA...

Sometimes, we even may God repeat Himself. "Oh God, I feel so poor, how am I gonna prosper?" God keeps silent. You think its a period of testing, but the answer is right on your shelf...THE BIBLE. "Give and it shall be given to you, good measured, pressed down, shaken together and running over, shall MAN add to your bosom.."

And you just sit there wallow in self pity. No wonder God doesnt say anything!

The answer is so obvious! Its like God saying:

Hello! You want a word from God? You already have the WORD OF GOD and you still ask for the WORD FROM GOD? What is the bible for! Do you understand the meaning of WORD OF GOD? Cant read english? Never mind, I have mandarin bible, korean bible, japanese bible, which one you want? Even BILINGUAL BIBLE, I also have! LOL!

If we were His disciples back then, we are sure gonna get whacked on our heads!

Of course there are times He gives us His rhema. But like we always hear, its not a religion, its a relationship, you have to build that closeness. =)

When we were babes, God treats us like one, but when we have grown up, lets have a backbone of steel! =)

When the storm was raging on the boat, JESUS WAS SLEEPING! So...please, God is with you, greater is He who is in you than He who is in the world, dont go and "Oh NO! God, IM GONNA DIE...how how how?"

Many times we talk like that, God keeps silent. Why? You wanna fast forward the story to when the disciples tried to wake Jesus up? What was His response? Hahaha. You want Him to reply you like that? =D No right? Sooooo..breathe in, breathe out....have some faith! :)

Before we make a stupid statement, imagine Jesus' eyeballs large, staring at you, waiting for you to say that negative thing and then He will..."Tell you a bedtime story" hahahaha.

We have the answer to every problem. If God is calm, then we have no reason to panic. Soo, the next time we wanna complain or grumble, dont wait until God sends you an anonymous email containing a PARABLE! HAHAHA. =D

God may be nice and funny sometimes, but He sure is serious! ;)

Yes we will fall, but pick yourself up!
Yes we may not understand, but be open and teachable!
Yes we may be depressed and may need to vent our emotions out or share it with God, He listens, just dont stay depressed or go so extreme until it becomes annoying :D

Thirst, Living Water

"I am the living water. He who drinks from Me shall never thirst again..."

What you are thirsting for?

Money? Love? Fun? Excitement? Breakthrough? Good grades?

Whatever you are thirsting for, as long as the fact remains that you still thirst, you have not really drank from God.

You have not come to a place where God alone is enough.

He is still a "+1" in your life.

True Worshippers - Testimony (Long Post)

Ever since I went for double service last week, even though Ive heard e sermon before, but I went there just to be with God, to linger, and to worship Him, things began to change within 24hrs.

1. I got to have a taste of what its like to sit among leaders during the service.

Yes, I sat on the second row, right behind pst. The environment is totally different. The people really engage, which I feel we all should improve on.

2. I passed my shooting even though I failed.

Passing marks is 60. I got 60. But 4 of the shots werent mine. My gun jammed 4 times, and each time, the instructor (marksman) fired off that spare round for me. All 4 times, his shots were so precise they look like 4 dots in a straight line. :O

Back then in basic training, I passed also because of an instructor's shot. My finger was small and weak + I had injured it after firing non-stop for 32 hours (2x4 hrs a day, 4 days). So I passed and qualified for an additional $100 operational allowance for my posting...when in actual fact, I was suppose to fail. Haha.

Indeed God is good. lol. I could walk around with a gun, doesnt really mean alot cus it was Him who made me look good. Even though I failed, but because I put Him first, He turned my failure into something good! Not once, but twice!

3. Unexplained Cyberactive membership discount.

Haha...my previous post, $47 instead of $50 when Im not a member :O Dunno why, dunno how.

4. Stronger friendships and the end of my season of testing.

Ive been going through an emotional rollercoaster for the past 1-2 months, it was only after I put worship first, that within 24hrs, everything seemed to take a turn. I may not be fully out of the furnace yet, but things are certainly changing.

Even though similar situations are surfacing, yet the one who is IN it, is not so similar anymore. ;) God has always believed in us and knew our potential more than we even know ourselves.

When we were young, God treated us like babes. He spoonfed us, He told us what is right and wrong, He pampered us with His encounters, His revelation and anointing, etc.

But as we grow older, He though we are still children in His eyes, He treats us like an adult. He no longer tells us what is right what is wrong. Everything is given to us, His Word, the Bible. The power of prayer. He wants US to do the seeking, to humble OURSELVES, to renew our minds, to thirst and hunger after Him.

Yes, the obvious wrongs, He will prompt us, but for small issues, like friendships and relationships, career/educational choices, etc. He expects you to hunger for the gift of discernment. Not all the time He will tell us who is right, who is wrong, is he the one, is she the one, why am I stuck, why is there no breakthrough, etc.

If Jesus is gonna sleep THROUGHOUT the storm, what will we do then? Are we gonna continue to grumble and complain about being stuck when we already have the answer within our grasp?

When we have to crawl, He is there to help us. But babies have to learn to WALK. Even then, we are still babies! A grown up person takes responsibility and ownership over his/her own life.

Thats why God is so 'bu ke qi' when He casts us into the furnace to be purified.
You will never learn to swim unless you are placed in the water.

Even Jesus learned obedience by the things He suffered. God gives permission to certain things, not to break us, but to really stand by us and see what we would do, how we would handle the situation. Have we really grown up? Etc.

Yes, it hurts Him, so...if we really love God and if we are really smart, we would do our best to avoid having to force God to 'disciple' us. You got to learn to disciple yourself. Everything is already provided.

Learn to ask correctly,
Learn to receive by faith,
And learn to act accordingly.

We make mistakes, yet we cant blame God for not 'shielding' us. We are grown ups now, we can rationalize, we can think for ourselves, and we have the power to make decisions, dont blame God for what He didnt do, 'IT IS FINISHED!'. We only have ourselves to blame.

God WILL prevent us from being burnt to death,
But He may not always shield us from getting burned at all.

He will not let us die, but He may permit us to suffer.

Thats just how life is. If we have to learn things the hardway, He will do it. So dont wait until God does something then we learn, then we wake up our idea!

The children of Israel built the golden calf, the grumbled to God. So God told Moses, since they want the promise land so much, He will send an angel to destroy the enemies of Canaan, BUT...His presence wont go with them!

I liked what Ps Tan said in S4...

"Dont show attitude to God. You think God cannot show His 'attitude' to you as well?" :)

Repentance is a 180 degree change in thinking.
And walking down the right path.

If we are gonna face the wall, then forever you are going to bang into it!

