Update

For those wondering, yes, im feeling better now after a talk with adam. Other thanks goes out to timo and pam. Dont even think for a second that fasting is easy. fasting is spiritual warfare, especially when the devil knows ure doing 3/12, 5/12 every week.

when u fast. u must pray.
when u fast. u must refrain.
when u fast. u cant afford to lose your temper.
when u fast. u cant sin.
when u fast. no one else must come in your way.
you must set aside the entire day, for God.
when you fast. guard your heart.
when you fast. guard your mind.
when you fast. consecrate yourself.
when you fast. you think about God all day and about His kingdom.
when you fast. dont think about what you want.
when you fast. focus on the interests of God, rather than the interests of yourself.
when you fast. crucify your flesh.
when you fast. be sensitive.
when you fast. be obedient.
when you fast. dont show off.
when you fast. have passion because you love God.

basically, you eat, sleep, drink and think God. and try not to sleep. fasting is time set aside for God. not time set aside for yourself! that is why i dont fast 6 to 6 because i know i wont be able to wake up at 6am. i fast from the time i start, till the time i end. 12 hours. straight. staying awake and focusing on God and praying and consecrating your life.

thats just my own conviction. sometimes you should really go back to the sermon on "Preference vs Conviction". ask me and ill give you the link. its a rather back-dated sermon, but its powerful. powerful to make people who are not serious, who are not willing, to leave the church..so powerful that it only leaves behind those who are really serious with God.

you wanna love God? then love Him with all youve got. if not, dont love at all. you're either hot, or cold. dont be lukewarm!

and please eat something before you fast and after you fast. be wise. fasting is not a means of dieting, even though indirectly you're doing that. fasting is not a means for you to torture your own health! fasting is something spiritual..and you've got to think spiritual.

even though i may be in school, i try to take time off in some toilet somewhere and pray and talk to God. thats how desperately passionate i am! are you willing to be a fool for christ? or do you only care about yourself and what you want?

devil, dont try to piss me off. ure only gonna make me stronger. FOOL!

something funny happened yesterday..rhonda was calling for me after cg, then she realised i was standing behind and yea..you can hear a scream lol. i seriously dont know. i know its halloween but i dont get it how people can freak out whenever they turn back and notice me standing there or when i open my mouth?

is my "presence" really that intimidating? hahaha. maybe thats how i can discern things. im there but im not there. i can hide my spiritual aura..yea..sounds like something off the bleach anime, oh what the heck..haha. but seriously..i find it amusing.

i mean, i dont intend to scare them or what..i just stand there and they get a shock. lol. did God do something to me? haha. i may be the quiet sort..but i know things and im a very sensitive person..emotionally and spiritually. i can encourage because i can discern, i can understand, and i can sympathize..

sometimes, i can unknowingly say things that 'strike' a person because the Holy Spirit is my partner. unknowingly..

i guess thats the only good thing ive got then..:o