Irritated

To people who drink,
To people who smoke,
To people who drug,
To people who have temper problems,

Wanna know how your future looks like?

You lying on a bed.
Half paralyzed.
Half conscious.
Living in darkness.
Unable to respond.
Unable to speak.
Unable to express.
Unable to even swallow your saliva, but let it accumulate.
Unable to bathe.
Unable to cough out phlegm.
You lie there, choking and drowning in your own saliva and phlegm.
And you can do nothing about it since you're paralyzed in a stroke.
Your urine starts having blood.
You develop body odour.
You cant scratch yourself.
You cant adjust your sleeping position.
You have tubes going into your nose and down your stomach.
You have tubes going into your hands.
You have more tubes going down your throat to suck out your saliva.

They say stroke is just immobility.

Not true. You are aware.

You can see yourself in pain.
You can see yourself suffer in silence.

If ure a bad person, ull be lonely.
If ure a good person,
From my experience,
Even some of your friends wont be there.

Everyone is doing something.

Was there anyone to chat with me? No.
Was there anyone to give me a hug? No.
Was there anyone to make me smile? No.
Was there anyone to make me laugh? No.
Was there anyone at all? No.
Was there anyone to pray with me? No.
Was there anyone to even sit with me? No.

Thank God for prayer warriors. Thank God for cg and family.
But as far as love is concerned, my boat is still vacant.
Many have told me love. But almost none have shown it.

Jesus, the invisible, is praying for me too.

Jesus, the invisible, gives me His presence and His love.

So what are we, the VISIBLE, doing?

You dont have friends meh?
No I dont.

Passer-bys? Yes.

Part-timers? Yes.

You dont hang out meh?
No I dont.

You dont at least go out somewhere meh?
No I dont.

Do you at least have someone to talk to?
No I dont.

Im struggling with my prospect list cus I have no one in mind, ill be honest.

What about the people around you?
Huh? WHAT PEOPLE AROUND ME??? O.O