The Orange Box

Half-Life 2, HL2 Episode 1, HL2 Episode 2, HL2 Lost Coast...This is soo gonna take a LONG time to finish playing haha. Finally something to occupy my time :x

Im getting bored of my games.

I bought this original...$50 bucks, cyberactive membership $47. When I paid NETS, the receipt put $47, and Im NOT a Cyberactive member hahaha. So, how I ended up paying it for a membership price? Only God knows and I like to keep it that way :D LOL.

And for a guy who hates using Steam Engine (required to run the game), I finally have my official steam account and ORIGINAL games lol.

Which means, I can officially start my online gaming spreee! LOL. But of course, shooting first :S Tmr is my re-test. :x

Arrgh...small hands, GROW IN JESUS NAME! :O

Total Abandonment, Job, Thoughts.

True love is not possessing a person or experiencing emotional gain from someone, it is to serve, to give unconditionally to, and to show respect and love, back to the one who first loved you and who's truly committed to you.

Ive been reflecting a lot ever since the message of Job started 2-3 weeks ago...

Thats what love is all about. And since love = God, that's what God is all about.
God giving His life for us, FIRST, then we worshipping Him.

Whenever we get stuck, WWJD.

All we need to do, is to follow the perfect example that has already been set for us, that which has a guarantee, and that example is Jesus Christ Himself, the Word, becoming flesh.

If it worked for Him, it will work for us. Thats what faith is all about.
It is not seeing to believe, but believing to see.

Anyway, I came across this comment on PKong's profile...

A true leader has the confidence to stand alone, the courage to make tough decisions, and the compassion to listen to the needs of others. He does not set out to be a leader, but becomes one by the quality of his actions and the integrity of his intent.

S2...Later going for S4...=)

Sermon was great. Haha, to think it was so coincidental with my 2nd previous blog entry, about why I go double services.

Yea, its not just about the ministry, or the sermon, those are important. But to me, as long as Ive not spent that intimate moment with God, as long as Ive not truly worshipped, as long as Ive not truly prayed, I wanna go extra, just to be there, just to linger in His presence, just to be there, like a hopeless romantic, deeply in love...

Even more so, for those who dont do their quiet time regularly or always procrastinate, this is the easiest way to make it up to God...that is, if you even bother to...

Its not about what sermon he will preach, its not about who is preaching or where the service is at, its about loving God, and being a true worshipper. Just being there. Im sure as long as you give room for God to speak, you WILL receive a word for your life no matter what.

Ask and it shall be given, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened.

Spiritual hunger...simple basics your life has to be built upon. More than that, it has helped me to cultivate self-discipline in the area of spiritual things.

What do you really need today?
If it will disappear on the Day of the Lord, then whats next?

The question I will leave is:
How will your eternity be like?

An idol is not just an image or a figure, it is anything that takes the place of God.

If you wanna leave God because of a person, that person is your idol.
If you wanna leave God because of a passion, that passion is your idol.
If you wanna leave God because of a situation, that situation is your idol.
Etc...

It's not about ''what's best?'',
It's about "what's God?"

Random Crap

How do you know if singing is painful? When people go, "OWWWWWW!" LOL!

Obedience

Obedience is not just a right attitude, the right thoughts, or the right motives.
At the end of the day, its whether HAVE YOU ACTUALLY DONE IT OR NOT?

God isnt just gonna ask, "Who have you become?"
He is gonna ask, "What have you done?"

Why I go for service twice.

There are times when I serve, I get to catch 'most' of the sermons, cus Im on comms all the way and those on comm sets, whatever your ministry, you will know how its like. Distractions, annoyances and all.

People ask me, why do I go for a second service then?

Just put it this way.

Its not about whether I have caught the sermon while serving or not, its about whether have you fully devoted yourself to spend that 2hrs with God, undistracted, focused, or not.

How would you like if you went on a date, and all your date does is to talk on the phone and SMS? Not only is that disrespectful and downright rude, it simply shows he/she cant be bothered! And his/her heart is not in it.

Im sure God will understand, but is that how you move in a relationship?
Is that how deep your love can go? Is that how strong your commitment is?
Ps talked about loyalty a few weeks ago. Have we forgotten about it?
We heard it but we failed to do it?

How you treat people is how you treat God.

Do you get distracted all the time?

You can serve and yet neglect others, you cant walk and chew gum at the same time. As long as you are occupied, you simply cant be bothered with others. Its all about you, all about your ministry, all about what you want, etc.

You dont reply smses, you dont answer calls, you dont even bother to call back...even if its your own CGL. Why? Oh, because you are doing something. Like everyone else is doing nothing?

Stop giving excuses and start taking ownership and responsibility.

If we love a perfect person like that,
I feel sorry for all your other relationships.

I dont wanna sound as if Im imposing anything,
You have the power to decide the measure of your love.

God = Love

This is a 2-3 word revelation, yet it is so important and vital.

Love is unconditional.
God is unconditional.

Love gives.
God gives.

Love forgives.
God forgives.

Love serves.
God serves.

Love is not proud.
God is not proud.

Love is not rude.
God is not rude.

No God = No love.

The devil has come to steal, to kill, and to destroy.

If love steals, if love takes,
Then your 'God' is none other than Satan himself.

If love gossips, if love judges,
Then your 'God' is none other than Satan himself.
If love hurts, if love kills,
Then your 'God' is none other than Satan himself.

If love benefits self,
Then your 'God' is none other than Satan himself.

The extent God is real to you, is the extent love will be real to you.

The more you sow to God, the more you sow to love.
If God is love, then every 'love' word in the bible, replace it with 'God'.

Greater love has none than this, than for one to lay down His life for His friends.
Greater God has no other than this, than for Him to lay down His life for His friends.

Love will see you through.
God will see you through.

Love overcomes all.
God overcomes all.

Love encourages.
God encourages.

Love is the assurance that everything will be alright.
God is the assurance that everything will be alright.

The more we try to make things work,
The more God cannot.

Jogging? Running?

Your 34 year old pastor just ran 14km in 2 days. Come on Andrew, MOVE YOUR BUTT! :S

Not Seeking, But Being

As christians,

You should be happy and not seeking happiness.
You should be excited and not seeking excitement.
You should be having the time of your life and not seeking the high of life.
You should be prosperous and not seeking prosperity.
You should be blessed and not seeking blessing.
You should be loved and not seeking love.
You should be peaceful and not seeking peace.
You should be celebrating and not seeking celebration.
You should be praising and not seeking praise.
You should be praying and not seeking a time to pray.
You should be changing the world and not just seeking change.

