Great day, greater year ahead! =D

jus came back frm a great, exciting, reviving service. :D here are jus some of e notes:

-=4 Drrections of Faith=-

1) HEIGHT: Have faith in God
*faith is a choice/decision, if things were going smoothly or if u can see it, then there's no need for faith.
*If you can see it, you can have it; if you can conceive it, u can receive it.
*there will always be giants in ur life. everytime we slay one of those giants, there's bound to be more. therefore the solution is not just to slay e giants in our life, but to be BIGGER than those giants.
*dun be ppl tt pray for a miracle and when i finally comes, they say 'God, are u sure?', 'i dun believe it/i dun believe this is happening'...'im an average person and now i got 3 As for my exams, i dun believe it...."
*our doubts will hinder us frm receiving God's miracles in our life.
*Think big, dream big, for even e highest heavens and e universe cannot contain God. yet God himself wants to dwell in us (sth so physically small compared to God), and in our life. If God can create the universe out of nothing, He can bring any dreams u have to pass. (of course it has to be a good one).

2)DEPTH: Have faith in yourself
*research and studies have proven that they way our life is, is determined by who we are in our self-image. e.g. if we think, a pass in exams would be good, we will be satisfied with little in e future. or if we think theres nth we can do to help in a particular situation, indeed nth would be done to improve/solve it.
*our brain is like an auto-pilot. e way we think in our mind 'steers' our body into fulfilling that self-proclamation/declaration of who we think we are. e.g. if someone believes tt he can lose weight and is determined to, then naturally, or instinctively, tt person's reaction/action plan to start a workout programme or if we think we are capable of become a minister in Singapore, then naturally we would have bigger ideas, more creative ideas, drive and determination to go on to achievin gour goal. 'our bodies fulfill what our mind says'.
*another example, would be in relationships. for example we believe that we can win e guy/gal over, then naturally we would come up with lots of ideas like gifts, spending more time with whom we love. we would have tt 'drive' to pursue what our mind thinks.
***'As a man thinks in his heart, so is he!'

*apart frm having gd self-image, have an ultimate security is another thing. having ultimate security is to know who u are in God eyes, holding on to His promises by faith, and to live according to His ways, without having to prove to yourself or to anyone else who you are. example, if you KNOW tt u are a gal u dun have to prove to anyone. right? if ure certain and know FOR SURE, den there wouldnt be a need to prove to even urself..."am i a girl? or maybe im not jus because i dun look as good as one. mebe i shld be a guy, mebbe im gay/les"...mebbe this and mebbe that.

3)WIDTH: Have faith in others.
*God came in e form of flesh and died not jus for me or for some smart guy...He came to died for everyone.
*Jesus knew tt there would be ppl who wouldnt receive Him as their savior and friend, but despite tt, Jesus remained on e cross. why? He loved us so much, that even if we were to reject Him, His love towards us will never change. Every step He took towards e cross, He thought of each one of us, of how we could live a victorious and exciting life and spend time with Him in eternity and not having to go thru e 'fire'. its a love so amazing that, Jesus himself, being 100% God and 100% man, endured e pain, persucution, scourging, spitting, ridicule and endured e most horrible death sentence at tt time for you and for me. in exchange for health, prosperity, blessings, eternal life.
*He could have jus wiped out e entire earth with a word, but someone so supreme, someone almighty, all powerful and all knowing, humbled Himself to a man, and go thru all tt, out of love. to be with us. God, having e power of life and death, chose death for himself, in exchange for life for us. That's e ultimate friend, and yet in our world today, we hardly find someone who is honest in wadever he says/in a relationship.
*God thinks highly on everyone. Even e person that you hate seeing everyday, Jesus came and died for that person and He has big dreams, a purpose and a destiny for tt person. its jus tt he hasnt seen it yet/he refused.
*God has faith in people. We might see ourselves as someone average, getting low salary, merely passing our exams..., ugly looking, etc. But He sees us as someone successful, rich, having more than enough not jus to live a blessed life, but to be a blessing to others, smart, good looking, being the 'head and not e tail, above and not beneath; blessed in our going in, blessed in our coming out'.
*Dun give up on urself and others, because God has not given up on us.

