Trojan, Adware, Spyware, Ahhhh...!

Arrgh, entered this website, then com got infected by trojan, 7 spyware and 21 adware. my whole IE got screwed and tons of endless processes and popups running on my com tt cant be closed, even though i close em frm CAD aka ctrl-alt-del.

and so happened that i was saving my video on my com, to publish to youtube later, when my com suddenly had the countdown to restart thing and my whole com had to restart. lol...arrgh. :S after restarting like countless times and triple scanning my com countless times (adware/spyware/virus), e Smitfraud-C spyware was finally removed.

but there are still after effects. my mediaplayer, directdraw and other web features have been corrupted. i have to re-download directx. at e same time, upgraded my IE to beta 7 and mplayer to beta 11. i like e new interface though..haha.

still havin a little after effects of that trojan-spyware attack.

man, i feel like reformatting my lappy lol. surprisingly, this year i nv reformat. haha. and i got a new MYKO buddy, benedict haha. he used to be in sound ministry also but he shifted to music ministry. not bad, got a fellow brother to play MYKO haha, so fun.

but still, i need a new game! lol. sob.

last night was crapping with brother shing..hahaha =p lol

well, i got this song frm cinthia last night. its a pretty nice song about a girl who walked past calvary. the middle portion is Jesus talking and the last stanza is God talking. e first few stanzas are conveyed by e girl.

i remember just now as i lay on my bed hearing this song, i couldnt stop the tears that flowed down my eyes as the whole cruxificion scene was played before my eyes. and i asked God why, 'I did it for you..' i grabbed my bolster and as i wept like a baby, i hugged my bolster tightly as if it were Jesus. tears couldnt stop flowing down my eyes..Jesus, I love you, Jesus I thank You...

and i saw Jesus walking towards me, putting his hands on e sides of my face like a loving Father holding a child, "dont cry, My child..." and i could sense Him hugging me like a Father hugs His child...i lay there crying and crying...for over 15 minutes..

i was in e presence of God..

here are e lyrics, its a pretty moving song. touched me deeply on how much God loved me. i was especially touched at e point where even God Himself felt helpless when Jesus was crying out.

Why - Nichole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my Daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows
Daddy, please can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry
you said he was stronger than all of those guys
Daddy, please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die?"

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And Daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide

So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for My robe?
This crown of thorns hurts Me more than it shows
Father, please can't You do something?
I know that You must hear My cry
I thought I could handle the cross of this size
Father, remind Me why
Why does everyone want Me to die?
When will I understand why?"

"My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe You in robes of My own
Jesus, this hurts Me much more than You know
But this dark hour I must do nothing
Though I've heard Your unbearable cry
The power in Your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon You'll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below, see the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell You why
She is why You must die"