While the pagans and the world go after these things,

Those who have come to a place of maturity will realize that those who seek His Kingdom first and all His righteousness, all these things WILL be added to him.

If you're still in lack and seeking things instead of already having them, then ask yourself, have you fulfilled the 'first condition' of seeking His kingdom and His righteousness first?

Dont remain a baby christian that needs to be fed all the time.

Acid Reflux

Woke up in the middle of the night around 3am with Acid Reflux and chestburn.

Super painnnn...feel like smashing my ribs :(

Common Sense

Its one thing to have a bad friend, its another thing to be even more dumb to make the wrong friends. It simply goes to show you are rash, immature, impulsive, self-centred and lacking wisdom. If you cant manage your relationships, how are you going to manage your future? Its like you buying a luxurious condo but without a toilet!

Change will only happen, when change has happened.

Book Of Revelation - Him Who Overcomes

Revelation 2:7

He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To him who overcomes, I will give the right to eat from the tree of life, which is in the paradise of God.

Revelation 2:11

He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. He who overcomes will not be hurt at all by the second death.

Revelation 2:17

He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To him who overcomes, I will give some of the hidden manna. I will also give him a white stone with a new name written on it, known only to him who receives it.

Revelation 2:26-29

To him who overcomes and does my will to the end, I will give authority over the nations -- 'He will rule them with an iron scepter; he will dash them to pieces like pottery' --

Just as I have received authority from my Father.

I will also give him the morning star.

He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches.

Revelation 3:5

He who overcomes will, like them, be dressed in white. I will never blot out his name from the book of life, but will acknowledge his name before my Father and his angels.

Revelation 3:12

Him who overcomes I will make a pillar in the temple of my God. Never again will he leave it. I will write on him the name of my God and the name of the city of my God, the new Jerusalem, which is coming down out of heaven from my God; and I will also write on him my new name.

Revelation 3:21

To him who overcomes, I will give the right to sit with me on my throne, just as I overcame and sat down with my Father on his throne.

Having done all, STAND!
Dont just endure, OVERCOME!

Short

Sufferings, sicknesses, depressions is not always related to a lack of faith or a poor attitude!

Yes God doesnt not tempt, bring sickness, or discourage people,
Yet, nothing bad happens without God's permission.

Look at all the great leaders who have suffered for the Kingdom, you dare say they are negative? Lack of faith? Poor attitude? Sin?
Dont be a person of nonsense. lol.

Memorable Sunday [Long Post!]

The typical sunday, what would I do?
If Im serving on saturday, Ill go for make up service.

Today, I volunteered to accompany Zen for service.
Its so amazing how in the same message alone, you can receive a different revelation.

There's no such thing as same sermons, only the same God who works differently through the most mundane, boring things, through common grace..in fact, you wont really know how God moves, you just gotta flow with Him.

So after service, I met up with a friend of mine. Initially, we intended to shop for her rabbit food and then maybe have lunch and Ill go home after that.

I guess...with God in the center, things turned out way differently than I expected.

While shopping for the pet food, more than just a large packet of food, there was also a whole new cage, and another large packet of grass bedding for the cage. So there were lots of things to carry, and it was exciting, in a way, cus Ive never carried a cage before lol.

I dont raise pets, I never touched a cage in my entire life, okay, maybe except hamster cages or bird cages when I played with my relatives' pets.

Btw, mushroom swiss tendergrill is like the THIRD HEAVEN!!!! LOL!!! SUPER NICE.

Anyway, seeing the load of things someone had to carry, I felt convicted and moved, my heart just melted, so I offered to accompany her to carry the stuffs to her grandma's house.

Then again, the hassle of entering and exiting the trains, walking with the items from stations and bus stops, came to my mind and I said, its okay, we'll just cab down straight to her grandma's house..itll be more convenient that way...and then I offered to pay for the cab fare as well, of course, she got shocked and said I was very scary haha.

Cus I looked perfectly normal haha. I always do, even when Im sad or stressed, I still look the same, as if my face is photocopied LOL.

So from boonlay, we cabbed to this place near Paya Lebar. I thought, we would go up, put down the things and thats it.

This is my first, if not second time, Im face to face with a great grandmother, her great grandmother, over a hundred years old! Im so amazed, at the same time Im so moved. The house was small, but very packed with things. So much so that theres hardly any space for 2 people to move about at the same time...

My heart was just so moved with compassion, and there was my friend, setting up the cage, so I offered to help, afterall I couldnt let a friend, especially a girl, do all the work. I told myself, Im gonna set up the cage even though I dont know how.

After a few silly mistakes, and funny moments of me figuring out how to put the 'joints' together lol, we finally finished the cage. So funny, I was the one who volunteered to help, end up Im the one who doesnt know haha.."act like only'', but I guess everything went well.

And then when her ahma bent down to pick something up, I got panicked and scared so I also helped clear up the place.

The rabbits were cute haha. I dunno why but animals seem to be calm around me. Not just the rabbits, my neighbour used to have a dog, and a very noisy one...the one some of you know that barks at 2am to disturb my sleep lol. Even when my cg came over to my place for cg, it will bark at everyone but somehow, everytime I show my face. I will just keep quiet and stare at me with that blurblur look in its eyes.

Another time, my ex-member came over to my place to do recording, she brought along her sister and their pet dog. Even her sister told me, 'how come my dog so guai in front of you ah? she likes you ah?' haha. Well, I dont know myself, what makes me attractive to animals, her dog loved to sleep on my lap.

Btw, the rabbits were female, my neighbour's dog was female, and my ex-member's sister's dog was female. AHAH. Dont ask why, I cant answer that question either! =X

Im not being haolian or what haha, Im not saying what I feel, Im saying what has happened lol. I would seriously wanna know what makes me attractive to animals, especially females. :S

Anyway, back to the cage..

After the cage was setup and the rabbits transferred. My friend went to help her ahma wash the cage. Again, my heart melted and felt so convicted, I offered to help clean the cage. In the midst, I saw her cleaning the rabbit poo, I freaked out and panicked again, so I took over.

And for the first time in my life...there I was, in my tshirt and jeans, washing the cage frames and then, using my hands for the first time, picking up the entire newspaper soaked in urine and poo and disposed it in a bag.

I must say thats e most daring thing Ive done LOL...=/

Of course my hands smelt, I felt so anointed I wanted to lay hands haha. It was already 7 plus at night. After that, I washed my hands, cleaned up and left for home.

I must say that after everything, I was just overwhelmed with emotions.

