Limits

I cant stand it anymore. Peeping at my SMSes, intruding into my privacy. If I werent your friend Id make a police call already.

Since you dont trust me, since you dont even trust the person that lent you money, since you dont trust the person that gave you housing, since you dont trust the person that gave you jeans to wear and shoes to put on..

So i might as well make it public over here right?

You assume all the time. Now you think that i think you're gay. Thats bullshit. You think the whole world is out to get you? Even if its not true..you make it seem as if you're expecting it to happen. Keep on expecting and sooner or later its gonna happen.

What? you want me to say you're gay? come on..give me a break. Why do you think you're still staying in my house for goodness sake? You think i have nothing else better to do? You think i dont know you took elaine's phone and checked her smses too?

Come on..i believe in a God who's real, a God who sees. Theres nothing hidden from me. Be real. I wonder if any part of your life is even based on a fact..im just thinking maybe your entire life is based on assumptions.

You think i dont have a life? You think you're my only friend? Come on..the world population is 8 billion. and Singapore's population is 4million. You can continue checking my smses, checking my phone calls and messages and even read my blog. i dont really care..you wanna think that way, then theres nothing i can do to help, if you dont wanna help yourself.

You just betrayed my trust. i knew you intruded into my privacy for 2 weeks already..but i still gave you the benefit of the doubt. i said nothing. but no, you still intruded into my privacy time and time again and took advantage of the only one who gave you a place to stay.

if you dont like me, if you dont trust me, then ure always free to leave. you think i have so many bad things to say about you..then so be it. i cant do anything if you think that way. despite knowing you read my smses and intrude on my privacy, i still lent you my phone, even though i know you were gonna do something like that..

but nooo, every single time, you took advantage of me. you took advantage of my kindness, took advantage of my patience. which other person in the world will let you stay over for more than 2 weeks? im all you got in terms of a place to live in, food to eat..but noo..you still took advantage of me and think im all out to get you..

i dont wanna say anymore. continue taking advantage of me..continue suspecting me, continue intruding on my privacy...continue thinking e whole world is out to get you..that you are the center of the whole world..thats stinking thinking.

im tired of this. i have other things bothering me. if you wanna cast me aside then go ahead. as a friend i let you choose. no one's gonna stop you.

how does it feel to know someone's been touching me huh?
how does it feel to know that a friend of mine is depressed and suicidal?
how does it feel to know my secrets huh?

you wanna know how many times i masturbate a year too?
you wanna know how many girls ive slept with in a year too?
Give me a break. dont tell me you even believed that.

I wonder how does it feel if the whole world knows about YOUR SECRETS?
I wonder how does it feel if the whole world knows about YOUR PERSONAL LIFE?
about your relatives and your family, about your army!?!
Just look at my views..i have 73,000 over views!

You ask me to keep a secret, i did. Now you are looking into my secrets. Dont force me. i have pastors reading my blog, i have overseas businessmen reading my blog, i have foreigners reading my blog. one more wrong move and ill expose everything! to everyone! EVERYWHERE!

Dont lose the only person who trusts you.
Dont lose the only person you've got.
If you dont wanna take good care of it, one day you will lose it.

If all the while you dont even trust me, why the heck did you even tell me your story in the first place? And you have to forward my smses to people?

You want me to do the same to you huh? You want to feel my pain? Ask for it and ill give it to you..