Stressed, Rants, Beware

okay, it looks as if almost every other post title is or has the word 'stress' in it. yes..im seriously stressed. just now on the bus i saw another girl sitting on the outer seat while people glanced and walked past her..and the bus was filled with standing passengers..

people like this really ruin my day. u can tell me, 'relax la, she didnt offend u wad..' yes, she didnt..but her attitude did. u ask again, then why should i get so worked up over it..well, simple. because i love God and i love people. do you? or are you just simply obsessed with your own life and you dont care about others..or worse still, ure just plain oblivious to your surroundings!

i dont need to be offended to feel offended. i dont need to be angry to feel angry, i dont need to be sad, to feel sad. i just feel for the people around me. Jesus had compassion for everyone. not just the good, not just the bad..but everyone!

sometimes people are so naive and simpleton. either they believe everything that happens, or they assume nothing happened. SIMPLETON! its okay to close one eye once in awhile..but please..use your brain..dont close both eyes! you're just being stupid, foolish and what not..i have nothing to say to such people..

which brings to my attention..people in BGR..i know of people who close both eyes. come on..WAKE UP! dont act as if nothing happened between both of you. live in TRUTH! some of them are even 'christians'! yea..pirated ones that is..you believe the truth, u speak the truth but u dont LIVE the truth!

today's weather is hot like crazy. its driving me nuts. i walk to school i see people having fun chatting, laughing..and here i am..alone..

why do i keep on complaining about being alone? because i AM ALONE for goodness sake! i believe Pranee will understand how it feels to be 'confined' lol. the only days i socialise every WEEK, is on the weekends..sometimes not on sundays even..cus im stuck at home.

every breakfast, im alone..i fellowship with my bread..during lunch, im alone..in a table with at LEAST 4 seats and im e only one..i look around me..

tables of 4: 2 people
tables of 4: 4 people
tables of 8: 10 people

maybe i should pray that one day the chicken that i eat will be raised from the dead and fellowship with me O_O. and the fishballs will roll back into a shape of a fish and start talking to me too. ^.O or maybe the bowls and plates will suddenly have a smiley face...with the tomatoes as the eyes and the cucumbers as the smiley mouth =.=

seriously..i dont think im a social being anymore. i must say ive kinda lost the ability to socialise. yes. if u just realised, awwww its too late! you talk to me sometimes i dont answer or say anything. not because im acting dao..please let me make this clear to that thick skull of yours..

im not acting dao..neither am i egoistic! im just deprived of a social circle! OKAY! are you happy now!?! O_O yea, i think i just spoiled your day just by reading my blog. you're welcome. told u..i dont know how to fellowship anymore..i dont know how to chat or start a conversation anymore.

cg tonight..God help me! i cant take it anymore..:(

yea this post is a rant. as said so in the title. i just need to let it out. and dont make me say this again..i have no one to talk to. so yea..that settles it. im not mad, im not angry.

just because a person goes to the toilet and shit, it doesnt make him a piece of shit right? lol. if not we'll all be shits. ^.O