CG, Random
CG was great. Alvin led today.
After cg I came home, only to realise that even my brother wants to take away my only day I have for myself. Come home only I have to shout at people.
In camp, I suffer, come home, also suffer.
Im only home for less than 24hrs and you want to get rid of me. If people arent leaving me, they are chasing me away.
I feel homeless, lonely and depressed enough. Everyday I live alone. Even my lunch, I had to go out and have it alone. Didnt have breakfast today, all I had for breakfast was a bottle of leftover sugar cane.
Just now was craving for pizza hut but I dont think anyone would want to accompany me anyway. Either that or they're too busy and I dont blame them. Life is cruel.
Spent last night chatting with adelene. Its been like ages since we even saw each other or talked.
Even though Im the one sharing most of the time, I still feel so blessed to know that when we water others, we ourselves will be watered.
Sorry, just let me rant. I hardly have anyone to share with.
Since I entered NS, for the past 3..almost 4 months, I only had ONE day to myself. That day was my day of mc when I could book in on monday..other than that. I never had time for myself.
Ive been working non-stop, pushing myself, tiring myself, draining myself, injuring myself for the past 3 months non-stop.
Its great to see people getting attached, its great to see people have a 're-nao' family/home, its great to see people have their own clicks and going out together, have great laughs and chats, spend quality time together.
I have none of that.
Ive been blogging MORE during my ns period than other days. Because I just have no one to talk to. Its as if Im talking to myself just to keep myself sane and socialised..with myself..
Like some people said, self-entertainment, blablablah.
People are starting to ask me, when will my emo posts end. Seriously, I dont know. And Im not interested either. Right now, Im just living for the sake of living, which is kinda sad actually.
I have a feeling Ill blog again later.
Till then. Im really thankful to God for my bookout.
I dare say, Ive not missed a single service or celgrp meeting during my 3-4 months of BMT! Ive not stayed in ONCE!
Well, if you DO find another NS guy who has never missed service or cg during BMT, let me know, we can become great friends.
Impossible! You might say.
With God, all things are possible.
All things work out for good to those who love Him
and are called according to His purpose.
No weapon formed against me shall prosper.
If you love God enough,
If you make room for God enough,
Im sure your faith will move the heart and the hand of God in your life.
Its not about how good I am, blablablah.
Who is God to you?
After cg I came home, only to realise that even my brother wants to take away my only day I have for myself. Come home only I have to shout at people.
In camp, I suffer, come home, also suffer.
Im only home for less than 24hrs and you want to get rid of me. If people arent leaving me, they are chasing me away.
I feel homeless, lonely and depressed enough. Everyday I live alone. Even my lunch, I had to go out and have it alone. Didnt have breakfast today, all I had for breakfast was a bottle of leftover sugar cane.
Just now was craving for pizza hut but I dont think anyone would want to accompany me anyway. Either that or they're too busy and I dont blame them. Life is cruel.
Spent last night chatting with adelene. Its been like ages since we even saw each other or talked.
Even though Im the one sharing most of the time, I still feel so blessed to know that when we water others, we ourselves will be watered.
Sorry, just let me rant. I hardly have anyone to share with.
Since I entered NS, for the past 3..almost 4 months, I only had ONE day to myself. That day was my day of mc when I could book in on monday..other than that. I never had time for myself.
Ive been working non-stop, pushing myself, tiring myself, draining myself, injuring myself for the past 3 months non-stop.
Its great to see people getting attached, its great to see people have a 're-nao' family/home, its great to see people have their own clicks and going out together, have great laughs and chats, spend quality time together.
I have none of that.
Ive been blogging MORE during my ns period than other days. Because I just have no one to talk to. Its as if Im talking to myself just to keep myself sane and socialised..with myself..
Like some people said, self-entertainment, blablablah.
People are starting to ask me, when will my emo posts end. Seriously, I dont know. And Im not interested either. Right now, Im just living for the sake of living, which is kinda sad actually.
I have a feeling Ill blog again later.
Till then. Im really thankful to God for my bookout.
I dare say, Ive not missed a single service or celgrp meeting during my 3-4 months of BMT! Ive not stayed in ONCE!
Well, if you DO find another NS guy who has never missed service or cg during BMT, let me know, we can become great friends.
Impossible! You might say.
With God, all things are possible.
All things work out for good to those who love Him
and are called according to His purpose.
No weapon formed against me shall prosper.
If you love God enough,
If you make room for God enough,
Im sure your faith will move the heart and the hand of God in your life.
Its not about how good I am, blablablah.
Who is God to you?
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