6th Post

feeling very moodless now..

it seemed that when im high, im the only one there. feels like.."nobody can click with you" that kind of feeling. eventually, not being able to find anyone to talk to..i plunged. now i dont feel like doing anything..i only slept 3hrs last night..

and my eyes feel like they're bursting now, and all red. and i have 2 assignments to finish, one test and a run to do. all in 5 hours. this will probably be my final post today.

all this while..what have i been doing? studying? yes..for what reason? for the sake of studying. i given up on IT one year ago. what I learn now, is irrelevant 2-3years time. i just feel that ive wasted 4 years of my life..doing nothing but pointless programming..

i dont see any future in the history. everyone's reminding me of their graduations..all the NS, all the celebrations. and here i am, rotting 4 years of my life away. i couldve used it to do soo much more!!

you dont need skill to master programming..you just need foolishness to make the decision to take IT in e first place T_T. i dont want to continue anymore..