Unbearable, Angel

This morning had an encounter with an 'angel'. i was eating alone in e canteen as usual..when this guy came up to me. sat at my table and talked to me about the things of God.

its 9-10am in e morning and e canteen was quite quiet and empty. i soon found out that that guy's from korea. and when i heard korea, man, i told myself..respect man. everything he say, i listen. u have a church of 900,000 in korea and more than half of e world's largest churches are in one country itself, korea.

as i listened he began to share some things and i too shared about my life, how i got saved and how i held on through my tough times. and its like..i dont even know this guy, but we managed to talk as if we'd known each other for years.

and at one point, he began to ask.."so..how do you know you are saved?" and my instant reply was, "erm..i just know". and i think he got stunned. so he asked, "so what is it that makes you so sure?" and well, i told him about my life and all..the experiences i have..

and i began to realize..from him, more than just experiences, more than just beliefs, more than just love..we are saved because the Word said so that if u believe with ur heart and confess with your mouth..and the verse goes on..

and HS began to ask me, so how do you know you can pass your final year project? and i couldnt answer. i just smoked my way through unknowingly.."well, i prayed and i believe." and HS said, "thats not enough, without the word, all that you believe, all that you do..all that you see around you, wouldnt have existed in the first place!"

and i got shocked. right there..eating my cai-fan..

and i felt so convicted..sometimes our life can be so supernatural and so exciting, and we feel God is so close to us, YET..it is HIS word that will never pass away! thats how grounded and how dependent the koreans are..not just on the HS, but on the Word.

then i felt so enlightened..and i remembered one thing..

With the Word alone, ull dry up.
With the Spirit alone, ull blow up.
But with the Word AND the Spirit ull GROW up!

ive been praying no doubt. ive been having encounters, ive been serving and fellowshipping, ive brought a friend to the Lord, ive been loving God wholeheartedly and loving people fervently, BUT!!!!

The Word has disappeared. I can pray, i can fast, i can experience the supernatural, but the WORD HAS LOSEN ITS HOLD OVER MY LIFE!

and i sat there..presence of God came..and even tho i didnt show it..but i was about to tear..i was about to give up on my project. i really do. im tired of sitting there in e room everyday, staring into space and stoning and no matter how hard i tried to think, i just wouldnt know how to do the coding!

and the 'angel' continued to share..and this time..he showed me a verse..it says how do we know we have eternal life? when we abide in Him and He in me. and when we abide in Him and He in us, we can do all things, we can be e head and not e tail, we can be more than conquerors, we can move mountains, no weapon formed against us will prosper...BUTTTT!!!!

what does it mean for Him to abide in us and we in Him? it is the Word abiding in us and we in the Word!!!! instantly i got the revelation of my life!

so what if ure saved for 5 years?
so what if ure experiencing the supernatural?
so what if uve completed bible study?
so what if u love God wholeheartedly and love people fervently?
so what if ure actively serving God?
so what if ure winning souls?
so what if ure in a position of authority?
so what if ur life is blessed?
so what if you pray everyday and fast every week?
SO WHAT!! SO WHAT!!

without the Word..you'll never break through!
without the Word..you'll never move on to the next level!
without the Word..THE HEAVENS AND THE EARTH WOULDNT HAVE BEEN FORMED!
without the RHEMA, Peter wouldnt have had the faith to walk on water!
without the RHEMA, Christ wouldnt have endured the cross!
without the RHEMA, Paul wouldve died and stay in prison all his life!

immediately i thought of this song..

Who am I, that You would know me from the start,
Set me apart.
Who am I, that You would place eternity,
Into my heart.
You have given to me,
More than this world could give
My purpose is found in You

One life, I lay at Your altar.
One love, I have with You.
Touch me again,
Fill me as You hold
My outstretched hands.

One word, You know I will follow.
One heart, broken to You.
Use me again,
Your mercies follow me
For all my days.

In Your presence,
In Your power,
Holy Spirit I surrender.