4) LENGTH: Have faith in your FUTURE
*we shouldnt limit ourselves or let others limit us. we have to think unlimited, becos He who is limitless, dwells in us and our lives. 'He can do exceedingly, abundantly, above all that we can ask or IMAGINE; according to the power that is at work in us.'
*e moment we even think tt we cant make it, or 'die la', we will ever make it. less than one sec after e moment we think negative thoughts, our body will fulfill that thought becos when we are born, every man and woman will search for self-identity, true love, acceptance and security.
*we spend so much time worry abt things tt will nv happen that we lost all hope in ourselves an in others.
*there are people, when ppl fall sick or are in ICU, they always have this mentality, "God is punishing me." seriously, if sickness is frm God then e work on e cross 2005 yrs ago wouldve been wasted. all e time e battle between God and Satan would have been in vain. but in Christ, we have e victory!
*judement and punishment is not for now, its for after death. the funny thing is that ther claim GOd is punishing them yet, they themselves do not know God for who he is. XD

*e biggest mistake we can ever make is to choose our life according to our own thinking. for man's mind is limited, but faith puts no limit on GOd and God puts no limit on faith.
*God's will is always bigger than our ambition. for 'His ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts than our thoughts." at e same time, GOd's love is greater than our circumstances.
*Id rather have life God's way, where there are always miracles, supernatural breakthroughs, blessings, having more than enough, than having life e way my limited mind can even perceive.
*i like wad ps kong said, "if have a dream from God, there in no demon in hell, no angel in heaven, not a single person on e face of the earth, can stop that dream from coming to pass'. indeed wadever God says, goes
*God has a great plan and destiny for our lives, will we live a limited unfulilling life? or will we live a life of breakthrough, a life where e impossible becomes possible? will we hold on to a dream that will one day perish with us in our graves? or will we have a dream, a purpose and a vision that will never pass away? achievements may pass away, but relationships, life's fulfillment, thoughts, memories, etc. will never pass away. e body may die, but our soul lives.

*Think big, dream big, have a God-plan for ur life, and even though e whole world were to come against it, it will stand forever.

ive jus received this really cute and meaningful email frm willard, thankie bro...=) i love e video =D

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commontest is near, yet God is already there waiting for me...XD wishing all e T15 peeps out there all e best for ur exams...hee :)

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A dream come true...

another goal fulfilled for this yr...yupz, me got an electric guitar plus amp. my cg fren baoie sold em to me for only $250...tts a dream come true. and im glad for him and praise God tt he got an offer for his new guit at 500 bucks...he saved 70 bucks. praise God oso tt his mother got a job. =)

so many gd things are happenin, tt u jus cant count em. :D exams are comin and i noe tt im slow in my revision, but ill pull myself together to...chiong ah! lol when everything seems to go wrong in e world, but im glad im in God's world. a world of vision, dreams, purpose, blessings, abundance, destiny, eternity...a world away frm e world, theres no one else to thank truly but God. he was there when i needed him. comfort me when im down, he gave me a reason to move on...

its always gd to have big dreams...now tt ive got my electric guitar, i will head towards being a musician someday. =) playing on stage with e lights and sound, leadin ppl into e presence of God. where there is liberty, joy, love, peace, hope. XD

well, even though exams r near, very near, im excited abt....SUNDAY! yea....goin to church, fellowshippin with my frens (who are as close and bros and sistas), spendin time with all e ppl who love and care for me and vice versa. had great cel grp today, but...ohoh...haha...keryn if ya see this...slow down k? keke i was chiongin...lol...like dictation sia...:D makes me feel as if exams have arrived...lol....take it easy ya, everything we do we learn sth and me become more like christ, yea? =)

well, more testimonies soon...hee esp after exams and all...esp after sun's service...sure to be blessed...hee :D well, gtg...qt! with my new electric guitar...ooh...haha :)

A spark ignites - Revival

yesterdae's service was tremendous. e message was about singing and man, e atmosphere was definitely built up towards e end of e service. bcos of e message we had more songs for praise and worship for tt day. and once again, i dreamt of my electric guitar...hee :D

and im soooo happy i got e chc journal plus ps kong's daily devotion messages. i really lurve e journal...hehe...its sooo nice. =) and e daily devotional messages were phenomenal, written by ps kong himself. dis one of em yesterdae and man, i feel a breakthru, not jus any breakthru, but revival in my spirit, esp after e phenomenal service and encounter with God on tt day.

indeed God rekindled my fire, and there's nothing tt can put this fire out. :) i like wad ps Kong said, "If a plan/dream is from God, there is no demon in hell, no person/thing on the face of the earth can stop it from coming to pass..."

Indeed wad God starts he will complete. ive also learnt tt faith leaks, if its not applied regularly, it will leak. having a bigger faith is more than jus leaarnin abt it, ull have to learn, apply, learn, apply, learn, apply. faith has to be accumulated.

one of my goals was to be able to read e entire bible by e end of the yr. and im using a different approach now. each time i finish reading a chapter in e bible, i would type it out, tt way i can not only understand better and enjoy reading e bible, i can memorise em. =) same with ps kong's daily devotional messages. not bad eh...:D haha

***e daily devotional messages were good, yesterdae's one talks abt Moses. his first 40 yrs in egypt, he thought he was a somebody, e next 40yrs in e back of e desert he realized he was a nobody. and his last 40yrs as a deliverer, he learned tt God can take a nobody and make him a somebody.