I began to thank God for the life He has given to me, I saw the living conditions and I was just so moved, I almost cried. And here we are, with all the blessings of a decent life and we take things for granted.

Ive always wanted to know how having a sister felt like. My childhood was one of violence and anger and depression. But I believe God has brought me through the lowest areas in life to make me appreciate the things I have now and to serve others.

Just interacting with her ahma even though I dont understand her language, was enough for me, all throughout, I was just so moved and touched. I began to feel such a greater compassion and burden for people.

It felt like family bonding to me. Even though I was grabbing soaked urine and poo, deep down, I was satisfied, I felt as if my world was complete. The longing to give, to be a blessing, I just felt so happy deep down.

If you cant bear to wash the feet of others, at least offer to make someone's life easier and happier. Even when we were waiting for the cab, I could only pay by NETS.

And I made a mistake by entering a taxi queue, cus I dont get to select the cab I wanna take, in a way, and itll be so embarrassing and troublesome if a cab came but I couldnt pay, then let others board first, etc.

But I swore to my own hurt and trusted God...true enough, a comfortable Comfort Sonata came and it offered NETS payment.

And if you wanna do something, then do it all the way, even if you dont know, at least try your best. Dont be double minded, keep your word, go the extra mile, these are things we learnt and even more so if you are a MALE!

A mature believer is someone with a thick skin, but a heart so thin God can touch.
A heart so thin you can sympathise with others,
Feel their emotions and understand their pain.

Dont just think about yourself all the time.
Yes, I have my dark days of depression, now I know its okay, because Job experienced far worse than me, and every great leader, has their own devils. I realized, if its not sickness, its depression.

Just like what ps kong says, next time you see someone sick, you see someone depressed, dont be quick to judge and condemn and discourage. Dont just tell them, 'ohh its okay, just keep praying, just keep confessing the word, just keep staying positive', it doesnt work all the time!

What people need is strength, not words.
Love, not judgement.
Peace, not confusion.
A ear, not a mouth.
A heart, not a brain.

Jesus didnt just heal the sick with words, but He HEALED them. He didnt just deliver the oppressed by saying 'God bless you', but He delivered them. Wherever the people were in need, Jesus was PHYSICALLY present, during bible times. In the present day, we have His Holy Spirit and His presence. Once again, its all about the presence.

You can have a dynamic preacher that is awe-inspiring and use complicated jargons, yet if there's no tangible love that can be felt, no presence, what good is the sermon? It has NO POWER to change lives!

Gossippers, people who criticise, people who discourage, judge and condemn, YOU ARE DOING THE DEVIL'S WORK FOR HIM!

Suffering for the Kingdom is a privilege, if your life is so-so, or okay or blissful, then sad to say, you dont qualify to join the higher ranks of the Kingdom.

Count it all joy, when you go through trials and tribulations.

To those who go through depression, I am the 'king of depression' lol..I climbed out of my depression on my own all the time, by God's grace of course.

I never had anyone give me a shoulder to cry on, or anyone who set aside time to spend time with me or listen to me, even some people think Im ranting or being negative and they cant be bothered, in fact, whenever I go emo, people tend to avoid me. Yet, I trust in God and I kept on keeping on!

If I can do it, so can you.

Dont ask why, no need for explanations, just trust and obey, for there's no other way.

Greater love has none than this, than for one to lay down his life for his friends.
"My body broken for you" says the LORD.

Sufferings

Sufferings are not an indication of something bad,
They are indications that you have come to the next level.
Or...indications that you have come to the last lap of your current level.

What is 1 month of suffering and endurance worth, compared to the rewards you will receive? Compared to an ETERNITY of joy? Its nothing.

Infinity / Anything < infinity = Nothing>

Not everyone can be persecuted, not everyone can go through sufferings the way the higher ranks of Jesus' disciples went through, but be glad that God even bother about us! Because He loves us.

Having gone through the fire, Im beginning to see the rewards.
It didnt take long. Your capacity to endure through the suffering is more 'crucial' to God, than the brokenness you will experience afterwards, because He knows the steps that you take. Every move, every decision, He knows, He's there and He sees you.

And based on that, He will determine whether to prolong it, or end it. If you fail a test, you just have to go for a 're-test' until you pass. You may end up getting stuck.

If a pot is deformed, we dont destroy it, we just put it in the fire again and let it melt once more. If gold is not purified, its gonna remain in the furnace until it does. And since God said He will complete the work He has started in you, He will do it.

Your suffering can be a blessing.

God never wastes a painful experience.

Somewhere out there, there is always someone who is going through the same thing. That person may be praying for a breakthrough, and God may not send the breakthrough directly. Instead He chooses to send you, at the cost...of yourself, as...the breakthrough, someone who understands.

Your body, broken for others.

When we suffer for something we never done, for something we dont deserve, for something we didnt intend to happen, you become a reflection of God's life. Its only during that time, we can truly say, 'its no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. That the life we now live, we live by faith in the Son of God...'

Only when your life is similar to Jesus' life, and He controls it fully, not us, that's when we know our lives will be counted worthy of the calling.

As pastor always says, keep on keeping on. Keep on praying, keep on reading the Word, keep on showing up, keep on committing, keep on fighting.

Just because Jesus died, He did not stop being God.

If a man can remain God in the midst of death, then there's hope for us all. We just need to remain true, in the midst of IMPERFECTION. The gap isnt really very big. We just need to be a good son, a good daughter, in the midst of being a child...of God.

But Jesus? He has to be a right man, in the midst of being a true God!

You wanna compare the 'level of difficulty'? We will never compare up to what He went through for us. Similarly, you will go through it, for someone else.

Sufferings are not things that are 'happening'...
But things that are 'preparing'...

Believing and Loving

He who hates and does not love, does not have God, for God is love.

Dont just read what you believe,
Believe what you read.

"Highly Favored One"

"Drew...you are highly favored and have been selected to play all 5 songs..."

Just great...lol...Im so favored I feel suffocated under the favor.

Hahaha. *Breathes deeply!

You can be so busy, yet busy doing the wrong things,
Building the wrong relationships and end up building your own kingdom,
Instead of God's.

Ramblings of a Weirdo

Did my looks just changed? Cus I look totally like someone else in here. Maybe its the stress and the tired-ness in my face..:x

IPPT...failed. Its kinda disappointing when everyone's believing in me, really fighting for me and putting me up for a double promotion, telling me I can do it, encouraging me, praying for me, etc...

And all Ive done is to let everyone down...

You might think I feel okay failing it, but deep down, I dont. I have never passed it before and I would like to at least pass my 2.4km just once in my lifetime and Ill be happy. At least its worth a sense of accomplishment.

