Service and lessons learnt! (LONG POST)

Hmm i dunno what happened to the Ed Silvoso thingy..my friend said he preached at FCBC. erm..ookay..so..hmm..i blur haha. anyway, saw wyelin today..haha..we were like stoned or something lol..mebbe its just me..haha.

anyway, service was great. back in hall 8! and its been so long since, i felt such tangible presence of God. i wept during worship, even when i prayed..i prayed so hard that tears were 'squeezed' out of my eyes..deep calling unto deep, the hunger for more of God, the hunger for a breakthrough, for God to bring us to a whole new level!

this song is just so meaningful to me. i remembered the first time i gave my heart to Jesus. my first love..its something ive caught once again today. message was strong, convicting, and definitely life changing. ive looked at the 10 commandments at a whole new perspective. ive heard ps kong preach before, but this time, its different..

you can hear e same message, but e revelation is always fresh, different, in season, in the kairos moment a rhema at the right time that will change your life. this svc almost dealt with every weak area of my life and i was so blessed and ministered..

i remembered what adam said during cgm last night..when ur foundation is on God the solid rock, your life will never be shaken. but if your foundation is on man, then when they fade, you will fade along with them. its not what you believe, its WHO you believe!

i was also reminded many things ps said during the marriage seminar. that communication is the key and you can NEVER assume that people know what you are thinking. if you fail to communicate, you fail in a relationship. and my relationship with God, is like a marriage, a covenant..even though there are times i failed, but He held strong, His hand was always there for me.

similarly, today's msg, was abt dealing with hurts and anger. you can hear in hear out. you can be a hearer without being a DOER! thats why i hardly get angry..not because im hiding it, but because i deal with it before the sun sets. i always keep my emotions in check and i know what i should think what i shouldnt think.

people always tell me, i feel this, i feel that..SO WHAT. im someone who dont care what i feel, when im down, i dont care how i feel, all i feel is the heartbeat of God. its not about what you feel, its about what you KNOW. its not about you, its about GOD!

Going to church is not just 'feed me', but its about serving others! its about placing the lives of others before yourself, that without God, you are nothing. but with God, all things are possible. and during e sermon i felt as if God was discipling me.

many times i feel many things..but adam was always there to correct me. "I DONT CARE WHAT YOU ARE FEELING. What would God do?" at first i thought, man, thats something harsh to say to me, but i realised, he was right. "You feel this way because you choose to! God gave you emotions to control, so DONT BLAME OTHERS. Nobody can change your attitude, not even God, only you.."

those days when i was down, those days when Adam was there to challenge me, to confront my mistakes, really helped me grow into a stronger person. now im not so easily shaken, because i know who God is. ps Tan once said, if you dont know the CHARACTER of God, you will make foolish decisions! nobody can make you feel this or that..im happy because i choose to!

my life changed because i CHOSE to. man will let you down but GOD will never let you down. stop making excuses and start DOING SOMETHING WITH YOUR LIFE! thats what Adam would always tell me, and he's not afraid to tell me right in my face. because he knows i wont be broken so easily..that im someone strong and can handle discipleship.

and i did. i learned. and i change. i also learned that DONT MAKE ASSUMPTIONS. stop thinking! stop feeling! start KNOWING! the immature live by feelings and experience, the mature live by truth and revelation! the mark of true maturity is the ability to be led by the Spirit. sometimes, when bad things happen.

we always tend to blame others. people around you are changing..but your situation remains the same. why? everything has changed, except you. its like taking a quadratic equation and factorising it. and you realise u face the same thing with EVERYONE ELSE! people change, settings change, circumstances change, but if YOU yourself dont change, NOTHING will change!

today's service really made me embrace a while new perspective. no more shallow christianity..and no more shallow christians. we are people of destiny! POD! haha.

oh yes, one more thing i learned all this time, adam will tell me: You HAVE NOT, because you ASK NOT. so dont blame others. dont expect people to read your mind! cus they are not God. UNLESS THEY ARE YOUR GOD!

that totally convicted me. like what i learned during cg message, who is your god?

the most dangerous thing is not crisis, but an EXPECTATION-ASSUMPTION. you assume something, then you expect something/someone to do something. its as good as a life built on an opinion, to live a lie, to build a house on the sand. when the storms come, you get blown away.

today i renewed my 'marriage covenant' with God :) today after service had debrief..then met QY. she looked like she's seen a ghost or something..like she gonna commit murder like that..lol. then send weird smses..more random than me..lol.

went for toilet break. then cg went to bedok for makan. its been awhile since we last went there..lol. watermelon ice! haha. the food made me pregnant X_X. i dunno whats with miss liang 'pontianak' popo and miss 'sexyvoice' aka female bodybuilder! hahaha!!! i think ive been knocked off my 'frozen throne' haha.

if u tink a lame guy is scary..wait till u see a lame girl LOL. especially is the 'unglam' type..haha..i dunno whats with the unglam thing..i think unglam is like the 'in' thing for my cg now la..haha.

lame and unglam! nice combo! :pp

everyone different flow la..lol. then on the train got this weird malay guy..so unglam can! haha. okay, basically the whole journey was 'unglam' LOL. met up with Ting also, accompanied her..haha. Hmm, i shant talk abt boon lay..haha. its a place that 'appeals to the senses' lol. itll sound bad so i shant say it..haha.

serving webcast later..woo..haha. 530am!!! CHIONG!!! lol. i have a feeling ill wake up late..lol. nonono..cannot..i know i CAN wake up! =))