***Also, being called is one thing, but being chosen is another thing. yet in order to be chosen one mus not only have e call of God upon their lives, they must most importantly be faithful in all things in God's hse (e.g. ministry), only then will God chose you to do His mighty exploits. :D

EXAMS!

well, this week's been good, wad am i saying? every week is good...lol XD had my first Laying Foundation lesson at YMCA on wed. went with samuel and some of my cel grp members. Even though we couldnt have any praise n worship cos ps audrey couldnt make it, yet God presence was defintely there to strengthen us. honestly, tt was my first experience being able to feel e tangible presence of God w/o praise n worship. =) well, its really the heart tt God looks at, if ure willing to receive, God will be there for you. :D

tried e new orange peach sundae at mac...mmm...sooo nice! hee ;) but sadly, pow wee, pamela, keryn, rachael and felicia couldnt join me, my bro, vivian and peng at mac. sobz...but nevertheless, sunday's coming! woohoo! =)

so happy, had my first W318 cel grp meeting in 2005 :) had praise and worship finally, with an ELECTRIC GUITAR! song bo? haha. ya, im hoping tt i can play on stage one day...=) every big achievement starts with a dream, no matter how small it is ;) great message my keryn and great praise n worship by pow wee. hee :D so excited for church tomolo...hee =) cant wait for fellowship and most importantly, e Word. =)

Perfect love drives out fear!

realli dunno wad to put for my title but tts wad ive experienced recently. this week i was on e verge of dryin up. somethin bad happened to me and its not e first time. indeed bad things do happen to gd ppl, i felt like...why mus it be me..? anger, fear, rejection and sense of loss began to stir up in me. i ended up hurting not jus myself but God, i confess, i did argue with him and expressed all my feelings to him, feelings like "why...", "its no use...", "im useless...etc..." i felt down and out and i know tt ive upsetted my Lord.

tt was when i realise how natural situations can get a hold of me easily, i realised how weak i was. tt night i returned to God but it didnt help much, or mebbe my mind was not right. this mornin durin service...God once again gave me a new encounter, i know im not perfect, i know im not as good as everybody else, but i know this, i know that God loves me, i know that God uses e most ordinary people to do extraordinary things. i know that as long as i stay close to Him, everything i do im gonna succeed, ill be blessed in my going in, blessed in my going out, i will be e head and not e tail, above and not beneath!

my heart was once again melted during service by God's love. durin prayer, praise, worship, even e message, i was moved to tears. ive nv felt such love and anointing and power for a long long long time. i knew tt God was ready to change me, and i know at tt moment, im ready. My life's and attitude towards God has changed after e message. im ready to face e world! :) i feel closer to God now...XD i began to have revelations upon revelations. knowin tt as long as i stay close to e house of God, nothing can overcome me, bcos greater is He who is in me, than he who is in e world! =)

so excited, cel grp is finally resuming this wk...e first cg in W318 in 2005! yea! :D and i can now go bible study at YMCA wif samuel and my cel grp frens, yea, finally i can see them for more than once a week...haha =) praise God! XD ill be takin my Laying Foundation Classes this wed...so excited, hee :D im gonna be stronger....:-)

im so happy for rachel tt she finally cleared her $200 debt with me after 2 months. i mus sae she did sth great being able to owe someone $200 and yet able to return such a huge amount. sth i could nv done...its more than jus clearin debts, its an accomplisment, a breakthru i feel...:D rach, uve raised my trust level to being able to lend ya $500 now..hahaha. i believe its never by might, nor by power, but by e spirit, knowing that all things will work out for e good of those who love him.

excited for my upcoming sound ministry trainin in march. and for CNY! yea! haha, gonna get an electric guitar + amp from baoie for only $230! =) but ive decided, im gonna bless him with an additional $20, makin tt $250. thank you baoie for e electric guitar in advance, more than that, thank you for being an exceptionally good cel grp guitarist, w/o u i wouldnt have got a touch frm heaven...:) tts my dream, to be able to lead ppl into e presence of God. still got a long way though, hee :D i realli wanna share my experiences with others :)

testimony...great God Encounter...charged up!

went to changi airport yesterdae to send evan off, she goin jakarta. went to peng's hse oso yesterdae...whoa, his hse soooooooo big sia...lol. more of a penthouse than a house...hehe :D thanks peng, for invitin us over...good food too...hee XD

well, its been awhile since i had any testimonies to share...hee esp when now we dun have ch for 2 weeks lo...:D yup...*InHaLeS* heregoes:

I GOT A NEW PC! MUAHAHAHAHA costs almost to 2k yup, well, cos my 'famous' bro, somehow with great power and supernatural strength, somehow overheated and blew the powerbox/power supply of my oldone...lol well, tt was when my dad decided to get a new one...and i mus say, e new one's sooooo much bedder than even my laptop, let alone e old one...hee ;)

for those obsessed and feel attracted to big metal thingies, here's some specs:

