Update update update!

its been awhile folks..no wait, its been REALLY REALLY long since i last updated :S

oh wells..here goes..

marriage enrichment session 1 and 2 was awesome! really learnt a lot...XD and also, ive received bro KC's email on e feedback regarding my song, ive never known that songwriting is something so creative and complicated..

and for bro KC to be able to write songs for ALBUMS, for national competitions...its really the power of God in someone whose heart is totally committed to Him..

he emailed me a very looooong feedback, a lot of things to take into consideration when writing songs, but it was good, constructive and practical :D

was serving on sunday, woke up late, but managed to reach in time. thank God. but i was really really tired, dead tired. sleeping only for 2 hrs ++ and serving till 1plus in e afternoon. then after that went down to marina superbowl for evangelistic outreach.

not bad, e first few games i was really into it, although it was my second time bowling, e first time i bowled was sec1, at the west coast recreational centre, after my LAN games of CS and DOD...i miss those lanshop chionging days...:S

during our 'warmup', i managed to bowl such that my ball came out of the drain twice and hit the pins..lol one frm e left drain, one frm e right drain...but subsequently after the so-called, 'warmup', i was too warmed up already, and i began to doze off...feeling tired..

my muscles amazingly didnt cramp at all, after bowling non-stop for 4 hours. without proper stretching, cus i didnt know i had to last tt long, lol..

we were havin an inter-CG competition and e top 2 members frm e top 3 cgs will compete. andy, our new friend, and me, we got third place, 10 dollar haagen daaz vouchers each. i intended to give it away...oh wells, its still with me..:S

after tt ended around 6 plus, went to makan at long john outside cityhall MRT. falling asleep, i carried myself to the counter, ordered food and ate. surprisingly e food woke me up. after eating we chatted for some time, then we went home.

reached home around 9+pm.

im really tired, and im losing appetite for food and appetite for SLEEP even! yes! i dont feel like sleeping sometimes, or i have dreamless nights...well, i DO have dreamless nights nowadays...:S

i dont know man, i feel tt my life is going in circles right now, the moulder -> the shelf -> the furnace -> back to the moulder.

arrgh when will the masterpiece be completed!?! when will i be unbreakable in the furnace??? and oh and when i thought my IHP was gonna end, guess what..im gonna cross into AUGUST!!!

*Faint, arrgh...

anyways, had guitar lesson with bao just now, guess tt took my mind off certain things. everyday im alone, EVERYDAY! except for CG, svc and guitar, other than that, IM LITERALLY BY MYSELF THE WHOLE DAY! well, i do have my wife with me >.< Miss Toh Shi Ba...

everyday during lunch, i wish i could be out with someone but everyone's in school, im e only clown around thinkin of where to go for lunch while others are havin lunches with their friends/classmates/colleagues.

people have classmates, sad to say at e moment..i DONT. i literally have no one with hang around with. and oh, its been more than 365 days already and i am by myself everyday!!!!

am i gonna suffer frm some social disorder? or a split personality? i dont know, im getting unstable...im unpredictable now. i can change very fast, im like a chameleon, always defensive and changing colors to suit e environment, to protect itself...

well, this wk is reuben morgan and mike connell, its gonna be a great service. and next wk is FOP and our church anniversary.

i kinda feel uncomfortable everytime we have FOP, people from other churches eating snacks during FOP PnW or preaching, people moving around, handphone noises, people dozing off, lousy body postures, no bible, not serious, leave whenever they want to, move whenever they like to....i cant stand it!!!

if u are not serious abt God then dont go for FOP in the first place! its e festival of praise, not the festival of play!!!! if u wanna clap, then clap louder, if u wanna sing, then sing with all your heart, if u wanna worship, then worship with all your strength!!! if you believe that Jesus died for you on the cross, if you believe that Jesus is the son of God, if you believe that Jesus is your Savior....then....

He definitely deserves a more radical bunch of people he call brothers and sisters!!!! dont be wimpy, dont be weak, dont be frail, dont go with a lousy attitude! if the spirit who raised Jesus from the dead lives in you, then you have NO RIGHT to live as if the spirit of death and depression is in you!!!

arrgh...id better stop now...lol. but really, if u guys wanna go there for e sake of a wonderful service, then forget about it. you're not there for a wonderful service, you're there to worship and wonderful Savior!