Been going on an emotional roller coaster the past few weeks, guess aging is starting to catch up with me. Im reaching 23 in less than a year's time. I must say NS has changed me, into what? I really wanna know...

Do people prefer me before NS, or after NS? Thats what Im curious about. The happy, crappy, video man is now a tired, worn out, not-enough-sleep, weirdo with random spelt all over my face. Sometimes, I wish I had someone special to share my life with.

But then again, to have someone with that capacity to share and to be apart of the life I now live, she's gotta be like 'superwoman' man. Just see how many times the devil attacks me in a day.

Especially for those who are the fairy tale, fantasy-type, you will definitely be repelled by me, cus my life is full of fights, getting your hands dirty, getting hurt, etc. If you're those type who wanna stay clean, shiny, perfect, glittery, then Im sorry, you will be disappointed.

I remembered I once talked to a friend about relational compatibility.

They say woman is a part, that is taken out of a man.
The original Adam, like God, is both male and female combined.
Just that God is predominantly male, which was why He created Adam first.
But He still thinks and feels the way a lady does.

Thick skin, but thin heart.

Just look at the angels, the descriptions of them, its hard to figure out if they're male or female dominant, they're like both combined into one.

And so, since a female compliments a male, if we breakdown our 'features', we can tell what easily 'compliments' us, or in short, the compatibility of someone of the opposite sex.

Take for example:

If I break myself down...I am...(just an estimate)

Physical: 5/10
Logical: 7/10
Emotional: 3/10
Mental: 6/10

Men are more towards the physical and logical side, whereas women have a greater mental and emotional capacity than most men.

Physical - Your physique/fitness
Logical - Analytical/Application
Emotional - Controlling of emotions, expressiveness, etc
Mental - Stress management, intuition, oversight, etc.

So based on my break down...my 'compliment' girl is:

Physical: 5/10
Logical: 3/10
Emotional: 7/10
Mental: 4/10

The 'ideal' girl is simple, average, big-hearted, a bit of the blurblur type? lol.

Now, I have to re-emphasize, this is not accurate, but its just an ILLUSTRATION on complimentary compatibility.

I really dont know what to blog about. I see my hits go up so quickly, I feel 'pressured', in a good way, to blog something at least lol.

Well, tmr is my remedial shoot...small hands..sigh, what can I do about it? lol. Just fyi, my finger cant curl round the trigger, I can only touch it with my fingerTIP. =x

Work has been routine. Everyday is kinda routine for me.

Wake up, morning PM, 'pre-work' prayer at my workplace, work, home, sleep. (x5)
Except on mon went to watch the Meatballs movie in 3D (3/5 rating for me) and celebrated Sean's 21st at city hall + clarke quay.

I wanna LAN again soon!

Sometimes its so easy to perceive a person based on what he or she is thinking.
Yet at the same time we can fail to realize how he or she is feeling.

Loyalty is the basis of friendship.
Love is not giving a person what he or she needs, not what he or she deserves.

As people become more busy, they can just forget about you.

What captures your heart captures you.

To them, you're just meant to be there when they 'need' you. I dont want to be needed, I want to be befriended. Stop treating me like a vending machine, thats probably how you treat God too right? God, heal me, God, bless me, God provide for me.

How you treat people is how you treat God.

When you're busy, you dont pray, you get distracted, and super focused on your work, on your studies, on whatever is keeping you busy. And then when you're super free, you stone, because you got nothing to focus on.

Relationship is not just about knowing, but its about pressing.

Sometimes I wonder, why do I even try so hard, if people dont even bother.
But nonetheless, for the kingdom of heaven's sake.

Ive never put so many revelational points (those in green) in one post before. I guess Im just ranting. Life still has to go on, with or without you. Im following God's pace for myself. If He asks me to move, I will move and sorry if I move on without you.

And for some people, hanging out with the wrong company.
You may be happy with a bunch of losers,
But you're still a happy loser.

You become who you follow.

I like Jaydee's FB status:
The wisdom of a fool will not set you free.

Whoa! Power man! Even I never thought of that haha.

People always tell me I should speak up more, Im trying haha. I treat life and people very seriously. Life is not for you to 'haygay haygay'.

Haha..all my sentences dun link. I think Im sleepy.

Ciao.

Wisdom

Someone who is wise,
Suffers to live,
And not live to suffer.

If rather have a hard life, and enjoy paradise in Eternity,
Than to have a happy life and have a tragic end, lost for all eternity.

Sidetrack:

Finished tagging most of the latest pics on my FB. HAHA!
I just need those from stella's cam!!!!

Ahhh...someone help me get! PREEEJAAA! LOL

Direction

The things you set your affections on will determine the direction of your life.

If you don't like where your life is heading, check your heart.

-Ps Derek Dunn

Just because you go to MacDonalds, it doesnt make you a hamburger.

Just because you go to church, it doesnt make you a christian.

Talents, gifts, looks, abilities, education, experience, etc - gets you there.

But its character that keeps you there.

Ironies haha

People do not party because they are happy,

But because they are sad and want to be happy.

What an irony on the usage of vocabulary.

True Love, True Service

To love is to give,

To love is to serve,

Therefore,

True love is found in true giving and in true serving.

Look at all the great examples in our church,

They met each other in the midst of ministry,

In the midst of working together, serving together, etc.

If you want what people have,

Do what they have done.

You will not be remembered for what you have gotten,

But for what you have given.

MacDonald MadDonald

MacDonalds at night turns me into MadDonald. :O

Total Abandonment; Randoms

The key to change, growth and maturity lies in total abandonment

And in being broken toward God.

If you're always doing the same thing,

Thinking the same way,

Speaking the same way,

Planning the same way,

Or even hanging out with the same people!

Dont expect anything to change!

God didnt say, 'Come to Me and you'll be humbled.' but He said, "You humble YOURSELVES!"

You're just being insane, doing the same things over expecting a different result.

People either draw you TO God, or AWAY from Him.

There's no double-sided, or 'fenced up' relationships.

Either you go forward, or you backslide.

But you say, I never move forward, neither did I backslide,
Im simply stuck.

First of all, you do nothing about it. You have no sense of responsibility and ownership of your own life. Talk about bad stewardship too.

Lastly, backsliding is not just moving backwards, its anything BUT moving forward!

Dont stagnate, dont become lukewarm.

Either you're hot, or you're cold, if not you will be spat out of His mouth.

