Swensons + Reflections

was supposed to meet Mr Png at NUH but his schedule was rather tight so i decided to go down another time. :S

im getting stressed already. next week start IHP. just thinking of it makes me feel nauseous and uncomfortable. my heart is pounding and my stomach has butterflies.

nothing much happened today.

went to swensons @ JP for dinner with pohchoo, pam, liz, thad, tim, adam. its been like months since i had ice-cream. guess im really a deprived person..i dont really crave food very much. to me..i dont find enjoyment in eating..unless e food is like really nice.

2 more days to go..5/12. im worn out. im tired. im frustrated. about some things, which i dont feel i need to tell anyone. its not like anyone's free to listen anyway..everyone's so busy.

i feel very far away..from anyone for that matter..and with the start of IHP, i think im gonna drift further away in terms of relationships with e people around me.

its getting tiring and lonely with nobody to talk to. talk to them like talking to a bunch of YAWAS. not accountable at all.

im getting more desperate with each passing day..more stressed with each passing day. im starting to feel e way i felt months ago again. that feeling is coming back. i dont wanna talk to anybody, i dont feel like talking to anybody.

2 celgrps to play tomorrow and the day after. i dont know how im gonna survive. and i havent even started my proposal. :S

im just gonna lock myself up, mind my own business. dont have to worry about me, dont have to care about me, dont even have to think i exist. just wanna be left alone...