Jog, Randoms, Angels in disguise

Well, jogged in the afternoon today, well, more like early evening cus its around 3-4 plus? =) After jogging usually I would cool down, then sit on a bench all by myself and just share stuff with God.

Anyway, jogging around that time, compared to night jogging, is really STRENUOUS!

I lasted only 3/4 of the entire lap before I started walking. =/ I think I gotta stop my night jogs and really work on my daytime jogs.

The road is so jam packed, the vehicles are just producing too much CO2 and CO, more than the trees can supply O2. =/ I was literally panting and gasping for air after running just 3/4 of the lap. I dont know, its definitely not the heat cus there wasnt any sun at that time.

Its just that, running at that time was different, and harder. =/

Well, on the bright side, anywhere I jog, I will see other people jogging, haha..so that kinda gives me the motivation to keep running. Its like, you have this, "Hey! A fellow runner!" kind of feeling, okay, I dont know how to say this but..it feels like..

Im not lonely anymore. =/

Maybe Im just a really simple guy, I dont know. I mean, all these runners are strangers, and yet, just running and meeting other ppl who run, is enough to make me feel, 'hey, im not alone'.

Just like when Im going through tough times, I dont need anyone to say anything or do anything, just being there was more than enough for me.

Maybe I can safely say that, when it comes to relationships, I place character above anything else. Im someone who can be pleased easily haha. I laugh at almost anything and everything.

And Im blessed to have a simple life. Where Im always happy, yet at the same time, longing for more of God.

I must say, my prayer life's a bit lagged behind. I really gotta start training to last 5 days at least. Now it seems after 2-3 days, my prayer life will drop. We should never be too busy for God. He's more busy than us, yet He's there for you, for him, for her, for them, for everyone.

Im really thankful to all those compliments and feedback Ive received from various people concerning my blog. I really appreciate it. =)

Sometimes people ask, where do I get my inspirations from?
What keeps me blogging? Why do I always have something to talk about?

Well, I dont know either. Haha. I guess its just a part of me.

I love blogging, I love typing, I love making a diary, so that one day when I have kids, I can say to them,

"Look deary, when daddy was young, God has been so good to me, now Im old, He's still good to me, Keep on loving, keep on giving, Im sure daddy God will bless you too."

Like the faith of a child, I wish that one day when Im in heaven, Ill be able to blog again and Ill be able to read my archives, the things Ive gone through, the tough times, the times when I felt down but not out, and the times God came through for me.

Its a passion for me. I love God a lot. Im not ashamed to say that. I will confess to the whole world to hear. I love Him so much, every word He says, Ill remember it for as long as I live.

Even during the times when He felt so far away, I would still want to remember, because its in those times, that I realised that I still love Him. ;)

As for my inspiration, I get bored easily. Like now, I just sit on my chair, by my laptop, either on the table or beside me on my bed. And I will just stone, waiting for time to fly by whenever I cant seem to bring myself to sleep.

And inspirations and revelations will just come.

Not bad..people fast and pray for revelations, Im really thankful to God that Im blessed to be able to receive rhema and revelations just by stoning. haha. Its really the grace of God.

Sometimes we just need to be still, and know that He is God.

Sometimes we know our situation so well, we know our problems inside out, yet we do not know God as much. We tend to know our problems and issues more than we know God.

When we go through tough times, we get drawn to the problems rather than to God, we get drawn to ourselves rather than to God. We become problem-centered and self-centered, instead of being God-centered.

Before a person can be commited, one must first be focused.

True?

How can you commit if ure losing focus all the time?

Focus is like = level1 skill
Commitment is like = level10 skill

Put it this way, if a toddler doesnt know how to shit, how is he going to cultivate the habit of going to the toilet at least once a day?

If you dont know how to stand up, how are you gonna run?

Like I mentioned previously..

Knowing how great God is, is nothing if one doesnt acknowledge how weak and how 'nothing' he/she is without Him.

Its just like what Ps said, you can have the best food served to you and yet you have no appetite.

Yet on the other hand, no one can be serving you food, yet you're so hungry you get food for yourself. I think thats how I am with God. I dont need God to be brought to me, most of the time, Ill run around looking for Him, like a husband searching for his wife, and vice versa.

When Im bored, He is on my mind.
When Im happy, Im already with Him.
When Im down, I run to Him.

Okay, Ive run out of thoughts haha. Im tired, its time to go to bed. Have work tomorrow.

I wanna watch Iron Man and H&K!

Also, I really buay tahan, I need to go NP Canteen 1 to have my jap food this thursday! HAHA. The craving..omgosh. LOL.

Dont stop me please. Hahaha. No worries, Ill still have my jog after that.

Most likely Ill be going alone..but its okay, during my IHP period for 2 years, I go school alone anyway. Probably just sit in one corner, look at the scenery and think of God.

Aww..how romantic.

But deep down, yea, which human being would want to be alone? I mean, itll be good if somehow I meet someone I know or some stranger comes to me, sits on my table and starts talking to me.

Ill never forget the days I felt so alone in school, trapped with my programming and nobody to talk to. Also, Ill never forget the incident when I felt lonely doing my IHP, when everyone else was having internship.

And I was sitting in Canteen3 by myself. It was quite empty cus I had breakfast there. And all of a sudden this korean came out of nowhere, sat down by my side and started talking about God and sharing some of his experiences. Times like these, when Im alone, I always get 'angelic encounters'.

Angels who disguise themselves as humans.

This is not the first time. Last time I was down, and alone, walking in the streets late at night after midnight, on the verge of giving up on celgrp. And 3 strangers came and talked to me, cheered me up. Asked for my number, somehow stayed quite close to me, never saw them again.

Everytime I get 'strangers' coming to me, more than 75% of those encounters feels as if God was talking to me Himself. And very often, even though we were in common ground whether is it same block, same estate, same school, every 'angelic-man' encounter results in me not seeing them ever again.

So far, all those strangers who ministered to me, who 'stayed' or 'worked' in the same area as me, I never got to see them again. And it always happens when Im alone and when theres hardly anyone else around me, in PUBLIC places...=O

Sometimes its good to revisit those memories, I miss school days already. Its not fun and memorable because of friends, thank God for great friends, but its really because of the encounters I had that will forever remain in my memory.

My journey has mostly been a lonely one, yet its always just me and God. Holding each other's hands every step of the way. God has made it special for me, thanks for everything. =)

Anyway, just a random thought.

If a person hasnt fallen in love or if no one has ever fallen for you,
You'll never really understand how God feels about you. Its the exact same feeling.
(Minus the negative thoughts and emotions).

Saw wendy and JS's msn nicks...

"Because of Him, I got no strength to stop."

What a great word.