Jesus said, if you love Him and you're lukewarm about it, not willing to give up wrong lifestyle, wrong relationships, wrong attitudes, then He says He'd rather you not love at all!

Rev 3 (NLT):

15 "I know all the things you do, that you are neither hot nor cold. I wish you were one or the other!

16 But since you are like lukewarm water, I will spit you out of my mouth!

The issue here is not how long will a person take to accept the Word, but its in how quick he/she obeys it!

Obedience is greater than sacrifice.

God is more interested in your character than in your comfort.

Nothing beats love more than the power of physical presence.

Just being physically and tangibly there is more powerful than any word or deed you can do.

Ill blog more about my latest happenings another time.

In the meantime, Im excited, gonna sleep early and go for morning prayer! :)

Emotional Murder

There are 3 types of murderers:

1. Those who poke

2. Those who stab

3. Those who pierce you, and slice you all over on the insides.

The Time Has Come...or is coming haha

"The time has come, to stand for all we believe in..."

And you better stand! lol.

Something big is on its way.

Gotta have faith and the capacity to break through the breakthrough.

Maybe 2-4 more years.

It takes a good disciple to make disciples.

"For He is a rewarder to those who diligently seek Him..."

Its about time, I raise up at least 1 disciple, Lord, just one.

That small faith is enough to give me the faith to push through.

I cant stand being fruitless anymore...

2 years ago God spoke a word to me,

It seemed impossible and ridiculous, but God is not ridiculous,

He just knows you better than you know yourself.

But the price is great. Most wouldnt understand.

But its okay, God is doing a work.

It's those who walk the narrow way,

Those who pick up their cross DAILY and follow Him.

Living the life that Jesus lived, these are the ones who at the 'crucifixion moments' in their life, God will say to them, "Believe Me, today you will be with me in Paradise."

We can live for our own paradise,

At the end of the day we just dont get God's paradise.

Its as simple as that.

But one lesson I learnt,

Even though things may seem one way,

You can never predict God. Never.

Our plans and schedules never work. Never.

Ill just have to wait and see, and keep going, keep fighting, though many times I feel like Im by myself, Im sure Jesus felt the same way.

No longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. My life, is a reflection of His life.

Does your life resemble people of the world, or the One whom you serve?

You become who you follow.

If you want to carry a big anointing or have a big breakthrough,

Then you have to be a big vessel yourself to contain it.

SMS :D

"Did u realise something, the way we talk sometimes we snd lk a couple.. haha.."

Awww *melts. LOL. Yeah I did.

CG Message - The Shepherd and the Sheep

I think cg was great today. Elaine's testimony was the ultimate!

Today we learnt that a good shepherd, doesnt just live for himself or herself, what he or she can gain, but for the people, for the sheep.

The shepherd knows the sheep and the sheep recognizes his/her voice.

How well do you know your leader?
How well do you know your members?

Have you come to a place where you can joke and talk crap with your leader and leader to the members? Members are you comfortable sharing things with your leader? Leaders do your members feel comfortable sharing things with you? Do you guys go out together? "Clique" together?

A good shepherd is one who is active, always engaging.
If you dont know your members it just goes to show you cant be bothered to press in.
Likewise, if you dont know your leader, you simply dont care.

You're only there for cg, for a certain group of people, for your own interests, what you can gain, good praise n worship, good sermons, good games, etc.
You're totally uninterested in spiritual things, you're not serious, and you're not sincere about growing, not sincere about changing!

Likewise is you're a leader, you can be serving the cg, and not serving the people.
To you, cg is just ministry, you're just there to grow your EXXX, WXXX, NXXX, etc.
You dont care if your members are going through a rough patch, you're just busy with your own life that things go past you unnoticed.

Cg is not just a place for you to grow, its a place for you to build godly relationships that will last for eternity. Dont just focus about winning souls all the time when you cant even win your own cg! Relationship precedes ministry.

Members dont reply the leader, the leader dont reply the members.
There's no initiative, no accountability.

You become who you follow.
Whoever follows you, ends up like you.

It has always worked this way.
So if your members are this way, that way, have you looked at yourself?
No one is perfect, yes, but we must always be careful of how we carry ourselves.
The impression we give to others, especially the new friends.

Members do you engage the new friends when they come? Or do you simply mind your own business and let others do it?

When one member is down, does everyone support him/her. Im really thankful to those who came during my grandpa's wake. It really means a lot and shows a lot. :)

A true shepherd, a true disciple takes ownership of the cg. When there are no one doing the songs, do you volunteer to do it? When no one is queueing, do you volunteer to do it? Or do you simply dont care for anyone but yourself, and take the sacrifices your own brothers and sisters have made, for granted.

Not only you take the presence of God for granted, you take His people for granted.

We are told to be faithful in 3 things:

1. Faithful in the little things.
2. Faithful in tithes and offerings.
3. Faithful in what belongs to another man.

People plan so hard for some activities, are you always those who last minute fly aeroplane? Your word is not even your bond! If you have a reasonable explanation, fair enough. Dont give excuses like, "Oh, I dont have enough sleep, I dont feel like going cg or service." Then SLEEP EARLIER!

You are being unfaithful in what belongs to another man. What is it you may say? Time, energy, effort. People make sacrifices to press into your life, you just sit back, relax, take things for granted, you say you care, but you certainly dont care enough to make him/her feel cared!

If its some recreational activity like clubbing or pool or midnight movie, etc, why not you just stop making excuses, AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT? Make adjustments in your life, dont come to a place where you let things come between you and God, then it just goes to show you dont treasure what you have. Talk about stewardship.

Excuses dont excuse and reasons dont explain.
Whatever is within your control you have the right to be responsible over it!

"Oh, I have cough, I cannot come.."
Give me a break. If yours is H1N1, fair enough. But cough? flu? fever? Even people with CANCER GO TO CHURCH AND BELIEVE FOR HEALING!

Even for some who dont get their breakthrough, they keep on showing up, no matter what. Because a true disciple never gives up.

As christians, we live under a covenant with God.

Christ is the bridegroom and the church is the bride.
What does the wedding covenant say?

For richer or poorer, in sickness and in health, always to love and to cherish, till death do us part.

Even though we were faithless, God remains faithful.

Prayer

Prayer is the key to revival.

Nothing more.
Nothing less.

It's not by might,
Nor by power,
But by My spirit,
Says the Lord.

Life changes, not merely by the things we do,
But by the way we think,
And the things we say.

FB Status

A beautiful man is not one with abs and biceps. You can have muscles and yet have no brain!

A beautiful woman is not one with good figure and breasts, you can have a beautiful body and yet a tongue full of poison!

