Tired, Frustrated, Stressed.
Not only Im stuck with a $18,000 debt for 12 years, my computer is one step closer to incurring maintenance cost and its not even one year. And if you know me, I dont like messy stuff, Im someone who rather get a new and clean comp than to live with an imperfect one.
Im quite perfectionistic.
Similarly, like my poly, Id rather flunk my assignment and redo from scratch, fresh, than to deal with problems and errors and all that crap. If something's in the way, I just get rid of it. Im not so free as to have the time to attend to this and that.
I looked after my laptop and it survived 6 years. Anyone's laptop survived longer than that? Tell me. I challenge you. This is the 7th year my laptop's running, and its malware free, virus free, trojan free, worm free.
Im committed to my things and Im committed to the people I know. I dont care if they have the same level of commitment as I am, Im doing everything for God. I dont have to please people.
Besides, I dont think anyone's pleased with me before. And I dont bother.
I still have to buy new clothes, and a new acoustic/electric guitar, its my goal for this year. My computer is really a blessing from God, I prayed for it for a year. Saved up for a year for it.
So far it already has problems with the screen and the video cable port. Signal problems, but recently, I stopped having those problems.
And not to mention the other time, some joker placed her PALM on my screen and pressed! Not the finger, the entire friggin palm! You think you're a palm tree farmer or something?
Accidents happen, I dont blame. But stupidity and selfishness is something I dont tolerate. I told her to stop it, not once, not twice, but 3 times, she still poked my screen.
How would you like if I took a knife and stabbed you, not once, not twice, but 3 times? Even if you cry out loud and bug for mercy? I can do it SMILING if you want. At least, Im trying to cheer you up while driving the knife into your belly!
Right now I can forget about getting married. My finances are too tight, EVEN though Im blessed. Why? Because of wrong company. Im gonna start filtering my friends soon. I have no problems cutting of friendships. Im used to having no friends, so losing one or two mean nothing to me.
Has anyone ever felt for me? No. Do I feel close to anyone, hmm, not at the moment.
I hardly even socialise, when I do, people arent there. Aww, too bad, so sad.
I did my best, but even my best isnt enough.
In manhood, so what if you have the intention of providing and protecting. If its not done, its not done, you still failed in your manhood even if you had the good intention. God is a good God, if He didnt send Jesus to die for us, whats the point in that?
Im glad He did and even if He didnt, I would still love Him.
Afterall, the being is more important than the doing.
I might blog again later, Im supposed to rant on something, but it can wait. Yea, some stupid case I came across again. No mood to joke. And I wanted to do more videos, but I guess I wont be at the moment..
Im quite perfectionistic.
Similarly, like my poly, Id rather flunk my assignment and redo from scratch, fresh, than to deal with problems and errors and all that crap. If something's in the way, I just get rid of it. Im not so free as to have the time to attend to this and that.
I looked after my laptop and it survived 6 years. Anyone's laptop survived longer than that? Tell me. I challenge you. This is the 7th year my laptop's running, and its malware free, virus free, trojan free, worm free.
Im committed to my things and Im committed to the people I know. I dont care if they have the same level of commitment as I am, Im doing everything for God. I dont have to please people.
Besides, I dont think anyone's pleased with me before. And I dont bother.
I still have to buy new clothes, and a new acoustic/electric guitar, its my goal for this year. My computer is really a blessing from God, I prayed for it for a year. Saved up for a year for it.
So far it already has problems with the screen and the video cable port. Signal problems, but recently, I stopped having those problems.
And not to mention the other time, some joker placed her PALM on my screen and pressed! Not the finger, the entire friggin palm! You think you're a palm tree farmer or something?
Accidents happen, I dont blame. But stupidity and selfishness is something I dont tolerate. I told her to stop it, not once, not twice, but 3 times, she still poked my screen.
How would you like if I took a knife and stabbed you, not once, not twice, but 3 times? Even if you cry out loud and bug for mercy? I can do it SMILING if you want. At least, Im trying to cheer you up while driving the knife into your belly!
Right now I can forget about getting married. My finances are too tight, EVEN though Im blessed. Why? Because of wrong company. Im gonna start filtering my friends soon. I have no problems cutting of friendships. Im used to having no friends, so losing one or two mean nothing to me.
Has anyone ever felt for me? No. Do I feel close to anyone, hmm, not at the moment.
I hardly even socialise, when I do, people arent there. Aww, too bad, so sad.
I did my best, but even my best isnt enough.
In manhood, so what if you have the intention of providing and protecting. If its not done, its not done, you still failed in your manhood even if you had the good intention. God is a good God, if He didnt send Jesus to die for us, whats the point in that?
Im glad He did and even if He didnt, I would still love Him.
Afterall, the being is more important than the doing.
I might blog again later, Im supposed to rant on something, but it can wait. Yea, some stupid case I came across again. No mood to joke. And I wanted to do more videos, but I guess I wont be at the moment..
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