Midst of recovery...
praise God im recovering, but not yet fully healed. yesterday i felt God saying to me and i could feel the sadness in Him when He said, "Im sorry Andrew for not holding on to you tight enough..."
before He could say anymore i replied, "no...dont say it. im the one who shld say sorry, i ignored Your voice. no matter what happens, know that my love for You is stronger than my circumstances..."
God how i wish I could give You a hug right now. its really in times like these that im sooo close to God and im really grateful and i really treasure the relationship i have with Him. not forgetting those who stood by me for the past few days, indeed, thank God for people like you who dont disappear the minute i hit the fire, but u guys n gals go through it with me....love ya peeps...^^
You can never experience the closeness of God, you cannot experience the '4th man' encounter until you're in the fire. its where the '4th man' shows up next to you, and you shall not be harmed. not only you know He's there, but you can experience Him.
i really wanna thank God that i made it into the Holy of Holies. ;) more than just emotions, more than jus opinions of man, more than just revealed truth, ive learnt to walk in DIVINE REVELATION and in the realm of KNOWING God, which is to know by EXPERIENCE. in the Holy of Holies, its pitch dark, and theres nothing nice to look at, it seems like a boring place to be in.
but in the darkest times, when emotions fail you, when even people who you thought were strong in the Word fail you, but when you cross the veil, and in the midst of darkness, and you cry out to God, His glory will fill the entire room! its just you and God, one on one, no one else.
its where EXPERIENCE is. many people have strong/stable emotions, and are even strong in the Word, but unless you cross the veil you will be limited. you will never experience what it means to be in God and He in you. that closeness that even when nothing's happening, you experience Him because He abides in you and you in Him.
everyday i think of God, everyday i long to encounter Him. although my wounds have not fully healed, each time the pain hits me again, automatically ill focus on God. AUTOMATICALLY. because i dun wanna think of it anymore. yet everyday the thought of meeting those people came back. and i said no, i will look to God.
wed, thurs, fri will be my 3 day fast. why 3? 3 is the number of the Trinity. im gonna need the power of the Trinity to see breakthrough in my ministry, in the church, in the celgrp, and in my own personal life. and im gonna fast 3 days every week until we move to EXPO.
a diamond is without value until it is put into e fire. and for gold to be solid, you have to 'hammer' the molten state. sometimes we come out of the fire, still feeling the effects of what happened, and God begins to 'hammer' on us, just when we thought everything's over.
its the way of changing us, making us stronger. at least im coming out of the furnace soon, for those still on the shelf or worse, still on the wheel....its time to BUCK UP!
before He could say anymore i replied, "no...dont say it. im the one who shld say sorry, i ignored Your voice. no matter what happens, know that my love for You is stronger than my circumstances..."
God how i wish I could give You a hug right now. its really in times like these that im sooo close to God and im really grateful and i really treasure the relationship i have with Him. not forgetting those who stood by me for the past few days, indeed, thank God for people like you who dont disappear the minute i hit the fire, but u guys n gals go through it with me....love ya peeps...^^
You can never experience the closeness of God, you cannot experience the '4th man' encounter until you're in the fire. its where the '4th man' shows up next to you, and you shall not be harmed. not only you know He's there, but you can experience Him.
i really wanna thank God that i made it into the Holy of Holies. ;) more than just emotions, more than jus opinions of man, more than just revealed truth, ive learnt to walk in DIVINE REVELATION and in the realm of KNOWING God, which is to know by EXPERIENCE. in the Holy of Holies, its pitch dark, and theres nothing nice to look at, it seems like a boring place to be in.
but in the darkest times, when emotions fail you, when even people who you thought were strong in the Word fail you, but when you cross the veil, and in the midst of darkness, and you cry out to God, His glory will fill the entire room! its just you and God, one on one, no one else.
its where EXPERIENCE is. many people have strong/stable emotions, and are even strong in the Word, but unless you cross the veil you will be limited. you will never experience what it means to be in God and He in you. that closeness that even when nothing's happening, you experience Him because He abides in you and you in Him.
everyday i think of God, everyday i long to encounter Him. although my wounds have not fully healed, each time the pain hits me again, automatically ill focus on God. AUTOMATICALLY. because i dun wanna think of it anymore. yet everyday the thought of meeting those people came back. and i said no, i will look to God.
wed, thurs, fri will be my 3 day fast. why 3? 3 is the number of the Trinity. im gonna need the power of the Trinity to see breakthrough in my ministry, in the church, in the celgrp, and in my own personal life. and im gonna fast 3 days every week until we move to EXPO.
a diamond is without value until it is put into e fire. and for gold to be solid, you have to 'hammer' the molten state. sometimes we come out of the fire, still feeling the effects of what happened, and God begins to 'hammer' on us, just when we thought everything's over.
its the way of changing us, making us stronger. at least im coming out of the furnace soon, for those still on the shelf or worse, still on the wheel....its time to BUCK UP!
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