A beautiful person is one with a genuine smile because your emotions show who you really are.

Short

Romance is not just about the wealth, the looks or the abilities, but its about the heart-to-heart. You can have 2 people, both do not know how to cook, yet when they do it together, try out and learn together, that can be a romantic experience. There's no manhood or womanhood, but the 2 becoming 1. Love is unity.

You choose your friends. You create your own atmosphere. You plan your life. You make your decisions. If life sucks, you suck. If you want change, then change.

Aging and Eternity

Parties, movies, gaming, shopping, buffet-ing, clubbing, soccer-ing...and any other form of entertainment or lifestyle you can think of.

The question is...20 years has passed for some of us, 20 years later, what will we be doing?

How about 40-60 years later, when we are old, what will we be doing?

Life is a preparation for eternity.

Eternity is a long time. Are you prepared to live the life you were called to live, for an endless eternity, with joy?

Life is unpredictable, you will never know when your time is up.

When it does, entering eternity, will you be used to it? Are you prepared for it?

Dont wait till you're old to start living right.

Dont wait till you're weak and frail to start serving.

Dont wait till you're tired and worn out then start to change.

Now is the time.

An eternity without money, an eternity without clubbing, an eternity without mugging, an eternity without slacking, an eternity without an earthly lifestyle, etc.

If after reading this post and God decides its time for you to go, what will you do?

Where will you go?

Have you loved those around you enough?
Have you treasured the people you have?

For those whom you are going to meet for the rest of eternity, have you gotten along well with these people? How are you going to face them for all of eternity?

Life is not the beginning, neither is it the ending.

Life hasnt even started.

God gave you time. Make full use of it.

QT Revelation 051009, Randoms

My lifestyle has changed since July till now. And I really wanna thank God for the work He is doing in my life. Since July, I did something drastic, I told myself, Im gonna go work early to pray. And true enough, till now, every single day, I just cant wait to pray in my secret place in my workplace.

And then I told myself, I will pray more, and true enough. Just recently, about a month ago, not only do I have my early workplace prayer alone, I pray when I wake up, then go to work I pray again.

And then I told myself, I wanna be strong in the word. And now, just recently also, same time as I started my 'wake up' prayer, Ive been reading the word almost every single day. But in this area, I still have areas to improve, that is sleeping earlier and waking up earlier, cus sometimes I wake up late and I procrastinate, end up, I only prayed without reading the word.

Its like you send smses to God, and God replies through the word, but you're lazy to check the Word for His replies. Maybe thats how some people handle real life SMSes! HAHAHA. Always never reply, sometimes just click, open, never read, close.

See..it all makes sense, the way we treat God is the way we treat people. LOL.

I wanna start a new habit, that is to have my 'end-day' prayer. Sean once told me, prayer is like input and output. You gotta pray at the start of the day and thank God at the end of the day. Its like a pipe, if you have all the input, but no output, we become 'faulty'.

Ive prayed before I slept now and then, but its always so tiring and I admit I doze off sometimes. But this is one area I wanna get right. Thank God for morning prayer, thank God for TWO morning prayers in fact, thank God for the Word, but to make it complete. This is one area I must be fervent in, next is to fast at least once every week.

3 verses stood out today during my morning devotion:

James 2:8-10 (NIV)

8 If you really keep the royal law found in Scripture, "Love your neighbor as yourself," you are doing right.

9 But if you show favoritism, you sin and are convicted by the law as lawbreakers.

10 For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it.

Those are really strong words. In some translations, it says it is a sin to show partiality. Treating an unchurched one way and your cg members another way, treating your friends one way and neglecting the weaker ones, etc.

Not only are you being partial, you are being a double-minded person, unstable in all their ways.

James 4:17 (NLT)

17 Remember, it is sin to know what you ought to do and then not do it.

Another powerful verse. The sin of omission. Sin is not just doing what is wrong, Sin is also failing to do what is right.

There is a saying:

People perish not because of what they did wrong, but what they failed to do right.

Sometimes, a trial isnt always a training ground for 'preventive measures', it can also be a training ground for 'ensuring measures'. More than just helping us to overcome a situation, sometimes God need us to wake up our idea, face reality and do something about it.

Many times we can think, we can ponder, we can hope and pray all we want, and yet not do anything about it. When the disciples were on the boat in the midst of the storm, Jesus was sleeping. Why? Is it because He doesnt care? No. He just expects us to step out, take authority and calm the storms. If not whats the use of empowering us?

When someone is sick, all we do is "awww hope you are alright", its not wrong. But we can always do more, be there for the person, lend a helping hand, laying hands and pray for him, visiting him, etc. Show some initiative.

Jesus is not an awwsome God, but an awesome God!

In everything, there is always something we can do.

Lastly..James 5:16 (GNT)

16 So then, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, so that you will be healed. The prayer of a good person has a powerful effect.

We always know this verse for the second part, on the effective fervent prayer, but the first part is accountability. Its so easy to share our testimonies and our blessings, but so hard to share our problems and our sins to each other.

But thats how it is, sin grows in the dark, the longer we keep things to ourselves, the stronger the hold it has over our life. But when exposed to Light, it loses its power.

The devil loves to control our lives because he knows no one will know.

Most of the time, especially during conflicts, he can spark all the wrong emotions and thoughts, people end up quarelling, getting angry, etc. And yet Satan is able to silently hide in the shadows while he sees the two destroy each other.

And people start blaming the other party, not realizing that the evil one is THE evil one, and not the opposing party.

Be sensitive, be discerning, be accountable.

-Today is my shooting, pray for protection cus the last time I injured my finger while pulling the trigger over 50 times, blister, blood, etc :S I have a bit of a trigger-phobia lol. =/

LOL!!!!!! Thanks qianhui for the link.

Its a funny rant by a honkee american.

Laughed so hard I need to breathe! LOL

M18 content. =D

Stressed

Starving of quality time.

Starving of love.

Starving of food.

I feel so suffocated.

Pressed in every side but I shall not break.

How I wish right now I had someone to talk to,

Someone to just sit beside me, lean on me, play with me or just smile at me.

I dont have a clique, but just having a buddy is good enough.

I feel like the only child nowadays.

When Im at work, even though Im surrounded yet I feel so alone,

When Im at home, even though there are people around, yet I feel alone.

Looking for dinner buddy to makan with but found none...

Time to go out alone.

Tmr is my shooting test. :x

14th is my IPPT.

16th and 19th is my ops.

Another long weekend.

