More than a prayer meeting (WARNING: Long post)

It was awesome! fantastic! phenomenal! tangible! life-changing! anything else good and positive! =) truly its one of e best prayer meetings ive been to, not bcos of who we are, not even bcos of who the singers or leaders are, but becos of who He is! ;)

though i was tired, i was excited. there was a sense of great expectancy, esp easter's round e corner. it started off with praise and then a loooong worship. and i was literally in tears throughout the meeting ever since praise started, even when i was praying, i knew that what i prayed could make a difference.

but honestly, people tend to see our programmes as factors leading to our success as a church. but it is never true. prayer meetings are like 'behind-the-scenes' of CHC, prayer and anointing is really the engine and the dynamo of our church. ull nv experience e power behind e church unless ure willing to flow with the vision of e church. to be a part of EVERYTHING e church is called by God to do in this end-time generation.

as we began to pray, it was the most fantastic thing that ever happened to my life. strongholds began to break, powers and authorities (of e world) began to diminish, lives are changed and renewed, and the tangible presence of God was there and i can say, that i was truly lost in His presence. =)

nothing around me began to matter anymore. and as we progressed deeper into e 'power core' of prayer, i found myself in the Holy of Holies, one on one with the living God Himself. life can never be perfect, but as i was stuck in e presence of God, i experienced what a perfect life felt like...no fear, no pain, no sorrow, no strain, no limits.

people think the perfect life is in heaven...true....BUT bcos we have e Holy Spirit, we can experience the God-life...NOW! ^^ there are people who are saved, behave as if they never knew Christ...all the time they are sighing, 'sian-ing', confused, visionless, so down and negative all the time...

thats why i liked what ps ulf said, "u can be saved, yet unrenewed in your minds''. life wont change jus because you know who God is, but life only changes the moment your thinking changes. because our mind is the driving force for our confession, for our thoughts, feelings, emotions and ultimately, the manifestation of life that we perceive, on the outside.

your life can only be as good as you think it is. if you cant see it, you cant have it. simple as that. but more than just seeing, we have to ACT on what we believe. many ppl believe, but they are not willing to pursue. stop dreaming of having a good life and start making one!

now...back to the PM =)

as we went deeper into the holy of holies, ps meng began to move in the spirit, and i remembered, FOUR TIMES, there was an impartation: of faith, of love, of purpose, of strength, etc. when he prayed and imparted something into our spirit man, the moment he breathed teh breath of e HS, i felt a strong surge/wave that hit me right in my spirit.

it was something that i could feel. it felt like benny hinn all over again ^^ one wave by one wave, that hit me again and again, it was a great feeling. if i were standing on e front where e anointing is e strongest...i would have fallen under e power of God. and i almost did. there was just something supernatural that happened on e inside of me. and tears continued to flow down my eyes like a river...

there was a point when we really cried out our prayers...i have never felt so much passion as to literally cry out for the things of God (or e things which we prayed for)...e atmosphere was fantastic, it was tangible and e glory of God filled e entire hall. there was so much reverance that i hardly even dared to lift up my head, just like moses on the mountain, for i have seen/felt the living God. there was no doubt that God was there ministering to the people.

and there was a wave, a wave that could be felt as God's glory began to fill e place. i stood there motionless, my hands began to shake momentarily, and as we sang, 'Holy is the Lord' towards e end, and while ps meng gave another impartation, i saw in my spirit:

Jesus walking towards me and putting His arms around me. He stood behind me with both of His hands on my shoulders and He whispered into my ears with love that surpasses all understanding, saying, "you can do it!", "i believe in you", "I love you"...and He kissed me on my right cheek...and i was just....man, no words can describe it when e Holy One who died for me, kissed me. really, no words can describe that awesome feeling, and i fell in love with Him all over again..it was the sweetest thing that happened to me in my entire life. =)

after He said those words to me and kissed me, He rested His head on my shoulders, as He embraced me from behind with His loving arms. i was lost in His presence, lost in His love. i was totally gone man..x)

tears were rolling down my cheeks but i wasnt crying, i wasnt even moving for that moment. i have had an encounter with God...;)

towards e end, ps meng called those who needed prayers for a specific need to e front and he laid hands and prayed for them and the glory of God fell on those whom he laid his hands on, ministering to them. =) it was the FIRST TIME...in a 1-2hr mini zone prayer meeting, that God moved in such a great way!

i cant wait for the next PM...i MISS OPM!!!! hahas =) well, this wk's svc is gonna be different. as our key leaders, pastors and zone sups are overseas in taiwan. so who will be leading us this weekend? guess ill have to wait to find out =) but whoever it is, lets come with a spirit of faith and expectancy ;)

and yup, tmr's my LAST FT2 lesson! yeah! =) on Eternal Judgement, man so exciting. =) have a feeling tt quiz will be tmr as well...hahas x) btw, i MIGHT be reformatting my lappy. well, unless i settle e prob with my SP2 first..hehe.

after PM went to opp kopitiam with wendy, JS, aini, peng and pampam...had a great time although i was tired and dozing off every moment, haha. gonna start prayin and fasting for celgrp this wk...(x2)...i cant do without e anointing of God =)