Dry Season

yes it has come. the dry season of my life. somehow i just feel that..FOP didnt satisfy me. i didnt experience God the way I used to. no doubt e presence of God was there, bt it wasnt as tangible as normal svc day.

never take e presence of God for granted.

im slacking in my quiet time..when i DO have my quiet time, its still 'sub-standard'

last week was filled with encounters and all, this week's been pretty dry. im tired. probably from boredom. i have no school and its disturbing. miracles and encounters always happen in school! when im out there!

i find it so true now..because ive experienced it first hand. i will never forget what i encountered during the cg at pam's grandma's house 2 weeks ago..i still remember that morning alone in my room with my guitar..

this week's been shag for me. when im alone its when all the temptations will overwhelm me. i just felt that ive not put God first this week. last wk things were different. i prayed every single day, everywhere i go..i was so close to Him..

i knew i couldve loved Him more..

everyday i wake up and face e com..either im gaming or im stoning, or merely wasting my time away. just now as i had my quiet time, tears flowed down my face. i felt God's presence, yes..but not as tangible.

one side says: i cried because i felt e presence of God.
the other side says: i cried because i wasnt satisfied. im really not.

this is the true test for me. when you have cg and normal service, u encounter God, and ur life is changed. but when you dont have cg for a week/normal service, will you still touch God the same way?

adam once told me: what if one day, e.g. in e endtimes, ure not allowed to have church?

what if one day there's no more celgrp and ure not allowed to carry e bible anymore.

what would you do? would you still experience God the same way? will you remain on fire the same way? what if one day you get separated from the ones you love and you cant see ur celgrp members for a long time? you are just one man, can you still bring down the presence of God?

that is my greatest challenge i feel God is telling me.

One man can make a difference. I wanna be like Shamgar. Even though i cant feel God as much, I wont give up. Ill keep on keeping on. My happiest day of my life is not when i get married, although that would be nice..haha..

i guess for now..the happiest moment of my life, is when i can bring down the tangible presence of God even when im just one person..

When you are down, God is there.
Dont see who you are, see who you can be.
Dont look at what you dont have, look at what you can achieve.

Somehow i feel im speaking to some people. Just like me, you may be disappointed, dry. Ask yourself, right here, right now, what are you going to do? Are you going to back down, or are you going to be like shamgar?

Are you going to look at what has happened? Or are you going to look at what WILL happen? An oxgoad may not be much, but in the hands of a great God, there's no odds too great that you cannot overcome..

Dont watch things happen, dont wonder what happened, but be someone who make things happen! =)