lets talk about..

yea lets talk about..

talk bout what?

what abt talking?

what about talking about talkin abt what?

lol..if im losing u..please give urself a round of applause prease. o_o

okay..not bad..managed to wake up early. at 5am. at the expense of my ear becoming deaf! lols. maxed the HP volume and placed next to my ear..okay not next to my ear, but quite close. and e alarm clock on e other side. i think i woke up my family as well..:S lol.

reached expo at 7.05am. first time doing internal speakers so i got myself familiarised with e procedures and 'camping spots' ha. 6 spots in e main hall, with 8 more spots on tiers A-E. shuxia really said something tt gave me thought.

she said, 'so, where do u see yourself going? its always good to learn as much abt everything as possible. but since there are gonna be more newcomers every batch, you shld start specialising in something and put ur focus on it, so that not only are u able to do your part well, you can also ensure that those newcomers can be taught by u, they shld be able to learn something from u...'

when u serve, its not just about doing your part. but we work as a team. we look out for each other and we help each other to grow and learn. if u cant see it, u cant have it...' i was in deep thoughts when i heard it. and it really impressed something in me.

whats the point in excelling in what you do...if all you benefit is yourself? u can have all e power in e world, all e knowledge in e world, u can move in signs and wonders but without love, you are as good as nothing.

theres nothing wrong in being an IC. but are people learning from you? do you stand out among others and earn their respect and trust? you can have As in ur grades, but is it just for yourself, or even for God..OR..is it so that you can teach others? you may rise up to be a leader, is it just so that you have a sense of fulfilment? or is it so that lives can be changed?

you can earn big bucks..is it only for u and ur family? or is it for those out there who dont even have a single slice of bread a day? you can own many clothes, books, etc..is it so that you can enjoy your life or MORE than that..so that others can enjoy life together with you?

anything not born out of prayer...will not last...

similarly...anything not done out of love...will leave behind nothing...no influence, no impact, no transformation. its one thing to say: "i love doing this because i love it..OR..i love doing this because i love you."

even with love, where is it directed at? things or people?

back to ministry...

during svc, the black electric guitar broke its 1st string..e one at e bottom with e highest tone. but we boosted joe's electric to cover up for e other guitarist..

after svc had debriefing, even though the CD player incident was e recording guys, nevertheless, its something ALL of us can learn from. in service, ANYTHING can happen. imagine those ushers and security..the moment ps phil started prayin for e sick..and worse still those who are like right at e frontlines..

i liked what ps phil said, problems are good because we have e power to overcome and thus, we grow stronger everytime. to those with a carnal/pagan mind, they flee from problems, but for those with a renewed mind, because we have God, because we have guaranteed victory..no problem is too small..every problem CAN be overcome, thats why we go from glory to glory, strength to strength..dont let e problem eat u and grow, EAT THE PROBLEM and you grow yourself!

ill try to compile my notes. im sry i dun tink ill be posting sy rogers. 4 weeks of guest speakers..by e time i compile one service..itll accumulated and stacked. then after 4 weeks of guest speakers is easter, then benny hinn, then EMERGE! lol..ill never type finish..dont be too reliant on my notes either..hear God for yourselves. =D

e reason why i posted notes in e first place..was never so that ppl could copy and benefit, although those things came NATURALLY. my primary reason, started all e way back in JW, e first month after i joined e church, i started doing all these notes stuff. because like sy rogers said, i want to look back to look forward!

some ppl look back and follow where their faces turn to. some look back and their legs arent even moving. but some look back, see the faithfulness of God, and they have e strength to move forward!

during e sermon i was sitting inside e pastors' walkway next to tier-E. because it was near to one of my spots i was supposed to take sound level. comms for e speakers personnel were quite calm during sermon so i managed to catch something. and when ure all alone in that 'tunnel', God can touch you so easily.

i remembered tearing during e sermon. i knew noone was looking and i knew it was my chance to have my own private personal space with God. just before ps phil called for e altar call/healing altar call, i saw in my spirit..e HS walking past me in e tunnel. walking towards e backstage..just before ps phil mentioned he knew that e HS was standing beside him.

i dont think its a coincidence...i felt e presence of God for myself. and i remembered telling Him quietly in my heart, pls dont go yet..at least touch me before You go..and He turned around, walked to me and kissed my forehead, and placed his hands on my face and smiled at me. then He walked to the stage..

then ps phil gave e altar call..

i want more encounters with You God...i wanna go back to e days when i remembered..i was in school to use the photocopy center but it was 30minutes after closing hours. but you sent someone to open up e place for me..and i passed my project because of You...

God i want more of You..take my all in exchange for all of You...