The Red Sea and Discipline - Revelation 041009

Hebrews 11, the book on faith. Many times when we think about Hebrews 11, we think of how Abraham offered his son isaac, and how faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

However, today, I had a revelation of a different perspective.

In verse 29, it says:

"By faith the people passed through the Red Sea as on dry land; but when the Egyptians tried to do so, they were drowned."

Why did the egyptians drown and perish?

Is it because they were God's enemies? Yes. But there's more.

When the soldiers saw the red sea part and the children of Israel crossing it, they chased after them. However, when they were passing through, they looked at the far distance ahead, and the waters on the sides, they began to lose faith and doubt, some felt that they couldnt do it, its just too far, what if the waters collapse on us?

Eventually, they perished under the waves.

Crossing the red sea requires faith.

Without faith, like the soldiers, we will just crumble and perish under the pressures of life.

Secondly, Egypt in blibical terms is always referenced to the world.

Assuming both the children of Israel and the soldiers had faith to cross the red sea, then why did the soldiers still perish? Yes, they were God's enemies. But...

As 'Egyptian' soldiers, they represented the faith of this world and not the faith of God.

Crossing the red sea also requires the right kind of faith.

God has given us a life of faith, a WALK of faith. We have to keep walking. But similarly, this walk of faith, requires the faith of God. If we cross the red sea using our natural strength, our natural faith, we will still perish under the waves.

Its like plugging into a power supply, we have to use the right voltage.

A christian walk requires christian faith, its as simple as that. You will only get 'christian' rewards, if only you have the 'christian' desires. Its all about the right voltage.

If you want spiritual gifts, you have to pay 'spiritual currency' for it. That includes faith, a life of prayer and fasting, being strong in the word, etc.

I read on in chapter 12, it says God, being a Father, WILL discipline His children. And discipline is always sorrowful, but at the end of the day, we become better people.

If you're going through a tough time, then start being aware of what went wrong, more than just a trial or a period of testing, it can also be a period of disciplining and chastising.

If God gives us a test and we fail it over and over again, we will just have to keep on retaking it until we pass it. Lets not get stuck time and time again. We wont really go very far unless we outgrow ourselves.

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over, expecting a different result.

Lets not be insane christians and God certainly doesnt want us to be insane, sometimes He has to give us that jolt of reality to wake us up. God wants us to be skyscrapers in life. But if we're gonna have a kampong foundation, then all you will be in life, is just a small little kampong hut. One cigarette butt is enough to burn you down.

Zangetsu from Bleach says:

Cast off your fear!

Look forward!

Never stand still!

Retreat and you will age!

Hesitate and you will die!

Eternity

When all is said and done, what matters is not really what makes you happy,

But what you will live with for the rest of Eternity in the presence of God.

A person can get so 'stuck' in the things of this world,

Even when he/she eventually passes away, his/her soul is still stuck here to this earth,

He/she may not be ready for Eternity. And end up 'somewhere else' because their soul is attached to that which is perishing.

Life is all about relationships.

Its not about being independent, but interdependent.

Who we are today, is because of the friends we choose.

Life is more than a preparation for happiness,

Life is a preparation for Eternity.

Eternity is a long time.

It is like a 'point of no return.'

Mooncake Friday

Ariel says my room looks like a museum because I keep and display every card and cg's framed photo since my E110 days 6 years ago, on my walls :)

Id be touched too if I were to go to someone's 'secret place' and find all my hardwork, sweat and love that I put in, right there before my eyes.

Its the place private to me, where only God sees the weaker and broken side of me, the place where I cry when no one is seeing, yet when Im surrounded by all your words of faith, I look left, I see the cards, I look right, I see the cg, united as one, and more cards, I just know that I wouldnt be where I am today if not for the grace of God and for the people He has placed in my life.

Everyone that steps into my room, always give me comments about 2 things, the cards and the toys, haha.

These are precious memories that I will tell my child and wife next time, that God is good and that my cg is one of the best. That you may be poor today, but if you follow Jesus you'll not stay poor all your life, that the weak can say 'I am strong', the poor can say 'I am rich'.

Great job guys for making today's cgm a great success. Malaysian, Australian, Vietnamese, Canadian, China Scholars, Korean and now Nigerian. 2 businessmen, 1 runs his own IT company and the other has 2 salon outlets. God is doing something...I just know it...

Personally, I feel that PNW has broken through to another level. Not because Im playing, but I dont know, the praise was a great start and a great kick in, maybe its the amps.

When the volume is up, everyone will tend to sing louder and pray stronger. Even though I was playing, I had my own encounters just now too. Also maybe its less tiring for me because I dont have to play so hard and tire myself out before I even enter the presence of God...

It'll be weird, not being able to go service on sat because of my NPC Retreat. But Im certainly looking forward to service this Sunday!

Man

While man is looking for better methods,

God is looking for better men.

You can have muscles, drink a lot...

And still be a loser in life!

Quiet Time Context - 011009

Titus 1:15-16 (NLT)

15 Everything is pure to those whose hearts are pure. But nothing is pure to those who are corrupt and unbelieving, because their minds and consciences are defiled.

16 Such people claim they know God, but they deny him by the way they live. They are despicable and disobedient, worthless for doing anything good.

Titus 2:1-11 (NLT)

1 But as for you, promote the kind of living that reflects right teaching.

2 Teach the older men to exercise self-control, to be worthy of respect, and to live wisely. They must have strong faith and be filled with love and patience.

3 Similarly, teach the older women to live in a way that is appropriate for someone serving the Lord. They must not go around speaking evil of others and must not be heavy drinkers. Instead, they should teach others what is good.

4 These older women must train the younger women to love their husbands and their children,

5 to live wisely and be pure, to take care of their homes, to do good, and to be submissive to their husbands. Then they will not bring shame on the word of God.

6 In the same way, encourage the young men to live wisely in all they do.

7 And you yourself must be an example to them by doing good deeds of every kind. Let everything you do reflect the integrity and seriousness of your teaching.

8 Let your teaching be so correct that it can't be criticized. Then those who want to argue will be ashamed because they won't have anything bad to say about us.

9 Slaves must obey their masters and do their best to please them. They must not talk back

10 or steal, but they must show themselves to be entirely trustworthy and good. Then they will make the teaching about God our Savior attractive in every way.

11 For the grace of God has been revealed, bringing salvation to all people.

Titus 3:9-10 (NIV)

9 But avoid foolish controversies and genealogies and arguments and quarrels about the law, because these are unprofitable and useless.

10 Warn a divisive person once, and then warn him a second time. After that, have nothing to do with him. 11 You may be sure that such a man is warped and sinful; he is self-condemned.