Love, PM and BS

Just some random thoughts:

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. Love lasts forever. Love is selfless, unconditional, sacrificial and gives. Love takes joy in serving. Love lasts forever, desires to benefit others at the expense of self. Without love, you are nothing.

If you claim you love someone and yet you do not qualify for ALL of these..then you have not truly loved the person, which indeed makes you..a nobody. Shocking? But true. Its all in the Word. Just these few days ive been meditating on those verses above..and true enough. We all need to renew our mind and start loving the God way!

God's wisdom and ways are higher than ours. In the Kingdom of God, the way up is the way down. Its hard to believe, but in e world..when people love..they love base on a CONDITION. There are terms and conditions involved. But to God, love is always unconditional.

In the world, when people love they say: I got to have him/her. He/she is mine. If I don't have him/her, it shows i don't love him/her.

Love is not something we FIGHT for. Love is something we LIVE for! Love is not something we should get but love is something we should GIVE so that they can GET!

Just think of it..how does God love? Not only does He talk the talk, He walk the walk! He demonstrates His love while yet we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Now what happens after that? Does He take the microphone from Heaven and say: After all I've done, how can you not love me???

Does He even say: Let's be together..

The answer is of course a BIG 'NO'! God is Agape. And God is gentle. He confesses His love to us, demonstrates His love..AND THEN..leaves us with a CHOICE to love Him back! But that doesnt mean He stops loving us either. Love has no terms and conditions. It is a CONVENANT, not some clause that you sign with paper and pen. Its not about Him being with us for eternity, but WE being with HIM in eternity!

"For Christ has not come into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him MIGHT be saved." Why MIGHT and not SHOULD or WILL..? Food for thought..

It's because when Jesus laid down His life..He knew that not everyone would love Him back.

So next time you claim you love someone..are you willing to be like Jesus?

Love is more than 'I love you', love is "I will STILL love you'. But of course, love is more than just an emotion, no one can force you to do anything, NO ONE! No doubt, circumstances WILL influence our choices but nevertheless, it is ultimately still OUR CHOICE bcos greater is He who is in us that he who is in e world, therefore, for someone who is strong and mature. There's no such thing as blind love, not unless e person is blind himself =p

Prayer meeting:

It was great. We had a long worship, waited on e Lord and many were touched and ministered. It was so God-encountering for me personally. Its time to get back that first love, that first passion! Then again, i have to reflect on what i had just post also about love..haha. Sometimes God gives u a revelation not only to build others up, but to build urself up as well XD

I miss OPMs..=)

Bible study:

Was good. learnt abt the Word of knowledge and word of wisdom :D ps zhuang was telling us, that what we were learning were formally bible school topics..haha and he said we were as good as bible school students =)

What was amazing was towards e end..there was a 'practical' session. All of us had to pair up..with TWO different people.

Basically we pray, we give a WoW or WoK or both to our partner whom we do not know. I started off sharing a word in cg a few times. And ive only done this, one on one thingy for less than 5-10 times. And everyone was like new and we were like praying in e spirit super long, cus we didnt know what to say..haha

but e first step is always e hardest. nevertheless, it was a good time to exercise our spiritual gifts. I never knew how accurate mine was..but for me, both WoK/WoW given by both people were 100% accurate..one was even 200% accurate..because it came together with a prohecy..of what is gonna happen to be, who i shld go to and what to do..

..which may not necessarily about something good. but like we learnt, WoK/W prepares us psychologically and spritually for e things ahead. e 2nd one was slightly harder..not only do we have to give a WoW/K to another different person whom we dont know..we had to accompany a scrpiture with it as well!! man..we prayed really really long..hahaha..

most of us were 'beginners' haha with maybe one or two 'intermediates'..:S next wk is 'discerning of spirits' lesson..if we do have a practical session..man, i dunno how is it gonna be..lol. i was greatly inspired by ps zhuang's testimony:

when he was in bible school. mike connell was teaching abt WoW/K. and e ppl were paired with an unknow person, everyone was blind folded. first, ps mike told them to speak a WoW/K. then he said: now take ur faith a step further and guess e gender of e person.

ps zhuang was correct. then ps mike said again: now i want you to take ur faith even further and guess e name of e person. and there were like over 300 people..and to get 1 name out of 300, only by God it's possible.

then as he said the person's name..'you are xxxxxx..' and immediately she fell on her knees, tearing before e presence of God..

one of e things ive learned..never despise your youth. we all will grow old one day. but more importantly, never despise what u are going through.

i was so touched..not only by his testimony, but by e 2 bros who prayed for me as well. it was such a personal moment tt ill never know if what i spoke tt night made any difference..but one thing i know, that when God speaks, He performs..

thank you Jesus..:)

Other random thoughts:

This week..missed out on cg's lunch at vivocity, missed out muso pract due to some misunderstanding..didnt answer calls..hand phone keeps on suddenly going dead, having me to restart here and there..(arrgh my old phone!!!)

im like so blur and not myself..dun be surprised if im not myself for e next few weeks/days or i becomes in worse states, esp after hearing frm God through a brother as to what im gonna face esp during this AnB period.

im more or less in a state of psychological and spiritual preparation..:S

theres this phrase that's stuck in my head right now: theres always a first time for everything.

this phrase' been given to me repeatedly by pam, on phone and MSN. i think i saw this phrase for like 3 times already in a week..lol :S God is preparing me..