MRI Scan - Updates

Acute Cortica Stroke.
Area near central brain.

Swelling which is causing heavy drowsiness.

Main artery transferring blood to that section is damaged.
(Prob due to high blood pressure)

Hopefully when swelling subsides, the body dynamics can send blood there
through other arteries.

Ability to stand or walk is substantially limited.
2 drugs given to lower BP and hopefully the brain heals before embarking on therapy
And rehabilitation.

Unable to swallow, speak, move facial muscles, open eyes.
(Feeling very weak, that part of the brain isnt sending any signals)
Because the eye muscles round the sockets havent been used lately,
Its started to turn blueish black, as if the cells are dying out.

Zoning in and out of semi consciousness.

Left side temporarily paralyzed.

1 nasal tube for oxygen.
1 nasalgastro tube, into the nose to stomach, for feeding.
1 drip tube on arm for medication.

Since June 2008, before I enlisted. Ive been fighting non stop.
Most of the time, Im all alone, apart from my parents.

17 months have passed since that day.
Im still fighting alone.

Not once hugged, not once held tight, not once had any shoulder to cry on.
Not once had any listening ear to pour my heart out.

Everyone is busy 'fulfilling the cultural mandate'.

When Im praying, apart from my parents, those who were 'supportive' of me,
Were really behind me all the way, so far behind I dont see anyone.

When Im fighting the devil and casting sickness out,
It was the same scene. Look left, look right, no one.

Thank God for my parents.
If they can do it, I dont see why anyone else cant.
And I must really thank my cg, those who prayed for me, really appreciate it.
And thank you 'dragonlady' for crapping with my nonsense LOL.

Its almost 2 years since that day.
The devil hasnt stopped, not even for one month.

I think I visit the hospital so much, almost every month, I think the staff there
Recognise my face already.

"Dont worry, Im sure you'll find the right one soon"
HAHAHA! (Laughs until I faint)

Now, who's willing to forsake all to share the life Im living?
And to go through 'hell' together?

Only superwoman.

APEC deployment - Fri morning shift. Sat night shift (which will end on Sun around 9-10 depending on how many jokers there are in the neighbourhood). After night shift, rush for S4. Can imagine the arrival of Panda Warrior. Me.