im feeling good! no, im feeling bad! no, i dunno wad im feeling!

friday is coming. i dunno how im gonna do it.

sunday is coming, doing stage! i dunno how im gonna do it. WORSE!!!

i need a break..but i dunno how im gonna put it. think ill jus carry on with e state im in..

jus talked to xxxxxx on e phone, i promised her not to tell anyone. it was something personal. we exchanged personal stories, thoughts and feelings. jus wanna say dun give up k? if i can pull through this you can too! =) e 'badguy' wants u to be disconnected frm God so that he can isolate and make u vulnerable..but im gonna do my best to make sure tt u dont :D hehe..

stay near to e Shepard k? dun run off on ur own :D u have God, u have Wayne, u have me! hahaha =p thanks for talkin with me for almost an hour..i was like exploding on e inside..lol

so..am i feeling better since that day? nope. am i feeling worse? nope. am i feeling e same? nope. am i feeling anything? maybe. am i weird? YES!!!!