Shattered

Guess what..not only did I let one of the most important people in my life down, I even let people I do not know, down...

Now Im famous in the whole zone for some silly mistake made online.

Its always like that..whenever Im alone, Im always pretty happy. Ive always been happy living alone. Just me and my computer, like e guy who stabbed the Professor. Mind my own things and forget about the people around me...not like there's anybody around to begin with..

Whats the use of making friends when friends dont exist...whats the use of trying to be more sociable when socialising is more like a curse to me...

Maybe its not a good idea to show my face anymore...when I was young, people saw my face and wanted to punch me. Looks like that situation hasnt changed...

Ive never been good with people.
Nobody likes to hang around with me...
So whats the whole use of even living...

Things happen but what can I do?
Worked the whole day today and even worked OT to help my colleagues with the hampers..at the same time, fighing the flu virus the whole day.

During lunch time I was so exhausted I felt giddy. Great..first was nauseousness during fellowship and sensation of fainting, now giddyness while eating, before all those were chest pains..I guess I wont be around for very long..=s

Im tired. Ive got nothing more to sacrifice...
Nothing more to give...

I just wished God could take me home...my grandpa's saved, Im happy already...