The presence of God

okay, so im REALLY bored. i dont know how many times ive blogged today already lol. i really dont know what to talk about. a friend once asked me, hows it like to be a celgrp guitarist?

well..that depends on how the person sees it. when i was young..in age and in spirituality, i used to love the presence of God..i loved looking at people play e guitar. it started off as an interest, a passion. then it grew into visualization, faith and revelation.

back then..i didnt really know how to play. i started from NOTHING. yea..pretty strange right? i didnt know how to play a single chord and i wanna play for celgrp..how young and childlike my faith was..haa.

i would imagine myself..in front of people..playing..not showing off..but seeing how people were touched by e presence of God..tears..healing..encounters..faith!

soon i started self-learning..just by googling for stuff online..listening to songs and playing along with them. took me about 4-6 months to be able to play decently. i remember those nights when i was alone in my bedroom at night..i took the guitar and i played noise..literally NOISE. i didnt know how chords looked like..

i just placed my fingers all over the fretboard as if im some 'pro', act like those i see on videos and play. it sounded horrible! but..the wonderful thing is..the presence of God came. and God took that dream and made it a reality.

dont despise the days of small beginnings..dont despise even that which is unpleasant/ugly/disgusting, because if it's for God..it shall be sanctified and anointed. God can use David's smooth stones and a slingshot, God used Shamgar's oxgoad, The 5 loaves and 2 fish..is there anything or anyone He cant use?

well..playing techniques an chords can be learnt. but anointing cannot be learnt. its either you have it, or you dont. even if u dont have it..but if you are hungry enough..and you have the right attitude..God can still use you.

even till now, i cant really say i can play very well..cus obviously there are others out there who can. even ps kong couldnt play very well but he brings down e presence of God like mad! i can bring down e presence of God..not because i have magical hands or mouth...but because i have the character and the attitude for God to use.

when u have e presence of God..u can change your world. when you have e presence of God..you can change people. when you have e presence of God..you have dreams and visions, you know things and God reveal things to you..

david says.."Lord..do not take your Holy Spirit from me..". do not take the presence and the anointing of God away. i can lose everything..but one thing i live for..one thing i treasure..

is the presence of God..you cant earn it..God decides who to give it to..

a heart of worship..a heart of love..a heart of brokenness..a spirit of sensitivity..the fruits of the spirit. are my 'secrets' to the presence of God. i can get myself out depression easily..not because im strong..but because of LOVE. when you have love..hate will go. light dispels darkness.

i dont really care how people see me, or think or say about me. im doing what God wants me to do..and as long as He is happy..nothing else matters because all I need is You..

back to celgrp guitarist..

being a cgg is not easy. but with God, it can be exciting. you have to be able to bring down e presence of God NO MATTER how your day has been. You have to be sensitive to the holy spirit, to flow with Him and with the leader. when God moves, be quick to follow. you have to learn to multitask ;)

praying + playing, singing + playing, playing + giving a word/prophesy. thats why no matter what im going through..im able to still bring smiles to people, to encourage people. and i dont take that for granted; in fact, im really thankful for God for that.

are there times when i didnt feel like praying? yes. are there times i didnt feel like worshipping and praising God? definitely. but as a celgrp guitarist. you need spiritual backbone! there are times i sit in the midst of a stressed out and worn out 'crowd'. but...i know God has given me this opportunity. and a celgrp guitarist has to change the atmosphere..

ultimately, its more than just e presence of God..u have to build atmosphere..and CHANGE atmosphere. you have to be able to stir people up! when u are offended..bring down e presence of God. when u are depressed, bring down e presence of God. when u are angry/sad/tired, bring down e presence of God...

in other words..there are times you CANNOT afford to be offended. you cannot afford to slip. you have to keep ur emotions in check all the time. the moment you drop, the entire celgrp atmosphere will drop.

the celgrp guitarist is the key..the gate..what a privilege it is..yet what a responsibility. but God is always faithful..=)