Intel P4 3.0GHZ
512MB RAM
60-80GB HDS
5.0 surround sound card (ironically, i dun have a 5-channel surround speakers...haha)
128MB ATI Radeon 9250 PowerColor chipset (well, not say v.gd but at least its a 'reasonable' one...lol :P)

yup...and my SECOND TESTIMONY...my parents have finally decided toget a broadband after all tt controlling on my bro...*SiGh* well, actualli they have decided-ed many times liaoz...oso dunno whether they're realli gonna get one...but i thank God anywaez...'blessed is he who have not seen and yet believe!' =) i mean...if e b.band modem arrives at my hse i would have fulfilled one of my goals...on e spot...wakakakaka XD

had been feeling dry lately...nth much seems to be happenin in my life...at tt point i felt tt as if my life was once again a desert...a life w/o God is like a day w/o air...it was jus yesterdae tt i had an encounter with God all over again...

i may have done many things tt made Him upset, for a moment i was living in my own selfish life...even when i was in e midst of my worldly life, i made a prayer to God, 'get me outta this mess, i want to experience u all over again. even if i were to draw away, Lord u grab my hand n pull me back; show me ur love...'

in e evening, i decided to run TO God instead of running away. at tt moment i received a touch frm heaven, i was literally cryin in my room then...and i felt such a tangible presence of God once again...it was refreshing. i confessed my wrongs and im thankful for his forgiveness. and now praise God, my relationship with Him is burning again. =)

now i have a new vision, a new dream, a new revelation, we dun jus live SMART like e world, we live SMARTER :D service was great today...talked abt planning ur year...on how when Jesus is e foundation of ur dreams at e beginning, nth is impossible and wadever He started, He will finish.
learnt tt life with God is NEVER a bed of roses, (ya, of course i noe tt...haha), but more than tt,

God will always put you in e deepest and darkest pit, where it seems that its impossible to get out. then when everyone is watchin u in e pit, with all ur dreams and visions, God, being the loving friend and Almighty, will show forth His power, at tt point when everyone is lookin, and tell e world that with man, it is impossible, but with God, all things r possible! =)

i mean, God is wonderful, e closest fren will always share His love and will always try to win ur heart by givin u surprises, showing off his talents and abilities, likewise with God. its e same as goin into a relationship. ull have to impress e person to win him/her over, God is like a golfer, and ure e golfball, a true friend is not one who hits u gently, worrying tt ull get hurt, but a true fren is one who believes in u, one who knows ur potential and destiny, and He will hit u (e golfball) real HARD, so that u soar above everyone else, reaching ur destination and fulfillment of ur dreams. :) and 'He will make u e head and not e tail; above and not beneath' XD

its 2005!

2004 has passed, and im certainly look forward to 2005! :) xmas got a new white long-sleeve tshirt, new jeans and a 50bucks slingbag frm billabong, new hairstyle =) and wad im most happy abt is tt yea, ive finaly got a new NKJV bible...:) finaly a clean one...and i dun have to share...yea :D

im so excited, service was great and powerful todae. we learnt abt goal setting. we din jus learn abt e SMART goals, we learnt how to adopt SMARTER goals:

S-pecific
M-easurable
A-ction Plan
R-ealistic
T-ime Conscious
E-xpectation management
R-evelation

man's visions and dreams will perish, but dreams frm God will never pass away, but will change the world! XD

here's some of my newyr resolutions:
*Repair my relationship with God and grow stronger!
*Do better in my academics
*Be an instrument for God
*Excel in Sound Ministry
*Have a greater anointing.
*Have bigger dreams-mixed with FAITH and ACTION -> Faith+ACT=FACT

durin service i really enjoyed being in God's presence once again...feelin recharged and ready to fulfill His purpose and calling for my life!

So many things have happened esp in e most festive season. i sincerely give my heart-felt condolences for those who died in e tsunami tragedy. peace. im really glad to be called God's child. knowing tt my future's in His hands and knowing tt in all things, im more than a conqueror! =) i literally emptied my wallet durin e svc offering today...esp for e tsunami victims and families affected. well, it bottomed up to well...more than $50 i mus say...

indeed we're blessed to be a blessing, u can nv be too poor to give, for "God shall supply all my needs according to His riches in glory". :D and indeed He came to give us life, and life MORE ABUNDANTLY...XD

wad a yr its been, and wad a yr its gonna be...lookin forward to 20000 members in chc by june. and by faith, my cel grp W318 is gonna multiply by june too :) yea! dunno when, dunno how, dunno where, for "God's ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts than our thoughts" =). even e "Greatest wisdom of man are like foolishness to God"

certainyly, this yr's gonna be a great adventure, for with God, all things r possible! :)