CG @ Rhonda's

just a small revelation i wanna share..something made me cry today..

just now as i was walking to rhonda's house. i saw this maid carrying lots of stuffs from NTUC. and my instinct told me..help her. but God whispered, "dont." and i was puzzled. then He said, "look at her.."

and i did. she was smiling. i couldnt help..but e presence of God filled me after that. i remembered last week's message on servanthood. "True servants are happy just to be counted worthy to serve"...

i looked at the maid..my eyes started tearing. i was holding back my tears. she's...she's...she's smiling. both her hands were carrying heavy plastic bags...i couldnt help..tears began accumulated in my eyes..

to us, we see maids as people who come to earn a living. but i saw something beyond all that. God began to speak to me.

The greatest in the house is not the owners, but this maid whom you see before you. We look at her and we think..man..those bags are heavy..let me carry for you. but somehow, it was as if...even if i were to ask her..she would say, "no need, its okay :)"

i was so moved. i was so touched. to think that the maid..is the greatest in the house. without the maid, you wouldnt have a clean room to sleep in, without the maid, you wouldnt have ironed clothes to wear, without the maid, you wouldnt have food on your table.

sometimes we overlook things like these. what moved me to tears was..the fact that these maids..they live in broken down conditions. and they are serving people like us who live a higher standard of living..

you think they dont feel demoralised? they do. you think when they see all your family cars and furniture they dont feel sad? they do. you think when they see your parents giving you your weekly allowance they dont feel in lack? they do.

when they see your friends coming to your house, do they feel lonely? im sure they do.

these people live in low standard conditions..and they are serving you, who live in high standard conditions! and they dont complain at all! i just cried out to God...

"God, i want to be your servant..i wanna be like these maids..."

sometimes we complain and grumble just because we serve God 2-3 times a month. we drag our feet to celgrp and service which is only once a week. these maids serve the ENTIRE HOUSEHOLD 24/7, every single day and they dont complain..

i really cried and i told God..

God..im not worthy to receive all the blessings You have given me. ive been a bad servant. look at these maids..they have a great attitude of servanthood thats way surpassed even my own..God they deserve so much more.

and these maids..by laying down their lives..they can still smile. when they are cleaning, they can smile..when they're sitting all alone in your house, they smile. God..im just overwhelmed..i wanna be more like You..i wanna serve You all the days of my life..

i wanna make every second count for You..take all of me in exchange for all of You. God i may not be perfect..but here I am, use me..God, let me decrease and You increase. God I love You..im happy just to be worthy to be called Your servant..

even as i blogged, i began to tear..i prayed to God..God..let there be a Maid Appreciation Day. these maids deserve the highest respect, the greatest honor..and most of them dont even know You..God..i pray that you bless them more than me..let them know that You are God...

celgrp was great. even tho my practice wasnt really a practice..more like warmup :x but God moved and it was great. after cg they prepared potluck. it was very moving for me..when people come up with their own food..whether its prata or donut..i didnt care..

to me, they are the most beautiful people and anything they prepare..is just as beautiful :) took some photos and videos..and we had a fun time. deep down..i started thinking..

God..is this a dream? what have i dont to deserve all these? God..im just a normal guy. there are so many better than me..there are so many more 'exciting' than me..God why me? :'( God i dont know how to thank You...

i just cried and cried in my own room. today's been a memorable day for me..